Summer Solstic 2024 || Bolly4u || English
Leo, a trans man, and his cisgender and straight friend Eleanor go on a weekend trip, during which they uncover some old secrets, new challenges, and find the answer to the age-old question: can good friends and bad sex mix?
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00:00:00The surgery. What can I say about it? Other than that, it changed everything. All it took
00:00:19was my whole life. All that pain. All that struggle. Eight hours under anesthesia. I
00:00:35went from a caterpillar to a butterfly. And now, I'm me. Can't you see? I'm finally me.
00:00:53Can't you see me for who I truly am? What more do I have to do? Okay, thanks. That's
00:01:03Sorry. No, that was great. Thanks for that. Thank you. As you know, the casting call is
00:01:10for a transgender male or transgender female. Just for our records, which one are you? Oh,
00:01:18Trans man. Trans male. Trans man. Great, thanks. We'll be in contact.
00:01:26Hey, I just got out of the audition, which was a little... Yeah, on that front, bad news.
00:01:48Wait, they already passed? I was just up there 30 seconds ago. Yeah, sorry, Leo. They
00:01:56said they're going in a different direction. Different direction. Well, at least they're
00:02:02efficient. Onwards and upwards. Look, the real reason I'm calling is because you're
00:02:08confirmed. The callback? Yep, the callback. It's Monday, 2 p.m. at the production offices.
00:02:13They want you to read the same scene, so I'll send you the sides. I already have them
00:02:17memorized. Wonderful. You're going to kill it. Zip. Zap. Zap. Zap. Zip. Zap. Zap.
00:02:34Zap. Zap. Zip. Got it. Are you okay? Yeah, I'm just tired.
00:03:04Remember, Leo, you are a worm. You're not pretending to be a worm, okay? Loosen up.
00:03:23I'm auditioning for this, like, teen movie. Really? That's awesome. You're going to be
00:03:29like a vampire? I mean, I'm going to be a human. Oh, okay. But I might turn into a vampire
00:03:38later on. Hi. Sorry I'm late.
00:04:08I feel like I came this close to booking.
00:04:37My agent said they pinned me. That's fantastic. It'd be fantastic to book, but...
00:04:45Yeah, how was your audition? They passed, but I do have this callback for...
00:04:53The series regular thing? Yeah. Leo, that's great. Yeah, I feel really...
00:04:57Sweet. Do you see my shirt? Oh, um... Oh, there you go. Would you want to, um, go to
00:05:08this reading my friend's doing this weekend? Sure. But not, like, as a date, right?
00:05:18Totally. Because I don't want to ruin our dynamic. I think we work really well together
00:05:25as scene partners. I definitely wouldn't want to mess up our classroom chemistry.
00:05:32I'm glad we're on the same page.
00:05:42What are you doing tonight? I've got a date. Cool. What are you up to?
00:05:50Going to a friend's party, I think. Oh. Yeah.
00:06:09Hello? Surprise! Surprise.
00:06:16Squirrel! Squirrel. You gorgeous creature.
00:06:25Ah, you look so different! A year in vitamin T will do that. Vitamin T?
00:06:31Oh my god, right. Of course, of course. Come on in. Okay.
00:06:41You really don't have to roll out the red carpet. I'm only staying a night. That's fine.
00:06:47Well, thank you. So, what are you doing in New York?
00:06:52Just passing through. You know, living my usual nomad life during the summer.
00:06:58And when I realized that I'd be driving through the city to go upstate, I couldn't resist.
00:07:05And I think you should come with me. I couldn't.
00:07:11I'm not taking no for an answer. No, really. No, really.
00:07:18I really can't. I really can't.
00:07:29What? Eleanor. I am not going. I'm taking it by the way.
00:07:49Oh. Hey. Uh, you want me to clear out? Nah.
00:07:55We used to change in front of each other all the time, right?
00:08:00Hey.
00:08:03Coffee? Ooh, yes, please.
00:08:06So, I hear nothing for three weeks, and then out of nowhere, out of the blue,
00:08:12I get a call from a new number, and he said, oh, sorry, I dropped my flip phone.
00:08:16Flip phone? In a bucket of paint.
00:08:19And I'm like, what?
00:08:21And I'm like, what?
00:08:24And I'm like, what?
00:08:27And I'm like, what?
00:08:30And I'm like, what?
00:08:35And I'm like, what?
00:08:38And then I was like, but you were posting on Instagram, and he was like, yeah, I did it for my iPad.
00:08:43So?
00:08:45So I kept fucking him until he disappeared again.
00:08:50You really know how to pick them.
00:08:53I'm nothing if not consistent.
00:08:55Are you?
00:08:57I'm consistent in my inconsistency.
00:09:00But you and Will are good?
00:09:01Oh, yeah.
00:09:02I'm glad we got back together.
00:09:04He's less awful than the other guys I've been with.
00:09:09A glowing compliment.
00:09:10You know what I mean.
00:09:12What's he up to?
00:09:14He was on part of the road trip.
00:09:16We actually did a project together,
00:09:17combining his drawings, my photographs.
00:09:20It was very romantic.
00:09:21What's the project?
00:09:23People and signage, speed limits, stop signs,
00:09:29public spaces, private life.
00:09:32All these little commandments everywhere.
00:09:35Still not fully formed yet.
00:09:37But yeah, how's life as a Broadway hoofer?
00:09:40Oh, you know.
00:09:41No, I don't.
00:09:42Give me all the juicy details.
00:09:45I do have this callback for a serious thing.
00:09:48Leo, that's huge.
00:09:52I hope so.
00:09:52I mean, it would feel really good to book something.
00:09:55And then I could say my oldest friend is the Leo Mark.
00:09:59Eleanor, stop.
00:10:00Don't forget about me when you're famous, OK?
00:10:02Right.
00:10:04I mean it.
00:10:06I won't.
00:10:08Good.
00:10:09I'll see you later.
00:11:10Wow.
00:11:12It's lovely.
00:11:13Friends of friends in high places.
00:11:18Can you?
00:11:20And they're just letting us stay here?
00:11:24Yeah, I met her at an arts residency.
00:11:25And Lila said I could stay here whenever she's not here.
00:11:39Dibs.
00:12:09Hey, what's up?
00:12:10You know, I'm just looking for a place to sit.
00:12:12Yeah, that's great.
00:12:13So where are you going?
00:12:14I'm just going to head out.
00:12:15I have some work to do.
00:12:16OK.
00:12:17Yeah, see you later.
00:12:19Bye.
00:12:20Bye bye.
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00:12:38out on a bathing suit.
00:12:40The sun feels so good on my skin.
00:12:43I'm good as I am.
00:12:45Suit yourself.
00:12:53Ah.
00:13:02Hey, this is Will.
00:13:03You know what to do.
00:13:08I think we should go shopping.
00:13:27I've got the urge to splurge.
00:13:30Sure.
00:13:38Oh, dear.
00:13:46Do you want to try anything on?
00:13:49I mean, it's a woman's store.
00:13:50Ah, right, right.
00:13:52Sorry, sorry.
00:13:58Ah.
00:14:01She's cute.
00:14:03Yeah.
00:14:09Come on.
00:14:12Remember when we used to go to Savers?
00:14:15We'd get, what, 10 pounds of clothes for $10?
00:14:18I still have some of that stuff.
00:14:20Some really good shit.
00:14:22Okay.
00:14:24Oh.
00:14:26What do you think?
00:14:27It's nice.
00:14:29Nice?
00:14:30Ah.
00:14:31I'm not an expert on women's fashion.
00:14:34It is cute.
00:14:36Flattering?
00:14:37Sure, sure.
00:14:39Well, I like it.
00:14:40Will you check the tag and see how much it is?
00:14:5165.
00:14:53Woof.
00:14:55We're not in Savers anymore, are we, Toto?
00:14:57No, we're not.
00:15:02Should we steal it?
00:15:04What?
00:15:05We can put it in my bag.
00:15:06I don't know.
00:15:09I'm kidding.
00:15:10Right.
00:15:12Right.
00:15:13I'm gonna wear it out, though.
00:15:26Eleanor?
00:15:30Were you actually joking?
00:15:32Of course.
00:15:33We're not in college anymore.
00:15:34I can afford it.
00:15:36Right.
00:15:38Right.
00:15:53I mean it.
00:15:55You have family in me.
00:15:57Just because you refuse to see it
00:15:58doesn't mean it's not true.
00:15:59You don't have to be blood to be family.
00:16:02Our bond is deeper than biology.
00:16:06Whether you like it or not, we're both pretty connected.
00:16:09Yikes.
00:16:10Sorry.
00:16:12Was that for your callback?
00:16:15Yep.
00:16:16Dialogue's a little much, huh?
00:16:19I guess.
00:16:19I don't know, I think it's kind of nice.
00:16:22Totally.
00:16:26It's just nice to have a character
00:16:28that's not just, you know,
00:16:31talking about transitioning the whole time.
00:16:34Right.
00:16:35Well, whenever you want to practice, I am ready.
00:16:39I'm gonna draw upon my long and storied career
00:16:41as a chorus member from my sixth grade production
00:16:44of Oklahoma.
00:16:46Awkward, I forgot.
00:16:47An acting legend stands before me.
00:16:49Don't be shocked when I act in circles around you.
00:16:59Wine.
00:16:59Mm.
00:17:03I think I should move.
00:17:05Again?
00:17:07Again, again, again.
00:17:09But I thought you liked Durham.
00:17:11I do, but I also don't like getting stuck places, you know?
00:17:18What about Will?
00:17:20Well, Will is transportable.
00:17:24Oh, sorry.
00:17:26Just...
00:17:30So...
00:17:32Moving?
00:17:34It's always a thought, you know me.
00:17:39Do the thing.
00:17:41What thing?
00:17:42You know.
00:17:44Squirrel, squirrel!
00:17:46Oh, you learner.
00:17:49I never told you this in college,
00:17:51but you'd be holding court at some party
00:17:54and I would be, you know,
00:17:56just sitting there and I'd be like,
00:17:57at some party, and I would be hanging on the edge,
00:18:02wondering when you were gonna figure out
00:18:04how much cooler than me you were.
00:18:06I would fantasize about doing something, I don't know,
00:18:11cool enough to keep your attention.
00:18:13Like what?
00:18:16Something impulsive, like, I don't know,
00:18:20steal a car, go for a joyride, you know,
00:18:22throw caution to the wind.
00:18:24We never quite did that.
00:18:27No, I didn't.
00:18:28I do remember seeing you, though, at parties,
00:18:30at your most painfully socially awkward looking at me.
00:18:36I always wondered what you were thinking.
00:18:38Well, now you know.
00:18:40Yeah, but it makes sense.
00:18:43You're an actor, you're shy in real life,
00:18:45but on stage, you're,
00:18:49whereas with me, well, everywhere you go, it's theater.
00:18:52Theater.
00:18:56Yeah.
00:19:01I think we should go out.
00:19:03Oh, really?
00:19:04Yeah, it's happy hour.
00:19:05We should hit the town, have a few drinks,
00:19:08have a few laughs.
00:19:10I haven't heard that one since college.
00:19:12Well, it's still true.
00:19:14The afternoon is young,
00:19:16or old, but the night is still barely nascent.
00:19:20Yes, but I am very old now.
00:19:22Let's go, please.
00:19:25Please, please, please, please.
00:19:27Sure, yes.
00:19:29Ha ha ha ha.
00:19:31Huh.
00:19:37Hmm.
00:19:57Come on, listen up.
00:19:59I am loose. I'm loose.
00:20:24We've been hooking up for a year.
00:20:27A year?
00:20:29Yeah, but we're just friends.
00:20:32Oh, really?
00:20:34Yes, really. I mean, if she wanted more, I...
00:20:42But I respect her boundary. She wants to keep it professional.
00:20:48Except when you're having sex.
00:20:51I just want someone to love me like Rita Wilson loves Tom Hanks.
00:20:55What?
00:20:57They famously love each other. A lot. I read a list of them about it.
00:21:03Well, you deserve an epic look like that.
00:21:08I'd just be happy with something a little more stable.
00:21:12But, um, yeah, I'm totally fine with the no strings thing.
00:21:26Totally.
00:21:32My own arts practice is really informed by being on the road.
00:21:36Not to get too Kerouac, but the freedom of the open road really frees me.
00:21:43I love Kerouac.
00:21:45Me too.
00:21:48Go to the bathroom. Oh, cool.
00:21:52So what's the longest you've ever driven in one go?
00:21:56Fifteen hours.
00:21:59Wow.
00:22:06Thanks.
00:22:37So, how do they compare to your boyfriends?
00:22:40I'm not gonna, you know, size-wise put you in competition.
00:22:46You both have beautiful artistic hands.
00:22:51Um, sorry.
00:22:53I think I've been ahead of myself.
00:22:55I'm sorry.
00:22:57I'm sorry.
00:22:59I'm sorry.
00:23:01I'm sorry.
00:23:03Um, sorry.
00:23:05I think I've been a head out.
00:23:08Um, sorry.
00:23:10He's my ride.
00:23:12I gotta go.
00:23:14Good to meet you.
00:23:17Bye.
00:23:19Bye.
00:23:33You know, you could've stayed if you wanted to.
00:23:35I know. I just hate Kerouac.
00:23:40And I'd never cheat on Will. It's just nice to flirt a little.
00:23:50Bye.
00:24:13You want dinner?
00:24:15No, I'm good.
00:24:17I'm gonna just hang out here for a minute.
00:24:20Okay.
00:24:22Night, sweetie.
00:24:47I love you.
00:24:49I love you.
00:24:51I love you.
00:24:53I love you.
00:24:55I love you.
00:24:57I love you.
00:24:59I love you.
00:25:01I love you.
00:25:03I love you.
00:25:05I love you.
00:25:07I love you.
00:25:09I love you.
00:25:11I love you.
00:25:13I love you.
00:25:15I love you.
00:25:29Whenever you're ready.
00:25:33If I hadn't come, what would you have done?
00:25:35Something desperate.
00:25:37No, seriously, what would you have done?
00:25:39Paid my respects and left quietly.
00:25:41These assholes are the only ones who want to turn it into a whole thing.
00:25:44I didn't expect to just show up here and know nothing.
00:25:47I mean, you look like Holly Golightly for Christ's sake.
00:25:50Are you slut-shaming me?
00:25:52Maria.
00:25:54I couldn't turn up to my estranged father's funeral looking like shit, could I?
00:25:59I know that was a lot.
00:26:01What they did wasn't cool.
00:26:04Oh, threatening to have me arrested for trespassing wasn't cool?
00:26:07You know what I mean.
00:26:08You haven't saved me, AJ.
00:26:10That's not—
00:26:11Showing up here didn't fix anything for me.
00:26:13I just wanted to make sure you were okay.
00:26:17Why do you care so much?
00:26:20Because—
00:26:22Because you're my family, Maria.
00:26:25Right.
00:26:28Family.
00:26:33I don't have any family.
00:26:38I mean it.
00:26:41You have family in me.
00:26:43Just because you refuse to see it doesn't mean it's not true.
00:26:47You don't have to be blood to be family.
00:26:50Our bond is deeper than biology.
00:26:54Whether you like it or not, we're irrevocably connected.
00:26:57Ever since that day at the crash pad, we've been linked.
00:27:02I messed up a line.
00:27:04No, you read them fine.
00:27:07I just thought maybe you're being a little gentle.
00:27:11Like, where's the energy, the passion?
00:27:17I—
00:27:18Why don't you try the monologue again, but this time maybe, like, angry.
00:27:25Why would I be angry?
00:27:27Maria's kind of a bitch, right?
00:27:30Kind of.
00:27:31Right. She, like, doesn't listen.
00:27:33So you have to really get through to her.
00:27:36Like, really shake her.
00:27:38I guess I just kind of was thinking about AJ as if he, you know, was a gentle person.
00:27:44Like, when he's making a point, he wouldn't be, like, in her face.
00:27:47Yeah, but I feel like at this point, it'd be a really big breaking point for him.
00:27:52I think you want to wow the director, so you should just try something different, right?
00:27:59Yeah, maybe I could try it angrier.
00:28:02Yeah, just the monologue. Just, like, come on. Like, really give it to her. Come on.
00:28:06Yeah, okay.
00:28:07Maybe the line leading in.
00:28:16I don't have any family.
00:28:21I mean it.
00:28:23You have family in me. Just because you refuse to see it doesn't mean it's not true.
00:28:29Whether you like it or not, we're irrevocably connected.
00:28:34Ever since that day at the crash pad, we've been linked.
00:28:38You're not perfect.
00:28:41Neither am I.
00:28:43But we're perfect in our imperfection.
00:28:46Two warped puzzle pieces that manage to fit just right.
00:28:53You fit me.
00:28:55And I fit you.
00:28:58So yeah, Rhea, you have family.
00:29:00It may not be those people in the church, but...
00:29:04You got family standing right in front of you.
00:29:09How was that?
00:29:13I think it's getting there.
00:29:16That's so weird.
00:29:17We can keep working on it.
00:29:21Fuck, I really don't want to fuck this up.
00:29:23You won't.
00:29:24We'll get there.
00:29:28Then I say, we fit, I guess, in our own misshapen way.
00:29:34And now you're supposed to put your palm against my palm and we interlace fingers.
00:29:38Right.
00:29:39Yeah.
00:29:56It might not be those people in that church, but you have family standing right in front of you.
00:30:03So...
00:30:04Um...
00:30:06Um...
00:30:07Honestly?
00:30:08Yes, honestly.
00:30:10Why are you yelling?
00:30:11I have literally no idea.
00:30:13My friend gave me all these directions and now I'm totally lost.
00:30:17You were fine before.
00:30:19Fuck.
00:30:20Look, just get out of your head and don't run lines with her again.
00:30:27I kind of wish it was just you and me up here.
00:30:31Oh yeah?
00:30:32Yeah.
00:30:35That's sweet.
00:30:38Is everything okay?
00:30:40I'm happy to run lines and stuff, but the guy that I've been dating, he wants to be exclusive.
00:30:48Oh yeah.
00:30:50That's... I mean, I'm cool with that.
00:30:54Neither of us wanted anything, right?
00:30:56Yeah.
00:30:58But I guess now I want something with this guy.
00:31:01So...
00:31:04I hope that's okay?
00:31:06Of course.
00:31:07Thanks for being so chill.
00:31:09And seriously, run lines by yourself this weekend.
00:31:12Bye.
00:31:25Mia?
00:31:29Coming!
00:31:38You okay? You look like someone died.
00:31:41No, I'm good.
00:31:44Farm store?
00:32:08Ooh, these are gorge.
00:32:14It's a potted plant, so...
00:32:17Put it in your hair.
00:32:21Hi.
00:32:24How are vegetables so expensive?
00:32:27Inflation.
00:32:30Fuck.
00:32:32What?
00:32:33Just this person from Magna Class is here.
00:32:35Don't look.
00:32:37Eleanor.
00:32:38Why can't you say hi?
00:32:39Because he's on a really big show right now.
00:32:41So?
00:32:42And he's really good on it.
00:32:44Leo?
00:32:46Leo!
00:32:48Oliver!
00:32:49Hi! It's so good to see you.
00:32:52It's been a minute.
00:32:53So, what are you doing here?
00:32:56I'm just up here for the weekend.
00:32:58Oh, Joe's parents have a house up here, so we're here, like, all the time.
00:33:02Oh, this is my friend Joe.
00:33:04Nice to meet you.
00:33:05Hi!
00:33:06You too.
00:33:10And I'm Eleanor.
00:33:11Hi!
00:33:12Sorry, this is my friend Eleanor.
00:33:15Well, hi.
00:33:17Hi, Eleanor.
00:33:18Um, so, how are you?
00:33:21I'm good.
00:33:22I just, I should say, congratulations on Sanford House.
00:33:25I've been watching the show, and you're so wonderful in it.
00:33:29Thank you. You don't have to say that, though.
00:33:31Leo was just saying how good you are in it.
00:33:34It's just a great show.
00:33:35Wait, wait. I'm having, like, a brain blast moment.
00:33:38Oh, yeah?
00:33:39Okay, no pressure at all, but you two should totally come over to my place for, like, snacks.
00:33:44I mean, we came here for cheese and crackers. It'd be so lovely to share.
00:33:47I think we have afternoon plans.
00:33:49They're easily changeable.
00:33:50Okay, so, change them.
00:33:52Look, we'll stay in the store a little bit longer, buy a few things, and then we'll meet you outside?
00:33:58Hell yeah!
00:33:59Alright, cool.
00:34:00Amazing! Okay, see you!
00:34:03What's your problem?
00:34:05I guess I, he just was, like, the only other trans guy in our acting class,
00:34:10and we weren't that close, and it kind of felt, I don't know, like there was some competition.
00:34:16Well, you're not in class now. No need to be competitive.
00:34:19Yeah.
00:34:21Are you annoyed with me? Because I seized the moment. If you don't want to go, we can back out.
00:34:25No. No, no. Actually, thank you.
00:34:28Let's do the socializing thing.
00:34:31See? Serendipity. Adventure.
00:35:02Hello!
00:35:04Yeah, it's over by the car.
00:35:06Oh, no.
00:35:08What?
00:35:10Oh, my God.
00:35:12Thank you, Joe.
00:35:13Don't do my hair.
00:35:15That looks beautiful.
00:35:19I mean, I think a lot about, you know, art's ability to create meaningful change, right?
00:35:26I'm an actor because I believe movies are powerful engines for empathy,
00:35:31but sometimes I wonder what actually meaningfully change is.
00:35:35Like, I don't know, can you think of a movie that has changed the course of history, really?
00:35:40Uh, Cru-Jane. You know? Responsible for a huge homophobic backlash against queer men.
00:35:47Oh, no. Joe!
00:35:49But I love that movie.
00:35:52I don't know that one.
00:35:54But I'm sure it's better than what you've been auditioning for, am I right?
00:35:59I guess.
00:36:01You haven't saved me.
00:36:03AJ, come on, Leo.
00:36:05That's not what I...
00:36:07Showing up here didn't change anything for me.
00:36:09I just wanted to make you feel better.
00:36:12I know.
00:36:14I know.
00:36:17Showing up here didn't change anything for me.
00:36:19I just wanted to make sure you're okay.
00:36:23You know the lines?
00:36:25Yeah, uh, I auditioned.
00:36:28Wow, that is, yeah, it's just so crazy.
00:36:32We went in for the same part.
00:36:34Oh, they already passed on me.
00:36:37Yeah.
00:36:39I'm so sorry.
00:36:40It's fine. I'm actually really glad that you're up for it.
00:36:44When Leo first read it, he was so quiet,
00:36:46but I'm trying to work with him and, you know, try to get him to be a little angry, you know?
00:36:50I kind of thought of AJ as a sort of gentle guy.
00:36:55Huh.
00:36:59Joe, remind me of the name of this cheese?
00:37:02Uh, Camembert.
00:37:04Can you eat this?
00:37:05Yeah.
00:37:06Yeah, you can.
00:37:09Why didn't we talk about this kind of stuff when we were in class together?
00:37:13I don't know.
00:37:14I mean, we could have just been doing this the whole time.
00:37:17Yeah, right?
00:37:18Leo said you guys were a little competitive with each other.
00:37:21Eleanor.
00:37:22No, it's true.
00:37:24We were.
00:37:25I mean, we were competing for, like, the scraps of roles they were throwing our way,
00:37:29but it all feels really stupid now.
00:37:33It does.
00:37:35It does.
00:37:36Well, we're talking now.
00:37:39Cheers.
00:37:40Cheers.
00:37:41Oh, my God, this pool is everything.
00:37:43It was, it was, it was actually a little traumatizing.
00:37:46Maybe I'm not ready to keep this conversation going.
00:37:50Eleanor, we've totally been ignoring you.
00:37:52What about you?
00:37:53What do you do?
00:37:54I'm a photographer.
00:37:55I teach during the year, and I travel every summer.
00:37:58Okay, that's enviable.
00:38:01It's nice to be free in that way.
00:38:03So, what college do you teach at?
00:38:07Oh, Eleanor teaches, like, at this really amazing high school.
00:38:09Oh, that's so cool.
00:38:11I mean, it must be really interesting to work with people that age.
00:38:14Yep.
00:38:15Eleanor has been living in Durham for, like, two years now,
00:38:18has this really cool boyfriend who's also an artist,
00:38:20and they went on this road trip together.
00:38:22Yep.
00:38:23Okay, how was that?
00:38:25Really romantic.
00:38:26He painted, and I photographed.
00:38:30By that, he was drawing.
00:38:32Oh, drawing.
00:38:34Yeah, he usually is a painter, but because we were on the road,
00:38:37he was drawing because of the supplies and stuff.
00:38:40I was just texting him yesterday,
00:38:41and he said he was really happy to be back home with his materials.
00:38:44Yeah, drawing.
00:38:45Yes.
00:38:48Would anyone like some wine?
00:38:50Yeah, yeah.
00:38:51Oliver, do you want to come with me?
00:38:52I can help.
00:38:53No, no, no, you're good.
00:38:54Got it.
00:38:59You're being weird.
00:39:01How?
00:39:02I just feel like you're not being yourself.
00:39:05And what is me being myself, Eleanor?
00:39:07It just seems like you're performing.
00:39:10Maybe I'm just having a good time and feeling loose with them.
00:39:15Then why aren't you like that with me?
00:39:18I have to pee.
00:39:20I am.
00:39:31Oh.
00:39:42Hey, this is Will.
00:39:43What the fucker?
00:39:51You're right, I was being weird.
00:39:55Good thing you know my love language.
00:39:59Come on.
00:40:11Come on, Leo.
00:40:16Are you serious right now?
00:40:18What?
00:40:19Okay, what's with the T-shirts?
00:40:22What do you mean?
00:40:24I'm going to drown with all those clothes on.
00:40:29Eleanor.
00:40:31What?
00:40:33I'm wearing a shirt because I'm binding.
00:40:37Oh my God, I'm so sorry.
00:40:40It's fine.
00:40:42Why didn't you tell me?
00:40:51More wine?
00:40:53Okay.
00:41:19Stop!
00:41:22Oh no.
00:41:24Seriously, I have to stop laughing.
00:41:26My stomach is hurting.
00:41:28No more dirty knock-knock jokes for us.
00:41:31Is there more wine?
00:41:33Are you sure you want more?
00:41:36Yes.
00:41:38I guess I'm driving.
00:41:40That would be great.
00:41:42Does anyone else want more?
00:41:44What is that?
00:41:46Okay, big girl laugh.
00:41:51I think we're in the middle of the desert.
00:41:54And maybe...
00:42:07I told the entire auditorium I was bisexual during my campaign for student body president.
00:42:16And of course I lost.
00:42:21I don't know why I thought the revelation would help my chances of being student body president in 2008 in Chatham, New York.
00:42:30Wow.
00:42:33I thought you were gay.
00:42:35No, bisexual, queer, both.
00:42:41Oliver, what are you?
00:42:43I'm queer.
00:42:45Everyone's queer.
00:42:47Except for Leo.
00:42:51I'm not straight.
00:42:53You're not?
00:42:55I'm queer.
00:42:58Didn't know that.
00:43:00Well, I'm just grateful to be able to live a genuine queer life, that part.
00:43:08Sometimes I wish I was queer.
00:43:10Oh, really?
00:43:12I think maybe I'm queering heterosexuality, maybe?
00:43:22Maybe I am queer.
00:43:24Maybe you are.
00:43:26You would be the one to know.
00:43:28Well, remember when we hooked up, squirrel?
00:43:31Eleanor.
00:43:32Well, do you?
00:43:37Making out for less than a minute before you passed out, drunk.
00:43:41So what, it doesn't count?
00:43:44I guess it counts.
00:43:47I guess you're queer.
00:43:49See, I'm queer.
00:43:50I'm queer, too.
00:43:51Like, why the fuck not?
00:43:53I just want to be, like, in the club.
00:43:56I want to get naked.
00:44:00Is she going to be okay?
00:44:03Yeah, she's going to be fine.
00:44:05Just a little too much day drinking.
00:44:07It's all up in there.
00:44:08Yeah.
00:44:11We should head out.
00:44:12Thanks again.
00:44:13Bye.
00:44:25Did you have fun?
00:44:27I did, actually.
00:44:32Oliver.
00:44:35Oliver's kind of a blowhard.
00:44:39It was nice.
00:44:40I thought him and Joe were smart.
00:44:43Yeah, they talk about ideas.
00:44:48I have an idea.
00:44:51What is it?
00:44:56I forgot.
00:44:59Okay.
00:45:15Eleanor?
00:45:17You may enter.
00:45:24Are you all right?
00:45:26Never better.
00:45:29Anything I can do to help?
00:45:32Sit.
00:45:39Do you still like me?
00:45:41Of course I do.
00:45:43Because I was a terrible brute tonight, wasn't I?
00:45:47I still like you.
00:45:50Okay.
00:45:52That's good.
00:46:04I think I left my phone at their house.
00:46:10I'll pick it up in the morning.
00:47:11Morning.
00:47:21Morning.
00:47:22I have her phone.
00:47:24Thank God.
00:47:26Do you want some coffee?
00:47:28Oh!
00:47:29Sure.
00:47:30Okay.
00:47:38I'm not much of a hiking guy.
00:47:40No, you should definitely.
00:47:41I mean, the path is pretty clear on the property.
00:47:45You just have to, like, look out for the trail markers,
00:47:47and you should be good.
00:47:49Are you sure?
00:47:50Yeah, I mean, we're leaving today,
00:47:52but I know Joe would be happy if you swung
00:47:54by for just a little hike.
00:47:56Maybe we will.
00:47:58I have to think of something to do with her.
00:48:01Oh, I'm sorry about yesterday.
00:48:03She's a lot.
00:48:07It's all good, really.
00:48:09I mean, she's maybe a little territorial.
00:48:13Territorial?
00:48:15Over you.
00:48:18Protective, too.
00:48:21I think in kind of a sweet way, if a little.
00:48:26A little, a little, yeah.
00:48:29I just, yeah, I still am sorry
00:48:31for all the unhinged stuff she said.
00:48:33You know, I don't really mind her chaos.
00:48:36Oh, really?
00:48:37Well, then maybe you and I should
00:48:40switch places for the weekend, because, oh, she's exhausting.
00:48:45Maybe that's why she's your friend.
00:48:47What?
00:48:49Maybe you like a little bit of dysfunction.
00:48:53OK, former classmate and now my psychoanalyst.
00:49:00For the record, I like simple.
00:49:01I like boring.
00:49:04That's, that's good.
00:49:09Is it?
00:49:11Yeah, because I'm boring.
00:49:16You absolutely are not.
00:49:19I don't want to, I'm usually a lot smoother than this.
00:49:28But can I, can I kiss you?
00:49:33Me?
00:49:35Yeah, you.
00:49:38Are you and Joe?
00:49:40Oh, no, we're just friends.
00:49:50I've been wanting to do that since that terrible,
00:49:55terrible class.
00:49:56Really?
00:49:58Yeah, and I'm glad to know that you like boring,
00:50:03because I'd very much like to do something
00:50:06boring with you sometime.
00:50:19Can I call you this week?
00:50:22I would really like that.
00:50:26Cool, me too.
00:50:29So you should stick around, enjoy the pool, hang out.
00:50:34I'm going to head back up.
00:50:36We got to head out soon.
00:50:38Yeah.
00:50:39Yeah?
00:50:40All right.
00:50:41Have fun.
00:50:45Thanks for the coffee.
00:50:46Thanks for the kiss.
00:51:00You were gone for a while.
00:51:04I was getting your phone, remember?
00:51:06Ah, thank you, my hero.
00:51:12I got you a nice coffee from that place down the road.
00:51:15It's a little melted, though.
00:51:17I just had a coffee.
00:51:18But it's my peace offering.
00:51:21I'm sorry about last night.
00:51:24Apology accepted.
00:51:28But maybe, don't you think those guys are just
00:51:30like a tiny bit pretentious?
00:51:33Eleanor, seriously, you know you sound like Colton Colfield.
00:51:37But I'm not.
00:51:38I'm not.
00:51:39I'm not.
00:51:40I'm not.
00:51:41I'm not.
00:51:42I'm not.
00:51:43I'm not.
00:51:44I'm not.
00:51:45I'm not.
00:51:46I'm not.
00:51:47I'm not.
00:51:48I'm not.
00:51:49You sound like Colton Colfield.
00:51:50Fine, fine.
00:51:51I am sorry for getting so drunk last night.
00:51:53I honestly don't remember much, but I'm
00:51:55sorry for whatever happened.
00:51:57OK.
00:51:58Thanks.
00:51:59Cheers.
00:52:11You have family in me.
00:52:14You have family in me.
00:52:16Family in me.
00:52:19You ready?
00:52:22Yep.
00:52:24What time is it?
00:52:25Time for our big hike.
00:52:29Okay.
00:52:36Are you okay?
00:52:37You seem weird.
00:52:39Just tired.
00:52:42Do you want to run lines when we get back?
00:52:44Oh, no.
00:52:45I mean...
00:52:47I didn't think you...
00:52:49just, uh...
00:52:50appreciated them.
00:53:17I thought of a movie that changed history.
00:53:29Oh, yeah?
00:53:31The Thin Blue Line.
00:53:33Errol Morris literally solved a crime
00:53:36that exonerated an innocent man.
00:53:39Huh. Okay.
00:53:40What happened afterwards?
00:53:42He made a lot of money doing computer and beer commercials.
00:53:45The death row guy?
00:53:46Errol Morris.
00:53:48Right.
00:53:50Which way?
00:53:53This way.
00:53:55I don't see any trail markers.
00:53:57Trust me.
00:54:00Can we just stick to the trail?
00:54:06This is the trail, silly.
00:54:30Can we take a little break?
00:54:32Yeah.
00:54:36We're having fun, right?
00:54:38I never go on hikes.
00:54:40That's your whole problem.
00:54:42What?
00:54:43You have such a rigid view of yourself.
00:54:45You say you never go on hikes, but here you are going on a hike.
00:54:49You just don't try anything new unless someone pushes you to do it.
00:55:16You know, maybe what you think of as me being a coward...
00:55:21I never said you were a coward.
00:55:23...is actually me just having a little structure in my life
00:55:27because my whole life is a risk
00:55:30and I don't need to act out like some theater kid just to prove a point.
00:55:37So everywhere I go is theater, right?
00:55:40Yep. Just without stage.
00:55:42I'm a photographer.
00:55:44All right, and where's the camera?
00:55:47Why are you being such an asshole?
00:55:48If you don't want to keep hiking, then go back to the house.
00:55:51Why am I being an asshole?
00:55:53Go back to the house. Where the hell are we?
00:55:57I think we're lost.
00:55:59Yeah, no shit.
00:56:01No, we're, like, lost. Metaphorically lost.
00:56:06And actually lost.
00:56:11What are you doing?
00:56:12I'm going to navigate us out of here.
00:56:14Not just metaphorically.
00:56:19I don't have service, Steve.
00:56:20Don't worry about it.
00:56:23Can you check if you have service?
00:56:27Eleanor!
00:56:28What?
00:56:48I only have 3% battery.
00:56:50I think we're close.
00:56:51Oh yeah, Eleanor, where are we?
00:56:54See? We're on the trail.
00:56:56Yeah, but do we even know if we're going in the right direction?
00:56:58It's a loop.
00:57:00Okay, my phone just died.
00:57:08Are you texting right now?
00:57:09No.
00:57:10If you are texting Will with our source of life...
00:57:13I'm not texting Will. I haven't texted Will all weekend because I'm trying to be present with you.
00:57:18You haven't texted Will all weekend?
00:57:19Let's just try to get out of here, huh?
00:57:22So, you haven't texted him at all?
00:57:24No.
00:57:25No.
00:57:26No.
00:57:28Is that, like, normal for you guys?
00:57:30And weren't you just saying that you were texting him yesterday?
00:57:33Okay, busybody, we broke up, okay?
00:57:36What the fuck, Eleanor?
00:57:38So you've just been lying to me all weekend?
00:57:40Well, you hide shit from me.
00:57:42You didn't want to take your shirt off and get in the water.
00:57:44Why? Because you didn't want me to know that you had neck top surgery, am I right?
00:57:48That is completely different, Eleanor.
00:57:49Oh, is it?
00:57:50You're so fucking clueless.
00:57:53I'm not clueless. You just don't clue me in.
00:57:57This isn't about me.
00:57:59This is about you lying to me all weekend.
00:58:01What do you want me to say?
00:58:03Just tell me why you're not telling me shit.
00:58:06Okay.
00:58:10We were on the road trip for two days and I picked some stupid fight about directions and he just fucking left.
00:58:15Okay?
00:58:17He hitchhiked back home.
00:58:20I mean, why should I admit to you that I'm 29 fucking years old and I can't seem to keep a relationship for longer than three months?
00:58:28And you have your head so far up your own ass with your shitty little callback for your shitty little TV show
00:58:33and all you care about is impressing pretentious assholes that you don't even like.
00:58:37Wow, Eleanor, just because you don't like something doesn't mean it's shitty.
00:58:42What?
00:58:43It's not like we're in college anymore.
00:58:46I don't need to follow you around and just mirror back all your thoughts and opinions.
00:58:50Okay, that's not...
00:58:52I know I'm probably not supposed to say this because it's problematic or whatever
00:58:55because I'm not allowed to have any feelings about your transition, but I miss how things were.
00:59:01When you...
00:59:04Who you were before.
00:59:09You really aren't allowed to have feelings about that.
00:59:14Like...
00:59:17At all.
00:59:20So fucked, Eleanor!
00:59:25I miss you.
00:59:28I just feel so distant from you now.
00:59:32It's not because I'm trans.
00:59:34It's really not.
00:59:39I don't know. I don't know what...
00:59:41I shouldn't be here.
00:59:43I shouldn't be in the fucking Tick-infested Blair Witch Woods fighting with you.
00:59:50Thank God it's the house.
00:59:53Are you sure?
00:59:55Yes, I'm sure. Just tell me you didn't lose the car keys.
00:59:59I didn't.
01:00:05Leo.
01:00:07Leo.
01:00:09I love you.
01:00:12No, you don't, Eleanor.
01:00:16Kind of ironic, I guess.
01:00:18Seeing as it was me keeping secrets all those years being in love with you.
01:00:24And you pretending you didn't know.
01:00:26Although, I mean, you knew. You must have known.
01:00:31I didn't...
01:00:33know.
01:00:36I mean, I didn't know...
01:00:38know.
01:00:41You liked having me around as your little lapdog and...
01:00:47I'm done.
01:00:49I am done.
01:00:52That's so unfair.
01:00:55Is it?
01:01:01Can you...
01:01:11...
01:01:34I mean it.
01:01:36You have family in me.
01:01:40Fuck.
01:01:56Are you okay?
01:01:57Yeah, just clumsy.
01:02:05Let me help.
01:02:11It's okay.
01:02:16It's our last night.
01:02:20It is.
01:02:25You shouldn't be drinking alone.
01:02:37I heard you.
01:02:40Like, I heard you.
01:02:42I was fucked up.
01:02:45But can I say something?
01:02:48Maybe less fucked up.
01:02:52Sure.
01:02:54I miss us.
01:02:57You miss us?
01:02:59You're the best friend I've ever had.
01:03:02Like, my best, best friend.
01:03:06And I feel like...
01:03:10you haven't been acting that way...
01:03:13or something.
01:03:15Or like you were my best friend...
01:03:18and now you're just...
01:03:21someone else.
01:03:24I don't know.
01:03:27I'm still me, Eleanor.
01:03:31Definitely still me.
01:03:34That's good.
01:03:37Maybe it's just...
01:03:40I wish I weren't still me.
01:03:44Maybe if you just...
01:03:47accepted you a little more it would help.
01:03:50I mean...
01:03:52I always liked you as you are.
01:03:56It's like...
01:03:58when you're not happy being you...
01:04:00that you become a little bit...
01:04:03too much of you or something.
01:04:05Yeah.
01:04:07I liked following you around in college.
01:04:12You led me out of the hole I was in.
01:04:15And you still do.
01:04:27Eleanor.
01:04:29I think you're confused.
01:04:35I am confused...
01:04:39by you.
01:04:43Okay.
01:04:45You are...
01:04:47something.
01:04:52You are...
01:04:54something.
01:05:21Okay.
01:05:51Okay.
01:06:21Okay.
01:06:52Are you...
01:06:54No, yeah.
01:06:56Okay.
01:07:06Could you maybe...
01:07:08a little...
01:07:10to the left?
01:07:12Sure.
01:07:14Yeah.
01:07:16Okay.
01:07:18Yeah.
01:07:28My hand's cramping.
01:07:30Oh, um, that should be...
01:07:32Maybe if, um...
01:07:35Yeah.
01:07:48Mmm.
01:08:14Did you just fake it?
01:08:18No.
01:08:23Yes.
01:08:26Okay.
01:08:35I guess I should probably...
01:08:39go.
01:08:40Yeah.
01:08:49Eleanor.
01:08:58Oh, my God, Leo.
01:09:01I'm so sorry.
01:09:03That was so horrifying.
01:09:07Have you ever had worse sex?
01:09:10No, even the first time wasn't this bad.
01:09:18At least it was brief.
01:09:23And now we know.
01:09:24We really know.
01:09:25And it will never happen again.
01:09:27Unless we're stuck in a cave or on a deserted island.
01:09:30Or on a long cruise ship trip.
01:09:33Or if they make another Avengers movie that's three hours long
01:09:36and we're stuck in the last row.
01:09:37We run out of popcorn.
01:09:40Ah.
01:09:45So...
01:09:47I didn't...
01:09:49ruin everything?
01:09:52No.
01:09:56I just...
01:10:00I did the thing where...
01:10:03I sabotaged a good thing.
01:10:09And I've just been...
01:10:11driving around for the past couple weeks
01:10:13aiming my camera aimlessly at shit
01:10:15and not pressing the shutter.
01:10:18And you have a whole life that I know nothing about.
01:10:22And I know it's not your fault.
01:10:27I am a little clueless.
01:10:31But I'm learning, right?
01:10:33We're all learning.
01:10:40You want to know something weird?
01:10:43Another secret?
01:10:46Kind of.
01:10:50You know how much of a loser I feel like I am?
01:10:53You're not a loser.
01:10:55No, don't try to make me feel better.
01:10:57But here's the thing.
01:11:02I'm a fucking good teacher.
01:11:05I'm a fucking good teacher.
01:11:10Like, I'm bizarrely good at it.
01:11:13And my whole life plan was like,
01:11:15no, I'm an artist.
01:11:18And I was somehow embarrassed
01:11:19that I became a high school teacher.
01:11:23But I admit it.
01:11:27I fucking love my job.
01:11:36That's awesome.
01:11:38Pay shit.
01:11:40Yeah.
01:11:41It's exhausting.
01:11:43The principal's a scumbag.
01:11:45That sucks.
01:11:47Did I mention the pay shit?
01:11:49You did.
01:11:54I'm so sorry for blowing everything up.
01:11:57I'm sorry, too.
01:12:05Why do you care so much?
01:12:11Because...
01:12:14because you're my family, Raya.
01:12:17Right.
01:12:18Family.
01:12:23I don't have any family.
01:12:26I mean it.
01:12:30You have family in me.
01:12:33Just because you refuse to see it
01:12:36doesn't mean it's not true.
01:12:39You don't have to be blood to be family.
01:12:44Our bond is deeper than biology.
01:12:51Whether you like it or not,
01:12:52we're irrevocably connected.
01:12:56Ever since that day at the crash pad,
01:12:58we've been linked.
01:13:01You're not perfect.
01:13:04Neither am I.
01:13:07But...
01:13:09we're perfect in our imperfection.
01:13:13Two warped puzzle pieces
01:13:16that managed to fit just right.
01:13:21You fit me.
01:13:25And I fit you.
01:13:27So...
01:13:29Yeah, Raya.
01:13:32You have family.
01:13:35Might not be those people in that church, but...
01:13:40you have family standing right in front of you.
01:13:47I was wrong.
01:13:48That's how you should do it.
01:13:51Gentle.
01:13:55You're really good, Leo.
01:14:24You're welcome.
01:14:54You're welcome.
01:15:24You're welcome.
01:15:54You're welcome.
01:16:24You're welcome.
01:16:54You're welcome.
01:17:24You're welcome.
01:17:27And when I think of you,
01:17:29I wanna be friends.
01:17:31I wanna be friends with you.
01:17:38With you.
01:17:53Leo-Mark?
01:17:57Leo-Mark?
01:18:27Leo-Mark?
01:18:57I wanna be friends with you.
01:19:01But when I look at you,
01:19:03I see an old friend.
01:19:05I see an old friend passing through.
01:19:09And when I think of you,
01:19:12I wanna be friends.
01:19:14I wanna be friends.
01:19:16I wanna be friends.
01:19:18I wanna be friends.
01:19:20I wanna be friends.
01:19:22I wanna be friends.
01:19:24I wanna be friends.
01:19:26I wanna be friends.
01:19:28I wanna be friends.
01:19:30I wanna be friends.
01:19:32I wanna be friends.
01:19:34I wanna be friends.
01:19:56piano plays softly
01:20:26piano plays softly