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00:00I feel like she's like my sister.
00:01So, when we were shooting Gadis Masa, we had a farewell party.
00:04The theme of the party was Raya clothes.
00:08And then, Mira and I, before we went out, we would text each other.
00:11What are you wearing? What are you wearing?
00:13So, when she came, she said she was wearing a kurung.
00:16Oh, me too. But when I came, she said it was a juba.
00:20One set.
00:21Okay.
00:22So, I was like, bleh.
00:23Oh, isn't this a kurung?
00:25No, it's not a kurung. It's a tupis.
00:27It's a juba.
00:28She said that. So, I was like, oh, okay.
00:31At that time, I didn't know what the difference was.
00:33She said, it's okay. So, you have baju kurung.
00:35Then, I said, I don't have.
00:36Because here, I rarely get an invitation like on Raya.
00:40So, it's not enough.
00:41And then, the next day, when we went to shoot,
00:44Mira gave me one set of baju kurung.
00:48Yeah.
00:49And then, with slendang.
00:50I was like, huh?
00:51She said, for you.
00:52Who knows, if there's an event in the future, you can use this.
00:55So, at that time, I really felt like, oh.
00:59Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh.
01:01You are back with me, Sudirman Matahir
01:03in the podcast show, Konfession Bilik Gelap.
01:06Especially in this episode,
01:08I present a girl from Tambunan Sabah.
01:14The winner of Dewi Remaja 2021-2022.
01:19This is Tracy Sinidol.
01:21Hi.
01:22How are you, Tracy?
01:23I'm fine.
01:24Am I pronouncing it correctly?
01:25Yes, yes, yes.
01:26Am I pronouncing it correctly?
01:27Yes, yes, yes.
01:28Am I pronouncing it correctly?
01:29Yes, yes, yes.
01:30From Tambunan, right?
01:31Yes, from Tambunan.
01:33How is it now?
01:34You've been acting for three years, right?
01:37Yes, that's right.
01:38Since 2020.
01:40Actually, I've been acting for a long time.
01:41It just started in Sabah.
01:42So, it started in Sabah.
01:43And here, I started acting in 2022.
01:46Until now.
01:48Do you like to participate in pretty queens competitions?
01:52Actually, I don't like it.
01:54I just want to gain experience.
01:56So, the last time was in Sabah.
01:59There was a competition.
02:01I joined it just to gain experience.
02:03But I like it.
02:04Because when we join a pageant like this,
02:07it shapes our personality.
02:11People say that if a pretty queen participates,
02:14she will realize that she is pretty.
02:18So, if you're not pretty, you won't participate, right?
02:20That's right.
02:21But don't say that I'm pretty.
02:24But based on my own perception,
02:29I feel that I deserve to be a pretty queen.
02:36For Ngadot, she's not just a pretty queen.
02:39It's about introducing our traditions.
02:42Because in Sabah, we have a lot of ethnic groups.
02:44So, that's her main goal.
02:46And then I joined because I really like my tradition.
02:49And then I want to learn my own tradition.
02:51Because if it's not us, who else will teach us?
02:54Right.
02:55The new generation.
02:56Especially the teenagers.
02:58And choosing to join Dewi Remaja, how was it, Tracy?
03:03Actually...
03:04How was the story?
03:06The story was actually long.
03:08So, at that time, I was shooting in Sabah for a drama.
03:14And at that time, when I joined Ngadot,
03:17I had a friend, Jojaprin.
03:18So, he sent me to audition.
03:20He said that there was someone auditioning for Dewi Remaja.
03:23In KK?
03:24Yes. To be honest, I didn't know what Dewi Remaja was at that time.
03:27Okay.
03:28Then he said, think about it.
03:30Just try it.
03:31Then I thought, do I want to?
03:34Because I just finished Sunduk.
03:35So, I thought, just wait.
03:38So, at that time, I auditioned for only two days.
03:41So, on the last day, I had a shoot.
03:43But at that time, it was canceled.
03:44So, they dragged me to another day.
03:46So, I was at home.
03:51So, I never joined any auditions.
03:53Especially from here.
03:55So, I said, okay.
03:56Let's take it as an experience.
03:58At least I already know how to audition.
04:00So, I went without preparation.
04:02So, I came to the preparation with a few of my friends.
04:06I didn't expect more.
04:08Okay, at least I know how they audition.
04:12So, I went.
04:13Suddenly, I got a call from them.
04:15After a few weeks, I think.
04:17Then they said, you can come to KL.
04:20So, when they came, I was like, what am I doing here?
04:24Even though we were already here for the competition at home.
04:27I was thinking, what am I doing here?
04:29What am I doing here?
04:30The first episode.
04:31Then I was like, blah, blah.
04:32From the bottom four, then they woke up the call.
04:34I came here for what?
04:36To get fired, right?
04:37So, I set a goal.
04:38I set a goal.
04:39And then after that, that's how it goes.
04:41Along the way.
04:42Of course, you want to win, right?
04:47But for the champion, maybe you didn't think about it at that time, right?
04:51I immediately thought about becoming a champion.
04:53In my mind, okay.
04:55Complete one task.
04:57Because every week, every episode, there are tasks.
04:59So, in my mind, I just want to do the best for the best.
05:03So, make sure.
05:04If in the previous episode, I was a bit lacking.
05:06In the next episode, I need to improve.
05:08One percent improvement is okay as long as I improve.
05:10So, my mindset is like that.
05:11It's not the mindset that I want to win.
05:13I don't want to win.
05:14I just want to gain experience.
05:15And then learn everything new for me.
05:18Photoshoot, everything is new.
05:20So, in my mind, I just want to do the best.
05:24And when Tracy was announced as a champion, right?
05:27And the opportunity for you was open as an actor at that time.
05:33And maybe Tracy was lucky because in Sabah, you were already an actor.
05:38Yes.
05:39So, the experience is already there, right?
05:40So, the experience is already there.
05:41But it's really different.
05:43Shooting in Sabah and here is very different.
05:45One more thing, because we have a language.
05:47So, there is a difference actually.
05:50So, the experience that Tracy had in Sabah acting.
05:55So, do you think it deserves to enter our industry?
06:00It helps a little bit.
06:02And then at the same time, I took a master's degree at school.
06:05So, we have an assignment.
06:12We need to act on stage.
06:15So, it helped me a little bit.
06:17I think that's what helped a lot.
06:21When the opportunity was given to Tracy after Dewi Remaja.
06:26How did Tracy see your journey until now?
06:32She felt unexpected.
06:34Because when I got the opportunity, I was like, okay, there is an actor.
06:40So, what, what, what.
06:41It was very new.
06:43So, I tried to adapt to the shooting method here.
06:46In terms of language.
06:47So, there are a lot of things that I need to learn at that time.
06:50So, after one, I got another one.
06:52So, I took another one.
06:53So, I learned there again.
06:55So, every set that I went to, I learned new things.
06:58And then when I think about it now, when I look back,
07:02there are a lot of things that I did, right?
07:04Without realizing it.
07:05Actually, it's been almost three years.
07:07That's right.
07:08That's how time flies.
07:09Yes, like Tracy said, language is one of the barriers for everyone.
07:17Especially from Sarawak or Sabah.
07:20If you come to KL, right?
07:22To speak, to straighten his Malay.
07:27Especially when we don't have enough friends to communicate like that.
07:31So, the way we come to the set, talk to the crew,
07:34with the existing artists, then there are friends,
07:36we talk like that.
07:38And then from the song, and then I watch a lot of Malay dramas.
07:41Learn how they have intonation.
07:44Sometimes they have good intonation, but there are a few times that
07:47Sabah is still out too.
07:49But at least it's okay, it's improved.
07:51It takes time too, for me.
07:54Away from the family, Tracy.
07:56So, now you're fully emigrated to Sembilanjung?
08:00Yes, that's right.
08:02So, I started after Dewi in 2022.
08:06I've been here until now.
08:09So, my family is in Sabah.
08:10But there are a few of my sisters who have already started coming here.
08:13So, at least they have a feeling of loneliness.
08:16There's a family too, right?
08:18At least I have a family here.
08:19So, there's no loneliness.
08:21No, there isn't.
08:22Tracy, we know that challenges as an artist or a new actor.
08:28Nowadays, there are a lot, right?
08:31There will be new artists every day.
08:34The singers are all actors, right?
08:36That's right.
08:37From wherever they come from.
08:39Even though they are talkers or influencers,
08:41some of them become actors.
08:43So, to position yourself, Tracy,
08:46what are the preparations that you do?
08:49Because we know that in the past,
08:51maybe one of your advantages is that you have your own platform, Dewi Remaja.
08:56For now, what's the future?
08:59The future...
09:01Because there are a lot of new faces now, right?
09:04If we look at it, maybe every month, every year,
09:08there are new artists.
09:10So, we have a lot of new competitors.
09:12But for me, what I need to do is just to improve my acting skills.
09:17And then, learn as much as I want to learn.
09:21And then, achieve my goals in acting.
09:24So, what other people have,
09:27what I have, but others don't.
09:29For example, like now,
09:31there are a lot of people who act like that.
09:33But I'm into action.
09:35If it's someone else, I'm into action.
09:36So, that's my client.
09:38So, I look for my client. What do I want?
09:40So, in terms of action, I'm really interested in fighting.
09:43Even though my face looks like I'm struggling.
09:45But that's what I want.
09:46I want it to be a little extreme.
09:49Drifting or something like that.
09:51I want it to be a fast car.
09:54So, in terms of clients, I think I'm in that direction.
09:57You know what you're capable of doing.
10:00I try to find what I think I can't do.
10:03But I can.
10:04For example, last time I couldn't swim.
10:06But I took a swimming class.
10:08So, I can swim.
10:09Like last time, I was afraid of fast cars.
10:11But I went to do sports activities.
10:13Sports activities.
10:14Fast cars, jogging, everything.
10:16So, I lost my fear.
10:18So, when people call me to...
10:20There are scenes like that.
10:21Yes, there are scenes like that.
10:22I can say no.
10:23Because if we feel afraid, we say,
10:24Eh, what am I doing?
10:26There's a limitation.
10:27I see there's a limitation.
10:28So, everything that I think is a limitation for me,
10:31I will push myself forward.
10:33And maybe as a new actor,
10:36it's an achievement to make a documentary.
10:39Because you can act in the OTT platform, right?
10:43The latest one is in the drama,
10:45Gadis Masa.
10:46Gadis Masa, that's right.
10:47Right?
10:48So, together with Mirafilzah and Shafiqa.
10:51So, maybe what...
10:52Well, other than maybe they want to compare
10:56Tracy with Mirafilzah,
10:58and why did Tracy accept this offer?
11:02Because this is my first debut in VIEW.
11:05I've never acted with VIEW.
11:08So, I think this is a very interesting opportunity for me.
11:13And then, at the same time,
11:14we got to pair together with great actors.
11:16And the storyline that they shared,
11:18they created the story for us.
11:20So, at that time, I thought,
11:21Okay, I appreciate that you created my story together for Mira and all.
11:25And then, when I read the storyline,
11:26it's different from other dramas that I've acted in.
11:29So, it's something new for me.
11:31So, I think the character is...
11:33Wow, okay.
11:34This is the character that I've brought.
11:36Why not? I try.
11:37So, for me, it's like that.
11:39Are you afraid to act with a senior artist, Tracy?
11:43At first, I felt like I was in heaven.
11:45So, in my head, I thought,
11:47Oh, what if they want me to do one take,
11:49and I suddenly do five takes,
11:50and I disturb their emotions to perform.
11:54I thought a lot like that.
11:56But actually, they are very, very kind.
11:58They helped me a lot in terms of acting,
12:00voice acting, expression.
12:02They taught me everything.
12:03So, from the movement, they taught me.
12:04So, there are a lot of things I can learn from there.
12:07So, at the same time, it improves my acting skills too.
12:10Because Syafiq also has a lot.
12:12Because his drama is Mirah again.
12:14You're used to Mirah because you've done it many times, right?
12:16Yes, that's right.
12:17So, sometimes I look behind the monitor,
12:19see how they make expressions like this.
12:21Oh, like that.
12:22So, there's a tight shot again.
12:24So, I learned from that.
12:27Is there any experience during the shooting,
12:32from the time that Tracy can't forget?
12:36And you feel like, oh, okay.
12:39There's a lot.
12:40I think the shooting from that time is very fun.
12:44Because we're like friends.
12:48Because when we go to the set,
12:49if there's only one person, I feel like,
12:52oh, he's my friend today.
12:54Like that.
12:55He wants to have friends.
12:56So, I think the biggest impact for me
13:00is our relationship with all the actors.
13:02He feels like a family.
13:04We feel like we have friends.
13:05So, when we go to the set, we feel like a family.
13:09So, when we're having fun,
13:10when we're performing,
13:11he's just naturally, he's okay.
13:14He's not awkward.
13:15Sometimes when we come to the set,
13:16we feel like, oh, after this,
13:18I want to act.
13:19We feel like there's tension, right?
13:20He disturbs our acting.
13:22But when we come, it's very fun.
13:24And everyone is very helpful.
13:26He's okay.
13:27His acting is good.
13:28Although you've done it many times with Mirah, right?
13:31In three times.
13:32Yes, I think three or four times.
13:34Right.
13:35So, do you still feel scared or do you feel comfortable?
13:38Because of Mirah.
13:40Mirah is very good.
13:41Because I, before Gadis Masa,
13:45after Gadis Masa,
13:46we acted together again
13:48for Hikayat Bawang Putih Bawang Merah.
13:50And then before that,
13:51I once helped her to promote,
13:53together we made a campaign for her title.
13:56And then after that,
13:57I once made a special appearance
14:01for Imam Instan Sajjad Kemer.
14:03So, I met Mirah.
14:04And then now, I feel like she's like my sister.
14:07Yes, I think one thing that I really remember about Mirah,
14:10so, when we shot Gadis Masa,
14:12we had a farewell party.
14:14So, for the farewell party,
14:15the theme was Raya clothes.
14:19And then Mirah and I,
14:21before we went out,
14:22we texted each other,
14:23what should I wear?
14:24So, when she came, she said,
14:26she wore a kurung dress.
14:27So, I came,
14:28oh, me too.
14:29But when I came,
14:30she said, it's a juba.
14:32One set.
14:33So, I was like,
14:34what?
14:35Isn't this a kurung dress?
14:37No, it's not.
14:38Kurung dress is for the scalp.
14:39It's a juba, she said.
14:41So, I said,
14:42okay.
14:43I don't know the difference.
14:45Then she said, it's okay.
14:46So, you have a kurung dress.
14:47Then I said, I don't have.
14:48Because here I rarely get an invitation,
14:51like on Raya.
14:52So, it's not enough.
14:53And then the next day,
14:55when we went to shoot,
14:56Mira gave me one set of kurung dress.
15:00Kurung dress.
15:01Yeah.
15:02And then with a scarf,
15:03she said, for you.
15:04Who knows,
15:05if there is an event in the future,
15:06you can use this.
15:07So, at that time,
15:08I really felt touched.
15:11She took care of me like a sister.
15:13One thing too,
15:14maybe,
15:16one is a face that is almost,
15:18a face that is similar,
15:20people say, right?
15:21And Tracy is okay
15:22if every time
15:23when she gets a chance to be with Mira,
15:25then people will talk.
15:27Like, oh, Tracy gets to be with Mira
15:29because her face is similar.
15:31Are you okay, Tracy?
15:33I mean, I'm okay.
15:35People always say that too.
15:37But for me,
15:38when we act together,
15:39sometimes we go to auditions.
15:42And then, yeah,
15:43when we have a few,
15:44like Bawang Putih, Bawang Merah,
15:46we go to auditions first.
15:47Then when it's script reading,
15:48eh, what are you doing?
15:51We actually don't know.
15:52We don't know what we...
15:54Will be in one...
15:55In one film together.
15:57In one project together.
15:58Actually, we don't know.
15:59What we know,
16:00we have to share the script.
16:01So, the story.
16:02So, we go to auditions.
16:03So, if it's released, okay.
16:04Go.
16:05So, when I see it,
16:06actually, we're together.
16:07But for me,
16:08what I'm really looking forward to
16:10when acting with Mira
16:11is her experience.
16:12Okay.
16:13She really helps
16:14in terms of delivery,
16:15how to express it.
16:16Everything is very good.
16:17So, that's what I want to learn more from her.
16:21Tracy, when as a new actor too, right?
16:23You were given an offer
16:24to play the main character.
16:27As we know, there are a few dramas
16:28where Tracy is the main character too, right?
16:33Are you afraid, Tracy?
16:34Well, as a new actor,
16:35suddenly you get the main character.
16:38The main character.
16:39Respond from the audience again, right?
16:42I feel like it's a blessing from God too.
16:44So, getting...
16:46What is this?
16:47The main character is not easy.
16:48So, I took it as a...
16:51like a guidance too.
16:53And then, it's like to burn my spirit
16:55to move forward.
16:56Even though she feels a little...
16:57It's not stress.
16:58It's just like...
16:59We're afraid we're under-delivering.
17:01But at the same time,
17:03that's also my peak
17:05to force myself to learn quickly.
17:07If not, what should I do?
17:09So, I'm ready to accept the challenge.
17:11If this is...
17:12So, it's okay.
17:13It's my first time.
17:14First time.
17:15So, what can people expect?
17:17It's my first time, right?
17:18But along the way,
17:19actually, I learned a lot.
17:20From the audience,
17:21they helped me a lot.
17:22So, when I read,
17:23when people said,
17:24this is a wooden actor,
17:25I said, okay.
17:26Then, I will improve more.
17:27They took what's important.
17:29Just the important input.
17:31Do you feel happy when people say you're a wooden actor?
17:33I feel happy too.
17:35Because I feel how we accept it.
17:38So, when we watch,
17:39we watch our performance,
17:41we know it ourselves, right?
17:42So, maybe we see,
17:43oh, maybe there are a few that I can improve.
17:45So, when they say that,
17:47last time I was told,
17:48but after a few times that I've acted,
17:50people started to praise me.
17:52So, I said,
17:53okay, we've done the best.
17:55Last time, it was like this.
17:56We have that.
17:57Like, it's step by step.
17:59Right?
18:00When was the first time you got negative responses
18:04from the audience,
18:05especially on social media, Tracy?
18:08How did you accept that situation?
18:12Because as soon as there was a drama,
18:14I left the family,
18:15I would watch it first.
18:16Okay.
18:17So, I would accept...
18:18Criticized by them?
18:19Not criticized.
18:20My mom would give her own opinion.
18:22I think even though she's not in this industry,
18:25but she's a viewer.
18:26I always take it as a viewer,
18:29what you expect from me.
18:30So, her advice actually improves my acting skills too.
18:35And then after that,
18:36when I read the comments,
18:37I like to read the comments too.
18:38Because my mom always says,
18:40don't just take positive comments.
18:43Listen to the negative ones too.
18:44Yes, we need to accept the negative ones.
18:45Because sometimes,
18:46when we take the positive comments,
18:47we feel like we're already good.
18:48But actually,
18:49when we see the negative comments,
18:51we feel like,
18:52eh, what she said is right.
18:53So, we take the positive ones.
18:54Just ignore the negative ones.
18:56But if the negative comments can change you,
18:59why not take it?
19:00To improve.
19:02So, I'm like that.
19:03What did your mom say
19:04when she saw your acting for the first time?
19:07At first, when I watched the drama,
19:09I was cringed.
19:10So, my mom would watch it in front of the TV.
19:12I watched it with my family.
19:14I was like, okay.
19:15I feel like,
19:16maybe I can improve on that.
19:19My expression, my eyes.
19:21I was like, okay.
19:25Did you take acting classes, Trissy?
19:27Yes.
19:28There were a few that I took acting classes.
19:30Because,
19:31Hikayat Bang Putih Bang Merah,
19:32I took acting classes.
19:33Because,
19:34all the actors,
19:35they were really powerful.
19:38So, my character at that time,
19:39my character was big.
19:40I was not normal.
19:42Because I was Pari-Pari.
19:45So, at that time, the director said,
19:47I want your character to be big.
19:49Because you are not a human being.
19:51So, if your character is small,
19:53like they want to eat your character.
19:55So, they can't.
19:56They want me to play big.
19:57I was shy.
19:58So, the director was a little worried at that time.
20:01So, I took acting classes.
20:03How to make my acting bigger
20:05depends on my own character.
20:09Trissy, as we know,
20:10you are the daughter of the governor,
20:12people say.
20:13From Sabah,
20:14you emigrated to KL.
20:16Maybe,
20:18it's not easy, people say.
20:20One, maybe your family is not here.
20:23And another,
20:24yes, you are far from your family.
20:25And I think,
20:26everyone from that side
20:28will feel the same.
20:30Because maybe,
20:31what are the messages
20:32that are always remembered by the parents
20:35for Trissy who is here?
20:38Again, as an actress.
20:42Actually, a lot.
20:44A lot of people give me messages.
20:47But, from the family side,
20:50they rarely give words.
20:52They only have one word.
20:54That will be with me forever.
20:59One word that I remember my mom said last time,
21:02before I joined Dewi again,
21:03my mom is not the type of mother
21:07who says,
21:08take care of yourself,
21:09don't do this, don't do that.
21:10No, my mom is not like that.
21:11She only has one verse.
21:13She only says,
21:14if God brings you to it,
21:16He will bring you through it.
21:17That's it.
21:18That's her verse.
21:19So, every time I feel down,
21:21I will remember her verse.
21:22That's her verse.
21:23So, if God has brought me this far,
21:25He will help me.
21:27He will take care of me.
21:28My mom,
21:29she will only give that verse.
21:30But, that's it.
21:31She is close to my heart.
21:32And then, my siblings and all,
21:34if I do that,
21:36sometimes when they know I have news,
21:39they will text me,
21:41it's okay.
21:42You did great.
21:43Even Time Dewi.
21:46So,
21:47there are a lot of things that people say.
21:50The fans,
21:51sometimes people I know,
21:52they sometimes,
21:54do you know the NGL app?
21:56Yes.
21:57The one that asks questions, right?
21:58Yes. So, we don't know who sent it.
22:00Last time,
22:01I received a lot of complaints.
22:03So, this time,
22:04okay,
22:05I want to know what people thought about me.
22:07So, I don't know who sent it.
22:09It's okay.
22:10So, I put it on IG story.
22:11Like that.
22:12So, when I posted it,
22:13I was very impressed.
22:15And then, at the same time,
22:16I was touched.
22:17So, people gave me like,
22:19Moral support.
22:20Moral support.
22:21Even though I don't know them.
22:22They don't even know what I experienced here.
22:25But, from their verses,
22:27it's like they know what I experienced.
22:29So, sometimes when I read it,
22:31I feel like they are my friends,
22:32but I don't know who they are.
22:33It's just a stranger.
22:34They just sent me like a message.
22:36Positive message.
22:37Just keep moving forward.
22:38It's okay.
22:39Something like that.
22:40So, I think that's one of my...
22:43Different from the beginning that you did.
22:45Yes.
22:46Last time.
22:47Last time, I always got what they said.
22:50I thought it was beautiful.
22:51Verses like that.
22:53But now, when I put it,
22:54I expect that it must be like this.
22:56But when I open it,
22:58Eh?
22:59Why did they say such verses?
23:01There are a few words.
23:02I read it many times.
23:03I screenshot it.
23:04In my head,
23:05Who is this?
23:06Who sent me this?
23:08Maybe God sent someone to send me.
23:11There are a few times that we feel down.
23:13But when we open it,
23:14we see a verse like that.
23:15Actually, it really strengthens us.
23:19With the gossips that are circulating,
23:24the family also knows, Tracy?
23:26The family also knows.
23:28But they know me better than what was conveyed.
23:31So, they know me better.
23:32So, I think that's what I'm very grateful for.
23:35If there is any news,
23:37they will call and say,
23:38Okay, this and that.
23:40Because they know me better than others.
23:42Maybe they read the headlines like that.
23:44Or news, news, news.
23:46But they, as people who really know me,
23:48who see me growing up,
23:49they know how I am.
23:50So, they don't really care.
23:52The important thing is they know,
23:53Are you okay?
23:54If you're okay, then okay.
23:55Have you ever cried while being an artist?
23:58A lot.
23:59Because,
24:00This.
24:01A lot of times.
24:02A lot of times, I feel,
24:04because I feel I can't stand it.
24:06I have to cry like that.
24:09It feels like a cultural shock too.
24:11Suddenly, the sadness that I received before,
24:14is different from this one.
24:15So, when I received it,
24:16I woke up in the morning,
24:19crying like this.
24:20How is it?
24:21I can't take it anymore.
24:23Then, someone said,
24:25You look at the bright side.
24:27There are a lot of people who are sad.
24:29But look at the people who support you.
24:30Right.
24:31There are people who support you.
24:32So, you should never give up.
24:33There will be more.
24:34There are people who don't support.
24:36There are a lot of people who support.
24:37But there are people who support too.
24:38So, you just look at the bright side.
24:39What impressed you the most about Tracy?
24:42Those comments.
24:44Until you can cry.
24:46She's like,
24:48build up her emotions.
24:50Because sometimes we are very tired,
24:52acting like that, right?
24:53Then we feel,
24:54Yes, we feel exhausted too.
24:57When we see people's comments,
24:59we are more shocked.
25:02Eh, why do they talk like that?
25:05They don't know me.
25:06Why do they talk like that?
25:08Especially when they involve the family.
25:10If they insult someone, I can.
25:11But when they involve the family,
25:13talk about my parents, I can't.
25:15I feel like,
25:16Stop.
25:18I cannot read this anymore.
25:21But Tracy is diligent in reading comments.
25:23Because sometimes I need to see
25:25their thoughts about me.
25:27When a drama is released,
25:29I want to see their thoughts.
25:31So, that's my way to improve myself.
25:35For the time goddess,
25:36you can read comments too?
25:37I can read comments too.
25:38So far, it's okay.
25:40She can read positive comments.
25:43So, it's okay.
25:45Tracy, when you can read comments like that,
25:48and then,
25:49yes, of course,
25:50things that you have never gone through,
25:52have entered the industry,
25:53you go through all these things, right?
25:55Even if you don't do it, people say you do it.
25:57So, everything,
25:58every inch of your movement,
26:00people pay attention to it.
26:01So, do you feel like
26:03you will last longer in this industry, Tracy?
26:07Can you still face all this?
26:09Because I can't give up.
26:14Okay.
26:15We've seen actors here and there,
26:17before this,
26:18they went through it before us.
26:20So, if they can make it to this day,
26:22why don't we stop right now, right?
26:25They've been through a lot of this since the beginning.
26:29So, sometimes they give us advice,
26:30we listen to it.
26:31Indeed, they've been through it.
26:33So, why do we want to give up?
26:34We're just starting now.
26:37If we give up,
26:38it's a waste.
26:39What about all the people who support us?
26:42Because if we give up,
26:44we don't just give up for our career,
26:46we give up for their support,
26:48their dreams,
26:49their family's support.
26:51So, there's no give up for me.
26:53So, just move forward.
26:55So, at the same time,
26:56just do anything,
26:58be it a side job or whatever.
27:01But for the past three years,
27:02of course,
27:04you've been through ups and downs, right?
27:05Yes.
27:06So, no matter where you go,
27:07people still know you.
27:08Yes.
27:09No privacy.
27:11If you go back to Sabah again,
27:12maybe a village will be your home.
27:16If I go back to Sabah,
27:17I usually take a break
27:18because I want to have
27:20quality time with my family.
27:22Sometimes, when I'm with my family,
27:24my younger brother said,
27:26Mom, why don't you take a picture?
27:28I was like,
27:29Oh.
27:30So, we're spending time with our family.
27:33But sometimes,
27:34when I'm spending time with my family,
27:35I'm like, okay, maybe later.
27:36But they texted me,
27:37they took a picture of me from afar.
27:38I saw you.
27:39I can't say hi.
27:40So, I'll call them back.
27:41Oh, hi.
27:42Nice meeting you too.
27:44So, on the other side,
27:45it's fun to get to know people.
27:48It's okay to get to know people.
27:50But at the same time,
27:52we don't have privacy.
27:54We don't have privacy.
27:55Yes.
27:56When we go somewhere,
27:57people will see us.
27:58What we say,
27:59what we wear,
28:00people will know.
28:02People will pay attention to that.
28:04So, there are many things
28:05that we need to be careful about.
28:07Especially as the winner of Dewi Remaja.
28:10So, you have to be careful.
28:11That's right.
28:12It's not easy.
28:13But it's okay.
28:15The way you talk,
28:16the way you look.
28:18That's right.
28:19It takes time.
28:22But since I was 16 years old,
28:26when I first went viral,
28:27I was already used to it.
28:30So, my mom taught me from the beginning
28:32in terms of how to talk,
28:34how to approach people,
28:36and then how to look.
28:38She taught me all of that from the beginning.
28:41Like the family in Sabah,
28:42you got a privilege.
28:43Of course.
28:44Because of the popularity of Tracy.
28:46My sister said to me,
28:49I was on a wheelchair when I got married.
28:52She said that.
28:53I was like,
28:55why did my sister give me Tracy?
28:58My sister was like,
29:00yes, I'm sick now.
29:02She was like that.
29:03They all said,
29:04why did you do that?
29:06But at the same time,
29:07it's just like fun.
29:09They just make it fun.
29:10It's not like they're being selfish.
29:12They're just like,
29:13that's it.
29:14That's it.
29:16Maybe for those who just want to get to know Tracy,
29:19Tracy is from a simple family
29:25or Tracy is from a family that people say exists.
29:30We are from a simple family.
29:32Yes.
29:33Since I was a child,
29:34it's very simple.
29:36My mom just taught us
29:39like ordinary people.
29:41Always be humble.
29:43Respect your parents.
29:45That's what my mom always taught us.
29:47In the family,
29:49Tracy is the only one in the industry.
29:52I'm the only one in the industry.
29:54The others are just normal.
29:56So, it's not a family background in the field of art.
30:00It's different.
30:01But we all took music since we were kids.
30:04So, I think,
30:06my mom,
30:07all of my siblings took music first.
30:10My basic music.
30:11I think I can make a band.
30:13Can you all sing?
30:14I can sing.
30:15But I'm not sure if I can do both.
30:18But I can play all the instruments.
30:20I see.
30:21Yes.
30:22So, there's art.
30:24Art and music, I can say.
30:27Tracy,
30:28when you were in the industry,
30:31you were given a platform to act.
30:38Then, you were offered various roles.
30:42So, up to now,
30:44maybe Tracy can make a choice
30:48or you just accept what Tracy was offered.
30:52I always look at the characters I play.
30:56Because there are a few characters that I think I like.
30:59But there are limitations for me.
31:02For example?
31:03For example, in terms of wear.
31:05Yes.
31:06They don't want to wear something too revealing for TV and all.
31:10So, I think it's okay if they can...
31:14Accept?
31:15Accept that I wear something at least polite.
31:18Then, I will accept it.
31:19But there are a few characters that I find difficult.
31:22Or because I've injured my eyes.
31:25So, there are a few characters,
31:26when I read their storyline,
31:28I can't because I have an eye problem.
31:31So, I think, okay, I can't do this one.
31:34Yes.
31:35There are a few characters.
31:36Tracy really cares about the appearance in terms of wear.
31:40Yes.
31:41Because my mom always told me to wear something polite.
31:44People who know me always wear something polite.
31:46So, yes.
31:47So, if there are scenes that are not polite,
31:52Tracy doesn't do it.
31:53Or you try to tolerate it with...
31:57We will discuss it.
32:01Discuss it.
32:02Discuss it with the director.
32:03If it's okay, then it's okay.
32:04So, if they think it's okay, then we will proceed.
32:07I will tell them what I can do and what I'm not comfortable with.
32:12Because when we're not comfortable with the character,
32:14they can see it.
32:15So, I want what I'm comfortable with.
32:17So that it's easy for us to deliver.
32:19So, Tracy will also reject the characters that...
32:23Well, maybe...
32:25Romantic.
32:26Or rough characters, people say.
32:29So, you reject it?
32:33It's not that we keep rejecting it.
32:35But we will tell them that...
32:38Can we do this?
32:40But at the same time, we don't want to disturb their story.
32:44So, if it's not appropriate, it's okay.
32:47Maybe not this one.
32:49Maybe next time we can work together.
32:51Something that's okay.
32:53Okay.
32:54So, people say that's Tracy's principle in work.
33:00Yes.
33:01You've got the trust from your mom, right?
33:08Not only my mom.
33:09Because I want to do something that I'm comfortable to do.
33:15Like Tracy said, you like action.
33:18Do you have an offer?
33:20Action?
33:22Actually, I have an upcoming film that will be released this year.
33:27Even though it's not me doing the action.
33:30But at least I'm in the action film.
33:32So, I can see how the situation is.
33:35Or how the shooting is for the action film.
33:38So, I use it as...
33:41When we see the fight scene, I want to do it.
33:46So, next time you do it yourself?
33:48Yes, next time hopefully.
33:49So that I can learn first.
33:51I can improve myself.
33:55But when people see it, they ask me,
33:57You sure you want to do an action film?
33:59This is what you're going to face, you know?
34:01Then I'm like, okay.
34:03I can do it.
34:06But like, yeah.
34:07I like action, cars.
34:11Have you ever got an offer to do something other than acting?
34:16Tracy, maybe?
34:17Hosting?
34:18Hosting, yes.
34:19After Dewi, I had my first host live together with Nabil.
34:24It was a blast.
34:25Okay.
34:26So, at that time, because...
34:28Before this, they only called me.
34:30They interviewed me.
34:32So, I had a thought that one day I will pair up with him as a co-host.
34:36And then, it's my first job after Dewi,
34:39The host, live again.
34:42My heart was beating so fast.
34:45Because he was live.
34:47And then, I need to pair up with...
34:49Yes, he's a senior.
34:50Wow.
34:51He has a lot of experience.
34:52A lot in my mind.
34:53And then, at the same time, I can't just be quiet.
34:56Because people will say,
34:57I'm bored to be a host.
34:59That's where I learned.
35:01Hosting is not easy.
35:03We want to entertain people.
35:04We want to keep the conversation going.
35:06We need to be fast.
35:07Yes.
35:08If suddenly there's a switch, we need to...
35:09We need to switch quickly.
35:11Oh, how is this?
35:12Then if we ask a question to a guest,
35:14If the guest answers, we ask...
35:16Do you want to help?
35:17Yes, we ask 10 questions,
35:18If he answers one,
35:19How do we counter that one?
35:21So, there are a lot of things.
35:22Actually, I like to be a host.
35:24The thing is...
35:26It's not easy.
35:28It's not easy.
35:29True.
35:30Have you ever been a singer?
35:31I'm interested in singing.
35:32I've been interested in singing since I was a kid.
35:34But, I think in terms of singing,
35:38There are a lot of things that need to be improved.
35:40I've been taking music since I was a kid.
35:41But, singing is not easy.
35:46To label ourselves as a singer,
35:48Or we want to start singing,
35:50There are a lot of things that we need to consider.
35:52But, I'm interested in singing.
35:53There are a few dramas that I appeared,
35:55I became a character as a singer.
35:58And then, I need to sing too.
35:59Recording.
36:00I really like to record songs like that.
36:02And then, I want to create music too.
36:04Yes, I have my own song.
36:07So, I'm interested.
36:08Maybe, maybe.
36:09One day.
36:10By God's grace.
36:11Who knows, one day I can be a singer.
36:13Oh, right.
36:14Saba people are good at singing.
36:17Musicians are good at singing, right?
36:19Right? Is it true?
36:20No.
36:21Yes, but it's not delicious.
36:23He said, let's make a donation as long as it's a donation.
36:25I'm like that too.
36:26Let's make a donation as long as it's a donation.
36:27If we sing at Saba Karaoke,
36:29I feel like I'm the most donated there.
36:31You know, Saba people sing.
36:33Karaoke is like a swimming pool.
36:35I feel like I want to sing.
36:38Tracy.
36:41When you stepped into the acting world,
36:43especially, maybe in Saba,
36:47the culture is different, right?
36:48With here.
36:49So, when you came here,
36:51like Tracy said earlier,
36:54there's a culture shock, right?
36:58Until now, have you got used to it, Tracy?
37:01Now, I think I can get used to it.
37:03Because,
37:04one, my family and nephew came here.
37:06And then, the second thing,
37:07I have friends here already.
37:09So, I feel like...
37:12Accepted.
37:13Accepted.
37:14In a comfortable zone.
37:15Because when I came,
37:17I didn't know anything.
37:18What is this? What is that?
37:19What is that place?
37:20What's the name?
37:21The place is the same, but different.
37:22Like a different area, right?
37:25So, that's a lot of new things for me.
37:28But now, when I've been here for three years,
37:31I've started to learn.
37:33And then, when friends came from Saba,
37:35they came here.
37:36So, I will be their tour guide.
37:39So, it's okay.
37:40It can be said that
37:41I'm familiar with the areas here.
37:42Sometimes, when my family comes,
37:43I don't know where to take them.
37:45Go there, go here.
37:46And then, a lot of friends here,
37:47I feel very helpful.
37:50If the advice from the family,
37:52maybe it's already familiar to Tracy, right?
37:54But in the industry itself,
37:56there are friends,
37:57artists who may be close to Tracy,
38:00who keep giving advice to Tracy.
38:03Hey, you can't do this.
38:04You have to do this.
38:05You can't do this.
38:06Is there Tracy?
38:08I think,
38:09in terms of dialogue or instruction,
38:13when I first started acting,
38:15I always called my friend, Awin.
38:17He is also Dewi Dumaji, Sam.
38:19So, usually, he will give me the script.
38:21So, I will practice.
38:22I record and listen to my slang, right?
38:25So, sometimes I will call him,
38:27I draw the script,
38:28and I say,
38:29Awin, can you please say this?
38:32So, I catch his slang.
38:34I practice many times.
38:36So, sometimes it's hard to practice.
38:38So, he is very helpful in terms of dialogue.
38:42Dialogue, everything like that.
38:44Slang.
38:45Yes, slang, everything.
38:46And then, other friends,
38:48how do I say it?
38:49For example,
38:50I went to the set of Gadis Masa.
38:51So, in Gadis Masa,
38:52I have a new family,
38:53which is all the cast members.
38:55So, another drama,
38:57we will be one family.
38:58So, when we go out,
39:01we will give each other advice.
39:03What we do in this industry right now,
39:07what we are shooting.
39:08So, we will share our opinions.
39:10So, when we shoot a drama,
39:12we will not just cut the relationship there.
39:15We will continue.
39:16Yes, we will,
39:17Eh, let's have coffee.
39:18Then, when we meet again,
39:19you will cut that relationship.
39:21So, don't just lose it.
39:23So, usually, it's like that.
39:24So, when we meet again,
39:25they will share.
39:26Oh, we shoot that day.
39:28So, they will tell us
39:30what their challenges are.
39:32So, we will share our opinions like this.
39:35Sometimes, let's say,
39:36I associate with that production.
39:38Eh, okay.
39:39The production is very helpful like this.
39:41So, they will say,
39:42Oh, yes, we share like that.
39:43And then they share in terms of script,
39:45how,
39:46there are a lot of actors.
39:48So, when they share,
39:49sometimes we are sitting at a coffee shop.
39:51Then I ask,
39:52So, how do you make this expression?
39:55So, they will teach.
39:56Like Reza,
39:57Reza Rosli always teaches.
39:59As a new actor,
40:00have you ever experienced like,
40:02in,
40:04like before this,
40:05there is a new actor issue,
40:07being bullied in the set.
40:08Maybe, right?
40:09Tracy, have you been through it?
40:11I think,
40:12I have never been bullied in the set.
40:14Because I try to adapt myself to everyone.
40:17And then I respect my seniors.
40:20And then at the same time,
40:21we also try to talk,
40:23we become friends.
40:24Like I said,
40:25we go to any set,
40:26we end the relationship there.
40:28We keep a good relationship with them.
40:31So, when we go out,
40:32we have a very small industry.
40:34We meet everywhere.
40:35So, it's not wrong to be nice.
40:37Yes, we are just friendly with everyone.
40:40Be friends.
40:41He is not the one who is bullied.
40:42I think,
40:43the way people accept,
40:44sometimes,
40:45the seniors,
40:46there is a way they want to criticize us, right?
40:48But maybe,
40:49the way they criticize,
40:50if other people,
40:51they accept it in a bad way,
40:53maybe it's not good.
40:54It has an effect.
40:55But if we take it as,
40:57okay,
40:58maybe like,
40:59we have a mom to give advice.
41:01It's okay.
41:02Actually,
41:03I feel like,
41:04how people...
41:05It's okay to be criticized by actors.
41:07I'm okay.
41:08Because I feel,
41:09if they criticize me,
41:10it means I have room to improve.
41:12If they never criticize me,
41:14I will feel more worried.
41:15Did I do it right?
41:16Did I do it right?
41:17Will I have that thought?
41:19So, when they criticize,
41:20I'm like,
41:21okay, this is what I need to improve.
41:22Sometimes we act with actors here,
41:24they know a lot of things.
41:26A lot of things they have gone through.
41:27So, they will share.
41:28Last time, this and that.
41:29They will share the story,
41:30how they started.
41:31And then,
41:32what we need to do as a beginner.
41:34So, that's what they will share.
41:37One thing about Tracy,
41:38Tracy is a generation that,
41:40now,
41:42everything is social media.
41:43Right?
41:44At the tip of the finger.
41:45And as an actor,
41:46this is what needs to face the public.
41:50Again, the account is also public.
41:52So, you also get disturbances
41:54on social media, Tracy.
41:55Messages that...
41:56What kind of disturbances?
41:58Well,
41:59from what you always get,
42:00maybe you want to mess up something.
42:03Messages that are not right.
42:06There are a lot.
42:07But I'm not the one who read it.
42:08Because the number is
42:10the number of the person in charge.
42:12So,
42:13she got a lot.
42:15She got a lot.
42:16She got a lot.
42:17Sometimes, she got called
42:18in the middle of the night.
42:19People are looking for her.
42:20But,
42:21that's it.
42:22We just like,
42:23don't care too much about it.
42:24If it's someone else,
42:25it's okay.
42:26Just ignore it.
42:28There are also people who fully filter.
42:30Yes.
42:31More filter, filter.
42:32Sometimes, we want to check
42:33if there is a brand,
42:34we will go to the request.
42:35We can see
42:36that there are a lot of things
42:37that people talk about.
42:38Just ignore it.
42:39See where it is needed.
42:40That's it.
42:41We reply.
42:43But there are a lot of people
42:44who try to mess up.
42:45A lot.
42:47Messages that are not right.
42:48That's right.
42:49It's normal.
42:50It's normal.
42:51Everyone still has
42:52all known men.
42:53Women, I think,
42:54everyone will know.
42:56Tracy, maybe,
42:57I don't know if Tracy
42:58is facing an experience
43:00that we know
43:01in this industry itself,
43:02there are still
43:05games that
43:08well,
43:10people say it's naughty,
43:11right?
43:12The one who mock,
43:13and so on.
43:14Is there, Tracy,
43:15you got a challenge
43:16for
43:17What game?
43:18As well as
43:20maybe
43:22in
43:23if in the past,
43:24issues like this
43:25always become
43:26to new audiences.
43:27Especially,
43:28the ugly ones,
43:29the beautiful ones,
43:30right?
43:31Offered to be
43:32a storage woman.
43:34If you want to act
43:35with this product,
43:36you have to be like this,
43:37you have to be like that.
43:39In the past,
43:40things like this
43:41always happened to
43:42happened.
43:43Right?
43:44And there is also,
43:45even now,
43:46there are still
43:47more than
43:48a dozen thousand.
43:49If we read the news
43:50from the artists,
43:52right?
43:53Tracy?
43:54I heard that for the first time.
43:56I heard that for the first time.
43:57So, I mean,
43:58it doesn't exist.
43:59I heard that for the first time.
44:00I was like,
44:01oh, okay,
44:02there is.
44:03There is.
44:04I was a little surprised
44:05about that.
44:06Like, eh?
44:07Okay, so you mean
44:08it doesn't exist yet?
44:09No.
44:10Because it's always
44:11like a production
44:12house too.
44:13So, we think
44:14it's all okay.
44:15Good.
44:16Good.
44:17I was surprised
44:18with the news.
44:19What is it?
44:20Yes, there is.
44:21If we look at the news,
44:22there are a lot.
44:23But that's between
44:24the choice
44:25whether you want it or not.
44:26Right?
44:27But Tracy said,
44:29the message from
44:31your mom,
44:32you hold on to it.
44:33Until,
44:34until the end.
44:35You become
44:36a wall,
44:37people say.
44:38Right.
44:39Because
44:40that's our spirit
44:41burner.
44:42All of us,
44:43pray,
44:44we have a family,
44:45right?
44:47Tracy, maybe
44:49as a new actor
44:51too, right?
44:53What have you learned
44:55as an artist
44:57now?
44:58As long as
44:59if we take it
45:00from Dewi Remaja
45:01herself
45:02in these three years.
45:03What did you learn
45:04from
45:07in your own industry?
45:09What did I learn?
45:13I don't know,
45:14last time,
45:15when I first came here,
45:17I was very loud.
45:18I was very
45:20talkative.
45:21But I don't know why
45:22now I become
45:23quiet.
45:24Reserved.
45:26Like that.
45:27Why?
45:28I don't know.
45:29Maybe part of what I think
45:30or whatsoever.
45:31But I think
45:32what I learned
45:34is to always
45:35keep humble.
45:36And then
45:37remember our roots.
45:39And then just
45:40treat everyone
45:41as a friend.
45:42Treat them well.
45:43Yes.
45:44Treat them well.
45:45Sometimes we see our fans,
45:46we say hi to them.
45:47They also
45:48I consider myself
45:49as an ordinary person too.
45:50Yes.
45:51Even with my family,
45:52I will still consider myself
45:53as an ordinary person.
45:55I will not consider
45:56myself as
45:57more like that.
45:58Yes.
45:59Because I like
46:00when we
46:01live like that,
46:02he
46:03how to say
46:04he doesn't
46:05he doesn't feel
46:06like a gap.
46:08I feel
46:09more comfortable
46:10being friends with people
46:11you know
46:12like
46:13before we met,
46:14we didn't have anything.
46:16Still the same.
46:17Still the same.
46:18Yes, I'm still the same.
46:19I think that's what I learned.
46:20To always keep humble.
46:21And then remember
46:22who we are.
46:23Sometimes my friends
46:24feel uncomfortable
46:25to talk to me.
46:26Before talking,
46:27I'm an artist.
46:28But for me,
46:29I am me.
46:30Okay.
46:31So, I'm more comfortable
46:32if you consider me
46:33as how you see me
46:34last time.
46:35Yes,
46:36than what you see me now.
46:37Because
46:38I'm different from them,
46:39everyone is the same.
46:40Yes,
46:41that's it.
46:42Have you ever
46:43dreamt of
46:44something
46:45while you're
46:46an actress?
46:48Like what?
46:49For example,
46:50you want to buy
46:51a car
46:52for example,
46:53for your family
46:54in Sabah,
46:55have you ever done that?
46:59I haven't bought a car
47:00yet
47:01because
47:04we want to have
47:05a lot of commitment.
47:06When we have
47:07a lot of commitment,
47:08but
47:09we have this industry,
47:10so, if we have a job,
47:11this one is
47:12the next one
47:13we don't know
47:14if we still have it or not.
47:15So, we always need to be careful
47:16with our spending.
47:17We can't be like,
47:18same way,
47:19same way,
47:20same way,
47:21we have a lot of wishes,
47:22same way,
47:23same way,
47:24but at the end of the day,
47:25if we can't maintain
47:26or we can't pay,
47:27it will hurt us too.
47:28So,
47:29what is it?
47:30What is the verse?
47:31It says,
47:32when we have
47:33reached
47:34one stage,
47:35we shouldn't
47:36want more.
47:38When you,
47:39ah,
47:40I forgot the verse,
47:41I forgot it already,
47:42but something that I read,
47:45if God has blessed us
47:46with a lot of things,
47:48raise your standard of giving,
47:50but don't raise your standard
47:51of living.
47:52Something like that.
47:55So,
47:56don't want more.
47:57There are a lot of wishes,
47:58but,
47:59look at the ability.
48:00Yes, look at the ability.
48:02Because we are still
48:04building
48:06our career.
48:07If we take more,
48:08they are over-commitment.
48:09I think they are over-commitment.
48:10They don't pay.
48:11Yes, that's right.
48:12They are chased by Along.
48:13That's right.
48:14They are chased by the bank.
48:15So,
48:16just like,
48:17live a normal life.
48:19Tracy,
48:20maybe in the last minute,
48:24throughout,
48:25yes,
48:26throughout your life,
48:2825 years, right?
48:2924 years.
48:3024 years.
48:31That's not right, 25.
48:32Yes, 24 years.
48:35Maybe,
48:36people will think,
48:3724 years,
48:38it's okay,
48:39life experience,
48:40not much more,
48:41right?
48:43Even if you want to think about problems,
48:44there are problems,
48:45for example, right?
48:46But,
48:47you yourself,
48:48have you ever gone through a phase
48:49where you said,
48:50oh, this is a challenge.
48:52Tracy,
48:53have you ever, Tracy?
48:54A lot of challenges.
48:56I think,
48:57challenges are not measured by age.
48:59We,
49:00even if we are still young,
49:01we can accept challenges.
49:03It depends on,
49:04our life.
49:06But,
49:07for me,
49:08I,
49:09indeed,
49:10since I was young,
49:11I started to think,
49:13when I was young,
49:14I started to think,
49:15like,
49:16if I fall in love,
49:17I want to be serious.
49:18Then,
49:19if I want to work,
49:20I want to work seriously.
49:21And then,
49:22at the age of 20,
49:23I started to think,
49:24I don't want to go,
49:25like,
49:26you know,
49:27if we are still young,
49:28we want to have fun,
49:29have fun,
49:30have fun,
49:31have fun.
49:32But,
49:33if I can sustain with my money now,
49:35what do I want to do?
49:36What do I want to do?
49:37I think a lot.
49:38So, I need to have a job,
49:39I need to be sustainable.
49:41It's like,
49:43how to say,
49:45like,
49:46a table,
49:47a table with one step,
49:48what is it?
49:49It has legs,
49:50one step.
49:51If it breaks, it will keep changing.
49:52Right.
49:53So, we need to have,
49:54scalability.
49:55Right.
49:56It's like a chair.
49:57You need a lot of support.
49:58Yes, there is a lot of support.
49:59If one breaks,
50:00there are three more.
50:01There are three more.
50:02So, there are a lot of things that I think,
50:04how to sustain,
50:06how to help my family.
50:08Because,
50:09there are still younger siblings, right?
50:10If suddenly,
50:11they want to study,
50:12continue to study,
50:13all of that,
50:14I will have parents
50:15who suddenly want to
50:17take care of them.
50:18Because we have a job,
50:19so, we have a mindset,
50:20thinking,
50:21if my younger sibling suddenly wants to be a doctor,
50:22what should I do?
50:23So, is there money
50:25to help them like that?
50:26Because we have parents,
50:28they will also be in need.
50:29So, if they want to
50:30work all the time,
50:31I want them to work,
50:32and then,
50:33rest.
50:34Where do you want to go?
50:35Where do you want to travel?
50:36Go wherever you want.
50:37The important thing is,
50:38we want to be a steward
50:39for our parents.
50:40So,
50:41it doesn't become a burden anymore.
50:42Because we have parents,
50:43they have been
50:44for a long time,
50:45our Sara,
50:46then,
50:47for us,
50:48so, I want to give them
50:49comfort life.
50:50If I have a mindset,
50:51I have a mindset like that.
50:53Tracy is someone
50:54who thinks about the future, right?
50:56Very serious about the future.
50:58If you want to think about the future,
51:01think about it first.
51:02Okay.
51:03For example,
51:04if we want to buy a house,
51:05I will think about it first.
51:07If you want to be 30 years old,
51:08you don't have cash.
51:09If you want to buy that,
51:10there are a lot of things
51:11you want to think about.
51:12Until when do you want to work?
51:13Yes.
51:14So,
51:15there are a lot, I think.
51:16Even though
51:17I'm still 24 years old,
51:18but my mind is like that.
51:19I think about a lot of things.
51:22So, you don't think about
51:23getting a partner?
51:24I don't have a partner.
51:25If he...
51:27If he's there, he's there.
51:28If he's there, he's there.
51:29If he's there,
51:30I just love to get married.
51:32I don't think about...
51:33Love to...
51:34Play.
51:35Yes.
51:36If I want to fall in love,
51:37I will ask them.
51:39We will ask each other.
51:40If you want to get married,
51:41with me.
51:42If you want to get married,
51:43okay, together.
51:44If you want to have fun,
51:45bye-bye.
51:47Don't be with me.
51:48Find someone else.
51:49Yes.
51:50Because I really,
51:51if I'm in love,
51:52it's the mindset for the future.
51:53To get married.
51:54We get married,
51:55there's a family,
51:56there's a child.
51:57That's it.
51:58Because we want to choose our partner,
51:59we choose our partner.
52:00We choose...
52:01For long term,
52:02have a relationship.
52:03Yes.
52:04And then we choose someone
52:05who will be our...
52:06Our guide.
52:07Our guide.
52:08And then...
52:09What do you want to say?
52:10He's someone's father.
52:11True.
52:12So, yes.
52:13We want to choose someone
52:14who is really serious about...
52:15Who guides.
52:16Guiding.
52:17Serious about the future.
52:18Serious about the future.
52:19So, if I tell someone,
52:20he will think about the future.
52:21Okay, sure.
52:22If you think about
52:23still have fun,
52:24I cannot with you.
52:25Yes.
52:26So, reject a lot, Tracy.
52:27Don't reject.
52:28I won't give you a chance.
52:30I won't open...
52:32That space.
52:33I won't play with people's feelings.
52:36If he's serious,
52:37what's your goal,
52:38then go.
52:39Yes.
52:40I will only know people
52:41that I really want to know.
52:43Yes.
52:44I will choose someone.
52:47Tracy, maybe...
52:49If there's a chance,
52:50talk in front of...
52:51If your parents are here today,
52:54watching...
52:55And they're here.
52:56Maybe Tracy wants to
52:57talk to them.
52:59My parents?
53:00Yes.
53:03I have a lot to say.
53:04But the most I want to say
53:07for my mom,
53:09thank you for bringing me
53:10into this world.
53:11And then,
53:12their support.
53:14All this while,
53:15when I joined Dewi,
53:16I know how hard it was for me.
53:18They know how hard it was for me.
53:19And then, for them to fly,
53:21at the final,
53:24just to see me,
53:25even though I know...
53:26We're not from the same family.
53:28But she made time and effort
53:30to fly.
53:31And then,
53:32watching me at the final.
53:33So, when I saw them
53:35raise Sabah's flag,
53:37I felt...
53:40I can't let them down.
53:41They have...
53:43They have hope.
53:44They have...
53:45Their effort.
53:46Their support.
53:48So, at that time,
53:49my mindset was just...
53:51Okay.
53:52So,
53:53this is what I will do
53:55to prove myself
53:57to my family
53:58that we can succeed.
53:59And then,
54:00I will take care of my family.
54:03Yeah.
54:04And then,
54:05thank you so much for
54:06supporting me
54:07for all this while.
54:10Live Sabah.
54:11Live Sabah.
54:12Live Maju Jaya.
54:13Yes.
54:14Tracy, thank you.
54:16I hope that
54:18your dream
54:21will come true.
54:22Amen.
54:23And we want to see
54:24your different works.
54:27And
54:29I hope
54:31Gadis Masa drama
54:32will continue
54:33to be a choice
54:34for the audience.
54:36True.
54:37Every Thursday.
54:39Maybe a little bit, Tracy.
54:41Huh?
54:42I want to talk about Gadis Masa
54:43for the audience.
54:45For the promo.
54:46Yes.
54:47Okay. So,
54:48don't forget to watch Gadis Masa
54:49every Thursday
54:51on VIEW Original
54:52at 12.30 PM
54:53on VIEW Original.
54:54Make sure you watch it
54:55because the next episodes
54:56will make you feel
54:57more excited,
54:58more frustrated,
54:59more
55:01excited.
55:02So, make sure you watch it
55:03because I am also looking forward
55:04to the next episodes.
55:06We know there are a few scenes
55:07that will surprise you.
55:08So, make sure you stay tuned.
55:10Yeah.
55:11So, don't forget
55:12to continue to support
55:13Tracy.
55:14Yeah.
55:15Thank you, Tracy.
55:16Thank you so much.
55:17And we will see you again
55:18on Confession Begila.
55:19Yeah.
55:23Bye.
55:24Bye.