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00:00Hello in this video. This video was addressed to my twin flame Shia. Hi Shia.
00:07Who else is watching and thank you for watching.
00:10I'm going to try to upload this video Shia. The one on the cell phone.
00:19Anyone who wants to use this video against me or my twin flame Shia will be soon sent to jail for trying to illegally frame me.
00:38I'm having trouble Shia with my spine and my neck today.
00:42If you see me adjusting, that means I have a lot of weakness, partial...
00:53It does seem like partial paralysis Shia, unfortunately.
00:57And it got worse within these last 72 hours.
01:01And the telepathic supporters figured it out.
01:07It was most likely because I found out that the criminal bird's husband used AI to change you into him.
01:19So...
01:24Her.
01:26So...
01:28It's possible that was it.
01:30It started this morning when I woke up.
01:33And...
01:34With only 5 hours of sleep.
01:36And then I got up and I said I really am just too tired to walk around.
01:40Because I was going to go for a walk Shia.
01:42And then I ended up going for a walk doing the Lumerian technology to deactivate the hive mind.
01:47Specifically in regards to the...
01:50Criminal networks associated with the government authorities.
01:54Because that's what we're trying to take down.
01:56Right now.
02:01I noticed my...
02:03I was walking funny.
02:04With my left leg.
02:06And my left leg does have a funny sensation.
02:09It doesn't feel the same as my right leg.
02:12I already knew that I had some...
02:15Paralysis.
02:16It definitely got worse since the Freon Leak cardiac arrest.
02:19You can get paralyzes from Freon Leak chemical poisoning.
02:24I was already getting paralyzes in my legs from the Freon chemical leak poisoning Shia.
02:29And wherever else.
02:31So...
02:32On top of the cardiac arrest.
02:34I told you after...
02:36Not moving for 18 days.
02:38That's partial coma.
02:39And that's...
02:40Most likely some form of paralyzes.
02:42I couldn't move my neck.
02:44And rest my neck on the right or the left.
02:47And I kept catching my...
02:50Neck kind of just falling.
02:52Even lying down on the pillow.
02:54My neck would just fall.
02:55And I had to pick it back up.
02:57So...
02:58I have some serious paralyzes in my neck and spine.
03:01Obviously...
03:03I'm not paralyzed.
03:04But I have symptoms of paralyzes.
03:06Or symptoms of weakness in my spine.
03:08Where I can't stay up.
03:10And I just walked...
03:12Drove around...
03:13The...
03:14Around the...
03:15I drove around the...
03:16The lake.
03:17Here.
03:18In Grantham, New Hampshire.
03:19The first time I've ever done that.
03:21It's not actually a really pretentious place.
03:24It has lots of kind of pretentious sports.
03:27Like golf and tennis.
03:29And pickleball.
03:30And...
03:31Not all the sports are...
03:34Pretentious.
03:35They have...
03:36I...
03:37I mean...
03:38There...
03:39I think there is a little bit of a pretentiousness at this community.
03:43However...
03:44Based on the drive around...
03:47I just...
03:48I don't really like New Hampshire.
03:49I think it has to do with...
03:50Uh...
03:51It...
03:52Being...
03:53Not necessarily as much connected with Lumerians.
03:54Lumeria was...
03:55Started in California.
03:56So...
03:57I...
03:58I believe...
03:59Because...
04:00It's also...
04:01There's just...
04:02Uh...
04:03Depression.
04:04Depression...
04:05A look...
04:06A look...
04:07A look...
04:08A look...
04:09A look...
04:10A look...
04:11A look...
04:12A look...
04:14A look...
04:15A look...
04:16A look...
04:17Around New Hampshire.
04:18The types of plants...
04:22It's still pretty though.
04:28It's...
04:28It's still pretty and nice.
04:30So...
04:33I just tried to...
04:34So...
04:36This...
04:37I'm going to not make this video long...
04:38Shia...
04:39Uh...
04:40Because...
04:41I'm having a hard time with my spine today.
04:43Something different happened this morning...
04:45morning i drove around the lake because i thought that maybe it was an energy vortex so i would do
04:50something it's possible there is an ai deactivation layer and because of our conditions of our bodies
04:58shy we're going to get way worse before we get better and because i already have paralyzes in
05:05my body it could get worse before it gets better i'm not doing cardio today
05:09uh because of the way i feel i don't think it's cardio make making me paralyzed
05:18um i think i really need cardio and see how i already hunched over
05:25i wonder if i should sit like this and show you and show you how i hunch over
05:31so i'll tell you what i did today um i've already done the salutation prayers
05:50i'm i'm gonna sit on the side right now so i already did the salutation prayer shia
05:55uh you can see there's at the paralysis while i'm in the video shia so and something's going on
06:07where like i might have redness from sunburn because i'm sitting out like i'm i'm sitting
06:14outside and to eat my meals sometimes and going around the lake you know around the streets just
06:21a mile or so and i'm looking and my face all red in the mirror and i said wow i i don't know why my
06:29face is red that's brain injury um they want to constantly take that away from me and they say no
06:36we're telling we're keeping you from knowing there's a whole program shia to keep me from being allowed
06:45to know that i have diseases and covering up to make it like it's all uh just beat the crime against
06:53me that's happening i'm even having trouble swallowing my food and eating today so something happened very
07:04seriously uh these past 72 hours and i believe it's because i found out about what happened to your body
07:13so i had also a compulsive feeling to leave and return the laptop uh personally i don't i don't really
07:24want to waste 140 dollars because at this point shia i think that this criminal hacker would put actual
07:30viruses on my computer and ruin it and damage it it would be just a waste of 140 dollars
07:36um also it's it's like a a real direct because i had those government laptops the criminal hackers
07:48obviously like really angry that he was being spied on obviously by the libraries and now like
07:54because i don't have a library laptop i have i feel much less saved so anyways
08:02i i i don't know if i really feel like i could make videos with my cell phone and just post posts just
08:17written posts in regards to uh like where i am and how i'm doing with through the trip shia and just
08:26return this laptop because uh i don't know yet i don't think that um i think when i get to san diego
08:36i'm going to want to rent a library laptop because it's i feel much safer and it's government property
08:44they automatically can uh look at the computer just to detect if there's hackers so
08:51see how i'm falling down and when i'm in the chair i'll slump to the left and that always happen
09:00with my scoliosis i'll just hope my whole body will slump over like this that happens a lot and
09:08with my neck i'm falling it's falling back and it's also um it's falling back a lot and it's kind of
09:17curling in up more so i changed my address i'm really upset shia because i just bought a car
09:25registration on april 8th it's april 24th and it didn't forward it to this address to the p.o
09:33but my mother's p.o box address yet so it's been
09:37what's 24 minus 8
09:44it's been like 16 days
09:49um there's no way it should be taking 16 days and i just kind of want to leave so
09:57i guess if i do get pulled over i can show the email that i
10:01i i bought a registered a new copy of it
10:08uh 8 6 15 two weeks ago and um it didn't forward to the address where i was leaving
10:16from here to get to san diego so i guess i can show them receipt of the registration but
10:22i gotta get out of here shia i feel like i'm dying here and i feel like just
10:26every single minute it feels like hours and hours i can't stand being here it's so painful
10:36so i changed my address back to san diego uh i do need to get planet fitness membership but i think
10:42i'm just going to wait until i get back i i probably should save the five dollars however
10:49i'm still debating on whether i should save the twenty dollars or not i mean but get the planet
10:58fitness membership now or just get it later um i i've been having a lot of chili pepper flakes on
11:09my food shia and this was part of the torture i had extreme diarrhea today from the chili peppers
11:15flakes i ate last night so um i'll show you the chili pepper flakes where is it
11:29and it's very strange uh that
11:34my mom played with the tea bags in front of our picture frame
11:51she placed them where it says kids new man and stress relief kava so i wasn't allowed to take this
12:00this this my tea bags from the keurig off of my little desk thing but it's very strange that
12:13she actually went about and rearranged them because that's how angry she is that i made that frame of
12:20us shia um it's possible uh that was also moved it says kiss mongo on it kiss mongo is the chapstick brand
12:38uh so yeah that's sad
12:41that's pretty sad i'm i'm not feeling safe i want to put all my belongings in the trunk i have this
12:54feeling that she's my property is going to get destroyed or tampered with so spiritual zen is coming
13:02out with a new uh video so we gotta listen to that shia uh they are
13:13posting it in two days april 26 and
13:16i got a little bit of a rash shia on my hip it could be staph infection
13:30um it's not ishy luckily yet
13:45i took some photos of attacks
13:49um
13:52i'm not showing any of these right now
13:54actually i'll show it to you uh
14:07that looks uh perverted
14:24this is beyond weirdo to be able to uh do this to for so many years to someone
14:32this is beyond beyond weirdo
14:38and some kind of uh to put all this time and energy into doing this
14:44this appears eggs that looks like a skull
14:47eggs fried eggs shaped in the skull this is all pure harassment extreme harassment
15:00this was a a dress of dog little dogs
15:05i think i took a video clip of it uh look at the little cat next to like what a little mouse
15:12and this is like a like a wedding gown of little dogs
15:21this is all uh extreme psychological harassment
15:29and i had to
15:32i my i froze when i went to go check the authorities
15:37hashtag no accounts you have to go to the main feed page
15:42oh no that's
15:49stop
15:54um see how i can't keep my spine up shia
16:03i had to i thought i had to look at it i was forced with ai this is
16:08this is
16:12this is our height difference
16:18um
16:23oh well you can't not like this post because it's such a cute uh kitten
16:28that's harassment that's extreme harassment
16:40um i need to show you the red pepper chili flakes because this was bought a big box of it was bought
16:47so that i would uh keep dumping it in because there's two ways to dump it in and one is just to pour
16:53it and so they keep making me open the pouring one and i can't actually they keep me from being able to
17:00take out the red pepper chili flakes i have to eat and i got extreme diarrhea from it today
17:06uh in regards to this photo it's possible to clone i don't know a clone of the that
17:19uh
17:22i don't know
17:26however it's obviously not making us feel good and it's under
17:30it's under a uh i don't think it's under a business account
17:33however i think it was timed shia and it was placed there so for me to see it
17:39right before i posted all of these um
17:44that important video of slideshow of 50 images of attacking me
17:49and that was timed shia there's no way that was timed and then like no shia is not giving you all
17:54of these signs with the numbers because of the video you made it's because of the photo
18:00just to completely kill my spirit
18:04also this watermelon water me lawn this was a code word for uh water me watermelon water my lawn
18:13grow grass grow up little child over and over and over thousands into the millions of times at this point
18:31so this is the red pepper chili flakes that's how much i ate in maybe
18:37two or three weeks
18:42but see how it has uh that opening and that opening well i've been pouring it in like there accidentally
18:50and then i have to i'm like okay well i have to pick it out it's too much
18:53and they use they control my body to not allow me to take it out so then i get extreme uh stomach
19:01pain uh these tell me over and over i'm gonna get ulcer my neck is not staying up my spine's not staying up
19:11uh so see these pillows this is my pillow that i bought and this is my pillow that i bought this is
19:17my mom's pillow and my mom's blanket it's a faux fur blanket my mother's faux fur blanket faux fur pillow
19:24she never used because she used it to try to sell her mother's house and she has dogs so it would be
19:33ruined but every time i go to hug this pillow which is my mom's which i kind of like like i'm hugging
19:40you i'm not like a lot allowed i get a super sick feeling and with v2k no that's your mother's pillow
19:47like that's uh you can't hug shia you're not allowed to hug shia like shia is mine kind of thing
19:54same thing that happened it's been going on for years shia i'm still being kept away from you
20:01it's been going on for years but there's there's been like a kind of a fight with the pillows
20:08and because she owns this pillow so then i go to hug this pillow and then because it's like
20:16not like a type of pillow that like i it's kind of like a center pillow it's not like a
20:24it's the pillows that i got are kind of thinner than usual so when i go to hug it doesn't have that
20:29like like like i'm hugging you feeling i'll show you see how it's kind of like a thin pillow so i try
20:44to hug it but no i there's no there's no there's no there's no problem here that's not the problem
20:53the the pro i associate it with our mountain lion fur and it's a really cozy pillow but
21:04and i have to use this to prop my my spine up because it hurts
21:08so every time i go to think about you and i want to hug the pillow i'm always directed to my mother's
21:16pillow and then it's a constant uh no that's diana's pillow and so you can't hug shia that's that's what
21:26is said to me every single time and it's been going on every single day when i think about you want to
21:32go hug you and then i i go to hug my own pillow get really disgusted and sick to my stomach i go to
21:38hug my own pillow and then they're doing this whole program thing where where i i immediately gave her
21:45chakra tortured and they said you better get away from that pillow that's gonna it's gonna get so much
21:50worse instantly so and then well i i'm pretty much sure that's an excuse and i have to not be able to
22:00hug the pillow shia so
22:13i did get some more uh signs i took a few photos of the lake i'm gonna show you tomorrow i took some more
22:22photos of the uh covert messages so i'm not going to show the mom too tired
22:30i'm still getting some a lot of skin problems do you see the discoloration so i'm i'm this i'm not
22:38like tilting it this this is what it looks like see there's a big circle of like a white patch
22:47so my skin is there's lots of problems with it i'm hoping it's this uh not the staph infection is
22:55chemical burn uh but i do have a funny feeling that i get when i touch my skin it really is painful and
23:04it feels like a weird smoothness still so it was a very serious burn shia
23:09i took some photos of the emails that we get from the top from the
23:21right see my see how my body's like clenching and i can't keep it up shia
23:27so then when i hunch over or droop to one side or my head falls back they'll sensuate it with ai to
23:39make it to try to injure my body this is one reason why i don't like new hampshire
23:46satan's kingdom wildlife management there is a uh i think new england is one of the
23:55most illuminati places on the planet that's what i've heard so i'm having really trouble with the
24:03instructions directions to get to uh san diego i'm having a lot of trouble there's a block
24:09because i've not been allowed to
24:15learn about territory geography maps history so these to be able to follow roots um
24:28i mean this is going to be i'm going to have to go extremely slow slower than other people and i'm
24:34going to have to take a lot of breaks because i'm not supposed to be driving and i'm being already
24:43warned oh what about the weather why don't you just leave next month it's a fail defeat you can't go
24:52anywhere well there's always going to be weather problems whether i leave one week two weeks you
24:57can't plan with weather and if there's i could i could wait a whole year and there's always going to
25:03be weather problems i'm not going to wait a whole year but she said why don't you just wait until
25:07may and then she turned into ma why ma why ma why it's like the the criminal that stole your dna
25:20uh
25:26i'm not talking about her shia
25:28uh anyway she's she has played a little mind games i think she's uh there's i'm not going to
25:36talk about her shia uh there's some serious sickness going on i i would jump in that car
25:43in a second if i had more money uh this is one reason why my life has been ruined for 39 years is
25:50because of all the money spells and the witchcraft in order to not be able to keep my money in order to
25:55not not be able to save money in order to not actually have a living wage a functional living
26:04living amount of money to live month to month
26:12but uh i got an email from mark collin from san diego housing commission asking when i'm coming back
26:18because they didn't do the room inspection yet they want me to be there so i told them i'm leaving in
26:23four to seven days i'll email them when i get there so i'm going to eventually have to get
26:28into the department to be there for the inspection
26:37so i'm going to show you some of these photos tomorrow shyam because i i didn't want to make a
26:41long video and i definitely didn't tell you everything i needed to tell you
26:46my spine is having see how i can't it just drops it's like i can't keep my spine up
26:57i can't keep my spine up but i'm hoping i'll i'll just rest a little bit i'm going to
27:05use the seat cushion that i have as a lumbar pillow
27:17so i have this i'm going to put on my back
27:22this way or this way to try to support keep my spine up
27:27i also have the neck rest pillow that i also have the neck rest pillow that i can use
27:39um but i've been i was once again there's always these little things that are kind of being like
27:46you better leave you gotta get out of here it's like every single day i've been threatened
27:51it's a form of torture it's been a form of torture um no one's follow they're not going to give me
28:01any money so if she doesn't want me to leave uh i'm supposed to be dead it's not a matter of not her
28:10wanting me to leave um kidnapping is a part of it it's the and it was my whole life
28:21like no you have to stay here you have to stay here like um so that i can keep trying to do what
28:28i'm doing to you so i got the lumerian technology out of the way because it's it really feels like
28:37work it's like this form of energy healing reiki to like deactivate the hive mind see how my spine's
28:44just falling over it's i'm not making this up cheyenne it's not ai like i'm really having
28:50a problem somehow i got more paralyzed within these past 70 48 to 72 hours since i learned about
28:57what happened to you is what i was told because my brain injury i can't pick up on why things are
29:05happening to me and why i'm thinking the way i'm thinking and not being able to think because of the
29:10brain injury so i did drove around grantham and i had a very hard time keeping my spine up
29:17uh keeping my neck straight it was i was obviously there was some interference to make it really scary
29:26so i'm thinking i'm going to take nine days to get to where i have to be
29:33um and try to be healthy about it get out and walk around
29:38take breaks it's going to be more stressful because there'll be more time of getting stuck
29:46in the middle of nowhere however
29:51i have to be safe and i i tried to find all these different directions
29:57i wrote down different routes i wrote down don't you don't have i wrote down all these different
30:07types of routes and what it comes down to is all these routes don't have like enough of detailed
30:16instructions they're just too like um like they're not giving enough of like everything
30:25so i can't go into google maps and find a way of punching in the specific interstate highways i
30:35want to take unfortunately going from 91 south to 84 to 80 is like i think it's like 22 hours
30:47so i've never driven without google maps i've never been able to physically and mentally i haven't been
30:54able to mentally shy because i have relied any kind of paper instructions that i've used in the past
31:02i've always gotten lost i've always had a extreme fear of looking away from the of driving and reading
31:11the directions it's more of it puts people more in danger
31:18and then i have a constant compulsion of constantly looking at the directions every five minutes
31:24because i like forget where i'm going or where i am so i'm thinking that i'm going to use the google
31:30map instructions that i that pulls up on my phone and copy it down on paper and match the instructions that
31:44i see on the google maps and then on the piece of paper that i have to make sure that it's the correct
31:52route because i have some kind of blocks these aren't just this is like some serious ai where i
32:02i don't think it has to do with the brain injury i think i cannot i can't learn uh i can't go and learn
32:10a map thing right now and all the criminal hacker does is put a bunch of advertisements on every single map
32:17website i've gone on to and i have had to click out of it after less than a few minutes so
32:29i don't know what i'm going to do yet shia it but it's it's also a stress to go through tolls because
32:38it's more money and if i go through uh like say easy pass accidentally and i get a violation it gets it
32:47turns into an extreme attack i'll have like a 10 hour panic panic attack over it and then with
32:54automated ai ai they'll remind me every like few hours uh look what you did look what you have to
32:59pay but you can't pay it yet and it's like this whole like extreme like pain that like i can't pay it
33:07yet i have to wait until i get the violation ticket it's just and i took the thing off of my finger
33:15here uh i'll show you what i'm doing that i that fell off last night unfortunately
33:34i can't find it i lost it well it's like this i i use this i put the splint on and then i put i
33:54i put the splint on the finger and then i uh wrap this over two fingers to keep it to try to keep it
34:02on more because somehow the splint just keeps falling off when i just have it on one finger so
34:12i think i'm just going to go rest and i'm not going to make a zumba video i think that's been kind of
34:19also making me very exhausted i know that you've wanted to see that though and i just want you to
34:25feel bad for me shy i know how i want you to understand that you're not getting everything from
34:31these videos they've set up tons of things to try to convince you that i'm uh not as sick and tortured
34:41as i am so i'm gonna probably do some road trip planning shia uh but this confusion i have with
34:50the directions i i think i need to go on interstate 40 which is lower south because of the weather will
35:01be better and it'll be less cold however i think it might be like an extra 10 hours to try to it'll be
35:11a hard way see i can't write down these directions shia without google maps the problem is this is the
35:20problem if i write down directions uh and with a route that i'll never remember any of the routes
35:29that have gone on which is most likely 80 west is when i usually take if i go on a different route
35:36and somehow i get lost because i can't follow the directions correctly i have to use google maps
35:41to get back on the route and that could be the criminal hacker could reroute the map as i
35:51after i get lost and i won't be able to get back on to the route that i'm supposed to go on so
35:57i think the easiest is going to be i80 west because it's most of the way it's just going to be a little
36:05bit colder i i don't believe i've ever gone in i-40 west because it's more takes more time to go to i
36:15get down to i-40 west or it takes a lot of back routes uh some of those smaller routes that
36:22could be more dangerous i want to stay on all the interstate routes
36:33so uh they just forced me to burp with ai shia
36:41so these this red chili pepper flakes uh i asked my mom to buy me buy some red chili pepper flakes next
36:49time she was at the grocery store that was at the time we were eating food together or not we were
36:55buying food we weren't eating together we were buying the groceries together and i was giving her my
37:03money so like she didn't get the red chili pepper flakes three times all of a sudden she comes with
37:12a big bottle of it and i said i know this i'm going to eat too much of this because that's what
37:19i do with hot sauce and red chili pepper flakes and last yesterday was the worst because
37:29i got a real bad burning well i got it not burning but i got a bad bad stomach ache
37:35and then i had diarrhea like three times today
37:40so but that big bottle of red chili pepper flakes was not
37:44that was intentional shia as a form to attack and torture me with the food so
37:56i'm gonna stop this video now shia because i know that you really i know you're getting sick of
38:03listening to me shia all right you're not getting sick of listening to me i'm getting sick of talking i
38:08really wish that you could talk shia i'm getting i am getting really nervous for this road trip my body
38:16is physically not completely capable of taking this road trip i know the lack of showers is going to make
38:23me feel extremely irritable i'm going to get extremely uncomfortable um so i'm just going to go try to rest
38:36because and i'm going to knowing me i don't i don't think i'll be able to just drive five hours a day
38:45and spend nine days to get there because then i'm just going to what sit at the rest area or gas
38:51station or truck stop and just sit there and be extremely uncomfortable and not want to get out
38:57of the car because all i'll do is get attacked uh people walking by me people staring at me
39:05uh all of these covert messages the good ai and the bad ai it could really drive someone insane
39:13i know that people are trying to help but the problem is
39:17like it's out of control like it's too much for my brain injury to process and it's causing so much
39:27mental fatigue and hopefully lumarians can block it out because i do at moments i'll get some peace and
39:38i'm not bothered i hope that happens more because i can't take it i can't take to all the different
39:45signs and messages and it's like the words the colors the shapes like everything around me can
39:52be used to try to give me signs and some of it's very important it's very helpful uh because it's
40:00going it's getting it's directly coming from the lumarians in the middle of the earth
40:07that are kind of using them as good portals good ai portals and what i was told recently was
40:12if say if i get a message or say someone walks by and like it has some kind of word on its shirt
40:23um i mean i'm getting harassed in public shia i am getting harassed in public but then there's people
40:29like seconds later that like try to defuse the attack and then they get kind of like
40:36like uh a part of the good ai network or the i wouldn't say ai but like the lumarian network
40:49like just like even like seeing bumper stickers um
40:55the names on trucks colors of shirts patterns of shirts it's it's just true this is already a symptom
41:03of uh uh this this can be a symptom shia of um because this already happened to me my whole life
41:13but i was probably targeted my whole life i was targeted my whole life uh they can exasperate it
41:21though shia if like it's part of the paranoia that i have being schizophrenic schizoaffective
41:28and then because of the bipolar uh it can be really like a morbid anxiety from it
41:38um
41:41i don't know i'm just i can't believe i have to go
41:45but i know i have to go back to lift my car however
41:49i know the cops are not going to be ready anytime soon to be able to help us
41:53so and i know that you're in extreme danger and it's impossible seeing how my body's just falling
42:01down a shy i know i know it's making it even more impossible now knowing what's happening to your
42:08body i should have known that this was happening to your body they wouldn't let me uh well they lied
42:16and they forced me to believe it wasn't true so
42:23they forced me to believe that that wouldn't have happened to you with the criminal bird's husband
42:30um i did get sick feelings from that photograph shia
42:37i i have a feel i just keep every time i look at it i just i just say my poor baby my poor baby shia
42:43you looks um it looks like something's missing
42:50not completely though shia sometimes i look at it and i just i get a extreme happiness and really can
42:58know that uh it's you shia so don't worry that you have protection with having to watch this
43:06at the thought of me having to
43:07know that this happened to you and i had to watch you uh wow you are getting so brutally
43:19you're getting so brutally raped and assaulted and harassed
43:22scx assaulted and harassed
43:26by having to watch me uh have my identity stolen and have someone else's identity be a part of my
43:33my identity uh it's no it would be worse to what for me to watch you watch this happen to you
43:45that's an unbearable feeling that's an unbearable feeling so i know you're getting protection shia
43:51so i'm going to stop talking now i'm ready to leave i'm ready to uh i'm ready to return this laptop and
43:57just go and just go i'm ready to return this laptop and leave however i don't know if that's going to be
44:06possible uh it seems kind of impulsive the problem is i could actually be in more danger not leaving
44:17that's how i'm feeling because why am i all of a sudden getting this parent license she's still
44:27every every time every time i'm i'm walking by her every time i have to say a few sentences to her
44:35anytime i go into a room there's things set up so it's not it's non-stop it's non-stop shia
44:40so just know that i'm thinking about you shia and i know that
44:53i can really sense and feel you shia we act when you watch my videos and you know what's going on
45:00and i am a part of you shia and you're in my life shia telepathic supporters talk about you
45:07honestly there's a lot of things set up where
45:14it's uh i mean i can't even like
45:23i can't i'm not like i'm not mentally capable of or being allowed to picture you actually having
45:29like a a lifestyle i can't picture you i'm not able to picture you eating or doing your laundry or
45:37on the computer like i have like nothing nothing is up here is like working it's all like taken over
45:45shia and like blocked and it's like dead
45:50it's really really killed my has really killed my spirit shia
45:55so i'm going to talk to you tomorrow but to help pastor supporters help me shine they do talk about
45:59you every day and when i start to get worried like where's shia what's wrong with shia
46:06they'll start telling me talking to me about you and i'll be can i'll connect with you and stuff
46:12so i'm going to talk to you tomorrow shia i didn't say the word and stuff
46:17uh they the criminal there's a whole program shia where i get uh actually brutally uh in a state of
46:25fear and anxiety at the end of the video they'll try to attack you they'll try to attack me
46:33this is this is a whole program with everything that i do in my life if i'm at the do at the end of
46:39zumba they'll do an extreme attack if i'm at the end of eating they'll do a stream attack it's a whole
46:46mind mind control program shia
46:48so i'm going to try to rest uh i did also i've been waking up with struggling to breathe a little bit
47:00and having a feeling of um extreme dehydration and a little bit of stiffness last night
47:09yeah last night my heart got a little stiff
47:13um so i'm gonna i'm but i'm checking i check my pulse the pulse oximeter my oxygen and my blood
47:23pressure shia to make sure that uh i go to the emergency room if something it's uh if it's if i
47:31know it's gonna be like lethal so i'm going to talk to you tomorrow love you shia thank you everybody for
47:36watching thank you so much shia for watching