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00:00:56Mommy!
00:01:00Mommy!
00:01:02Calm down, please fall asleep immediately!
00:01:09I want to go to mommy!
00:01:12I want to go to mommy!
00:01:14I want to go to mommy!
00:01:18Mom!
00:01:20Honey, go to sleep, please.
00:01:23You'll sleep well tomorrow.
00:01:24Mom will come to you tomorrow.
00:01:25Everything will be fine.
00:01:26We'll have a new day.
00:01:27Mom!
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00:01:50Doctor, this baby is very sick.
00:01:57Can you give him something?
00:02:00It's been almost three hours.
00:02:09I really can't deal with him.
00:02:20I'm sorry.
00:02:40Thank you. You don't have to go with me.
00:02:43But, doctor, maybe we should...
00:02:45I said thank you. I can handle it.
00:02:48Mom!
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00:03:17It was a sunny day
00:03:24Smiling, bright, golden
00:03:31It was going over the valley, over the meadow
00:03:39It met an orphan in the alleys
00:03:48You shine so brightly, my sun
00:03:57You shine so brightly, my sun
00:04:06You smile at me
00:04:12Where am I, sad, standing in tears
00:04:43Mom!
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00:05:42Thousands of people live and die
00:05:44not caring for their eyes to open
00:05:47and for them to see a sweet peace
00:05:49and wonderful images in nature.
00:05:52Thank you. It's very interesting, but that's enough for today.
00:06:00Does it hurt?
00:06:05No.
00:06:07It doesn't hurt today at all.
00:06:09Go now.
00:06:11I want to pray in peace.
00:06:29I'll just bring some water and then I'll turn off the light.
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00:12:31But daddy didn't agree.
00:12:36He wanted me to be named Maria.
00:12:43As the most holy lady,
00:12:46you should be happy, not worried.
00:12:53You think so?
00:12:55I'm sure of it.
00:13:00I'm sure of it.
00:13:16Very soon.
00:13:30It's so wide.
00:13:33It's so tall.
00:13:37I'm a ghost
00:13:39coming through your wall.
00:13:44You will always be mine.
00:13:51You will always love me.
00:13:57You will always be mine.
00:14:04You will never be free.
00:14:11Little birds between my ears
00:14:14take away your brain.
00:14:18Drop it through my empty eyes.
00:14:21Please come back again.
00:14:25You will always be me.
00:14:32You won't go away.
00:14:39I will always love.
00:14:46You will never be free.
00:14:55I will always be old.
00:14:59As the sun warms me up,
00:15:02your body grows cold.
00:15:06You will always be mine.
00:15:13You will always love me.
00:15:20I will always be here.
00:15:27You will never be lonely.
00:15:40Jakub.
00:15:42Jakub.
00:15:48I asked you so many times
00:15:50to warn me when something happens to you.
00:15:53I don't know if you know,
00:15:55but we have a phone number at home.
00:15:5748-85-36.
00:16:00One minute was enough.
00:16:03What am I saying? One minute.
00:16:0510 seconds.
00:16:06Stop it, please.
00:16:13Sometimes I think it's good
00:16:15that a mother doesn't have to watch
00:16:17what happens to you.
00:16:42Think about it.
00:17:00Are you coming down this weekend?
00:17:04Are you coming down this weekend?
00:17:08Are you coming down this weekend?
00:17:12Are you coming down at all?
00:17:33Is this you?
00:17:35Open up!
00:17:40Open up right now!
00:17:43And turn off this damn music!
00:17:48I'm waiting for you to come down and turn it off.
00:17:52Do you hear me?
00:17:53Turn it off!
00:18:04I'm waiting for you to come down and turn it off.
00:18:19Jakub.
00:18:22Open up, please.
00:18:24Open up.
00:18:34Open up.
00:18:35Open up.
00:18:36Open up.
00:18:37Open up.
00:18:38Open up.
00:19:02When we lost Mom and Adaś, I cried for weeks.
00:19:06I cried my eyes out.
00:19:09I wanted to die.
00:19:11You were living a normal life.
00:19:14You had yourself, you ate candies.
00:19:18You played football with the boys.
00:19:22That allowed me to survive.
00:19:27I thought that God took my wife and son,
00:19:34but I don't think He turned away from me
00:19:38because He saved someone I have to live for.
00:19:43And somehow it worked out.
00:19:49Twenty years have passed.
00:19:54And I think about them more and more often.
00:20:01My son comes home only at night.
00:20:04He doesn't want to know me.
00:20:08He doesn't want to talk to me, he doesn't want to bathe.
00:20:12He smokes three packs of cigarettes a day
00:20:15and every time he says that everything is fine.
00:20:24I can't take it anymore.
00:20:28I can't take it anymore.
00:20:31Say something.
00:20:32Say something.
00:20:34Talk to me.
00:20:37Talk to me.
00:20:44Say something.
00:20:59It's cold.
00:21:03It's cold.
00:21:06I'm so worried.
00:21:13It would be best if I fell asleep and didn't wake up anymore.
00:21:18Why are you sitting like that? Do something.
00:21:21It's supposed to be a bed.
00:21:23It's just a pillow.
00:21:25An ordinary pillow.
00:21:27That stupid Cecilia, she would make everything so soft
00:21:29that I would definitely fall asleep.
00:21:31Does she want me to rot for the rest of my life?
00:21:34When I think that father Wacław will be here today for the last time,
00:21:39I just want to cry.
00:21:42You're the only noble man.
00:21:45The only helping soul we have left.
00:21:50We need to talk to him.
00:21:52About you.
00:21:54Maybe he'll come up with something.
00:21:56Some kind of rescue.
00:21:57What?
00:22:01I don't understand.
00:22:03What do you mean?
00:22:05What do you want to talk to him about?
00:22:08What do you want to make a problem out of?
00:22:10Oh, I'm sorry.
00:22:12It was you who made the problem.
00:22:14It was you.
00:22:16You made a deal with this worthless, stupid man
00:22:20who didn't love you even for ten minutes.
00:22:23Ten minutes.
00:22:25It was you who followed him like a drunkard
00:22:28because you still talked about love.
00:22:31He beat himself up like a man.
00:22:33He brushed his dirty, pearl teeth.
00:22:37And what?
00:22:39What did you get out of it?
00:22:41Mother, please.
00:22:51Do we really have to...
00:22:53Not a single word more.
00:22:55The only thing you can do
00:22:57is put your hands together
00:22:59and ask God to let you survive.
00:23:01To give you strength.
00:23:03Woman.
00:23:05You have to give birth and raise a child.
00:23:07Do you even realize what that means?
00:23:10Raising a child alone, without a husband,
00:23:13without means to live.
00:23:17That's why I advise you well.
00:23:19Kneel.
00:23:20Kneel.
00:23:23Even here, even now,
00:23:25you don't have to be ashamed of your prayer.
00:23:27And ask God
00:23:29to let you go through all this.
00:23:34Mother, please.
00:23:36They will be here for a while.
00:23:38Unless you want this young man to run away
00:23:41before he can say,
00:23:43let Jesus Christ be praised.
00:23:45And he will run away
00:23:46when he finds out
00:23:48what's going on in this house.
00:23:58Let Jesus Christ be praised.
00:24:01My dear Wacław,
00:24:03I thought you had completely forgotten about me.
00:24:06That I would have to die
00:24:08without the service of God.
00:24:47Forgive me, my dear.
00:24:49We couldn't do it earlier.
00:24:52It's a shame to say,
00:24:54I thought that I,
00:24:56a devoted servant of God,
00:24:58had nothing at all.
00:25:01And when I came to pack,
00:25:04there were 15 large boxes.
00:25:09Books.
00:25:11Of course.
00:25:13Almost only books.
00:25:16I'm sorry.
00:25:21My dear,
00:25:23let me introduce you
00:25:25to Father Jakub Kruk,
00:25:28who two days ago
00:25:30took over the parish after me.
00:25:34I would like
00:25:36to add right at the beginning
00:25:39that Father Jakub is a man
00:25:42of exceptional nobility,
00:25:43and what follows
00:25:45is modesty.
00:25:51Let Mary serve the priest tea.
00:26:14My dear Wacław,
00:26:16our guest is undoubtedly
00:26:18a very nice young man.
00:26:20You didn't warn us, however,
00:26:22that he can't speak.
00:26:25I would like to
00:26:27apologize to you,
00:26:29but I...
00:26:31I just don't feel
00:26:33the best today.
00:26:35I mean,
00:26:37to tell you the truth,
00:26:39I feel very bad.
00:26:40I think it's something
00:26:42with my stomach.
00:26:44I'm afraid
00:26:46I'll have to
00:26:48leave you for a while.
00:27:02I'll show Father
00:27:04the way to the bathroom.
00:27:06I'll show him
00:27:07the way to the bathroom.
00:27:09Please follow me.
00:27:37Please follow me.
00:28:07I cried every night
00:28:09when I prayed for you.
00:28:11I knew you wouldn't let me down.
00:28:13I saw you in my dreams four times.
00:28:15My Aniel,
00:28:17my guardian Aniel,
00:28:19I entrust my whole self to you.
00:28:21I give you my love.
00:28:23Today I touch your body
00:28:25and I will never be
00:28:27who I was.
00:28:34May God bless you.
00:28:38May God bless you.
00:28:52Young lady,
00:28:54all night long
00:28:56she didn't close her eyes.
00:29:01She walked around the house
00:29:03like a witch.
00:29:05Exactly.
00:29:07And she didn't even touch the food.
00:29:10I don't know who I'm cooking all this for,
00:29:13but I don't care.
00:29:16But the older lady doesn't eat anything,
00:29:18and she doesn't look much younger either.
00:29:24A waste of time and work.
00:29:26Exactly.
00:29:28I don't want to complain,
00:29:30but if it goes on like this,
00:29:32we don't know
00:29:34how it will end with the unborn.
00:29:36She's as skinny as a rat.
00:29:38Her eyes are puffy,
00:29:40her nails are blooming.
00:29:42We have to give her some beetroot
00:29:44and we have to grind some raw lentils
00:29:46and put them three times a day.
00:29:49I wouldn't eat raw meat either.
00:29:52You have to give her what she likes.
00:29:54What she likes, what she likes.
00:29:57What am I, stupid?
00:29:59I've been cooking for her for a month.
00:30:01Because of that kid,
00:30:03she doesn't like anything.
00:30:06And I can see
00:30:08that it's not because of the kid,
00:30:10but because of the father.
00:30:14If she wanted it,
00:30:16God punished her.
00:30:18Shut up, you idiot!
00:30:20And drink from the cup,
00:30:22or it will burn.
00:30:24Wait,
00:30:26someone will beat you
00:30:28with this unburned mouth.
00:30:33And here in Krakow,
00:30:35there lived a lady called Zawistowska.
00:30:39A beautiful woman,
00:30:41who lived 20 years younger than her.
00:30:46Yes.
00:30:51But what happened next?
00:30:53Fear of talking.
00:30:57Yes, talk, you idiot.
00:31:00You're not doing the dishes.
00:31:05You're not doing the dishes.
00:31:16A baby.
00:31:19She had a baby.
00:31:23In the beginning,
00:31:25she was carrying this burden.
00:31:27She told her to sew a lot of clothes.
00:31:29And then suddenly,
00:31:31she appeared without a belly.
00:31:33And the baby is gone.
00:31:37But still, everything worked out.
00:31:40Because God gave people a sign.
00:31:42It was February.
00:31:44Snow.
00:31:46Terrible frosts.
00:31:48And in front of their house,
00:31:50magnolia bloomed.
00:31:52Red.
00:31:58They say that God punished her,
00:32:00because she took 20 years younger.
00:32:02And on top of that, she was unmarried.
00:32:06They say that the baby
00:32:08died right away.
00:32:11It didn't even live a minute in this world.
00:32:14It didn't even blink.
00:32:19It only opened its eyes.
00:32:22It had one tiny tear.
00:32:26And it breathed her last.
00:32:33So this baby,
00:32:36a boy, it was a boy,
00:32:40had two heads.
00:32:43One was normal,
00:32:45but with one eye in the middle of its forehead.
00:32:48And the other head,
00:32:52the other one
00:32:55was a pig's head.
00:32:58It was a pig's head.
00:32:59It was a pig's head.
00:33:02A pig's head?
00:33:05A pig's head!
00:33:07What's wrong with you?
00:33:09A pig's head!
00:33:11A pig's head!
00:33:13A pig's head!
00:33:15A pig's head!
00:33:29A pig's head!
00:33:51Fuck off!
00:34:00I said, fuck off or I'll call the police.
00:34:16They should take you to Czupków right away.
00:34:20There must be a strict duty today.
00:34:24Let them take you to the unit right away.
00:34:25Let them take you to the unit.
00:34:28Let them give you some powder.
00:34:33Powder?
00:34:35Or let them connect you to electricity.
00:34:39Electricity?
00:34:52You were supposed to come to him.
00:34:55You were supposed to take care of him.
00:35:00Maybe you should play with him sometimes.
00:35:05You didn't have time.
00:35:07I understand.
00:35:09You didn't want to.
00:35:11I understand.
00:35:13I'm trying and I understand.
00:35:17I just regret that it didn't occur to you
00:35:21that a cat,
00:35:23every cat has to eat and drink
00:35:26or it will die.
00:35:29It's a pity.
00:35:33It's a pity.
00:35:39I don't want to.
00:35:47I don't love you.
00:35:49I don't love you.
00:35:52I don't love you.
00:35:54I wish you to die like this cat without food and water.
00:36:01Keys.
00:36:04Keys. Give me the keys.
00:36:17And now fuck off or I'll call the police.
00:36:22Fuck off.
00:36:41I love you.
00:36:52I love you.
00:37:11Wonderful.
00:37:13Just fabulous.
00:37:15In my youth,
00:37:17no one even dreamed of such flowers.
00:37:20Please sit down.
00:37:24Father will forgive me for saying this, but it's a sin.
00:37:28Such wonders
00:37:30for an old mother
00:37:32who is already standing on her head.
00:37:34It's true.
00:37:37I don't know how to apologize to you
00:37:39for my unkind behavior during the last visit.
00:37:44It just so happened
00:37:46that I've been suffering from
00:37:47a particularly painful stomach allergy.
00:37:51Strong itchiness.
00:37:54And these nerves.
00:37:58New duties, new people.
00:38:00Not a single word more.
00:38:02As soon as I looked at my father,
00:38:04I felt that my father
00:38:06is a truly wonderful servant of God.
00:38:09Please believe me,
00:38:11I'm not wrong about these things.
00:38:13Another week or two
00:38:14and my father will feel at home again.
00:38:44I love you.
00:39:10Father Waclaw
00:39:11went to Dr. Kavecki,
00:39:13who is well-resourced
00:39:15and, as far as I know,
00:39:17you are well-known.
00:39:19He said that
00:39:22this is a very serious matter
00:39:26on a nervous level.
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00:49:48You have a fever. You should lie down.
00:49:54You know you can't park here?
00:49:57Yes. I know.
00:50:06You know what? Go home.
00:50:09Take some pills, get some sleep, calm down.
00:50:12Don't go to work for a few days.
00:50:16Doctors have a right to be ill, don't they?
00:50:19But I have to tell you something.
00:50:28Something very important.
00:50:31Very.
00:50:35Something...
00:50:38that nobody can know about.
00:50:46The moon.
00:50:52The moon will be so bright today.
00:50:56So...
00:51:00a little bit silver, a little bit...
00:51:04sardine.
00:51:07Sardines are the worst.
00:51:16But I'm not afraid of the moon anymore.
00:51:38I remember when I was a boy.
00:51:43I was lying in bed at night.
00:51:46It seemed to me that...
00:51:49the moonlight was falling on me.
00:51:52It was pressing me very hard.
00:51:58It had a strange smell.
00:52:02Like a corpse.
00:52:06Like a corpse.
00:52:12And so scared...
00:52:15I held my breath.
00:52:18Completely.
00:52:21I could breathe for a few hours.
00:52:26I wasn't close to death.
00:52:30It was then...
00:52:33when my mother died.
00:52:49But the guardian angel saved my life.
00:52:53He came.
00:52:56He came.
00:52:59He put his hand on my face.
00:53:03And I could breathe again.
00:53:26Oh, yes!
00:53:57Oh, yes!
00:54:09I couldn't refuse the last painful joy
00:54:12of making a kiss on the dead lips of the one
00:54:15who had all my love.
00:54:19Oh, my God!
00:54:22A light breath mingled with mine
00:54:25and told me to touch my lips.
00:54:28It broke my arms
00:54:31and embraced me in ecstasy.
00:54:35Oh, Romuald, it's you!
00:54:38She said in a sweet voice
00:54:41like the last tremble of Lyra.
00:54:44Oh, Romuald!
00:54:47I've been waiting for you for so long
00:54:50until I died.
00:54:53Farewell, Romuald.
00:54:56Farewell!
00:55:00A sudden gust of wind opened the window
00:55:03and entered the room.
00:55:06The last petal of a white rose
00:55:09fluttered on the boat like a bird's wing
00:55:12and then flew out through the open window
00:55:15carrying behind it
00:55:18a large claret.
00:55:23Oh, Jesus!
00:55:26Jesus, he's going to kill me!
00:55:53I'm afraid to say
00:55:56that I've been waiting for you for so long.
00:55:59I'm sorry.
00:56:03I'm sorry.
00:56:06I'm sorry.
00:56:09I'm sorry.
00:56:13I'm sorry.
00:56:17I'm sorry.
00:56:20I'm sorry.
00:56:23I'm sorry.
00:56:26I'm sorry.
00:56:29I'm sorry.
00:56:32I'm sorry.
00:56:35I'm sorry.
00:56:38I'm sorry.
00:56:41I'm sorry.
00:56:44I'm sorry.
00:56:47I'm desperate to say it with all my heart.
00:56:50I found a dark shelter in you.
00:56:56I believe that Jesus Christ
00:56:59will be your medicine and salvation.
00:57:02As his faithful servant I forgive you
00:57:05what happened.
00:57:08After overcoming my own weakness
00:57:11I allow myself to ask you
00:57:14Any contact with me, in any form is an order of great importance.
00:57:23Please seek the strength and peace of the Lord.
00:57:31Father Jakub Kruk
00:57:44Father Jakub Kruk
00:57:56Father Jakub Kruk
00:58:03Father Jakub Kruk
00:58:44You pig!
00:58:47You pig!
00:58:50You brought me here, didn't you?
00:58:55God, what do you want to do to me?
00:58:59You idiot!
00:59:02What do you want?
00:59:06You watched too many movies, didn't you?
00:59:10You sick man!
00:59:12You sick man!
00:59:18God!
00:59:20God, why did I marry you?
00:59:28Help!
00:59:30Help!
00:59:32Help!
00:59:36Help!
00:59:38Help!
00:59:40Help!
00:59:42Help!
00:59:44Help!
00:59:46Help!
00:59:53Help!
01:00:02Help!
01:00:03Help!
01:00:11Oh, God.
01:00:16Jakub.
01:00:19Jakub.
01:00:21Jakub.
01:00:24Jakub, please.
01:00:26Everything will be fine. You'll see.
01:00:29Jakub.
01:00:33We can talk about whatever you want.
01:00:36Really.
01:00:40I'll understand everything.
01:00:43I'll understand everything.
01:00:46Jakub.
01:00:48Please.
01:00:50Please.
01:00:52Let me go.
01:00:56Don't touch me.
01:01:00Don't touch me.
01:01:17He keeps looking at her.
01:01:22He can't stop thinking about how good she is.
01:01:27And beautiful.
01:01:30And what eyes she has.
01:01:36Huge.
01:01:39Blue eyes.
01:01:42His heart is beating very fast.
01:01:47Very fast.
01:01:49He wants to marry her. He wants to have children with her.
01:01:59A boy and a girl.
01:02:04He buys her flowers and sweets.
01:02:10He takes her for a walk by the river.
01:02:17Sometimes...
01:02:23he gently touches her hands.
01:02:30Her parents are delighted.
01:02:37Her father...
01:02:40who...
01:02:45who...
01:02:50who loves her more than life.
01:02:54He gives her without hesitation.
01:03:00Because he has the sun in his eyes.
01:03:06And love.
01:03:15Love has such a great power.
01:03:30Why did you do it?
01:03:35I had to.
01:03:40Why did you do it?
01:03:44To tell you.
01:03:49What to tell?
01:03:55Something very important.
01:04:00How long will it last?
01:04:05Soon.
01:04:08Very soon.
01:04:13I'll let you go tomorrow.
01:04:18What will you do with me?
01:04:22I want you...
01:04:24to listen and look.
01:04:27I want you to try.
01:04:32Then you will hear and see.
01:04:39And you will love again.
01:04:46You?
01:04:50Yes.
01:04:57I will never love you again.
01:05:03You will.
01:05:07I can't.
01:05:09I can't deal with it.
01:05:12I tried hundreds of times.
01:05:15My daughter...
01:05:17My daughter...
01:05:19has no God in her heart.
01:05:22Even if she left God...
01:05:24I believe that...
01:05:26God didn't leave her.
01:05:28He will help her find the right way.
01:05:31I dream at night.
01:05:33I listen to him when he comes back.
01:05:36Will he come back?
01:05:38When will he come back?
01:05:40Maybe tomorrow or the day after?
01:05:42Maybe in a week, a month, a year?
01:05:47I'll start to whine.
01:05:49I'll blink my eyes.
01:05:51And in five minutes...
01:05:53she will throw herself at him.
01:05:55And he will sit and lick his wounds like a cat.
01:05:59He will probably give birth to another unhappy creature.
01:06:02He won't even know about it.
01:06:04He will disappear after two weeks.
01:06:06I don't know where and how long.
01:06:08And this is supposed to be love?
01:06:11Because she keeps telling me about love.
01:06:14Oh, I beg you, Father.
01:06:17If I could, I would fall on my knees before you.
01:06:19Let the Father talk to her.
01:06:22Let him speak to her with reason.
01:06:25God, what a pity.
01:06:27That Wacek had to leave.
01:06:30I promise to do everything in my power.
01:06:33To calm down a little.
01:06:35And to stop thinking about the child.
01:06:38Because she thinks badly about him.
01:06:40She doesn't want this child.
01:06:42She can't love him.
01:06:45Because of all this,
01:06:46the child has such a hard belly like a stone.
01:06:50And to think that she is about to give birth.
01:06:54I don't know if God will have mercy on us.
01:07:01Maybe He will have mercy, maybe He won't.
01:07:04But He won't have mercy!
01:07:12How can a mother laugh?
01:07:16Who gave me the right
01:07:19to talk like this about my life and my love?
01:07:23About the man I love?
01:07:26I love him!
01:07:30What does a mother know about love?
01:07:33Did she love anyone in her life?
01:07:36Was she loved by someone?
01:07:39Always busy with her God,
01:07:42gossiping in the church
01:07:43and those sick people in the evening.
01:07:46How funny.
01:07:57Mother.
01:08:00Did you kiss someone?
01:08:06Did you hug someone?
01:08:08Straight from the heart?
01:08:11Did your heart give someone something?
01:08:15A small thing?
01:08:17Just like that, without any occasion?
01:08:21Did your mother love a man?
01:08:25Did she die of delight
01:08:28in his arms?
01:08:30Mother!
01:08:32If so...
01:08:35Mother, then who?
01:08:38Because definitely not my father.
01:08:42Go.
01:08:44Please leave this room immediately.
01:08:51Will someone have mercy on me?
01:08:55Will someone have mercy on me?
01:08:58Oh, God!
01:09:00God, help me.
01:09:05God, save me.
01:09:08God, help me.
01:09:12God, all-knowing.
01:09:15God, all-embracing.
01:09:28Well,
01:09:30where is your
01:09:33wonderful God,
01:09:36before whom you bow
01:09:39and fall on your knees?
01:09:44What kind of love can you love
01:09:48when I see you
01:09:50in such pitiful,
01:09:52tortured,
01:09:55incapable
01:09:58of the slightest human movement?
01:10:03Are you even afraid to touch each other?
01:10:09Love...
01:10:13Who knows
01:10:17what it means?
01:10:19Love...
01:10:21I do.
01:10:29I know what love is.
01:10:39March 8, 1979
01:10:42Mary Buczka Elementary School, Women's Day Academy
01:10:50Grenade suit after the Communion.
01:10:53White shirt made of something artificial.
01:10:56I'm all sweaty.
01:10:59Everything is smelly.
01:11:08March 9, 1979
01:11:19Women's Day, Women's Day
01:11:22Let everyone know
01:11:25that today is Women's Day.
01:11:39March 10, 1979
01:11:50I sing a song,
01:11:52clearly and beautifully.
01:11:55Then a poem,
01:11:59clearly and beautifully.
01:12:03The most beautiful.
01:12:09My brother doesn't sing, he doesn't like it.
01:12:14The end of the performance.
01:12:18Applause.
01:12:25My wife runs up to me.
01:12:30I see her.
01:12:34I see how beautiful she is.
01:12:38I love her.
01:12:41She takes me in her arms and hugs me tight.
01:12:47And she says she recites the poem beautifully.
01:12:55And that she loves me.
01:13:00The most in the world.
01:13:09People.
01:13:12The sea of people.
01:13:15She's among them.
01:13:18She waved her hand to me.
01:13:26And then she disappeared from my sight.
01:13:31Always.
01:13:38March 11, 1979
01:14:09Without him,
01:14:13to take a step to the other shore.
01:14:26Ah, the night,
01:14:31the body,
01:14:35dissolved
01:14:37in a dream.
01:15:00Who's there?
01:15:02It's me.
01:15:04Please, darling, let me in.
01:15:08For a moment.
01:15:10I swear, just for a moment.
01:15:13You always say for a moment,
01:15:15and then you sit until morning.
01:15:17I swear to God Almighty.
01:15:33I'm begging you, Marsia.
01:15:37My legs are frozen like two ice cream cones.
01:15:41So tell me.
01:15:44Just a little bit.
01:15:46Tell me how you got here.
01:15:50Come on.
01:15:52I've told you so many times.
01:15:54You can tell me about something like that forever.
01:15:57I'm not going to tell you.
01:16:00I'm not going to tell you.
01:16:01You can tell me forever.
01:16:04One last time, please.
01:16:10I came back from church with my parents.
01:16:13It was a beautiful, hot evening.
01:16:19My mother and I were sitting on the sofa.
01:16:21No, my mother was sitting on the sofa,
01:16:23and I was on the floor next to her feet.
01:16:25And I just put my head on her knees.
01:16:27And we were talking about our plans.
01:16:30And my father...
01:16:32My father was sitting in the armchair,
01:16:34smoking a cigarette,
01:16:37and reading a book.
01:16:39Magic.
01:16:41It's amazing.
01:16:49And then we were talking about our plans.
01:16:53And about our journey to Africa.
01:16:56To Africa.
01:17:02And then the evening came,
01:17:04and I went to bed.
01:17:09And my mother and father were sitting next to me.
01:17:14And they were looking at me.
01:17:18And they were holding hands.
01:17:22They had to sit like that,
01:17:23because otherwise I wouldn't be able to sleep.
01:17:28I was afraid to stay alone at night.
01:17:33I loved looking
01:17:37at them sitting next to me
01:17:42and holding hands.
01:17:48And we were sitting like that,
01:17:51quietly,
01:17:54silently,
01:17:58I don't even know how long,
01:18:04when suddenly
01:18:08the door to my room
01:18:10opened
01:18:15and everything was filled with great brightness.
01:18:19Morning.
01:18:20Morning.
01:18:22And then, when our eyes got used to those white rays,
01:18:28we saw that he was standing at the door.
01:18:34He walked slowly,
01:18:37very slowly,
01:18:40and stood by my bed.
01:18:45At first I was afraid,
01:18:47but then I completely stopped being afraid.
01:18:52And my heart was filled with great sweetness.
01:18:57But recently a miracle happened.
01:19:01Mother of God, save me.
01:19:08God sent him again.
01:19:12I saw him again.
01:19:14I saw his face.
01:19:17He didn't have wings, but I recognized him.
01:19:21It's him.
01:19:23I know about it.
01:19:25Jesus, who?
01:19:29Who?
01:19:31I can't tell you.
01:19:33You have to.
01:19:35I beg you, you have to tell me,
01:19:37because I won't be able to sleep at all.
01:19:39I can't, I'm not allowed to.
01:19:45Then why did you start?
01:19:49You don't have God in your heart, do you?
01:19:58Jakub,
01:20:03the priest is coming.
01:20:04Jakub,
01:20:08priest Jakub,
01:20:12he is my angel
01:20:14and he loves me.
01:20:17And I love him
01:20:20with great,
01:20:22great love.
01:20:27You'll see,
01:20:29he'll take me away from here.
01:20:35Girl, did something fall on your head?
01:20:50Good cheesecake.
01:20:52It's the best cake, I'm telling you.
01:20:55You just have to make it terribly.
01:20:57My whole back hurts from this rubbing.
01:21:00I don't like cheesecake either.
01:21:01I don't like cheesecake either.
01:21:04Why are you so sad today?
01:21:07My head hurts.
01:21:10I got up too early and I couldn't close my eyes all night.
01:21:14What were you doing in the night?
01:21:17Nothing.
01:21:19Lying down.
01:21:21I was turning from side to side.
01:21:24Don't tell me that.
01:21:26If you were lying down, you'd be sleeping.
01:21:28Because when a tired man lies down,
01:21:29the priest won't have time to speak,
01:21:31and he's already sleeping.
01:21:33I was sitting a little by Marysia.
01:21:36Well, you should have said that right away.
01:21:39You stuck to this girl for good.
01:21:44I'll just pull your ears out
01:21:46on this uncreated story you're pulling out.
01:21:48No uncreated, just normal.
01:21:53Pretty.
01:21:56Very pretty.
01:22:00About home,
01:22:02about parents,
01:22:05how they loved each other,
01:22:07how good it was behind the door.
01:22:11Don't laugh so stupidly.
01:22:13I'm afraid this cheese in my stomach will turn sour.
01:22:15Slow down, you snob.
01:22:17Or you'll choke
01:22:19when you get a wet rag over your head.
01:22:23They loved each other,
01:22:25they loved each other
01:22:27to the point of redness.
01:22:29I think they lost their hearts
01:22:31because of this love.
01:22:33I don't know why,
01:22:35but this poor Marysia
01:22:37was kept in an orphanage
01:22:39with her sister Nazaretanek.
01:22:41Since she was a little girl.
01:22:43She didn't see her parents.
01:22:45They left her.
01:22:47Out of love, I guess.
01:22:51Are you going to tell me fairy tales?
01:22:54I've known this girl for so many years.
01:22:56She was 14 when she came to us.
01:22:57She was in a dress,
01:22:59in holes in her shoes,
01:23:01transparent as a sheet of parchment.
01:23:03And when she ate something decent,
01:23:05she turned around.
01:23:08What did she do?
01:23:12What did she tell you?
01:23:14What did I tell you?
01:23:16What I know.
01:23:18And you can ask anyone you want.
01:23:28She's a liar.
01:23:33Just a liar.
01:23:39And this dream came to me.
01:23:43I dreamed many times every night.
01:23:46Many times.
01:23:50I remember very well
01:23:52even though I was young.
01:23:53How is that possible?
01:23:57But little children
01:23:59can't remember their dreams.
01:24:03It was night.
01:24:07We all slept in one room.
01:24:09Adam's parents
01:24:11and me.
01:24:15And I was sleeping
01:24:17in the corner of the room.
01:24:20I was sleeping
01:24:21in the corner of the room.
01:24:28We were all sleeping.
01:24:33I could hear their calm
01:24:35breaths,
01:24:39but I couldn't fall asleep.
01:24:47I could feel clearly
01:24:49that there was someone
01:24:52there.
01:24:53It was a woman
01:24:56dressed in a long black dress.
01:25:03I was deathly scared.
01:25:07I knew this woman was waiting
01:25:09for everyone to fall asleep
01:25:11to kidnap me
01:25:13somewhere very,
01:25:15very far away.
01:25:17I knew I had to defend myself
01:25:19somehow,
01:25:21I knew I had to scream,
01:25:23cry,
01:25:25wake up my mother,
01:25:27but I couldn't move
01:25:29out of fear.
01:25:31And this woman
01:25:33took me in her arms
01:25:35and took me into the darkness.
01:25:38Absolute darkness.
01:25:44My mother had long,
01:25:46beautiful hair.
01:25:48Sometimes
01:25:49she let me brush her hair.
01:25:52Very rarely.
01:25:54Five minutes,
01:25:56maybe ten minutes.
01:25:58Only then,
01:26:00when she was sitting quietly,
01:26:02without a word,
01:26:04with her eyes closed,
01:26:06and I could brush her hair,
01:26:08I felt that I was safe,
01:26:10that I was hers.
01:26:20It was August.
01:26:22The 23rd of August.
01:26:24Holidays by the lake.
01:26:27The lake.
01:26:29I was standing on the shore.
01:26:31I saw them.
01:26:33A change of weather.
01:26:39I felt I was dying with them.
01:26:45I felt I was dying with them.
01:26:49I was dying.
01:27:05I was dying.
01:27:11You can't touch me.
01:27:14You can't.
01:27:20We came there every day.
01:27:26I thought she would reach out her hands
01:27:30and pull me inside.
01:27:35I was waiting for this.
01:27:46She didn't take me away.
01:27:49She took me to her.
01:27:56I was born under the black sun.
01:28:01No.
01:28:04I wasn't born.
01:28:10I was squeezed out.
01:28:14Exhausted.
01:28:20She didn't love me.
01:28:25I was a misunderstanding.
01:28:29I am a misunderstanding.
01:28:35I am a waste of time.
01:28:40Nobody loves me.
01:28:46I shouldn't have been born.
01:28:49I shouldn't have been born.
01:29:01Please don't touch me.
01:29:06You can't touch me.
01:29:19You can't touch me.
01:29:30You are not a misunderstanding.
01:29:37I love you.
01:29:41With complaints, crying, wailing,
01:29:43in the pain of my heart
01:29:45I often stood before your face, O God.
01:29:47To ask you for help and comfort
01:29:49in my sufferings and needs.
01:29:52Today,
01:29:54pleased with my heart and comfort,
01:29:56I come to you to thank you,
01:29:58the most humble of all.
01:30:00You heard my wailing.
01:30:02You sent me help from above.
01:30:17I will never let you go again.
01:30:43Shut up.
01:30:44And you, bring me a clean cloth and a towel.
01:30:46Now! Move it!
01:30:53Ania...
01:30:58Leave me alone.
01:31:01Leave me alone.
01:31:04Leave me alone.
01:31:06Ania...
01:31:10It's just me, don't be afraid.
01:31:13Ania...
01:31:14It's just my head.
01:31:17My head hurts so much.
01:31:20But I'll take some powder and I'll be fine.
01:31:23I want to help you.
01:31:27My love.
01:31:30My love.
01:31:34It's not your head that hurts.
01:31:36It's the baby.
01:31:38It wants to be born.
01:31:43There's no baby!
01:31:45There's no baby!
01:31:47They took the baby!
01:31:49I gave you the baby!
01:31:51They took it!
01:31:53Father, we have to help her!
01:31:55We have to take her to the hospital!
01:31:58Let father hurry up!
01:32:13Ania...
01:32:16My love, please leave us alone.
01:32:20Let father pray for everything to end well.
01:32:23Calm down, calm down.
01:32:25Breathe, breathe, breathe.
01:32:27Calm down.
01:32:29Calm down, breathe.
01:32:31Wait, wait.
01:32:37Calm down, breathe.
01:32:39Breathe, breathe.
01:32:42What?
01:32:43What?
01:32:44Calm down!
01:32:45What?
01:32:46Where?
01:32:47Let someone come here!
01:32:50Let someone come here right now!
01:32:53Please tell me what's going on!
01:32:59Pain.
01:33:00She's in pain.
01:33:02The baby is coming into the world.
01:33:04The baby is coming into the world.
01:33:06The baby is coming into the world.
01:33:08The baby is coming into the world.
01:33:10The baby is coming into the world.
01:33:12The baby is coming into the world.
01:33:14The baby is coming into the world.
01:33:16The baby is coming into the world.
01:33:18The baby is coming into the world.
01:33:20The baby is coming into the world.
01:33:22The baby is coming into the world.
01:33:24The baby is coming into the world.
01:33:26The baby is coming into the world.
01:33:28The baby is coming into the world.
01:33:30The baby is coming into the world.
01:33:32The baby is coming into the world.
01:33:39Go there.
01:33:41Go there but tell me that you will come back.
01:33:57She's a girl.
01:33:59A beautiful, healthy girl.
01:34:17We'll name her Urszulka.
01:34:21Beautiful little Urszulka.
01:34:29Urszulka is a Polish girl.
01:34:36She was walking around,
01:34:42Smiling at the gold sun.
01:34:49Walking on the meadow, on the meadow.
01:35:23Here she comes, fresh upon the grass
01:35:53Come gentle spring, come my princess
01:36:05God is the farmer from a promise that's nature's gift
01:36:23God is the farmer from a promise that's nature's gift
01:36:38Everyone should be able to look back at their memories
01:36:44and realize that they had someone who loved them
01:36:48loved them whole
01:36:52Everyone should be able to look back at their memories
01:36:55and realize that they had someone who loved them
01:36:59Otherwise, one feels that one is losing the right to exist
01:37:07I feel that I should never have been born
01:37:14It doesn't matter
01:37:18The life of such a person will be affected by what will be touched
01:37:25She will always be able to look back at her memories
01:37:30and feel loved
01:37:34She will be able to love herself
01:37:37and will not be broken
01:37:41If she can't find her memories in such a state, she will be broken
01:38:11It's so wide, it's so tall
01:38:23I'm a ghost coming through your wall
01:38:31You will always be mine
01:38:38You will always love me
01:38:45You will always be mine
01:38:52You will never be free
01:38:59Little birds between my ears take away your brain
01:39:06I drop it through my empty eyes, please come back again
01:39:13You will always be
01:39:18Please come back again
01:39:20You won't go away
01:39:24Please come back again
01:39:27I will always love
01:39:32Come back again
01:39:34You will never be free
01:39:40You will always be young
01:39:43I will always be old
01:39:47As the sun warms me up
01:39:50Your body grows cold
01:39:54You will always be mine
01:40:01You will always love me
01:40:07You will always be mine
01:40:14You will never be free