Sa Part 2 ng Updated with Nelson Canlas, makakatikim tayo ng Evangelisms ng nag-iisang Eva Le Queen! Problema sa puso ba? Solb na niya ‘yan!
Bukas-puso ring ikukwento ni Eva kung paano natanggap ng kanyang pamilya at magulang ang kanyang buong pagkatao. Is there life after Global All Stars? Find out from Eva herself!
Bukas-puso ring ikukwento ni Eva kung paano natanggap ng kanyang pamilya at magulang ang kanyang buong pagkatao. Is there life after Global All Stars? Find out from Eva herself!
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00:00I ask myself, after Global All-Stars, what am I going to do with my life?
00:10Welcome back to Updated with Nelson Canlas.
00:12This is part 2 of our conversation with the queen herself, Ava Laqueen.
00:18I have friends who are doing drag.
00:21And some of them, when they started, they didn't accept it right away.
00:28Knowing that our Filipino values, right?
00:32They didn't accept it right away.
00:34Like, supportive.
00:36Was it you? Did you go through that?
00:39Yes, Kuya Nelson.
00:41As in, my parents accepted that I am a gay man.
00:47Like, when I had my first boyfriend, I introduced myself to them.
00:51I shook hands with them.
00:52They're fine. That's okay with them.
00:54Like, they're cool.
00:56But maybe some of them clicked when they saw their son dressed as a woman.
01:02They weren't able to reconcile with that.
01:05When my mom first found out, we didn't talk for months.
01:09And we just lived in the same house.
01:11It was so awkward.
01:13We were in the same house.
01:15She even texted me.
01:17She was just in the other room.
01:19She was like, I'm sorry, I really can't accept you doing drag.
01:23And I just told her, it's okay, I won't force you.
01:27Because I believe that acceptance goes both ways.
01:31It's not because you exposed yourself, you don't know who you are.
01:34You expect them to accept it.
01:37You won't force them to accept it.
01:39You give them the time.
01:41You respect their time to process it.
01:43And that's what true acceptance is.
01:45It goes both ways.
01:47And I just told her, don't stop me.
01:49Because there's nothing wrong with what I'm doing.
01:52It took them time.
01:53And then they saw Drag Race Philippines.
01:55They understood why I do what I do.
01:58And they became fans of my vision for the drag community here in the Philippines.
02:06When I had my premiere, my mom and dad were there.
02:10It was the first time they saw me perform.
02:12I've been doing drag for 8 years.
02:14How was that for you?
02:17How was it for me, Nelson?
02:19I'll compare it to my straight siblings.
02:23It's like a milestone in my life.
02:25For my straight siblings, it's like a wedding.
02:29Or a firstborn baby.
02:33That's how it is.
02:35The thing that I love the most.
02:38And then the people that I love the most in one place celebrating that.
02:44That's her.
02:45The first time I saw my mom, she looked me in the eye.
02:49She was still crying.
02:51She said, you're so good.
02:53I felt that.
02:57It's not RuPaul saying that I'm good that day.
03:00It's my mom.
03:02Finally looking me in the eye.
03:04She was asking for the video.
03:06She said, where's the video of your performance?
03:08I couldn't video it because I was crying while watching it.
03:12Oh my gosh.
03:14I felt that.
03:16I have to pause for a while.
03:18I felt that.
03:20That's a transcendent moment.
03:23It is.
03:25My mom is old.
03:29She's from the province.
03:31I get it.
03:32She has morals.
03:34She has walls that you can't easily break.
03:39It doesn't make sense to her entirely.
03:42But you can see that her child is very happy.
03:49That's the ultimate love of parents.
03:54Your child comes first.
03:57And then nothing else matters.
03:59That's what I felt.
04:01I'm sure, Eva, there's one drag princess who's listening right now.
04:07Yes.
04:08She's going through what you're going through.
04:11What would you like to say to them?
04:17First is that when you do drag,
04:21I would say that do it for yourself.
04:26As long as you're not doing anything bad.
04:28You're not hurting anyone.
04:30What is there to lose?
04:32Do it because it's fun.
04:34Do it because it's from your heart.
04:35Do it because you love it.
04:37And then eventually,
04:38even if your parents or family won't accept you at some point,
04:41they will come around.
04:42You also have to respect their time to process things.
04:46And trust that your parents will love you by the end of the day.
04:50It may take time,
04:52but they will still love you.
04:54You don't have to stress yourself trying to prove that you're right.
04:57Just do what makes you happy.
04:59And then everything will fall into place.
05:02Just trust it.
05:03Everything will fall into place.
05:05And life will be good for you.
05:07That's beautiful.
05:09That's beautiful.
05:10Thank you, Brother Nelson.
05:12Okay.
05:14My last question before we go into a quick game.
05:17Because we prepared a quick game.
05:20Okay.
05:21Are you particular when it comes to pronouns?
05:24I think yes.
05:25For example,
05:26I'm Eva as this.
05:29My pronouns are she, her.
05:31Simply because...
05:32I spent two or three hours on this
05:35so you can call me sir.
05:37You deserve to be called she, right?
05:39As Mehmet said,
05:40it's like this and then he.
05:42Exactly.
05:43Is there a he that looks like this?
05:45Is there a contour like this?
05:47Is there a he that looks like this?
05:49Until the contour is gone, it's still a he.
05:51Because if you call me he,
05:54it's a deliberate attempt to be malicious.
05:57So it's really a bit intentional in this respect.
06:01But if I don't look like this normally,
06:03and people still call me Eva
06:05because they know me as Eva,
06:06why would you call me he?
06:08Whatever is in front of you,
06:10let's...
06:11That's it.
06:12It doesn't take much to tell the difference.
06:16Especially when I'm not out of drugs.
06:18I have a tattoo.
06:19Borta.
06:22That's funny.
06:24That's why I asked this.
06:25It's more open now.
06:27Especially now,
06:28the generation is more open
06:30when it comes to pronouns.
06:32Yes.
06:33The way they respect
06:35the pronouns of people.
06:38Because 10, 20 years ago,
06:41there was nothing like that.
06:42Right?
06:43Correct.
06:44I think it's not because,
06:47you know,
06:48recently, Kuya Nelson,
06:49as we all know,
06:50the LGBTQ community was in hot fires
06:52because of this issue, right?
06:54And for us,
06:56it's always about,
06:58by the end of the day,
06:59what's our intent?
07:00What's your intent?
07:01Why?
07:02It's also true, right?
07:03You assert.
07:04It's true.
07:05Yes.
07:06Do you just want to be respected as a human being?
07:08Then it doesn't take much to say,
07:10that's not my pronouns.
07:13Do you want to prove that you're right?
07:16So,
07:17by the end of the day,
07:18we're all the same.
07:19Quechua, male, female,
07:20gay, boy.
07:22We all just want respect.
07:24So the intent should always be
07:26geared towards
07:27educating them
07:28to assert respect.
07:30Period.
07:31You don't need to
07:32tell a story
07:34from the past.
07:36You just want to be respected
07:37as a human being.
07:39This is my truth.
07:41I hope you respect it.
07:43Period.
07:44Period.
07:45You don't need to prove
07:46that you're right or wrong.
07:48There's no right or wrong
07:49in that part.
07:50Just respect.
07:51Because everyone has that.
07:52Everyone should have it.
07:53And when in doubt,
07:54I mean,
07:55you can always ask.
07:57Yeah.
07:58And we've been doing this
07:59even back then.
08:00Not just in the past.
08:01For example,
08:03Miss,
08:04Mister,
08:05or Doctor.
08:06Right?
08:07In the past,
08:08for example,
08:09in wedding invitations,
08:10you should be particular.
08:11You should have
08:12Doctor,
08:13the salutation you want.
08:14Doctor,
08:15when you book a ticket,
08:17the salutation,
08:18Mister,
08:19Miss,
08:20there are choices.
08:21The concept of
08:22pronouns and salutations
08:24have always been existing
08:26in our society.
08:27Not just recently.
08:28So,
08:29it's not like
08:30it's asking for
08:31special treatment
08:32to the members of the LGBT.
08:34It's always been there
08:35for everyone.
08:37It's just a matter of us
08:39having our personal truths.
08:41You have a personal truth,
08:42and then let's both
08:43respect that.
08:44Briefly,
08:45talk about the time
08:46that you got tired.
08:51Whenever you get tired
08:54in drag,
08:57knowing that,
08:58of course,
08:59you said it's your love.
09:00Right?
09:01We rarely get tired
09:02of our love.
09:05Correct.
09:07As
09:09an artist,
09:10a creative,
09:12my drag is
09:13very in touch
09:14with a lot of
09:15the personal things
09:16of Jaycee,
09:17which is the boy
09:18behind
09:19Eva.
09:21And,
09:22especially when you're a drag queen
09:23at this level,
09:25you have followers,
09:26you have shows,
09:27you rarely get to rest.
09:29Every minute you rest,
09:31you're thinking about drag.
09:33Even when I'm in the shower,
09:34even when I'm in the bathroom,
09:36my brain is still thinking
09:37what kind of wig do I want,
09:38what kind of lipstick do I want,
09:39what kind of lipstick do I want,
09:40what is this?
09:41And it just,
09:43I live and breathe
09:45drag 24-7.
09:47There's no off,
09:48there's no off switch.
09:50And,
09:51there was a time that
09:53I couldn't find
09:55the,
09:57I couldn't find the purpose.
09:59It's like,
10:00this used to be fun.
10:01Why?
10:02It's like,
10:03I'm just feeling tired.
10:05And I feel like,
10:06if that's the case,
10:07the fans are short-changed.
10:09When I go out
10:10and I'm not happy,
10:11I'm not whole,
10:12I'm not in my head space,
10:14they'll take a picture of me,
10:16or I'll perform,
10:17just to perform.
10:19That's unfair to the fans.
10:21So I need to dig deep.
10:23Here,
10:24there's no shame in admitting it.
10:27I go through my
10:29counseling
10:30every now and then.
10:32I need to check with my doctor
10:35to check on my head space
10:37every now and then.
10:38And the doctor asked me,
10:40like,
10:42JC,
10:43if Eva isn't there,
10:44who are you?
10:46And that was like,
10:48that,
10:50like,
10:51oh my god,
10:52yes,
10:53who am I again?
10:56What again?
10:57What again?
10:58Because,
10:59yes,
11:00Eva is just a part of who I am.
11:02On top of that,
11:03I am
11:04an anak ako ng nanay na tatay ko,
11:06I am a brother,
11:07I am a friend,
11:08I am
11:09a believer of Christ,
11:11I am
11:14a human being,
11:16an entire human being,
11:18and Eva is just the tip of the iceberg.
11:20Natanong ko na ba yung sarili ko?
11:22Kamusta si JC?
11:24Masaya pa ba siya sa buhay niya?
11:27Is he still alive
11:29behind that fantasy?
11:31So there was a time like that.
11:33Mayroon
11:34somewhere along the puzzle,
11:36there is something that's wrong.
11:38And for me, that's the thing.
11:40I forgot
11:41that there was a human behind the fantasy
11:43and I forgot to add then to
11:45what else does he need?
11:47Does he need a break?
11:48Gusto ba niya ng bagong sapatos?
11:51Nami-miss na ba niya yung pamilya niya?
11:53Nakikita pa ba niya yung pamilya niya?
11:54Nami-miss pa ba niya yung friends niya?
11:56Naalala pa ba niya that he also matters
11:59just like Eva?
12:01And yun,
12:02I had to spend time for self-care
12:04and self-love.
12:05Take a hiatus.
12:06Kung anong gusto ni EJC,
12:08gawin mo.
12:09Gusto mong pumunta dito.
12:11Yakapin mo yung mga mahal mo sa buhay
12:13and be alive.
12:15You have to find that
12:16you also need to remind yourself
12:18that yes, there are many things
12:20and even sa mga viewers natin for sure,
12:23a lot of us are preoccupied with
12:26what are the roles
12:28that we think
12:29like a reporter,
12:31breadwinner ng pamilya.
12:33You're a medical student,
12:35a law student.
12:36You are a reporter, journalist.
12:39But you, on top of those things,
12:41you are also something else.
12:45Parang there's no one title
12:46that defines you entirely.
12:49Do not be consumed by that.
12:51You are an amazing human being.
12:53You have a potential.
12:55You are a universe within a universe
12:57and don't let go of that inner child.
13:02Parang yan yung naging follow through ko.
13:05Alam mo, kinilabutan ako
13:07kasi three years ago,
13:09I had the same struggle.
13:11Pandemic.
13:13I had the same struggle.
13:15If you take away
13:16Nelson Canlas, the TV personality,
13:18from me,
13:19sino ba ako?
13:21Alam mo, buti na lang
13:22may mga tumulong sa aking tao.
13:23And my husband was a big help.
13:26Pinarealize niya sa akin na
13:29I own Nelson Canlas,
13:33the TV personality.
13:35And aside from that,
13:38even better than that,
13:39I'm a better husband.
13:41I'm a very good friend.
13:43And sobrang liit lang nung,
13:45kahit nasabihin mong TV personality siya,
13:49sobrang liit lang yun
13:50ng persona ko.
13:52And once I started owning everything,
13:56and I became myself,
13:58dun ko na-realize na,
14:01Oo nga, hindi ako dapat
14:04nagkakaganito.
14:06And that burnout,
14:08actually, sabi mo nga,
14:11may trigger yan.
14:13Pero dapat, alam mo rin
14:14kung paano siya i-control.
14:16Kasi ako, I step back.
14:18I take a break.
14:21I stay away from everything
14:24na marami rin palang dumaan sa ganyan.
14:27Lalo pag nasa showbiz
14:29or alimbawa social media or influencer.
14:31Kasi parang,
14:33ang pinaproject mo
14:34is a version of yourself
14:35na gusto mong makita ng tao
14:37the entire time.
14:40Hindi, yan yung nakikita ng tao
14:42kasi choice mo na yan lang
14:43na ipakita mo.
14:44On top of that,
14:45you are still in control.
14:46Tama ka.
14:47You are in control
14:48of the Nelson Canlas.
14:49I am in control of the human
14:51behind Eva.
14:53And I can do so much more with it.
14:55That's right.
14:57Now it's time for a quick game.
15:00Game.
15:01Mags-stretching pa ako.
15:02Mag-stretching tayo.
15:03Meron kang evangelism video podcast
15:07where you share life lessons
15:09and inspirations.
15:12Magbibigay ako ng sitwasyon
15:13na karaniwan nating nararanasan
15:15and share with us
15:17your pieces of advice.
15:20Evangelism nga.
15:22Evangelism nito.
15:23Okay, I'll try.
15:25Juan, ano ang payo mo
15:27sa mga marurupok sa pag-ibig?
15:31Yung niloko na nang minsan,
15:33sabi niya ayaw na niya.
15:35Pero, nung binalika naman siya,
15:38okay namusta lang,
15:40eh ayun, nag-fall ulit.
15:42Agad-agad.
15:43Para sa'yo, kapatid.
15:45Ang may papaya natin diyan is
15:48kung kaya mong magmahal ng ibang tao
15:51ng buong puso mo,
15:53sana yung klase ng pagmamahal na yun
15:56ibigay mo muna sa sarili mo.
15:59Dapat kung magbibigay ka ng pagmamahal,
16:02ikaw mismo alam mo yung feeling
16:04na makatanggap ng ganong quality,
16:06ganong klase ng pagmamahal.
16:07You are a person,
16:09you have so much love to give.
16:11Alam mo kung sinong unang
16:12dapat makatanggap yan?
16:13Sarili mo.
16:14And then, kapag namahal mo na yung sarili mo,
16:17the right person will come along
16:19and you'll be a happier person.
16:22Katulad nga ng sinabi ni Mamaru,
16:24if you're not gonna love yourself,
16:27how else are you gonna love somebody else?
16:29You're gonna get an amen.
16:31Exactly. Very bad.
16:32Diba?
16:33Okay, ito pa.
16:35Ano ang payo mo sa mga na-cancel?
16:38Yung hindi niya sinasadya
16:41pero ang pananaw o ugali niya
16:43ay hindi pala kaya-aya sa iba
16:45kaya na-cancel siya tuloy.
16:47Ano ang payo mo sa kanya?
16:52Well, kapatid, kapuso,
16:56ang updaters,
16:57ang payo natin dyan is
17:00magpakatoto ka.
17:02So kapag na-cancel ka,
17:04una sa lahat, tanongin mo,
17:06dapat anon-anon man,
17:08kung naniniwala ka man
17:10na dapat kang i-cancel
17:11o hindi ka i-cancel,
17:13panindigan mo yan.
17:15Okay?
17:16Kung na-cancel ka at sa tingin mo
17:18tama sila na dapat kang i-cancel,
17:20magpakumbaba ka.
17:22Lahat naman nagkakamali eh.
17:24Totoo.
17:25Lahat sila nagsasorry.
17:26Magsorry ka. Lahat nagkamali.
17:28And then, makakalimutan din ang tao yan.
17:30Kasi, nagpakatoto ka.
17:32Aminin mo yung mali.
17:34Huwag ka nang magpaliwanag
17:36kung bakit mo nagawa yan.
17:38Humingi ka ng dispensa,
17:39humingi ka ng paumanihin,
17:40magpakumbaba ka.
17:42Learn that lesson
17:43and don't do it again.
17:45The best way to apologize
17:46is a changed behavior.
17:48Ang ganda nuna.
17:49Ang ganda nuna.
17:50Sorry, cut lang kita.
17:51Ang ganda nuna.
17:53The best way to apologize
17:55is a changed behavior.
17:57Totoo.
17:58So, sorry ka. So, ulitin mo.
18:00Ika-cancel ka talaga.
18:02I'll always remember that.
18:04The best way to apologize
18:05is a changed behavior.
18:07Kasi, di ba, kung nakapanaki ka,
18:10nagsorry ka,
18:12dapat bukal sa laob mo yung pagsusorry
18:15at talagang alam mo
18:16kung bakit ka nagsusorry.
18:18Lahat naman nagkakamali eh.
18:21Pero kapag nagkamali ka
18:22ng dalawa, tatlong beses,
18:24medyo choice na siya.
18:25Hindi na siya learning curve.
18:29Wala ka nang lusot diyan.
18:31So, baka nga dapat
18:32isara mo na yung social media mo
18:33gumawa ka na ng ibang bagay.
18:36Totoo yan.
18:37Totoo yan.
18:38Baka hindi naman yan
18:39ang calling mo, di ba?
18:41Sorry.
18:42Kung hindi mo pa na-gets yung lesson
18:43kung bakit kamali,
18:44baka ikaw nga yung problema.
18:46Totoo rin. Oo.
18:47Okay.
18:48Ano ang payo mo sa mga
18:49nawala ng inspirasyon
18:51o nawawala ng inspirasyon
18:53or passion sa buhay
18:54para maging positive at optimistic?
18:57Nangyayari naman ito, di ba?
18:59Normal naman ito
19:01na pinagdadaanan minsan.
19:03Paano yung mga na-stuck
19:04sa ganitong mindset?
19:06What is your evangelism?
19:10Goodness.
19:11Ang lalim naman ito, Kuya Nelson.
19:14Pero yes, it happens.
19:16And let me tell you this.
19:17Kahit ako, dumaan ako sa time
19:19na napapagod na ako sa drag.
19:22Imagine, isang bagay
19:23na mahal na mahal ko
19:24napapagod din pala ako.
19:25Pwede ka rin pala mapagod.
19:27So, hindi mo man mahanap yung sagot
19:30sa ano yung magpapasaya sa'yo.
19:33Maybe you can take comfort
19:34in the fact that
19:35it happens to everyone
19:36at hindi ka nag-iisa.
19:38Kung hindi ka makahanap ng reason
19:40bakit ka uninspired ka,
19:42maybe you need to check
19:43bakit ka uninspired.
19:45The thing about this is that
19:48you just have to be honest with yourself.
19:51Hindi mo kailangang alam mo
19:53yung pwede mong lokohin
19:55yung ibang tao sa paligid mo
19:56na okay ka lang.
19:58Pero hindi ka makakapagsinungaling
19:59sa sarili mo pag hindi ka okay.
20:01So maybe, you need to ask yourself
20:03bakit nga ba uninspired ka?
20:05Pagod ka na ba sa trabaho?
20:07Hindi ka ba masaya sa paligid mo?
20:09Wala ka bang pera?
20:10Kasi mayroong totoong problema
20:12sa likod niyo nang nararamdaman mo.
20:14It's just a matter of you taking the time.
20:17Take a deep breath.
20:18Find your center.
20:19Atsaka may trigger.
20:21Mayroong yan.
20:23Hindi pwedeng bagla ka nalang
20:24ayokong bumangon.
20:26Mayroong yan.
20:27Bakit ayaw mong bumangon?
20:29Maybe you're in a job
20:30that you're not fulfilled.
20:31Maybe you're in a college course
20:32na hindi mo talaga passion.
20:34Maybe yung kasama mo sa bahay
20:35hindi mo talaga gustong kasama
20:37and you're better off independent.
20:39Mayroon at mayroon yan.
20:41Somewhere, mayroong sagot dyan.
20:43You just need to be honest with yourself
20:45and be courageous to change what you can.
20:48Alam mo naniniwala ako dyan.
20:50Kasi ako talagang
20:52ang tingin ko kasi sa buhay,
20:54life is really short.
20:56Lahat tayo may pinagdadaanan
20:57pero huwag mong tambayan, girl.
20:59Because tomorrow is never promised.
21:01Diba?
21:03This is one advice I would leave.
21:05I would leave you with like
21:08live intentionally.
21:10Be intentional with
21:13kung kanina mo isa spend yung time mo.
21:16Be intentional kung gusto mo
21:17kasama yung pamilya mo.
21:19Yung pamilya mo yung isipin mo.
21:21Huwag ka mag-isip ng iba.
21:22I think also a lot of reason
21:24why may mga taong uninspired
21:26or parang feeling nila kulang sila sa buhay
21:27is that they fail to live in the present.
21:30Yung nandito ka sa moment na to
21:32pero yung utak mo
21:33nag-iisip ng ibang bagay
21:34nasa trabaho, nasa elsewhere.
21:36Be intentional with your use of time
21:39and with the people
21:40that you spend your time with.
21:42And you can start from there.
21:44Very basic yan.
21:45You don't have to have
21:47some very huge words of wisdom.
21:50Maging intentional ka lang
21:51sa oras at ano, sa
21:54isa kung saan mo iniinvest
21:55yung energy at oras.
21:57That is true.
21:59Eva, magtatanong lang ako
22:00tungkol sa podcast mo.
22:02May mga memorable episodes ka ba dito?
22:08Meron po.
22:09I think yung isa sa mga favorite
22:11kung episodes was
22:12when I talked about
22:14love and relationship.
22:16Actually, sa TikTok,
22:17sya yung parang isa sa mga
22:19highest rated episodes
22:22ng evangelism ko.
22:23When I talked about
22:25kasi ako, Kuya Nelson,
22:26nakakatatlong jowa pa lang ako
22:28sa buhay ko.
22:29Sa buhay mo?
22:30Oo.
22:31Tatlo pa lang silang
22:32dumaan sa buhay ko.
22:33Dalawa ba? Tatlo?
22:35Oo.
22:36Nagkamalihan na ng video.
22:38Dalawa lang pala.
22:39Dalawa lang.
22:40Baka practice lang yung isa.
22:41Practice pa lang ata yung isa.
22:45It's more on like
22:46I always say kasi na ano eh,
22:48the best relationship
22:49you will ever have in your life
22:51is the one that you have
22:52with yourself.
22:53Parang yung advice ko
22:54sa una nating question kanina
22:56parang dapat ikaw muna
22:58yung maka-experience
22:59ng pagmamahal na mayroon ka.
23:00Tingnan mo ko,
23:01mahal na mahal ko yung sarili ko.
23:02Malaman akong jowa
23:03pero masaya ako.
23:04Parang it's a reality.
23:07It's a fact about myself
23:10kasi na hindi ko laging
23:11dinidiscuss sa mga tao.
23:13Yung love life,
23:14medyo personal kasi sya talaga,
23:15diba?
23:16Sa totoo lang,
23:18it's good na you pointed that out.
23:20Kasi before I had a podcast,
23:24hindi talaga ako makwento
23:26about my personal life.
23:29Ngayon, ewan ko,
23:30it just goes out,
23:31it just flows naturally.
23:33And when you find that connection,
23:35diba?
23:36Doon sa kausap mo,
23:37biglang mo din ano nakukwento.
23:39Correct.
23:41And parang no one judges you
23:43for being vulnerable.
23:45In fact,
23:46natutunan ko din dito
23:47sa evangelism
23:48kasi parang napaka-vulnerable
23:49na side na yun.
23:50Kasi kilala ko ng mga tao
23:52as drag.
23:53Pero yung evangelism ko
23:54hindi ako nakadrag.
23:55Like talagang
23:56nakaboy lang ako.
23:58Very stripped down,
23:59very vulnerable.
24:00And people find it,
24:02get nuggets of wisdom from it.
24:04Na parang it makes the learning,
24:08the pain worth it
24:09knowing that you
24:11inspire other people.
24:12You'll never know talaga
24:13who's watching.
24:14And hindi yan para ipakita mo
24:15na mas magaling ka.
24:17It's for them to know na
24:19you are seen
24:21kung ano yung pinagdadaan mo
24:23pinagdaanan din yan
24:24ng katulad ko
24:25or ng maraming pantao.
24:26And then you can start
24:27picking yourself up from there.
24:29And I think yun yung maganda
24:30sa mga podcast.
24:32It's human.
24:34It's real.
24:35I think this is the first time
24:36I'm going to admit this.
24:39Noong first episodes
24:41ng podcast,
24:43nagkaroon ako ng struggles diyan.
24:45Yung sa vulnerability.
24:48Yung exposing myself.
24:51Kasi bigla ako nabibitawan.
24:54And parang minsan di ba
24:56hindi mo nababawi.
24:57Parang may ganon.
24:58So parang nagkwento ko na
24:59noong nagkwento.
25:00Going into three years
25:01na yung podcast ngayon.
25:03So sa dami nang nakausap ko na
25:05na celebrities,
25:07naging kaibigan ko na sila.
25:09In the real sense.
25:10Kasi di ba,
25:11once you have that connection,
25:14pag nakita kayo,
25:15iba na kayo eh.
25:16May connection na.
25:17Narealize ko na
25:18yung takot ko dati
25:20sa pagiging vulnerable,
25:22siya pala yung magiging
25:24best asset ko for the podcast.
25:27Tama.
25:29Because otherwise,
25:30kung magpapodcast ka
25:31atus gusto mo lang mag-
25:33gusto mo lang mag-invento
25:34ng mga kwento
25:35or mag-invento ng self-confidence
25:36that were never there
25:37or make up stories
25:39just for the sake ng pag-usapan.
25:41Alam ng tao yan
25:42if you're faking it.
25:45Ako galing ako sa reality TV show,
25:47di ba?
25:48Drag Race Philippines and Global.
25:50So parang talagang,
25:51you don't have to fake it.
25:53Kung naiyak ka, umiyak ka.
25:55Kung nasasaktan ka,
25:56then talk about your pain.
25:59Parang we live in a world
26:00where there's too many fake people
26:01around you.
26:02That's why parang sobrang
26:03yung mga genuine,
26:05authentic moments like this,
26:08people value it,
26:09people love it
26:10because it makes them,
26:11it reminds them
26:12that they're not alone.
26:13So talagang,
26:14very big sa akin ng authenticity
26:16and vulnerability.
26:18That is true.
26:20Sa tingin mo,
26:21meron ka pang
26:22mabibigay sa akin na tips?
26:24I mean,
26:25in the almost one hour
26:27that we were talking,
26:28I really love listening to you.
26:30Number one, kasi
26:31ang ganda-ganda mo magsalita.
26:33You're very articulate
26:35and you speak your mind
26:37nang hindi ka,
26:38wala lang, ito ko eh.
26:41Di ba?
26:43Sometimes kasi
26:44when you open up your heart,
26:47nakikita nung kausap mo yan eh.
26:49And I really love that in you.
26:51Thank you, Kuya Nelson.
26:53I think whatever recipe
26:54that you already have,
26:56Kuya Nelson,
26:57is already working.
26:58You're already there.
27:00The way I see it,
27:01Kuya Nelson,
27:02you also have the gift
27:03of bringing out the best in people.
27:06You want me to talk more
27:09about things that matter to me.
27:12And ako, Kuya Nelson,
27:14madal-dal kasi talaga ako minsan.
27:16Pero ako, I value people
27:18who want to listen.
27:20Kasi maraming tao
27:21na hindi nagpapanggap lang
27:22na makinig.
27:23I've had some interviewers
27:26sa ibang bansa
27:27or I've had a long press
27:29and I can also tell
27:30kung sino yung mga tao
27:32na wala namang,
27:33hindi namang gusto makinig sa akin.
27:35Tinatanong lang ako
27:36ng mga generic questions
27:37naman kung ano-ano
27:38parang alam nyo,
27:39i-Google nyo na lang yan.
27:40Wag nyo naaksahin yung oras ko.
27:41Siyempre hindi ka muna
27:42masabi yun, diba?
27:43But you, Kuya Nelson,
27:45you have that gift
27:46to bring out the best in people.
27:48For them to feel good
27:49about themselves.
27:50You have the gift of words.
27:51You make people feel good.
27:53And it creates a ripple
27:54of kindness
27:55and a ripple of goodwill
27:57wala sa atin,
27:58sa mga makikinig sa atin,
27:59sa mga makikinig,
28:01sa mga nakinig
28:02dahil nakinig
28:03at nakwenton
28:04ng mga nakinig
28:05na makinig kayo.
28:06You know,
28:07if we do,
28:08we will never know the impact.
28:09But somewhere,
28:10our message,
28:11you and me,
28:12our intent for today
28:13will reach the right person,
28:15change lives in ways
28:16we'll never imagine.
28:18So we're doing the Lord's work,
28:19Kuya Nelson.
28:20Amen.
28:21Amen to that.
28:22Amen to that.
28:23Diba,
28:24I turned the tables around
28:26as the last question.
28:28Ikaw naman ang magtatanong sa akin.
28:34Okay.
28:36Natatakot ako
28:37sa mga nonsense.
28:38Nagsimula na tayo
28:39sa mga ganitong
28:41existential
28:43na mga conversation.
28:45But I love this,
28:46Kuya Nelson.
28:47I really, really love
28:48having you.
28:50I really appreciate it.
28:51And bilang someone
28:53na una na sa industriya,
28:56I think,
28:58as a kuya,
28:59diba,
29:00at this point in your life,
29:02how do you define success?
29:05Baka ma-cancel ako dito.
29:09Pero ito personal.
29:10Disclaimer lang po.
29:12Ito,
29:13wag po kayong ma-
29:15wag po kayong ma-
29:17madidisharten.
29:19Ito lang.
29:20Ito lang yung natutunan ko.
29:22Like,
29:23coming from
29:24dun sa kinukwento ko sayo
29:25a few minutes ago.
29:27Success for me
29:28is an illusion.
29:30Kasi,
29:31once na-achieve mo na yung
29:32gusto kong ma-achieve,
29:34meron pa yan e.
29:36It doesn't stop.
29:38Never ending.
29:39Meron kang gugustuhin.
29:41Kasi hindi yung,
29:42diba,
29:43example,
29:44ang gino-goal mo
29:45makabili ka ng bahay.
29:47Pag nabili mo yun,
29:48titigil ka ba?
29:50Tatawagin mo yung sarili mong successful,
29:52pero you go into another goal.
29:55So,
29:56hindi ko siya,
29:57like parang before kasi,
29:58diba,
29:59gusto ko lang makita ko sa TV.
30:01Nung nasa TV na ako,
30:03parang,
30:04ano pa yung next ko?
30:06Gusto ko naman maging reporter.
30:10Alam mo ba dati,
30:11madaanan lang ko ng camera,
30:13tuwang-tuwa na ako.
30:15Totoo!
30:17Pero ngayon,
30:18parang everyday,
30:19nasa TV na ako.
30:21Ano?
30:22Parang,
30:23andami-dami-dami ko ng goals,
30:25parang,
30:26ano ba yun?
30:27Parang,
30:28andami-dami-dami ko ng goals,
30:29dati na,
30:30na-achieve ko,
30:31na parang akala ko,
30:32tatawagin ko na yung sarili ko as,
30:34or ibabrand ko na yung sarili ko as successful.
30:37Pero hanggang ngayon,
30:39bakit hindi paring successful
30:40yung tingin ko sa sarili ko?
30:42Because,
30:43tumataas ng tumataas,
30:44or nag-iiba ng nag-iiba yung goals mo.
30:47So,
30:48yung nakikita mong,
30:49ah,
30:50kailangan ma-achieve ko yang
30:51para maging successful ako,
30:52illusion lang yan.
30:53But the goal,
30:54you have to put it in your heart.
30:56Kasi,
30:57wala kang mararating kung wala ka nun.
31:01Ang ganda.
31:02Pakagandang sagot!
31:04Pwede nang pan-drag?
31:05I love it!
31:07Parang, ano siya,
31:08parang Miss Universe na sagot siya.
31:10It's,
31:11a lot of people think
31:13and feel inadequate.
31:15Kasi parang feeling nila,
31:18there always,
31:19there's always a bigger mountain,
31:21there's always a greener pasture elsewhere.
31:23But tama,
31:24I think,
31:25the concept na
31:27success is finite.
31:29It's an illusion.
31:30Hindi siya fine.
31:31It keeps on,
31:32it's a step that keeps on going.
31:34And I think,
31:35it's a matter of you just finding really the,
31:38ano,
31:39the fulfillment in the journey as you go along.
31:41And,
31:43to all the people who do not,
31:44who do not think they're successful,
31:47maybe you're trying to hit
31:49a goal that's not for you.
31:54Yes.
31:55Yes.
31:57Correct.
31:58I love this.
31:59I love this.
32:00Parang ako nakalibring therapy.
32:01Pero ikaw,
32:02Ava,
32:03successful ka sakin.
32:05Oh my gosh.
32:07Dahil sinabi mo yan,
32:08success mo,
32:09naniniwala akong successful ako.
32:10Klaim natin yan,
32:11ng success.
32:12Totoo naman kasi yan.
32:13Although it can be an illusion,
32:15pero it's going to inspire you in your journey.
32:18Correct.
32:19And ako,
32:20personally, like,
32:21madalas,
32:22kaya ako din tinanong yan sa'yo,
32:23kasi,
32:24tinatanong ko rin sa sarili ko,
32:25na parang,
32:26oh, ngayon,
32:27pagkatapos ng Global All Stars,
32:28o ano na,
32:29ano na?
32:30Ano ka na?
32:31Ano nang gagawin ka sa buhay ko?
32:32Ang magandang idikit ko diyan,
32:34yung,
32:35yung ipinaya mo rin sakin.
32:37Yung,
32:39intentions.
32:41Yung kailangan,
32:42ang gagawin mo,
32:43dapat,
32:44intentional.
32:46Hindi ka mauubusan ang gagawin, eh.
32:48Or,
32:49maigogol.
32:50Kung ang lahat ng gagawin mo,
32:51out of pure intentions,
32:54and good intentions,
32:56diba?
32:57Ang dami ko natutunan sa'yo ngayong gabi,
32:59diba?
33:00Damn, oh my God.
33:02Alabas mo na ngayong pulutan.
33:04Thank you, thank you very much.
33:05And I hope,
33:06I hope I see you in person,
33:08and,
33:09ang dami, dami,
33:10sabi ko nga,
33:11hindi lang ikaw nagpa-therapy, no?
33:12Parang ako din.
33:13Oh my goodness.
33:14Maraming salamat, Kuya Nelson.
33:16Anong salamat, mga kapuso,
33:17for,
33:18you know,
33:19taking chance on
33:20a drag queen like myself,
33:21and,
33:22parang,
33:23normally,
33:24ang gusto ng mga tao,
33:25makita yung performance,
33:26yung lips,
33:27No, ako gusto kong,
33:28gusto kong makausap ka.
33:29Promise.
33:30You,
33:31you met my heart,
33:32and,
33:33it means a lot.
33:34So, maraming maraming salamat
33:35for today,
33:36Kuya Nelson.
33:37Thank you, thank you.
33:38Stay fabulous.
33:40You too.
33:41Love you, Kuya Nelson.