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  • 4/21/2025
Summer Solstice (2024) Full Movie
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00:00:00The surgery. What can I say about it? Other than that it changed everything. All it took was my
00:00:14whole life. All that pain. All that struggle. And eight hours under anesthesia. I went from
00:00:30a caterpillar to a butterfly. And now I'm me. Can't you see?
00:00:44I'm finally me. Can't you see me for who I truly am? What more do I have to do?
00:00:55Okay, thanks. That's enough. Uh, sorry. No, that was great. Thanks for that.
00:01:01Thank you. As you know, the casting call is for a transgender
00:01:06male or transgender female. Just for our records, which one are you?
00:01:10Oh, uh, um, trans man. Trans male. Trans man.
00:01:17Great. Thanks. We'll be in contact.
00:01:21Hey, I just got out of the audition, which was a little...
00:01:38Yeah, uh, on that front, bad news. Wait.
00:01:43They already passed. I was just up there 30 seconds ago.
00:01:49Yeah, sorry, Leo. They said they're going in a different direction.
00:01:54Different direction. Well, at least they're efficient.
00:01:57Onwards and upwards. Look, the real reason I'm calling is because you're confirmed.
00:02:03The callback? Yep. The callback. It's Monday,
00:02:072 p.m. at the production offices. They want you to read the same scene,
00:02:10so I'll send you the sides. I already have them memorized.
00:02:12Wonderful. You're gonna kill it.
00:02:24Zip. Zap. Zap. Zap. Zap. Zap. Zap. Zap. Zap.
00:02:32Got it.
00:02:43Are you okay? Yeah, I'm just dying.
00:02:59Remember, Leo, you are a worm. You're not pretending to be a worm, okay? Loosen up.
00:03:12So I'm auditioning because it's like a teen movie vampire. Really? That's awesome.
00:03:22Where, um... You're gonna be like a, you're gonna be like a vampire?
00:03:25Um, I mean, I'm gonna be a female. Oh, okay. Yeah.
00:03:30Oh, so you can just like go out of the... Yeah, but I might turn into a vampire like later on.
00:03:34Wow, that's so cool.
00:03:40Hi. Sorry, I'm late.
00:04:10I feel like I came this close to booking. My agent said they pinned me.
00:04:34That's fantastic. It'd be fantastic to book, but...
00:04:40Yeah, how was your audition?
00:04:42They passed, but, um, I do have this callback for...
00:04:47The serious regular thing?
00:04:48Yeah.
00:04:49Leo, that's great.
00:04:51Yeah, I feel really...
00:04:52Wait, do you see my shirt?
00:04:53Oh, um...
00:04:58Oh, here you go.
00:05:00Would you want to, um, go to this reading my friend's doing this weekend?
00:05:06Sure.
00:05:10But not like, as a date, right?
00:05:12Totally.
00:05:14Because I don't want to ruin our dynamic.
00:05:18I think we work really well together as scene partners.
00:05:21I definitely wouldn't want to mess up our classroom chemistry.
00:05:25Good.
00:05:27I'm glad we're on the same page.
00:05:28What are you doing tonight?
00:05:38I've got a date.
00:05:40Cool.
00:05:41What are you up to?
00:05:44Uh, going to a friend's party, I think.
00:05:48What?
00:05:49Yeah.
00:05:58Hello?
00:06:05Surprise!
00:06:07Surprise!
00:06:11Squirrel!
00:06:14Squirrel.
00:06:16You gorgeous creature.
00:06:20Ah, you look so different!
00:06:22A year in vitamin T will do that.
00:06:24Vitamin T?
00:06:26Testosterone.
00:06:26Oh my god, right.
00:06:28Of course, of course.
00:06:30Come on in.
00:06:30Okay.
00:06:31Yeah.
00:06:36You really don't have to roll out the red carpet.
00:06:39I'm only staying at night.
00:06:41That's fine.
00:06:42Well, thank you.
00:06:44So, what are you doing in New York?
00:06:47Just passing through, you know, living my usual nomad life during the summer.
00:06:52And when I realized that I'd be driving through the city to go upstate.
00:06:56I couldn't resist.
00:07:00And I think you should come with me.
00:07:03I couldn't.
00:07:05I'm not taking no for an answer.
00:07:08No, really.
00:07:08No, really.
00:07:10No, really.
00:07:13I really can't.
00:07:14I really can't.
00:07:19I really can't.
00:07:20I really can't.
00:07:24What?
00:07:25Eleanor.
00:07:26I am not.
00:07:29I'm taking it, by the way.
00:07:31What?
00:07:31There's my arm.
00:07:32I don't know what I'm doing.
00:07:46I don't know what I'm doing.
00:07:48Oh, hey, uh you want me to clear up? Nah, we used to change in front of each other all the time, right?
00:08:03Great.
00:08:13Coffee?
00:08:14Ooh, yes, please.
00:08:16So I hear nothing for three weeks and then out of nowhere, out of the blue, I get a call from a new number and he said,
00:08:23Oh, sorry, I dropped my flip phone, flip phone, in a bucket of paint at an art gathering.
00:08:29What the fuck is an art gathering?
00:08:32And then I was like, but you were posting on Instagram.
00:08:35And he was like, yeah, I did it for my iPad.
00:08:38So?
00:08:39So I kept fucking him until he disappeared again.
00:08:44You really know how to pick him.
00:08:46I'm nothing if not consistent.
00:08:50Are you?
00:08:51At least I'm consistent in my inconsistency.
00:08:54But you and Will are good?
00:08:55Oh, yeah.
00:08:56I'm glad we got back together.
00:08:58He's, um, less awful than the other guys I've been with.
00:09:03A glowing compliment.
00:09:04You know what I mean.
00:09:06What's he up to?
00:09:08He was on part of the road trip.
00:09:10We actually did a project together combining his drawings and my photographs.
00:09:14It was very romantic.
00:09:15What's the project?
00:09:17People and signage, speed limits, stop signs, public spaces, private life.
00:09:26All these little commandments everywhere.
00:09:29Still not fully formed yet.
00:09:31But yeah, how's life as a Broadway hoofer?
00:09:33Oh, you know.
00:09:35No, I don't.
00:09:36Give me all the juicy details.
00:09:38I do have this callback for a serious thing.
00:09:42Leo!
00:09:43That's huge!
00:09:45I hope so.
00:09:46I mean, it would feel really good to book something.
00:09:49And then I could say my oldest friend is the Leo Mark.
00:09:53Eleanor, stop.
00:09:54Don't forget about me when you're famous, okay?
00:09:57Right.
00:09:58I mean it.
00:10:00I won't.
00:10:02Good.
00:10:24I won't.
00:10:25I won't.
00:10:33You're next.
00:10:34I won't do it.
00:10:38I won't do it.
00:10:39I won't.
00:10:40I won't take something.
00:10:42I won't do it.
00:10:43You're not really good.
00:10:45I won't.
00:10:47I won't do it.
00:10:49You're right.
00:10:50I won't.
00:10:51Wow, that's lovely.
00:11:09Friends of friends in high places.
00:11:14Can you?
00:11:16And they're just letting us stay here?
00:11:20Yeah, I met her at an arts residency,
00:11:22and Lila said I could stay here whenever she's not here.
00:11:35Dips.
00:11:50Dips.
00:11:51S ģ‘.
00:11:56Sģ‘.
00:11:56Shaps.
00:11:56Shaps.
00:11:57Sit with me.
00:12:27You should put on a bathing suit.
00:12:34The sun feels so good on my skin.
00:12:37I'm good as I am.
00:12:40Suit yourself.
00:12:57Hey, this is Will. You know what to do.
00:13:20I think we should go shopping. I've got the urge to splurge.
00:13:25Shit.
00:13:36Oh dear.
00:13:41Do you want to try anything on?
00:13:43I mean, it's a woman's store.
00:13:45Ah, right, right.
00:13:47Sorry.
00:13:48Sorry.
00:13:53Huh.
00:13:56She's cute.
00:13:58Yeah.
00:13:59Remember when we used to go to Savers?
00:14:09They'd get, what, ten pounds of clothes for ten dollars?
00:14:13They still have some of that stuff. Some really good shit.
00:14:16Okay.
00:14:20Oh.
00:14:21What do you think?
00:14:22It's nice.
00:14:24Nice?
00:14:26I'm not an expert on women's fashion.
00:14:28It is cute.
00:14:31Fluttering?
00:14:32Sure, sure.
00:14:33Well, I like it.
00:14:34Will you check the tag and see how much it is?
00:14:36Sixty-five.
00:14:48Woof.
00:14:50We're not in Savers anymore, are we, Toto?
00:14:52No, we're not.
00:14:57Should we steal it?
00:14:59What?
00:15:00We can put it in my back.
00:15:01Eleanor.
00:15:04I'm kidding.
00:15:05Right.
00:15:07I'm gonna wear it out, though.
00:15:21Eleanor?
00:15:25Were you actually joking?
00:15:27Of course.
00:15:28We're not in college anymore.
00:15:29I can afford it.
00:15:31Right.
00:15:35I mean it.
00:15:50You have family.
00:15:52Just because you refuse to see it doesn't mean it's not true.
00:15:54You don't have to be blood to be family.
00:15:57Our bond is deeper than biology.
00:16:01Whether you like it or not, we're both really connected.
00:16:04Yikes.
00:16:05Sorry.
00:16:07Was that for your callback?
00:16:09Yep.
00:16:11Dialogue's a little munch, huh?
00:16:13I guess.
00:16:14I don't know.
00:16:15It's kind of nice.
00:16:17Totally.
00:16:21It's just nice to have a character that's not just, you know, talking about transitioning the whole time.
00:16:30Right.
00:16:31Well, whenever you want to practice, I am ready.
00:16:33I'm gonna draw upon my long and storied career as a chorus member from my sixth grade production of Oklahoma.
00:16:40Awkward, I forgot.
00:16:42An acting legend stands before me.
00:16:45Don't be shocked when I act in circles around you.
00:16:53Wine.
00:16:54I think I should move.
00:17:00Again?
00:17:02Again, again, again.
00:17:04But I thought you liked Durham.
00:17:06I do, but...
00:17:09I also don't like getting stuck places, you know?
00:17:13What about Will?
00:17:15Well...
00:17:17Will's transportable.
00:17:19Oh. Sorry.
00:17:21Just...
00:17:24What?
00:17:29So...
00:17:31Moving?
00:17:33It's always a thought.
00:17:34You know me.
00:17:38Do the thing.
00:17:40What thing?
00:17:41You know.
00:17:43Squirrel!
00:17:45Squirrel!
00:17:49I never told you this in college, but...
00:17:51You'd be holding court at some party and I would be hanging on the edge, wondering when you were gonna figure out how much cooler than me you were.
00:18:02I would fantasize about doing something, I don't know, cool enough to keep your attention.
00:18:09Like what?
00:18:11Something impulsive.
00:18:13Like, I don't know.
00:18:15Steal a car, go for a joy ride, you know.
00:18:18Throw caution to the wind.
00:18:20I mean, never quite did that.
00:18:22No, I didn't.
00:18:23I do remember seeing you, though, at parties.
00:18:26At your most painfully, socially awkward looking at me.
00:18:32I always wondered what you were thinking.
00:18:34Well, now you know.
00:18:36Yeah, but it makes sense.
00:18:38You're an actor, you're shy in real life, but on stage you're...
00:18:45Whereas with me...
00:18:46Well, everywhere you go, it's theater.
00:18:51Yeah.
00:18:56I think we should go out.
00:18:58Oh, really?
00:18:59Yeah, it's happy hour.
00:19:01We should hit the town, have a few drinks, have a few laughs.
00:19:06I haven't heard that one since college.
00:19:07Well, it's still true.
00:19:09The afternoon is young.
00:19:11Or old.
00:19:13But the night is still barely nascent.
00:19:15Yes, but I am very old now.
00:19:17Let's go.
00:19:19Please.
00:19:21Please, please, please, please.
00:19:22Sure.
00:19:23Yes!
00:19:37Please, please.
00:19:53Come on, loosen up!
00:19:54I am loose!
00:19:55I'm loose!
00:20:07We've been hooking up for a year.
00:20:22A year?
00:20:24Yeah, but we're just friends.
00:20:28Oh, really?
00:20:30Yes, really.
00:20:32I mean, if she wanted more, I...
00:20:35Uh...
00:20:37But...
00:20:39I respect her boundary.
00:20:40She wants to keep it professional.
00:20:43Except when you're having sex.
00:20:46Ugh.
00:20:47I just want someone to love me like Rita Wilson loves Tom Hanks.
00:20:51What?
00:20:53They famously love each other.
00:20:54A lot.
00:20:56I read a listicle about it.
00:20:58Well, you deserve an epic look like that.
00:21:00I'd just be happy with something a little more stable.
00:21:13But, um...
00:21:15Yeah, I'm totally fine with the no strings thing.
00:21:20Totally.
00:21:21My own arts practice is really informed by being on the road.
00:21:31Not to get to Kerouac, but the freedom of the open road really frees me.
00:21:38I love Kerouac.
00:21:40Me too.
00:21:42Go to the bathroom.
00:21:44Oh, cool.
00:21:46So what's the longest you've ever driven in one go?
00:21:51Fifteen hours.
00:21:54Wow.
00:22:15I love it.
00:22:16I love it.
00:22:17I love it.
00:22:18I love it.
00:22:19I love it.
00:22:20I love it.
00:22:21I love it.
00:22:22I love it.
00:22:23I love it.
00:22:24I love it.
00:22:25I love it.
00:22:26I love it.
00:22:27I love it.
00:22:28I love it.
00:22:29I love it.
00:22:30I love it.
00:22:31I love it.
00:22:32I love it.
00:22:33I love it.
00:22:34I love it.
00:22:35I love it.
00:22:36I love it.
00:22:37I love it.
00:22:38I love it.
00:22:39I love it.
00:22:40I love it.
00:22:41I love it.
00:22:42I love it.
00:22:43I love it.
00:22:45How do they compare to your boyfriends?
00:22:47I'm not gonna, you know, size-wise put you in competition.
00:22:52Mm-hmm.
00:22:53You both have beautiful, artistic hands.
00:22:57Oh, sorry.
00:23:00Uh, I think I'm gonna head out.
00:23:03Um, sorry, he's my ride.
00:23:06I gotta go.
00:23:09Good to meet you.
00:23:12Bye.
00:23:27You know, you could have stayed if you wanted to.
00:23:29I know. I just hate Kerouac.
00:23:33And I'd never cheat on Will, it's just nice to flirt a little.
00:23:42You want dinner?
00:23:43No, I'm good.
00:23:44No, I'm good.
00:23:45I think I gotta just hang out here for a minute.
00:23:49Okay.
00:23:50Night, sweetie.
00:23:51Night.
00:23:52Night.
00:23:53Night.
00:23:54Night.
00:23:55Night.
00:23:56Night.
00:23:57You want dinner?
00:23:58No, I'm good.
00:23:59I think I gotta just hang out here for a minute.
00:24:14Okay.
00:24:15Night.
00:24:16Night, sweetie.
00:24:17Night.
00:25:20Whenever you're ready.
00:25:27If I hadn't come, what would you have done?
00:25:29Something desperate.
00:25:31No, seriously, what would you have done?
00:25:32Paid my respects and left quietly.
00:25:35These assholes are the only ones who want to turn it into a whole thing.
00:25:38You can't expect to just show up here and know nothing.
00:25:41I mean, you look like Holly Golightly for Christ's sake.
00:25:44Are you slut-shaming me?
00:25:47Maria.
00:25:49I couldn't turn up to my estranged father's funeral looking like shit, could I?
00:25:54I know that was a lot.
00:25:56What they did wasn't cool.
00:25:59Oh, threatening to have me arrested for trespassing wasn't cool?
00:26:01You know what I mean.
00:26:02You haven't saved me, AJ.
00:26:04That's not...
00:26:05Showing up here didn't fix anything for me.
00:26:08I just wanted to make sure you're okay.
00:26:11Why do you care so much?
00:26:15Because...
00:26:16Because you're my family, Rhea.
00:26:19Right.
00:26:23Family.
00:26:23I don't have any family.
00:26:32I mean it.
00:26:35You have family in me.
00:26:37Just because you refuse to see it doesn't mean it's not true.
00:26:41You don't have to be blood to be family.
00:26:44Our bond is deeper than biology.
00:26:49Whether you like it or not, we're irrevocably connected.
00:26:51Ever since that day at the crash pad.
00:26:54We've been linked.
00:26:57I messed up a line.
00:26:59No, you read them fine.
00:27:03I just thought...
00:27:05Maybe you're being a little gentle.
00:27:07Like...
00:27:08Like where's the energy?
00:27:09The...
00:27:10The passion.
00:27:13I...
00:27:14Why don't you try the monologue again, but this time maybe like...
00:27:18Angry.
00:27:19Why would I be angry?
00:27:21Why would I be angry?
00:27:22Well, Rhea's kind of a bitch, right?
00:27:25Kind of?
00:27:26Rhea, she like doesn't listen.
00:27:28So you have to really get through to her.
00:27:30Like really shake her.
00:27:32I guess I just kind of was thinking about AJ as if he...
00:27:36You know, was a gentle person.
00:27:38Like when he's making a point he wouldn't be like in her face.
00:27:40Yeah, but I feel like at this point it'd be a really big breaking point for him.
00:27:46I think you want to wow the director so you should just try something different, right?
00:27:53Yeah, maybe I...
00:27:55Try it angrier.
00:27:56Yeah!
00:27:57Just the monologue.
00:27:58Just like come on, like really give it to her.
00:28:00Come on!
00:28:01Yeah.
00:28:02I'll give you the line leading in.
00:28:03I don't have any family.
00:28:16I mean it.
00:28:18You have family in me.
00:28:20Just because you refuse to see it doesn't mean it's not true.
00:28:24Whether you like it or not we're irrevocably connected.
00:28:28Ever since that day at the crash pad we've been linked.
00:28:32You're not perfect.
00:28:35Neither am I.
00:28:37But we're perfect in our imperfection.
00:28:41Two warped puzzle pieces that managed to fit just right.
00:28:45You fit me.
00:28:49And I fit you.
00:28:52So yeah, Rhea.
00:28:54You have family.
00:28:55It may not be those people in the church, but...
00:28:58You got family standing right in front of you.
00:29:03How was that?
00:29:07I think it's getting there.
00:29:10That's so weird.
00:29:11We can keep working on it.
00:29:15Fuck, I really don't want to fuck this up.
00:29:17You won't.
00:29:19We'll get there.
00:29:23And then I say...
00:29:24We fit, I guess, in our own misshapen way.
00:29:28And now you're supposed to put your palm against my palm and we interlace fingers.
00:29:32Right.
00:29:33Right.
00:29:51Might not be those people in that church, but you have family standing right in front of you.
00:29:54So...
00:29:58Um...
00:30:00Um...
00:30:02Honestly?
00:30:03Yes, honestly.
00:30:05Why are you yelling?
00:30:06I have literally no idea.
00:30:08My friend gave me all these directions and now I'm totally lost.
00:30:12You were fine before.
00:30:14Fuck!
00:30:15Get out of your head and don't run lines with her again.
00:30:17Mmm...
00:30:21I kinda wish it was just you and me up here.
00:30:25Oh yeah?
00:30:27Yeah.
00:30:29That's... sweet.
00:30:33Is everything okay?
00:30:35I'm happy to run lines and stuff, but the guy that I've been dating, he wants to be exclusive.
00:30:39Oh yeah.
00:30:43That's... I mean, I'm cool with that.
00:30:48Neither of us wanted anything, right?
00:30:50Yeah.
00:30:52But...
00:30:53I guess...
00:30:54Now I want something with this guy.
00:30:56So...
00:30:58I hope that's okay?
00:31:01Of course.
00:31:02Thanks for being so chill.
00:31:04And seriously, run lines by yourself this weekend.
00:31:07Bye.
00:31:09Bye.
00:31:10Bye.
00:31:11Bye.
00:31:12Bye.
00:31:13Bye.
00:31:14Bye.
00:31:20Nia?
00:31:24Coming!
00:31:36You okay? You look like someone died.
00:31:39No, I'm good.
00:31:42Farm store?
00:31:43Ooh, these are gorge.
00:31:44They're a potted plant, so...
00:31:45They're a potted plant, so...
00:31:46Ooh, these are gorge.
00:32:06It's a potted plant, so.
00:32:11Which is your hair.
00:32:13Hmm.
00:32:16Hi.
00:32:20How are vegetables so expensive?
00:32:22Inflation.
00:32:25Fuck.
00:32:27What?
00:32:28Just this person from Magneton Class is here.
00:32:30Don't look, Eleanor.
00:32:32Why can't you say hi?
00:32:34Because he's on a really big show right now.
00:32:36So?
00:32:37And he's really good on it.
00:32:39Leo?
00:32:40Leo!
00:32:42Oliver!
00:32:43Hi.
00:32:44It's so good to see you.
00:32:46It's been a minute.
00:32:47So, what are you doing here?
00:32:50I'm just up here for the weekend.
00:32:52Oh, Joe's parents have a house up here, so we're here, like, all the time.
00:32:56Oh, this is my friend Joe.
00:32:58Nice to meet you.
00:32:59Hi.
00:33:00You too.
00:33:04And I'm Eleanor.
00:33:05Sorry.
00:33:06Sorry, this is my friend Eleanor.
00:33:08Well, hi.
00:33:11Hi, Eleanor.
00:33:12Um, so, how are you?
00:33:15I'm, I'm good.
00:33:16I just, I should say congratulations on San Fran House.
00:33:19I've been watching the show and you're so wonderful in it.
00:33:24You don't have to say that though.
00:33:25Leo was just saying how good you are in it.
00:33:28It's just a great show.
00:33:29Wait, wait, wait.
00:33:30Uh, I'm having, like, a brain blast moment.
00:33:33Um.
00:33:34Oh, yeah?
00:33:35Okay, no pressure at all, but you two should totally come over to my place for, like, snacks.
00:33:39I mean, we came here for cheese and crackers to be so lovely to share.
00:33:42I think we have, um, afternoon plans.
00:33:44They're easily changeable.
00:33:45Okay, so change them.
00:33:47Look, we'll stay in the store a little bit longer, buy a few things, and then we'll meet you outside?
00:33:52Hell yeah.
00:33:53Alright, cool.
00:33:54Amazing.
00:33:55Okay, see you.
00:33:59What's your problem?
00:34:00I guess I, he just was like the only other trans guy in your acting class, and we weren't
00:34:07that close, and it kind of felt, I don't know, like there was some competition.
00:34:11Well, you're not in class now, and I need to be competitive.
00:34:14Yeah.
00:34:15Are you annoyed with me?
00:34:17Because I seized the moment.
00:34:19If you don't want to go, we can back out.
00:34:20No.
00:34:21No, no.
00:34:22Actually, thank you.
00:34:24Let's do the socializing thing.
00:34:26See?
00:34:27Serendipity.
00:34:28Adventure.
00:34:29adventure.
00:34:59Hello!
00:35:01Are we in right?
00:35:03Yeah, it's over by the corner.
00:35:05Oh. No.
00:35:07What?
00:35:09Oh my God.
00:35:11Thank you, Joe. That is yummy.
00:35:13That looks
00:35:15beautiful.
00:35:17I mean,
00:35:19I think a lot about
00:35:21art's ability to create
00:35:23meaningful change, right?
00:35:25I'm an actor because I believe
00:35:27movies are powerful engines for empathy,
00:35:29but sometimes I wonder
00:35:31what actually meaningfully changes.
00:35:33Like, I don't know, can you think of
00:35:35a movie that has changed the course of
00:35:37history, really?
00:35:39Uh, Cruising.
00:35:41You know, responsible for
00:35:43a huge homophobic backlash
00:35:45against queer men.
00:35:47Oh no, Joe!
00:35:49But I love that movie. I mean,
00:35:51Al Pacino doing poppers in those tank
00:35:53tops?
00:35:57I don't know that one.
00:35:59But I'm sure it's better than
00:36:01what you've been auditioning for. Am I right?
00:36:03I guessed.
00:36:05You haven't saved me.
00:36:07AJ, come on, Leo.
00:36:09That's not what I...
00:36:11Showing up here didn't change anything for me.
00:36:13I just wanted to make sure
00:36:15you're okay.
00:36:17You know the lines?
00:36:19Yeah, uh...
00:36:21I auditioned.
00:36:23Wow.
00:36:25Yeah, it's just so crazy.
00:36:27We went in for the same part.
00:36:29Oh, they already passed on me.
00:36:31Yeah.
00:36:33So sorry.
00:36:35It's fine. I'm actually really glad
00:36:37that you're up for it.
00:36:39When Leo first read it, he was so quiet,
00:36:41but I'm trying to work with him and, you know,
00:36:43try to get him to be a little angry, you know?
00:36:45I kind of thought of AJ as a...
00:36:47sort of...
00:36:49gentle guy.
00:36:50Huh.
00:36:54Joe?
00:36:55Remind me the name of this cheese?
00:36:57Uh, Camembert.
00:36:58Do you eat this?
00:37:00Yeah.
00:37:01Yeah, you can.
00:37:02Why didn't we talk about this kind of stuff
00:37:07when we were in class together?
00:37:09I don't know.
00:37:10I mean, we should have just been doing this the whole time.
00:37:13Yeah, right?
00:37:14Leo said you guys were a little competitive with each other.
00:37:17Eleanor.
00:37:18No, it's true.
00:37:19We were.
00:37:20I mean, we were competing for, like,
00:37:22the scraps of rolls they were throwing our way,
00:37:24but it all feels really stupid now.
00:37:28It does.
00:37:30Well, we're talking now.
00:37:33Cheers.
00:37:34Cheers.
00:37:35Oh my God, this pool is everything.
00:37:37It was, it was, it was actually a little traumatizing.
00:37:40Maybe I'm not ready to keep this conversation going.
00:37:44Eleanor, we've totally been ignoring you.
00:37:46What about you?
00:37:47What do you do?
00:37:48I'm a photographer.
00:37:49I teach during the year and I travel every summer.
00:37:53Okay, that's enviable.
00:37:55It's nice to be free in that way.
00:37:57So, what college do you teach at?
00:37:59Oh, Eleanor teaches, like, at this really amazing high school.
00:38:03Oh, that's so cool.
00:38:05I mean, it must be really interesting to work with people that age.
00:38:08Yep.
00:38:09Eleanor has been living in Durham for, like, two years now,
00:38:12has this really cool boyfriend who's also an artist,
00:38:14and they went on this road trip together.
00:38:16Yep.
00:38:17Okay, how was that?
00:38:18Really romantic.
00:38:20He painted and I photographed.
00:38:23By that, he was drawing.
00:38:25Oh, drawing.
00:38:26Yeah, he usually is a painter, but because we were on the road,
00:38:30he was drawing because of the supplies and stuff.
00:38:33I was just texting him yesterday and he said he was really happy to be back home with his materials.
00:38:37Yeah.
00:38:38Drawing.
00:38:39Uh, would anyone like some wine?
00:38:43Yeah.
00:38:44Oliver, do you want to come with me?
00:38:45I can help.
00:38:46No, no, no.
00:38:47You can.
00:38:48Got it.
00:38:53You're being weird.
00:38:55How?
00:38:56I just feel like you're not being yourself.
00:38:59And what is me being myself, Eleanor?
00:39:01It just seems like you're performing.
00:39:04Maybe I'm just having a good time and feeling loose with them.
00:39:09Then why aren't you like that with me?
00:39:12I...
00:39:13I have to pee.
00:39:14I am.
00:39:26Hey, this is Will, you know what?
00:39:37Motherfucker.
00:39:45You're right, I was being weird.
00:39:49Good thing you know my love language.
00:39:52Let's just have one.
00:39:57Mmm.
00:40:05Go on, Leo.
00:40:10Are you serious right now?
00:40:12What?
00:40:13Okay, what's with the t-shirts?
00:40:16What do you mean?
00:40:18I feel like you're gonna drown with all those clothes on.
00:40:23Eleanor.
00:40:25What?
00:40:27I'm wearing a shirt because I'm binding.
00:40:31Oh, my God, I'm so sorry.
00:40:32Um...
00:40:34It's fine.
00:40:36Why didn't you tell me?
00:40:45More wine?
00:40:46Mm-hmm.
00:40:47Sure.
00:40:48Mmm-hmm.
00:40:49Mmm-hmm.
00:40:50Mmm-hmm.
00:40:53Mmm-hmm.
00:40:59Mmm-hmm.
00:41:01Mmm-hmm.
00:41:03Oh, my...
00:41:06Oh, my God.
00:41:07Stop! Stop! No. Seriously, I have to stop laughing because my stomach is hurting.
00:41:22No more dirty knock-knock jokes for us.
00:41:25Is there more wine? Do you sure you want more? Yes. I guess I'm driving. That would be great.
00:41:36Does anyone else smell? Um, what is that?
00:41:40Okay. Big girl laugh. Thank you.
00:41:45So we're like in basically the middle of the desert and like maybe...
00:41:51I told the entire auditorium I was bisexual during my campaign for student body president.
00:42:10What?
00:42:11And of course I lost. Oh my god, why?
00:42:15Yeah, thank you. I don't know why I thought the revelation would help my chances of being student body president in 2008 in Chatham, New York.
00:42:23Oh my god.
00:42:25Wow. I thought you were gay.
00:42:30No, uh, uh, bisexual, queer, both.
00:42:35Oliver, what are you?
00:42:37Oh, uh, I'm, I'm queer.
00:42:39Everyone's queer. Except for Leo.
00:42:43Um, I'm not straight. You're not? I'm queer. Didn't know that.
00:42:53Well, I'm just grateful to be able to live a genuine queer life.
00:43:01That part.
00:43:02Sometimes I wish I was queer.
00:43:04Oh, really?
00:43:05But do you think like maybe I'm queering heterosexuality maybe?
00:43:10Well, maybe I am queer.
00:43:17Maybe you are. You would be the one to know.
00:43:21Well, remember when we hooked up, squirrel?
00:43:24Eleanor.
00:43:25Well, do you?
00:43:31Making out for less than a minute before you passed out? Drunk?
00:43:34So what? It doesn't count?
00:43:36I guess it counts.
00:43:41Well, I guess you're queer.
00:43:42See? I'm queer.
00:43:43I'm queer too. Like, why the fuck not?
00:43:46I just want to be like in the club.
00:43:49I want to get naked.
00:43:54Is she gonna be okay?
00:43:56Yeah, she's gonna be fine.
00:43:58Just a little too much day drinking.
00:44:01Need all up in there?
00:44:02Yeah.
00:44:03Well, we should head out. Thanks. Again.
00:44:07Bye.
00:44:19Did you have fun?
00:44:21I did actually.
00:44:22Oliver's.
00:44:27Oliver's kind of a blowhard.
00:44:31I thought he was nice.
00:44:33I thought him and Joe were smart.
00:44:36Yeah, they talk about ideas.
00:44:40I have an idea.
00:44:43What is it?
00:44:45What is it?
00:44:50I forgot.
00:44:53Okay.
00:45:10Eleanor?
00:45:11You may enter.
00:45:18Are you alright?
00:45:20Never better.
00:45:23Anything I can do to help?
00:45:26Sit.
00:45:33Do you still like me?
00:45:34Of course I do.
00:45:35Of course I do.
00:45:37Cause I was a terrible brute tonight, wasn't I?
00:45:41I still like you.
00:45:43Okay.
00:45:46That's good.
00:45:47I think I left my phone at their house.
00:46:00I'll pick it up in the morning.
00:46:01I'll pick it up in the morning.
00:46:30Definitely.
00:46:34Tell you.
00:46:36I won't.
00:46:37Wow!
00:46:39We're so flowers left over there.
00:46:41Yes.
00:46:42We're so hot.
00:46:43He's the water.
00:46:45This feels good.
00:46:46It's dinner and I'm sitting here.
00:46:48Don't you just want to bring this, you can relax?
00:46:49Don't you enjoy now?
00:46:50You know what?
00:46:51significant?
00:46:53Whatever.
00:46:54droughts.
00:46:56Thanks bro.
00:46:58Sorry about it.
00:46:59Morning.
00:47:16Morning.
00:47:17I have her phone.
00:47:19Thank God.
00:47:21Do you want some coffee?
00:47:24Oh.
00:47:25Sure.
00:47:26Okay.
00:47:29I'm not much of a hiking guy.
00:47:35No, you should definitely.
00:47:36I mean, the path is pretty clear on the property.
00:47:40You just have to, like, look out for the trail markers, and you should be good.
00:47:44Are you sure?
00:47:45Yeah, I mean, we're leaving today, but I know Joe would be happy if you swung by for just a little hike.
00:47:51Maybe we will.
00:47:53I have to think of something to do with her.
00:47:55Oh, I'm sorry about yesterday.
00:47:58She's a lot.
00:48:01It's all good, really.
00:48:04I mean, she's maybe a little territorial.
00:48:08Territorial?
00:48:10Over you.
00:48:13Protective, too.
00:48:15Huh.
00:48:16I think in kind of a sweet way.
00:48:18If a little.
00:48:21A little.
00:48:21A little.
00:48:22Yeah.
00:48:23I just, yeah.
00:48:25I still am sorry for all the unhinged stuff she said.
00:48:28You know, I don't really mind her chaos.
00:48:31Oh, really?
00:48:32Well, then maybe you and I should switch places for the weekend because, oh, she's exhausting.
00:48:38Maybe that's why she's your friend.
00:48:42What?
00:48:44Maybe you like a little bit of dysfunction.
00:48:48Okay.
00:48:49Um, former classmate and now my psychoanalyst.
00:48:52Um, for the record, I like simple.
00:48:56I, I like boring.
00:48:59That's, that's good.
00:49:03Is it?
00:49:05Yeah, because I'm boring.
00:49:10You absolutely are not.
00:49:13I don't want to, I, I'm usually a lot smoother than this, but, um, can I, can I kiss you?
00:49:28Me?
00:49:29Yeah, you.
00:49:32Are you and Joe?
00:49:34Oh, no, we're just friends.
00:49:43I've been wanting to do that since that terrible, terrible class.
00:49:50Really?
00:49:52Yeah.
00:49:53And I'm glad to know that you like boring because I'd very much like to do something boring with you sometime.
00:50:13Can I call you this week?
00:50:17I would really like that.
00:50:21Cool, me too.
00:50:23So, you should stick around, enjoy the pool, hang out.
00:50:29I'm gonna head back up.
00:50:31We gotta head out soon.
00:50:33Yeah.
00:50:34Yeah?
00:50:34Yeah.
00:50:35All right.
00:50:36Have fun.
00:50:39Thanks for the coffee.
00:50:41Thanks for the kiss.
00:50:43You were gone for a while.
00:51:03Just getting your phone, remember?
00:51:06Ah, thank you, my hero.
00:51:08I got you a nice coffee from that place down the road.
00:51:14It's a little melted, though.
00:51:16I just had a coffee.
00:51:17But it's my peace offering.
00:51:19I'm sorry about last night.
00:51:32Apology accepted.
00:51:36But maybe, don't you think those guys are just like a tiny bit pretentious?
00:51:41Eleanor.
00:51:41Seriously, you know you sound like cold and cold feet.
00:51:44Fine, fine.
00:51:46I am sorry for getting so drunk last night.
00:51:48I honestly don't remember much, but I'm sorry for whatever happened.
00:51:52Okay.
00:51:53Thanks.
00:51:54Cheers.
00:51:55You have family in me.
00:52:09You have family in me.
00:52:11Family in me.
00:52:14Ready?
00:52:14Ready?
00:52:17Yep.
00:52:19What time is it?
00:52:20Time for our big hike.
00:52:21Are you okay?
00:52:32You seem weird.
00:52:33I'm tired.
00:52:37Do you want to run lines when we get back?
00:52:39Oh, no.
00:52:40I mean...
00:52:42No, thank you.
00:52:44Just, uh, appreciated, though.
00:53:17Bye.
00:53:18Bye.
00:53:19I thought of a movie that changed history.
00:53:24Oh, yeah?
00:53:25The Thin Blue Line.
00:53:27Errol Morris literally solved a crime
00:53:30that exonerated an innocent man.
00:53:33Huh. Okay.
00:53:34What happened to him afterwards?
00:53:37He made a lot of money doing computer and beer commercials.
00:53:39The death row guy?
00:53:41Errol Morris.
00:53:43Right.
00:53:45Which way?
00:53:48This way.
00:53:50I don't see any trail markers.
00:53:52Trust me.
00:53:54Can we just stick to the trail?
00:54:00This is the trail, silly.
00:54:02Can we take a little break?
00:54:27Yeah.
00:54:30We're having fun, right?
00:54:32I never go on hikes.
00:54:35That's your whole problem.
00:54:37What?
00:54:38You have such a rigid view of yourself.
00:54:40You say you never go on hikes,
00:54:41but here you are going on a hike.
00:54:43You just don't try anything new
00:54:45unless someone pushes you to do it.
00:54:46I don't know.
00:54:47You're good.
00:54:48I don't know.
00:54:49You're good.
00:54:49I don't know.
00:54:50Are you good?
00:55:10You know, maybe what you think of as me being a coward.
00:55:15I never said you were a coward.
00:55:17Is actually me just having a little structure in my life because my whole life is a risk and I don't need to, you know, act out like some theater kid just to prove a point.
00:55:31So everywhere I go is theater, right?
00:55:34Yep, just without stage.
00:55:36I'm a photographer.
00:55:38Oh, right. And, uh, where's the camera?
00:55:41Why are you being such an asshole? If you don't want to keep hiking, then go back to the house.
00:55:46Why am I being an asshole?
00:55:47Go back to the house. Where the hell are we?
00:55:52I think we're lost.
00:55:53Yeah, no shit.
00:55:56No, we're, like, lost. Metaphorically lost.
00:56:01And actually lost.
00:56:05What are you doing?
00:56:07They're going to navigate us out of here.
00:56:09Not just metaphorically.
00:56:10I don't have service, Steve.
00:56:15Don't worry about it.
00:56:17Can you check if you have service?
00:56:21Eleanor!
00:56:23What?
00:56:23It's 3% battery.
00:56:24I think we're close.
00:56:25Oh, yeah, Eleanor. Where are we?
00:56:26I'm going to have 3% battery.
00:56:44I think we're close.
00:56:46Oh, yeah, Eleanor, where are we?
00:56:49See, we're on the trail.
00:56:51Yeah, but do we even know if we're going in the right direction?
00:56:53It's a loop.
00:56:55Okay, my phone just died.
00:56:56Okay.
00:57:03Are you texting right now?
00:57:04No.
00:57:05If you are texting Will with our source of light...
00:57:07I'm not texting Will.
00:57:08I haven't texted Will all weekend because I'm trying to be present with you.
00:57:13You haven't texted Will all weekend.
00:57:14Let's just try to get out of here, huh?
00:57:17So, you haven't texted him at all?
00:57:19No.
00:57:20No.
00:57:21No.
00:57:23Is that, like, normal for you guys?
00:57:25And I...
00:57:25Weren't you just saying that you were texting him yesterday?
00:57:28Okay, busybody.
00:57:29We broke up, okay?
00:57:31What the fuck, Eleanor?
00:57:33So you've just been lying to me all weekend?
00:57:35Well, you hide shit from me.
00:57:37You didn't want to take your shirt off and get in the water.
00:57:39Why?
00:57:40Because you didn't want me to know that you hadn't a top surgery.
00:57:42Am I right?
00:57:42That is completely different, Eleanor.
00:57:44Oh, is it?
00:57:45You're so fucking clueless.
00:57:48I'm not clueless.
00:57:50You just don't clue me in.
00:57:52This isn't about me.
00:57:54This is about you lying to me all weekend.
00:57:56What do you want me to say?
00:57:58Just tell me why you're not telling me shit.
00:58:01Okay.
00:58:02We were on the road trip for two days,
00:58:07and I picked some stupid fight about directions,
00:58:09and he just fucking left.
00:58:10Okay?
00:58:12He hitchhiked back home.
00:58:14I mean, why should I admit to you that I'm...
00:58:1629 fucking years old,
00:58:18and I can't seem to keep a relationship for longer than three months?
00:58:22And you have your...
00:58:23your head so far up your own ass
00:58:25with your shitty little callback for your shitty little TV show,
00:58:28and all you care about is impressing pretentious assholes
00:58:30that you don't even like.
00:58:32Wow.
00:58:32Eleanor, just because you don't like something
00:58:34doesn't mean it's shitty.
00:58:36What?
00:58:37It's not like we're in college anymore.
00:58:40I don't need to follow you around
00:58:42and just mirror back all your thoughts and opinions.
00:58:44Okay, that's not...
00:58:47I know I'm probably not supposed to say this
00:58:48because it's problematic or whatever,
00:58:50because I'm not allowed to have any feelings
00:58:51about your transition,
00:58:52but I miss how things were.
00:58:56When you...
00:58:57Who you were before.
00:59:00You really aren't allowed to have feelings about that.
00:59:09Like...
00:59:10At all.
00:59:14So fucked, Eleanor!
00:59:19I miss you.
00:59:20I just feel so distant from you now.
00:59:26It's not because I'm trans.
00:59:28It's really not.
00:59:29I don't know.
00:59:34I don't know.
00:59:34What?
00:59:36I shouldn't be here.
00:59:38I shouldn't be in the fucking
00:59:39tick-infested,
00:59:41Blair Witchwoods,
00:59:42fighting with you.
00:59:45Thank God.
00:59:46The house.
00:59:48Are you sure?
00:59:49Yes, I'm sure.
00:59:50Just tell me you didn't lose the car keys.
00:59:53I didn't.
01:00:00Leo.
01:00:01Leo.
01:00:03I love you.
01:00:06No, you don't, Eleanor.
01:00:10Kind of ironic, I guess.
01:00:12Seeing as it was me
01:00:14keeping secrets all those years,
01:00:16being in love with you.
01:00:19And you,
01:00:20pretending you didn't know.
01:00:21Although, I mean,
01:00:23you knew you must have known.
01:00:26I didn't...
01:00:28know.
01:00:31I mean, I didn't know...
01:00:32know.
01:00:33You liked having me around
01:00:37as your little lap dog,
01:00:39and...
01:00:41I'm done.
01:00:43I am done.
01:00:47That's so unfair.
01:00:50Is it?
01:00:55Can you...
01:01:26I mean it.
01:01:31You have family in me.
01:01:35Fuck.
01:01:51You okay?
01:01:52Yeah.
01:01:53Just...
01:01:54clumsy.
01:01:56Let me help.
01:02:10It's our last night.
01:02:13It is.
01:02:19You shouldn't be drinking long.
01:02:26I heard you.
01:02:34Hmm?
01:02:35Like, I heard you.
01:02:37I was fucked up.
01:02:40But can I say something?
01:02:43Maybe less fucked up.
01:02:46Sure.
01:02:47I miss us.
01:02:48I miss us.
01:02:51You miss us?
01:02:53You're the best friend I've ever had.
01:02:57Like, my best, best friend.
01:02:58And I feel like...
01:03:02You haven't been acting that way.
01:03:07Or something.
01:03:10Or like, you were my best friend,
01:03:12and now you're just...
01:03:15someone else.
01:03:18I don't know.
01:03:19I'm still me, I'm still me, Elinor.
01:03:26Definitely still me.
01:03:29That's good.
01:03:31Maybe it's just...
01:03:33I wish I weren't still me.
01:03:39Maybe if you just...
01:03:40accepted you a little more,
01:03:44it would help.
01:03:44I mean...
01:03:45I always liked you as you are.
01:03:50Just...
01:03:52It's like...
01:03:53when you're not happy being you,
01:03:55that you become a little bit...
01:03:57too much of you or something.
01:04:00Yeah.
01:04:00I liked following you around in college.
01:04:06You led me out of the hole I was in.
01:04:10And you still do.
01:04:28Elinor.
01:04:28I think you're...
01:04:30confused.
01:04:35I am...
01:04:37confused...
01:04:39by you.
01:04:43Okay.
01:04:45You are...
01:04:47something.
01:04:48Something.
01:04:58What?
01:04:59Okay.
01:04:59Okay.
01:05:01Okay.
01:05:05Okay.
01:05:10Okay.
01:05:19Fine.
01:05:22Okay.
01:05:25Good.
01:05:26Good.
01:05:26I don't know.
01:05:56I don't know.
01:06:26I don't know.
01:06:56No, yeah.
01:06:57Okay.
01:07:06Could you maybe, um, a little to the left?
01:07:11Sure.
01:07:13Yeah.
01:07:23My hands crammed.
01:07:25Oh, um, that should be, maybe if, um, yeah.
01:07:30Oh, my God.
01:07:33Oh, my God.
01:07:42Oh, my God.
01:07:48Did you just make it?
01:08:13No.
01:08:17Yes.
01:08:18I guess I should probably go.
01:08:34Yeah.
01:08:44Eleanor.
01:08:45Oh, God, Leo.
01:08:56I'm so sorry.
01:08:58I'm so horrifying.
01:09:00Have you ever had worse sex?
01:09:05No, even the first time wasn't this bad.
01:09:08At least it was brief.
01:09:16And now we know.
01:09:19We really know.
01:09:20And it will never happen again.
01:09:22Unless we're stuck in a cave or on a deserted island.
01:09:25Or on a long cruise ship trip.
01:09:27Or if they make another Avengers movie that's three hours long and we're stuck in the last row.
01:09:32We run out of popcorn.
01:09:33And so I didn't ruin everything.
01:09:46I just...
01:09:52I did the thing where I sabotage a good thing.
01:10:01And I've just been driving around for the past couple weeks aiming my camera aimlessly at shit and not pressing the shutter.
01:10:11And you have a whole life that I know nothing about.
01:10:15And I know it's not your fault.
01:10:19I am a little clueless.
01:10:23But I'm learning, right?
01:10:27We're all learning.
01:10:31You want to know something weird?
01:10:41Another secret?
01:10:42Kind of.
01:10:48You know how much of a loser I feel like I am.
01:10:50You're not a loser.
01:10:52No, don't try to make me feel better.
01:10:54But here's the thing.
01:10:59I'm a fucking good teacher.
01:11:04Like, I'm bizarrely good at it.
01:11:07And my whole life plan was like, no, I'm an artist.
01:11:12And I was somehow embarrassed that I became a high school teacher.
01:11:17But I admit it.
01:11:21I fucking love my job.
01:11:32That's awesome.
01:11:33It pays shit.
01:11:35Yeah.
01:11:36It's exhausting.
01:11:38The principal's a scumbag.
01:11:40That sucks.
01:11:41Did I mention the pay shit?
01:11:43Shit.
01:11:44You did.
01:11:49I'm so sorry for blowing everything up.
01:11:52I'm sorry too.
01:11:54Why do you care so much?
01:11:59Why do you care so much?
01:12:05Because...
01:12:08Because you're my family, right?
01:12:11Right?
01:12:12Family.
01:12:13I don't have any family.
01:12:18I mean it.
01:12:24You have family in me.
01:12:26Just because you refuse to see it doesn't mean it's not true.
01:12:31True.
01:12:34You don't have to be blood to be family.
01:12:38Our bond is deeper than biology.
01:12:45Whether you like it or not, we're irrevocably connected.
01:12:50Ever since that day at the crash pad, we've been linked.
01:12:52We've been linked.
01:12:55You're not perfect.
01:12:58Neither am I.
01:13:01But...
01:13:03We're perfect in our imperfection.
01:13:07Two warped puzzle pieces that managed to fit just right.
01:13:12You fit me.
01:13:15And I fit you.
01:13:17So...
01:13:19Yeah, Rhea.
01:13:21You have family.
01:13:23It may not be those people in that church, but...
01:13:26You have family standing right in front of you.
01:13:28I was wrong.
01:13:30You're right.
01:13:32You're right.
01:13:34You're right.
01:13:35You're right.
01:13:37You're right.
01:13:38You're right.
01:13:40You're right.
01:13:41You're right.
01:13:43That's how you should do it.
01:13:45Gentle.
01:13:50You're really good, Leo.
01:14:12You're welcome.
01:14:13I'm going to go back to Esri-Sed's.
01:14:14I'll try and put it in the wrong direction.
01:14:18This is a lilac.
01:14:20I'm going to have a little bit of crumvirate in the left of me.
01:14:22You're right.
01:14:24You're right.
01:14:25You're right, I'll try to make it.
01:14:27You're right.
01:14:29This is a little bit of crumvirate in the left.
01:14:31The milk is coming.
01:14:33It's the only problem, but it's not good to be too far.
01:14:35So, this is my preferred meal.
01:14:36You're right.
01:14:37You'll try to win the pumpkin.
01:14:38so
01:15:08Let's go.
01:15:38Let's get started.
01:16:08Let's get started.
01:16:38Let's get started.
01:17:08It's healthier this way.
01:17:12But when I look at you, I see an old friend, I see an old friend passing through.
01:17:20And when I think of you, I want to be friends, I want to be friends with you, with you.
01:17:34I want to be friends with you.
01:17:46I want to be friends with you.
01:18:02I want to be friends with you.
01:18:06I want to be friends with you.