Welcome to Plathville SS6 - Episode 3
Welcome to Plathville SS6 - Episode 3
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00:00I
00:02Bought a health boat
00:06It takes a little bit of getting used to it's got just enough living space to be manageable
00:19So what's new in Minnesota well
00:24Me and Libby are getting a divorce
00:27Thought I'd come down and get away from it for a little bit. I guess
00:31We're here for you. We're missing Amber Cassie mercy
00:35Kim's got them. Are you gonna try to see them?
00:39But yeah, I don't know how you do it what I don't know how you go out to bars and like you just let guys
00:44Like get that close to you and like touch you and buy you drink. Oh, you set some boundaries
00:49Lydia's definitely already going on dates and I want to try some of that but
00:54Dating after marrying the first guy that you ever even held hands with is wild
01:14Arizona
01:17Sun is shining and lid and I are gonna go out to the bar tonight. Let's go inside and see what's happening and get ready
01:24This is so fun to be in the same place at the same time both single
01:28Thinking about dating having fun. Literally just enjoying life, right? What's your favorite part of putting your outfit together?
01:36What I'm wearing underneath that no one knows but me
01:40So this is my first time going out on the town to a bar since I'm single I
01:46Feel like if I was going out to meet someone or like find someone I'd be so freaking worried
01:51Because it's hard to find people that I'd like be okay dating
01:55I mean, I think that the goal tonight is just to go out and have fun and see what happens
02:06The only thing is every time I've gone out with live weird men find her they're all weird
02:10Most of them what but once you say your standards are kind of pretty high
02:14I'm kind of picky. Yeah
02:17Okay
02:18All right, yep, this is our first night out as well me officially single has been single for a while
02:24But our first time going out together a single woman
02:31All right, let's go
02:49It's
02:52A unique day in the course of history in some respects. All right boys today is a push day
02:58So let's go over here Ethan and let's just do some straight bench presses
03:02I have gotten the guys together all four of us for the first time and we are gonna hit the gym
03:07So do you feel like going to the gym is therapeutic in any way? Yeah, definitely gets a lot of frustration in your out
03:14Yeah, exactly. I found it like really helped when I was frustrated or just having a bad day. I'd go to the gym
03:21It's helped me a lot
03:23Yes, I'm depressed right now. And there's a lot of emotions feelings
03:26Frustrations, I don't know what to do pain or anger
03:31Things in your life can either cripple you or it can be one of the most powerful motivators
03:36For you to change your life. So I feel like I've been working in the right direction in those regards. Yeah
03:45I thought of you many times when I started going through all the stuff with Olivia. I was like, well, what did my dad do?
03:52Well, he went to the gym. Okay, I should start going to the gym
03:55And times when I felt like I couldn't do it. I was like, well if he did it, I certainly can do it. Yeah
04:03Dad you're not as young as you once was I know but he's stronger than you once was I'm stronger than I was at
04:08And was it 28 there you go, this is a phase grief is a phase anger is a phase depression is a phase
04:16And you just walk through it
04:19This must be fake weights
04:26Who else is gonna try this like I want to see you try me I could I could probably do it if I didn't do chess
04:32yesterday
04:34Micah says is that he worked his chest out really hard yesterday. Like that's what he's saying to everybody
04:40You know, I think he did but you know what I did
04:44I did my recon this morning and found out he worked just yesterday really hard. So what did I focus on?
04:50I
04:56Got it
05:03Wish I had known we were gonna do chess today cuz I would have done back yesterday
05:06Yeah, it's so frustrating that
05:10What like a 55 year old can get your butt all over the gym. No
05:15That's not what I was referring to. That is frustrating though. Like you can't even tell I work out
05:20But when I take my shirt off
05:21Jaws hit the floor. Not really. Yeah, it was a joke more like eyes hit the other wall
05:27They don't wanna be looking the wall you're on
05:30Yeah, anyway
05:34It is quite interesting cuz Micah's territory is the gym but I I did I did outdo him
05:41Oh
05:46Everybody's better at something. So just looking at that one. Everybody's better at something and it's got to be
05:52You guys aren't making a fish stories about your gym performance. Oh, yeah. No, I'm being honest. Oh
06:02Well, dude you made a good show of it but I out pumped you today
06:11Oh
06:23This is like one of your first times being out single with me. Mm-hmm. Does it feel liberating? I
06:30Don't know. Do you feel like I'm gonna be a good wingman then?
06:35No, I
06:36Am I definitely am I haven't tested your skills out yet, that's what tonight's for come with me and I'll lead you to some great
06:43people, okay, I
06:44Like you come out on the town quite a lot. Oh, I do. I
06:48Do that's this phase of life right now. I love that for you. Well, I love that you're going out with me
06:53Yes, ma'am. I would not miss it
06:57When I come here and she's going out and she's having fun and I'm like, I'm totally going with you
07:00We're gonna have so much fun like in LA at home back when I lived in Minnesota. I don't really go out to bars by myself
07:06I'm a grandma
07:08I'd rather be home drinking tea and reading books if this doesn't embody grandma vibes in my purse right now
07:14I've got a book in case I'm bored and I want to read I've got a game in case conversations awkward
07:19We need to play something. I've
07:21Got a tub of fresh mozzarella
07:23Because you can't get that at the bar. I have an apple in case I want a later snack
07:28toilet spray
07:30In case you walk in and it does not smell good
07:32Yeah, that's about it
07:34No, that's a great wing moment. Yeah, you couldn't expect anything better. You can have your cheese, but
07:40Like do you feel like it's hard to be single?
07:42No
07:43Really except for when I'm going to bed at night, and I've never had my own bed
07:47I feel like people are asking me a lot of questions in my life right now about like what I like and what I'm experiencing
07:53And I don't know how to answer anything. So I almost like I'm like pulling answers out of midair
07:57I don't really know if I like being single. I don't really know if I like dating. I don't know if I don't
08:01There's no time frame on it. I do whatever you want to do. I'm just like taking what every day brings me
08:06That's why I'm glad you're here because that's literally what I'm living like right now. It's like one day at a time
08:10Yeah, making the most of every day. Cheers to that, bro. Tonight is really about finding out what you're like as a wingman
08:17Yeah, and just having fun and like experiencing things together a single woman her
08:21I'm just asking what your expectations are
08:23So I know my only expectation is that we take care of each other we have each other's back and we have fun
08:29Cheers to a single life, whatever it brings us. Well, can't wait to see what trouble we stir up tonight
08:38Look at these booty shorts. You want these? Yeah, that won't keep me warm. I want to go through my clothes
08:46and get rid of a little bit of the
08:4816 year old Mariah style
08:50You sure?
08:54Ethan when was the last time you saw mom? I don't know. Today's my last day in town
09:00And if I want to see my little sisters, I have to go down to see my mom. So
09:05Yeah, I guess we'll see what that's like
09:20I need new clothes. This is mine. Me too, Lydia. I'll take this one. No, I like that top
09:25I like it too. It's one of the most modest tops I have, okay
09:28But I do have a whole thing of clothes here that look at these booty shorts. You want these? Yeah, that won't keep me warm
09:35You sure?
09:36So I'm getting settled in and I've been going through all my clothes and reorganizing my closet getting rid of clothes and stuff
09:42And Lydia is helping out
09:44Even though we have completely different styles. She just gets me
09:50Oh my goodness. This one is kind of a cool top. I remember this dress
09:56Clothing has always been something I've used to express myself, but my style is kind of slowly changing
10:02I never thought I'd say that
10:04Anyway, I want to go through my my clothes and get rid of a little bit of the
10:0916 year old Mariah style
10:11Literally, I have shorts that like were underwear. It wasn't even shorts. Like that's how skimpy my wardrobe was
10:26There's just like a bunch of strings and ties I know that sounds really bad
10:31It's not like I walked around in bikinis all day, but I kind of did
10:36So
10:37You're finally home. I'm finally home. It's good to have you home, too
10:42It is so good to you've been all over the gosh-dang place. Yeah. Yeah, just all four ends of the country
10:50That's all that's great though. It's been amazing, but there's nothing there's no place like home
10:56I'm still technically living at home. Although I've hardly been here the last six months
10:59I went on a two-month missions trip and it was so phenomenal
11:03And
11:09From there, I kind of just kept traveling
11:13Went to Minnesota to the keys, Tennessee, North Georgia. I kind of caught the travel bug pretty bad
11:24So the mission trip was so amazing just getting to love on people and seeing how that you know
11:29Just changes it impacts them and you mm-hmm. I don't know how long I'll be here, but I'm glad you're here me, too
11:37I'm glad you're here for
11:40Dad cuz like dad would be here by himself all the time and I'd be out traveling and I'm just like
11:46That's home by himself this week. I wish so. I'm glad you're here. I just can't tell you how good it has been to like
11:53Spend some time with dad and stuff cuz like when I left home I left like that
11:59And I just packed my things and was out nobody was even there to say bye and now it's like I'm able to
12:05be here and
12:08Finish my
12:11Childhood yes, you can have your childhood back and then properly move out one day with a hug. Oh
12:19I don't know. This is always just like a landing pad
12:23wherever family is is where home and like I had
12:26Everything planned out blah blah blah I was gonna do this and that and this and that and then it all changed very fast and now
12:33I'm like
12:34Rethinking my future majorly, and I'm wondering do I want to go to college because I'm
12:43It's it's really do I pursue music or do I go to college
12:46I wonder which child's gonna be the first to go to college. I've actually been thinking
12:51About that slightly lately wait not like you've actually not going to college
12:58I've been thinking of a lot of things. I do understand that I definitely understand
13:05this last year has had so many opportunities for growth for me, and
13:11I'm just learning to embrace everything and not let the circumstances change me
13:18I've been through a lot some rough changes
13:22Last year I had mentioned that I was dating someone
13:27He is amazing
13:30Just such an amazing man of God
13:33it's
13:35Sweeter than I could have asked for or thought of or dreamed of and it's more
13:43More beautiful than I could have imagined
13:47That came to an end just recently
13:50It hurts, but when it's not the right time when it's not meant to be then it's time to move on
13:57I've been able to face a lot and and remain
14:02Somewhat decently steady through it all I
14:07have no doubt that that's because I still have my rock that I can stand on that's Jesus and
14:14Whatever path I walk down I
14:18Just keep him first and let him lead me and it's it's beautiful
14:23We could go to college together
14:25We could go to college together. We could go get into debt together
14:31What would you go to college for if you were gonna go I don't know do they have a class to learn about yourself
14:43I
15:05Am NOT much of a
15:07bar goer I
15:10Went one time with a group of friends in Tampa, and it was like my first girls night out at this bar
15:23And it was fun to sin a little bit that night and
15:27Now being single this chapter in my life is all about new experiences, so I guess today is just another one of those
15:33How are you guys doing good Jacob? I go by J
15:36Jackie Jackie where you guys from
15:40She lives here. I just made sure where you originally from Virginia. How's Virginia? I've never been or even
15:47Virginia doesn't where you go you grew up on a farm in the southwest corner of Virginia
15:52So like very redneck okay. I work on one of the bars out here
15:56It's called 50 shades of Rose and almost famous
15:58We've gone out before like on a weekend and where we go depends on where the shorter line is
16:04Like you walk from place to place you're like I'm not standing in that line
16:06So you guys don't have to stand in line though cuz now wait cuz now we know you know it's just cuz the other hot
16:11women I
16:13Love a little bit of cheeky banter like I love a little conversation when I was married
16:17I was like wait was that too much was that flirting and the next time I'd be like I'm not gonna talk to them
16:20Then I'd be like I don't want to live life that way you can have friendly banter with people
16:24I get you guys anything drink
16:26What if we flip the tables and say we'll get you a drink and we'll drink if you drink
16:30I
16:32Think I love you was definitely a little awkward with voting bad. I just feel it prefer being married for so long
16:36You don't have that much experience. I don't really like mine that I'm awkward growing up and not like having a dating phase
16:42There's things I want to learn to be more comfortable about when it comes to talking with guys and having conversations
16:48But at the end of the day, I'm still always gonna be awkward. So always gonna be dorky. It's just me and
16:53That's okay. We used to get up at 7 a.m.. Every morning to go outside and milk the goats and cows is it hard
16:59I know you just basically start and you roll up the fingers super easy. You don't roll up you roll down. That's what I'm saying
17:06Well, I'm going oh
17:08Well, you never really milked that was my time up for a year. You don't remember one year. Yeah, I did it for nine years
17:14Okay, well, it's a weird flex, but usually if a guy comes up to me to hit on me
17:19I know within like 30 seconds if I'm interested or not
17:22These guys are not like guys I would date
17:25Thanks
17:29There is something empowering about buying a man a shot really yes, cuz guys like I'll buy you a shot and be like
17:35I'll buy you a shot. I
17:37also make money I
17:40Fun did you oh, yeah, absolutely
17:42I feel like this is definitely more my scene though, and it was fun bringing you along if there's any super weirdos
17:46I would have chased him out, but
17:48They're all freaks here. So you got to make your choice
17:52Thank you very much and enjoy
17:55Yeah, no, yeah, your name is not Jackie I know so back me up all right Jackie
18:04There they are
18:06It's been a while since I've seen Ethan
18:09I do feel a little nervous and on edge the last few times that we've talked. It's not gone. Well
18:25This looks like it's gonna be a good height
18:28Like these are different mouths in the Appalachians, but they still make you so happy
18:32today is my last day here and
18:35My time in Arizona has been quite fun
18:37This place looks so beautiful. I
18:43Feel like my time with Lydia has been exactly what I needed I'm
18:48Really really grateful for that the very first time I was ever in Arizona
18:52I went to pee outside and I accidentally
18:57Squatted on a cactus because it was dark out and I couldn't see where I was
19:00So I literally just like sat down on a cactus and what did that feel like? I got wrecked. I
19:07Just felt peace with life, right?
19:09Like things are not perfect and I've got my share of frustrating stuff to deal with back in, Minnesota
19:15But even just this little height kind of symbolizes what my life looks like now
19:19I'm choosing to fill it with very positive things positive people
19:23I'm choosing to
19:25Build a happy life for myself and I just feel so at peace with where I am and what I'm filling my time with. Oh
19:34Look at the view this is so beautiful here. It really is. Did you see yourself here a year ago?
19:44No, I definitely did not a year ago you were spending time with me in Minnesota
19:50So much has changed since then
19:53Yeah
19:54Honestly, I don't think I would trade my past like it's not easy, but
19:59It definitely made you into who you are. It did
20:02And sometimes I think about the fact that if I can go through all of this
20:05I'd only have lived 25 years and like I can make it through anything. Mm-hmm
20:10If you could tell yourself one thing in a year based off where you are like right now today
20:15What would you tell yourself? I
20:18Think I would tell myself to not rush life
20:21when you rush you miss out on a lot of things that you're supposed to find or see your people you're supposed to meet and
20:26I think I just want to like take it slow and
20:29What's supposed to happen will happen and be open to whatever crosses my path because it's probably what I need to learn or explore. I
20:38thought I wanted a different life when I was 20 and
20:41In
20:43Some ways this seems like a lifetime ago and in some ways it seems like I was that kid last year
20:50well, I
20:52guess one last final step in Minnesota and
20:55then
20:57Here's to more Arizona trips and hikes and all the good things that we're exploring
21:03Experiencing and making your own destiny. I lay run beyond. Yep. I
21:08Have no idea what to expect when I go back to Minnesota. I just feel like Ethan's very unpredictable
21:14All I know is I would really like to get this wrapped up
21:17I don't want to have to keep traveling back to Minnesota to get that done. So
21:21Second time's the charm
21:24You want to stay for sunset? I kind of do. Yeah, let's stay for sunset
21:30What a great trip
21:38I
21:47Got some mucus in my
21:53Today's my last day in town before I go back to Minnesota
21:57And if I want to see my little sisters, I have to go down
22:01to
22:02See my mom because of the custody, you know 5050 or whatever
22:08So
22:10Yeah, I guess we'll see what that's like
22:13So, what are we gonna do today play with the little girls catch up?
22:18Yeah, we do anything specific with them or just stuck hanging out with them
22:22I'm sure they'll just want to show us all the things that they have to show us. I haven't been
22:28Mom's vote yet. So I don't know
22:31Ethan when was the last time you saw mom? I don't know. I
22:36Think the last time I saw my mom was probably about two years ago
22:40In the past I was hesitant to see my mom because there was so much drama
22:44around her and Olivia and it was just a
22:49Headache you two have made it very clear that you do not accept Olivia
22:54You both know if you can't accept her then you don't get me either but now
22:59You know with me and Olivia getting a divorce Olivia's out of the picture now
23:05I don't know
23:07Just made me like reflect on decisions. I
23:11Would like to have a normal relationship with my mom
23:15to the extent that she is
23:20Capable of I guess
23:22So my mom is a little bit different. My mom's
23:25Not like other moms that I've known she was never very affectionate
23:31You know says not like the the normal motherly type it's just not really not really her
23:54Mariah Micah and Ethan you're coming over today, which is exciting
24:01But at the same time I do feel a little nervous and on edge
24:06it's been a while since I've seen Ethan and
24:10I think I'm just gun-shy from the last few times that we've talked and it's not gone
24:15Well, you and dad had pretty much told us that you don't start dating someone if you're not gonna marry them
24:21The environment that we grew up in yeah, literally bred
24:25somebody that would go
24:27Straight to like want the first person that you had like a mutual
24:32Yeah the feeling for it and it was never taught to any of us that there was another way
24:40Like do you have any remorse for any of that
24:45Things were not on good terms
24:47Then and then there was the credit card story that Olivia told which made everything worse
24:53So honestly, I was a little surprised to hear that he's coming down to visit me
25:00I'm hopeful that we're past all the drama, but Ethan can be unpredictable
25:06he can be
25:09Emotional he can be he can have something stewing on the inside that he's upset about that
25:15You don't know about and then he can just surprise you with it. So I'm a little bit nervous
25:24I
25:29There they are
25:37Those three musketeers, yeah
25:42And it's been years since Ethan and my mom were able to stand each other
25:47So I have no idea really what to expect pretty sure Ethan's gonna want to you know, take a slow
25:52But mom is still his mom and that's never gonna change and she loves him unconditionally and he should do the same
26:22I
26:52Don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know
27:04Those three musketeers, yeah
27:08I'm excited to hang out with my older children
27:11But as far as Ethan and I I kind of have low
27:15Expectations right now because things have been so rocky for so long
27:22Good to see you. I brought you something mom
27:28It might be used okay
27:41Hey, how are you?
27:43I
27:49Was hopeful that Ethan and I might rekindle a real relationship and that was confirmed
27:56When he got out of the truck and he gave me a hug I
28:00Wanted to be there and be available if he wanted to shake my hand or just wave. Hi
28:08But he put his arms out and he hugged me
28:11I've been waiting for that for a long time
28:24Without saying anything it was letting me know
28:28that it's gonna be okay and that he's
28:31He's back as my son
28:34You want to see the boat? Sure. Yeah, I
28:37Gave my mom a hug and she was a little bit emotional about that
28:42Just because she hasn't seen me a long time. She probably misses me and there's just so much
28:48Involved around that whereas before like with me and Olivia, I wouldn't have been something that would have happened
28:54Which is crazy to say, but it's the truth
28:57It's the only like upside to me and Olivia not being together anymore as I can navigate my
29:02Relationship with people as I see fit. I don't have to take anyone else into consideration now. I
29:08Want to meet my mom where she's at and I don't want to give her a hard time
29:12Without cause you know, I feel like I've done that in the past and that was
29:17You know, I wish that I had not
29:21Let things get under my skin like they did
29:24What things get under my skin like they did for no reason
29:29Okay, so you can either leave your shoes on or take them off
29:33Basically, if it falls in the water, it's gone. So now they float
29:38Well, okay. Have you fallen in yet? I have not
29:42None of us have fallen in yet
29:45This is your home. Yeah, this is my well, there's there's more to it. It's not
29:54Looking at the boat. I think we're all thinking the same thing, but none of us are actually saying it
29:59How far do you have to go to go to the bathroom a boat doesn't run?
30:02How far do you have to go to shower do the lights work?
30:06You jump in here and that water looks kind of brown like how does this even work?
30:13How long have you had this a few weeks
30:20Does it run it hasn't run in like a year
30:24I haven't done anything with
30:26Running it or starting it or anything like that
30:28My mom went from her and my dad and all these kids in this house
30:34Who wants to see the inside? I want to see the inside to you to split and then she's on the boat and that's like home
30:41now
30:44And the booty doesn't even run so she can't like get on the water she's stuck in a you know, the dock
30:50There's a little galley here a little fridge. I
30:53Guess all I can say is just
30:56Things are different now
30:58What's in there? Well, there's more of the tour
31:03This is the master bedroom
31:05I think I'm gonna buy myself a boat me and blackjack. I can go sailing off into no man's land
31:11My mom's definitely a free spirit
31:13She's definitely I really don't care type of person and that's one of the things that I love the most about my mom, honestly
31:20Don't you want to get on a kayak and go see where that goes you just go swim and see where it goes
31:32Is it weird seeing mom kind of
31:39Mom's definitely changed a lot. She's a very unique person, but I've really grown to
31:46Appreciate a lot about her. I guess I'm just looking at it going like
31:51Change from you know where she was
31:54Three years ago. Mm-hmm to where she is today. I mean, I hope she's happy. I hope she's better for it
32:01and
32:01there was a lot of things that I was frustrated with mom about and like it took a long time for me to adjust to
32:07it was something that I
32:10Didn't realize was as easy to do that. I now really appreciate is that she
32:16Doesn't really get her feelings hurt
32:19Like she's kind of that because she doesn't know how to really feel stuff. Maybe
32:25the reason why I asked because I
32:27Kind of feel same way like I don't really get too hurt about stuff. But at the same time, I don't really feel much
32:36To me being able to be 100% vulnerable is very difficult
32:40And I couldn't with Olivia because things would turn into a fight and that's why
32:45There was so much resentment on my end that built up and that takes years for me to
32:51Eventually get to a breaking point and then once I do reach that point, it's too late
32:58So in the future, I will have to be
33:02vulnerable with certain people it also
33:06Knit things in the bud for myself before they get out of control. What else you guys want to do before we leave?
33:13so
33:15I know you I know you met Ken like one time a long time ago
33:20But I mean his place isn't far from here. We could go hang out there for a while
33:24We could play pool and stuff like that
33:29Well, I guess we can go maybe
33:32another time
33:33To Ken's or whatever
33:36But not today
33:43I'm not
33:45up for
33:46meeting Ken
33:48And I know my siblings are in a different place than I am because they're there and it's happening around them
33:53But me coming from the outside not having seen my mom in a long time
33:57It's just way too much too soon like the thought of meeting Ken
34:00They ain't gonna leave anybody I have a close relationship, I don't think. It's not my dad, not my second dad
34:06Not my stepdaddy
34:09I'm kind of itchy to get back on the road
34:12Yeah, your trip's coming to an end. We should pack as much as we can in. I would say it's a little early
34:19To say oh everything's cohesive and we're all together now
34:25There's a whole bunch of things I'd love to talk to Ethan about but
34:28But I also know where he's at right now
34:31It was enough for me that he reached out today and hugged me
34:37I'll see you. Okay, you know you can call me anytime. Okay. Okay. Sound good
34:51I hear you when you cry at night. I know and it's too hard
34:57It's too hard to find
35:11So it's your last night here I know it was like a whirlwind tour right you're here one day gone the next
35:18Micah thinks it's great, but he's having a hard time verbalizing how he feels cuz he's in the land of I am just exhausted
35:28But it's been great to spend some time together and to hear where you're at
35:32It's been good to see everybody and I've enjoyed my time
35:37Back home I
35:39Enjoyed my time with my mom and my little sisters. It was a lot of fun going to the gym with my brothers and my dad
35:47You're gonna come back
35:48Yeah, so you'll come back. I'm not sure when the next time I'll be back is but
35:53Well, we'll take it we'll play that by ear Ethan we should just all move back here
36:00Every time I come back home everybody's growing up and busy and Isaac's doing stuff with his plane Lydia's
36:05Doing whatever she's doing. The little girls are growing up and doing
36:10jiu-jitsu or whatever and
36:12You know, it's like it's a lot of changes
36:17It's
36:20Who wants to get guitars and say does anyone anyone want to join or is it just Mariah?
36:26I think there'll be a negative here. I'll listen. Oh
36:30I'll be the kind. Oh, and you know what? I play. I only play the radio
36:36It's Ethan's last night here, which is really sad but
36:41Mariah and I are going up to Minnesota. So I'll be seeing him soon
36:47I don't know if it's tuned. Those are strings
36:54Unfortunately, Mike and Isaac are barely conscious, I don't know what's going on with them, but the boys are out of it
37:02I'm sure if you set up
37:04He's tried. He's like he's fatigued. I'm like a Tesla on
37:101%
37:11Should I try to sing a song to encourage all you guys or something? Sing us sing me a song. It's best the guitar
37:17That's the guitar. I will be
37:19Lydia's about to wake the whole house
37:26I've seen tears
37:29And I feel your pain
37:33I
37:34Hear you when you cry at night, I know and it's too hard to find
37:43But I'll carry you
37:47So here we are sitting on the couch Lydia's playing music it's a great message and
37:52Micah is enjoying the inside of his eyelids
37:56Right. I mean that they must have been really interesting, you know, cuz he was checking him out pretty intensely
38:04I
38:10I've been up since 3 a.m. So I'm gonna go ahead and call it quits for the night
38:16It's good to see you again. Oh, yeah, you can call me at any time. I
38:21Apologize, but I gotta get this. All right. Good night. Y'all. Okay, if you're leaving early in the morning
38:26Just you can wake me up. Yeah, get the better
38:29Good good. See ya
38:31Those guys are tired. Whatever
38:34Ethan do you wanna play something?
38:36Well, I did write a song recently. I guess it's finished. I don't know
38:40This is the first song that I wrote shortly after me and Olivia split up
38:43So it's it's it's like a depressing song, but made me feel a lot better
38:48Anyways, here it is
38:52When you trust someone it gets you killed when you love someone
38:58They'll hurt you still
39:00Live in a life. That's real
39:04Gets you faded
39:08Lord sometimes it seems to me in life. You just can't win
39:15Music has always lifted my spirits and
39:18Soon as I started playing I started feeling better
39:20Well, you know the pain that a man can face you can see the sorrow in my face
39:29troubles in life to me
39:32I just to give it
39:36Lord sometimes I wish that I wasn't still living. I
39:43Haven't seen Ethan vulnerable in years. I know that's really hard for him
39:47You know to open up like that and so seeing him be able to do that in a song that makes me
39:54Happy, I mean, it's sad that that's how he feels but it's good that he's able to express that in some way
40:02Lord sometimes it seems to me in life. You just can't win
40:09Except now now cuz you're a winner in our book. Yeah, but sometimes it seems like I can't win. Yeah, it seems
40:17I've headed back to Minnesota shortly and then
40:21Olivia's and me coming back to Minnesota
40:24shortly after that
40:25to
40:27Settle everything and finalized divorce paperwork
40:31I mean if it's gonna happen, I guess just go ahead and get it over with but I am dreading
40:37It actually, you know signing the papers and saying goodbye for real
40:43There's some things that I'm not looking forward to you when I get back to Minnesota, but
40:48I'm just gonna enjoy the last bit of time with my family before I go back
40:55Guys what if we sang a song that we used to sing as a family? Let's just wing it to see how I guess
41:01the sunny side
41:03always on the sunny side
41:06Keep on the sunny side of life
41:17If you keep on sunny side, you knew the chords better than I did
41:24I
41:29Just handled situations in a way that I really should not have
41:33You talking about like with Olivia? Yeah, I really feel like the right thing for me to do is to apologize
41:40for what I know I did wrong I
41:43Texted her to meet up and talk things through
41:48This is poor and this is starboard, right? Um, I
41:52I don't know. I forget my mom knows very little about mechanics. Do your blowers work?
41:59What are the blowers you have a key for the boat?
42:03There's a key in there
42:07Completely out of the blue. I got a text from Mariah
42:10It very much took me by surprise
42:13If it turns into like a scapegoat kind of conversation, I'm going to excuse myself and walk away
42:21I know what I have to say
42:26You got this bitch