Asleep in My Palm (2024) English Hollywood Movie
Asleep in My Palm (2024) English Hollywood Movie
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00:00:00You
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00:00:56All right
00:00:57Here's my version
00:00:59Adapted from the film remastered and updated by yours truly
00:01:05Once upon a time there was this kid named chicken little okay, he's basically the most adorable little chicken you've ever fucking seen
00:01:13He's got glasses and a little rooster m'lock
00:01:17Imagine a little prepubescent chicken a monkey less hybrid creature
00:01:22Okay, I got it. I see it in my brain
00:01:25So our little guy lives in this town full of sentient animals
00:01:30Aren't all animals sentient well done, but these can talk and distinguish between each other
00:01:35They bicker have pecking orders go to war all the bullshit humans do but it's cats dogs goats foxes fucking
00:01:44wildebeests
00:01:45Every creature you can possibly imagine exists in this town
00:01:49Okay
00:01:50So one day chicken little starts yelling this guy is falling the fucking sky is falling for real
00:01:56Well, it's what he says so of course everybody starts freaking out to break and shit running around. It's all out chaos
00:02:04But this one animal maybe he's an armadillo
00:02:07Says wait a second I can see this guy. It's right where we left it everything seems fine
00:02:13What the fuck is going on and chicken little says I was standing by this tree and some shit fell on my head something huge
00:02:21So the whole town goes out to where chicken little says this guy is falling
00:02:25And what do you know all they find is a bunch of acorns?
00:02:30so chicken little's dad pop a little of all creatures says
00:02:35Is this what fell you little moron and chicken little says no that's not it. That's a fucking acorn
00:02:43But everyone including the dad says nah this kids full of shit and suddenly the whole town
00:02:50Hates our little guy as a dicky cry wolf, but who would lie about the sky falling no one
00:02:56But who would believe it you know no one right so years later
00:03:00He's in school, and he's getting seriously bullied
00:03:04There's this little fucker named Foxy Loxy and her and her friend Lucy Goosey are
00:03:11Habitually beating the shit out of chicken little she's honestly a first-rate little fucking bitch a completely
00:03:18merciless individual
00:03:20But years of hate and all-around attrition of heart and chicken little
00:03:24He's not the same little guy who yelled about the sky falling. He's not scared of shit
00:03:29None of his friends go to school with him because they're all older from the street outcasts just like him
00:03:35He even fell out with this old man because he couldn't handle how his dad throw him under the bus
00:03:40His real dads don't do that. You know no so our boy CL is living in the animal town equivalent of
00:03:49Patterson, New Jersey
00:03:53With a washed-up noise musician and a 60 year old bouncer
00:04:01And all he can think of is what he saw that day
00:04:05And what's coming to every motherfucker who didn't believe him dad?
00:04:10Yeah, how does he eat?
00:04:13He's so shit like your old man, okay?
00:04:17You see everybody's got their breaking point. I've got one. You've got one. God's got one and chicken little's got one, too
00:04:27so one day
00:04:28After years of putting up with everyone shit
00:04:31He rallies his pack of marginalized badasses
00:04:34And they roll up to the school with the intention of laying out old foxy loxy and loosey-goosey
00:04:42But just as all the violence is about to go down
00:04:57Just as they're about to wreck those fuckers
00:05:00We hear this massive
00:05:03deafening crack
00:05:05Like all the thunder ever uttered by the sky combined into one
00:05:10monumental sound
00:05:12Everybody runs outside and sure enough the sky is cracked open and you bet your ass. It's falling
00:05:21Everybody's freaking out and crying. They're all hysterical because death is inevitable
00:05:27But chicken little
00:05:30Just looks up with this enormous fucking grin
00:05:34This is for us. He's concerned
00:05:37He's been dead for years
00:05:39And the last thing you'll see is every motherfucker who rejected him
00:05:46eating shit
00:05:52end of story
00:05:57All right, go to sleep. I'll see you in the morning
00:06:14Maybe early on he saw this tiny crack in the sky that nobody else could see
00:06:26There were birds flying around that's all you little fucker
00:06:34It's not that they weren't capable of seeing it's more that they weren't looking no one was
00:06:41He saw shit that understood
00:06:47Maybe it was wrong the first time an animal world God wanted to punish the animal world town for how they treated the little fella
00:06:55Maybe their meanness made him right like the town created its own fate
00:07:08Please be safe. I love you, too
00:07:24I
00:07:54I
00:08:25Hey, Joey, what time is it?
00:08:30150 nice
00:08:32Listen, I'm a little low on cash. You mind if I take a shit. I promise. I'll buy something double next time
00:08:39Knock yourself out. Thanks
00:08:55you
00:09:07Home is a complicated thing
00:09:10Mostly bullshit is basically the best we get
00:09:14We build it and hate it and then get pissed when the world inevitably fucks us out of it with uninvited change
00:09:22And then we go and build it again somewhere else did you live before me?
00:09:29Before you my home was
00:09:32Loneliness, that was my home
00:09:35And I never really destroyed that place, you know
00:09:39You're still lonely
00:09:43Not a bad way if that makes sense
00:09:46We all need a little bit of that
00:09:48Almost like we were born for it
00:09:51And then everything we accomplish is just a way of beating it back
00:09:57Thanks
00:10:00If I could give you anything it would be the ability to need no thing and no one to be unbreakable
00:10:08to disappear if you have to I
00:10:12Don't like talking about this you want a story. Yes, please. I
00:10:18Ever tell you about chicken a little
00:10:49It's green
00:11:11Do the robins be
00:11:14I'll be
00:11:28We both
00:11:43See my death become a trail
00:11:59Every dream
00:12:13Oh
00:12:43We
00:13:02See my death
00:13:13I will blossom your sail every dream
00:13:43You
00:14:14I
00:14:27Mean is that six I think
00:14:31It's shit
00:14:34With chick bikes, that's what you wanted. Yeah fucking so
00:14:39I
00:14:43Mean 200 for all
00:14:45Sounds good
00:14:47We can't bring the shit back to my place this time though. Wait, why?
00:14:51Remember my neighbor we used to chill with to do with the Panera hookup chill with we hung with him twice
00:14:56I think hey, whatever remember how he had that old buried school bus. He's trying to turn into a fallout shelter
00:15:04Yeah, you forgot to ventilate that shit
00:15:06You got a love of doomsday peppers prepped themselves to death, huh, he's suffocated we had something like that
00:15:14There's a snag though
00:15:15Turns out that motherfucker was deep into some shit that I didn't really know about because the cops have been digging up his whole place
00:15:21Which basically means they've been up in my neighborhood for the past two days ripping shit up
00:15:25Reports go out about these bikes. That's why I got a dump on the next day like the ones that don't sell
00:15:29We roll in there with this hall
00:15:31The lawnmower and that kid he's always fucking hassling me. Was there someplace else we can take him? Yeah, dog
00:15:37There's an abandoned warehouse a few blocks from where they do the flea market way closer than my place
00:15:41I said we take them over there. We load them up into that building. Okay, fine. Are you gonna fucking help me? Yeah
00:15:46Yeah, of course my partner
00:16:01I
00:16:19Chained off all my air man. Yeah, I saw look I dropped something on you cuz you're my homeboy
00:16:26Go I'm like fucking gone man. I don't give a shit about anything anymore
00:16:34You say anything to that I'm just listening
00:16:38Two weeks
00:16:40Fuck this way for two fucking weeks. I'm sorry
00:16:44It's not all bad
00:16:46You think it would be but it isn't because I could just I could end it anytime I want
00:16:50I don't have anyone to stop me and I don't have anyone to stop me
00:16:53I don't have any parents. I don't got no girl
00:16:56Definitely no fucking girl
00:17:00You know, I saw a creep that radio and sure yeah, that's how I was feeling before I got real I went on this
00:17:08Terrible date with this chick
00:17:10And she told me that was her favorite song. I told her to fuck right off
00:17:15Cuz she liked the song. Yeah girls don't get to like creep. That's
00:17:20Appropriation you're saying that girls can't wish they were special in the context of a person that floats like a feather. I
00:17:30Don't be a dick I
00:17:32Mean fucking women, right? You know, I have a daughter and I don't like when you talk that way
00:17:41How old is she now at this point and can you ease up on the gas or like 7 in the morning
00:17:46She's fucking 16 now, please. All right. All right
00:17:51It's just that you know, I feel like it's already over for me, you know
00:17:57You know, I don't actually
00:18:02Are you saying never felt this way before not in the way you're describing
00:18:07Well, then how?
00:18:10I
00:18:12Know offense, but I feel no need to talk about myself with you
00:18:17Maybe Beth is just what I need. Someone pure like that. I don't think so
00:18:24Just fucking with you man. I know she's off-limits. I just
00:18:28Fuck around, you know
00:18:31It was awesome you put yourself up there. It's a dated. Yeah. I don't know 15 years
00:18:36I live in a storage unit with my daughter, man. I'm not gonna be parading women through there. You must be a horny as fuck. I
00:18:46Don't think of myself as a sexual person anymore
00:18:54Y'all have you had to give no
00:18:59I
00:19:01Y'all have you had to give no
00:19:06That's cool keeping it true
00:19:10It's better than ever get restless as in how
00:19:15just like I
00:19:17Don't like looking out and seeing other kids like college kids and shit not that I've seen
00:19:23Maybe she is pure, you know inside you did that. I
00:19:27Don't even know what that means
00:19:30It's like, you know, like she
00:19:33they bet Dan's turned out good and it's
00:19:37How do you break
00:19:39Fucking no, man. I'm just talking out of my ass. It's fine, man. Can we just have a little silence for a while?
00:19:48And it feels like every day the tide pushes me further from that
00:19:53Like every minute time just gets me further from the place where I was happy, you know
00:19:57Like like that's what the color gray is
00:20:00Gray is nothingness. I am gray the absolute bare minimum before becoming invisible, you know, like white is what it is
00:20:07I'm not white whites to distinct black to
00:20:11fuck
00:20:12Well, man was great
00:20:14Happened in a year his skin his teeth his hair. He actually shaved off his hair to me for you
00:20:21You know, but
00:20:23You seriously bitter angry shit, that's not me. No way god damn it
00:20:32Don't worry, I'm sure this last one the open. Yeah, it's gonna be the only open door on the entire premises
00:20:39Can't all be locked. Yes, they fucking can that's why doors have locks. What are we gonna do man? I need to get back
00:20:45Yeah, life is sorting itself out now you can let your hair grow back
00:21:01Yeah
00:21:06Sorry, man, don't sweat it
00:21:10I'm dark Morse's
00:21:13I'm dark Morse's. Okay
00:21:23We're about to set this roadkill on fire if you guys are enjoying
00:21:31All right, it's actually a place we could go to get your car destroyed but now it's mine
00:21:39Hey turn that shit off and we're good. Oh, you guys should totally stay it's not like what you think
00:21:45And no one's confused here, bro
00:21:48Were you the one talking about the color gray?
00:21:51Yeah, I really resonated with me man. You seem really
00:21:55Wise and honest and deep in it
00:21:59But you don't look deep in it. I don't know what you're talking about. I don't know what you're talking about
00:22:03I don't know what you're talking about. I don't know what you're talking about
00:22:05And deep in it
00:22:07But you don't know jack shit about me man. I am well killed dude. I know your entire head is shaved like a god
00:22:14And I dig that journey shouldn't you be lighting kids on fire some shit. Why the fuck could we do that?
00:22:19I don't know ask Satan. This is fucking poser shit, man. That man was already dead
00:22:25What really brought you to this door today friend?
00:22:30So I think it was pain
00:22:33Pain that brought you both here. Yeah, we're just looking for some temporary storage is all I think I can allow that
00:22:39Wait, are any of y'all students at the college?
00:22:42And I graduated ten years ago
00:22:45varsity lacrosse still in the ivory tower
00:22:51Hey, well, you know what thank you for being so chill you're welcome. We're gonna run and grab our stuff. We'll be right back
00:22:56Are you guys sure you want us to wait before he blazes roadkill? No, no, no, you guys do your thing
00:23:00We'll be one second in and up cuz we can wait
00:23:03We're good
00:23:05Tell me the blowtorch
00:23:08Probably gonna smell weird
00:23:16I didn't know you conducted a study. What the fuck are we gonna do with these bikes?
00:23:20Well, I don't know I was thinking how would you feel about holding them at the storage unit? That's where I live, man
00:23:26God is next to 40 in it for you. No making 50
00:23:31Oh
00:23:34Dad
00:23:49Good morning
00:23:55You doing all right
00:23:58I had this crazy dream. Yeah, I
00:24:02was walking in this mansion like the one we broke into in Wellington, but
00:24:08with these
00:24:10Towering living rooms and libraries that never ended I
00:24:14Kept shouting and shouting and shouting and shouting and no one was there to listen. Where was I? I don't think you exist
00:24:23Huh?
00:24:25What do you think it means
00:24:28It means no more bedtime stories for you
00:24:32Now listen, I need you to get up and get dressed Jose's outside
00:24:37Okay
00:24:40Are you trying to wait, please?
00:24:43Yeah
00:24:56A long time no see
00:24:59Why oh
00:25:01Shit, I scare you. No, just like I got this place, you know, man. I'm a primate, right?
00:25:07Yeah, it's just been so long since the world see me the in my natural state, you know
00:25:12I mean, I'm not supposed to be all covered up with this. Look I said enough
00:25:16I've been listening to this shit all morning help with the bike. Well, I'm talking to your daughter. It's been a sec
00:25:21It's just like I wanted to show society that I'm hip to what I am, you know, I don't understand you're like beautiful, right?
00:25:29Don't fucking tell my daughter. She's beautiful. It's like if the world keeps telling me I'm ugly man
00:25:33Maybe I should fulfill the fucking prophecy show the world that I'll give a shit
00:25:37Like God is up there chucking prophecies like lawn darts and sex star 30 year olds
00:25:42Maybe is you don't fucking know. It's like if I'm be treated like I'm ugly
00:25:46I want to show the world that I know take control. It's a fucking cop-out. Fuck you talking about
00:25:53You're actually doing the reverse of what you're saying
00:25:56Rather than tolerate the world having a view of you. That's displeasing
00:26:00You're determining that view ahead of time so that the blame can go there instead of people forming an objective opinion of what you actually
00:26:07are
00:26:09What
00:26:12Do you think bet there
00:26:14Think I want to go to McDonald's and hook and brush my teeth. You're trying to score something to eat
00:26:18I could fuck up a couple eggnog muffins
00:26:21I'm trying to get my
00:26:23$250
00:26:24Both these things can happen, you know, yeah, they can I just don't want them to only the you paying me part
00:26:32You know what
00:26:34Take it off. That's all you fucking care about. Look at us Jose. Of course. It's all I fucking care about
00:26:39Well, you've been acting cold to be all fucking day. I'm sorry. It's nothing personal. I just haven't slept since yesterday
00:26:47You know
00:26:48Maybe you should try hanging with those Satanists that guy really seemed to respond to what you're up to
00:26:53Fuck is that supposed to mean?
00:26:56He just seemed to appreciate you. Yeah. Well, I'd really rather die bro. Don't say that shit to me Satanist
00:27:02It just might be a way for you to make some new friends as all you don't want
00:27:05Maybe you should reflect on your own fucking situation how it makes you not give a shit about anyone else
00:27:17Some McDonald's I got a tiny tie and said my mind changed you got it kiddo
00:27:32Avert your eyes or behold the device that brought you because I don't give a shit what you see
00:27:41Just half of you
00:27:50This is my favorite time of year what
00:27:54Students are all gone
00:27:57Back to their massive decadent homes and their fucked coastal cities
00:28:03Some stay despite their parents stage some hollow display of adulthood by not going home
00:28:12Obviously there are exceptions but
00:28:15Mostly what we see is
00:28:19Fabrication
00:28:21What about us
00:28:25Or what we say we are
00:28:28I
00:28:30School bins are both both school first
00:28:57I
00:29:27Oh
00:29:57You
00:30:27Oh
00:30:29Oh
00:30:56Whoa dad
00:31:00What's down here
00:31:04Any guesses
00:31:07I'll follow children for night. I
00:31:11Got an idea. Yeah
00:31:14How about we bring the bowl cutters and have a hideout slash banquet type supper down here tonight and happy risky
00:31:21There's nobody around
00:31:23Besides you need a little adventure, okay
00:31:27I got some clothes. Yeah
00:31:52See anything you like
00:31:54Not yet
00:32:09Does it work I don't know I've never seen you or anything feminine like that
00:32:20Holy shit
00:32:22Check this out. It's worth like a hundred and fifty bucks and a charger. Can I have it knock yourself out?
00:32:41You got that key Joey you're gonna buy something this time. Yes, I am
00:32:45I
00:33:08Guess a couple of Gatorades. All right
00:33:11You
00:33:13Think it's gonna taste like lemon, but it fucking never does
00:33:17Can I have a sip?
00:33:18Take mine. I wasn't gonna drink it. Anyway more about keeping my word
00:33:23spoken like a bitch
00:33:25Heard it was hot in the motherfucker over there
00:33:29It was fine
00:33:31Least you had school sending you juice boxes and shit. No one gave a fuck about us
00:33:37Sometime you almost wanted to get greased
00:33:42My father fought in World War two, you know, right I
00:33:46Bet you like rage against machine
00:33:49We had credence
00:33:51Fucking love credence
00:33:55Can we get our change
00:33:58Sure
00:34:07I
00:34:23Don't you ever talk with him about stuff like that how about because I don't want to
00:34:28But it's mine
00:34:30Not his not yours
00:34:33Not anyone else's
00:34:37Jesus
00:34:42Sorry
00:35:02Let's go
00:35:07I
00:35:37I
00:36:07I
00:36:37I
00:36:45So you guys saw Satanist
00:36:48Kind of turned into a confrontation making argument more like Jose being bitter and a little wrathful
00:36:57Are they posers like you said?
00:36:59Hard to say maybe to him
00:37:02Satanism isn't so much the worship of the devil as it is the worship of not God
00:37:08Which makes for a pretty wide spectrum and there's really no use in saying one form is more valid than the others
00:37:16Unless of course you're doing evil things, but that's not what actual Satanism is about. What's it about?
00:37:23It's most positive form
00:37:25Expressing one's ego or individualism in a way that can still be ethical
00:37:31Rejecting the judeo-christian notion of God and the Abrahamic religions as being hypocritical and oppressive
00:37:39An American Satanist would say look at all the mortifying shit. That's been done out of shame alone in the form of God-loving
00:37:46Maybe some beautiful things can happen if we love ourselves in the form of Satan loving
00:37:52so
00:37:56Yeah, if the Abrahamic religions which are what again
00:38:00Christianity Judaism Islam and why Islam cuz Ishmael is also one of the sons of Abraham
00:38:06So if the Abrahamic religions are about militating against our basest impulses
00:38:11Then Satanism can be about protecting and respecting one's impulses while still loving ourselves for what we can't control
00:38:20It's not definitively a sin to act on impulse that sort of thing
00:38:25Does that make sense?
00:38:30Yeah
00:38:40Is that what you believe
00:38:47All religions are just one religion in conversation with itself
00:38:51constant flux
00:38:54For what I couldn't tell you mostly our own destruction probably
00:39:00Allah Buddha Yahweh fucking Jupiter. What does it matter?
00:39:06But we're human so we kill each other over it and then say God created us in his own image go figure that one out
00:39:14Maybe change is all that's true
00:39:18Suddenly you don't recognize the person you are anymore and not in relation to God but yourself
00:39:24mostly for the worse
00:39:27What do I do when that happens
00:39:30I
00:39:35Have no fucking idea let's go
00:39:52Hey
00:39:54My daughter forgot her key you guys mind letting us in. Yeah, I got you bro
00:40:00You're fresh. Yeah
00:40:31Oh
00:40:36They will take me
00:41:00Oh
00:41:07You like it
00:41:09Think I do like it
00:41:12well
00:41:14Must be rough seeing your old man pull off a dress like this better than you could you're so fucking hairy
00:41:19You're fucking hairy. Yeah, but that makes me like a fucking outlaw girl, you know, I'm the king of the outlaws
00:41:24That's why I can pull off this cheap-ass Halloween dress. All right, give it here
00:41:30I
00:41:42Don't know Mickey Rourke
00:41:45Fucking that it's not important. Come on get dressed. I want to get out of here before that ogre gets back from dinner
00:42:01You
00:42:11You're gonna get a fucking hassle
00:42:15What the filter is gone we can take the bikes back to mine now, yeah right now, bro
00:42:20I got a guy he wants all six got a move in the morning. We were about to have dinner wanna come
00:42:26Huh, nah, I'm good. I don't go where I'm not wanted plus I already had a couple of crustables. What's that?
00:42:33Sick peanut butter and jelly pouch. I got a whole box and sing loneliness food, you know in the cold
00:42:38Okay. All right enough. We'll be right out
00:42:51All right, you're good
00:42:53No, wait, what he's gonna leave me to unload this shit by myself, that's right
00:42:58Nah, bro. I saw you take that 250. You're fucking coming with you want $10 back. It's not about the money
00:43:04It's about what kind of man you are, bro
00:43:06Go with him dad
00:43:09Fine but you drive me back to campus when we're done
00:43:13Yeah, I got you broke
00:43:15I'll meet you in the basement in about an hour and a half. Remember we got that Beowulf dinner. Who's Beowulf medieval dragon slayer
00:43:22I'll get the food you bring the bowl cutters. Got it. Love you, honey
00:43:26Oh, yeah
00:43:48You know, you feel like my father sometimes, you know god, please
00:43:53Like I look up to you man, well, I'm not your father I said like
00:43:59Like my father, even though I'd pay you and shit
00:44:02That's why I hurts when you dismiss me
00:44:04Cuz I know we both got shit on each other and you can easily tip off the filth
00:44:08But you know, I do that shit to you
00:44:11You don't wanna lose your daughter
00:44:13You better tell me where this is headed right now, or I bail on the next stop sign
00:44:17Just I'd be a little bit nicer to me. Are you fucking threatening me?
00:44:22You think I'm a fucking idiot?
00:44:24I know your deal
00:44:27I do
00:44:34Fine I'll be nicer
00:44:37I'm in seriously man. Look I didn't even recognize Beth Ann when I saw her
00:44:42She's growing up do where are you gonna be then?
00:44:46I'll be fine. Trust me
00:44:52I got real smoke
00:45:13You know Domino's won't even deliver one day I'm gonna move out this bitch I swear to God I've been saving up
00:45:22I was gonna do with this fucking guy. I was taking shit back my goddamn trailer
00:45:33Yeah
00:45:36Hey, you ever watch the fripples or what the fripples
00:45:40I
00:45:41Don't know the fucking television Jose
00:45:44Yeah, hey, let's take a break for a sec. I want you to watch this with me
00:45:49Absolutely, no, come on, please. Please watch it. Just a little bit me. Come on, please. Come on
00:45:55Come on, I'll tell you a hey you come watch this with me and I'll drive you home right after I'll finish doing this
00:46:02Hey, you're gonna love this come on this is gonna help you understand what I've been going through where I've been at the last
00:46:18Oh
00:46:20Oh
00:46:46You doing alright, I'm just waiting for my dad
00:46:50Yeah, I feel like we're all just in a constant state of waiting for our dads, you know, my dad's dead
00:46:57That sucks
00:46:59We just came down to the cove to see if it was open
00:47:02Fuck it looks like the administration fucking locked it again
00:47:06So we will leave you to your fatherly waiting
00:47:12Come on you fucking dizzy goats move I can't open it for that
00:47:18Come on
00:47:20Yeah
00:47:22Yes
00:47:26Thank you
00:47:29Come on
00:47:30Everybody in let's light it up
00:47:33Hey, thanks again. This is so major
00:47:36What's your fucking name again?
00:47:38Bethann it's a very American name
00:47:41Just some shit someone made up or was that your grandma's name? I don't know. Don't be scared
00:47:49I
00:47:52Dark mortious I gave myself that name after I killed my parents
00:47:57Building a new name as part of getting older, you know, you killed your parents
00:48:01Spiritually, I replaced them, but they're still here in the physical world. When did you replace them ten years ago?
00:48:07I saw some of my shit at their place
00:48:09I need to pick up but I'll just be super sparing with my energy when I do it so they don't get any of this
00:48:14You know
00:48:15We're just gonna be hanging here drinking beers doing some fucking Kratom. You want to join?
00:48:21We got ketamine too. Does that entice you?
00:48:24Do you guys have Gatorade?
00:48:27Y'all got any Gatorade
00:48:29No fucking white bar
00:48:33Sorry
00:48:34But you should still stay
00:48:36The guy to chick ratio is fucked. I could send someone out for you and get you some Gatorade
00:48:41No
00:48:43I'm just gonna wait for my dad upstairs. You should say I torch the raccoon this afternoon. So vibes are right where they need to be
00:48:52Well, wait, who am I what am I am I myself or a representation of myself
00:48:59Am I me?
00:49:04Am I me or a reflection of me on what's around me what's real and what's just what we imagine to be real
00:49:10There is nothing real. Does it really even exist or am I just this projection of what I want others to see?
00:49:16I ain't no check out what these fucking chick says right here. Of course you exist. You silly button
00:49:22Who you want to be is you every bit as much as who you are
00:49:27Right
00:49:28Like that's like me and chicks in like you probably want to be my friend now
00:49:34They see me like it's all linked up. That's great. I'll say like we're all kids, right?
00:49:39We're not actually
00:49:42I'll be right back. Wait, what?
00:49:46These are all parts of what make up you and everyone and we all make up the frippery world
00:49:59Can we go that's something for you why
00:50:05I don't need anything Jose
00:50:08Hell no, what the fuck? Yeah, it's all this shit. I don't want that man. Put it away
00:50:141800s, man. It's basically a toy. See come on me. I can fucking see that shit is loaded
00:50:22Man fucking does all look at this shit. Look how rusty this is
00:50:26You know more about this shit than anyone I know which is fucking why?
00:50:29How did you even find it my metal detector bro off the bike path last week?
00:50:34Because I'm if I use this shit to rob a train or something take me back and leave that shit here, right?
00:50:38All right. I'm sorry, man. Just you know, I thought it would be you dig it. Come on, man
00:50:42We watch your fucking video. I want to get back and eat that nice thing like a hip antique or something fine. Let's just go
00:50:50Whatever say I'm so sensitive, you know, no matter what I do you fucking find a way, you know
00:50:59You know, you can't please you man, you know
00:51:03I
00:51:09Told you you stupid asshole you good
00:51:29God damn it
00:51:33I
00:52:04Okay
00:52:15Sorry wake you miss America. How long's it been?
00:52:20Hour and a half. Hey
00:52:24Check it out. I
00:52:26Found him downstairs. He was squeaking a little sticky traps
00:52:31And when I finally cut him loose
00:52:34He had himself a little heart attack right here in my hand
00:52:38dead
00:52:39He's bloody. I'd use my pocket knife to free him
00:52:44Me and the lads here are gonna ramble on to other digs
00:52:49The left one of ours
00:52:51In the basement passed out
00:52:54Being that you're here waiting for your dad
00:52:57Do you think that you can maybe check on her from time to time make sure she's okay
00:53:04Okay, you're sweet laughs
00:53:17What are they saying I just love the energy that you get at night
00:53:26I
00:53:56I
00:54:26I
00:54:30Where's a more sure
00:54:33He said they were they were gonna ramble on to other digs
00:54:38They just fucking left
00:54:42He told me to wait with you cuz I was gonna be here anyway waiting for my dad
00:54:49Right. You're the hot chick that broke us in
00:54:53Get those guys
00:54:56Yeah, I got stolen earlier this week my life is so fucked right now
00:55:05Probably at Rowan's house Rowan doesn't have a brain
00:55:11We used to fuck you remind me of Grover from Sesame Street
00:55:14Which made me like constantly just associate and think about my parents who kind of suck so
00:55:20No more Rowan
00:55:24Sorry, I'm so kind of fucked right now
00:55:26Okay, I
00:55:29Love your outfit. I would dress like that, but all this shit my parents buy me a stupid and I feel stupid. I
00:55:37Think you know what?
00:55:43Looked beautiful
00:55:47Are you fucking freshman? No, I don't go to school. I just I just live here in town
00:55:53Sorta
00:55:56How old are you?
00:55:5920
00:56:01Whoa
00:56:03You look way younger
00:56:06You also look like several ages almost into this
00:56:10Beautiful woman shaped thing
00:56:14You're still waiting for your dad
00:56:16He's on his way. He should be here, but he's on his way. That's really wholesome
00:56:20Except the fact that he's meeting you in this weird dungeon, which is a little sketchy, but whatever
00:56:26Marcia's thinks we should have to know where to hear
00:56:29Look, I'll let that happen
00:56:39We like explain places
00:56:41like old buildings
00:56:43One time we stole all this furniture from a children's hospital outside of Pittsburgh
00:56:49It caught on fire the hospital not the furniture so it was shut down and stuff so
00:56:56We didn't even need to break anything to get in
00:57:00You like live together
00:57:02Yeah, we got bookshelves and
00:57:06a hot plate two cots this cool lava lamps we found
00:57:11water cooler spares
00:57:13I'm not really allowed to tell anyone
00:57:16Actually only one other guy knows but
00:57:21He doesn't have any friends so it's okay
00:57:27Is your dad like a fucking spy or something you sell stuff
00:57:32I'm like what?
00:57:34Mainly things people have forgotten about and don't need anymore
00:57:37I'm like what?
00:57:40Mainly things people have forgotten about and don't need anymore
00:57:43Sometimes don't realize they don't need anymore
00:57:46So you guys break in all over campus
00:57:49Kind of yeah
00:57:53Fuck
00:57:55Probably know this place better than I do. I don't know about that. Seriously. What's the coolest place you've ever been on campus?
00:58:03Like somewhere i've never been
00:58:06Never would be allowed to go
00:58:11Do you want to see
00:58:18You gotta be fucking kidding
00:58:20So
00:58:35Some faggot called the cops
00:58:38Did you shoot the incel? No. Well some faggot back there called the cops
00:58:44Like they haven't been up in our asses all week with that doomsday fella
00:58:51Are you gonna shoot me too? I didn't he shot himself. Of course he did
00:59:00See that dude killed the incel. He killed the incel. He killed the incel
00:59:08He killed the incel
00:59:11He killed the incel
00:59:13He killed the incel. He killed the incel. He killed the incel
00:59:20He killed the incel
00:59:33No fucking way
00:59:39Mortious would fucking flip over this place
00:59:42So my friend ultra she'd make them turn into community center or something. I'm gonna send it to her
00:59:50This is ultra
00:59:53She's so down to earth she's like lower than the earth
00:59:57She's always posting about how the college hates poor people
01:00:01What's your instagram?
01:00:04I don't have a phone
01:00:07Holy shit, that's like
01:00:09It's really beautiful
01:00:12I would do the same thing, but my parents make me have one for safety
01:00:16You guys are repulsive even in a supposedly woke place like this this is where I like to sit
01:00:24A lot of little birdies get trapped in here
01:00:29Who bet if someone tried to attack you you'd fuck them up with your bowl cutters and your big-ass arms maybe
01:00:37You don't get how cool it is that you're cut off from all this
01:00:41Feel like people who have phones
01:00:43Turn into their phones
01:00:45Like sometimes I just feel like a big-ass foul
01:00:49I'm, guessing your dad doesn't have one
01:00:51He saw some bad things in the war and he kind of cut us off from the material world
01:00:56like afghanistan
01:00:59Earlier than that
01:01:01And where's your mom she split before I could talk we don't even have pictures of her do you remember her?
01:01:10Damn
01:01:12It doesn't stress you out that it can't be reached like an emergency or something no
01:01:19Even on nights like tonight
01:01:21I just wait
01:01:23And what do you think about?
01:01:26Sometimes I pretend that when I blink time gets a little faster
01:01:32If only
01:01:35Hmm
01:01:40It's my dad's
01:01:46Waiting makes me feel like a piece of clothing like someone else decides when I put on an emotion
01:01:55I hate feeling time go by maybe you should try religion
01:02:01My dad says it's for people who don't have ego, which is good
01:02:05Or a sense of self, which is not
01:02:08Is your dad a professor?
01:02:10He studied religion I think
01:02:13Then why'd he go to war?
01:02:16To learn about people you said
01:02:20Who goes to war to learn about people my dad I guess
01:02:27I don't think you have an ego
01:02:30I don't even think you have a sense of self
01:02:33You know, what do you do other than worship your dad
01:02:41I look at people like you passing by and I think you're all going places. I never will
01:02:52And I hate you all for reasons I make up
01:02:55Please don't feel shitty or lonely. I see you guys. I watch you when you get here
01:03:00You meet each other you get drunk you have these lives like adults trust me you're way more adult than any of us
01:03:07No, i'm fucking not
01:03:22I'm i'm sorry. I'll be okay
01:03:30So
01:03:39Oh my god, what's that no, please please I I like it
01:04:00You're not 20, are you how old are you i'm 16
01:04:09Okay, I think it's time I go
01:04:12You don't want to go back and meet my dad
01:04:15Maybe some other time
01:04:18Can I can I kiss you again?
01:04:21Please I
01:04:24Please
01:04:27Sure
01:04:30I
01:04:40Really need to go
01:04:49This is me, okay
01:04:55I hope your dad is waiting for you when you get back
01:04:59I
01:05:06Can't help but feel like I did something really fucked up
01:05:11And i'm, sorry
01:05:14Can I come in with you
01:05:17No, i'm, sorry
01:05:30I was like, I was like
01:05:33And it was like I
01:05:38And my dad had to move
01:05:48And it was just something about like this like this strange like slightly muddled white color of a toilet fold
01:05:54It was just like
01:05:55Like I felt like it was like talking to me like I had this like weird like metaphysical like
01:06:00Preconscious moment with the toilet bowl. We're like, this is insane
01:06:03Like I just felt like like horrifying but like kind of beautiful experience. Oh, my bad, bro. And it was just
01:06:10I don't even
01:06:18I tried to climb from the cellar
01:06:23I
01:06:25Got my hands all plugged full of splinters
01:06:33Looked at you felt a little bit like
01:06:39None of it matters anymore. No, it doesn't
01:06:44And
01:06:51All my words came to nothing
01:07:08I woke up in the winter
01:07:12Like a starving frog in a blizzard
01:07:18My hands don't shake when I drag that razor back
01:07:26Looking at you makes me falter. No, it doesn't
01:07:31Falter no, it doesn't
01:07:40I think about turtles in the summer
01:07:51Butterflies drink from their eyes
01:08:01So
01:08:19So
01:08:32Oh
01:08:35What up little lady
01:08:36Sorry for the frontal exposure. Mila lives in a substance-free hall if you could believe that one
01:08:42So, um, usually everyone's asleep by 10 p.m. But there's not anyone here right now. Anyway
01:08:46What a fucking night though, right?
01:08:54You ever find your dad not yet
01:08:58He'll turn up you're too much of a little sweetheart, he probably loves you more than anything in the world
01:09:06That's what we're all looking for right everything else is a fucking lie
01:09:10You gotta hold on to what's true, you know
01:09:13I was actually I was just reading this
01:09:15Thing about how the condoms they gave out in world war ii were the best condoms
01:09:20Ever made in the history of condoms. So I was gonna try one of my homemades on mila, but she wouldn't go for it
01:09:27She's too, uh rich
01:09:30Yeah, hey mila
01:09:32Forgot to give me her id
01:09:35Mila she fell asleep while I was in the bathroom
01:09:40I'm going to house
01:09:44It's all gonna pass
01:09:47Until I
01:09:50Do something to this door, I don't know
01:09:53mila
01:09:55Mila i'm out of your buck naked
01:09:58Mila
01:09:59You make me go all the way back to kipton with my dick out
01:10:03I'll get raped by rednecks
01:10:05Mila, are you fucking with me?
01:10:08No one likes rape you
01:10:12Hey, what that that boat could have shake she was waiting for you something paint would be fucking water-based. Yeah
01:10:22Hey
01:10:27So
01:10:53Hey
01:10:56Fuck off answer my question, honey
01:10:59He's not no fuck off. He's up. It's important. Tell your dad to come around to see me
01:11:05No games. Well, i've fucking seen him so you can tell him yourself cunt
01:11:16Fuck it. Holy shit lock the door
01:11:25Things got really really fucked up with jose
01:11:29I promise i'll explain everything
01:11:31But right now we need to go
01:11:33I factored things
01:11:35What's happening?
01:11:37What's wrong
01:11:40Why do we have to go I promise i'll explain everything but we need to leave here right now and then what and then what
01:11:46Bethann
01:11:47We do not have time for this answer me
01:11:49We keep going build a new home someplace better america's a big place we'll have options I promise everything will be okay
01:11:57Bethann I know this is scary. But before you know it we'll find someplace extraordinary. Let me show you something
01:12:04Look at this
01:12:05We'll be able to buy a van like we've talked about i'll deck it out with blankets and two beds
01:12:10I'll even throw a curtain down the middle so you can have your own space
01:12:13We'll go wherever we want just the two of us with no one to fuck with our world
01:12:18What what is happening
01:12:20I feel like my head's been pulled off and i'm seeing everything all fucked and spun around
01:12:26I don't know anything about people or anything
01:12:29All I know is you is that such a bad thing haven't I done right by us one visible
01:12:34Which trust me is the way you want to be
01:12:36I'm, just a big ugly stupid fucking kid who scrounges and steals and lies. No one's gonna know me
01:12:43I don't even think there's a single picture of me
01:12:46This is the picture of you no one's gonna remember me just you
01:12:53What happens when you die
01:12:58Those people who don't notice you they come and go and come and go and grow old and forget about each other
01:13:06pictures
01:13:07They forget about each other before they've even met because people don't matter to each other anymore
01:13:13So they need pictures and phones to convince themselves they even exist
01:13:18They're just vehicles for selfishness and loneliness
01:13:21Things to be fucked and shit on and pitted against each other commodified things
01:13:27But not us because I have you and you have me
01:13:32You say you know isolation i'm telling you you don't
01:13:35Not until you've gone out and tried to live in that merciless
01:13:39fucked
01:13:40capitalist matrix they've made
01:13:43That world needs your loneliness because the worse it makes you feel the more you go out and buy their meaningless shit
01:13:50You think we're poor and invisible and I say yes, and we've escaped the world's biggest fucking monster because of it
01:13:56And I know because i've seen it stared into its fire spitting mouth
01:14:03But bethann
01:14:05We are right back under its nose. And if you want to continue to escape it, we need to leave here right now
01:14:12Why
01:14:14Jose is dead
01:14:16And the police are gonna come here and if they do you will never see me again. That's a promise
01:14:22Did you kill him?
01:14:23He shot himself. It was an accident. Is that his money?
01:14:26Yes, did you want the fucking cops to take it?
01:14:29So you didn't do anything
01:14:31Bethann I promise I will tell you everything but I am begging you we need to leave here right now
01:14:39Okay
01:14:42Okay
01:14:49And you're sure it's the same guy sir, yeah, come on and join us
01:14:55Yeah, I haven't seen him in a week at least
01:14:59That's how it happens sometimes
01:15:01And i'll see one
01:15:03But not the other she armed
01:15:05I doubt it
01:15:08Hello see it ain't locked like I said she's in there thought he'd do
01:15:16Little girl
01:15:20I need you to remain calm take this hide it on yourself just do as I fucking say
01:15:29Now listen to me
01:15:30There is no other way out. Do you hear?
01:15:33If there were I would take it
01:15:36But there is no other way I need you to move back and climb on the bed just fucking do it
01:15:42Honey, just open the door and come on out
01:15:46Nobody's gonna hurt you
01:15:49Now when I run out of here you need to follow me and don't look back you're scaring me honey, it's okay to be scared
01:15:57Just plug your ears
01:15:59Oh, please god
01:16:04We're coming out fuck that's him weapons out
01:16:10I need you to surrender yourself right away
01:16:13Oh
01:16:29Okay
01:16:32Oh
01:16:41Stay down stay down
01:17:01So
01:17:32So
01:17:51Bethann this is federal agent sam wallace flew in this afternoon from virginia just to talk to you
01:18:01I
01:18:06The man you call your father's headed to a holding facility in illinois
01:18:11Were you aware he was keeping the explosives in the storage unit? No
01:18:18I believe you it's what he said, too
01:18:25It's a miracle he's still breathing he'll either recover there in the hospital or he won't
01:18:32I want to see him
01:18:34This is a lot of money
01:18:36How did the two of you come to possess it
01:18:40I said I want to see you're not going to see that man again anytime soon
01:18:44Then I don't answer any of your questions
01:18:47I
01:19:00Been trying to find you too for a long time
01:19:05Especially you
01:19:08I promise i'm only here to help
01:19:17You
01:19:22Do you recognize those people
01:19:25No, not at all
01:19:28I said I don't recognize them
01:19:32Those your grandparents
01:19:35They assume guardianship my dad's parents your mom's it's all right here
01:19:47You
01:19:53This is a picture of your biological parents
01:19:58Man you've been living with it's not your father
01:20:02To be frank we thought you were dead technically speaking this case has been inactive for 12 years
01:20:10Both your grandparents have also since passed or
01:20:13Trust me they'd be here. They left you something of an inheritance not much but something
01:20:26To find you in ohio four places
01:20:38That little girl went missing 14 years ago
01:20:4439 that's you
01:20:50Your real name is lily
01:21:01But what about my dad
01:21:07Your parents
01:21:09Died in a real dad
01:21:10I'm, trying to tell you
01:21:12me? We had descriptions at the time you were taken, but no one's ever been able
01:21:22to find anything legally conclusive. That said, that's Joshua Cherkus. He was
01:21:34dishonorably discharged for desertion in 1991 following two suicides in his unit.
01:21:40One missing, completely off the grid, a couple years later, became a ghost. If you
01:21:49ask me, he should be made a ghost right now for what he did to you, but never
01:21:54mind that. So that's it? I can understand how this is. Do you mind if I step
01:22:09outside for a second? After all you've been through, you go right ahead. Like the
01:22:20fella says, we've got all the time in the world.
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