And While We Were Here
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00:02:02It's okay.
00:02:06It's okay.
00:02:20It's okay. It's okay.
00:02:22Let me help you with that.
00:02:50It's okay.
00:02:58This is Napoli.
00:03:00It's a nice place.
00:03:02There are places where you can enjoy it
00:03:04and places where you can enjoy it.
00:03:20I'm looking for the concert.
00:03:22And you drive right by it.
00:03:24There is...
00:03:28Very funny.
00:03:38I think it's gonna be good.
00:03:40Must be.
00:03:50This is called Al Primo Post.
00:03:58Shit.
00:04:00What?
00:04:02I can't find my wallet.
00:04:08No.
00:04:10Somewhere?
00:04:12Maybe it's in my car.
00:04:20What's going on?
00:04:26What do you think?
00:04:28She's lost her purse.
00:04:30No, there's nothing.
00:04:32She didn't catch me.
00:04:34There's nothing.
00:04:36I was sitting here.
00:04:38One moment, one moment.
00:04:40I don't know anything.
00:04:42I don't know anything.
00:04:44Where did you have it last?
00:04:46Um...
00:04:48The train station, I think.
00:04:50The exchange booth.
00:04:52Oh, Jamie.
00:04:54I'm sorry.
00:04:56That bastard at the train station started
00:04:58when you dropped all your stuff.
00:05:00This is 170, not 70.
00:05:02Where do we need to go?
00:05:04We need to go.
00:05:06We need to go.
00:05:08We need to go.
00:05:10We need to go.
00:05:12Where do we need to go?
00:05:14We need...
00:05:15We need...
00:05:16We need 70.
00:05:26Here we go.
00:05:36Is this it?
00:05:38Thanks, man.
00:05:42It's nice.
00:05:44Yes, I have her credit card.
00:05:46Numbers are on file on my computer.
00:05:48Yes, I have them here.
00:05:50Okay.
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00:06:04yes I have them here okay five five three three seven six four five eight seven
00:06:15eight seven nine one five seven five seven yeah
00:06:23expires 12 15 no she'll definitely need another card sent out immediately we're
00:06:29here for two weeks no I'm working yes I'll hold you love how they ask as if I have
00:06:41a choice do you know what I'm gonna try to do while I'm here besides learn Italian
00:06:47I don't know why you think that's so ridiculous don't at all I admire you I just think it's too
00:06:54late for me that's not true you can't teach an old dog new tricks besides what's the point the whole
00:07:03bloody world speaks English I finally transcribed the tapes yes all right okay well if you can see
00:07:19it through to the end I think that's wonderful what does that mean nothing nothing I think it's a
00:07:29fantastic idea Jane I always have you know that you have my support I'm sorry if that came out wrong
00:07:44I just know how emotional listening to them can be has been for you I think enough time has passed well
00:07:54that's great
00:08:14why do you think he killed himself David Foster Wallace
00:08:27you can't get a sense by his writing you have to read it when I'm done though
00:08:37do you think he recognized a blank infinity just stretching out
00:08:47he got to this point maybe where it was just day after day after day
00:08:54I really don't know just so tedious
00:08:57and then of course he felt guilty most people think life is too short and there he was all the
00:09:04talent in the world and it wasn't that Jane can I can we not talk about this just just just a bit morbid
00:09:11love you
00:09:28love you too
00:09:31do you feel all right you feel okay you sure
00:09:57do you feel all right you feel all right you feel all right you're all right you're all right you're all right you're all right you're all right you're all right you're all right you're all right you're all right you're all right you're all right you're all right you're all right you're all right you're all right you're all right you're all right you're all right you're all right you're all right you're all right you're all right you're all right you're all right you're all right you're all right you're all right you're all right you're all right you're all right you're all right you're all right you're all right you're all right you're all right you're all right you're all right you're all right you're all right you're all right you're all right you're all right you're all right you're all right you're all right you're all right you're all right you're all right you're all right you're all right you're all right you're all right
00:10:27I don't know.
00:10:57I don't know.
00:11:27Are you sure you won't come with?
00:11:34You'll be so busy.
00:11:37I get boring all alone.
00:11:39I think someone should be here in case the card is delivered.
00:11:43True.
00:11:48Then I think I might go out, see what the world has to offer.
00:11:51If you do, leave me a message, okay?
00:11:57So I can worry about you.
00:12:00Okay.
00:12:05I've left you some money here.
00:12:10I'll see you later.
00:12:10Have a good day.
00:12:11Have a good day.
00:12:12Testing, testing.
00:12:38Okay.
00:12:40Do you have any stories for my book?
00:12:43What kind of stories?
00:12:45Stories that you've prepared for.
00:12:47I can ask them a list of stories that Dad told me about.
00:12:50Go ahead and ask from your father's list.
00:12:52God rest his soul.
00:12:53Let's start with the war.
00:12:55We went into an air raid shelter.
00:12:57My mother, your great-grandmother,
00:13:00she was shaking.
00:13:01Sirens wailed and...
00:13:03And then there was the sound of a bomb
00:13:05and the man next to us
00:13:07he said,
00:13:08I was in a shelter last night
00:13:10with my wife and my little boy
00:13:11and half of it got blown away.
00:13:15There was blood in his hair.
00:13:17He was all alone.
00:13:19That nearly finished my mother, you know.
00:13:23Here we were in this tiny town in England
00:13:26miles from Germany, from Russia,
00:13:27from Italy, from any front lines
00:13:29and this man
00:13:32he had blood in his hair.
00:13:37He had blood in his hair.
00:13:40Good night.
00:13:41Cappuccino, okay?
00:13:42Good night.
00:13:43It's good.
00:13:46Good night.
00:13:47Good night.
00:13:47Good night.
00:13:58Good night.
00:13:58Good night.
00:13:59We were riding our bikes to school when the Germans started firing at us.
00:14:17We jumped into a hedge.
00:14:20We were terrified, but afterwards we couldn't stop laughing.
00:14:25It feels nice if I'm the only one who remembers that.
00:14:28It's as vivid to me as if it happened yesterday.
00:14:33Oh, hi, Leonard.
00:14:35It's Jane.
00:14:37I decided to take an impromptu trip to Ischia, or, um, Ischia, as they pronounce it.
00:14:44See, I'm learning a little bit.
00:14:45Um, anyway, I'll be home later.
00:14:49I hope you have a good day.
00:14:51Bye.
00:14:52Those friends are all dead now.
00:14:54There's no one left.
00:14:55That's one of my regrets, you know.
00:15:00Sometimes I think I should have had more children, not just your father.
00:15:06You're all alone now that your parents are gone.
00:15:09No brothers, no sisters.
00:15:10I'm upsetting you.
00:15:17Let's talk about something else.
00:15:19You want to ask me more boring questions about the war?
00:15:23All right, then.
00:15:26Uh, scusi.
00:15:27Scusi.
00:15:28Um, the castle?
00:15:31Castle?
00:15:32Parlato inglese?
00:15:33No, no, no.
00:15:34No?
00:15:35No.
00:15:35Um, Castello Aureganese?
00:15:39Ah, andare.
00:15:40Andare?
00:15:41Andare?
00:15:41Ah, grazie.
00:15:43I'm actually going there now.
00:16:07To the castle.
00:16:09You speak English now?
00:16:10Yeah.
00:16:10Why, do you think I was Italian?
00:16:12Yeah.
00:16:12Yes!
00:16:13That's great.
00:16:14That's cool.
00:16:15Hey, hey, hey.
00:16:16Where are you from?
00:16:18London?
00:16:19No, in America.
00:16:20Come on.
00:16:21Maine.
00:16:21No, shit.
00:16:22I'm from Massachusetts.
00:16:23That's crazy.
00:16:24That's weird.
00:16:26Right?
00:16:27Yeah.
00:16:27Vacation?
00:16:28Oh.
00:16:29Are you?
00:16:30What?
00:16:30Are you here on vacation?
00:16:31Oh.
00:16:32Sorry, I thought you were saying you were on vacation.
00:16:38Me?
00:16:38No.
00:16:40So, come on.
00:16:43My husband is working in Naples.
00:16:45What does he do?
00:16:48He is playing in a concert at the end of the month.
00:16:51Cool.
00:16:52What does he play?
00:16:53Viola.
00:16:54Mm, mm, mm.
00:16:55The viola.
00:16:58Any good?
00:17:00Yes.
00:17:01Very.
00:17:02How do you keep your violin from getting stolen?
00:17:09You put it in a viola case, right?
00:17:13That's not funny.
00:17:14Um, what's the difference between a viola and a coffin?
00:17:17A coffin has a dead person on the inside.
00:17:21Because viola players are dead?
00:17:22No?
00:17:23Why is a viola solo like premature ejaculation?
00:17:28Because even though you know it's coming,
00:17:29there's nothing you can do about it.
00:17:34I can't help it.
00:17:35I've got this weird autistic mind for jokes,
00:17:37and I went to this music-slash-nerd summer camp
00:17:39when I was, like, ten,
00:17:40and I played the triangle.
00:17:41Right.
00:17:41And I'm an only child, so, you know, understand.
00:17:47You look too young to be married.
00:17:48You newlywed?
00:17:49No.
00:17:50No.
00:17:52No.
00:18:02That's it.
00:18:02That's it.
00:18:02Stop making me feel like a stalker.
00:18:04Fuck.
00:18:04Oh, hey, have you got 50 cents?
00:18:22If you can catch it.
00:18:26Grazie.
00:18:26Grazie.
00:18:27What brought you out of here today?
00:18:51Very.
00:18:52Ha!
00:18:53Very.
00:18:54I like it.
00:18:55They have this device down in the basement.
00:18:59It's like a torture cage.
00:19:00They lock you in there until you turn to bones.
00:19:04Can you imagine dying by just sitting there?
00:19:06That would suck.
00:19:14In, like, the 1300s,
00:19:16thousands of families lived in this castle.
00:19:18It doesn't smell pretty bad.
00:19:20All those people crammed onto this rock.
00:19:22Wow.
00:19:26Wow.
00:19:27I know.
00:19:28I've been coming here every day, and it still gets me.
00:19:32If only we could kill off all the tourists.
00:19:35You're a tourist.
00:19:38No, I'm not.
00:19:38I came out here a few months ago with this volunteer organization dedicated to studying
00:19:45the relic populations of dolphins and whales in the Gulf of Naples.
00:19:50I can't tell if you're joking.
00:19:52I'm dead fucking serious.
00:19:55No, I just didn't want to go to college, and they paid for me to come over.
00:19:59Four connecting flights, a 72-hour plane ride, but, you know, it was worth it.
00:20:03My first time out of the U.S.
00:20:04How old are you?
00:20:05I'm 19.
00:20:06It's my birthday today.
00:20:08Is it really?
00:20:08Uh-huh.
00:20:09Happy birthday.
00:20:10Thank you very much.
00:20:11Yeah, so I left the program after, like, a month.
00:20:15Fuck the relic dolphins!
00:20:17I'll just say it on the other end, because I have this awesome living situation.
00:20:21I'll tell you the short version.
00:20:22Basically, I used to have ancestors in Ischia, so when I come over, I Facebook this second
00:20:26cousin twice removed.
00:20:27The second cousin twice removed, in case you didn't know, is when one person's great-grandparent
00:20:31is another person's great-great-great-grandparent.
00:20:34I'd love to hear the long version.
00:20:35Sorry.
00:20:36Anyway, so this relative gave me the name of this great-uncle who lives on the island,
00:20:40so I show up.
00:20:43He answers the door, and he's, like, the oldest fucker I've ever seen, easily pushing
00:20:46a hundred.
00:20:47A hundred?
00:20:47Yeah, if not older, he's, like, deaf and blind and about four feet tall, and he mumbles
00:20:53a couple of things to me in some crazy dialect, ushers me inside, pours me a glass of wine,
00:20:58and leads me to this basement apartment, and, uh, yeah, I never left.
00:21:17A hundred sects,ured I never left, for my favorite mouth, I never left.
00:21:24I never left ilei mohafer.
00:21:27A hundred and quatre instability ells,epadling to me in terms of living I've ever seen.
00:21:37I have a reminder about this.
00:21:42Love teaches me to feed on flames and tears, to turn withered hope green through desire,
00:22:05to re-enslave my heart each time love frees his noble face from that heavy disdain.
00:22:12Who is that?
00:22:14Vittoria Colonna.
00:22:17Ah, the woman who lived here.
00:22:20You read that in your guidebook this morning, didn't you, Jane?
00:22:24Sneaky.
00:22:26Yeah, I've decided to learn Italian by committing to memory all the sonnets she wrote to Michelangelo in English and Italian.
00:22:33I thought Michelangelo was gay.
00:22:35Ah, according to history and the muscular thighs of his sculptures, yes.
00:22:40But that didn't stop her from loving him.
00:22:44Let's hear it then.
00:22:46In Italian.
00:22:48Let's hear the poem.
00:22:50Come on.
00:22:52I'm impressed.
00:23:06You hungry?
00:23:07Why, you gonna take me out?
00:23:08Yeah.
00:23:09All right then.
00:23:10Okay.
00:23:11Okay.
00:23:12Two pastas would be high.
00:23:13Two pastas would be high.
00:23:14I'm impressed.
00:23:15I'm impressed.
00:23:17You hungry?
00:23:18Why, you gonna take me out?
00:23:19Yeah.
00:23:20All right then.
00:23:21Okay.
00:23:22Two pastas would be house sauce, please.
00:23:25Red.
00:23:26Red.
00:23:27Red, please.
00:23:28Uh-huh.
00:23:30Grazie.
00:23:31So you're really not gonna tell me what you do?
00:23:43I write freelance articles about parties and fashion trends in town and country UK.
00:24:00There's something else.
00:24:01I'm writing a book about my grandmother's experiences in rural England, living through two world wars.
00:24:17I recorded her for hours and hours.
00:24:20But now, I don't know.
00:24:24What don't you know?
00:24:26You wanna listen?
00:24:29A little?
00:24:30Yeah.
00:24:31Yeah?
00:24:32Yeah.
00:24:33No, I love to listen.
00:24:49All tangled up.
00:24:51Hold on.
00:24:52Okay.
00:24:56Awful as it was, it made you stronger.
00:25:01These days people whine about all sorts of things.
00:25:04I'm not one of those old people who think my time had the only joy and the only problems.
00:25:09We all have our own private wars, every era, but it was nothing like...
00:25:15It really brought people together, the war.
00:25:18We helped each other during that time.
00:25:21We had to laugh.
00:25:22We had to smile.
00:25:23Well, if not for ourselves, then for the people we'd lost.
00:25:27I'll shut that thing off.
00:25:28Would you get it out of my face?
00:25:30That is like...
00:25:31It's like a window in time.
00:25:36It's the sort of thing which you always did before someone died, you know?
00:25:42My husband thinks I'm never gonna finish it.
00:25:45I shouldn't care what anyone thinks.
00:25:48We met while I was recording her.
00:25:50Bonding over Granny, huh?
00:25:53Make it sound perverse.
00:25:55That's what it was, right?
00:25:57Buongiorno.
00:25:58Buongiorno.
00:25:59Buongiorno.
00:26:00Signori.
00:26:09I got pregnant so we got married.
00:26:16I lost the baby.
00:26:21I'm sorry.
00:26:27I didn't go back after that to the States.
00:26:52Did you, uh, did you ever hear that story about the red string?
00:26:59I think I might have.
00:27:00Tell me.
00:27:04It's like this Asian proverb says that anyone you're destined to meet, like, uh, your soulmate or your family or, you know, someone you bump into on the street, we're all connected by this red string.
00:27:23It can be tangled or stretched, but it can never be broken.
00:27:29There's this moment in the tape, I'm sitting waiting in the airport bar for my flight.
00:27:41And I'm talking into the recorder, rambling on about how I'm about to embark on this amazing adventure and how I'm gonna show World War II from a totally different perspective.
00:27:52But?
00:27:53I don't know if it's that interesting.
00:28:05That's the whole point, isn't it?
00:28:08Keeping it interesting for yourself.
00:28:10Maybe.
00:28:12Maybe.
00:28:16Maybe I just wanna write about nothing.
00:28:18Everything is nothing.
00:28:21All the best.
00:28:22The best.
00:28:23Un compleanno.
00:28:24Grazie.
00:28:25Grazie.
00:28:29Make a wish.
00:28:30Oh, yeah.
00:28:32Make it great.
00:28:33I'm good.
00:28:34Bravo.
00:28:35Bravo.
00:28:36Bravo.
00:28:37Hey.
00:28:38What do you mean I'm ready?
00:28:39Ready?
00:28:40What?
00:28:41Grab my hand.
00:28:42Wait.
00:28:43Go.
00:28:44Go.
00:28:45Go.
00:28:46Go.
00:28:47Go.
00:28:48Go.
00:28:49Oh, my gosh.
00:28:50Oh, no.
00:28:51What?
00:28:52What?
00:28:53What do you mean I'm ready?
00:28:54What?
00:28:55Grab my hand.
00:28:56Wait.
00:28:57Go.
00:28:58Go.
00:28:59Go.
00:29:00Oh, my gosh.
00:29:01Oh, no.
00:29:02What?
00:29:03What do you mean?
00:29:09Hey.
00:29:10Hey.
00:29:11It's the carabinerie.
00:29:12Hey, please.
00:29:13Hey.
00:29:14Yeah.
00:29:15Yeah.
00:29:16Yeah.
00:29:17Hey.
00:29:18We can't go back.
00:29:21We can't go back.
00:29:22We can't go back.
00:29:23We can't go back.
00:29:24We can't go back.
00:29:25We have to be awake.
00:29:26Oh, God.
00:29:27Oh, God.
00:29:28Oh, God.
00:29:30It's the carabinerie.
00:29:31Oh, God.
00:29:32Yeah.
00:29:33Oh, God.
00:29:34Yeah.
00:29:35Yeah.
00:29:36Yeah.
00:29:37Yeah.
00:29:38Yeah.
00:29:39Yeah.
00:29:40Yeah.
00:29:41Wait.
00:29:42Would it make you feel better if I said I said the only up?
00:29:45Yes.
00:29:46It's true.
00:29:47Yes, it's true.
00:29:48Yeah.
00:29:49Yes, it's true.
00:29:50I made the check when I went to the bathroom.
00:29:56You're horrible.
00:29:58You're horrible.
00:29:59You're really horrible.
00:30:00Come on, let's go.
00:30:01Come on.
00:30:03Quick.
00:30:04Let's go.
00:30:07Why are we still running?
00:30:08I don't know why we're still running.
00:30:20Oh, my gosh.
00:30:29It went up my nose.
00:30:36Will you come back?
00:30:38Maybe.
00:30:41Okay, maybe is not a no.
00:30:44And since I don't have a phone,
00:30:47you're going to have to give me your number.
00:30:48For cheap thrills and future crimes committed.
00:30:52No.
00:30:56Fair enough.
00:31:05I've got to go catch a fairy.
00:31:13Hey.
00:31:13Why do violists keep their viola cases on their dashboards?
00:31:34Why?
00:31:35So they can park in handicapped spots.
00:31:45Happy birthday.
00:31:51Oh, yes.
00:31:52Oh, my gosh.
00:32:02Oh, no.
00:32:07You love me.
00:32:09Oh, my God.
00:32:10Amen.
00:32:10You love me.
00:32:14Oh, my gosh.
00:32:45You're awake.
00:33:07Yeah, I've got so much of this stuff to get through.
00:33:11Got through it.
00:33:13Nice.
00:33:15There are the great big events, the things you think you'll always remember, and you do,
00:33:25but there are other smaller, picking a blackberry that's been in the sun or brushing the fingertip
00:33:31of someone you didn't know you loved until you touched them.
00:33:33Nellie was this little collie who wouldn't go on a leash, so she had to sit on a bicycle seat.
00:33:42They stay with me, too.
00:33:44Jane.
00:33:56Janey.
00:33:58Got some pastries.
00:34:01You still asleep?
00:34:07Janey.
00:34:09Janey.
00:34:10Janey.
00:34:11Janey.
00:34:12Janey.
00:34:12Janey.
00:34:12Janey.
00:34:13Janey.
00:34:14Janey.
00:34:14Janey.
00:34:15Janey.
00:34:16Janey.
00:34:17Janey.
00:34:18Janey.
00:34:19Janey.
00:34:20Janey.
00:34:20Janey.
00:34:21Janey.
00:34:22Janey.
00:34:23Janey.
00:34:27Janey.
00:34:27Janey.
00:34:28Janey.
00:34:28Janey.
00:34:29my friends had lots of american boyfriends and they used to bring us nylon stockings and chocolates
00:34:41and all sorts of things and we used to go to london and we saw glenn miller one time
00:34:48we used to go all over the place they were wonderful times i never had an american boyfriend
00:34:56i liked some of them they were nice boys but i i didn't i didn't want to leave my mom and dad
00:35:06i wish i had sometimes you know when you were 19 and the world just felt so open
00:35:12and carefree and full of possibility you reminded me of that at that time you were 19 when we met
00:35:23yeah i wouldn't have described this carefree back then not at all well i felt nostalgia
00:35:28or something for youth you're not old hey we ran out on the bill
00:35:35you just ran what do you mean you ran out on the bill perhaps i'm not explaining it well it was
00:35:41it was fun it was just fun
00:35:46how was work
00:35:57the conductor is actually a descendant of water leg which is fascinating
00:36:03the three of us were planning dinner before we leave i'd like that
00:36:07jane
00:36:12oh my god this is caleb
00:36:17hi no no we were just talking about you we were that's so weird that's it please sit down join us
00:36:25what what ah
00:36:29i have a chance at event
00:36:31i know i mean
00:36:35i'm obviously gonna get back pretty soon
00:36:37that's okay i i already ate so i'll just grab a coffee
00:36:40Can I have the check, please?
00:36:53In a cafe, put-put-put?
00:36:58Oh, no, thank you.
00:37:03Jane, you don't smoke.
00:37:07Yes, I do.
00:37:09Sometimes, at parties.
00:37:11You know that?
00:37:13Well, I don't do it a lot.
00:37:17Grazie.
00:37:20Grazie.
00:37:24Italian food's so overrated.
00:37:27I love it.
00:37:28There's no variety.
00:37:30English food, on the other hand.
00:37:32Say what you like about it.
00:37:34There's nothing like a good steak and kidney pie.
00:37:37I went to this party the other day in this villa,
00:37:39owned by this old, drunk ex-pat.
00:37:42They had, like, a private chef and everything.
00:37:45And they were serving this, like, loaf of meat
00:37:48covered in sauce with all these other loaves.
00:37:51And this girl came over to me and said it was cat.
00:37:54No.
00:37:54No joke, like, a roasted mommy cat and her kittens.
00:37:59That is disgusting.
00:38:01True story.
00:38:07Why don't you tell Leonard one of your viola jokes?
00:38:10What is the definition of perfect pitch?
00:38:26what is the definition of perfect pitch what when you throw a viola into the
00:38:38dumpster without hitting the rim you didn't just make that up I did it's too good I did
00:38:44well I'm impressed and I'm stealing it you can pretty much make that joke about any instrument
00:38:50do you play anything Caleb this and that you know
00:38:57shall we what time to go already yeah I'm gonna get that to work
00:39:06so what's next in your agenda Caleb um I'm thinking
00:39:20Tibet oh it's a bet really yeah there's just think on the shopping festival yeah
00:39:26I've heard about that that's where the the Buddhist monks enroll all the tapestries
00:39:30on the hill right the monks the monks the monks so pretty how do you support
00:39:36yourself you know it is a bit of that
00:39:41oh all right then I'll walk you does anybody have a pen you got a pen yeah I have a pen
00:39:50I have a piece of paper you guys should definitely come over to the island I'll take you somewhere fun you know don't knock on the front door come around the side
00:40:12then I need Regina thank you and thanks again for yesterday
00:40:23I'm no problem
00:40:24hey
00:40:26ciao
00:40:29how stoned are you
00:40:38come on then we're just going to pop it's not a big deal
00:40:41so you're saying you smoke back at her
00:40:46occasionally
00:40:47hey can we do something fun tonight
00:40:49sure
00:40:51I'm fine from here
00:40:55okay
00:40:56see you afterward
00:40:58yep I'll be waiting
00:41:19hey
00:41:30god you scared me
00:41:32are you following me
00:41:34maybe
00:41:35is that weird
00:41:36yeah
00:41:38I can't sleep last night
00:41:48I told me you're staying near the port so I got the first ferry this morning
00:41:55I came looking for you
00:41:58and I can't believe I found you
00:42:01yeah
00:42:04go
00:42:06and
00:42:06I can't believe I'm so happy
00:42:08good
00:42:08you
00:42:13go
00:42:13Woo
00:42:14well
00:42:14quer
00:42:15I can't believe I've got you
00:42:17come on
00:42:18I can't believe I'm sure you're heading back now
00:42:19I can't believe I can do something
00:42:21I can't believe I can be
00:42:22I have a過來
00:42:22you
00:42:23because you're crawling
00:42:24there
00:42:26there
00:42:26somewhere
00:42:27hmm
00:42:29you
00:42:29but
00:42:30What are we doing?
00:42:44I think we're making it up.
00:42:48It's so sexy and beautiful.
00:43:00I can't do this.
00:43:24What?
00:43:25Why?
00:43:26I can't do this.
00:43:27Why?
00:43:30Do you do this a lot?
00:43:39What?
00:43:40Do you do this a lot?
00:43:42What?
00:43:43Do you seduce women?
00:43:44Is this what you do?
00:43:46You need to be less serious.
00:43:54Don't follow me.
00:44:00What?
00:44:01What?
00:44:02Why?
00:44:03What?
00:44:11.
00:44:13I don't know.
00:44:43I don't know.
00:45:13I never saw him again.
00:45:19Anyways, I met your grandfather not long after and we got married.
00:45:25Was it love at first sight with grandpa?
00:45:27Love at first sight?
00:45:29Stop that thing.
00:45:30I don't know.
00:45:34You're home early.
00:45:42I do deserve that.
00:45:45Can I just make my husband?
00:45:46I don't know.
00:45:51Jenny, I'm sorry.
00:45:52Just give me a minute.
00:45:54I have a hell of a mess in my bed.
00:45:56I've got so much stuff to do.
00:46:00Sorry, darling.
00:46:02Hey, do you still want to do something fun tonight?
00:46:04Yeah, absolutely.
00:46:05I've got some dinner.
00:46:06I thought we were just staying here.
00:46:07Two of us.
00:46:10I've just got to work this thing out before tomorrow.
00:46:12Okay.
00:46:14I'm sorry.
00:46:14I don't know.
00:46:36You're lost.
00:47:07Leonard, can we talk?
00:47:37Say cheese.
00:47:44No, you should kind of be in the middle.
00:47:50Hold on a second.
00:47:54That's what our living room is missing.
00:48:06That's what our living room is missing.
00:48:23What did you do?
00:48:25Let me hand over my mouth.
00:48:26You did?
00:48:27What did you do?
00:48:28Just waved.
00:48:30Let me hand over some of you.
00:48:31I won't let you in the middle.
00:48:35But we still have to ask you a question.
00:48:39But I'm going to give it to you.
00:48:42We should walk you in the middle.
00:48:44You're giving it to me.
00:48:46We're going to give it to you.
00:48:49When we're going to give it to you.
00:48:51CHOIR SINGS
00:49:21PIANO PLAYS
00:49:51Do you have any fantasies?
00:50:13I won't.
00:50:18What?
00:50:21Is there anything you want?
00:50:27Just as you are, Jane.
00:50:29Just as you are.
00:50:31You're all I need.
00:50:32You're all I need.
00:50:47I'm going to get home.
00:50:50I'm going to get home.
00:50:51I don't know.
00:51:21I don't know.
00:51:51Oh, hi.
00:52:02Did I wake you?
00:52:04No.
00:52:07I think I need to be less serious.
00:52:13Yeah.
00:52:14Will you put my pants on?
00:52:15I don't know.
00:52:45I don't know.
00:53:15I don't know.
00:53:45I don't know.
00:54:15I don't know.
00:54:45I don't know.
00:54:47I don't know.
00:54:55I don't know.
00:54:57I don't know.
00:54:59I don't know.
00:55:01I don't know.
00:55:03I don't know.
00:55:05I don't know.
00:55:07I don't know.
00:55:09I don't know.
00:55:11I don't know.
00:55:13I don't know.
00:55:15I don't know.
00:55:17I don't know.
00:55:19I don't know.
00:55:21I don't know.
00:55:23I don't know.
00:55:25I don't know.
00:55:27I don't know.
00:55:29I don't know.
00:55:31I don't know.
00:55:33I don't know.
00:55:35I don't know.
00:55:37I don't know.
00:55:39I don't know.
00:55:41I don't know.
00:55:47I don't know.
00:55:49Leonard thought you were lying about those cats he said that
00:55:58Were you you're delicious
00:56:00Ah
00:56:18You make me feel nervous
00:56:24You make me feel calm
00:56:30You want a drink?
00:56:50Want a drink?
00:56:52No
00:57:12Is that him?
00:57:13Yeah, he just shuffled around all night
00:57:19Must be lonely
00:57:23He wouldn't have to sleep
00:57:25We're gonna be too much
00:57:27We're gonna go to the water
00:57:29This is just this is just a little bit
00:57:30An empty room
00:57:32I'm gonna swim
00:57:34We're gonna swim
00:57:37I'm gonna swim
00:57:40We're gonna swim
00:57:42We're gonna swim
00:57:43We're gonna swim
00:57:45We're gonna swim
00:57:46We're gonna swim
00:57:48We're gonna swim
00:59:46I didn't sleep at all last night.
00:59:48Where have you been?
00:59:50I was walking.
00:59:52All night.
00:59:54I've been thinking.
00:59:56You left your phone here.
00:59:58I had to plug it in.
01:00:00We need to talk, Leonard.
01:00:02I have to go to work.
01:00:04Can you be late?
01:00:08No.
01:00:09I can't be late.
01:00:10Leonard.
01:00:12Jay, whatever you have to say to me, I want to hear it.
01:00:16I've committed myself.
01:00:18People are depending on me.
01:00:20I have to go to work.
01:00:22Okay.
01:00:24Okay.
01:00:26Okay.
01:00:28Okay.
01:00:30Let's go.
01:00:32Let's go.
01:00:34If it wasn't the war, it would have been something else.
01:01:02There's always something else, isn't there?
01:01:06That's the thing.
01:01:08That's the thing about struggle.
01:01:22I'm going to make some tea.
01:01:24Do you want some?
01:01:26I'm all right.
01:01:32You go out like that again.
01:01:34Just tell me.
01:01:36No worry.
01:01:38Okay.
01:01:40I can't seem to figure out what's going on in your head.
01:01:46Do you think everything we've been through actually does us any good?
01:02:02In the long run?
01:02:04Or do we just make out struggle to be something meaningful because that's all most of us have?
01:02:14And I will tell you next time we come to Italy, to get a proper kitchen.
01:02:34I don't know what you want me to say, Jane.
01:02:41If one little thing had changed in my grandmother's life, I might not be here.
01:03:11Sometimes I worry I'm not honoring her.
01:03:18With the book?
01:03:22No, with my life.
01:03:29This is it, you know.
01:03:32It ends with me.
01:03:38In the harvest time we all went to the field where they were cutting the corn.
01:03:44Everyone was chasing rabbits and then we had our tea in the harvest fields.
01:03:53The horses.
01:04:00The horses back then, they were kept beautifully.
01:04:05Dad used to dress them all up, brass things and little horseshoes.
01:04:11He put braids on them.
01:04:14They used to be gorgeous.
01:04:16What are your plans for tomorrow?
01:04:19There was one.
01:04:21Duke.
01:04:22He was a Clydesdale I used to ride down to the marshes every night when he finished working.
01:04:29They were lovely days really.
01:04:42They're gone.
01:04:43For me.
01:04:44Jane.
01:04:45Jane.
01:04:46You know, it's different for you.
01:04:48In some ways it's easier.
01:04:51You haven't got the war.
01:04:52People don't die as much as they did back then.
01:04:55In some ways it's more disjointed.
01:04:56as much as they did back then in some ways it's more disjointed you've got to
01:05:05make your own life one that you love and you can't be afraid of the time time is
01:05:14shiftable
01:05:17there are moments in my life that i would trade 60 years to have back again that's the truth
01:05:30you know the truth when you find it it'll come to you like something you've known before rather
01:05:37than something you're learning for the first time
01:05:40what is it oh oh you all right oh you okay yeah it's on my toe oh it's bleeding oh it's fine
01:06:03it's fine it's fine it's fine are you finishing that yes oh fuck
01:06:11i met these backpackers last night frank and elsa she's french he's german
01:06:25they're going to tibet and i'm going with them
01:06:30i want you to come with me
01:06:35and
01:07:40How are you?
01:07:44I'm a knackered.
01:07:45Sound day?
01:07:48God, what are they not?
01:07:51I don't think I'm chomping doing an honest thing like this.
01:07:57How's the writing going?
01:08:01I'm feeling inspired.
01:08:02It's fantastic.
01:08:08I think I've figured out the key to finishing the project.
01:08:14Are you listening?
01:08:17You found the key to finishing this project.
01:08:30But the water here tastes so funny.
01:08:32Have you ever cheated on me?
01:08:39Oh, Jane.
01:08:40Have you?
01:08:40Can we not?
01:08:42Have you?
01:08:49Absolutely not.
01:08:50Why did you take such a long time to answer that?
01:08:53Because I'm sick.
01:08:56Of what, Leonard?
01:08:57Of it being so hard?
01:09:00Yes.
01:09:01Tedious?
01:09:01I hate talking about sex with you.
01:09:11Is that what we're talking about?
01:09:12Normal people talk about sex, Leonard.
01:09:15And we don't?
01:09:17There's just huge, vacant lots that we don't discuss.
01:09:23Like what?
01:09:24Is there anything you want to ask me?
01:09:26Why?
01:09:27Is there anything you want to tell me?
01:09:29I just want to connect.
01:09:33So you don't feel that we're connected?
01:09:35Do you?
01:09:38I love you.
01:09:47I get it, Leonard.
01:09:49I get it.
01:09:50It's always been this big, serious, grave thing for us.
01:09:54Sex has consequences.
01:09:55Life and death.
01:09:56Mostly death.
01:09:57Jane, please.
01:09:58Let me guess.
01:09:59You don't want to talk about it?
01:10:00No, that's not what I'm saying.
01:10:02You're just...
01:10:02Do you want to have children, Leonard?
01:10:04Of course I did.
01:10:05Not did.
01:10:06Do you want to have children?
01:10:09So did you.
01:10:11But...
01:10:14Say it.
01:10:16Jane.
01:10:16Say it.
01:10:17I can't have children, Leonard.
01:10:22I never will.
01:10:24And if we keep trying, they keep dying.
01:10:27Again and again and again.
01:10:29Please.
01:10:32How does that make you feel?
01:10:38It's not your father.
01:10:39How does it make you feel, Leonard?
01:10:41How does it make you feel?
01:10:43You will never be a father.
01:10:45We can adopt.
01:10:48That's not what you want, is it?
01:10:52Is that what you want?
01:10:54Hmm?
01:10:56Because I think about it all the time.
01:11:01That the one thing you always wanted,
01:11:03I will never be able to give you.
01:11:04What are you trying to do, Jane?
01:11:17I just want to know that there's a reason for it all.
01:11:19You're not curious about me, Leonard.
01:11:33Not really.
01:11:35What do you want me to know?
01:11:36You shouldn't have to ask.
01:11:38I feel as if you want me to be someone I'm not.
01:11:43Someone that I've never been.
01:11:45I'm leaving you.
01:11:51I've been seeing someone else.
01:11:58See you.
01:12:00Caleb.
01:12:02That kid?
01:12:03Yes.
01:12:04That kid?
01:12:05That child?
01:12:06That kid you've known for two days?
01:12:08It's been longer than that.
01:12:08Please tell me you're joking.
01:12:09Time is shiftable.
01:12:13I don't get it.
01:12:13Leonard.
01:12:15I don't get it.
01:12:16He's asked me to travel with him.
01:12:18Are you sleeping with him?
01:12:22What do you think?
01:12:29I kept waiting for you to see it,
01:12:31to smell it,
01:12:32to sense it!
01:12:33So what?
01:12:34I failed your test?
01:12:36You don't see me!
01:12:39I'm sorry.
01:12:58For what?
01:13:01I'm sorry.
01:13:02For what?
01:13:02I shouldn't have done that.
01:13:03No.
01:13:04Losing my temper.
01:13:05I shouldn't have done that.
01:13:06You had every right to lose your temper!
01:13:07No.
01:13:08If you think that this is what's going to make you feel better,
01:13:11then you should go.
01:13:12You should go with him.
01:13:14You've been through a terrible,
01:13:16a terrible thing, Jane.
01:13:18No.
01:13:18That is not what this is about.
01:13:19Of course it is.
01:13:20You don't love me anymore, Leonard!
01:13:23You don't love me!
01:13:24That's rubbish.
01:13:26This is your ticket.
01:13:29The day after my performance,
01:13:31meet me at the train station.
01:13:33Our training's at 4.30.
01:13:37We'll go home together.
01:13:41I want you to do what you need to do.
01:13:47And then come back to me.
01:13:50No questions asked,
01:13:52no guilt.
01:13:56This is good.
01:13:57This is good.
01:14:51Hi.
01:15:21You want some?
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01:18:00I don't know.
01:18:31You've got to come over to this side.
01:18:33The train's going to be here in a minute.
01:18:35It's four in the morning, the end of December.
01:19:04I'm riding you now just to see if you're there.
01:19:11New York is cold, but I like where I live.
01:19:17There's music on Clinton Street all through the evening.
01:19:24I hear that you're building your house deep in the desert.
01:19:35Are you living for nothing now?
01:19:40Hope you're keeping some kind of record.
01:19:45Yes.
01:19:46And Jane came by with that lock of your hair.
01:19:56She said that you gave it to her.
01:20:02That night when you planned to go clear.
01:20:06I wouldn't want to live to be 100.
01:20:09Why not?
01:20:10I'm not telling you why not.
01:20:16Now shut that thing off.
01:20:17Ah, the last time we saw you, you looked so much older.
01:20:24Your famous blue raincoat was torn at the shoulder.
01:20:30You'd been to the station to meet every train.
01:20:36But she never turned up.
01:20:39I mean, Lily Marlene.
01:20:42So you treated some woman to a flake of your life.
01:20:55And when she got home, she was nobody's wife.
01:21:06Well, I see you there with arrows in your teeth.
01:21:17One more thin gypsy thief.
01:21:23Well, I see Jane's aware.
01:21:28Mm-hmm.
01:21:33She sends her regards.
01:21:38And what can I tell you?
01:21:43Oh, what can I tell you?
01:21:46What can I possibly say?
01:21:52I guess that I miss you.
01:21:55I guess I forgive you.
01:21:58I'm glad that you stood in my way.
01:22:05And if you ever come by here, be it for Jane or for me, I want you to know your enemy is sleeping.
01:22:22I want you to know your woman is free.
01:22:28Yes.
01:22:29And thanks for the trouble you took from her eyes.
01:22:40I thought it was there for good.
01:22:46So I never really tried.
01:22:50And Jane came by with a lock of your hair.
01:23:03She said that you gave it to her.
01:23:06She said that you gave it to her that night when you planned to go clear.
01:23:20Sincerely, a friend.
01:23:50See you next time.
01:23:51That night, you rest going out.
01:23:53Oh.
01:23:55And so I'm sorry.
01:23:56I'm sorry.
01:23:57Is it okay?
01:23:58Oh.
01:23:59Yeah.
01:24:00That night when, you know, it's my nose.
01:24:02No problem.
01:24:03No problem.
01:24:04No problem.
01:24:05No problem.
01:24:06Yeah.
01:24:07No problem.
01:24:08No problem.
01:24:09Okay.
01:24:10I'll never miss you, but I will try again.
01:24:12No problem.
01:24:13Okay.
01:24:14You