Emmerdale 08 10 23 l Emmerdale August 10 2023
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00:00 (dramatic music)
00:27 - Oh God, I've been reckless and foolish.
00:32 I know, I know this isn't your way,
00:35 but you delivered Laurel right to me.
00:38 I had to keep her here.
00:40 You do see that, don't you?
00:42 Laurel is how I get Marshall back,
00:48 how I bring him home to your eternal protection,
00:52 where we can all be together again.
00:56 Please, please forgive me, Lord.
00:59 Please understand.
01:01 No one can get in the way of that.
01:06 No one.
01:09 Is this it?
01:26 I hope this is it.
01:26 - All right, you ready?
01:30 - Yeah, I think I've just got one last goodbye to make.
01:36 - Here, let me.
01:53 I'm trying to help.
01:55 (groaning)
01:58 - Arthur, is he okay?
02:07 - How would I know?
02:09 - Last night, you said.
02:10 - You got me all hot under the collar,
02:13 refusing to help.
02:14 I'm not proud.
02:17 That's not who I am.
02:20 It's not who I am.
02:21 Here.
02:26 It's safe.
02:28 I would never drug a woman, not even you.
02:31 See?
02:50 Careful, careful.
02:51 Slowly does it, slowly does it.
02:53 (coughing)
02:57 - Thank you.
03:00 - Oh, Laurel.
03:10 I like this even less than you do.
03:13 - Then stop, please, stop.
03:15 - I will, I will.
03:17 I want it over.
03:18 And it will be if you just help me.
03:22 For Marshall, for his, for his mother.
03:25 It's just one call, please.
03:29 - I can't do that, I'm sorry.
03:32 - To save his soul!
03:34 (phone ringing)
03:42 - Jay's just landed in Manchester.
03:44 Should be in in a few hours.
03:47 - He's asked if we've heard from Laurel or the police.
03:49 - Well, obviously not, he'd be the first we'd tell.
03:52 I'll call the station, chive him along.
03:54 - Again?
03:55 Nico, they've got her details.
03:57 Their patrols are keeping an eye out,
03:59 and they've alerted the local hospitals.
04:01 - And nothing.
04:02 It's been almost two days and no one's seen or heard from her.
04:05 - I reckon it's time we inform Arthur.
04:10 - No, he's better off out of it.
04:12 - He's gonna collect the doctor himself sooner or later.
04:14 - I won't stress out the kids before we have to.
04:17 I'll try the police again.
04:18 - They've said they'll keep you informed.
04:20 - Over 12 hours ago,
04:21 Laurel didn't board her plane.
04:25 And she hasn't returned anyone's calls.
04:27 She's just disappeared, and we're all sat here being useless,
04:30 just waiting to hear what happened to her.
04:32 And it won't be good.
04:34 - The code, please.
04:37 - What, so you can lure Marshall here?
04:41 - Don't make me force you to open it!
04:45 Is this what God wants for you?
04:48 For me?
04:49 For Marshall, is it?
04:51 Is it?
04:52 - Oh, no.
04:57 Oh, no.
05:00 I got a feeling.
05:05 His presence.
05:09 Since you came, since I...
05:12 (sobs)
05:14 I can't...
05:18 I can't feel him, Laurel.
05:31 Who...
05:33 What have I done?
05:35 - She could knock on that door any moment
05:38 with the craziest of stories to tell.
05:40 - No fairy tales, Jimmy.
05:42 (knocking)
05:44 - Oh, it's Arthur.
05:50 Weren't you at April's?
05:55 - I haven't heard from Mum yet.
05:56 I mean, she's still not replied to any of my messages.
05:59 I need to know if she's got Marshall's passport sent on,
06:01 'cause he's still not got it.
06:02 - Marshall's passport, what?
06:03 - Well, yeah, she was gonna pick it up from Collins
06:05 on her way to the airport, and...
06:07 What?
06:10 I'm definitely calling the police back now.
06:13 - Why are you calling them?
06:14 What's happened to Mum?
06:16 - God hasn't abandoned you, you know?
06:18 But he won't approve of this.
06:22 - How do you think I know that?
06:26 - You can get it back, if you let me go.
06:30 - I'll let you go,
06:32 and all will be miraculously forgiven.
06:34 - Yeah.
06:35 - No.
06:36 No.
06:40 No, no!
06:41 Stop trying to push me from my faith!
06:43 Marshall needs God's love
06:45 to join his mother and me in the kingdom of heaven.
06:49 - He will always have God's love.
06:51 He will always have God's love.
06:53 - Shut up!
06:54 This is how you and your son
06:58 led my child to sin.
07:02 Oh, you sound so reasonable.
07:06 But you, you are dangerous.
07:09 - I didn't tie or lock anybody up.
07:11 - There's no reasoning with you.
07:14 Code.
07:16 - No. - Now.
07:17 - No.
07:18 Ow!
07:21 What are you doing?
07:34 - Texting your husband.
07:38 - Jay, why?
07:40 - To buy us time.
07:41 To finish here.
07:42 - What are you saying?
07:46 - Well, that should keep him away for now, but.
07:49 - What have you said?
07:51 Come on.
07:52 - Well, the truth.
07:53 That you're struggling,
07:54 that you need to take a few days to recover yourself.
07:57 - He's gonna think I've relapsed.
07:59 - You have, with your faith.
08:00 Now, you are gonna call my son.
08:02 - No, I can't do that, Colin.
08:04 - Do it, Marshall, do it!
08:06 - No.
08:06 - Just...
08:07 - No.
08:08 - No.
08:09 - Or I will go to Arthur
08:15 and get his help however I can.
08:18 - No.
08:22 - Then tell Marshall you need him to come home
08:24 to give me a chance.
08:26 Or I will call on Arthur in person
08:30 and make him bring my son to me.
08:32 - Just leave Arthur out of this, please.
08:35 - I will.
08:36 If you will just do this one thing,
08:39 this, this, this, this one,
08:41 and do it right, do it right,
08:43 with no warnings or stupid giveaways,
08:46 there is nothing I will not do to save my son.
08:50 Will you make the call?
08:53 - Okay!
08:54 - The number you have dialed has not been recognised.
09:03 Please check and try again.
09:05 - Oh.
09:07 - What?
09:07 - Oh.
09:08 - He was ringing a couple of days ago.
09:09 Why is it working?
09:11 - I don't know.
09:12 Maybe he's changed his number.
09:14 - To what?
09:15 - I don't know.
09:15 - Stop lying!
09:17 He called you to come and get his passport.
09:19 - No, he called Arthur.
09:20 I haven't got his number, I promise you!
09:23 - Well, then we...
09:25 Well, then we...
09:26 (grunts)
09:29 (breathing heavily)
09:32 - I need to think, I need to think.
09:39 - How did it go last night?
09:46 Was she's wake?
09:47 - Fine.
09:48 - I popped by the pub, but you'd already left.
09:54 - All right.
09:55 - I thought you'd come home,
09:58 change your mind about a night in after all.
10:01 - No.
10:02 - No?
10:04 So where did you go?
10:07 Do you have a better offer?
10:10 - No.
10:11 - All right.
10:13 Just didn't like my offer with me.
10:16 - Not everything's about you.
10:19 Went for a walk, okay?
10:24 - A walk?
10:27 - Around the village.
10:28 - You must have gone around a few times
10:31 'cause I waited up for you.
10:33 Turned the light out about...
10:36 That's what you were waiting for,
10:39 to see our light go off.
10:41 - No.
10:42 - You liar.
10:43 - You wanna go there?
10:45 - I'll go wherever you want, Bob, if we go together.
10:48 But we don't feel together.
10:51 And I think that's how you like it.
10:54 (soft music)
10:56 - You here, Wiggin?
11:03 - I can't avoid it with your nonstop squabbling.
11:06 - We're fine.
11:07 - You're like one of those dementors,
11:10 dragging every last piece of joy
11:12 out of the woman you claim to love.
11:15 - I can't talk to you about this.
11:18 - Don't talk.
11:19 Listen.
11:20 If you don't show that woman some affection fast,
11:22 she's gonna be done with you for good.
11:26 And if taking her back was a mistake,
11:28 well then cut the cord immediately.
11:30 - It wasn't a mistake.
11:32 - Right, well you better tell her that fast.
11:36 'Cause you're about to pass the point of no return.
11:40 - Maybe...
11:45 Maybe this is a sign
11:47 that it's not the way.
11:50 - Shut up.
11:52 - But you know it isn't though.
11:55 - Shut up.
11:56 - Oh no, no, no, no, Colin, not again, not...
12:02 (Colin screams)
12:05 - Shh, don't make a sound.
12:10 Shh.
12:11 (Colin screams)
12:13 (dramatic music)
12:20 - Oh, I'm sorry for the delay, Constable.
12:24 I'm afraid you've rather caught me at a bad time.
12:28 - Mr. Hampston is it?
12:29 - Yes.
12:30 - Anyone else in the house with you?
12:32 - No, no, I've lived on my own for quite a while now.
12:37 Everything all right?
12:38 - Sorry to disturb, sir.
12:40 We're looking for a missing woman.
12:41 Laurel Thomas, do you know her?
12:44 - Laurel...
12:45 (Colin groans)
12:48 Yeah, of course.
12:49 Her son is friends with my boy, Marshall.
12:52 She was only here a couple of days ago,
12:54 collecting his passport.
12:56 She did seem a little on edge.
13:05 Not her usual sunny self, and I might have got this wrong,
13:10 but I feared I smoked a whiff of alcohol on her breath.
13:13 - Is that right?
13:14 - But I only mention it because she's an alcoholic.
13:18 I mean, recovering, but...
13:20 - Family didn't mention that.
13:22 - Oh, I shouldn't have been so indiscreet.
13:25 - No, you did right.
13:27 Now we know the sort of places to look.
13:30 - Okay, well, good luck with it.
13:32 - Mr. Hampston, mind if I come in for a little look around?
13:36 - Look around for what?
13:38 - Just to check she hasn't left anything, like a phone or...
13:41 - No, she hasn't.
13:42 Look, my living situation is not ideal.
13:48 I've had a rough few months, and I...
13:51 (sighs)
13:52 I'd rather let things go to rack and ruin.
13:54 - Not my place to judge.
13:55 I'm only after a quick look around, just to rule things out.
13:57 - Look, I've suffered enough humiliation lately
13:59 without having...
14:00 Without having someone snooping
14:05 through my unhappy situation.
14:09 I'm sorry, I'm sorry.
14:10 - Bye.
14:12 (door closes)
14:15 - I was starting to think you'd changed your mind.
14:23 - Seen the back of you.
14:24 - Never.
14:25 I thought you'd have made it.
14:27 She's just gone to say her final goodbyes to Noah
14:29 without saying her final goodbyes, you know.
14:32 She's no fool, that one.
14:33 She won't say anything, even to the fella that she loves.
14:38 Didn't expect to see you.
14:40 You've come for a final goodbye yourself.
14:44 Do you want to bung some more of that cash at me
14:45 that you can't afford?
14:47 - Who said I can't afford it?
14:49 - Oh, come on.
14:50 You're only just back on your feet.
14:54 Is that why you're here?
14:55 'Cause you need it?
14:56 - No.
14:57 - 'Cause I'd understand if you did.
14:57 - Dan, stop.
14:59 I'm here because I said we were gonna go through the drill.
15:02 - Okay, all right.
15:03 Get the car from the Ford court,
15:04 and then ditch it when I get to the Emerald Isle.
15:06 - You can ditch that and all.
15:07 - What?
15:08 Emerald Isle?
15:09 It makes it sound exotic.
15:10 - You try it on the locals, you see how far you get.
15:12 - Okay, all right, no whimsy.
15:14 Get the banger, then ditch it when I get to Ireland.
15:16 All right?
15:17 And then ring Mystic on Cain's courtesy phone,
15:21 and then go to the new cottage and the new job
15:24 on the new farm, and then start a new life
15:27 with my daughter and my granddaughter,
15:29 thanks to my old boss and my newish mate.
15:32 What's that?
15:36 Some help?
15:37 Is that everything you've done for me?
15:39 - It's for Mystic.
15:40 Do not touch it, or he will string you up,
15:44 and no shiny new life for you.
15:46 - You want me to smuggle?
15:47 I'm not being ungrateful after everything,
15:51 but I can't have a melee being an accomplice to running.
15:55 I mean, what am I supposed to be running?
15:57 - Chas's Yorkshire parking.
16:00 Mystic's mad for it.
16:02 - All right, sorry, I was just getting a bit
16:05 tightly wound, you know?
16:06 - Be a bit weird if you weren't.
16:09 - Thanks.
16:09 Thanks for all of it.
16:11 - You've said.
16:13 - I'll say it again.
16:16 You've really come through for me.
16:18 All right, just a handshake then.
16:24 Just thought it's more dignified and blokey, innit?
16:27 Come here.
16:33 Come here.
16:34 You're gonna miss snarling and growling at me, aren't you?
16:42 - No regrets, yeah?
16:44 - I've got a few.
16:45 But no more bad choices for me.
16:48 Probably go through enough already.
17:01 - Thought you'd be spending every last second
17:02 with your dad ticking off that mad list before him.
17:07 You know?
17:07 - Goes to prison.
17:08 You can say it, you know.
17:11 - I get you're trying to be dead strong,
17:14 but I know how hard this is for you.
17:17 - I'll be all right.
17:18 - No, you won't.
17:20 But that's okay.
17:22 'Cause I'll be here doing whatever needs doing
17:25 for as long as it needs doing.
17:27 Until you're ready to go home without him.
17:30 Come here, you big softy.
17:31 You and Esther will never have to face anything alone.
17:37 Not if I can help it.
17:40 - Where does she think she is?
17:49 Snubbing around.
17:51 I've said to pack it for now, but they'll be back.
17:54 Oh, they'll be back.
17:56 We need to get out of here.
17:57 Now!
17:59 (groaning)
18:01 - Well, yeah, of course we know that,
18:06 but she's never just fallen off the face of the earth before.
18:10 Bye.
18:12 - Well...
18:13 - Colin told the police that she stopped by
18:17 a couple of days ago, wanting his son's passport.
18:20 He smelt alcohol on her breath.
18:23 - What?
18:24 No way, he's lying.
18:26 (knocking)
18:28 - Hey.
18:31 - Oh, mate.
18:32 - I'm sorry, this is all my fault.
18:34 - No, Arthur, it's not.
18:35 What have the police said?
18:37 - Colin lied, she's been drinking.
18:39 - And have they searched his house?
18:40 - They can't without a warrant.
18:42 - He's got her.
18:42 - It's a stretch.
18:44 - No, someone sent me this message from her phone.
18:48 - What, she's relapsed?
18:53 - She wouldn't.
18:54 No, we know she wouldn't.
18:56 But who'd want us to think that?
18:58 And who'd want the police trolling bars
19:00 instead of his house?
19:02 - I'll call them back, let them know.
19:03 - No, please don't.
19:04 They'll only say this is proof that she's okay
19:06 and she's on a bender, so I'm going there myself.
19:09 - Well, I'm coming too.
19:10 - No.
19:11 - She's only there because of me.
19:12 - You can't think like that.
19:14 If she's there, it's only because of Colin.
19:16 - Yeah, but I sent her to him.
19:18 Please let me come.
19:19 - I can't, mate.
19:20 Your mum would kill me if I ever put you in harm's way.
19:23 - I'll go, Arthur.
19:25 You're not going alone.
19:26 Who knows what you're walking into.
19:27 - Come on, then, hurry up.
19:29 - Higher, you wanna go higher?
19:35 You'll end up in the sky.
19:36 And we can't be having that, can we?
19:38 Me and your mum would be lost without our little Esther.
19:41 Okay, what do you reckon next?
19:45 Slide or spin?
19:46 - No, we can't.
19:48 Dad's waiting for us.
19:49 He's gonna take us into Hotton, Nappy Boat Run.
19:52 - Oh, right.
19:53 I'm free to come if you want.
19:54 - No.
19:55 No, it's not that, I don't want you to.
19:58 - No, I get it.
19:59 I'm glad you're spending as much one-on-one time
20:02 with your dad as you can.
20:03 I'm lucky to get this much.
20:05 - Flippin' love you, Noah Dingle.
20:08 And whatever happens between us, please remember that.
20:13 Believe it, 'cause I flippin' love you.
20:15 - Yeah, I believe it.
20:17 - Yeah, well, we've gotta go now.
20:19 - Tea at mine tonight, yeah?
20:21 - Aye, Noah.
20:22 - Hey, Amelia.
20:23 Flippin' love you too, Ovs.
20:26 Prepare you.
20:27 - I know, Ovs.
20:30 - Colin?
20:43 Laurel?
20:45 (waves crashing)
20:48 Laurel?
20:57 Hello?
21:05 Right, you look down here.
21:09 I'm going upstairs.
21:11 (door creaking)
21:13 Laurel?
21:16 Sunny?
21:30 (groaning)
21:39 Move.
21:40 Move.
21:42 Move!
21:43 You'll see.
21:45 You'll see.
21:52 - Thank you.
21:58 Oh, let me help you with that.
22:01 - I've got it.
22:03 - What are you doing with one of Cain's old rust buckets
22:05 anyway?
22:06 Is this for a day trip?
22:07 - Please tell me you've not paid for it.
22:08 - No, I'm just lending it for the day.
22:10 Can I do out for you?
22:11 - No, no, I just came to drop these off.
22:14 Lydia's been knitting up a storm again.
22:16 The matching cardigan had to have taken over the sofa
22:18 and Daddy's not amused.
22:20 He's sat on one too many needles one too many times.
22:23 - Right, good.
22:25 - Yeah, you've seen through my rubbish babble, haven't you?
22:28 Truth is, I nick them.
22:30 I just wanted an excuse to come see you guys,
22:33 see how you're holding up.
22:34 - Well, as you see, you know.
22:36 - Yeah.
22:37 - We're just taking each day as it comes,
22:40 enjoying it for what it is
22:41 and just appreciating what we still have.
22:44 - I mean, what else can you do?
22:46 - Not much.
22:47 Just hope for the best.
22:48 - Well, we're all hoping for the best.
22:50 So just yell me if there's anything I can do.
22:53 - You will, thanks.
22:54 - Yeah, thanks.
22:55 Doesn't sit well, does it, eh?
23:01 Fibbing to her when she's just been decent.
23:02 - She'll understand, Dad.
23:04 They all will.
23:05 - Even Noah?
23:06 - Even Noah.
23:07 Right, come on, driver, start your engine.
23:11 - If you're sure.
23:13 - Dad, that's the last time you get to ask me that.
23:15 - So answer it, then.
23:16 - Well, I'm one billion, gazillion, trillion percent sure.
23:19 - That's not even a number.
23:20 (grunts)
23:25 Sit, sit.
23:32 Sit.
23:33 Sorry, sorry.
23:43 I need to think.
23:50 There has to be a way through this, but I can't see it yet.
23:56 Rachel always helps me see things more clearly.
24:02 (breathes heavily)
24:05 This was our favorite spot in all the world.
24:10 I feel closer to it here than anywhere.
24:14 - It's beautiful.
24:17 - I promised her we'd meet again.
24:20 All three of us, but I've ruined everything.
24:25 I've lost any chance I had of joining her again.
24:31 - Who you waiting for?
24:33 - You a cop, man?
24:33 - Now, shut up, you know I'm not.
24:35 - Bought you a drink already.
24:41 - What?
24:41 - Been eyeing it up enough.
24:43 Fair warning, don't think I'll put out on the first date.
24:46 - What's in there?
24:47 - Told ya, not our business, not our problem.
24:50 We'll just get it from A to B.
24:51 - I won't do drugs.
24:53 - Boy Scout badge for you.
24:54 Say no to drugs, kids.
24:56 - I mean it, Corey, I won't shift them.
24:57 - Say that to Harry, you can say goodbye to them easy.
25:01 - Yes, sir.
25:02 - Oh, sorry, sorry.
25:10 - No, you go first.
25:10 - No, no, after you, my lady.
25:12 - Brilliant, just brilliant.
25:15 - Bob, I wasn't expecting you.
25:17 - Oh, clearly.
25:19 Here's me, thinking we could go out to lunch.
25:20 Here's you, back at it with him all over again.
25:23 - No, no, no, not at all.
25:24 - You don't get to talk, not to me.
25:26 - Stop it.
25:27 - Me stop?
25:29 You're the one who's all cozy and after you.
25:31 Oh no, after you, my lady.
25:33 I know what you two are up to in there.
25:37 It's, you're revolting.
25:40 - This is my work and you have got it all wrong.
25:43 - The only thing that I have got wrong
25:44 is thinking that I could trust you again.
25:46 Aren't I the joke, eh?
25:47 - Hey.
25:52 - Jacob was shadowing, lame work experience.
25:55 We were just coming off some blood results
25:56 when you arrived.
25:59 - It's all very innocent, I swear.
26:01 - Oh, right.
26:04 - I think you should leave, Bob.
26:07 - Okay, but you don't get to be the victim here.
26:10 There's a reason that I don't trust anything you say or do.
26:13 I didn't imagine the affair.
26:14 - This isn't the place.
26:16 - Okay, all right, fair's fair.
26:19 We can talk about it over lunch.
26:21 - I've lost my appetite.
26:23 Just go, Bob.
26:27 - I am sorry, Rob.
26:28 - Bug off, Liam!
26:30 I'll see myself out.
26:31 - Right, okay, but listen.
26:32 It isn't what it seems.
26:34 We really do need to reschedule that appointment.
26:39 - Schedule with you, no tar.
26:40 I don't want anything from you.
26:42 - She all right?
26:48 - Yeah, she's just a bit grumbly.
26:49 Think she prefers it when we're moving.
26:51 - We are.
26:52 Welcome to your new life of adventure and uncertainty.
26:56 Esther?
26:57 - She hopes she's young enough to adapt.
26:59 - What does that make us?
27:01 Stuck in the mud?
27:02 - Makes me old enough to know everything
27:06 and to know better.
27:07 Makes you the most fantastic child
27:11 any parent would wish to have.
27:13 And it's a bribe to your life and your kid
27:16 to stay close to your old fella.
27:19 - You're doing this for us, Dad,
27:20 just as much as we're doing it for you.
27:22 - Yeah, but it feels like I've got the most to gain.
27:26 - I'm grateful for every second I spend with the both of you.
27:29 - Us too.
27:29 Yes, all right.
27:32 Why's it taking so long?
27:34 I mean, there's no one around.
27:36 Can we not just go through?
27:38 - You're breaking all the rules today.
27:39 - Who even are you?
27:40 - A tired mum with a grumbly kid.
27:42 - I don't think we should risk getting caught, love.
27:46 - Yeah, I know.
27:48 Just, I'll get up a few videos.
27:50 It's usually enough to settle her down.
27:55 - Fire?
27:56 You wanna go out on fire?
28:00 You'll end up in the sky.
28:01 And we can't be having that, can we?
28:03 Need some more of my love to be there.
28:05 I don't have a lesser.
28:07 (dog whimpers)
28:10 (dog whimpers)
28:23 - I reckon it's as clear as it's gonna get.
28:26 Back of the van's unlocked.
28:27 Take the bag, put it inside.
28:28 Job done.
28:30 - That's it?
28:31 If it's that easy, why don't you do it?
28:33 (car horn honks)
28:52 (car engine rumbles)
28:55 - Sorry, I'm sorry.
29:03 - I know.
29:04 - Not you.
29:06 Rachel.
29:07 I failed her.
29:09 Failed Marshall.
29:12 Everyone who matters.
29:13 Look who I've become.
29:16 What I've done.
29:20 - There's still time to undo things, you know,
29:23 'cause you're a godly man and you love your wife
29:27 and your son.
29:28 - I do?
29:29 - So how,
29:31 how has it come to this?
29:34 - I've been weak.
29:37 I haven't been this weak since Rachel got the news
29:43 of the cancer.
29:45 Her last months,
29:49 she needed me to be strong for her and Marshall and I.
29:52 I was a wreck.
29:54 - Of course you were.
29:55 - You can't possibly understand.
29:58 - Oh.
29:59 You know, when Ashley was diagnosed with dementia,
30:05 he needed me to be his rock.
30:07 But I had my moments.
30:10 - Moments?
30:11 - Yeah, yeah, long stretches of me not being the wife
30:15 or the mother that I wanted to be.
30:18 And people used to say to me, "Oh, you know,
30:20 "oh, you're so strong."
30:23 You know, it's just total rubbish.
30:25 How could I be when I'm watching my husband diminishing,
30:32 dying in front of me?
30:33 - Did you beg him not to die?
30:35 Yell and scream at him for doing this to you
30:38 as if they had any say in it?
30:39 - Yeah, I yelled.
30:42 I was in denial.
30:44 You know what?
30:46 You know what I did?
30:48 I locked Ashley in his room once,
30:51 alone, for hours.
30:55 And he was scared, he was frightened.
30:59 All because I couldn't cope with what was going on
31:03 with him, with us.
31:05 And it was like a madness in my grief.
31:10 - I never should have teared up till she died.
31:14 - What?
31:16 - I still haven't, couldn't.
31:18 I was utterly useless when she needed me most in life.
31:24 I owed her strength after she died.
31:25 For Marshall.
31:27 I couldn't afford to indulge my...
31:32 - Grief.
31:35 - Selfish needs.
31:37 - No, mourning.
31:37 Mourning is not selfish, Colin.
31:40 It's necessary.
31:42 - Grieving wouldn't have helped Rachel.
31:44 So I got on with what needed to be done.
31:47 Raising Marshall, pushing him to be,
31:50 to be the best version of himself.
31:53 And me, myself.
31:54 - Yeah, but you tried to outrun your grief.
31:56 - No, I conquered it.
31:58 - Really, really?
31:59 How's that working out?
32:00 - I don't know how to fix it.
32:03 - Well, you can start by undoing my binds
32:06 and letting me go, please.
32:08 Please.
32:09 - I promised her we'd be reunited.
32:14 I've destroyed any chance of that.
32:16 Rachel will be all alone for eternity.
32:23 Because of me.
32:26 I've failed you, Rachel.
32:33 I'm so sorry.
32:37 I'm sorry!
32:40 I'm sorry!
32:41 - More lights?
32:57 Wait, are these not the same ones?
33:00 - Must've melted off there, love.
33:02 Sweet dreams.
33:03 - Why are we back here, Dad?
33:05 I mean, you must've took a wrong turn
33:06 'cause we're practically back in the village.
33:08 - Yeah, looks like it.
33:11 - Well, why are we heading in the wrong direction?
33:13 We're gonna have to turn around quick
33:14 if we wanna make this ferry.
33:16 - We're not gonna make our ferry, love.
33:17 - All right.
33:19 We'll get a later one then,
33:22 or we'll go in the morning, but we are going.
33:25 - No, sweetheart.
33:26 - Yes, Dad, turn around.
33:28 - We're going back home to the village.
33:30 - No!
33:31 No, no, you agreed!
33:32 You promised that we'd stay together.
33:35 - I had no right making that promise.
33:37 You'd be cursed.
33:38 - No, it's not!
33:39 - If I go on the run,
33:42 you and Esther will be on the run for the rest of your lives.
33:45 You should be following your dreams,
33:47 following your coward of a dad from town to town,
33:50 always looking over your shoulders,
33:52 never knowing when I'll get nicked.
33:53 - No, but I wanna.
33:54 - What sort of example would I be to you and Esther, eh?
33:57 Running away from your responsibilities?
33:59 That is not the type of bloke I wanna be.
34:02 I've let this go too far.
34:03 We're going home.
34:04 - No.
34:05 No, don't do this, please, Dad, don't do it.
34:08 I swear, if you take us back, I'll never forgive you.
34:11 - I don't need you to.
34:13 We're going home.
34:16 Whip crack away.
34:16 - Do sheep count humans to get to sleep?
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34:38 - Stop fighting it, Colin.
34:51 You need to weep for your wife.
34:56 You need to cry for her.
34:58 - What's the point?
34:59 It won't change anything.
35:03 And it's so self-indulgent.
35:06 - No, it's necessary.
35:08 Colin, it's necessary.
35:11 By the time Ashley died,
35:16 I'd had months to prepare for it.
35:19 I was shouting, screaming, crying.
35:23 I was all grieved out, and then he died.
35:25 And the pain was no less.
35:32 Life afterwards was like,
35:34 you know, it was like walking through wet cement.
35:38 I used to cry myself to sleep.
35:47 It was awful.
35:48 But it was part of the process.
35:51 It's how we heal.
35:52 Colin, you lost your wife years ago,
35:57 and you haven't let yourself heal for her.
36:00 It's been festering.
36:01 - Stop.
36:02 - Yeah, but it's true, isn't it?
36:03 You've bottled up your grief, and it's poisoned you.
36:06 And it's only gonna get worse,
36:08 because look what you've done.
36:09 Look what you've done in your quest to stay strong.
36:12 Well, that's not strength.
36:13 That's denial.
36:16 It's futile.
36:18 - I didn't lose her all at once, you know.
36:22 I lost her in pieces.
36:31 When her post stopped arriving,
36:32 her orchids died.
36:35 When her clothes were gone.
36:39 - When his scent faded away.
36:42 Is this how you wanna go on?
36:47 Because Colin, you have made a series of terrible decisions,
36:53 and it's only gonna get worse unless you weep for her.
36:57 - I only wanted what was best for my wife and son.
37:01 - And she wants what's best for you.
37:04 If Rachel is half as good as Marshall, then--
37:07 - She was peerless.
37:08 She was too kind for this world.
37:12 - Yeah, she wouldn't want you to suffer, would she?
37:15 Would she?
37:16 - Oh, God.
37:17 - It's okay.
37:22 It's okay.
37:25 (Colin sobs)
37:27 - Oh, it's not.
37:28 I'm not.
37:30 - No, you're not.
37:32 You need help.
37:34 For your sake and for Marshall's.
37:37 - I think I'm beyond help now, don't you?
37:44 - Colin, I'm a Christian.
37:48 I don't believe anyone is beyond redemption.
37:53 (Colin sobs)
37:55 - You cheeky sausage.
38:01 - I am not your cheeky sausage.
38:04 - Obviously not.
38:05 You've nicked that bottle from downstairs, haven't you?
38:09 I saw we were one down.
38:10 I thought Kathy must've come home early.
38:12 - I'm no one's cheeky sausage.
38:14 - Not in that state, you're not.
38:16 I'd wager you're all out of cheek.
38:19 Half a bottle of whiskey'll do that to you.
38:21 - Don't treat me like a joke.
38:23 I don't know I'm a punchline.
38:26 - No, why would you say that?
38:28 - 'Cause I can't make the woman I love happy.
38:31 She's had to go elsewhere.
38:32 So I'm a cuckooed.
38:35 Cuckoo.
38:37 - Oh, you mean cuckold.
38:40 - That's him, yeah.
38:41 Useless.
38:44 - No, you're not.
38:47 - Paranoid, heartbroken.
38:50 I'm embarrassed, I'm so, so embarrassed.
38:53 - I've lost her, Bernice.
38:55 - No, you haven't, Bob, not yet.
39:00 Look, Wendy stayed with you for a reason.
39:03 You're the kindest, sweetest, funniest man.
39:07 And you've got nothing to be embarrassed about.
39:10 You've done nothing wrong.
39:12 - I did stay for a reason, Bernice.
39:15 But please don't speak for me.
39:16 - Amelia, Amelia.
39:20 Wait, I have to come back.
39:22 I have to, look, I'm not sorry for turning round.
39:24 I don't care how much you hate me, I had to do it.
39:27 - You back there?
39:35 Saw you pull in.
39:36 We're good.
39:42 - So I'm sentenced?
39:43 How long that's gonna be for?
39:47 When it came to the crooks, I just couldn't do it.
39:49 - I respect your decision, whatever it is.
39:51 It's no easy choice.
39:52 You don't do things lightly, Dan,
39:55 especially when it comes to your kid.
39:58 - Must be deemed.
39:59 You shower me with compliments.
40:01 And again, you don't do compliments showers, do you?
40:06 So I'm having that one.
40:07 She'll thank me for it one day.
40:10 - Probably not.
40:11 - She's a bedside manner, I miss the most.
40:13 - She won't thank you, but you will be able to look her
40:16 in the eye for the rest of your life,
40:17 knowing that you did the right thing by her.
40:20 - Am I in for a telling off?
40:22 - No, but you are in for a reality check.
40:29 I know we have our trust issues, Bob,
40:32 and I know that that's mostly my fault.
40:34 - Mostly?
40:36 - Bernice, you had your moments there.
40:39 - Yeah, but I didn't jump on her on those moments.
40:42 - Bob, coming into my work,
40:45 flinging accusations right in front of my patients,
40:48 other staff, that's not okay.
40:50 How do you think that looks for me?
40:52 - It looks how it looked,
40:53 because the way you and Dr. Deviant made it look.
40:57 - We can't say anything constructive,
40:59 not while you're like this.
41:00 - I'm fine, I'm fine, go on, construct a way.
41:04 Why did you bother coming back?
41:09 Why?
41:17 - Because I love you.
41:19 - Not enough to stay faithful?
41:22 - And did you love all the partners you cheated on?
41:26 - I didn't cheat on you, I couldn't.
41:28 I can't.
41:30 - And you can't bring yourself to sleep with me either.
41:33 How do we get things back on track
41:35 if you don't want to be intimate with me?
41:38 Am I so revolting to you now?
41:40 - You're not revolting.
41:41 You're just cruel.
41:46 You were at it all over the place
41:47 with Dr. Deviantly Desperate only a few weeks ago,
41:51 and now you're blaming me
41:52 for not wanting to get straight back in the sack with you.
41:54 Cruel.
41:55 How can I forget that?
41:58 - Now he's got some pace on him.
42:12 Get back here.
42:12 - No, I'm good.
42:13 - You're really not getting the hang of this whole,
42:15 I tell, you do your job, pretty fire.
42:17 You need me to tattoo it into your skull
42:19 'cause I will if that's what it takes.
42:20 - No need, I'm done, no more jobs.
42:22 - Righty-o.
42:23 You won't be wanting this 300 quid then
42:25 for today's scenic drive.
42:26 - Not if taking it means I have to take more jobs.
42:29 - Mate, take it or don't, it's your call.
42:32 But you will be taking more jobs
42:33 'cause once you sign up with me and Harry,
42:35 you do not fail us.
42:36 - Be a shame if Caleb was to find out
42:37 what you've been up to behind his back.
42:39 - Caleb?
42:39 He's nothing.
42:41 Harry, you're not gonna get away with it.
42:43 Now that's a man you need to stay the right side up.
42:47 Unless you're ready to pay the default tax,
42:50 which can't be paid with money.
42:52 - You stay away from me, can't you?
42:54 - Harsh.
42:55 But if that's what it takes, mate, to keep you happy,
42:59 to keep us happy, I'll stay clear.
43:01 See you soon, superstar.
43:13 - Yeah, they've ran his license plate on the NPR
43:17 and they're questioning neighbours now, so.
43:20 - That's his car.
43:21 He's coming.
43:23 - His car's coming up the road.
43:25 I don't know, Nicola.
43:27 Look, it's only just coming.
43:28 I'll let you know, yeah?
43:30 Is that Laurel?
43:31 Is she there with him?
43:32 - I don't know.
43:33 I can't see.
43:34 - I can't let you go there.
43:35 - My wife could be in that car.
43:36 - Stay back.
43:37 (knocking)
43:39 (sobbing)
43:46 - Oh God, Laurel.
43:59 - Hi.
43:59 - Are you all right?
44:01 Did he hurt you?
44:02 - No.
44:03 I'm safe.
44:06 - Ah, you're safe now.
44:08 I promise you.
44:11 You're safe.
44:12 - We continue to explore one of the most