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00:01:00This is the story of two friends that grew up surfing together in 1950s Montauk, NY.
00:01:28Alan Weisbecker and Patrick Abrams.
00:01:31Our friendship evolved eventually into criminal enterprises and it was all based on surfing.
00:01:39How to not have a job, jobs interfered with what we really wanted to do.
00:01:46They began transporting multi-ton shipments of marijuana from Columbia and Jamaica into
00:01:51the United States by ball sea and air.
00:01:55Back then it was like the wild west, you know, plenty of money to be made, you gotta
00:01:59watch out, it lures you into the web and then you get noticed and then you become a star
00:02:05for the feds.
00:02:06Yeah, we'd have ships and planes, I mean it was not that suitcase stuff and we got to
00:02:13the point where I lost a load of 100,000 pounds.
00:02:19The violence of the emerging cocaine trade and the threat of the DEA forced them to separate.
00:02:26These people are looking at our pictures and maybe we'll be picked up and if we put pressure
00:02:34on us we might even tell on each other, we know we love each other so I should find a
00:02:40place where he didn't know I would go and he'll pick a place and don't ask, don't tell.
00:02:45Alan moved to Hollywood and cashed in on his marijuana running experiences by writing for
00:02:50Miami Vice.
00:02:52Patrick moved to Porviejo, a town along the Caribbean coast of Costa Rica, in search of
00:02:57the fastest and most dangerous wave in Central America, Salsa Brava.
00:03:04After 20 years, Alan sold his home and bought a truck with a camper and went looking for
00:03:09his old friend Patrick in Costa Rica.
00:03:11On this trip, Alan wrote, In Search of Captain Zero, it has become one of the most popular
00:03:16books in the surfing culture.
00:03:21Upon his arrival in Porviejo, Alan was shocked to see what had become of his old friend.
00:03:32It was terrible.
00:03:35He's living in a tent on the beach but the first thing he said to me just about was let's
00:03:40score some crack.
00:03:43But the problem for me was he wasn't surfing.
00:03:46He'd sold his board for crack and that is as low as you can go.
00:03:54He wasn't as interested in me anymore as a friend.
00:04:02You don't berate yourself, you just rearrange your priorities and destroy them.
00:04:10After a lifetime spent on the edge, could Patrick's downward spiral destroy their friendship?
00:04:161948, New York City, Alan Weisbecker is my name.
00:04:41I grew up in the suburbs of Manhattan, had a strange father who was a weightlifter in
00:04:49the early 50s before when you had to buy weights from an oddball company and he took me spear
00:04:58fishing off Long Island, Montauk Point one time and I still remember my first ocean excursion
00:05:09and it changed everything from then on I knew that the ocean would be a big part of my life.
00:05:17My birthday is 1-2-3-4-5, unusual indeed, January 23, 1945.
00:05:26My mother was found on a doorstep in 1918, if you can believe that, in Brooklyn, New
00:05:32York.
00:05:33I was born in Copaig Hospital, Long Island, New York.
00:05:38Well, my arrival on the planet, 1945, January 23, was an accident.
00:05:49My mother's husband with two children, with Bill Abrams, was in Europe for over a year
00:05:59and my father had a wife and two children in Connecticut on his way home from Europe
00:06:04and they had an affair and here I am, thank God for lust, and then love intervened.
00:06:15I don't know how long it was, but I'm sure glad they got it together, you know.
00:06:21They would call me, I'm an original love child and I caused a lot of hardship for Mom, I'll
00:06:26tell you that.
00:06:27I got a lot of explaining to do when Bill Sr. came back, hello, surprise.
00:06:35Actually no, my mother, of course, later on in life did, I never met her until I was,
00:06:39well I met her off and on, but they were trying to put me up for adoption, but I was an unadoptable
00:06:46cantankerous child.
00:06:51So they tried not to get us together too much so we wouldn't bond.
00:06:56Brookwood Hall is an orphanage in East Islip, Long Island, on the border of both townships
00:07:02that I was raised in for a number of years that gave me the foundation of my life, probably
00:07:08the most emotional, wonderful feeling I've ever had and I was a privileged child to live
00:07:13with these people.
00:07:14An average day was like this, first of all they had juniors, intermediates and senior
00:07:19dormitories and this is like a giant Vanderbilt house that looked like the Vanderbilts walked
00:07:26out.
00:07:27I mean huge, beautiful archways, gargoyles carved around the building, 52 acres, Ballfield
00:07:33Lake.
00:07:34My experience in Brookwood Hall I believe was my organization of my whole moral principles
00:07:43and I think the basis of this whole beautiful feeling because we are the receivers when
00:07:50we do that, it comes directly from the people that raised me in Brookwood Hall.
00:08:10And this is where I met Patrick out in Montauk and we became friends, quick friends there.
00:08:18This is 64, 65 and we'd camp out, spend the summers in tents near the surf break.
00:08:28Well the first time I met Alan is hard to remember but I remember him showing up in
00:08:33Montauk every summer when we were young, older teenagers.
00:08:37He was like the most likely to succeed, the class president, we were so opposite.
00:08:49Graduated from high school in 66 in June, in California by August, did my first acid
00:08:58trip with the doors at the Whiskey Go-Go, still legal at the door at the time, never
00:09:02forget it, Jim Morrison was playing at the time.
00:09:05Drafted in September, I was in Vietnam by April, so you know it was pretty quick and
00:09:10then by the following September, I was a hardened military guy.
00:09:18I love it, I can get it.
00:09:21So I volunteered for Airborne Rangers and then I went to Fort Sill, Oklahoma and I did
00:09:27artillery training, I was a radio man, lifespan's not good and then I did jump training in Fort
00:09:37Benning, Georgia and then I did ranger school in Vietnam and OJT, on the job training.
00:09:44I was a radio man, photo observer for artillery, way out there, way up front.
00:09:52We had a company of men, usually understaffed and we were always being harassed and martyred
00:10:03and it didn't happen, if it happened a dozen times where you actually hit any real hard
00:10:10stuff the whole time you're there and some groups are harder than others and so it's
00:10:16hard to compare but I've seen my share.
00:10:21Sleeping on the ground 24-7-365, you know, I mean you're way the fuck out there.
00:10:29Humping, I'm talking about, you wouldn't see people for maybe a month even.
00:10:36One of the scariest things, orientation for the first couple of days before jungle school
00:10:43he goes, most of you boys will be going home in body bags.
00:10:49Thank you very much.
00:10:52And there's one thing I can guarantee you, they're coming.
00:10:57Might be your first day, it might be your last.
00:11:00Doesn't matter if they come, as long as you're ready.
00:11:03Well, I've been ready all these years.
00:11:06I figured I was such a problem anyway, I better do something right and I went.
00:11:12Now I'm glad, of course, I'm glad I went to Vietnam because my half a joke is that
00:11:18it's prepared me for life.
00:11:28The thing I did leave out was I spent two years on the north shore of Oahu,
00:11:33was surfing at, you know, I lived between Pipeline and Waimea in 68 and 69,
00:11:39which were the two most formative years and formidable years in the history of surfing.
00:11:46I don't think anybody would disagree with that.
00:11:53I really felt that I could do anything.
00:11:56I felt surfers could do anything.
00:11:58I felt that the people that did what we did on the north shore in those years,
00:12:03we could rule the world if we wanted.
00:12:05That would never occur to us, but we could just do whatever we wanted
00:12:10and nothing could go wrong.
00:12:12I was wrong, of course.
00:12:15Things always go wrong.
00:12:18So that was very much a part of my forming who I am.
00:12:25And at that same time, Patrick was in Vietnam going through a completely other thing.
00:12:31And I don't know how he got through that with the cheerful attitude he has now.
00:12:48The government made me an adrenaline junkie, and I needed the rush.
00:13:07I needed the excitement.
00:13:08I needed the thrill, if you'd call it thrilling.
00:13:11Of course, I was getting paid a lot better than the military had paid me.
00:13:16And it turned out to be quite an interesting guy.
00:13:18And, of course, the compatibility and all the variables that go along with smuggling
00:13:25fit my qualifications.
00:13:29And then I did a recon with a friend of mine.
00:13:321970 was just after the winter of 69,
00:13:38which was the real formative winter for me,
00:13:42surfing and mental attitude-wise, when I believed I could do anything.
00:13:48So I decided to go to Europe and buy a Volkswagen van
00:13:54and drive around looking for waves.
00:13:56And I quickly ended up in Morocco,
00:13:59where I realized I could buy a kilo of hash for about $40.
00:14:03And that hash could be sold for about $1,000.
00:14:08Actually, it was 1,000 a pound, I think, in the States.
00:14:11I'm trying to remember now.
00:14:12But whichever it was, it was ridiculous.
00:14:15And all you had to do was bring it back.
00:14:17And I had a connection and bought a few kilos of hash
00:14:22and smuggled it back.
00:14:24And I had various ways of doing it without putting myself at risk, actually.
00:14:31I used the U.S. Navy to do it and other ways.
00:14:37You know, I don't know.
00:14:39It was 1971 or 2, and I had like $50,000.
00:14:43A 22-year-old kid by then gets a lot of money in those days.
00:14:48And I wanted to buy a boat.
00:14:53And I knew I could put a lot more in a boat.
00:14:55You know, I could pack that sucker, you know, bring back a ton.
00:15:01And that led to Columbia and Learjets.
00:15:12I mean, the level I was on, I would do business with CIA people.
00:15:17They were mostly Cuban exiles that were in the pot business
00:15:25as to raise money to do something to Castro
00:15:32or to do various other nefarious CIA activities.
00:15:37CIA has been smuggling drugs forever.
00:15:40I mean, that's common knowledge now, but I know from personal experience.
00:15:47Sail out from Fort Lauderdale, bank around the Bahamas,
00:15:51and then we would sneak up behind Haiti and Dominican Republic,
00:15:55come in by night grill, hopefully not get stopped by anybody,
00:15:58where we have to show papers or get a stamp,
00:16:01and then load up and then bank down behind the Caymans.
00:16:05And if it got tricky, we would tuck in behind the islands
00:16:08off the coast of Mexico and between Mexico and the islands
00:16:11and pop up out into the Gulf.
00:16:13And so you were far enough away where if you do get stopped by the patrols,
00:16:19you could say you're out on a day sail,
00:16:21which is a couple of days of sailing around the Gulf.
00:16:24And any probable cause, of course, you could go on a boat,
00:16:27and the only way you could find it was to tear the fucking walls out.
00:16:30Of course, whenever there's money involved, you have predators,
00:16:33so you have to watch out. We weren't involved.
00:16:35We didn't care about the police much, but there were robbers.
00:16:40In Colombia, both happened.
00:16:43I got caught at and arrested for a few minutes
00:16:48until they realized who my connection was,
00:16:50and then the cops were literally kissing my feet.
00:16:53Sorry, sorry kind of thing.
00:16:56And in Morocco, I had a real close call at a roadblock
00:17:00in the middle of the night.
00:17:05Look, it's interesting that they would call me Captain Zero
00:17:10because I was a captain.
00:17:12I never wanted the responsibility,
00:17:14but I could take over at any minute, and there's no doubt about it.
00:17:18Sometimes I didn't have to.
00:17:20I could just say a couple of sharp little things
00:17:22and straighten them out, you know, give them the confidence.
00:17:25Say, no, it's okay.
00:17:27I never had to push him out of the way and grab the fucking wheel.
00:17:30It's okay. I know he's a competent man.
00:17:33But sometimes, I think my experiences in the past,
00:17:36you know, don't panic.
00:17:40You know what I mean?
00:17:42Steady as she goes, the end of the torpedo,
00:17:44just kick me off.
00:17:46The thing about Patrick, which I still love,
00:17:49is no matter what happens, it doesn't seem to bother him.
00:17:53And the downside to that is he's not really thinking
00:17:56about how to get out of a horrendous situation.
00:17:59He's going, this is, dig this.
00:18:01You know, it's like a story we're going to tell later.
00:18:04And I'm going, yeah, if we get out of it.
00:18:07But he was fun that way, and he always was fun.
00:18:11We ended up parting ways
00:18:17when I decided that it was a bad business to be in.
00:18:22It was just when marijuana was on its way out,
00:18:25cocaine was on its way in.
00:18:28Things were getting very, very dangerous.
00:18:31It wasn't fun anymore.
00:18:34I was just getting tired of it.
00:18:37I also got to the point where
00:18:40I would have had to kill some people
00:18:42to stay in the business and be respected.
00:18:45Do you know what I mean?
00:18:47And it was a choice.
00:18:51I found out who I am in a way.
00:18:54It wasn't fear, I just didn't want to do it.
00:18:57I could have paid somebody to kill this guy and rip me off.
00:19:00And I didn't do it. I just left.
00:19:02But I couldn't do both.
00:19:04And let this particular person live, so I just left.
00:19:08That's really a lot to do with it.
00:19:24We were going on an ultimate surf trip,
00:19:26and we had enough money to go around the world.
00:19:29But then instead of that, we decided to make more money.
00:19:32One thing led to another,
00:19:35and we ended up parting ways in the 80s.
00:19:44And of course, Alan went to Hollywood, and that's cool.
00:19:47Thank God.
00:19:49And then after a period of time, we felt we were okay.
00:19:52Of course, you know, I hadn't seen him.
00:19:54He was really hot.
00:19:56He had accumulated material,
00:19:59and so they were conscious.
00:20:01You know, me, who the fuck?
00:20:03They could look at me. I didn't have shit.
00:20:05Now, I had a great fucking time, and I've been all over.
00:20:08And of course, money.
00:20:10I was going first class, and there was no tomorrow
00:20:13after Vietnam. You never know.
00:20:15So I was always like, people say,
00:20:17what did you do with the money?
00:20:19I go, I spent it! No regrets, you know?
00:20:29It was getting to be narco-terrorism,
00:20:50what they would call now.
00:20:53And so I decided to change my occupation,
00:20:57and I became a screenwriter.
00:20:59Why I picked that, I can't explain.
00:21:02I had something in me that wanted to be a writer
00:21:05for a long time, and I decided to get out of the business.
00:21:10I thought, well, why don't I just write that story
00:21:13that I had in my head, and I'll write it as a movie.
00:21:16And that's what I did.
00:21:18I spent a month in limbo in a hotel in New York City,
00:21:22bought a book on screenwriting,
00:21:24how it looked and everything, and wrote it,
00:21:27and went out to the West Coast.
00:21:29And I happened to know one person there,
00:21:32a TV producer, and he told me to come out
00:21:35if I ever wrote a script.
00:21:37And I went out, and he knocked on his door
00:21:40in Bel Air and handed him the script.
00:21:43He read it that day, because it was an actor's strike
00:21:46at the time, and he had nothing to do.
00:21:49Read it by his pool, snorting coke,
00:21:51and bought it from me.
00:21:54He optioned it, I should say, that day.
00:21:57So it was probably the world's record of a jerk
00:22:00showing up in Hollywood and getting a deal.
00:22:03It was within hours.
00:22:05So I thought, man, this isn't so hard.
00:22:08Michael Mann hired me.
00:22:10He had optioned the screenplay I wrote
00:22:12a few years before, and when he started the show,
00:22:15he called me about it.
00:22:17And eventually I agreed to write for the show.
00:22:22Of course, it was the first season.
00:22:24I hadn't heard of it, and it hadn't been on,
00:22:26and the pilot hadn't shown yet.
00:22:29And I didn't think it was a really dumb idea,
00:22:31but he persuaded me to go down to Miami
00:22:34and rewrite this thing that was being shot,
00:22:37and it was an emergency.
00:22:38The script's no good, and we need blah, blah, blah.
00:22:40So I went down, and it was a script
00:22:42about marijuana smugglers, which was my business.
00:22:45So yeah, I made it more authentic.
00:22:49I can't tell you specifically
00:22:51that it was based on my experiences,
00:22:55but I became a Hollywood asshole for a few years.
00:23:00You know, I don't look back on those Porsche days
00:23:05very fondly, you know.
00:23:07I spent more time in my Porsche
00:23:09than I'm sitting on a surfboard.
00:23:11It's funny how, you know,
00:23:14my past nefarious dealings
00:23:18led me into some success
00:23:22in the film business or TV business.
00:23:44I quit my job. I stopped doing that.
00:23:47I sold my house,
00:23:49bought a truck with a camper on it.
00:23:53And in the meantime, Patrick had disappeared.
00:23:57He up and went south,
00:24:00and that's sort of, to make a long story short,
00:24:03all we knew.
00:24:04We knew he was down somewhere in Central America
00:24:08or Mexico, but probably Central America.
00:24:11And so I decided to go and find him and say hi.
00:24:15And I spent a year traveling
00:24:19between Mexico and Costa Rica.
00:24:23And the irony is,
00:24:26I couldn't go any further south
00:24:28is where I found him.
00:24:30It was at the end of the road,
00:24:32the bottom of Central America,
00:24:33in Puerto Viejo, Salsa Brava.
00:24:38I came from Puerto Viejo
00:24:40and a friend of mine recommended this area,
00:24:42and I had heard a saying about the Salsa Brava.
00:24:45And I came for 90 days,
00:24:47and I've never set foot on American soil,
00:24:49end of story.
00:24:52Where's your name and where are you?
00:24:54Manuel Leon Salazar.
00:24:56From 50 to 60, 53,
00:24:58the oil company from Caracas,
00:25:01from United States,
00:25:02the name Loveland Brothers Company,
00:25:05come to Costa Rica and find oil.
00:25:10In 88, we have power in Puerto Viejo.
00:25:14That is the best news.
00:25:16Well, everybody have light,
00:25:17because first time we used to have generator.
00:25:19That's how we have a plant, generator.
00:25:21Everybody have that from 4 o'clock
00:25:24till 8 o'clock in the night.
00:25:25No more than that.
00:25:26Everything finish in the night.
00:25:28And from 1990 to 2000,
00:25:33from 1992, we have phone.
00:25:36Everybody have phone.
00:25:39Holly Edmiston, July 24, 1952.
00:25:44Since I've come here,
00:25:45all of Costa Rica has changed,
00:25:47which is since 1978,
00:25:50I guess I first came down to Costa Rica.
00:25:53It's changed a lot.
00:25:54I've known him for many years,
00:25:56I guess since the 70s.
00:25:58Montauk, New York,
00:25:59which is at the end of Long Island,
00:26:01and it's a surfing town, I guess,
00:26:05fishing town.
00:26:06And I met Patrick there a long time ago,
00:26:09and knew him for many years after that,
00:26:13ever since.
00:26:14And in Florida, where he lived for quite a while,
00:26:17and then he showed up in Costa Rica one day.
00:26:23You know, it was something about the people here.
00:26:26Can you imagine us going to another culture,
00:26:29a little culture, a village like this,
00:26:31and being accepted,
00:26:35inquisitive to let us stay,
00:26:37encouraging,
00:26:40it's okay to have children,
00:26:43and marry this other galaxy person.
00:26:48And then, of course,
00:26:49my behavior hasn't been exemplary over the years,
00:26:53and forgiveness of that.
00:27:02Dangerous?
00:27:03Well, I equate it to a pitching machine, you know,
00:27:06where you,
00:27:07you see that thing coming out of there?
00:27:09Fwah!
00:27:10It fucking flies, buddy.
00:27:12Yeah, and once you're a master,
00:27:13which you never really do,
00:27:14but once you kind of get the fear of God,
00:27:17and you're taken off on a mission,
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00:39:48And,
00:39:49I think a lot of people really like Patrick,
00:39:50lot of people don't.
00:39:51lot of people don't.
00:39:52Because what he's,
00:39:53he's leaving going in town
00:39:54and buying drugs for the foreigners,
00:39:55so he say oh 50 dollars
00:39:56and he spent 20
00:39:57and he win 30
00:39:58so he always got
00:39:59some money coming from that,
00:40:00you know,
00:40:02it's a lot of people looking
00:40:03for drugs in town,
00:40:04I use the books so people go, wow, yeah, far out, and this and that.
00:40:10So actually he used that as a bait, you know, to get money from you or anything.
00:40:18So actually I don't dislike the old man, you know, that's his way of living, but he's not
00:40:27a person to trust.
00:40:31Bill Mauldin and 11-1952, the very first time, I guess you'd call it street hustling.
00:40:40And he came up and offered the contraband, I suppose, and I gave him some money, and
00:40:51we came back six months later and actually got the contraband.
00:40:55So I didn't see him again in that visit, so, you know, but it was not, we did get what
00:41:04we asked for, so I guess everything's cool.
00:41:09Actually we ran into him on the beach, you know, just, he was actually seeing if we needed
00:41:18anything of any contraband, actually, and that's how we met him, you know.
00:41:28But he was a real friendly guy, so, you know.
00:41:32Well, he's made some other people mad, I know that, he personally, we hadn't had too many
00:41:40bad experiences with him.
00:41:42You know, he normally corrects whatever mistakes he makes with us.
00:41:47Now whether or not he corrects those with the other people, I don't know, but he normally
00:41:52takes care of, it might not be in the time or the fashion that you wanted it in, but
00:41:58if you live long enough, he'll finally get even with you.
00:42:03Yeah, crack cocaine is a formidable adversary, and I recommend it for the young, particularly,
00:42:10because the emotional, physical, spiritual, and mental states are shifting and variable,
00:42:18and of course it has the ability to make you think you want more, and therefore you lose
00:42:30sleep, and then you become a bit disoriented, and sometimes you can go for days.
00:42:36Not that you're not enjoying it, but it can be confusing and over-consumption more than
00:42:40any other drug.
00:42:41I was into crack cocaine every day for years, and don't try that at home either.
00:42:48I'm a veteran, I'm an experienced guy, so I can get away with shit like that.
00:42:52I think to pass on is the rock bottom, where there's life, there's hope, and no, I've never
00:43:00felt that I was in any danger, yeah, I was probably 50 pounds underweight.
00:43:07Smoking coke, let me think about that.
00:43:09I may have smoked my first coke, probably, I would suspect when I got here, I mean, it
00:43:21might have been one or two times, they didn't call it, they called it freebase, but I believe
00:43:27it's the same stuff, but I mean, never really where I felt I was overindulging and enjoying
00:43:34it.
00:43:35I would never think that you were overindulging and enjoying it.
00:43:37Of course, I look back on it now and I say, what the hell was that all about?
00:43:41What, were you crazy?
00:43:43Yeah, I probably was.
00:43:45And I'm sure he had his moments during that period of time, but luckily he got out of
00:43:53that and he had the strength to get out of that on his own, which I think is pretty commendable.
00:44:01To be honest with you, there were times when I thought that maybe I should cut back on
00:44:09it, but I didn't know how I was going to do it.
00:44:12Something happened, subliminally, I think, but it kind of like just faded, you know?
00:44:17I mean, it's like going through a storm, you know, all of a sudden you saw some size in
00:44:22it.
00:44:23I don't think that I didn't have some periods where I'd go, you know, leave this thing.
00:44:32But I knew I would, and I didn't know where, and I was very surprised at how I kind of
00:44:39slid out of it and I just one day never even cared.
00:44:54I always admired Alan, you know, leading an interesting life.
00:45:00First of all, his intellect and, of course, his ability to see intellect in me, which,
00:45:06you know, we were from different worlds, kind of like more structured education in mind.
00:45:12But I always felt flattered that Alan would interact with me and he would find our philosophical
00:45:21discussions fruitful, because I sure did his, you know.
00:45:26He was a part of everything, I'm very sure.
00:45:29Yeah, sure.
00:45:31Yeah.
00:45:32Yeah, I hope I do.
00:45:34I'm not going to go back to Costa Rica, I don't think, and he's apparently not going
00:45:40anywhere, so it seems unlikely, but we'll see.
00:45:45Yeah, I'd love to see him.
00:45:51I'm going to see him.
00:46:06My name is Ama MacDonald, and I was born in 1972.
00:46:09I'm the guy making this film.
00:46:11I had originally planned to end the film there, but after watching that ending, realized I
00:46:16would have to reunite these guys.
00:46:18The last two times they had met up, they only argued, and worse yet, they had not surfed
00:46:22together in almost 30 years.
00:46:25Alan had left Costa Rica three years ago under a life-threatening circumstance and could
00:46:29not go back.
00:46:30He was currently living in Mexico.
00:46:32Patrick would have to make the trip to visit his old friend, despite not having been on
00:46:36a plane in 20 years.
00:46:38It would be a huge challenge to get Patrick to make the trip.
00:46:41I was excited and nervous to see what would happen if I could get them to reunite.
00:46:46Give me a couple of minutes just to do what I'm going to do.
00:46:49Okay.
00:46:50In fact, walk away.
00:47:03First time in 20 years I've flown in an airplane, and this guy that sent me the ticket never
00:47:08told me I'd have to be on three airlines, three different planes.
00:47:11I feel like I'm in another galaxy, you know, a long time.
00:47:16Well, I got a call from Alma, who said, drop what I'm doing, and I'm on my way to my first
00:47:22house in 20 years.
00:47:24I've been camping for seven years.
00:47:29I have electricity, and I have running water, and I have an outside toilet, but it's a real
00:47:36toilet.
00:47:37I have outside cooking, but it's a nice shelter, which I like anyway, because I like to be
00:47:40out.
00:47:41I am an animal.
00:47:43I am not a man.
00:47:45I happened to pass by a place where I get messages, and I have a plane ticket waiting
00:47:51the next morning, which means I have to get up at 4 o'clock in the morning, and it's already
00:47:5611 o'clock in the afternoon, and I have to catch a bus for a four-hour bus ride.
00:48:02I was up partying the night before, celebrating my new house.
00:48:08Anyway, somehow, the powers got me here, you know.
00:48:12I walked up there, and I was freaked out.
00:48:14I mean, here you are.
00:48:15Here he is.
00:48:16Then I found out you both just walked into the freaking building a few minutes before
00:48:19me like it was meant to be.
00:48:21And Alan looks pretty damn good, you know.
00:48:27This is the old Alan I know right here.
00:48:29Look.
00:48:30Yeah, we couldn't look at each other and not get a good fucking laugh.
00:48:35Yeah.
00:48:36I was in Mexico.
00:48:40Even now, you know, we're just settling it down, you know.
00:48:44Except I haven't seen him in seven years either.
00:48:48My last, the last time I saw him, I guess it was 2004.
00:48:56It's in my book.
00:48:57It's funny that I don't remember the year.
00:48:59Or 2005.
00:49:07Came here, and as soon as I saw the point and the setup, in terms of little cabinas
00:49:14and restaurants on the sand, and nothing over two stories high, no elevators, no traffic
00:49:21lights within many miles, I decided I liked it.
00:49:26So I came back last year, drove here from New York with my camper, and spent five months
00:49:35most of it, I'd rented a place, and then decided that I wanted to be here semi-permanently.
00:49:44So when this year, for financial reasons and because of the way I like to live, I had planned
00:49:52on camping and making a really slick campsite that's really comfortable.
00:49:57It's very consistent.
00:49:58Last year, in six months, there was not one day that was unsurfable.
00:50:04And most days, it was chest high or bigger.
00:50:07I mean, I'm talking 90% of the time last year.
00:50:09This year has been a little less spectacular, but still, like today, you know, these are good waves.
00:50:16And it tickles me to see him living in a tent.
00:50:19The power of influence.
00:50:22And you know something?
00:50:23He's a happier man for it.
00:50:24I really feel this way.
00:50:26You know, it's like we're an old couple, you know, that's arguing.
00:50:31And you da-da-da-da-da-da-da-da, and after all these years, you know, it's immediately back to the same,
00:50:38you know, the same way it was when you, you know, when you were buddies.
00:50:42And so I'm yelling at him, and he cops an attitude and walks away.
00:50:47For the things like what he just did, smoking a joint.
00:50:51Right in public, where I live, with kids having, and their families eating in a restaurant,
00:50:59right there, feet away, and he lights up a joint, smoke everywhere, and he thinks that's okay.
00:51:07Is he smoking a joint?
00:51:08Yeah.
00:51:09Oh, man.
00:51:10He's always smoking a joint.
00:51:11Yeah, well, it's not cool.
00:51:12Oh, it's not cool?
00:51:13No, fuck no.
00:51:14All right.
00:51:16But it's strange with Patrick when you, you know, it's like I haven't seen him for two years or four years or whatever,
00:51:24and it's like, you know, the odd couple from hell kind of thing, the two of us.
00:51:30You know, that's about all I can say about poor Patrick.
00:51:39Anyway, we'll probably see him again later today, don't you think?
00:51:42Oh, no, of course I was happy to see him.
00:51:45Our last few meetings have been like separated husbands and wives, you know, kind of like suing for the estate.
00:52:00Well, I was bothered because I thought I should get a piece of the pot.
00:52:04Yeah, but, you know, look, I don't want a hair set up.
00:52:07If it's coming, it's coming.
00:52:08If it's not, it's not.
00:52:09It's irrelevant at this time.
00:52:11And, you know, look, I always had a policy where I would never let money interfere with my friendships.
00:52:20And the one thing about it is I've been right on the money all that time.
00:52:23Now, of course, when I don't have any money and I think, God damn it.
00:52:28No, but that's not the point here, you know.
00:52:30He has his persona now.
00:52:32I mean, as he said to you, he's Captain Zero.
00:52:35It makes him money and it makes him feel good.
00:52:38How he could be angry at me and at the same time use the book, you know, for part of who he is and to make money on is.
00:52:49I mean, you can't do that.
00:52:51You can't be angry at the person and plus then take advantage of what that person did that you're angry about.
00:52:56It doesn't work that way.
00:52:58My smoking a crack, you know, and my preoccupation and Alan's trying to communicate with me.
00:53:03It was hard to really get through.
00:53:05Hello, Patrick. Is anybody home?
00:53:09Yeah.
00:53:11If you're friends with someone, you know, and you've been through a lot together, you try to put it aside, you know.
00:53:21Things have changed so much since the old days when we were flush and big shots in the underground empire and running around in jets.
00:53:31I'm always excited to see Alan. I'm sure that's why he comes because he's excited to see me, too.
00:53:36But, you know, it's been a long time since we've been maybe on this even plane.
00:53:42Look at me. I mean, I was my own worst enemy back in 2005 and 96.
00:53:48So there you go. There you have it.
00:53:51But anyway, look, Alan, I just wanted to see him and let it happen, whatever's going to happen.
00:53:58And, you know, things, I feel the energy. See, I'm on a real, real, just like a long time ago.
00:54:05My intuition, my instincts and, of course, my faith. That's why I'm here.
00:54:10We'd have fun. He'd come up with some bizarre theory, you know, that is not actually logical or whatever.
00:54:17And I'd pick it apart and make fun of him and he'd make fun of me and we'd get a laugh out of it.
00:54:23Anyway, I love you, Alan. Don't you ever fucking forget it, pal. You know what I mean?
00:54:28And he's a funny guy, you know, and I'm usually a funny guy. You know, I can be, put it that way.
00:54:34So, you know, we have had horrendous laughs together.
00:54:39And when you've been through a lot with someone, you know, you can communicate without explaining everything.
00:54:49You know, you just know what's going on.
00:54:52And that's unusual.
00:54:59That's great.
00:55:00Did I answer the question or did I go off?
00:55:22I don't know.
00:55:53Glimpses of the future
00:56:01Follow past familiar
00:56:06Success becoming failure
00:56:11Meaning everything you say
00:56:16Living like today's the day
00:56:20The hopelessness will fade away
00:56:25You're on your own
00:56:30Death from a broken promise
00:56:35Held you back
00:56:39Taken under your own control
00:56:44Finding out what you don't know
00:56:49Leaving what took its toll
00:56:54Meaning everything you say
00:56:59Living like today's the day
00:57:03The hopelessness will fade away
00:57:08You're on your own
00:57:13Death from a broken promise
00:57:18Held you back
00:57:22Held you back
00:57:24I can't take this anymore
00:57:28I can't die on the floor
00:57:32I can't take this anymore
00:57:37I can't die on the floor
00:57:43I can't take this any longer
00:57:48I will die or become stronger
00:57:52I can't take this any longer
00:57:57I will die or become stronger
00:58:02I can't take this any longer
00:58:07I will die or become stronger
00:58:12I Will Die or Become Stronger
00:58:33He had a relationship with a kid named Kiko here.
00:58:39He always used to look after basically.
00:58:42I think he had a difficult home life
00:58:45and Patrick was always very conscientious about seeing after him
00:58:49and talked to him a lot.
00:58:51He's 21 now and I heard he's expecting twins.
00:58:55He's quite young for that I guess.
00:58:58But he still looks at Patrick for advice
00:59:02and he's a good kid.
00:59:04And I think Patrick helped in that.
00:59:07I met Werner.
00:59:09He was Kiko when I met him
00:59:11but as he grew older he became more sophisticated.
00:59:13Don't call me Kiko Werner.
00:59:16And so Werner was hustling his pig home that he was sent back
00:59:21because none of the other children wanted to do it.
00:59:25So Kiko was four years old and he had this big twitch
00:59:28and he had this 800 pound hog.
00:59:31The visual of this was outstanding.
00:59:34And this hog knew Kiko all his life.
00:59:38And he was a buddy of his basically.
00:59:41I noticed that Kiko was snorting and grunting
00:59:45like they were talking to each other.
00:59:47It was too much.
00:59:49Then he was grabbing the ear like this
00:59:51and I knew right away what he wanted to do.
00:59:53He wanted to go and jump on that hog's neck.
00:59:55This was a first for him and the hog.
00:59:58I'm born in the 87th and my name is Werner.
01:00:02I was four years old.
01:00:04Going for five years.
01:00:06And I met him while I was riding my piggy
01:00:10from school back home.
01:00:12My piggy went to look for me at school.
01:00:15I used to have a piggy.
01:00:17She knew what time I was coming from school.
01:00:20That was like a dog.
01:00:22A really nice pet.
01:00:24I ride down by the pig.
01:00:26She used to ride me home.
01:00:28Go like a bike.
01:00:30She used to go around with me.
01:00:32Nice.
01:00:33He helped me out a lot.
01:00:35He's like, wow, amazing.
01:00:37Always I talk about Patrick.
01:00:40He came up to be part of my family.
01:00:45Like a second dad.
01:00:48I liked him a lot.
01:00:49He bought me a bike.
01:00:51We used to go around town riding bike.
01:00:54That was my first bike I ever got
01:00:57as a present for my birthday.
01:00:59He used to teach me a little bit about the map.
01:01:01He had a huge map.
01:01:03He used to teach me a little bit of that, this.
01:01:06You know, a little reading in English.
01:01:09Stuff like that.
01:01:11Helped me out a little bit with my homework.
01:01:13English homework.