Doza shtastie 2019
The real story of the journalist Vesela Toteva (in the role is her daughter -Valentina Karoleva) searching for her own happiness during the dynamic and uncertain 90's in Bulgaria. A tale about drugs, fall, fear and redemption.
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an unbelievable amount of victims.
Happiness is like the devilit has many faces.
00:03:14I AM THE WAY,
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the secret of happiness.
Knowing that God shall not leave youand He shall not forget you.
00:03:34Bullshit!
00:03:55- Vessy!
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- Cut the crap
Choose.Us or the Church?
00:04:20Valya, tone it down a bit.
00:04:22These last years
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- Vessy!
Who will hire somebody like me?
I'm 20 years old with a 3-year-oldno secondary education.
00:04:40Didn't know he'll turn out to be
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- Is he far?
Don't worryEverything will be all right.
00:05:34- Six more.
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- Let's!
Fory!
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- Well done- Yeah! One, two, three!
00:07:42Get up.
00:07:50- Are you proposing to me?
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is for the ladder
Look outside.
- You're kidding! For me?- Who else?
00:08:14Wait a bit.
00:08:17- It comes with conditions.
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for the high school diploma!
Well done!
Mom...
- Mom!- Valya, please, be a bit quieter.
00:08:58Mom!
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KINDERGARTEN
- Daddy!- Valya! Come here!
00:10:06Hello!
00:10:09Come, Valya.
00:10:13You can't keep her away from me.
00:10:15I can. You made a choice
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to your nutjobs in the sect again
I'm going to have your rightsof custody taken away!
00:10:39Come, Valya.
00:10:45Go play with the others.
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if you see this man here?
Yes. He's my dad.
Her former dad.
- Where's Krassy?- Out back.
00:11:54Nice to meet you, I'm Joro.
00:12:06- What's that? It sucks!
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- Enough with that
Why are you so tense?Sit with us, have a smoke.
00:12:38- Your turn, Fory.
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- Come- Goodbye, mom!
00:13:50The others are already here.
00:13:56- Choose already.
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that we make choices.
Truth isat all. Roll one, will you?
00:14:31Say no more.
00:14:35Rousseau and Sartre...
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- And what did you find out?
I found out this.
While we existwe may very well cease to exist.
00:15:17In the East, people live their lives
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have is our own life.
What that means is
there's nothing more importantthan how we live our lives.
00:15:54Take this, for example.
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- It's probably the awful flu.
Mom
Ivan
- Take Valya to the kindergarten.- All right. Come, sweetie.
00:16:36Dammit!
00:16:42It hurts, dammit!
00:17:53Dude, I feel like death.
00:18:00I have the perfect medicine.
00:18:03Don't know
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- I know.
We can understand each-other's pain ifwe share the same reality.
00:18:29This will make you feel better.
00:19:19What the hell was that?
00:19:25This is heroin, sweetie.
00:19:28From now on,
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will fill your pockets.
- You've become a bit expensive to run.- What? I'm going to the grocery.
00:20:22What's got into you?
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but the fridge is still empty.
- Give me a hug.- Wait until I come back.
00:20:39- Go later.
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not about me.
Come on. Don't worryThis is for you.
00:22:24Vessy?
00:22:26Vessy!
00:22:31Vessy?
00:22:33Sis, what's up?
00:22:35- Didn't forget to pick her up, did I?
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from the kindergarten.
- They ended up calling me.- Want some chocolate?
00:22:53- Is that your medicine?
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- What the hell are you talking about?
- What's happening?- Nothing.
00:23:09Let's bring down her fever.
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to treat her with vinegar.
- That's outdated nonsense.- I'll make her some tea.
00:23:35Vessy, the electricity's out again!
00:24:31What's that crap you're smoking?
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Those wretched stairs!
They cut the power againWhy always us?
00:25:26I want you to be mine,
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- Sis
- You're a what?- A junky.
00:27:08Hold on, I'll take your temperature.
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a day for a year.
A thermometer will do me no good.
Give me the flour.
- What?- I said, give me the flour!
00:27:50Can't bake this without it!
00:27:52Listen. It hurts like hell if I don't
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Ivan
Bistra? Come with me to the doctor'splease. Can't go on my own.
00:28:20I'm prescribing her Morphine pills.
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she's going to take Tetragol.
And one paracetamol pillfour times a day, for the pain.
00:28:44And the vitamins. In a few days
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mark my words.
The only thing that will help youis strong will.
00:29:09The Morphine pills
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- Don't you worry. She's a junky.
Vessy?
Come on. Pull yourselves togetherand get out.
00:29:35- But...
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- Yes.
Well done!
Is mom sick?
- What?- Is mom sick?
00:30:07Yes, sweetie, she is.
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- Good night!
... because some songs you can sing inyour mind and few people know this.
00:30:55All I want to do is to go somewhere
00:31:02where no one has been before.
00:31:09I know not where is this somewhere
00:31:17where no one has been before.
00:31:44Beetle Bug, what happened here?
00:31:50- I thought you were at...
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- I take them.
- Why?- I'm not well.
00:32:22- The flu?
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- What nerves?
I'm treating my nerves.I have an anxiety.
00:32:55You little minx! What are you
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has everything she's wanted?
Don't stare at me! Tell me!
Are you sure?
Heavens' doors have openedfor the darkness.
00:34:33Silently it pours down
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from earthly pores filled with gloom.
The poplars lose the sun's soft touch
their silhouettes are darkand scattered as a graveyard.
00:35:16Give me a cigarette.
00:35:32Fields and plains lay bare,
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Vessy? Did you hear me?
- Yeah.- What did I tell you?
00:38:24I didn't.
00:38:26They're looking for waitresses
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Don't worry
Don't say that.I like you two being here.
00:38:43Don't tell me our parents
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About my break-up with Ivan?
What should I tell them? That I gotbored of him? That he got on my nerves?
00:38:58- Should we talk about that?
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So the doctor's treatment is yieldingresults.
00:39:19Yeah, it's superb.
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Vessela?
- Did you score some big tips?- Yeah, I did.
00:41:47- How are you?
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Bye.
See you tomorrow.
- What?- Who was that guy?
00:42:26He's my boss.
00:42:29- I see.
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- What?
These guys.
- Have you shot up before?- I have.
00:44:18- How much do you want?
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- Shut your trap
Always wailing for his mom.
Quickly! Can't standso many people here.
00:44:42- Can't I do it here?
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What the hell's going on?
- Missy?- Hey!
00:45:39- Leave her. Leave that filthy junky.
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- Don't care!
- She has a child!- Don't care!
00:45:53Teddy Bear, give me her purse.
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- What will we do when you go stiff?
Why shoot up if you're not up to it?
- Piece of shit!- Wake up.
00:46:26- Wake up!
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- That's not your whorehouse!
What are you doing here?What's going on, sis?
00:46:59You've been gone for three days.
00:47:02Haven't gone to work,
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- Why lie to you?
Don't look at me
Vessy
Please! Please
I found your syringes.Your sheets are smeared with blood.
00:47:57Can't understand
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- I don't need any help!
- I'm fine.- All right, go, kill yourself then.
00:48:22Go away and kill yourself
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- It's two years now.
- Who knows?- Only we do.
00:50:24Everyone knows.
00:50:29What are we going to do?
00:50:32- What will people say?
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is all right when I go home.
- Valya?- You really don't know, do you?
00:50:49- What don't I know?
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to get better before.
Bistra!
Don't worry. We'll send you to a clinicand not to some...
00:51:22Oh, honey...
00:51:32My dear Lord!
00:51:45Vessela. Come back inside.
00:54:09Vessy?
00:54:15Mother?
00:54:21My Lord!
00:54:27I'm clean.
00:54:47- Your illness cost me dearly.
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but I'm fine with it.
Does that mean that...
It means if your kidneys go bad againyou're out.
00:55:16- For good.
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- Yeah.
- What took you so long?- Had to wait a while for him.
00:55:56Where's the car?
00:55:59- Valya, we're going.
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- Yes
Mom has to take her medication.
Otherwise it'll hurt me a lot.You understand, right?
00:56:55- You've got to help me.
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- Yes
Thank you
Vesselaworking for me?
00:58:52- For two years. Why do you ask?
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and whom should I be wary of?
The wise man saidFear those who conceal themselves.
00:59:18Those who bow before you.
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last night?
Nothing. What do you mean?
I'll ask you one more time.
Vesselaat Sevastopol last night?
01:00:06- Are you on drugs, doll?
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- Vessela.
- Please- Vessela.
01:01:23Get lost.
01:02:14Attended another funeral,
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- Get away from here.
- What's got into you?- Can't stand the sight of you.
01:02:36- Your father should take care of you.
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- Right.
- People's opinions are all that matter.- Egotist!
01:02:52You cost me my two daughters.
01:02:54- What do you mean?
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I beg you!
Vessy...
Are you all right?
If there ever was anyone who couldget away from this shit, it was him.
01:04:27But even he couldn't.
01:04:33What does that say for the rest of us?
01:04:44MILEN KIROV
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- And now you don't
My girland go to the university?
01:06:00Quit what, dad?
01:06:03Vessy, please don't.
01:06:11Don't what?
01:06:19Give Valya to Tony until...
01:06:24If you take Valya away from me,
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house
Don't lie to me.
Yes
I take from yours.
Please
I beg youDon't want to drag you down as well.
01:07:56Leave this stuff to me
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proper care of their possessions.
After art classes their workplacesare a proper mess.
01:11:30I was embarrassed by them
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- Mom!
- Mom- Valya, what's going on?
01:11:50Mom!
01:11:59I work nights.
01:12:10Dammit!
01:12:17Mom!
01:12:20- Mom!
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- It's not here!
Mom
- Valya- All right.
01:12:54That son of a bitch!
01:12:57Filthy junky.
01:13:00Here it is.
01:13:03Thank you.
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- Okay.
DAVILA PAINKILLER
- Valya- She's resting.
01:14:23Let's go.
01:14:26Mom!
01:14:29Mom, are you all right?
01:14:31You promised me.
01:14:36Get away from here.
01:14:55Junky!
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Steal from me?
- Vessy...- Where's my key?
01:15:10- You cannot live without me.
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you hear?
Vessy?
Vessy...
How can you go onputting up with me, Tony?
01:16:18If a man owns a hundred sheep,
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about the 99 that didn't wander off.
I'll never stop
I'm sorry.
God won't leave you.
Even if you wander off your wayHe'll look for you.
01:17:32Girly,
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- Come on.
Vessy! So you came.Knew it.
01:17:55- What'd you bring me?
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from your kid?
Don't have any.
That won't do.You're going to bring clothes.
01:18:12Shoes, clothes, what have you.
01:18:15- Don't have any.
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- We can
Well doneYou'll come back again.
01:19:11Valya, what are you doing?
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- Vessela.
Vessela.
- Have you tried a treatment before?- Yes.
01:20:18- Tried everything.
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I'm afraid to stay outside.
- We're going. I'm done here.- Will mom be all right?
01:21:18- What's your name, sweetie?
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Don't want you contracting anything.
We start next week.
You're ready
- I am.- Thank you.
01:22:38Sit here.
01:22:41- Which number?
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Tomorrow
- Here you go.- Thank you.
01:23:27- Valya, how's school?
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- Bye!
I miss you.
I'm going.
Stay with me a bit longer.
One last time. I promise.
You won't see me ever again.
Seven years of my life
I can't understandhow that happened.
01:27:19I feel like I've been branded.
01:27:22Just don't know
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and make a sacrifice.
God sacrificed his Son's lifeto deliver us from our sins.
01:27:45He gave us life eternal
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Try to understand her.
- Mom?- Velly.
01:29:17Our girl's learning to become
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Is that the way out?
I'm sorry
I'm so
- Lyulin.- Where?
01:31:30We'll need visas to go there.
01:31:32What is a doll like you
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- That sounds like complete hogwash.
Don't waste your timewith stupid cable TV.
01:31:48I'm driving you
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and shy away.
I want you to be confidentto say 'This is the news'
01:32:00if you want to be a news anchor.
01:32:03- Okay, let's go.
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I'll have a word with them.
Stop!
I love you.
Shall we go?
Go!
The devil has many faces.
His most alluring oneis the face of heroin.
01:35:35For me,
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I can say I'm completely clean.
I'm a new person with hope and faith.
God has always been with mewatching me.
01:36:10He's been watching me
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