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00:00I really want this to be very much a bonding trip
00:02for all of us girls.
00:03So, in each goodie bag, I put a journal.
00:07What's happening?
00:08You are not in my f***ing room!
00:09This is our room.
00:11I don't care if I punch you straight in the f***ing face.
00:12Punch me in the straight in the face!
00:14This is why I never f***ing liked you, Lana!
00:16I will not back down.
00:17I've been trying my hardest to be nice to you.
00:19I really have.
00:20I'm not gonna hit you.
00:21Because I'm not gonna be a f***ing doormat.
00:22You just don't get it.
00:23You don't get it.
00:24You don't get it.
00:25You don't get it.
00:26You don't get it.
00:27You don't get it.
00:28You don't get it.
00:30You just get to a point where you boil up and then you explode.
00:32I've always f***ing hated you, Lana.
00:34That's exactly why I don't f***ing like you.
00:36I just want us to have a little getaway place.
00:39A getaway place for you?
00:41Ain't no getaway for me in Atlanta.
00:43He thinks I'm trying to leave or run.
00:47So now, like, I don't know what to do.
00:50We have no outlet.
00:51I gotta go.
00:52I have to go.
00:53I gotta go.
00:54Tonight on Total Divas.
00:55I'll be in drag.
00:56I'll be in drag.
00:57I'll be in drag.
00:58I'll be in drag.
00:59I'll be interested to know what your guys' biggest fears are.
01:02Heights.
01:03I'm not quite there with bailing.
01:05Commitment.
01:06You need to write a poem.
01:08Bailing.
01:09I'm getting an apartment with or without your consent.
01:12That's my fear, you know, me and John getting a divorce.
01:16I was so terrified.
01:17You don't have control of where you are.
01:19I've realized sometimes an apology will never heal the damage that has been done.
01:29Oh, God.
01:31Time to spare.
01:32You can't take me everywhere.
01:34We shine at the start.
01:36We light it up.
01:37We make a moment.
01:40True?
01:41Yeah?
01:42Where you at?
01:43Jailer's room.
01:44Yeah, you sound like my mama talking like that.
01:45Yeah.
01:46Whoa, been a little clean up in here, huh?
01:48Need some help?
01:50Sure.
01:51Yeah.
01:54This thing.
01:55Can we talk?
01:56It's...
01:58We brought it up before.
02:00I brought it up before.
02:01We talked about it before.
02:02But I feel like we didn't really get anywhere.
02:04It's about living in Atlanta.
02:07Our residence is in Pensacola, Florida.
02:10And this house, you see this house?
02:12This ain't in Atlanta.
02:13You live here.
02:14I know.
02:15All right.
02:16And that's part of the problem.
02:17You don't want to move to Atlanta, which I'm okay with that.
02:20But there has to be a middle ground.
02:22There's a big group of people who I spent and shared my life with.
02:26Before I met you.
02:27And before we moved here, and you know that.
02:29Yeah, but you know you said I do, man.
02:31When we get married, it's me and you.
02:33I know.
02:34I'm supposed to take you away from that, from your nest.
02:37I'm just trying to be a good dad and a good father.
02:42I'm not trying to make you feel bad about doing it.
02:44That's what makes you a great parent.
02:46That's what makes you a great dad.
02:48And the kids should come first.
02:50And they have came first this whole time.
02:53And I'm not asking you to change anything.
02:55I just want you to be okay with me being gone and visiting more.
03:01So what I am asking, maybe once a month, allow me to go to Atlanta,
03:08spend time with Uncle Bo, because I feel like I'm not living my life here.
03:13Atlanta is great.
03:15I have aunts and uncles in Atlanta.
03:17John's brother just moved to Atlanta.
03:19It would just be convenient to have some property there.
03:21This is your life.
03:23This is your world.
03:25This is your family.
03:27These are your friends.
03:29Stop saying your family.
03:31You talking about yours, yours, and yours.
03:33You chill.
03:35My hope is that we could balance both living in Atlanta and Pensacola somehow.
03:39We didn't move here for me, honey.
03:41Didn't you pick this house?
03:43Didn't you pick them floors?
03:45Didn't you pick all them big-ass drapes up in that living room?
03:47Yes, so you and our family could have a comfortable place to live.
03:54I'm going to just leave it at that.
03:56Okay, well, I'm going to just leave this at this.
03:58I'm getting an apartment with or without your consent.
04:00You tripping.
04:02Don't do that.
04:05Oh, this is adorable.
04:07This is, like, so romantic and s***.
04:09Oh, my God, how freaking pretty is this?
04:11Sit, and I will get you a wine list here.
04:13Wine list, of course.
04:15Of course.
04:17F*** that.
04:19These flowers are worth it.
04:21I'm just going to sit.
04:23Yeah.
04:25We are in Lake Tahoe for a girls' trip,
04:27and there has been, whew,
04:29drama on a whole other level,
04:31but it seems like everyone is,
04:33you know, happy,
04:35and I feel kind of like the outcast right now.
04:37But I am really, really trying to be hopeful and positive
04:39that we have a good time.
04:41I'm just going to sit.
04:43I'm just going to sit.
04:45I'm just going to sit.
04:47I'm just going to sit.
04:49I'm just going to sit.
04:51I'm just going to sit.
04:53And I'm very positive that we have a great bonding experience.
04:57You good, sis?
04:59Fisher?
05:01I'm good, very, very good.
05:03You know, I'm just thinking of,
05:05just because, like, we're all here
05:07and it's, like, really cool.
05:09I'm going to be 26,
05:11and I don't have a swim,
05:13which is crazy.
05:15But also because I am scared of deep water.
05:17That's probably the reason why I never learn how to swim.
05:19I just, like,
05:21Like, what are you scared to do?
05:23Like, I'm so terrified of heights.
05:26I hate the thought of being up high.
05:27If you're arranged by our styling,
05:28that could be, like, something we can help you with.
05:30Yeah.
05:31I'm not quite there.
05:32I love that.
05:33Paige, all of us conquering fears this week.
05:35I think we should do that.
05:37It's like a good bonding.
05:39What's your relationship?
05:41Mine?
05:42What am I scared of?
05:43One that sticks out, like, immediate.
05:46I think it'd be commitment.
05:47Oh.
05:49So you're just scared of relationships?
05:50Yeah, this is different.
05:51Yeah.
05:52I know one thing you love to do,
05:53but you never, like, you're too scared to, like, talk about.
05:57What?
05:58Nicole loves to write poems.
06:00Oh!
06:02You need to write a poem.
06:04I really like that.
06:05By the end of this trip, I need to write a poem.
06:07Yeah, by the end of this trip, you need to write.
06:08I think it'd be about commitment.
06:09Yeah, a poem about commitment.
06:10Praise God if you want it to be about commitment.
06:12Yeah.
06:13I want her poem to be about commitment.
06:14Nikki!
06:15Thanks, Bri.
06:17Oh, God.
06:19Well, now that Bri has told the world about my poetry writing,
06:22it's embarrassing to me.
06:23I've been writing poetry since third grade.
06:25It's just something that I've always kept to myself.
06:28I don't tell anyone that I write poetry.
06:31My poetry is my diary.
06:32And that is one of my fears,
06:34is reciting a poem publicly to people.
06:37So I'm going to conquer my fear like all the other girls.
06:41Oh, no.
06:42Who, me?
06:43I don't know, just, like, I've been in a funk all day.
06:47Being in such an extravagant place,
06:49like, with all these fancy things, and I didn't, like,
06:54we didn't, I grew up in, like, a red,
06:56my mom had, like, this red minivan she could barely afford
06:58that, like, almost got repoed.
07:00That we'd all, like, you know, hop in and, like, drive,
07:03just because, like, we couldn't afford, like,
07:05vacations and stuff, and, like,
07:07now I get to be in this amazing mansion without my family.
07:12Mmm.
07:15I just don't feel like I belong.
07:17I'm not used to this kind of lavishness, I guess.
07:20Coming from really humble beginnings,
07:23literally my whole life,
07:24shared a bedroom with my two brothers.
07:26It's so amazing and really cool to wake up in this huge mansion,
07:30and it's, like, the most beautiful view
07:32you've ever seen in your life,
07:33but that is one of my biggest fears.
07:36Just, I feel, I don't know,
07:39like, maybe I don't deserve to be here,
07:41or maybe that I don't fit in.
07:43Wait, I want to hear what Bree's scared of.
07:45I'm scared of Tahoe Tessie,
07:47the Loch Ness monster that lives in the bottom of the lake.
07:49The Loch Ness?
07:50She's definitely in Bree mode right now.
07:53Wait, Tahoe Tessie doesn't exist.
07:55Okay, in 2006, a bartender was making a drink,
07:59he looked out at the lake, and he saw a big black hump,
08:02and he saw it go down really quick.
08:05There has been so many sightings.
08:07In the 19th century,
08:09the Native Americans saw Tahoe Tessie.
08:14Tahoe Tessie is this Loch Ness monster
08:17that lives deep in the waters of Lake Tahoe,
08:20and as kids, I swear, when I was swimming in the lake,
08:24I saw shadows.
08:25She might be friendly, but at any moment,
08:27if she's hangry or she gets mad, I'm done.
08:30And there's something about the water and me,
08:33it freaks me out.
08:35Tahoe Tessie's real.
08:36Lana, what are you scared of?
08:37I think you're afraid of failing.
08:39Damn, daddy!
08:40What are you scared of?
08:41I'm trying to get down to the heart of what's wrong.
08:43No, no, no, no, you're right on.
08:45I'm definitely afraid of failing.
08:46Fat and, um...
08:48I guess I always feel like I'm on the outside.
08:51Is your fear, like, not fitting in?
08:53Well, I grew up as the only American,
08:55so I grew up as a minority.
08:56They told me I was stupid and fat and dumb.
08:58You smile too much, you laugh too much.
09:01You must be fake as s***.
09:02I was like, f*** you, I'm not fake.
09:04And I'm sorry I f***ing smiled,
09:05but it actually hit the nerve of when I was 10 years old
09:08of people being like, oh, you're American,
09:11you're happy, and you smile?
09:13That means you're f***ing weak.
09:15That breaks my heart.
09:17And the girls can back me up on this.
09:19Everyone loves you, first of all,
09:20and you know I love you dearly.
09:22My parents are obsessed with you.
09:23When Lana confesses that her biggest fear is fitting in,
09:26it actually makes a lot of sense.
09:27There are moments that Lana is a little socially awkward.
09:30I want to show you the two things
09:31that I actually had worked on already.
09:33I think a great way to jump-start a match
09:35is if somebody attacked you mid-dance.
09:37Obviously being in the village is not you.
09:39You're such a city girl.
09:40Excuse me? I grew up on a farm.
09:45But that is the Lana that I have grown to love.
09:47And what Lana needs to understand is that we love her too,
09:50and that we have her back as well.
09:52I have an idea.
09:53How about this?
09:54Because you don't think that you belong,
09:56I want to show you how much we love you
09:57and how much we're there for you
09:58and how much we have your back.
09:59And I believe in you.
10:00How about you stand on that ledge
10:02and all of us are going to stand behind you
10:04and you're going to have to fall.
10:05Close your eyes and fall, and we will catch you.
10:07We're on heels.
10:08I like your idea now.
10:10We love you dearly.
10:11Oh, my God.
10:12Do you trust us?
10:13Do you trust us?
10:14Does this mean that I'm accepted?
10:15Do you trust us?
10:16Oh, my God, that's so sad.
10:18But that's how I feel.
10:19Do you trust us?
10:20You don't need to try to be accepted.
10:22You're amazing for who you are.
10:23We have you, babe.
10:24Look at how cute your butt looks in this picture.
10:26Yeah, it looks great.
10:27Yes!
10:28Yes!
10:29Yes!
10:30Yes!
10:31Yes!
10:32Yes!
10:33Oh, my God.
10:34That scared me more than it scared them.
10:37That was so good.
10:38We got you, babe.
10:39Oh, that was amazing.
10:42Hey!
10:43Hey!
10:44Hey!
10:45Hey!
10:46My heart is racing.
10:47Hey!
10:48Hey!
10:49Hey!
10:50I don't think I can go in deep water.
10:52Yeah.
10:53It's such a...
10:54Talking about something that gives me so much anxiety,
10:56being in deep water without really knowing how to swim.
10:59It makes me feel really sad, like I didn't know.
11:01I've realized through the things
11:03that I've gone with with Paige this week
11:05that sometimes an apology will never heal
11:08the damage that has been done.
11:18So I don't know if you guys are excited or not,
11:20but we're gonna go search for Tahoe Tessie.
11:22Okay.
11:23Nicole told me this morning
11:24that Lake Tahoe is the deepest, like, lake in the world.
11:26I believe it's the deepest lake in the world.
11:28And that's why Tahoe Tessie really exists.
11:30Not deepest lake in the world that's natural.
11:32Right.
11:33Not man-made.
11:34Right.
11:35I didn't realize it was that deep.
11:36So deep.
11:37I think that's why all the myths are true.
11:38They definitely don't know it's at the bottom of the lake.
11:40Then her body decomposed and fed all the fishies.
11:42Nobody's ever gone down there?
11:43I don't believe so.
11:44No, I don't think you can.
11:47I'm very surprised to find out how deep the lake is.
11:50It definitely makes me nervous.
11:51You don't know what's down there.
11:54I don't know, I wasn't living in there,
11:55like, freaking Tahoe Tessie.
11:56I've never tried to learn how to swim
11:58because I'm scared of deep water.
11:59Like, I'm like,
12:00when am I ever gonna put myself in deep water?
12:02I mean, I'm gonna need it
12:03in case someone pushes me off a boat one day.
12:05I don't even know what we're doing right now.
12:07We're getting connected to a parachute right now
12:09and going in the air.
12:10Natty, how are you feeling?
12:11Are you gonna go up and do it?
12:12I think everyone wants to do this,
12:14and everyone wants me to do this,
12:15so I'm just wanting to do it so I can make everyone happy,
12:17but I feel, like, pit in my stomach doing this.
12:20Well, I mean, don't feel forced.
12:22It's whatever you feel like doing.
12:24I got nervous!
12:25You're good, you're good, you're good!
12:27♪ Do it as we can, I'm the woman, you're the man ♪
12:30♪ Burn it down, crank it up, paint the town, shake it up, hey! ♪
12:34Oh, my God!
12:36Okay, oh, my God.
12:39I don't know.
12:40That is so high!
12:42Natty, we have to go.
12:44Let me see them come down.
12:45I honestly feel like throwing up.
12:47This whole parasailing thing is making me sick to my stomach.
12:52Oh, my God!
12:54It's amazing!
12:55I feel like my legs are shaking.
12:57Oh!
12:58Look at those girls up there!
12:59Girls!
13:00Girls!
13:01Girls!
13:02Hey, what's up?
13:04What's up, bitches?
13:06Hey!
13:08Hey!
13:10Baby Gigi.
13:11I missed the first few days of Tahoe
13:14because I was in Atlanta with Uncle Buck.
13:17Everything is so beautiful.
13:19I already feel at peace and less stressed.
13:22Hey!
13:25I'm not just thinking about my living situation back in Pensacola.
13:29And to see my girls, like, it instantly put a smile on my face.
13:33Will you go up with me?
13:35Yes, Baby Gigi.
13:36Natty, Natty, Natty, Natty!
13:39Chug, chug, chug, chug, chug, chug!
13:43All right, I'm ready when you are.
13:45She won't let you land on your own feet.
13:47Unbreakable.
13:49I finally decide I just need to face this fear head-on.
13:53Don't go too high!
13:55Don't go too high!
13:58I'm really freaked out.
14:00But as we go up, I suddenly feel at peace.
14:03And I'm not afraid of doing this.
14:05You did it!
14:09Holy sh!
14:11Holy sh!
14:12Nicole told me not to look down.
14:14Look at the view.
14:17Whoo!
14:18Yeah!
14:20I did it!
14:22Yeah!
14:24My heart is racing.
14:26♪♪♪
14:36Journaling has been great.
14:38I get to actually see the thoughts that I feel inside my head,
14:42which make it real for me.
14:44I've had such an incredible year in the WWE and in my life.
14:49I mean, I'm really, really blessed to be here,
14:51but I'm also kind of, like, feeling weird about it.
14:54I'm not ungrateful.
14:56I'm not ungrateful.
14:57I don't want that to sound ungrateful,
14:58but it's hard for me to fully enjoy it
15:00because, I don't know, I feel a little selfish.
15:02Mister.
15:03Hey, sis.
15:05So are you ready?
15:06For what's going to happen?
15:07To cover your swimming fear?
15:09Yeah.
15:10Getting that water?
15:11Yeah.
15:12No life jacket?
15:13I don't know about that one.
15:14I didn't realize how deep the water was, honestly.
15:16Like, it f***ing terrified me.
15:18I was just crying because I was like,
15:19I don't think I can go and take water.
15:21Yeah.
15:22I feel like such a f***.
15:24No, you're not.
15:25Oh, God, no.
15:27It makes me feel really sad.
15:28Like, I didn't know.
15:29I feel bad because everyone else is, like,
15:31overcoming their stuff and, like, being open about it.
15:33I just can't do it.
15:36Some things you can't just do overnight.
15:38You know, like, when you're here, when you run up the stairs
15:40and you feel like you're out of breath?
15:42Yeah.
15:43It's just how I felt.
15:44It's almost like a suffocation to think that you can't control
15:45if you can't get out of the water.
15:46And I don't like being in, like, situations that I can't control.
15:49Exactly.
15:50Talking about something that gives me so much anxiety,
15:52being in deep water without really knowing how to swim,
15:55it just reminds me of past relationships
15:57and the stuff that I did for the last year and a half.
15:59I don't like having no control over stuff anymore.
16:02It's not because I'm mad, not because I'm sad.
16:04It's because I'm, like, freaking out.
16:05I, throughout my whole life, defended myself.
16:08I didn't need anyone to, like, help me.
16:10So I feel like this kind of thing makes me feel very vulnerable.
16:13I just hate people seeing me so freaking weak
16:15that everyone's, like, overcoming and being strong.
16:17No, I'm just saying weak.
16:18I personally can't do it.
16:19I'm sorry, guys.
16:20There's always going to be one that can't overcome.
16:21You know what?
16:22This isn't weakness.
16:23Like, this is strength admitting it.
16:24And, like, that's fine.
16:26And don't go tubing either.
16:27No, I want to go tubing with Nikki,
16:29because then we'll be wearing, yeah.
16:31That's very, that's a lot of work.
16:32No, no, no.
16:33But we're going to be going, like, five miles an hour.
16:34Oh, okay, okay, okay.
16:35And we have a professional on the boat, so I could be fine.
16:37This is mine.
16:38It's going to be here.
16:39It can jump in and save me.
16:40This is professional.
16:41Yeah, that's what I need, a f***ing professional.
16:47I have to journal after this, too.
16:49I already journaled.
16:50I feel really good.
16:51It's very therapeutic.
16:52It is.
16:53It's very eye-opening to me about a lot of things about myself.
16:56It feels like your mind is, like, because it's so quiet.
16:59Where's the journaling?
17:00Yeah.
17:01It's so nice.
17:02When I'm on trips like this,
17:03I have this big tug-of-war with my heart.
17:07Of, like, being here and feeling really free
17:11and feeling like youthful Brie and feeling young again
17:15and feeling like how I did before marriage,
17:18how I did before, you know, having a child.
17:20But then, every time I go to bed,
17:22I get this really overwhelming sadness
17:24that I'm not going to wake up with Birdie.
17:26And then, because of the guilt, you sit there and you think,
17:29like, I don't ever want it to come off that I'm happy
17:32or, like, doing these trips without her
17:34because I'm just so happy with her too,
17:36but it's such a mind game.
17:38It's just, it gets very overwhelming.
17:41Yeah.
17:43I strongly believe that when you have kids,
17:46like, your life shouldn't stop.
17:48It shouldn't.
17:49Yeah, it's true.
17:50It's true.
17:51And your happiness and you staying mentally healthy
17:53and good on trips like this to get away
17:55so you can recharge and you can feel good.
17:59You'll be even better when you go back to her
18:01because you're going to miss her.
18:03I feel like, as women, we wear so many hats,
18:06especially the women I work with.
18:08We're all so strong-minded.
18:10We're all so independent.
18:11We're all like, I'm superwoman.
18:13I can do anything.
18:14But sometimes it is a lot.
18:17We're human, and sometimes we just need to check out,
18:21get it together, and come back in the game.
18:25I think it's fair for you to have some peace and be happy.
18:30Like, you shouldn't feel bad about that.
18:32You're a great mom.
18:33The good thing about you guys is that you're going to teach
18:35her how to frickin' grow fruit, vegetables, like,
18:38live off the land, actually play with kids
18:40instead of being on a frickin' table all day.
18:42Damn, like, I want to be a mom, like, for real.
18:44You're doing it.
18:46I'm trying to convince these girls that Tahoe Tessie's real.
18:50That's real, right?
18:51That is real.
18:52Tahoe Tessie is probably as real as Loch Ness Monster.
18:54That's gigantic.
18:55I've just never seen a successful marriage or relationship.
18:59No, don't say that.
19:00This scares the hell out of me.
19:02We both thought, like, man, this, everything isn't okay.
19:10This whole little town is so damn cute.
19:12I know.
19:13Do you guys all know what's across the street
19:15from the grocery store?
19:16No.
19:17No.
19:18The museum.
19:19Of what?
19:20Of Tahoe Tessie.
19:21If they have a museum on Tahoe Tessie means it's real.
19:23Yeah.
19:24Does it?
19:31So I'm trying to convince these girls that Tahoe Tessie's real.
19:34Okay.
19:35And so I know this is the spot where I could have them.
19:38It's very much real.
19:39Right?
19:40When Brie says that Tahoe Tessie is her real fear,
19:42I play along with it because I love Brie,
19:45but Tahoe Tessie is probably as real as Loch Ness Monster.
19:48Are you ready to go through the exhibit?
19:50Yes.
19:51Okay, wonderful.
19:52Let's go this way.
19:53And if Tahoe Tessie is in Lake Tahoe,
19:55I hope to meet her one day because I have a feeling
19:57she's a very nice girl.
19:58Cryptozoology is the study of things like Loch Ness Monster, Bigfoot.
20:03The Smithsonian does a great exhibit on the Titan Boa,
20:05which did exist.
20:07That's real, right?
20:09That is real.
20:10Wow.
20:11And this is the one closest to Lake Tahoe.
20:14This is Ange.
20:15There were giant birds, but it absolutely could have existed.
20:19Some people do say they have seen her.
20:22They see the humps, they see the ripples.
20:24Other people think maybe it's a giant sturgeon.
20:28Oh.
20:30I think Brie's fear of Tahoe Tessie is freaking hilarious.
20:34Tren, Nya, come here.
20:36This is what this is.
20:37This is a hoax.
20:38She's definitely not a Tessie.
20:39Hell no.
20:40I'm like, is she for real?
20:42Or is she messing with us?
20:44I feel like we're the bad people telling her it's not real.
20:47I know, but I don't want to tell Brie it's not real.
20:49Just let her live her best life and believe in the damn Tessie.
20:53Oh, I hate that Brie put me on the spot with this.
20:57It's, like, hard to, like, force poetry.
21:01It's not how I write.
21:02Yeah.
21:03Because usually when it's emotion, I just flow it.
21:05Mm-hmm.
21:06I have, like, books full of poems.
21:08I started when I was super young.
21:10Be the only way I could, like, get stuff out.
21:13But you weren't really prepared for this, so you have to use your bird.
21:16No.
21:17I feel like I have writer's block because I'm, like, forcing it.
21:20Usually, I just flow these out like no other
21:23because I know they're not going to be seen.
21:25And now that they're going to be heard, I'm, like, scared, nervous.
21:30Ugh.
21:31Hate it.
21:32Oh, hey, girly.
21:33Oh, you're cute.
21:34Come join us.
21:36I took what you guys said about, like, commitment
21:38and kind of flipping it my own way.
21:40It's, like, a kind of, like, I don't know,
21:42I don't know what to do with my life.
21:44I took what you said about, like, commitment
21:45and kind of flipping it my own way.
21:47It's, like, okay, I'll put a base.
21:48I'll use that as, like, my foundation.
21:50Yeah.
21:51To get me into a place to start to write.
21:55That's a good idea.
21:56Yeah.
22:00All right, ladies, let's roll.
22:01Ready to go.
22:02I'm excited.
22:03Let's do this.
22:05I think my bathing suit's about to come untied.
22:11I am so excited for today.
22:12Who's going tubing?
22:13I want to go.
22:14Are you going to?
22:15Are you going to go tubing?
22:16I'm going tubing.
22:17Are you, Natty?
22:18I'll see if Nicole does it.
22:19Hey, who's going first?
22:20F*** it.
22:21Let's go.
22:22Slavvy on it.
22:23Ready.
22:24Oh, s***.
22:25Oh, God.
22:26Woo!
22:27Yeah, baby!
22:28Ah!
22:29Ah!
22:30Ah!
22:31Ah!
22:32Ah!
22:33Ah!
22:34Slow down.
22:35Slow down.
22:36Slow down.
22:37You guys are going, like, two miles per hour.
22:38Slow down.
22:39Slow down.
22:40Slow down.
22:41Slow down.
22:42You guys are going, like, two miles per hour right now.
22:43Let's go!
22:44Ah!
22:45Oh, s***.
22:46Oh!
22:47Oh!
22:48Oh!
22:49Are you OK?
22:50You f***ing killed yourself.
22:51That was insane.
22:52You guys have to do this.
22:53It's so much fun.
22:54Paige, you will love it.
22:55For real, not too, too fast for them.
22:56Yeah, you can't go fast at all.
22:57Like, legit.
22:58As I'm seeing Paige get on the tube with Nikki,
22:59I just know her heart is racing.
23:00Oh, s***.
23:01This is, like, scary just getting on it.
23:02Yeah.
23:03Ah!
23:04Ah!
23:05Ah!
23:06Ah!
23:07Ah!
23:08Ah!
23:09Ah!
23:10Ah!
23:11Just to be out there
23:12and you see how huge it is
23:13and knowing, if you flip off,
23:14like, you're just there,
23:15waiting for the boat to come get you,
23:16I know she's nervous right now.
23:17Yeah, more overcoming fins, too, Sim.
23:18Yeah, be careful, girls.
23:19Woo!
23:20Yeah.
23:21Oh, s***.
23:22Oh, wait!
23:23Whoo!
23:24Oh!
23:25Ah!
23:26Ah!
23:27Wait!
23:28Stop!
23:29Stop!
23:30Stop!
23:31Stop!
23:32Oh, my god.
23:33Oh, my god.
23:34Oh!
23:35Oh, gosh.
23:36Stop.
23:37Stop.
23:38Stop.
23:39Stop!
23:40Paige, are you OK?
23:43Oh, my God.
23:45Hold on.
23:46Hold on.
23:48Back.
23:49Turn back around, you assholes.
23:51They were going, honestly, really aggressively fast.
23:54Pull, Paige.
23:55Wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait.
23:57Why?
23:58The thing.
23:59Don't fall.
24:01Paige, are you OK?
24:03Paige, hold on.
24:08Paige, how are you feeling?
24:10One of my phobias has been in deep water.
24:12So it literally, like, even with a life jacket,
24:16I was so terrified.
24:17Yeah.
24:18I had anxiety for the risk.
24:29Oh, my gosh.
24:30When Paige gets emotional about tubing
24:33and, like, how she had such anxiety going out in that water,
24:37that's a really, real deep fear.
24:39And that just makes me so sad.
24:41And I really would love to help her conquer it in any way I can.
24:45And I haven't felt that way in a long time.
24:48Yeah.
24:49So, like, I know it's like a life jacket.
24:51Like, she's fine.
24:52But it really did, honestly, terrify me.
24:54Yeah.
24:55Yeah!
24:56Yeah!
24:58Ah!
24:59Ah!
25:00Let's do this!
25:01I hope this brings amazingness to everybody.
25:04Yeah!
25:07♪♪♪
25:13Lunch is ready.
25:15Is Lana coming out?
25:16She's coming out.
25:17What a beautiful day.
25:18Mm-hmm.
25:19I think she's going to have a, like,
25:21wants to have a talk with you, like a heart-to-heart.
25:26I just feel weird about this, you know?
25:27Yeah.
25:28Mm-hmm.
25:29Me, too.
25:30Well, I think the communication is a huge foundation
25:32for a relationship, a friendship.
25:34I hate heart-to-hearts, too,
25:36but I think we'd be good for you guys.
25:38I just can't deal with bullshit anymore.
25:40It's like I just have, like, a pent-up anger
25:42where I haven't let out in so long.
25:44Mm-hmm.
25:45That just is, like, a single bit of bullshit.
25:47I'm just like, "[Bleep], you're done."
25:50I just think it's the way you get brought up, you know?
25:52My family's never been like that.
25:53Do you see it's totally how you are, like, raised?
25:55Yeah.
25:56Because I feel like that's kind of how we were.
25:59Ugh.
26:05Lana, when there was conflict in your family,
26:07like, growing up,
26:09how did you guys handle it as a family?
26:11Well, we were massively disciplined.
26:15My mom was always like,
26:16you can apologize, but, like, your mouth is the sh...
26:19Like, if you can control your mouth,
26:20you can control your whole body.
26:22And I tried to get a lot better.
26:23I was really bad in high school,
26:24and I just knew how to say things that would hurt people.
26:27Like, I knew how I behaved was wrong,
26:29then I needed to be disciplined for it.
26:31Like, hate, saying hate was never allowed.
26:36I was telling them my family
26:37had, like, the gypsy lifestyle, right?
26:39So if anyone had an issue,
26:40even from outside the family,
26:41they'd go out, fight it out.
26:43Like, literally fist fight.
26:44Like, literally fight it.
26:45Physically fight it.
26:46And whoever wins,
26:47the loser buys a drink for.
26:48That's just how it is.
26:49So I think, like, that's where it stems from.
26:51I'm a maniac when I start yelling at people.
26:54It's interesting, though,
26:55like, how we handle things differently.
26:58♪♪♪♪
27:03All right, let's get some pans out.
27:05Let's do this.
27:06♪♪♪♪
27:11Think.
27:12Bam.
27:13Go catch Tom with Tessie.
27:14Let's cook her ass.
27:15How's that?
27:16She good?
27:17Trin and I decide to cook a family dinner,
27:19and...
27:20Oh, sh...
27:21That's a little burnt.
27:22When Jon makes tacos,
27:23he don't go through all this.
27:25On a scale of 1 to 10,
27:28I am a solid 2 on the cooking scale.
27:32What is that?
27:33That's fish.
27:34Fish.
27:35♪♪♪♪♪
27:38Bon appetit, girls.
27:39Dig in.
27:40I'm a little scared.
27:41This looks interesting.
27:44If it's bad, Nya cooked everything.
27:47I didn't even know you guys could cook.
27:49Well...
27:50I mean...
27:51It's definitely different.
27:53It's definitely not Mexican.
27:54That's not even cooked.
27:55Family night.
27:56I'm giving you guys a cooking class 101.
27:58I'm doing it in the actual kitchen.
28:00♪♪♪♪♪
28:03Tahoe Tessie doesn't exist.
28:05Okay, Tahoe Tessie's real.
28:08In 2006, a bartender saw a big black hump,
28:13and he saw it go down really quick.
28:17Native Americans saw Tahoe Tessie.
28:21Oh, my God.
28:22Get the...out of here.
28:24Oh, Bree!
28:26Bree, stop it.
28:27Tessie!
28:28Tahoe Tessie!
28:30Tahoe Tessie!
28:33What are you doing?
28:35You scared me.
28:36Tessie looked bad.
28:38I tried to come up behind the buffet thing.
28:41Tahoe Tessie is a bad person.
28:45Tahoe Tessie is not real.
28:48I know this.
28:49I'm sorry, but that was the stupidest sh...
28:51I've ever seen.
28:52But this is what you're supposed to do on girls' trips.
28:54You're supposed to be stupid and do stupid things.
28:57I just want everyone to kind of, you know,
28:59just know we're having fun.
29:01Tahoe Tessie!
29:04Hello.
29:07Oh, hi, how are you?
29:08Good.
29:09Do you want to come bring in...
29:10I got a bunch of delicious pizzas.
29:12I totally ordered pizza
29:14and the minute I heard the, oh, sh...
29:15I think I burnt it.
29:16I was like, pizza, yes.
29:19Look how many f... pizzas you ordered.
29:21All right, whip it out, let's eat it.
29:22Jesus.
29:23You know, as a backup, just in case.
29:25Pizza party!
29:26You ordered, like, nine pizzas.
29:27Wow, this is so good.
29:29All right, so I've been thinking.
29:30Let's hear it.
29:31For real, for real, on the shoot,
29:32one of my biggest fears is getting a divorce.
29:35No, don't say that!
29:37Why?
29:38I know.
29:39Well, in our family, both sides,
29:41I've never seen a successful marriage or relationship.
29:44Other than my grandma and grandpa.
29:47They stay together to the end, but it's just a lot.
29:50But that's my fear of, you know,
29:53me and John not growing old and dying together.
29:56Trim.
29:57F... dude, that's deep.
29:59Yeah, that is deep.
30:00I mean, going through stuff,
30:01and it feels good to just get it out.
30:05And just the thought of not having a successful marriage,
30:08that being a possibility that that can't happen,
30:10it scares the hell out of me.
30:12But I feel like you put so much effort into your family,
30:15like, especially on top of all the work we do.
30:18We've been going through, like, our stuff.
30:20Like, it's been the hardest it's ever been.
30:23And, like, I have my home, we have our home in Pensacola,
30:26but I was like, man, like, I just feel, like, smothered.
30:28Like, I feel like I'm doing everything.
30:31Like, everything is always, like,
30:32I'm kind of losing me a little bit.
30:35It really does scare me.
30:37I want to be with him for the rest of my life.
30:39But I have just been going through this routine
30:44in order for him to be happy.
30:47And I don't want him to think I'm selfish
30:49for wanting to do a little more for myself.
30:52Our career is, like, picking up.
30:53It's a lot.
30:54I don't know, it's the first time
30:56we've gone through struggles where we both thought,
30:59like, man, it's not, everything isn't okay.
31:05Burn, bitches.
31:07I want all of us to read our journals.
31:09If we read them out loud, we could just set them free.
31:12I love you guys.
31:18It's the first time we've gone through struggles
31:21where we both thought, like, man, it's not, everything isn't okay.
31:26To be fair, I know it sounds really mean,
31:28but when you marry a significant other that has kids,
31:32you kind of have to give up a lot more of yourself for them
31:36than they give up for you.
31:37Oh, yeah.
31:39But you deserve somebody
31:40to give up some shit for you too, though.
31:42Do you know what I mean?
31:43Like, come on.
31:44You've been giving up a lot for others.
31:49It's really nice to have the support for the girls.
31:52In almost 10 years, this is the first, like,
31:56little tension we've had, and it scares me.
32:02Fast dress couple alert!
32:04Naomi and Jimmy Uso!
32:09The true husband and wife duo.
32:12Trin, you and John seem like a f***ing...
32:14You guys are meant to be together.
32:16You are meant...
32:17Especially when you guys walk out together in the ring.
32:20Oh, God, I love seeing that.
32:22You guys are gold, dude.
32:24Okay, I feel better now.
32:25Yeah.
32:26And you might feel different the day you and John
32:29have a baby together.
32:30Oh, yeah.
32:31Because it'll be a different connection.
32:32I can't wait.
32:33I can't wait to have his kids.
32:34See, you guys, this is what I think is the plus
32:36about having the journals this week,
32:37is, like, I feel like we'd never have these conversations
32:41until we, like, had the journals
32:42and talked about, like, bringing out our fears
32:45and all this stuff.
32:46It, like, brings us even closer to talk about certain things.
32:49And I'm happy we stayed in and ate pizza
32:51instead of going to a restaurant.
33:00Ready?
33:01I want us to read all our stuff before the sun goes down
33:03because it just looks too beautiful.
33:06Okay, you guys, so these things are healing,
33:09purifying, and cleansing little logs.
33:11They're from fallen trees.
33:13It just brings, like, a spiritual healing and cleansing.
33:15Let your flame burn, bitches.
33:19The trip is coming to an end,
33:20but I want all of us to just sit around the campfire
33:24and read our journals.
33:26I didn't even know we had to read these, by the way.
33:28You don't have to.
33:29No, I'm going to.
33:30I feel like if we read them out loud,
33:32we could just set them free.
33:34I'm not gonna lie that I've never read my poetry for anyone.
33:38Fearless Nikki.
33:40Yeah.
33:41Do-do-do-do.
33:42Fearless Nikki.
33:43Do-do-do-do-do.
33:44Fearless Nikki.
33:45Um, all right.
33:48We're proud of you.
33:49Don't start right now.
33:50You can't.
33:51Commitment.
33:52What is it to be committed?
33:54Is it that your love runs so deep there's no limit?
33:56Then tell me why I got so distant.
33:59My love is thicker than water,
34:00but my communication got so shallow.
34:03Commitment is responsibility.
34:05It's devotion, loyalty,
34:06and needs to be given to all your number ones.
34:09I got a bird to take care of that's more special than a dove
34:12and a twin with half my heart and a family I love tons.
34:15Another family I'm committed to goes beyond blood.
34:18We punch, slam, and hit and do it all for fun.
34:22They aren't like most girls.
34:23They are my lifeblood.
34:25They're ravishing and gothic and glow like the sun.
34:28We've become the queen of hearts.
34:30The best there are, the best there was,
34:32and the best there ever will be.
34:34It's our faithfulness that has given us the right parts.
34:37Commitment in all we do will help us stand and rise.
34:40Not fear fitting in or think one day our loved one will say goodbye.
34:45For now, the mountains in tow have spoken.
34:48Fly high in my sky.
34:49Let me heal all your fears.
34:51Just promise me one thing.
34:53Give me all of your sad tears.
34:55Because tonight around this fire and under these stars,
34:58a new woman you will be.
35:00And all I ask for is that you'll never forget me.
35:05Oh, my God.
35:07That was amazing.
35:09Oh, my God.
35:10That was so good.
35:11Thank you so much.
35:12That was beautiful.
35:14I love you all.
35:15That's crazy.
35:16You should have went last.
35:18I've just been through a lot this past year,
35:20and all the girls around me have been through a lot,
35:22and to share that with them, I just truly feel like I've grown.
35:25It's been a tough one, but it's nice to get that,
35:28get it out in the open and just let the flames take it all the way up.
35:33You just, like, summed up our little trip.
35:35That was perfect for everybody.
35:38Oh, s***.
35:40Took a plug in it.
35:41I'm sorry.
35:42No, let it flow, baby girl.
35:43Let it flow.
35:44That was so good.
35:45All right, s***.
35:46Okay.
35:47The cover of Paige's book says s***.
35:49So this is Paige's diary.
35:51F*** off.
35:53Day one Tahoe.
35:55Nailed it.
35:57Nicole stole our phone's eye roll heart rate.
36:01Lara and I nearly started a fight club.
36:03Headed to bed at 9.30.
36:05When the f*** did I lose it?
36:10I opened up to girls today about one of my fears.
36:12Yes, I don't know how to swim,
36:15but it's also the fact that I don't like deep water.
36:17But the tubing really helped,
36:19and I want to thank Nikki for encouraging me
36:20to go faster on the wave than I want to punch her in the face.
36:23We need to try and overcome these fears together.
36:25Great bonding experience.
36:27I love it.
36:28That was so good.
36:30So you have to read your journal.
36:31Oh, crap.
36:33Yes.
36:34So far I can't say enough incredible things about this trip.
36:37Each woman has taught me something this weekend.
36:39Paige, her unconditional love and perseverance.
36:42Natty, her strength and patience.
36:45Trinity, she quietly works her butt off
36:47in athletics, families, friendships,
36:49and she brings a happy and positive energy everywhere.
36:52Lana, Lana proved to me that no matter how many times you're told no,
36:55you can always find a way to get something or someone to change their mind.
36:58Oh, I love it.
37:00Nicole, the definition of fearless.
37:03F*** right.
37:05Brianna, devoted, genuine, and compassion.
37:09All these beautiful women empower me to be a better human.
37:13Oh, my God.
37:16That was so good.
37:18I'm just, I'm very grateful, and I'm blessed,
37:20and I need to learn to appreciate these moments
37:23and appreciate the life that I'm living,
37:25and, you know, I need to enjoy every moment
37:28because I do work hard, and I do deserve things like this.
37:32That's something to feel proud of and not guilty of.
37:35All right, Lana.
37:37Drop it on us, sister.
37:39Speak from your heart.
37:41Ugh, I'm going to end up getting emotional.
37:44God, I can't swallow.
37:47Through this couple days, I've really realized
37:51how much words have so much power.
37:53We can either build each other up,
37:56or we can tear each other down with just one sentence.
37:59This is why I never f***ing liked you, Lana.
38:01Don't come anywhere f***ing near me this whole trip.
38:03And I've realized through the things
38:06that I've gone with with Paige this week,
38:11sometimes an apology will never heal
38:14the damage that has been done.
38:26Sometimes an apology will never heal
38:29the damage that has been done,
38:31and I've realized I want to control my words,
38:37and I want to leave a legacy of love and forgiveness.
38:43I want love to lead because love conquers all.
38:51And forgiveness is truly forgiving and forgetting
38:58and genuinely giving that person a second, third,
39:02and as many chances that they need
39:05because I want people to forgive me.
39:08Amen, sister. That was really good.
39:11That's beautiful.
39:13You need therapy after this.
39:15I feel like this is therapy, though.
39:17I very much agree, Trin.
39:19I think that's beautiful, Lana.
39:22Tahoe has been a very emotional experience.
39:27What is life if we live in fear?
39:29We can only hurt ourselves by living in fear,
39:32because women have decided to hold each other's hands
39:35and together run into our fears, and I'm so grateful for that.
39:39It's crazy how we're all fighting some kind of battle, you know?
39:42It is.
39:43You just never know when someone's going through something.
39:45I love you guys!
39:55Trin came up with the best joke.
39:57Nikki Swallowed.
39:59Nikki Swallowed.
40:01I am single right now, and...
40:03Ready to mingle.
40:04Let's get pregnant together.
40:06She wants us to get pregnant together so bad.
40:08Why not? That would be awesome.
40:10Only if we have boys.
40:12Oh, okay.
40:13Let's all make a pregnancy pact!
40:15But what does Us say?
40:17Now, he wants one right now, and I always told him by 30
40:21I would give him a baby, and, like, 30 came, and I was like, oh.
40:24Oh, s***. That came quick.
40:26But I want to knock him out, like, boom, boom, boom.
40:30I want to do two, like, super quick, back-to-back.
40:33I feel like I'm going to have a baby at some point.
40:35Do you want a baby now?
40:36Really, Baby G? You want it?
40:38What?!
40:40What?!
40:42Natty! Natty! Natty!
40:45Yo, I just feel like Birdie makes my heart melt.
40:47Natty! Natty!
40:49You guys, let's head out.
40:53We're jumping in that lake.
40:55We are.
40:56We are refreshing ourselves.
40:58Guess what? Motherf***er's stoked!
41:01We're jumping in the lake!
41:03I'm coming! I'm coming! I'm coming!
41:05I need you to hold my arm!
41:07I'm coming!
41:08Oh, my God, you are not drowning on my watch!
41:10Wait, I can't swim. I'm wearing a life jacket.
41:13Got it?
41:14Slap me! Slap me!
41:16Oh, yeah!
41:18Ah! Ah!
41:20Let's do this! Come on!
41:22One, two, three!
41:25Ah!
41:27Ah!
41:29Ah!
41:31Ah!
41:33Ah!
41:35Oh, my God!
41:37You're drowning!
41:39You're drowning!
41:41You're drowning!
41:43Jumping into this lake,
41:45I guess it's like a Lake Tahoe tradition
41:47where it just cleanses your soul, you know?
41:49It replenishes your body.
41:51And I feel safe doing it with these ladies.
41:53They've had my back out there.
41:55I just have to throw myself out there.
41:57I have a little powerful woman
41:59that's willing to help me if I'm drowning.
42:01What?
42:03That's not the Jacoby!
42:05Look at how beautiful it is right now.
42:07You have to admit,
42:09jumping in like that was magical.
42:11It was so nice.
42:13I'm taking away the sisterhood that we built on this trip,
42:15the bonds that we created,
42:17the love that we all shared,
42:19and I hope this brings, like,
42:21amazingness to everybody.
42:23Oh, my God!
42:25Oh, my God!
42:27I'm gonna slam through the screen!
42:29Oh, my God!
42:31Oh, my God!
42:33This trip has been the best girls' trip
42:35I have ever taken in my life.
42:37I've never felt in such a short amount of time
42:39that I've become closer with these women.
42:41I can't even explain the feeling.
42:43I don't know if it's, like, Tahoe,
42:45the women I'm surrounded by,
42:47or the fact that we accomplished conquering our fears,
42:49but this trip will stand out as number one.
42:51I literally want to kill each other
42:53one second, and then the next second...
42:55We love you!
42:57I love you!
42:59Next on the season finale
43:01of Total Divas...
43:03Money in the bank!
43:05This is a very high-stakes match.
43:07That was freaking sick.
43:09Nia Jax against Ronda Rousey.
43:11Wow!
43:13My wedding ring was stolen.
43:15I always told you to wear it.
43:17You never wore it.
43:19I just thought my dad was gonna live forever.
43:21It's just hard to know how to say goodbye.
43:23I need to get it together.