alyssa65
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00:00Hello, in this video, this video is addressed to my twin flame, Shia.
00:04Hi, Shia.
00:05Harvest is watching and thank you for watching.
00:07It's going to be a lot of crime against me, whoever is watching.
00:10Uh, anything I say in this video may or may not be true.
00:14You cannot use this against me and anyone who is watching.
00:17The only people who are allowed to be watching are, uh, people that want to help Shia Lissa, not hurt Shia Lissa.
00:25So, um, in this video, I'm making a little bit early because I have a little bit of a grocery haul.
00:32I just got back from doing my laundry.
00:34I had to clean my sheets and I had to, um, I didn't really get that attacked.
00:46Uh, and I have makeup on my face, um, that I just scratched off.
00:58So, uh, I'm going to show you the grocery haul.
01:05I didn't, I spent about $38 and I'm very excited that I have a fridge and freezer now working.
01:14I put it on the lowest, I put it on, uh, 5 and it didn't even need to be on 5 because it was so cold.
01:27It's 32 degrees, so I put it on setting 4 and I'm going to leave it on setting 4 because it's right in the middle.
01:36Uh, it's right, it's colder than, uh, typical fridges.
01:44Well, it's always under 40 degrees and I prefer 40 degrees a little bit close to the, uh, 41, 42, 43 where it's not supposed to be those degrees.
01:59So, um, this video's not going to be, um, I'm not happy today, Shia.
02:10I learned some more news that I do not believe.
02:14However, at this point, uh, if, if family members are watching my video, uh, specifically my parents, you're not allowed to watch my videos anymore.
02:27Um, and if you do watch my videos, uh, it's going to be used against you.
02:35I'm not giving you the right to watch these videos.
02:39And you probably watch them.
02:41I don't think you guys watch all of them.
02:44And if you do, I would just recommend not watching these videos anymore.
02:49That's all.
02:50And you can't really...
02:56So there's going to be still some AI Shia used in regards to this video.
03:02And they're, like, picking at my fingers really, really, uh, scratching very hard.
03:12So, I have, I gotta show you my grocery haul first.
03:19And I'm not going to take it out of the fridge and freezer because I know the fridge is going to get really hot.
03:27But I got some carrots, some sour cream for my baked potatoes, some cottage cheese, uh, four limes.
03:41Some of these crab sticks.
03:45Extra sharp cheddar cheese.
03:47And a Caesar salad.
03:51And some, uh, vitamin D whole milk.
03:57And then I got some of these for breakfast.
04:02Some waffles.
04:04Some turkey sausage.
04:07I'm going to make, like, a big breakfast with potatoes.
04:10Strawberries for my smoothies.
04:13I'm going to make, like, a breakfast with waffles and potatoes.
04:17Turkey sausage.
04:18I got apple juice again.
04:20I'm going to do the cleanse again.
04:23I'm not sure.
04:24Not quite yet.
04:25Double cheese bagels.
04:28Diced tomatoes for my nachos.
04:32Mayonnaise for my tuna.
04:37That's everything.
04:40I think that's everything.
04:52So I still have quite a bit of food left that will last me the rest of the month.
05:07And I can have some nachos in the toaster oven with my cheese.
05:12And I actually have a can of the jalapeno salsa left.
05:17I'm looking forward to eating that.
05:19So, um...
05:26So...
05:29I'm not going to talk about this that long.
05:31However, Kieran Ruckia is trying to explain something.
05:38And I will not believe it.
05:40However...
05:47I'm not sure.
05:48I'm not reacting appropriately by the way I'm reacting to what I'm learning about.
05:53Where's my other phone?
05:54Where's my other phone?
05:59Just so you know, I have to turn this on.
06:04It's really too bad that...
06:09my dead ex-stepfather's not alive to...
06:13to...
06:20get a penalty and punishment.
06:26I'm sure in the hereafter and as a ghost, he's getting punished.
06:34I'll return back to center.
06:36But in regards to...
06:40my mom and my stepdad...
06:45I didn't have a lock on my door when I lived with them in Auburn.
06:51I lived...
06:54And they could just push it open.
06:57Like, it was...
06:59It was like it even went beyond it not having a lock.
07:02You could just push it open.
07:04I think it was purposely done.
07:06They designed it that way.
07:09So...
07:10I still do not believe it.
07:12I don't want to believe it.
07:14I think that...
07:17what I'm told is not a lie.
07:18It may or may not be true.
07:19I'm hoping to God it's not true.
07:22But...
07:23I'll show you.
07:29But I am permanently cutting off...
07:32I am permanently cutting off my parents.
07:37It shouldn't have taken this long, actually.
07:39These secrets are very, very serious.
07:43Um...
07:44Hold on.
07:49See, uh...
07:51See this hole?
08:03Uh...
08:04Uh...
08:07I hope it's not true.
08:11I hope it's not true.
08:15Um...
08:19I hope to God it's not true.
08:28So...
08:29I'm being told that, uh...
08:35my dead ex-stepfather, R-A-P-E-D-M-E...
08:44that they hypnotized me.
08:45I went unconscious.
08:47And my mother did show me.
08:49It's one time out of my entire 38 years that it's possible.
08:54When I woke up from being in a bathtub.
09:00However...
09:04I was always threatened by this, uh...
09:08dead ex-stepfather that...
09:10I was always threatened and scared that he was going to R-A-P-E-D-M-E.
09:15I never actually thought that it happened.
09:18Um...
09:19I was always scared and threatened by...
09:22this dead ex-stepfather.
09:24He sat in his little office right below my room.
09:28And, like, was, like, surveillance of me 24-7.
09:31I never had any privacy.
09:33He is one of the worst people on Earth.
09:37Well, it's dead.
09:38He is the worst.
09:40Uh, he is...
09:41If there is one person I hate the most, it is him.
09:45And...
09:47I never actually truly was...
09:50comfortable around my dad completely.
09:54Uh, I never liked being around him.
09:56Alone.
09:57And there's a reason why I wouldn't live with him.
10:01So...
10:03Um...
10:05If this is true...
10:08Um...
10:11I'm not... I'm actually...
10:16I thought the whole time that I was unscathed and...
10:20they threatened so much, but it didn't happen.
10:23I didn't know that they were...
10:25Well, I was repeatedly told that there was no lock on my door.
10:30And one time, I kind of woke up a little,
10:33and looked at my door, my bedroom door,
10:35and it was just pushed open.
10:38And then with B2K, my dead ex-stepfather said,
10:41I can just...
10:42I can open and go in your room at any time that I want.
10:47Um...
10:49I thought that was a threat.
10:50I didn't think that it was actually occurring.
10:53So...
10:56I...
10:57But after that event...
11:00After going to Six Flags and the hotel with my brother and dad,
11:05the next day I woke up with, like,
11:07feeling, like, headache, cold,
11:11very little sleep.
11:13Like, it was extremely, like, I didn't get a good rest.
11:16Which typically happens when you go to hotels or sleep somewhere else.
11:20But...
11:21I was sick.
11:22So...
11:25Um...
11:26I'm not talking...
11:27I'm not reacting appropriately.
11:29I don't really believe it's true.
11:32It's not necessarily denial.
11:34I didn't see anything happen.
11:36However, based on my physical symptoms,
11:39and my lack of health,
11:41my extreme panic and anxiety,
11:43my extreme fear,
11:45it's starting to make a little bit of sense.
11:49However, my dead ex-stepfather harassed me,
11:53S-E-X-U-A-L-L-Y, a lot.
11:56And...
11:59Um...
12:02So, with regards to my parents,
12:05you guys are officially permanently cut off, 100%.
12:09I'll go...
12:10I'll go, um...
12:11If something bad happens to me,
12:13an emergency,
12:15I will not be, um...
12:18I will not be contacting you.
12:20Those are just cords and chains.
12:22You guys were keeping secrets from me.
12:25Uh, to constantly keep me thinking
12:27that I had to respect you guys,
12:29and that you guys deserve to live,
12:31I deserve to die.
12:32That's what's been going on.
12:47I do know, though,
12:48that my private part has felt very wounded
12:51my whole life.
12:55Um...
12:57You're acknowledging Shia, the pendulum.
13:00You're acknowledging faith.
13:03Uh, obviously, you're murderously angry
13:06about what you're learning, and...
13:16Am I murderously angry?
13:18I'm still so possessed,
13:19I can't even completely be myself.
13:21This isn't just a stroke,
13:22and, like, I'm in denial.
13:24I can't, like...
13:26However, there is a part of me
13:27that is kind of lifeless,
13:29and there is a part of me
13:30that doesn't believe it, won't.
13:32And that's to keep me alive.
13:38Uh, there's going to be
13:39some serious return to sender.
13:41You can't do this to a human being.
13:43And...
13:45Imagine, like, not even being able
13:48to defend yourself.
13:51Not even being able to
13:52defend yourself with weapons.
13:59So...
14:00I'm not going to make this
14:01a long video, Shia.
14:09And...
14:10They're starting to torture me again,
14:13and it's not, like,
14:14it's not getting better.
14:16Like, I thought it was getting
14:17better for a week,
14:18but they're starting
14:19to torture me again.
14:21Um...
14:35If my mother did something to me...
14:40Um...
14:41She kept it very, very secret,
14:43because she was...
14:44She was very, like, a mom to me.
14:47And she might be, like,
14:48a real big pervert, but...
14:52She's, like...
14:54She really does know better.
14:58Uh...
14:59I'm not sticking up for her.
15:00I'm just saying...
15:01That's why, like,
15:02I don't really react about her.
15:05She's probably, like,
15:06the worst, but, like,
15:07she's not, like,
15:09INCST about it.
15:12It's, like, straight...
15:13It's, like, really, like,
15:14about spirit killing.
15:17And also, I recently learned...
15:21That...
15:23I had a childhood friend, like,
15:25I only hung out with a few times.
15:28And...
15:30I can't really believe this.
15:33Actually, I can't...
15:34I don't...
15:35I can't really say this...
15:37Um...
15:38On the Internet.
15:39However...
15:41She ended up, um...
15:45Going to my high school,
15:46and, like...
15:47She was, like...
15:49Really, really mean to me.
15:50And...
15:52Um...
15:53It was, like...
15:54There was, like, a meanness,
15:55and, like,
15:56a resentment that I could not understand.
15:59And she was obviously, like,
16:01more popular than me.
16:02She was not in my grade,
16:04but she was obviously, like,
16:05playing, like,
16:06I'm so much more beautiful and smart
16:08and more popular than you.
16:10But, um...
16:17It's possible, uh...
16:20That...
16:23It's possible that kids can do crime
16:26to other kids.
16:28I don't really believe it, and...
16:32Um...
16:33Honestly, I'm...
16:34I'm not, uh...
16:37Going to say anything more about that.
16:40But in regards to my parents,
16:43they're in trouble.
16:45Uh...
16:46And...
16:49It is going to be proved
16:52whether I was unconscious and hypnotized
16:54and possessed or not.
16:57Um...
16:58The symptoms of my health issues
17:01and my shame,
17:03uh...
17:04Extreme shame,
17:05extreme embarrassment,
17:07chronically, 24-7,
17:09my whole life.
17:11Uh...
17:12And...
17:13And...
17:14It goes way beyond low self-esteem.
17:19So...
17:25But I, uh...
17:31I will be in denial about it.
17:34I don't really completely think it's true.
17:36Um...
17:39And...
17:40Luckily, it wasn't really me,
17:42because it was the demons in my body.
17:45It was really just my...
17:46It was my body. It wasn't me.
18:03So I'm very happy about the extension cord.
18:06It's very hot in here.
18:08Um...
18:12Um...
18:33People are starting to be friendlier in public to me.
18:37Um...
18:43Some people, not everybody.
18:46However, um...
18:52I am still noticing some extreme fear.
18:56I forgot to write it down.
18:58So...
19:01I'm just going to rest.
19:02I'm not doing the apple cleanse yet.
19:04I bought some bagels,
19:05so probably after I finish my bagels...
19:07Oh, I can freeze my bagels.
19:09I'm not going to do the apple cleanse
19:11for a few...
19:12until a couple of days or a few days.
19:17Um...
19:20I'm very happy that the extension cord works with the fridge.
19:24I'm very, very happy.
19:27It feels like...
19:30such a...
19:31It feels like a holiday.
19:32It feels like Christmas to be able to...
19:36have a fridge and freezer with...
19:38and put food in the fridge and freezer.
19:47I'm just getting really, like, kind of burnt out
19:50from the pace of the recitation,
19:52the pace of the lumarian technology,
19:54and the heat is bothering me.
19:56I just can't...
19:57There's never enough lumarian technology that I can do.
20:01And honestly, we're not the ones responsible
20:04for this hive mind deactivation.
20:08We're participating in helping.
20:11We're not going to shut down the whole planet's hive mind.
20:14That's...
20:16That's not what's going to happen.
20:18But it feels like there's, like, a never-ending feeling
20:21of having to constantly do the lumarian technology.
20:24And I feel guilty when I don't.
20:26Because if you don't...
20:28If we don't do the lumarian technology,
20:30it's not going to work.
20:31However, other people are involved.
20:33And other people have to...
20:35I mean, everybody has to do their part.
20:37But I've been just, like,
20:39really kind of, like, boot camp the lumarian technology.
20:44And I'm just getting kind of, like, tired.
20:47And...
20:49I kind of just need rest.
20:52I...
20:54I didn't really get good sleep last night.
20:57I was up tortured
20:59until around 2 or 3 in the morning.
21:013 or 4 in the morning.
21:04Luckily, I slept until 9 p.m.
21:08But in regards to...
21:10Did I tell you this?
21:13So, Shia, I don't really feel like making a video.
21:21However...
21:22I'll probably make...
21:23I'm not going to make a video tonight, Shia.
21:26Actually, the moment I say it, though...
21:29The moment I say I'm not going to make a video tonight,
21:31I might make a video.
21:34I'm not feeling very comfortable.
21:37So...
21:41Actually, I didn't write a lot of notes, Shia.
21:44I didn't really write a lot of notes.
21:46Let me see if there's stuff on the camera.
21:51I'm not talking about the crying.
21:53The...
21:56Oh.
21:57Courtyard.
21:59Um...
22:01I'm not talking...
22:02I'm not showing you the advertisements.
22:04I'm not saying too much because I'm blocking it a lot.
22:27I did a lot of energy brushing last night.
22:30Because I was getting tortured.
22:32I recited 30 minutes of Kira and I said,
22:34there's no way I'm going to have the energy to do the energy brushing.
22:37I keep reciting this.
22:40So I went into the...
22:43bathtub and I did energy brushing
22:45and I brushed a lot on the back of my thighs.
22:49There's something going on in the back of my thighs.
22:51It's really gross.
22:54I wonder if I can show you what my back of my thighs look like.
22:58So that you would know.
23:00They don't look...
23:03They don't really look that bad.
23:06As bad as there are.
23:14Actually, I don't really think I have photographs to show you.
23:19I'm actually getting hungry.
23:20I only had two granola bars.
23:28No, there's really nothing that recent on here.
23:33So...
23:40My hair is a little greasy from the olive oil.
23:43With the energy brushing,
23:45there's a lot of olive oil.
23:47So let me talk about you, Shia.
23:51So Shia, just don't be too worried.
23:57Don't be too worried, Shia.
24:02Okay?
24:12Is there anything that Shia needs to know?
24:19But with B2K, I knew that you're...
24:26I knew your parents didn't like my parents.
24:28And I didn't know the reason.
24:30Now I do.
24:32Okay.
24:38Because I was told that by a teleprompter.
24:42A few times.
24:48And I'm not acting appropriately.
24:49I'm not explaining everything.
24:51I'm not telling you how I feel.
24:53I feel murderously angry.
24:55I feel like...
24:58It's like you feel defeated.
24:59You feel like...
25:01You know, I felt like I was kind of unscathed.
25:03There's lots of threats, but it didn't actually happen.
25:08I thought I got away with something.
25:10I thought I was like, yes.
25:13But they couldn't do that to me.
25:16They couldn't do that to me.
25:23There was a lot of harassment, though.
25:26And there was a lot of like...
25:31A lot of like little things.
25:34Not like...
25:38Not like...
25:40So...
25:46But I lost...
25:49So don't worry, Shia.
25:51I love you, Shia.
25:52And I know that you love me.
25:54And I know that at times I feel like it doesn't really make sense that we're not together.
25:59But...
26:01There is a reason.
26:09And I know that you're feeling bad for me.
26:10It makes me happy that you're feeling bad for me, Shia.
26:14And I'm feeling bad for you, Shia.
26:18But actually, I do picture you a little bit stronger than me so that...
26:23I can feel weak and know that you're feeling stronger.
26:29Because if we're both weak, we're gonna die.
26:46So I...
26:48I really need to review these notebooks and start highlighting with a different color
26:53things that I skipped over that I need to tell you.
26:55Because I'm sure that the demons are blocking the things that I'm reading on the notebooks.
27:02I think I'd like to do that.
27:03I might not have time.
27:08I did do the Voice I Am decrees.
27:15And...
27:26So...
27:29I can't really talk on the top of my head, Shia.
27:31Is there anything Shia needs to know?
27:46No, this isn't...
27:48I mean, it's almost hard to tell me what Shia wants to know.
27:52But...
27:53What Shia wants to know.
28:04No, they want me to trigger you.
28:09So I'm not gonna do that.
28:12So...
28:24People are...
28:28People are not happy.
28:30I mean, people have all their own life issues that they have to learn about.
28:35Some of these people have to learn about what's happened to us, Shia.
28:39I mean, I don't know if that's fair to people.
28:44However, obviously...
28:50It might...
28:53I don't know.
28:54I can't keep rambling on, Shia, so I'm gonna only make this a half an hour video.
29:00I have some laundry to put away.
29:02I'm really happy that I cleaned my sheets.
29:04This is just the mattress cover.
29:08I washed this a couple weeks ago.
29:14I'm gonna probably have...
29:17I'm probably gonna have some nachos.
29:20Which I'm really looking forward to in the toaster oven.
29:24I'm gonna finish my cup of coffee.
29:27I'm going to review the video to make sure.
29:30But, Shia, if I say things wrong in statements, it's possible because...
29:37It's possible I can't...
29:38Even if I read it, I can't read what I say.
29:44So, I'll be thinking about you, Shia.
29:46I played your video on loop last night.
29:50Before I went to sleep.
29:52And...
29:54I was playing your video on loop, and then I was getting incredibly tortured.
29:57And I had to get up and walk.
29:59And do Lumarian technology.
30:03However...
30:06This shouldn't even be happening.
30:08All of this shouldn't even be happening.
30:11It's not motivation.
30:13I'm not getting attacked.
30:14Then it's gonna motivate me to do Lumarian technology.
30:18And none of this should be happening.
30:22So...
30:25I'm gonna talk about you, Shia, soon in other videos.
30:28But I just wanted to...
30:33Not talk about you because they...
30:38No, let me just talk about you.
30:43Shia, let me just say random things, okay?
30:45You've been in intolerable pain, Shia.
30:49You're...
30:50I'm really hoping that you've been eating better than me.
30:54And we have to leave it...
30:57If...
30:59I'm gonna just focus on the Kieran recitation.
31:02The energy brushing.
31:04And I...
31:06I really wanna do some yoga.
31:08The body and brain yoga.
31:09But I...
31:10They're keeping...
31:11I am doing body and brain yoga.
31:13Because the energy brushing is kinda like body and brain yoga.
31:16Yeah, what else am I doing as body and brain yoga?
31:23I think that we're going to be able to...
31:30I can relax more after I make this video.
31:33Knowing that you are watching the video.
31:36I can relax more, Shia.
31:38I know that I act upset after the video.
31:43Thinking about you...
31:44That you are listening is...
31:46Helps me a lot.
31:47Makes me happy.
31:52And you have been in intolerable torture...
31:55Torturous pain.
32:00It's all gonna be returned back to the sender.
32:02And it's gonna be x7.
32:04They're gonna be tortured for the rest of their lives.
32:07They're gonna be tortured for the rest of their lifetimes.
32:10The specific ones that did the most torture to us.
32:16But it's been very painful to not be able to hear you.
32:20But it hasn't been painful knowing that you can hear me.
32:23I don't often like to say this.
32:26Because the moment I say it, it's gonna be taken.
32:29And I'm not gonna be able to make these videos.
32:33Well...
32:35I don't...
32:36Not really.
32:37However...
32:38I don't know.
32:39I don't wanna like...
32:42Tell you those things because...
32:48Yeah, I know that I don't talk much enough.
32:51But I told you that...
32:56We're already getting away with the fact that I'm making these videos.
33:10But...
33:11I liked watching the video because I knew...
33:14I could see how sick you are.
33:16And I said...
33:19You are sick just like me, Shia.
33:23You're very near death.
33:26And I could feel it.
33:31Not that that would make me happy.
33:33However...
33:35We're twin flames.
33:37We're twin flames.
33:38I know how sick and near death I've been.
33:40So that's proof.
33:44And...
33:47Obviously, neither of us really wanna be in these physical bodies.
33:57Hopefully...
33:59I really don't wanna reincarnate and have to go through childhood again.
34:05I wonder what's gonna happen.
34:08These aren't gonna be...
34:09These bodies aren't gonna be with us.
34:11We're not taking these bodies with us to other dimensions and other realms in our future lifetimes.
34:18I know that.
34:31Oh, I just...
34:32I just had gas torture.
34:36But we have to focus on our liver and our kidneys.
34:39Those are the worst.
34:43And...
34:46I can't...
34:54Yeah, we're both...
34:55You're a torture survivor, Shia.
34:57And it's gonna be proven.
35:00It's gonna be proven that we're torture survivors.
35:04Soon.
35:08So...
35:13I'm going to...
35:18Talk to you tomorrow.
35:21And...
35:23I'll make sure to...
35:25I'll make sure to write down more notes and possibly highlight things that I have not said on the internet to you.
35:39I love you, Shia.
35:40Thank you, everybody, for watching.
35:41Thank you so much, Shia, for watching.