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00:00You can't forgive me. I understand.
00:02Believe me, I'm not sure I can forgive myself.
00:08So, what now?
00:11What do you mean?
00:13Well, if you can't get past the fact that I kept our daughter from you,
00:18does that mean you're cutting me out of your life?
00:24Tell me again how we got out of trick-or-treating.
00:26Ah, it's quite simple actually.
00:27I have the best former father-in-law who offered to take our children.
00:30Let's toast some cider to Mac.
00:32Yes, to Mac.
00:33Well, you know, we're not the only ones benefiting from this arrangement.
00:36Mac loves spending time with his grandkids.
00:38Oh, I know. He's probably out there gushing that we did him a favor.
00:40It's also a win for the kids,
00:42because I'm sure Mac will most certainly let the kids eat significantly more candy than we would.
00:47Significantly more than I would.
00:49True statement.
00:51You make a lovely witch, by the way.
00:55I'm not sure witches are supposed to be lovely.
00:57I guess you just can't help yourself.
00:59Guess not.
01:00Oh, no rest for the wicked.
01:05Candy.
01:06Yup.
01:13I hope Sam forgives me.
01:15There's nothing to forgive.
01:17It's my fault she died.
01:19Rocco, nothing that you said or did led to her death.
01:24It's not true.
01:27What are you talking about?
01:30Well, my mom and Sam were in surgery.
01:38Do you know what was going through my head?
01:41A lot of things.
01:45I thought,
01:49if only one of them could live.
01:54I wanted it to be my mom.
01:56Honey, that's natural. That's perfectly natural.
01:59She's your mother.
02:01But I put it out there,
02:03into the universe for God or whoever else to hear.
02:10And now it's happened.
02:19What can I do?
02:22I don't know.
02:24Tell me how I'm going to live without her.
02:32Mom.
02:35I just can't.
02:37Mom, it's going to be okay.
02:39No, it's not going to be okay. It's not okay.
02:42It's...
02:48I know I'm supposed to be comforting you right now,
02:51but I can't. I can't. I'm so sorry.
02:54I don't know how.
03:12Out of curiosity...
03:14It killed the cat, you know.
03:16If I said that I never wanted to see you again,
03:23would you stay out of my life?
03:26Is that what you want?
03:29There were times that I thought you were dead.
03:34And I thought you were alive.
03:38There were times that I thought you were dead.
03:44And that was some of the darkest times in my life.
03:47I know the feeling.
03:49So now, I don't want you to disappear.
03:52But also, you don't know what's next.
03:56After everything that you've kept from me over the decades,
04:01is it possible for us to rebuild the trust?
04:08Yeah.
04:22What are you drawing?
04:24Our family.
04:26At the park Mom always takes us to.
04:30Is that... Is that you and Danny?
04:33And Rocco.
04:35And that must be your mom.
04:37Mm-hmm.
04:39It's really beautiful.
04:42Hey, Scout.
04:44You know that you can talk to me about anything, right?
04:48Yeah.
04:49I just thought maybe you'd want to talk about your mom.
04:56Maybe some questions that you might have or some worries.
05:03I promise that I'll always be honest with you.
05:09Is Mommy really gone?
05:14Yes, sweetheart.
05:17Never have I ever wished more that I could give you a different answer, but...
05:23But she is gone.
05:25But I don't want her to be.
05:28I know. I'm so sorry.
05:30I'm so sorry.
05:36Working hard, huh?
05:39My mom always separated our Halloween candy.
05:41She said it was quality control.
05:43It was make sure it's all safe and okay.
05:49And you think otherwise?
05:52Yeah, I think she just wanted some of our candy.
05:56The dentist across the street from us gave out toothbrushes.
06:00That's just wrong.
06:02I thought so too.
06:04So what's this?
06:06That's just some candy Scout doesn't like.
06:09Can I have one?
06:10Go for it.
06:15Do you want some help?
06:17No, I'm okay.
06:20This is really nice, Vinnie.
06:23You're a really good brother.
06:25My mom always said it's my job to look out for Scout.
06:31So, that's what I'm going to do.
06:43Are the kids home?
06:44No, Bailey Lou is sleeping and Mash took Georgie and James trick-or-treating. Is everything okay?
06:50No.
06:51You know what? Why don't we go back into the office? There's a little more privacy.
06:55Can you handle the ghosts and the ghouls?
06:57Actually, Spinelli, you and Max, you both need to hear this.
07:02You're kind of freaking me out.
07:04Sam had a heart attack earlier this evening.
07:08What?
07:10I need to go to the hospital and see her.
07:12You can't.
07:14Why not?
07:16She didn't make it.
07:19What?
07:21Sam died.
07:27You know Sam's the reason I'm alive, right?
07:30She got you through some pretty bad times.
07:36Yeah, that PTSD with the WSB assignment.
07:41I remember.
07:45And my goal was just to be normal again.
07:49I didn't know how the hell to do that.
07:51But Sam did.
07:55She helped me put pieces of my life back together.
07:59I'm not going to lie to you. I was scared for her.
08:02And I tried everything I could to break through that wall that you put up.
08:06No luck.
08:08Sam, she had the magic touch.
08:12I remember.
08:15She was just so, like, real, you know?
08:23A friend to me.
08:25And you to her.
08:29You know, it took some time, but somehow we ended up being each other's second chance.
08:36I'm just so glad that she was able to pull you through to the other side.
08:42Yeah.
08:44And who's going to do that this time?
08:49You.
08:54Just tell us what happened.
08:55I don't know.
08:58I don't know. I was with her, and she was fine.
09:02And then she never woke up.
09:05Mom, can you just come and sit back down?
09:07I don't want to sit down. I don't want to do anything.
09:10I just want my daughter back.
09:13Mom, listen. You were with her.
09:16Yeah.
09:17At least she wasn't alone.
09:19This is not supposed to happen.
09:23I'm not supposed to lose my children.
09:27It wasn't supposed to happen, and it did.
09:33Mom!
09:42Well, you can trust this much, Robert.
09:46I love you, and I'm sorry I'm being so cowardly about painful confrontations.
09:56Who says it has to be painful?
09:58No, but just the possibility of being rejected was terrifying to me.
10:05You know, I just couldn't face it, so I just avoided it.
10:09How's that working out for you?
10:11Not very well.
10:13I wasn't truthful with you or myself. I own that.
10:16But there was never any ill intent.
10:19I believe you.
10:21I know this sounds ridiculous,
10:23but I suppose somewhere in my head I was thinking that
10:27if you didn't know about Sasha or all the things that I kept from you,
10:32that maybe, just maybe, the door would be open, a crack,
10:36for us to find a way back to each other again.
10:39To what end?
10:40Us being together.
10:42You'd have to tell me about Sasha eventually,
10:46and we'd be exactly where we are now.
10:50But that's the ridiculous part.
10:53Deep down, I always knew that I couldn't keep the truth from you forever.
10:57Or Sasha. You're both far too important to me.
11:01Rocco, I need you to believe me when I tell you
11:07this is not the way the universe works.
11:10Okay?
11:12What happened here today is absolutely tragic,
11:17but it has nothing to do with you.
11:21She was really good to me.
11:23Yeah. She loved you.
11:26She never treated me like I wasn't her son.
11:30I was one of the kids.
11:33It's the same as Danny and Scout.
11:35Wow.
11:37We had a handshake.
11:39You and Sam?
11:42We do it when no one else is around.
11:46I don't think even Dad knows about it.
11:49See, that really is special.
11:51It was.
11:53She was special.
11:55Yeah.
11:57So how could I have thought what I did?
11:59Okay, okay, look.
12:01If Sam were here right now,
12:05what do you think she would say to you?
12:07I don't know.
12:08I think you do.
12:11She'd say I had no control over what happened.
12:14You're right.
12:16She would not blame you, Rocco.
12:20I know.
12:22Okay.
12:23So you shouldn't blame yourself.
12:27You're in a much different place now
12:30than you were when you and Sam got together.
12:33Because of Sam.
12:35Yeah, Sam got you through this,
12:37but now we're here for you.
12:43I know.
12:44Me, your mom, Christina, Michael.
12:48I mean, Brooklyn.
12:50It's a long list of people who will do anything in their power
12:54to support you.
12:56This just feels so wrong.
12:59It is. It's wrong. It's wrong.
13:01You know, Sam should be here with you and the children.
13:05Beautiful little family.
13:07The best kind.
13:10It just happened, you know?
13:12The easiest thing in the world.
13:14You and Sam were so right together.
13:19That's the beautiful thing.
13:21Sam was beautiful.
13:23And our life was beautiful.
13:26And I know I have to go on for the kids, and I will.
13:34And there's a part of you that feels you want to stay forever.
13:41Am I right?
13:42I just know that when I leave this hospital,
13:45I have to start some life without Sam.
13:53I don't want to do that, Dad.
13:57I don't want to live without her.
14:00I know how much you loved your sister,
14:02and I know how much she loved you.
14:07We did. We do.
14:13We were fighting last time the four of us were all together.
14:18It doesn't matter.
14:19It does.
14:22The last time we ever saw Sam, she was storming out the door because we were fighting.
14:28She tried this gorgeous thing to save Lulu's life, and we made it all about us.
14:33No one could have known what would have happened here, right?
14:37I'm going to regret that for the rest of my life.
14:40No, you're not. No.
14:41Me too.
14:42No regrets at all.
14:48We're just going to do whatever we can to hang on to each other.
14:57Because we're all we've got.
14:59All right?
15:00That's three of us.
15:04And we're going to love each other forever, and we are never going to let go.
15:24No, this doesn't make any sense.
15:26It was Lulu who needed the transplant.
15:28It was Lulu's life that was at risk.
15:30The procedure was supposed to be routine on Samantha's head.
15:32Like I said, she had a heart attack. They're not sure why.
15:35I texted her this morning.
15:37It all happened so fast.
15:39She said she was doing great.
15:41Maxie.
15:42No, no. The only reason I didn't go see her today is because of Halloween and the kids,
15:46but I told Georgie to get extra peanut butter cups so I could take them to save in the hospital to make up for all the terrible food.
15:52She was doing great.
15:53Jason, they said she was doing great.
15:55They truly don't know what happened?
15:57Not yet, but they're looking into it.
16:01Did you see her?
16:05Yeah, they let me.
16:10After.
16:12Just to say goodbye.
16:20I'm so angry with myself.
16:23I should have told you about Sasha as soon as I found out you were alive.
16:26I should have told you then.
16:29Fear is a powerful motivator.
16:31Of course, the longer I waited to tell you, the more impossible it became to come clean.
16:36Excuses, I know.
16:39It's not that I don't understand the impulse.
16:42You just don't know if you can live with it.
16:44Could you?
16:46The thing that I've been the most scared of is doing something so awful that I'd look into your eyes and see hatred staring back,
16:56and I've seen that before, and I couldn't bear to see it again.
17:01Your death destroyed me.
17:03Why did you do it like that?
17:06Couldn't you have got a simple divorce?
17:08Boy, you must have really hated me.
17:10But you had to destroy the one thing that I loved more than life itself.
17:14This is exactly why I didn't want to see you.
17:20I didn't want you to hate me.
17:23I can't bear this.
17:26If memory serves, I forgave you for that once before.
17:30And nothing surprised me more.
17:33This is what I don't get, Holly.
17:35If I surprised you once, you should have had the faith to think that I could do it again.
17:42How was trick-or-treating?
17:44It was okay.
17:47Scout had fun, I think.
17:50You, not so much?
17:52I couldn't concentrate.
17:55I was way too worried about Mom.
17:59But your dad hadn't told you anything that had happened.
18:02He went to the hospital to see Mom, to show her Scout in her costume.
18:10I know Sam would have loved that.
18:14She never got to see it.
18:18When we got to the hospital, we saw Grandma Alexis and she didn't look right.
18:26She looked scared.
18:28Dad saw that.
18:30He told us to leave.
18:33He just told us to go to Bobby's and just wait for him there.
18:36I'm sure that was really hard, waiting all that time.
18:41Yeah, it felt like hours.
18:44I was hoping he would show up and say it was okay.
18:48You must have been really scared, wondering what was going on with your mom.
18:53I held it together for Scout.
18:56Finally, she convinced me to go trick-or-treating with her, which was good.
19:00A distraction?
19:02For me, at least.
19:05I don't think she had any idea that anything could happen to Mom.
19:11What?
19:14I knew something was wrong.
19:17But I never thought my mom could die.
19:26What's going to happen now?
19:28Who's going to make my lunch and take me to school?
19:33I think there's a lot that we've got to figure out, you know?
19:38But the one thing that I do know, and more importantly, something that you really need to know, is that you're not alone.
19:50You've got a whole family that loves you.
19:54The Quartermains?
19:56Yeah, the Quartermains are your family.
19:59And then you've got Danny, and you've got Rocco, and Dante, and Grandma Alexis, and don't forget about Aunt Molly and Aunt Christina.
20:08Uncle Jason?
20:09Uncle Jason.
20:11You're surrounded by people that just want the best for you and that will do anything, anything they can to help you get through this.
20:20But I want my mom.
20:22I know, I know you do.
20:25And I would do anything to bring her back to you, I really would.
20:30This is going to be really hard.
20:32Okay, it's going to be hard for everybody that loves your mom.
20:36Did you?
20:38How could I not love her? She gave me the best gift in the whole world.
20:42Me.
20:45You.
20:47And I'll always be there for you.
20:50That's what Mommy always said.
20:54They simply can't accept this as a reality.
20:58Sam, my fair Samantha?
21:00I know.
21:01Yes, she lived a life of adventure, narrowly escaping danger countless times. I was always fearing for her safety, but it was always unwarranted.
21:08Until now.
21:10I can no longer rely on her cool head to keep me focused.
21:14Benefit from her sage advice. Embark on an investigation or a caper. She, she couldn't stand it when I called it that.
21:25You guys were great partners, Spinelli.
21:27She was the best PI partner and an even better friend.
21:32Sam loved you, Spinelli.
21:35She was the first one to give me a chance.
21:39To actually see me.
21:42Which is no small feat.
21:45Took you a little bit longer.
21:48Sam helped me see your potential.
21:52It's because of her I have your friendship.
21:55And mine.
21:58Two more things I owe her.
22:03Robert, I do have faith in you.
22:06I'm the one I don't have faith in.
22:10Well you know as well as I do that running a con is all about creating an illusion.
22:16Something you excel at.
22:19It's reality where I'm lacking. The day in, day out.
22:25The grind.
22:26Is that what the Americans call it?
22:28It is.
22:29I'm just not cut out for making lunches, what you remember my cooking.
22:37Walking my daughter to the bus stop.
22:40It's not 1952, Holly.
22:43You know what I mean.
22:45Domesticity is not my strong suit.
22:50That's why I left Sasha with my mother.
22:53But I supported them financially, of course.
22:56With money on the up and up.
22:58I never swindled a mark who A, couldn't afford it and B, hadn't done something more awful to someone else.
23:07Most ethical con woman in the business.
23:09Ethical or not, when I found out that you were still alive, my life was a mess.
23:16A mess that I was not going to dump in your lap.
23:20Did you think I wouldn't help?
23:22I knew you would help.
23:25I was just worried about the cost.
23:30I'm glad Scout got to go trick or treating.
23:33Have some fun.
23:36Before, before he found out about mom.
23:42You gave her that gift.
23:45You know, even though you were afraid, you put on a brave face.
23:50And you gave Scout a happy memory.
23:55Think she'll ever have one of those again?
23:58I know she will.
24:00You all will.
24:03I used to love Halloween.
24:06I remember. Captain America.
24:09Three years running.
24:12Yeah, I just kept on growing it.
24:15My mom.
24:17Every single year would buy me a new costume.
24:22I bet that got annoying.
24:24No, not at all.
24:28It wasn't?
24:31Sam said you knew what you liked and you stuck with it.
24:35She admired you for that.
24:37I didn't know that.
24:39It's true.
24:42Peanut Butter Cups are her favorite.
24:46They were her favorite.
24:48I would always try and get extra, just so I could have some for her.
24:53Can I help you?
25:03I'd like to tell you that everything's going to be okay.
25:07But you wouldn't believe me.
25:10So instead I'm going to tell you
25:14that you have so many people in your corner who love you so much.
25:20And I'm one of them.
25:26I know it's not the same.
25:29Because you can't see her or touch her, but your mom will always be with you.
25:37How?
25:39Because she loves you.
25:41And love never goes away.
25:43Even when someone dies?
25:46Yeah, love is strong enough to go beyond anything.
25:52That's what Uncle Jason said.
25:55Well, he's right.
25:57So, so you go on loving and remembering your mom
26:03and knowing for sure without a doubt that she's never, ever going to leave you.
26:07I promise.
26:08Just really glad you're here, Daddy.
26:11Me too.
26:13Me too.
26:17Everybody has negative thoughts and feelings.
26:22Even you?
26:24Oh, dear.
26:27I think you'd be surprised.
26:32Bet you never wished something bad would happen to something.
26:35But honey, that's not what you did.
26:39It still feels pretty awful.
26:41Sweetheart.
26:43Sweetheart, look at me.
26:45It's important. Look me right in the eye, okay?
26:48What we think and what we feel does not make us responsible for what happened.
26:55And what happened here today is tragic, it's heartbreaking, and it feels incredibly wrong.
27:01But I promise you, there's going to be a medical reason why Sam died.
27:08And it won't have anything to do with what was going on up here.
27:11Not at all.
27:13Or what was going on in our hearts.
27:16Okay.
27:19Is it okay? I mean, is it really okay?
27:23Do you know it? Do you believe it?
27:26Yeah, I get it.
27:28Good.
27:30Because what Sam did today, sweetheart, was beautiful.
27:37He gave your mother the most precious gift ever.
27:42And that is how I am going to remember her.
27:46I will, too.
27:48I didn't tell you, but I asked Sam to marry me.
27:52What? When?
27:53Yesterday, when she woke up from surgery.
27:56I'd ask you what she said, but I already know the answer.
28:01I didn't know you were going to propose.
28:04Hey, I was, I was, I don't know, I didn't know what to do.
28:08I just, I kind of debated it for too long and then decided I wanted to make it official.
28:14Well, why weren't you?
28:16Because we already had it all.
28:21We had happiness.
28:24We shared kids.
28:27Those kids love her so much, Dad.
28:31We already had a family.
28:33A beautiful one, yeah.
28:35And I figured, why rock the boat, you know?
28:40What changed?
28:43I wanted more.
28:45I wanted to make this beautiful human being my wife.
28:53So I asked her and she said yes.
28:56Must have been incredible.
28:58Yeah, it was.
28:59A moment, huh?
29:00It was.
29:03And now it's all for nothing.
29:07It's over.
29:09It was over before we even had a chance to begin.
29:31Dad.
29:34Dad.
29:59I have to get back to the hospital.
30:02When do you think they're going to know more about what happened?
30:05That's what I want to find out.
30:07Well, I'll go with you.
30:08Me too.
30:09I want to see TJ too.
30:14Oh my God.
30:16What's wrong?
30:18The meal service I ordered for Sam is emailing to confirm the start date.
30:24We can cancel it. It's fine.
30:26No, it's fine. We'll give it to the kids. They need food.
30:29It's not even that. It's like I was so prepared.
30:36Because I'm prepared for nothing.
30:38Because Sam is gone.
30:43We're never going to see Sam again. How is that possible?
30:49How?
30:52Dad.
30:57I don't know why I waited so long.
31:00To propose?
31:04What did I do when we were taking a walk one night or doing the dishes together?
31:09Would it have made any difference?
31:11I don't know. I don't know.
31:13I mean, would it hurt less?
31:16Being able to look back on our wedding day or having the kids hear us say our vows to each other?
31:22I don't know.
31:23I think all these words are just driving you crazy, Dante.
31:26It's just me avoiding what I'm scared to acknowledge.
31:30So what's next?
31:32I don't know, Dad. How do I move on without her?
31:35It's going to be hard. It's going to be scary, but you're going to figure it out.
31:39How do I roll over in bed in the morning and not see her?
31:44How do I not be able to look across the room into her eyes and want to break out laughing at some inappropriate thing the kids said?
31:52I've been there.
31:54And we're not going to hear the sound of a key in the door knowing she's home and safe and okay.
31:59It's all going to be empty.
32:02Probably going to take a little longer than you want, but I know you're going to make it.
32:07You know why I know you're going to make it?
32:10Because you said it yourself, you got to go on for the children.
32:16Right? And you will.
32:18Yeah, I will.
32:19And I promise you, when you go on for the children's sake, that's going to help you go on.
32:29You understand?
32:32Yeah, you better be right about that.
32:35I'm right about everything, and you know that.
32:40You've got them.
32:43We've got you.
32:46Okay?
32:48All right.
32:51Okay.
33:03Beautiful.
33:06Can we still say a prayer first, Adam?
33:09Oh yes, of course we can.
33:12I'm not sure what to say.
33:16Well?
33:18Don't ask me.
33:21Don't have to ask me twice.
33:24Come on now.
33:26Hold my hand.
33:29That's my boy.
33:32Dear God, we know that Sam is with you now, and we know that she looks over us from above with love.
33:44We give thanks for how her love has brought us all together.
33:59As we remember the wonderful mother she was.
34:15And as we hold close the gifts that she's given us.
34:27We'll do our best to be good to ourselves and to each other, and to care for each other the way Sam cared for us.
34:39And we pray that Sam will watch over us until we see her again one day.
34:46Amen.
34:52I think it's best for everyone that I go, don't you?
34:56I don't think it's ever best when you leave.
35:00But it's in those moments that I have most hope, because when we say goodbye, we might still see each other again.
35:11I've never loved anyone more than I've loved you.
35:21If this is our last goodbye, there's something I need to tell you.
35:27Robert, there has never been a moment where I've loved anyone more than I love you right now.

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