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00:00:00Thanks for watching.
00:01:30I don't have a reason to kill you, so take care of yourself.
00:01:33And now, you, take care of yourself.
00:01:36But you, you don't need me anymore.
00:01:40You feel useless.
00:01:42Yes, I feel useless.
00:01:44But now, you don't need me anymore.
00:01:46I feel useless.
00:01:49Do you feel useless now?
00:01:51I feel useless, but not for you.
00:01:54Honestly, I feel useless.
00:01:56In the absolute.
00:02:01SEPTEMBER 2013
00:02:12I told you, you didn't say anything about the mirrors, did you?
00:02:18It's really a criss-cross apartment now.
00:02:22You said you needed one room, and then you can do whatever you want, right?
00:02:26If you can keep this room, you should be able to invest.
00:02:31You won't find a better time to buy it.
00:02:34I don't want anything else.
00:02:36If it's empty, it's fine. If it's not empty, I don't want anything else.
00:02:39Do you understand?
00:02:40I understand.
00:02:42I'm telling you, I don't mind. I just want this room.
00:02:46The bathroom room. I don't want anything else.
00:02:50No, but I honestly think that...
00:02:53the subjects, the questions I ask you,
00:02:56everything we say now, when it's fresh, when the emotion is there,
00:03:00that's what should be in the film.
00:03:04It's not after, when it's built.
00:03:07You have to make an effort to buy a camera, a tripod, a sound, and do it well.
00:03:12Yes, but if I put a camera now, I lose the emotion.
00:03:15Do you understand what I mean?
00:03:17I don't want that. I don't want to put the camera and the sound.
00:03:20I don't want that.
00:03:22Now I don't want that.
00:03:24In any case, unlocking that is very good.
00:03:28It's about me right now. I want to kiss you.
00:03:30You kiss me right now?
00:03:32No, no.
00:03:34Gabi, what's the problem with the microphone?
00:03:38Aren't you going to say something?
00:03:43What do you think?
00:03:45Do you know him?
00:03:47Yes.
00:03:48Are you filming this?
00:03:50It's not...
00:03:52One doesn't want to talk about personal things.
00:03:57In general.
00:03:59It doesn't bother people.
00:04:01But I want, God willing,
00:04:03that you give me the tape of Nana.
00:04:06The tape.
00:04:08Because you told me that you made recordings with her.
00:04:11With my mother.
00:04:14Because I want, Yanis,
00:04:16I'm interested in understanding
00:04:18the women of the family.
00:04:21I want to understand a little more what it was like.
00:04:24Why do you want to understand?
00:04:26Because I'm a woman, because I have a daughter,
00:04:28because I'm like that.
00:04:30It's my mechanism, of course I tell you.
00:04:33You understand why they say,
00:04:35what age is she now?
00:04:38There are young people in the family.
00:04:41They don't see it, but that's how it is.
00:04:49What do you want to do with it?
00:04:51Do you want to film your life?
00:04:53No.
00:04:54My life is not interesting.
00:04:56We never had in the family something important
00:04:59to be told.
00:05:01Nothing.
00:05:03In all families there are important things.
00:05:06No, there are others.
00:05:08There are divorces, there are crimes,
00:05:10there are a lot in our family.
00:05:12Our family, our life has always been insignificant.
00:05:15We are a family.
00:05:17But crimes are bad stories,
00:05:19they are artificial stories,
00:05:21but these are the extremes.
00:05:23Yes, our life has always been stupid and simple.
00:05:26Aunt Marcel.
00:05:28Very punctual.
00:05:30What time?
00:05:32Eleven o'clock.
00:05:34Very punctual.
00:05:38This is the first time I've seen you in the studio.
00:05:41What's your name?
00:05:43Marianne.
00:05:45What are you doing here?
00:05:47Go home and sleep.
00:05:49No, I'm going to film.
00:05:51I'm coming.
00:05:53I'm waiting for you.
00:05:55I've seen everything in my life.
00:05:58I'm going to film.
00:06:00We'll see.
00:06:08Why me?
00:06:10Why you?
00:06:12Do you know who I'm making the film about?
00:06:14About you.
00:06:16No, not me.
00:06:18About my mother.
00:06:20I didn't want to talk about it.
00:06:22I had already discussed the subject.
00:06:24And when you came back
00:06:26and asked me questions,
00:06:28you changed the subject
00:06:30and made me think again.
00:06:32Think about what?
00:06:34What did you ask me?
00:06:36What did you ask me?
00:06:42You forgot.
00:06:44I'll tell you what you asked me.
00:06:46You didn't ask me.
00:06:48You started asking yourself questions.
00:06:50When you started asking yourself questions,
00:06:52I started asking myself questions.
00:06:58I started moving.
00:07:00What questions?
00:07:02I started thinking
00:07:04very clearly
00:07:06about the importance
00:07:08of my mother to my daughter.
00:07:10Did my mother help me?
00:07:12Did my mother
00:07:14stop me from doing
00:07:16a lot of things
00:07:18I wanted to do in life?
00:07:20How did my relationship with her
00:07:22affect me as a person today?
00:07:24For example, I knew
00:07:26my mother didn't want daughters.
00:07:28She had two sons.
00:07:30She didn't want to have another child.
00:07:32When she found out
00:07:34she was pregnant,
00:07:36she said,
00:07:38I want a boy, not a girl.
00:07:40I also found out
00:07:42she wanted to have an abortion.
00:07:46Who else did I know?
00:07:48Did I know Shaheen?
00:07:50I don't know.
00:07:52I went to talk to my aunt
00:07:54because I thought
00:07:56she would register
00:07:58because she felt she was growing up
00:08:00and she was the only one left in the family.
00:08:02I told her I would go
00:08:04and talk to her.
00:08:06She was the only witness
00:08:08to my mother, father,
00:08:10and all of this.
00:08:12I went to talk to her
00:08:14and her daughter
00:08:16and she told me this story.
00:08:18I dragged her out
00:08:20of the operation room.
00:08:22How?
00:08:24I went to the doctor.
00:08:26I didn't want her anymore.
00:08:28There was something wrong with her.
00:08:30I went to the doctor.
00:08:32I went to her house
00:08:34because I told her
00:08:36there was nothing wrong with her.
00:08:38I went in and saw something wrong.
00:08:40I asked her where Iris was.
00:08:42She told me she was in the room
00:08:44because of the operation.
00:08:46I knocked on the door
00:08:48and went to the doctor.
00:08:52I told him,
00:08:54If you don't do the operation,
00:08:56you will go to jail.
00:08:58I will go from here
00:09:00and I will imprison you.
00:09:04She insisted.
00:09:06I told her,
00:09:08get up.
00:09:10I told him,
00:09:12I am her husband's sister
00:09:14and I don't know anything.
00:09:16If you do the operation,
00:09:18you will go to jail.
00:09:20He insisted
00:09:22and he didn't want any children.
00:09:26I am the reason
00:09:28why she is still alive.
00:09:30She told me the story
00:09:32clearly.
00:09:34She told me the details
00:09:36and the name of the doctor
00:09:38and that my mother passed away.
00:09:40I didn't hide it.
00:09:42Maybe I started to understand
00:09:44things.
00:09:46Why do I have this discomfort?
00:09:48Why do I have discomfort all the time?
00:09:50Discomfort.
00:09:52I feel something is wrong.
00:09:54I am not comfortable.
00:09:58I am not comfortable with myself.
00:10:00I always feel
00:10:02something is bothering me.
00:10:04There is something
00:10:06in my stomach
00:10:08that makes me
00:10:10uncomfortable.
00:10:12There is something.
00:10:14I was trying to understand it.
00:10:16Where does it come from?
00:10:18I was trying to understand it.
00:10:20Does this story
00:10:22cause me
00:10:24this discomfort
00:10:26or this feeling
00:10:28that something is
00:10:30bothering me?
00:10:32Why? Maybe I am comfortable
00:10:34and I have children
00:10:36and a job.
00:10:38I can live well.
00:10:40I don't have a big problem.
00:10:42I don't have a disaster.
00:10:44But I still have a feeling
00:10:46that is bothering me.
00:10:48Do you understand?
00:10:50Maybe when she was pregnant
00:10:52you also felt it.
00:10:54Maybe.
00:10:56Maybe.
00:10:58Do you want it or not?
00:11:00Maybe the feeling
00:11:02that my mother
00:11:04didn't want me
00:11:06is what makes me
00:11:08feel
00:11:10this discomfort.
00:11:12But this is
00:11:14an easy solution.
00:11:16This is an easy solution.
00:11:18Do you understand?
00:11:20Maybe she didn't want me.
00:11:22But when I was born
00:11:24they took care of me.
00:11:26I don't know.
00:11:28Maybe this is an easy solution.
00:11:30I am trying to find an easy solution.
00:11:32But when you were born
00:11:34and grew up,
00:11:36why didn't you love her?
00:11:38She loved me in her own way.
00:11:40She loved me
00:11:42in her own way.
00:11:48Merry Christmas.
00:11:50No, no.
00:11:52I don't want eggs.
00:11:54I don't want eggs.
00:11:56I don't want eggs.
00:11:58I don't want eggs.
00:12:00I don't want eggs.
00:12:02Woody.
00:12:04Give me the salad.
00:12:06Give me the salad.
00:12:08Give me the salad.
00:12:10Give me the salad.
00:12:12You can't eat it?
00:12:14Ok.
00:12:16Olive oil.
00:12:20The dishes are ready.
00:12:22I hope you will be ready.
00:12:24Thank you.
00:12:26I will not love her.
00:12:28I will not love her.
00:12:30I will not love her.
00:12:32I am not your mother.
00:12:34I am your mother.
00:12:36I am your mother.
00:12:38Do you want some tea?
00:12:40Yes.
00:12:44Do you want a piece of meat?
00:12:46Yes.
00:12:51It was the 6th of December.
00:12:56What happened on the 6th of December?
00:12:58Did you go to Marrakech or Gaza?
00:13:00No, I went to...
00:13:04...a restaurant.
00:13:06I haven't made my assessment with my mother or grandmother yet.
00:13:10And that is progressing at a great pace...
00:13:13...because of my relationship with my daughter.
00:13:15My daughter looks a lot like the women of the family.
00:13:18I see in her the strength of a man...
00:13:20...and the anxious look of my mother.
00:13:23She is a young lady...
00:13:26...who has the tongue of a god, like her grandmother.
00:13:29She has a lot of my mother and my grandmother.
00:13:31She has a lot, but she has a lot of my mother.
00:13:34Don't forget that both of them were...
00:13:36...in their eyes, in everything.
00:13:38...ultra-intelligent.
00:13:41And your mother is intelligent...
00:13:43...and has a rapid reflexes.
00:13:47She had an instinctive intelligence.
00:13:50It was...
00:13:54We call that, after a certain time, a talent.
00:13:59This is the third one.
00:14:02The third one.
00:14:04I left the answer for Uncle Joe.
00:14:06He wrote it from the boat when he went to America.
00:14:09We read it three times.
00:14:11It's nice.
00:14:14Take a picture inside, it's nicer.
00:14:19Yes, we saw it.
00:14:23Yes, we saw a small one.
00:14:26No, you go and sit.
00:14:39Forever.
00:14:56Is this Elie's?
00:14:58No, this is Elie's.
00:15:05Elie, he said...
00:15:10Gorgeous.
00:15:11But your dad was not that much good-looking.
00:15:14Dad was good-looking?
00:15:15No, no, no, he wasn't.
00:15:17His father.
00:15:19My father was alright.
00:15:22He was alright.
00:15:26Who was more handsome, Elie or Gabi?
00:15:29Elie.
00:15:30Did you like Elie and Gabi more?
00:15:34It was obvious that she liked Elie a lot.
00:15:37Her relationship with Elie was very close.
00:15:40Elie was a traveler in England...
00:15:43...and he talked to her every day...
00:15:45...to know what to cook at home.
00:15:48And Gabi?
00:15:49Gabi, maybe...
00:15:51Maybe she also loved him a lot...
00:15:53...but maybe there was something more about Elie.
00:15:56She was very concerned about Gabi...
00:15:58...because Gabi had a problem when he was young.
00:16:01He had polio and...
00:16:03But she loved him...
00:16:05Did you know how to love?
00:16:07That's a very big question.
00:16:09I don't know.
00:16:10Did you know how to love?
00:16:12What do you mean, did you know how to love?
00:16:14Did you know how to love?
00:16:16I didn't know how to love.
00:16:18Did you know how to give?
00:16:21Yes, she gave everything she had.
00:16:23She had nothing but emotions.
00:16:25Everything she had were emotions.
00:16:27Did you know how to love?
00:16:29Yes, maybe.
00:16:30Did you know how to receive?
00:16:32I don't know.
00:16:33That's a big question.
00:16:34Did she know how to love and receive?
00:16:36That's a very good question.
00:16:38Because you have to learn to love...
00:16:40...and to give and receive.
00:16:42How do you receive?
00:16:44Every time I hear about your mother...
00:16:46...I hear about how depressed she was.
00:16:48Yes.
00:16:50Yes, she was depressed.
00:16:52When you're depressed, you can't do anything.
00:16:56Depression is also selfish.
00:17:00Yes.
00:17:04People talk about her as if she was a hero...
00:17:06...all the time.
00:17:08I don't understand.
00:17:10People talk about her all the time...
00:17:12...as if she was the woman who had charisma.
00:17:16As soon as she came home from work...
00:17:18...she stole everyone's attention.
00:17:20People said that all the time.
00:17:22Yes.
00:17:24She had charisma and everything...
00:17:26...but what else did she have?
00:17:28She wasn't a good mother.
00:17:31Iris wasn't a bad mother.
00:17:33Not at all.
00:17:35She didn't have any flaws.
00:17:40On the contrary, she was very open-minded.
00:17:44She was...
00:17:47I don't know what to say.
00:17:49She didn't have any flaws.
00:17:51You know her better than we do.
00:17:53No, I have nothing to do with her.
00:17:55You lived with her.
00:17:57I have nothing to do with her.
00:18:01From the moment Marianne said it...
00:18:03...I started to think.
00:18:05I started to think.
00:18:07She wanted to make a film about Iris.
00:18:10And I...
00:18:12My father wanted to live with her.
00:18:15I started to think.
00:18:17What is my relationship with her?
00:18:19First of all, there are a lot of things I forgot.
00:18:22Then I started to say...
00:18:24Then I started to say...
00:18:26...how much I lived with her...
00:18:28...and how much I was aware of her.
00:18:30Because in the end, as you say...
00:18:32...we didn't live a lot with her.
00:18:35When I was young...
00:18:38...she used to push me to do sports.
00:18:41She used to push me to ride a bike.
00:18:44She used to push me to do things...
00:18:47...that I didn't know how to do.
00:18:50One day, I said I didn't know how to drive a car.
00:18:53She took me...
00:18:55...and I drove the BMW in Beirut...
00:18:57...with people.
00:18:59I didn't know what to do.
00:19:01I said I didn't know how to drive a car...
00:19:04...because I had polio.
00:19:11I don't have a clear picture of a certain character.
00:19:15As you say, Mariam...
00:19:17...is the person I lived with the most day to day.
00:19:25She was a strong photogenic in the pictures.
00:19:28Yes.
00:19:29When she was young, she was like that.
00:19:31Because she was a strong woman.
00:19:33Yes.
00:19:55Omar, this is her.
00:19:57She looks exactly like Omar.
00:20:02Smile.
00:20:04Smile.
00:20:30The mother in the film is your grandmother.
00:20:33The mother in the film is your grandmother.
00:20:36The lady who has the means.
00:20:38Is she an aunt or the grandmother?
00:20:40No, the aunt was something else.
00:20:43It was the grandmother who lived with us.
00:20:47My father hated her...
00:20:49...because he didn't stop telling her...
00:20:52...that her mother made him laugh a lot better than her.
00:20:57Once we had a fight, your mother and I...
00:21:00...were sent to another room.
00:21:05Did she sell Omar's dress?
00:21:08Did she sell Omar's dress?
00:21:10Yes.
00:21:11It was her sister who had Omar's dress.
00:21:14My grandmother's sister.
00:21:16The one who always had to do a special kind of ceremony.
00:21:21She had to wear...
00:21:24...the...
00:21:27...safari dress.
00:21:29I don't even know what it was.
00:21:31I think it was the Kwan.
00:21:33The Kwan.
00:21:34Where were they from?
00:21:36The mother of...
00:21:38My grandmother?
00:21:39No, it wasn't my grandmother's mother.
00:21:41It was my grandmother's sister.
00:21:43Were they of Egyptian or Lebanese origin?
00:21:47I think they both came from...
00:21:52Let's go to...
00:21:56There's another city on the sea too.
00:21:59Ladeia?
00:22:00In Syria.
00:22:01Ladeia?
00:22:02Ladeia.
00:22:03Like my father.
00:22:05Your father is from Ladeia?
00:22:07I think so.
00:22:09He was born in Tantan, but his mother...
00:22:12His mother, originally.
00:22:14It seems that there were a lot of people from Ladeia...
00:22:19They met each other.
00:22:21There was always a ceremony.
00:22:24We really had to...
00:22:27...try our best to find something to do with the ceremony.
00:22:31But if we didn't, my grandmother would blackmail us.
00:22:35How can you leave the ceremony and go to Hafez?
00:22:39Do you want to leave him in front of my family?
00:22:41They say it happens 13 times.
00:22:43We won't be late, Mom.
00:22:45Just so that Yahya doesn't get upset.
00:22:47I don't care if Yahya gets upset.
00:22:49I'm the one who gets upset.
00:22:52Don't take it out on me.
00:22:54We didn't like her very much because she was...
00:22:58She was a tabar.
00:23:00She was my grandmother's sister.
00:23:02She was a tabar and we were close.
00:23:05We never asked her for anything.
00:23:08She was very tabar.
00:23:10It's not logical.
00:23:12She was so tabar that there was a story...
00:23:15She went to a party once.
00:23:18She saw a mountain of ice.
00:23:23She said she had to take it to her husband.
00:23:26She took the ice and put it in her pocket.
00:23:29She would have spilled it everywhere.
00:23:32But you had to respect her.
00:23:34It was very difficult.
00:23:40Do you speak French at home?
00:23:42Like all the Alexandrians.
00:23:44French, Arabic, Italian.
00:23:46Like when I learned with the Italians.
00:23:49We rented an apartment and took a cab.
00:23:53It was fun.
00:23:55There were lots of kids.
00:23:57Lots of Italians.
00:24:12It might be.
00:24:14This is you.
00:24:16You and me.
00:24:30I want to tell you something.
00:24:32There were three children.
00:24:34The one who died.
00:24:36The one who died.
00:24:38Alfred.
00:24:41He was very young.
00:24:43He was a baby.
00:24:45He was a baby.
00:24:47He was one year older than you.
00:24:50Two years.
00:24:54Do you know who he was?
00:24:56He was 26 years old.
00:24:58He was a banker.
00:25:00I was 26.
00:25:02He was a banker.
00:25:05That's why I don't like the Christmas period.
00:25:09Because they die at that time.
00:25:13There was a fire.
00:25:15I was very close to the fire.
00:25:18A candle fell and the fire went out.
00:25:24For my grandmother, it was a bad omen.
00:25:28When they asked who had died,
00:25:31I said it wasn't me.
00:25:33It was him.
00:25:35Six days later, he died.
00:25:37I thought I was the one who should have died.
00:25:40My grandmother said,
00:25:42there was only one survivor.
00:25:45I was very troubled by that.
00:25:48The sheets were wet.
00:25:51Terribly.
00:25:53That's when I was really confused.
00:25:57That's when I was really confused.
00:26:01My mother lost a 9-year-old son.
00:26:07It was a drama for years.
00:26:10Like me, I was the only one left.
00:26:13Except for my daughter.
00:26:15For a very long time,
00:26:17until I was 16 or 17,
00:26:19they told me to sit on my knees.
00:26:27We were friends.
00:26:29From school.
00:26:31Were you together at school?
00:26:33Yes.
00:26:34Which school?
00:26:35St. Jean.
00:26:37In Chatby.
00:26:39Were you in the same class?
00:26:41No.
00:26:43I was in the front.
00:26:45My mother wasn't very good.
00:26:47Why did you become friends?
00:26:49She was a very good girl.
00:26:52She is very good.
00:26:54How did she treat you at the apartment?
00:26:56At the apartment? She was a pain in the ass.
00:27:00She was already more sociable.
00:27:03She had more friends in Chadwi.
00:27:06She had more knowledge.
00:27:08Her grandmother had more knowledge.
00:27:10We lived in a club, but we were no longer retired.
00:27:14My mother didn't go out,
00:27:16since my father was sick.
00:27:18It was she who introduced me to everyone,
00:27:21the whole group, Sam Marco.
00:27:23And when you weren't in the same school,
00:27:25you were still friends?
00:27:27Yes, of course.
00:27:28We were even more friends after school.
00:27:31We were always friends, always, always.
00:27:34And after we got married,
00:27:36I came to the school to work as a secretary.
00:27:39We were afraid that she would become...
00:27:49Katerinette... I don't remember.
00:27:53Become what?
00:27:54Katerinette, she had a fiancé.
00:27:58Ah, I see.
00:28:01She got engaged.
00:28:03Ah, that she would become what, I don't understand.
00:28:06Katerinette would become my fiancée.
00:28:13Your fiancée?
00:28:14Yes.
00:28:15Before her father.
00:28:16Ah, I see.
00:28:18Her father gave her one of his diamonds,
00:28:20and she fell in love with him.
00:28:24She wasn't surprised.
00:28:26She saw him sitting,
00:28:27having dinner with his friend.
00:28:30She gave him two pairs of diamonds,
00:28:32she took the plane and went back to London.
00:28:36Yes.
00:28:37Did she tell you or who told you?
00:28:39She told me.
00:28:41Everyone told me.
00:28:43Everyone in Alexandria told me.
00:28:47But you introduced my mother to my father.
00:28:50Of course, she knew your father from me.
00:28:53Didn't she come to the house
00:28:54and my brother would sit with us?
00:28:56He would see her.
00:28:57But your father was much older than you.
00:29:00Yes, he was.
00:29:02He was about 15 years older than your mother.
00:29:0712 or 15 years.
00:29:09Something like that.
00:29:11When he saw her,
00:29:12did he decide to marry her?
00:29:14No.
00:29:15No, no.
00:29:17He saw her as a friend,
00:29:19as a little girl.
00:29:21He didn't look at her to marry her.
00:29:25As you say, there was a difference.
00:29:28Did she love him?
00:29:29Yes, of course, she loved him.
00:29:31When you met him for the first time,
00:29:33did you marry him?
00:29:34No, when I met him for the first time,
00:29:36and she was my friend,
00:29:38she was very polite,
00:29:40calm, good, and fast.
00:29:45He married my stepfather.
00:29:47Because he would never leave the family
00:29:50unless he married all of us.
00:29:53You all married before him.
00:29:55He married all of us.
00:29:57Before him?
00:29:58Yes.
00:29:59So he had...
00:30:00No, I mean,
00:30:02just a few years, Maryam.
00:30:07Just a few years.
00:30:09So he was about 40 years older than you.
00:30:11He was 40 years older than me.
00:30:13Yes.
00:30:14There was a difference of 50 years between me and him.
00:30:17Me and my father.
00:30:19You and your father, yes.
00:30:24At the time, there was no awareness.
00:30:27All the focus was on Youssef Shaheen.
00:30:30He was the one who could go and learn,
00:30:32he was the one who had the talent,
00:30:35he was the one who would support the family,
00:30:38he, he, he.
00:30:40There was no focus on her.
00:30:42She was there, and that was it.
00:30:44And then when they believed him,
00:30:46this man came and asked for her.
00:30:48So they all said,
00:30:49yes, it's obvious, he'll take her with him,
00:30:51and he'll be able to spend money on the house,
00:30:53and open a house, and I don't know what else.
00:30:55Shh.
00:31:25Yahya.
00:31:31The world must go around.
00:31:56He doesn't go fishing,
00:31:58he doesn't laugh, he doesn't play table tennis.
00:32:00It's work.
00:32:01It's work for him, work, work.
00:32:04When he grows up, he'll have a daughter.
00:32:07I mean, a sister.
00:32:09You won't see days like the black days
00:32:11that your mother saw with me.
00:32:13Days without bread, without rice,
00:32:15without meat, without vegetables,
00:32:17without soap, without nylon socks.
00:32:21Life is nylon socks.
00:32:24I'm going to ask my mother.
00:32:27People always didn't have enough.
00:32:29Your father didn't earn much.
00:32:31Everyone made money.
00:32:32There was a lot of money.
00:32:33The only ones who were embarrassed were you,
00:32:35as I recall.
00:32:36Yes, because your father's work
00:32:38wasn't a job that could be mixed with other people's.
00:32:41He said he'd leave the money at home,
00:32:43the money he earned,
00:32:45because I remember,
00:32:46even when we had pocket money,
00:32:48I don't know, it was hard.
00:32:51We didn't earn enough.
00:32:53We didn't earn enough.
00:32:55We had to pay for the office, the house.
00:32:57We didn't earn enough.
00:32:59We never stayed without food.
00:33:01No, without food, no.
00:33:03We got what we wanted,
00:33:05but it was hard.
00:33:07For example, the rent was delayed.
00:33:10Sometimes we couldn't pay.
00:33:12Then we got by.
00:33:13We paid.
00:33:14We were more relaxed
00:33:16when he worked in the municipality.
00:33:18Did you ever have someone to help you?
00:33:21All those rich families you knew?
00:33:23No, no, no.
00:33:24No one did what we did.
00:33:28No, no, really.
00:33:30Maybe we would have lived.
00:33:32We were happy.
00:33:33Yes, you're right.
00:33:34That's your character.
00:33:35Maybe.
00:33:36Until now, everyone thinks
00:33:38that I'm rich, that I have a lot of money.
00:33:40And it's better.
00:33:41I prefer that.
00:33:42Because when people know
00:33:44that someone is embarrassed,
00:33:46they run away.
00:33:47Yes, they run away.
00:33:48That's it.
00:33:49We didn't feel anything.
00:33:50Until now, I don't owe anyone anything.
00:33:54I don't like it at all.
00:33:56I don't have it.
00:33:57I don't want it.
00:33:58What do you do when you don't have it?
00:34:00I don't play.
00:34:01Is it the game that made you rich?
00:34:03No, no.
00:34:04I don't want to buy expensive things.
00:34:07I don't want to buy things.
00:34:09I don't want to buy gas masks.
00:34:11I don't like it.
00:34:12I don't like it.
00:34:18Take it.
00:34:20Take it.
00:34:22Is it a arranged marriage?
00:34:24Yes.
00:34:25Yes, my aunt arranged this marriage.
00:34:30My aunt arranged this marriage.
00:34:33Do you understand?
00:34:34She was my aunt's friend.
00:34:36Yes.
00:34:46The marriage didn't take place, or did it?
00:34:48No.
00:34:49What happened?
00:34:51My mother died on Saturday at midnight.
00:34:56The wedding was on Sunday afternoon at the church.
00:35:01She had a heart attack.
00:35:07Unexpectedly?
00:35:08Unexpectedly.
00:35:10Because she was angry that her son would get married on Sunday?
00:35:12No, no, no.
00:35:13It was my mother's dream.
00:35:16Her dream.
00:35:17My mother loved Iris.
00:35:19My mother loved Iris.
00:35:20She totally agreed.
00:35:22It was my mother's dream that her son would get married.
00:35:26And that he would end up with all the responsibility he had all his life.
00:35:30Everyone was happy about the wedding.
00:35:32At the church, Marianne, all the flower baskets were white.
00:35:39Everything was white.
00:35:41Because it was for the wedding.
00:35:44So there was the funeral and the wedding on the same day?
00:35:47The funeral was in place of the wedding.
00:35:51Just.
00:35:54We didn't want to leave people alone.
00:35:57So we said that he would get married and that he would have a woman by his side during the funeral.
00:36:04So at first it wasn't an easy marriage.
00:36:12But did your father love her in his life?
00:36:14A lot.
00:36:16A lot, a lot.
00:36:17Your father loved her a lot.
00:36:20She didn't have love.
00:36:23For him?
00:36:25She didn't love him?
00:36:26She didn't love him.
00:36:28She had everything about him.
00:36:30She couldn't hate him, she couldn't hate him.
00:36:33But he wasn't a man of fire and flames.
00:36:36Do you understand?
00:36:38She always wanted someone of fire and flames.
00:36:41And the children weren't enough for her?
00:36:45The children were her grandmother who took care of them.
00:36:49You were close to her.
00:36:51Yes, she was her grandmother who took care of them.
00:36:57She didn't want anything.
00:37:02What was your grandmother's role in the Triangle?
00:37:06She went to the prison.
00:37:12She was angry with me.
00:37:15Who?
00:37:16Who?
00:37:17My grandmother.
00:37:19She was angry with me.
00:37:21She was angry with you?
00:37:23Yes.
00:37:24She would hit me with a stick.
00:37:26No.
00:37:27Your grandmother?
00:37:28Yes.
00:37:30She would hit you with a stick?
00:37:31Yes, she would hit me.
00:37:34Do you remember?
00:37:35Yes.
00:37:36How old were you?
00:37:38I was very young.
00:37:40Did your grandmother hit you with a stick?
00:37:42She would hit me with anything.
00:37:44Your grandmother?
00:37:45No, I don't know.
00:37:46Your mother would hit me.
00:37:47She would hit you?
00:37:48Yes.
00:37:49Your mother would hit me with anything.
00:37:50Yes, your mother would hit me.
00:37:51Your mother would hit you?
00:37:53Yes.
00:37:55What was the reason?
00:37:56She would hit me with a stick.
00:37:58She would hit you with a stick?
00:38:01Or with a pen?
00:38:02She would hit me with a pen, with her foot, with anything.
00:38:07I would run and she would hit me with whatever she could.
00:38:09Is that possible?
00:38:10Yes.
00:38:11She didn't have any idea about education.
00:38:13She didn't have any idea about education.
00:38:14Why? Did she hit you well?
00:38:17No.
00:38:18Now they say that you shouldn't hit children.
00:38:20So the result is that she hit you?
00:38:24Did you hit her?
00:38:26Once.
00:38:27That's not enough.
00:38:28Once.
00:38:29Once.
00:38:30Because I was late when I came here.
00:38:31Maybe you should have hit her more.
00:38:33Once.
00:38:34Once I came here.
00:38:35Once I came and I was late.
00:38:37I was in school.
00:38:39I was 15 or 16 years old.
00:38:41I don't know.
00:38:42I was late and I found my mother at the entrance of the building with the police.
00:38:47She was at home at midnight.
00:38:49As soon as I came in, she hit me with a pen at the entrance.
00:38:54She hit you with a pen?
00:38:55She hit me with a pen.
00:38:56She hit you?
00:38:57Yes.
00:38:58My father hit me.
00:38:59No, Amr.
00:39:00My father, Amr Badara, hit me.
00:39:03The next day.
00:39:11Maybe they didn't hit me with the pen.
00:39:14Yes.
00:39:15Maybe they hit you with the pen.
00:39:17Maybe.
00:39:18No, they hit me with other things.
00:39:20Maybe.
00:39:21Yes, I think your mother is a woman,
00:39:23and she wouldn't have married your father.
00:39:26Or she wouldn't have married a man like your father.
00:39:29Maybe she needed something more crazy.
00:39:33Yeah, yeah.
00:39:35Maybe she didn't like to drink, didn't like to eat, didn't like to sleep.
00:39:39Maybe they weren't made for each other.
00:39:43Maybe she didn't have passion.
00:39:47No, she didn't have passion.
00:39:49Maybe she married someone she shouldn't have married.
00:39:53Maybe she didn't want to be a mother.
00:39:55Maybe she didn't want to be a woman who doesn't work.
00:39:59Maybe she wanted to be an actress.
00:40:01I don't know.
00:40:03She lived her life.
00:40:05She lived her life, not her life.
00:40:07She lived her life.
00:40:09Maybe.
00:40:11Maybe she made a mistake.
00:40:13I don't know if she made a mistake or not.
00:40:15Maybe she didn't know that she could live something else.
00:40:19Your sister didn't have talent at all?
00:40:23My sister had intelligence.
00:40:27As soon as someone scolded her or said a bad word,
00:40:33she would answer at an incredible speed.
00:40:37It was always four days later that I would say,
00:40:41why didn't I answer like that?
00:40:43I had to answer like that.
00:40:45Until now, I'm like that.
00:40:47She was much faster than me in terms of intelligence.
00:40:51But she didn't develop that talent.
00:40:53Do you think she could have?
00:40:55No, because we didn't think about whether she was working
00:40:59or doing something.
00:41:01It was the house and the occupation,
00:41:03that the house was very friendly,
00:41:07that occupied her a lot.
00:41:09She was pretty.
00:41:11Mom, you didn't finish?
00:41:13No.
00:41:15You weren't good at studying?
00:41:17No.
00:41:19But you were smart.
00:41:21Very.
00:41:23Very smart in everything.
00:41:25Very smart in everything.
00:41:27The answer was easy in everything.
00:41:29But Youssef Jaheem was different.
00:41:31When he spoke, he was full of energy.
00:41:33There was a big difference between her and her brother.
00:41:38There was a big difference.
00:41:40And she was the one who encouraged him,
00:41:44gave him courage.
00:41:48If there was something wrong,
00:41:51she was the one who raised it for everyone.
00:41:55She was very strong.
00:41:57She was brave.
00:41:59Very.
00:42:01Very.
00:42:03Maybe she didn't know her abilities.
00:42:06She didn't know she had talent.
00:42:09She didn't try.
00:42:11Who told you she had talent?
00:42:13They say she had this charisma.
00:42:16But that doesn't mean she had talent.
00:42:18Yes, but I mean this charisma she had.
00:42:21I don't know what.
00:42:23She used it socially.
00:42:26She was someone who was attached.
00:42:29People were attached to her.
00:42:31When she went to the club,
00:42:33she knew how to listen.
00:42:35She knew how to receive people at home.
00:42:37It was always very warm at home.
00:42:41You said she was intelligent, fast.
00:42:43She could have done other things in her life.
00:42:45Maybe she could have played in films.
00:42:49No.
00:42:51But she was friends with Maryam Fakhreddine,
00:42:53Sabah, Hoda Sultan.
00:42:55Didn't you want to be like her?
00:42:57No, it wasn't her kind.
00:42:59No, no, not at all.
00:43:01She never thought of...
00:43:03Because she had charisma.
00:43:05No, no.
00:43:07But they wouldn't let her,
00:43:09neither my father nor my husband.
00:43:11She never wanted...
00:43:13If she wanted,
00:43:15neither your father nor your brother
00:43:17would have stopped her.
00:43:19Nobody would have stopped her.
00:43:21She didn't want to.
00:43:23She never thought of that.
00:43:25Because she had charisma.
00:43:27A lot.
00:43:31And in the game...
00:43:33She was very large in the game.
00:43:35Very nice.
00:43:37She played very well.
00:43:39And everybody liked her in the game.
00:43:43Who taught you how to play Cucina?
00:43:45It was in the...
00:43:47In the block.
00:43:49In the toilet, they played Cucina in front of me.
00:43:51Do you remember the games at home?
00:43:53Of course.
00:43:55They played poker.
00:43:57They played everything.
00:43:59They ate everything.
00:44:01I was sitting behind them.
00:44:03She was very strong.
00:44:05They were afraid...
00:44:07They were afraid of her in the morning.
00:44:09Who was afraid?
00:44:11Four men.
00:44:13She grabbed the table and...
00:44:15She was...
00:44:17She was very smart.
00:44:19She was very smart.
00:44:21Very smart.
00:44:23For example,
00:44:25if I sat with her...
00:44:27Here, for example.
00:44:29She would look at the three men in front of me.
00:44:31She would tell me...
00:44:33This one is out with this woman.
00:44:35And they are divorced.
00:44:37And they brought this other woman with them.
00:44:39To fix them.
00:44:41But she couldn't fix them.
00:44:43She would tell me what is happening in front of me.
00:44:45And she was right.
00:44:47She knew.
00:44:49She could identify.
00:44:51She knew everything.
00:44:57They were close to each other.
00:44:59All their lives.
00:45:01Except when he went to America,
00:45:03Yusuf and Elis didn't stay together.
00:45:05They were together in Alexandria.
00:45:07In the same house.
00:45:09And then he went to America.
00:45:11This is the period when they were apart.
00:45:13And then when he came...
00:45:15In Egypt.
00:45:17He was living in Zanzibar.
00:45:19He was living in Zanzibar.
00:45:21He was living in Zanzibar.
00:45:23He was living in Zanzibar.
00:45:25He was living in Zanzibar.
00:45:27He was living in Zanzibar.
00:45:29Jean was downstairs.
00:45:31And he was upstairs.
00:45:37A lot of things happened.
00:45:39A lot of things happened.
00:45:45Not family things.
00:45:47For work.
00:45:49A movie came out.
00:45:51Kinaraté.
00:45:53Jean had put money in it. He said, ''No, that's not it.''
00:45:56Things were hot.
00:45:58But Iris was always the support between the two of them.
00:46:05I mean, her brother and her husband.
00:46:08She was between the two of them. She had a difficult role.
00:46:12Of course.
00:46:13Her father was in the cinema when Yusuf Shaheen started.
00:46:17His father was in the cinema before Yusuf Shaheen
00:46:21finished his degree at Victoria College.
00:46:24He wasn't in Universal, Marianne.
00:46:27I don't know where you're talking about.
00:46:28No, he was in Universal.
00:46:31He had a hand in distribution.
00:46:33Universal Pictures in Alexandria was also in distribution.
00:46:37And then Fox went. He was in charge of Fox.
00:46:41And when he had his own personal freedom,
00:46:44he didn't want to be a nuisance.
00:46:47And when a film was a failure,
00:46:49Fox wasn't in charge of Universal or Fox.
00:46:52He was in charge of Jean Choury.
00:46:54But that didn't work.
00:46:56Let's talk a little bit about your father.
00:46:59Sure.
00:47:00Do you want to talk about him?
00:47:02No, not much, because our relations were very tight.
00:47:05I don't know, he didn't like me.
00:47:07He didn't like you?
00:47:09But he appreciated you. He always told us...
00:47:13Maybe later, I don't know.
00:47:17Yes, he came to me and told me that he had a friend who was old.
00:47:24He thanked me and said,
00:47:26Is it possible to close this?
00:47:28I said, Yes, why not?
00:47:31He said, We don't want to close it,
00:47:33but they want us to close it.
00:47:38But we grew up with the idea that we shouldn't work in the cinema.
00:47:41We had to move away from it completely.
00:47:43We had to think of something else.
00:47:46Yes, I know that. That was your father, I don't want to talk about it.
00:47:49You don't like him?
00:47:51Maybe... He suffered too.
00:47:54After that, he had a career.
00:47:58Suddenly, they took everything from him, absolutely everything.
00:48:03I called him because I was with the Minister before.
00:48:07He said, Today we're going to take the money from Jean Choury.
00:48:11I said, No, I don't want to talk about it.
00:48:15What did you do as a minister?
00:48:18I don't know.
00:48:20I was always with the minister, the ambassador, the director.
00:48:25It was painful. It was really painful.
00:48:28Suddenly, I had to tell them, Take all your papers.
00:48:32I don't know what they were, difficult papers.
00:48:35An hour later, they took them.
00:48:37They took everything?
00:48:39They took everything.
00:48:41They didn't give them back to us. They gave them back to everyone in Paris.
00:48:47Was that the reason, in your opinion, that we didn't want to work in the cinema?
00:48:52Maybe one of the reasons, but he had to suffer a lot
00:48:55to become the director of Fox.
00:49:00But other than the director of Fox, he didn't distribute in Algeria, Tunisia, Morocco?
00:49:05No, he didn't.
00:49:08He's very strong, he's the one who opened the company.
00:49:11This is me, 17 years old.
00:49:16I was born in Lebanon, in Raouche.
00:49:19Do you remember the balcony?
00:49:21Elie, who's here with you?
00:49:23I'm from Raouche.
00:49:25I have a picture here.
00:49:27We don't see each other at home, it's on the balcony.
00:49:29I'm Elie, Elie or Gabi?
00:49:32In 1968, I was 10 years old here.
00:49:38Marianne.
00:49:39She's prettier than you.
00:49:42What do you mean?
00:49:43I was younger, and she was prettier than you.
00:49:45And you were younger.
00:49:47Marianne, Marianne.
00:49:49Look, the first one is cute.
00:49:51We were very happy with Marianne.
00:49:53No, there's a camera in the house.
00:49:57Marianne, look at this photo.
00:50:00Marianne didn't sing.
00:50:01No, she sang a lot.
00:50:04Marianne didn't sing.
00:50:08LEBANON
00:50:17You lived in Lebanon for about 64 to 68 years, don't you remember?
00:50:23It was difficult because of the money problems.
00:50:27Was it difficult in Lebanon?
00:50:29Yes, of course.
00:50:31I remember that bills used to come from the bank for 700, 800, 1000,
00:50:37It was a disaster every time.
00:50:39I don't think it was that bad.
00:50:41No, there were problems.
00:50:43There were problems.
00:50:45There were problems and a lot of money.
00:50:47No, but I remember...
00:50:49I remember that one time
00:50:51the worst thing was
00:50:53when they were selling the house
00:50:55because of what happened.
00:50:57Because of what?
00:50:59In Beirut, when we sold the house
00:51:01in Mazat,
00:51:03we still had a few dollars
00:51:05that we could use.
00:51:07We didn't have any money.
00:51:09So Elie would come
00:51:11on the weekend
00:51:13and she would tell Elie
00:51:15to go sell.
00:51:17So he would go
00:51:19to a place
00:51:21that I think was in Clémenceau
00:51:23or something like that
00:51:25to sell.
00:51:27So my father asked her,
00:51:29how can Elie use me like this?
00:51:31Can someone sell the house?
00:51:33It's been 16 years. How many times in his life?
00:51:35When my father left Egypt,
00:51:37we all went to Lebanon.
00:51:39He hated Lebanon.
00:51:41He came back to Egypt.
00:51:43We came back to this apartment.
00:51:45We sold it.
00:51:47Did you buy it?
00:51:49We bought it, yes.
00:51:51I was sitting with her, just me and her.
00:51:53You and your mother?
00:51:55Yes, just me and my mother. Gabi and Elie didn't come back.
00:51:57They stayed in Lebanon.
00:51:59Why did you come back?
00:52:01I didn't want to go back alone.
00:52:03I was 13 when I came back.
00:52:05Why did you come back?
00:52:07I didn't understand.
00:52:09When I came back, I was very tired
00:52:11because in Lebanon
00:52:13I had friends, adolescence.
00:52:15The atmosphere was more open than in Egypt.
00:52:17When I came back,
00:52:19I was in the hospital.
00:52:21I don't know what happened to me.
00:52:23I got used to it.
00:52:25Did you ever live in Egypt?
00:52:27Yes, I had a baby.
00:52:29It must have been a shock.
00:52:31Yes, of course.
00:52:33It was a great shock.
00:52:39When I came back,
00:52:41I started playing sports.
00:52:43Squash.
00:52:45I started playing squash.
00:52:49Where was your father?
00:52:51My father was between Lebanon and Egypt.
00:52:53He continued to work
00:52:55between Lebanon and Egypt.
00:52:57I lived with my mother alone.
00:52:59Didn't you have a strong relationship?
00:53:01Yes.
00:53:03My mother
00:53:05was very open-minded.
00:53:07It's not that she wasn't open-minded.
00:53:09She was open-minded.
00:53:11But as you said,
00:53:13she was depressive.
00:53:15Depression is something very strong.
00:53:17Did you ever feel depressed?
00:53:23No.
00:53:25She was a very strong person.
00:53:27But I felt that she was weak.
00:53:29Not strong.
00:53:31In the end,
00:53:33I was grateful
00:53:35that she raised me well.
00:53:37Come here so we can take a picture.
00:53:47It's better if you come outside.
00:53:49Yes, it's always better.
00:53:51She has old age.
00:53:53Very old.
00:53:55But it was a mixture.
00:53:57Yes, and even the work
00:53:59that she was doing,
00:54:01it was a mixture.
00:54:03It was a mixture.
00:54:05When you were a girl,
00:54:09it was more like suicide.
00:54:13She didn't want to get old.
00:54:15She was a girl.
00:54:23It was a mixture between the two.
00:54:25She had this strength
00:54:27and at the same time
00:54:29extraordinary fragility in her character.
00:54:31Exactly.
00:54:33The fragility was great.
00:54:37She was depressive.
00:54:39In the end, she was very depressive.
00:54:41Even after my father died.
00:54:43My father died in 1982.
00:54:45I thought
00:54:47that she would be happy.
00:54:49I thought
00:54:51that she would live.
00:54:53Madame Anna,
00:54:55it's not because of her father.
00:54:57It's not your father
00:54:59who ruined her life.
00:55:01It's just that she didn't live
00:55:03what she wanted to live.
00:55:05Yes.
00:55:07Because I thought
00:55:09that she would live
00:55:11and come and go.
00:55:13No, she was too late.
00:55:15She lived after seven years.
00:55:17It ended like that.
00:55:19She decided that she didn't want to live.
00:55:21I was afraid.
00:55:23But my grandmother wasn't fragile.
00:55:25She didn't have this fragility.
00:55:27Who?
00:55:29My grandmother.
00:55:31Marika, no.
00:55:33She was stronger.
00:55:35Completely.
00:55:37Until she was 94, she was fine.
00:55:39She loved love.
00:55:41Love emanated from her.
00:55:43She loved to be loved.
00:55:45She knew how to be loved.
00:55:47I remember once I entered the house.
00:55:49I will never forget this.
00:55:51I entered the house
00:55:53and I saw her doing
00:55:55pedicure, manicure,
00:55:57dyeing.
00:55:59She did everything.
00:56:01From top to bottom.
00:56:03She was...
00:56:05She was beautiful.
00:56:07She was beautiful until very late.
00:56:09She never saw anyone without powder.
00:56:11Never.
00:56:15In your memory,
00:56:17you did a deep analysis of all this.
00:56:19In your memory, it was something else.
00:56:21Yes, in my memory
00:56:23it was much braver.
00:56:25I said incredible things.
00:56:27I said
00:56:29the pain that your mother had.
00:56:33No, not your mother.
00:56:35That my mother had
00:56:39to have married someone
00:56:41much older than her.
00:56:43She was 18.
00:56:45That's what I was told.
00:56:49How long did you live before
00:56:51you got married?
00:56:53I lived before I got married.
00:56:55My father,
00:56:57because his wife was crazy,
00:56:59told me not to go.
00:57:01I was sad.
00:57:03We had a special dress
00:57:05to go to the wedding.
00:57:07After an hour, my father told us
00:57:09to go with your uncle and his wife.
00:57:11I said, OK.
00:57:13We went late.
00:57:15The priest was doing the benediction.
00:57:17The priest and the bride.
00:57:19When I entered the room,
00:57:21my mother told me to drink water.
00:57:23I said no.
00:57:25My father was the priest.
00:57:27He looked around.
00:57:29He saw me.
00:57:31The priest asked,
00:57:33who is the girl that came in?
00:57:35The priest said,
00:57:37I don't see anyone.
00:57:39After a while,
00:57:41when everyone was happy,
00:57:43I sat next to him.
00:57:45He asked me,
00:57:47where are you going?
00:57:49He asked me,
00:57:51who are you?
00:57:53My mother, because she was afraid
00:57:55that my father would die,
00:57:57ran to me.
00:57:59I said, who is this?
00:58:01He said, a married man
00:58:03wearing a turban.
00:58:05My mother said,
00:58:07he is not wearing a turban.
00:58:09He saw me.
00:58:11He was a woman.
00:58:13The priest and the bride
00:58:15didn't come out.
00:58:17They knocked on our door
00:58:19without telling us anything.
00:58:21They came to kill me.
00:58:23They made all kinds of things
00:58:25against me.
00:58:27They said, this is good.
00:58:29This is a big house.
00:58:31They will spend money on you.
00:58:33Who are your family?
00:58:35My cousins.
00:58:37I don't like them.
00:58:39Why do they want you?
00:58:41They want to open a house in Egypt
00:58:43and in Alexandria.
00:58:45They want everything.
00:58:47What do they want?
00:58:51OK, Mom.
00:58:53When you understand
00:58:55that our daughter is 18 years old
00:58:57and has no rights,
00:58:59why don't you let her go to school?
00:59:01What did I do to you?
00:59:03Did you fight?
00:59:05She is only 18 years old.
00:59:07Let's get her married.
00:59:09The family was bourgeois.
00:59:11No, no, no.
00:59:13Especially your mother.
00:59:15She was terrible at that.
00:59:21It's funny.
00:59:23Colette is a bit against it.
00:59:25But it was your mother
00:59:27who really triggered the marriage.
00:59:31I said, I got married
00:59:33in two weeks.
00:59:35With your mother's help,
00:59:37with your mother's support,
00:59:39I decided,
00:59:41OK, I have to get married.
00:59:43I want to get married.
00:59:45You didn't want to get married.
00:59:47Not really.
00:59:49I liked Colette.
00:59:51We were already lovers.
00:59:53She was pretty.
00:59:55She was pretty as a heart.
00:59:59When you do the math,
01:00:01women played a big part in your life.
01:00:03They were all monstrous.
01:00:05Maybe it gave you
01:00:07momentum.
01:00:09Yes.
01:00:11Because I wanted to satisfy her.
01:00:13I wanted to be nice.
01:00:15I was looking for the norm
01:00:17as much as possible.
01:00:19It was very, very hard.
01:00:21It was a bit against nature.
01:00:27They always knew
01:00:29how to have an emplacement.
01:00:31Come now, Haddad.
01:01:01Of course I'm lost.
01:01:03I'm just cursing her.
01:01:05The more I curse her,
01:01:07the more I'm lost.
01:01:27How did she die?
01:01:29On the 21st?
01:01:31Yes, it was Christmas.
01:01:33She died on Christmas Day?
01:01:35Before Christmas.
01:01:37On December 30th.
01:01:39Elie was there.
01:01:41She felt like she was waiting
01:01:43for her to die.
01:01:45He went in on her and pulled her.
01:01:47She went to sleep and didn't wake up.
01:01:49So it wasn't
01:01:51breast cancer?
01:01:53No, it wasn't breast cancer.
01:01:55She went to London
01:01:57and got treated there.
01:01:59It wasn't breast cancer.
01:02:01What did she die of?
01:02:03A heart attack.
01:02:07There were no signs of it?
01:02:09No, a heart attack.
01:02:13I think she gave up.
01:02:17I feel like
01:02:19she died
01:02:21to leave me some space.
01:02:27Elie Nadine Mangera
01:02:33I felt like she was
01:02:35carrying us and me.
01:02:37Carrying you?
01:02:39Yes, because I was
01:02:41taking care of her.
01:02:43I took care of her.
01:02:45She didn't die old?
01:02:4762.
01:02:49She didn't die old at all?
01:02:51No, she died at 63.
01:02:53So you didn't have to live with
01:02:55her?
01:02:57No.
01:02:59She was in the shadows?
01:03:01Yes, she was in the shadows.
01:03:05So no one knew?
01:03:07She had an image?
01:03:09Yes, not to that extent.
01:03:11We had decided to buy
01:03:13the apartment upstairs.
01:03:15I went down to the elevator
01:03:17and asked Office Boy
01:03:19what was going on.
01:03:21He said he sold the apartment
01:03:23to buy the apartment
01:03:25upstairs, in the 15th floor.
01:03:27You wanted another apartment
01:03:29so you could live in the apartment?
01:03:31Yes, so my mother
01:03:33could live in the new apartment
01:03:35and I could live in the old one
01:03:37because I was going to get married.
01:03:39And when you got married?
01:03:41When we got married, she died.
01:03:43Nabil came
01:03:45on the 30th, the day my mother died.
01:03:47Do you remember?
01:03:49They waited for him at the airport.
01:03:51It was all drama.
01:03:53There was a lot of drama.
01:03:55Were you upset?
01:03:57Yes.
01:03:59I was upset
01:04:01but because I was pregnant
01:04:03I didn't let the upset
01:04:05become
01:04:07stronger
01:04:09than my desire
01:04:11to have a child.
01:04:13I felt that I lived life
01:04:15and death at the same time.
01:04:17My mother died
01:04:19and I gave life to someone.
01:04:21I gave life to someone.
01:04:25How old were you?
01:04:27I was 30
01:04:29and she knew
01:04:31that I was pregnant.
01:04:33She had met your father.
01:04:35Yes.
01:04:43Unbelievable.
01:04:45Yes.
01:04:47Then you came
01:04:49after 20 months
01:04:51and you were
01:04:53very strong.
01:04:55Then you
01:04:57three,
01:04:59are very similar to my mother.
01:05:01There are things
01:05:03in your character
01:05:05that are very similar.
01:05:07It's ironic
01:05:09because
01:05:11you were not the wanted child
01:05:13and the others are not there
01:05:15and you live all this with her.
01:05:17In the end
01:05:19she leaves you and gives you the place
01:05:21to say that she loved you.
01:05:23Yes, she loved me.
01:05:25It's not that she didn't love me.
01:05:27If she left to let you live
01:05:29it's you, not Gaby Elie
01:05:31It's you.
01:05:45I'm not photographing you.
01:05:47There's something wrong with the camera.
01:05:49Why are you photographing me?
01:05:51You're photographing me.
01:05:53Do you want to continue on what you wanted to say or you don't want to?
01:06:00No, I don't know what you want to say.
01:06:02No, but there was something you wanted to say.
01:06:05Yes, I was telling you that I...
01:06:09Yes, when I was telling you about the idea that someone has to die so that someone can live,
01:06:16that's what I'm still thinking about a lot.
01:06:21It doesn't matter if it's the mother or the father, but someone has to die so that someone can live.
01:06:25Do you understand what I mean?
01:06:28It's not a condition.
01:06:30It's not a condition.
01:06:31It doesn't happen in all cases.
01:06:34It doesn't happen in all situations.
01:06:36Yes, but maybe it happens when someone...
01:06:39Controls the other person.
01:06:41Controls the other person.
01:06:43Emotionally, psychologically, professionally.
01:06:49Do you understand what I mean?
01:06:50But she wasn't like that.
01:06:51She wasn't like that.
01:06:52But she wasn't the only one who died.
01:06:55My father died and my grandmother died.
01:06:57The first person who died was my father.
01:07:01He was 72 years old in 1982.
01:07:04Then my grandmother died in 1986.
01:07:09And then my mother died in 1989.
01:07:13And then Chahine.
01:07:14All of them died.
01:07:15All of them represented something big to me.
01:07:24I was 22 years old here.
01:07:26Can you imagine?
01:07:28I could have had a 23-year-old boy.
01:07:34I had short hair.
01:07:37Your mother was married but she didn't have children.
01:07:39She said, I don't think my daughter can have children.
01:07:41I said, why?
01:07:43She said, I don't know.
01:07:44I said, well, maybe it's better.
01:07:46Did you say that?
01:07:47Bravo.
01:07:51Bravo.
01:07:52Who pushed you to get married?
01:07:54Who pushed you to get married?
01:07:58I didn't understand anything.
01:07:59I was born again in the country.
01:08:01And I thought that was what I had to do.
01:08:04I had to get married.
01:08:05I had done my studies.
01:08:06I had done I don't know what.
01:08:08And that maybe I had to get married now.
01:08:10So I didn't understand anything.
01:08:16Old girl.
01:08:17But no, I was 22 years old.
01:08:28I remember this movie we made.
01:08:30Agamemnon, every time he comes down, he comes up again.
01:08:33I don't want to look at the cat from under the water.
01:08:44When I lived in the house, my mother called me.
01:08:46I couldn't have a conversation.
01:08:49So my mother said, are you happy?
01:08:51She didn't answer.
01:08:57But it was still two years.
01:08:59But you know what?
01:09:00I remembered.
01:09:01We chatted with André yesterday.
01:09:03Because it was she who had arranged the table here
01:09:05when we got engaged.
01:09:06Do you remember?
01:09:07I wasn't there at the hospital.
01:09:08You weren't there?
01:09:09Yes, we got engaged here.
01:09:15And André, she brought the sous-plates.
01:09:18So there was a table, you understand?
01:09:21Very impressive.
01:09:22And we took a painting.
01:09:24It's not the day of the painting.
01:09:26I took a painting from you.
01:09:27It's not that day.
01:09:28It's today.
01:09:35Why did you marry this man?
01:09:37At first, I was afraid.
01:09:39Insecurity.
01:09:40From whom?
01:09:41Life.
01:09:42But now the best thing is to get married.
01:09:45I finished school and came back from England.
01:09:49And what did your mother say?
01:09:51My mother?
01:09:52She was happy with the idea that I got married.
01:09:56But she felt that I wasn't happy,
01:09:58and she wasn't happy.
01:10:00With the man?
01:10:01Yes.
01:10:02I remember once in a foreign country,
01:10:04I don't know,
01:10:05she always put her head under the water.
01:10:08All the time.
01:10:09She didn't want to see this family.
01:10:13My father was happy.
01:10:15He watched the sermons,
01:10:17but he was happy that God would protect her.
01:10:20With me, he wanted to reassure her.
01:10:26My mother wasn't there?
01:10:28She wasn't there.
01:10:30She died on the day of the sermons.
01:10:33Ah.
01:10:34The only sermon we did at home,
01:10:37but she didn't go to the sermons.
01:10:40Did your mother know your father?
01:10:42Did you see him before?
01:10:44Yes.
01:10:45How did you see him?
01:10:47Didn't he come?
01:10:48I saw him because he came before me.
01:10:50I was married when he came,
01:10:52and I saw him in Alexandria.
01:10:55When you were friends?
01:10:57Yes.
01:10:58Did you like him?
01:11:00Yes.
01:11:03He was nice.
01:11:08When you meet him,
01:11:10he's a nice man.
01:11:13He's cool with people.
01:11:15He even strengthens people.
01:11:17I love him.
01:11:48We talk, but not like you and I talk.
01:11:52Not at all.
01:11:54Even my grandmother understood everything.
01:11:57But she didn't...
01:11:59My grandmother was very happy
01:12:01about my first marriage.
01:12:03She didn't understand?
01:12:05No, because it was a big family,
01:12:07rich, and Christian,
01:12:09and I don't know what,
01:12:11and Alexandria.
01:12:13Alexandria is an empty village.
01:12:15The police are coming now.
01:12:38It was a good party.
01:12:40We were happy.
01:12:42This happiness is priceless.
01:12:44Did you see it?
01:12:46This happiness is very beautiful.
01:13:12I left home.
01:13:14I was shocked.
01:13:16It was a disaster.
01:13:18How could I leave Alexandria?
01:13:20It was a disaster.
01:13:22A disaster.
01:13:24You came back to Cairo?
01:13:26Yes.
01:13:28When I got back to Cairo,
01:13:30I was shocked.
01:13:32I didn't know what to do.
01:13:34I didn't know what to do.
01:13:36I didn't know what to do.
01:13:38I didn't know what to do.
01:13:40When you came back to Cairo,
01:13:42when you left...
01:13:44No, I went to Algeria.
01:13:46When I told you the story,
01:13:48what happened?
01:13:50I went to the bank at 8 o'clock.
01:13:52I left my job.
01:13:54I never left my job.
01:13:56My job is the only thing
01:13:58that saved me all my life.
01:14:00I can't take a penny from anyone.
01:14:02I can't take a pound from anyone.
01:14:04I've never been able to take a penny
01:14:06from anyone.
01:14:10Why did you leave your job?
01:14:12Because I told you
01:14:14I was at work.
01:14:16Then Yusuf Shaheen came.
01:14:18I went to the bank at 8 o'clock.
01:14:20I found my mother and Shaheen
01:14:22waiting for me.
01:14:24Did they feel
01:14:26before they came?
01:14:28No.
01:14:30I didn't say anything.
01:14:32Not at all.
01:14:34I was happy or not.
01:14:36I didn't want them to come
01:14:38because I felt
01:14:40I did all of this.
01:14:42I married him.
01:14:44I did this.
01:14:46I made them happy.
01:14:48Did you make them happy?
01:14:50With everything.
01:14:52Then I went to the bank
01:14:54at 8 o'clock.
01:14:56I found them.
01:14:58They felt I wasn't happy.
01:15:00Yusuf Shaheen said,
01:15:02How are you?
01:15:04He said,
01:15:06I can't talk.
01:15:10He said,
01:15:12I'm not coming back.
01:15:14I didn't come back home.
01:15:16I took my bag and left.
01:15:18I was at work.
01:15:20I didn't come back.
01:15:22I didn't come back home.
01:15:24How?
01:15:26He said,
01:15:28I'm going to tell your mother
01:15:30I'm renting a house in Al Ajami.
01:15:32You have to come with me.
01:15:34I didn't come back.
01:15:36I left everything.
01:15:38I didn't talk to him.
01:15:42I don't know how.
01:15:44I didn't come back home.
01:15:46I didn't come back home.
01:15:48They sent people to talk to me.
01:15:54Didn't you feel guilty?
01:15:56No, I didn't feel guilty.
01:15:58I didn't come back.
01:16:00What did he do?
01:16:02Nothing.
01:16:04He didn't say anything?
01:16:06No.
01:16:08I saw him for the first time 20 years later.
01:16:10Was that the first time?
01:16:12Maybe.
01:16:14I talked to him for the first time.
01:16:20Anyway,
01:16:22he wasn't made for me.
01:16:24Do you understand?
01:16:26If I had married him,
01:16:28I would have continued.
01:16:30If I had continued,
01:16:32I would have been unhappy.
01:16:34Like your mother.
01:16:36Maybe.
01:16:38Maybe that's why
01:16:40my mother was unhappy.
01:16:42She was happy that I got married,
01:16:44but she was unhappy
01:16:46that I wasn't happy.
01:16:48Did you have the same fate?
01:16:50My father was the one
01:16:52who took care of my work.
01:16:54I was with him.
01:16:58Were you in a bank?
01:17:00A banker.
01:17:04Did you know your father in a bank?
01:17:06I called my dad every day.
01:17:08I called my dad every day.
01:17:10And everyone left.
01:17:12Only my dad was left.
01:17:16He arrived at the same time.
01:17:18Was he there?
01:17:20No.
01:17:22He came to Kuwait in 1990.
01:17:24Do you understand?
01:17:26I was living with my family.
01:17:28I was living with people.
01:17:30And then other people came
01:17:32and I lived with them.
01:17:36It's a sad thing.
01:17:42What I'm trying to say
01:17:44is that my dad
01:17:46didn't know these people
01:17:48so he couldn't understand your pain.
01:17:50He shared a roof
01:17:52with someone
01:17:56who didn't understand your attachment.
01:18:00And then you had two children,
01:18:02so it was another life.
01:18:04That's what saved me.
01:18:12What are you going to tell mom at Christmas?
01:18:14I'm going to tell her
01:18:16Merry Christmas.
01:18:18Do you love her a lot?
01:18:20Of course.
01:18:22Do you love grandma?
01:18:24Yes, a lot.
01:18:26Are you happy to see her?
01:18:28Yes, a lot.
01:18:30Do you think she's waiting for you?
01:18:34Yes.
01:18:36Does she ask you to kiss her?
01:18:38Yes, a lot.
01:18:44When you go to university,
01:18:46does she wait for you?
01:18:48Yes, of course.
01:18:52Do you want to go on a honeymoon?
01:18:54Yes.
01:18:56Do you think she's beautiful?
01:18:58Yes.
01:19:00Why do you say that?
01:19:02Really?
01:19:04Yes.
01:19:06Is she cute?
01:19:08Yes.
01:19:14If you were in my place,
01:19:16what would you do?
01:19:18I would reconstruct.
01:19:20Why?
01:19:22You're young, mom.
01:19:24I'm 58 years old today.
01:19:26Even if I were your age,
01:19:28I would still do that.
01:19:30Why?
01:19:32Because if you don't do that,
01:19:34it means you let the cancer win.
01:19:36You have to let your femininity live,
01:19:38you have to stay feminine,
01:19:40otherwise you won't love yourself,
01:19:42unless you accept that you're strong.
01:19:44We saw the pictures,
01:19:46and it's shocking, isn't it?
01:19:48I didn't know you were so sensitive.
01:19:54It's very...
01:19:56What do you call it?
01:19:58Very...
01:20:00It's very sensitive.
01:20:02You have to be a pioneer.
01:20:04There are two ways of doing it.
01:20:06First,
01:20:08they take the breast,
01:20:10they put it in the breast,
01:20:12and that's it.
01:20:14Then you have the second way,
01:20:16they take the breast,
01:20:18open the belly,
01:20:20take this ship,
01:20:22and this ship,
01:20:24and this ship,
01:20:26and try to connect it,
01:20:28but there's a risk.
01:20:30I prefer the second way.
01:20:32No, you're like that,
01:20:34and he's like that.
01:20:36I prefer the first one.
01:20:38How do you feel?
01:20:40Good.
01:20:44It's perfect.
01:20:50I'm a master.
01:20:52I think the most important
01:20:54hospital
01:20:56for cancer
01:20:58in the UK.
01:21:00Now you say the word cancer.
01:21:02I never said it.
01:21:04Never.
01:21:06Never.
01:21:08I don't know,
01:21:10maybe they should change the word.
01:21:20Hamdan.
01:21:22I can't believe it.
01:21:28I can do another round.
01:21:30Why?
01:21:34This is your son
01:21:36who came to visit you.
01:21:38He's nice.
01:21:40He doesn't care.
01:21:46I have to learn,
01:21:48I have to learn.
01:21:50I have to.
01:21:52Why are you crying?
01:21:54I don't want to.
01:21:56I've been a nurse for three weeks.
01:21:58So?
01:22:00It's enough.
01:22:02It's enough?
01:22:04You're tired?
01:22:06Yes.
01:22:08What are you going to do?
01:22:10I'm going to take care of myself.
01:22:20I'm going to take care of myself.
01:22:46Welcome to Cuba.
01:22:48Why did you insist on coming?
01:22:54Insist?
01:22:56No, I didn't insist on coming.
01:22:58I felt the need to come.
01:23:00Yes, why?
01:23:02I always want to see you.
01:23:04No, it's because I wanted to see
01:23:06how you were feeling,
01:23:08what you were doing.
01:23:10Because with the communication
01:23:12I didn't understand.
01:23:14You hear me, you hear me,
01:23:16I didn't understand.
01:23:18We spent six months like that.
01:23:20I didn't really understand what was going on.
01:23:30You always do that.
01:23:32You send someone
01:23:34and they come to see you.
01:23:36It's good.
01:23:38No?
01:23:40You discover.
01:23:42I'm not going to discover for you.
01:23:44Do you think I did well or badly?
01:23:46No, no, you did well.
01:23:48No, I did well.
01:23:50To do that with you
01:23:52or not.
01:23:54To discover.
01:23:56Yes, there is a price to pay
01:23:58when you do that.
01:24:00There is a price to pay
01:24:02when you taste freedom
01:24:04and when you taste
01:24:06discovering things alone.
01:24:08There are a lot of things
01:24:10you don't accept anymore.
01:24:12I want to live in Egypt.
01:24:14No, you can't live in Egypt.
01:24:16You want to be free.
01:24:18You want to be free.
01:24:38You say that your mother
01:24:40was not there when you were young
01:24:42and that you felt abandoned.
01:24:44There was work
01:24:46you did without realizing.
01:24:48The fact that you were there,
01:24:50that you were free,
01:24:52that you became independent very quickly.
01:24:54Do you feel it now?
01:24:56Do you feel that it was a good thing?
01:25:00What are you saying?
01:25:02To justify your absence
01:25:04by the fact that now I am strong?
01:25:06Maybe, I don't know.
01:25:08Everyone has their own opinion
01:25:10but I don't accuse you of not being there.
01:25:12I just say that I lived it that way.
01:25:14Maybe you were really there.
01:25:16I don't say that you weren't there.
01:25:18I was there as long as I could
01:25:20but I couldn't be there all the time
01:25:22because I was working.
01:25:28My mother, for example, didn't work.
01:25:30She was never at home
01:25:32when I came home.
01:25:34I didn't understand
01:25:36why she wasn't at home.
01:25:38That made me suffer too.
01:25:44But when I see now what she did to me,
01:25:46she did good things.
01:25:48She wanted me to move away
01:25:50because she felt that if I moved away
01:25:52I would learn a lot of things
01:25:54and I would be exposed to life
01:25:56much more than if I were next to her.
01:25:58So she did everything for me to move away.
01:26:00Everything.
01:26:02I remember when I was studying in England
01:26:04she said to me,
01:26:06what are you going to do?
01:26:08Stay where you are.
01:26:10I understood that 40 years later.
01:26:16But I really suffered more
01:26:18from my mother than from my father.
01:26:20How?
01:26:24I missed my mother more
01:26:26than my father in my childhood.
01:26:28Is it good?
01:26:30Yes.
01:26:32For him, he was a father.
01:26:34And I remember very well
01:26:36very precisely
01:26:38him playing with us.
01:26:40When I had problems with my boys
01:26:42he was there for me.
01:26:44What is a father?
01:26:46Is a father someone who terrorizes?
01:26:48No.
01:26:50Zara,
01:26:52come here.
01:26:54Come here.
01:26:56Come here.
01:26:58No.
01:27:00Zara, come here.
01:27:02No.
01:27:26They come to look for their children
01:27:28and I don't.
01:27:30I also suffer from the image
01:27:32that I send to others.
01:27:36But now it's something good.
01:27:38My mother works.
01:27:40It's a good example for me.
01:27:42I'm going to work too.
01:27:44Things will change.
01:27:46But at that time, no.
01:27:56But every time we say yes,
01:27:58we're not going to do the same thing,
01:28:00but maybe we'll do the same thing.
01:28:06But what do you think
01:28:08will have to do with your children?
01:28:12I have a kind of fear
01:28:14that I don't know.
01:28:16I don't know what to do.
01:28:18I don't know what to do.
01:28:20I don't know what to do.
01:28:22I don't know what to do.
01:28:24I'm going to make sure
01:28:26that they are strong later,
01:28:28but at the same time,
01:28:30I'm going to make sure
01:28:32that they spend their whole lives
01:28:34trying to fix something.
01:28:36I don't know.
01:28:38I think we need to find a balance.
01:28:40I'm not sure I'll have children.
01:28:42I keep the possibility
01:28:44of not having children.
01:28:46You don't feel the need yet?
01:28:48No, I want to have children.
01:28:50But if I don't have the right father
01:28:52they're going to go through
01:28:54all the shit I've been through.
01:28:56They're not going to feel Egyptian.
01:28:58They're not going to feel French.
01:29:02I don't have the strength.
01:29:04It's a bit much for me.
01:29:06I live in a country.
01:29:10I'm rich in a poor country.
01:29:12I hate the word rich,
01:29:14but you have to tell the truth.
01:29:16Compared to people, we're rich.
01:29:18I'm rich in a poor country.
01:29:20That's not common.
01:29:24My mother is half Lebanese, half Egyptian.
01:29:26My father is Egyptian,
01:29:28but he lived 30 years in Granada.
01:29:30With Moroccan and Greek blood.
01:29:32I don't know what.
01:29:34I go to a French school,
01:29:36so 100% French education.
01:29:38I barely speak.
01:29:40I don't read or write
01:29:42the language of my country,
01:29:44which is a scandal for me.
01:29:46I spend all my summers
01:29:48in Europe.
01:29:50Then I go to Canada
01:29:52and study in France.
01:29:54I don't know where to work.
01:29:56I can't integrate into Egypt,
01:29:58so I stay in France.
01:30:00In the end, what do I do?
01:30:02I go to Cuba.
01:30:04Have you ever seen a better mix?
01:30:06It's better than this.
01:30:16This is more fun than that.
01:30:20It's a libido. It's working.
01:30:22She's eating meat.
01:30:26It's new.
01:30:30Didn't it shock you
01:30:32that she's eating meat again?
01:30:36Nothing shocks me.
01:30:42You can't go to school like that.
01:30:44You can't go to school like that.
01:30:48Subconsciously, I think of everything.
01:30:52Being conscious,
01:30:54I discuss everything.
01:30:58Everything seems normal,
01:31:00but the things that shock you
01:31:02happen.
01:31:04If you don't understand it,
01:31:06you don't understand anything.
01:31:12But who gave Sara this name?
01:31:18Who?
01:31:22Leo.
01:31:26Can you give me the name
01:31:28of the grandmother?
01:31:30Her name is Matilde.
01:31:32Maria.
01:31:34Maria.
01:31:38Sara.
01:31:40The first Sara in the family.
01:31:42Sara is the name.
01:31:46And there's one Sara
01:31:48in the film you show.
01:31:50The film you show?
01:31:52There's a Sara.
01:31:58It's a very neutral name.
01:32:02Why?
01:32:04We want neutral names.
01:32:06Because my name is very Catholic.
01:32:10So for my son and daughter,
01:32:12I want it very neutral.
01:32:14You can go Catholic,
01:32:16you can go Christian,
01:32:18you can go Jewish, anything.
01:32:28I think that everything in Egypt
01:32:30is linked to your brother.
01:32:32The society,
01:32:34the apartments,
01:32:36everything.
01:32:38And you will settle it.
01:32:40But not separately.
01:32:42You will never sell these apartments.
01:32:44You will find something else.
01:32:46But you can't sell it.
01:32:48Because it's still a legacy.
01:32:50It's where you grew up,
01:32:52where I grew up,
01:32:54where Shaheen was,
01:32:56where I was.
01:32:58Yes, but maybe he worries you now,
01:33:00but in 30 years he won't.
01:33:02I don't want him, I don't like him.
01:33:04He's very handsome,
01:33:06he's beautiful, he's magnificent.
01:33:08But he worries me.
01:33:16What are we going to eat today?
01:33:20We're going to a Soviet restaurant.
01:33:22Are you coming?
01:33:24No, I can't leave now.
01:33:26It's 2 o'clock in the afternoon
01:33:28and for me it's 8 o'clock in the evening.
01:33:30It doesn't matter, we'll stay.
01:33:38This apartment is beautiful.
01:33:42I knew you would like it.
01:33:44That's what I want to rebuild in my heart.
01:33:46Do you understand?
01:33:48In my heart.
01:33:50Did you get the rent?
01:33:52I'm going to get a permit.
01:33:54I'm working to get a permit.
01:33:56And I want to build a room upstairs,
01:33:58like this,
01:34:00so I can leave the apartments.
01:34:12I told them,
01:34:14I'm going to arrange the staircase
01:34:16and I'm going to have a small studio.
01:34:20With a kitchenette,
01:34:22a bathroom.
01:34:24You're out of frame.
01:34:26I'm not in the frame?
01:34:28I'm not in the frame?
01:34:50Tell me, my child,
01:34:52if I were you
01:34:54and if I were the daughter of a tyrant
01:34:56and if I were the son
01:34:58of a king
01:35:00would I come to you?
01:35:04I wouldn't come to you.
01:35:08Take me far away
01:35:10from this world.
01:35:12Would I come to you?
01:35:16I wouldn't come to you.
01:35:20Each one of them
01:35:22has a story in their heart.
01:35:26Each one of them
01:35:28has a story in their heart.
01:35:32Tell me, my child,
01:35:34when we grow up
01:35:36do you remember when we were young
01:35:38and we used to tell stories?
01:35:44We used to talk about heaven,
01:35:46we used to talk about the moon
01:35:48and we used to talk about rain.
01:35:50We understood the meaning of life.
01:35:54Would I come to you?
01:35:58I wouldn't come to you.
01:36:02Take me far away
01:36:04from this world.
01:36:06Would I come to you?
01:36:10I wouldn't come to you.
01:36:14Each one of them
01:36:16has a story in their heart.
01:36:18Each one of them
01:36:20has a story in their heart.
01:36:24Tell me, my child,
01:36:26when we grow up
01:36:28do you remember when we were young
01:36:30and we used to tell stories?
01:36:36We used to talk about heaven,
01:36:38we used to talk about the moon
01:36:40and we used to talk about rain.
01:36:42We understood the meaning of life.
01:36:46Would I come to you?
01:36:50I wouldn't come to you.
01:36:54Take me far away
01:36:56from this world.
01:36:58Would I come to you?
01:37:02I wouldn't come to you.
01:37:06Each one of them
01:37:08has a story in their heart.
01:37:12Each one of them
01:37:14has a story in their heart.
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