The Greatest Love Story Never Told (2024)
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00:00:20 I've been married four times now.
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00:00:38 I'm sure people watching from the outside were like,
00:00:41 what is this fucking girl's problem?
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00:00:45 You saw kind of a compulsive behavior.
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00:00:50 What I portrayed to the world was, this didn't work out, and it's fine, and
00:00:55 I'm good, and they're good, and they were great, and I was great.
00:01:00 And all of that was kind of bullshit.
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00:01:08 >> We're rolling ladies, everybody looking this way.
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00:01:11 Okay, camera's speeding.
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00:01:14 >> And camera, action.
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00:01:21 >> Guys, quiet like we are rolling.
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00:01:31 >> Okay, you saw it.
00:01:32 >> No, I liked her.
00:01:33 >> Let's go.
00:01:34 >> Yeah, let's roll.
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00:01:44 >> Running, cut, cut.
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00:01:55 >> Pop superstar Jennifer Lopez has new music on the way.
00:01:58 JLo celebrated the 20th anniversary of her hit album, This Is Me Then,
00:02:02 by announcing a new project called This Is Me Now.
00:02:05 The soon to be released record will chronicle Lopez's life journey across the
00:02:09 last 20 years, with new songs about her childhood, as well as her history of
00:02:12 unsuccessful relationships.
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00:02:18 >> I have decided to tell my story, or tell my truth, and
00:02:22 I've never shared with anybody in the world.
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00:02:27 >> Which is the truth about my personal life.
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00:02:33 >> 20 years ago, I fell in love with the love of my life.
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00:02:39 >> And during that time, I was making an album called This Is Me Then.
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00:02:48 >> I hadn't made an album since then.
00:02:51 18 years later, we got back together, and I was very inspired.
00:02:56 I was talking, and Benny Medina, my long time manager, and
00:03:00 one of my best friends, said it is time for you to make music again.
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00:03:08 >> She started telling me, I haven't made an album in a long time, but
00:03:11 I really finally have something that I wanna write about.
00:03:14 And I don't know if anyone else has a story like that in the world.
00:03:17 [MUSIC]
00:03:20 >> And when you get that from a true artist like her,
00:03:22 it allows you to really be able to channel it.
00:03:24 What do we want that to sound like?
00:03:26 [MUSIC]
00:03:28 >> She spoke very openly to us, and it was really, it was beautiful, man.
00:03:32 That first day was magical.
00:03:34 >> When we got back together, I'm telling my story.
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00:03:39 >> On that first day, I showed everybody this book.
00:03:43 This book is a book that Benny gave me on our first Christmas back together.
00:03:47 It is every letter and every email that we wrote to each other from 20 years ago.
00:03:52 And today, the greatest love story never told by Jennifer Lopez and Ben Affleck,
00:03:57 2001 and 2021 and counting.
00:04:00 It became like our Bible, and we just left it there in the studio.
00:04:04 And people would thumb through it, they're like, can we look at it?
00:04:06 I was like, look at it.
00:04:07 >> It's like when you open the book, it's like a light just come from,
00:04:11 it's like, ah.
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00:04:15 >> She would pick one, and she would let us touch them and read them.
00:04:18 They're real letters with like pen on paper.
00:04:20 And I was like, I'm gonna mess up.
00:04:22 I'm like, move all the liquids away.
00:04:24 >> She showed us the box that Ben had given her, which included all the letters.
00:04:29 First off, who does that?
00:04:30 Like this guy gets boyfriend of the year as far as I'm concerned.
00:04:35 >> I came to the house one day, and there was like,
00:04:38 she had told me that musicians are coming, this great producer, Roche, blah, blah, blah.
00:04:42 And then I went down there, and my book that I had given her was down there.
00:04:46 She was like, I've been reading, and this is the kind of inspiration I've been
00:04:49 showing them the book.
00:04:51 I was like, you've been showing all the musicians all those letters?
00:04:57 And they were like, yeah, we call you Pen Affleck.
00:05:00 And I was like, my God.
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00:05:03 >> I did really find the beauty and the poetry and the irony in the fact that
00:05:08 it's the greatest love story ever told.
00:05:11 And if you're making a record about it,
00:05:15 that seems kind of like telling it.
00:05:20 >> Once the music was done, I felt it was so beautiful and special, and
00:05:24 I wanted to share it with the world in the biggest way.
00:05:27 And I don't wanna just put out the single and put out the music video and
00:05:31 see what happens, no.
00:05:33 I had this idea.
00:05:35 What I've decided to do, we're gonna make a film.
00:05:38 I want to make a movie.
00:05:40 This is really about bringing the album to life in a different way.
00:05:43 Prince did it with Purple Rain.
00:05:45 He just wrote the story of his life, but made just a movie where he played his
00:05:49 songs.
00:05:50 This is me taking my songs and making my own musical.
00:05:53 And so I came up with this idea with Dave Myers,
00:05:57 who I worked with making music videos 20 years ago.
00:06:00 >> What is Dave doing right now?
00:06:02 >> Then when you put a visually genius director on things,
00:06:05 they really bring it to life in a way that is even more than you imagined.
00:06:09 It really allows you to be as creative as you wanna be.
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00:06:15 >> I've tracked her for 20 years.
00:06:17 We worked together 20 years ago, so I've paid attention to her journey.
00:06:21 Hadn't seen her, but had formulated thoughts.
00:06:23 I wonder what she's going through, and then I show up to her house, and
00:06:26 she actually tells me what happened in the last 20 years.
00:06:28 And I'm like, my God, that's our story.
00:06:30 She shared a lot of details, and we did a lot of co-writing together.
00:06:34 It's an abstract biography.
00:06:36 It's taking the emotion of what she's gone through and kind of playing with that,
00:06:39 not necessarily being literal to this relationship or that relationship.
00:06:43 Sort of reverse engineered it.
00:06:44 There was already an album, and then we kind of rearranged the songs to try to
00:06:48 match the narrative that we're telling.
00:06:50 >> It's not anything that's been done before.
00:06:52 It's not quite a long form music video, and it's not quite a movie.
00:06:56 It's somewhere in between.
00:06:58 How we pull that off will be a new thing,
00:07:01 a new version of what you do with an album.
00:07:03 >> I tried to string all the songs that she shared with me into a truth that she
00:07:06 shared with me.
00:07:07 She connected with it, and we just rolled up our sleeves from there.
00:07:10 >> And that leads into the first song, which is Hearts and Flowers.
00:07:13 I don't know if you remember it.
00:07:14 It's a very kind of hard beat.
00:07:15 It's like, oh.
00:07:17 Da, da, da, da, da, da.
00:07:19 And you see everybody working in the factory.
00:07:23 It will be all of these characters who are trying to fix something,
00:07:28 and you don't really know what it is, but it's a mechanical heart.
00:07:32 >> The Heart Factory is the abstract version of it,
00:07:34 what might go on inside when everything starts to fail.
00:07:37 >> Imagine everybody working.
00:07:39 >> There is a factory with workers feeding it rose petals.
00:07:42 It's just part of a storytelling device to set up that love needs an ingredient.
00:07:47 >> That's a start, so.
00:07:48 >> ♪ Boom, soldier ♪
00:07:51 >> ♪ Boom, soldier ♪
00:07:53 >> First day!
00:07:54 >> ♪ Lotus grows up ♪
00:07:55 >> Here we go.
00:07:56 >> ♪ Diamonds from pressure ♪
00:07:59 ♪ Time is pressure ♪
00:08:00 >> And the whole album is kind of like the twin album to "This Is Me Then,"
00:08:04 which I did 20 years ago.
00:08:06 >> I keep their apartment the same.
00:08:08 >> I'll keep all of it.
00:08:09 >> ♪ Put it on my back ♪
00:08:10 ♪ Hold a mill for the mile ♪
00:08:12 >> Opening her eyes in the hospital bed, younger, age 28,
00:08:16 when she was in a mansion but exhausted.
00:08:18 >> I'm going to take a look at your chart.
00:08:21 >> Yeah.
00:08:22 All her friends are, "But you were."
00:08:27 "You were."
00:08:28 "That's why you went out as smart as me."
00:08:30 >> ♪ I'm still ♪
00:08:31 ♪ Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah ♪
00:08:33 ♪ I'm still ♪
00:08:34 ♪ Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah ♪
00:08:35 ♪ I'm still ♪
00:08:36 ♪ Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah ♪
00:08:37 >> I love that you're willing to play younger even in the autobiographical.
00:08:40 >> This is not my autobiographical.
00:08:42 This is meta.
00:08:43 This is me using some of my story.
00:08:46 >> Semi-autobiographical.
00:08:48 It's your story, but younger.
00:08:50 [laughs]
00:08:52 >> You're going to need it.
00:08:54 >> ♪ Hearts and flowers ♪
00:08:56 ♪ It ain't all hearts and flowers ♪
00:08:59 ♪ So many nights and hours ♪
00:09:01 >> But she's still got her beauty, her booty, and her bank account,
00:09:03 so bye, boy, to him.
00:09:05 >> Bobby, this isn't about me and you.
00:09:09 Bobby, take that out.
00:09:10 >> No, this is real.
00:09:11 >> That is not part of the script.
00:09:13 >> ♪ I'm still ♪
00:09:14 ♪ Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah ♪
00:09:15 ♪ I'm still ♪
00:09:16 ♪ Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah ♪
00:09:18 >> I was her agent in the '90s.
00:09:20 We became very close friends very quickly.
00:09:23 >> We hit it off right away.
00:09:24 I mean, she was funny and powerful.
00:09:26 She reminded me of the women that I grew up with.
00:09:28 I just knew that I wanted to work with her.
00:09:30 >> I chased Jennifer to sign her.
00:09:32 I knew how talented she was.
00:09:34 >> We've been together now for 20-something years.
00:09:36 [laughs]
00:09:37 >> We're like family.
00:09:38 >> We're like sisters, right?
00:09:40 >> Exactly like sisters.
00:09:41 >> On this project, I've been asked to just sort of oversee.
00:09:45 If she needs me, I'm there to bounce an idea.
00:09:48 I'm working on script with her when she wants me to.
00:09:51 >> Hey, you know what? This was good stuff you did today.
00:09:54 >> What good?
00:09:55 >> Yeah, this was good stuff.
00:09:56 What--
00:09:57 Don't panic.
00:10:05 >> I'm not, because I know it's there.
00:10:06 You're just being dramatic.
00:10:09 I'm going to go inside.
00:10:10 When you have it, send it to me and send it to Ben so he can read it.
00:10:14 >> Okay, so I don't necessarily--
00:10:17 No worries. I found it.
00:10:20 >> I sometimes think of Benny and I as these two pillars beside her.
00:10:26 So if she wobbles, we go, "No."
00:10:29 But conversely, if we wobble, she goes, "Oh, it's a good trio."
00:10:34 >> What are you trying to do?
00:10:36 >> Take your chips.
00:10:37 >> You're on a diet. Do you want one?
00:10:39 >> No, I don't eat that kind of food.
00:10:41 [laughs]
00:10:43 >> Benny Medina. He's more than just my manager.
00:10:46 If there's one person who believed in me from the beginning,
00:10:51 from the first time I played him a raggedy little demo--
00:10:54 >> And it was just her voice live in her room at that time,
00:10:57 and she completely blew me away,
00:10:59 and I've never lost that feeling for that song or for how she puts it down.
00:11:03 >> So Jen's making this movie based on her album,
00:11:07 starts rehearsing, casting, has a deal basically set to go to finance it.
00:11:11 >> We had a deal on paper.
00:11:13 We had started production.
00:11:14 Then I got a call.
00:11:16 Deal's off. Pulled it.
00:11:18 >> He said that they were blown away by you, you know, the dynamic in the room,
00:11:27 thought there was just too much that was being bitten off,
00:11:30 the quality was going to be potentially compromised.
00:11:33 >> I've never been involved with any major studio,
00:11:37 small independent production company,
00:11:40 anything that has given me a deal on paper here.
00:11:45 We will give you this for this.
00:11:48 A $30 million deal, and then taking it off the table.
00:11:53 >> Every streamer said musical movies don't sell.
00:11:57 Beyonce didn't sell. Rihanna didn't sell.
00:12:00 There was no appetite for a musical film based on an album,
00:12:05 no matter what the story, no matter what the star.
00:12:08 >> When they run their numbers on music projects,
00:12:11 you know, the numbers are not as great, whatever, I get it.
00:12:14 >> We had just had number one at Amazon and the biggest at Netflix,
00:12:19 but not one that had music.
00:12:21 >> Then I was like, oh, shit, who's paying for this?
00:12:25 I guess me.
00:12:31 >> Drop the fucking mic.
00:12:33 You're not paying for your own movie.
00:12:36 >> She decided in a very bullish way to finance this project.
00:12:40 >> Making a movie with your own money
00:12:42 is the most famous cardinal sin in Hollywood.
00:12:46 >> It was about investing in yourself, literally.
00:12:50 [music]
00:12:53 >> Dance has been a huge part of her life,
00:13:16 but my videos with her have been like, okay, roll camera,
00:13:20 all right, dance, Jen, you know.
00:13:22 But now we actually conceived a story together,
00:13:25 so her dance serves the story.
00:13:27 It's a beautiful process of watching it sort of all blossom out
00:13:31 and become its own thing.
00:13:33 [chatter]
00:13:35 >> Shall we start on our favorite subject, the budget?
00:13:42 >> Yeah.
00:13:44 >> Production, casting, locations,
00:13:46 the whole machinery was moving.
00:13:49 >> I'm projecting that we're going to be going
00:13:51 into production over budget, so we're all open to cuts.
00:13:55 >> Budget cuts, you mean?
00:13:57 >> Scene cut, lead to budget cuts.
00:13:59 >> No, that's not an option.
00:14:01 I'm depending on all of you to do what you do
00:14:03 so we can get this done within the budget that I gave you.
00:14:06 >> The message is save as much fucking money as we can.
00:14:09 >> Yes, it sounds like you guys still have work to do in that department.
00:14:12 >> There was no buyer out there to sell it.
00:14:15 We had nothing to show, and we're burning cash every day.
00:14:19 [music]
00:14:22 >> There's one ceremony, three receptions.
00:14:25 >> You don't have to have to read it for a beach, a desert, a this.
00:14:28 It's less about the location, it's more about hitting the theme.
00:14:32 [music]
00:14:39 >> $5,000, $300,000, $470,000.
00:14:42 Next week it'll be something else, like, oh shit,
00:14:45 the conveyor belt turned out to need an extra wrench.
00:14:48 [music]
00:14:52 >> I'm going to tell you right now, do not bother me while we're shooting.
00:14:55 Don't do it. It's going to be a bad idea.
00:14:58 I'm going to have so much to concentrate on.
00:15:01 How muddy is the mud going to be?
00:15:04 However we want it to be, right?
00:15:06 [music]
00:15:10 >> Let me tell you, the price of mud is going to go up.
00:15:13 [music]
00:15:34 >> You think I look fat?
00:15:36 >> Just kidding.
00:15:38 [laughter]
00:15:40 >> Today I'm going to take a break from dancing.
00:15:42 I was going to dance all day today, but I danced all day yesterday,
00:15:45 so I'm going to dance tomorrow.
00:15:47 And really kind of like look at everybody,
00:15:50 and really kind of just like, are we crafting this in the way we need to?
00:15:55 [music]
00:15:59 [music]
00:16:02 >> I like it because it's like everybody's moving in unison, and it's nice,
00:16:14 but then the moves towards the end, if you're going to double it,
00:16:17 it should just feel like it's all like as we lead the heart,
00:16:21 it's just like it's working in perfect harmony.
00:16:24 >> Boom. Can you run that one more time, please?
00:16:27 [music]
00:16:30 >> There. Then we can go into that whole--
00:16:33 [music]
00:16:35 >> I don't know what that is, but it's like--
00:16:37 [music]
00:16:41 >> Anthony Ramos was going to do this, the guy from "In the Heights."
00:16:45 He was going to do the rebound number with me, the glass house.
00:16:50 And he was like, "I'm friends with Mark."
00:16:54 So first of all, I didn't know that you and Mark were like good friends.
00:16:58 I didn't know that. Well, that's nice.
00:17:00 You know, he's the father of my kids, obviously.
00:17:03 I'm never going to do anything that's going to really pinpoint him out,
00:17:10 but it is very meta.
00:17:12 It is about kind of the 20-year journey between that last album and this album,
00:17:17 and a lot of things happened, and there was a lot of relationships that I was in.
00:17:22 That thing that you're playing in it is representative of many relationships,
00:17:28 not one specific relationship.
00:17:31 >> I'm not even playing me in this.
00:17:33 There's a protagonist, this woman, that goes on this journey.
00:17:36 She's like, "Yeah, I just think that people are going to think that you know how the media is."
00:17:40 I said, "But if we only did our art thinking about what the media is going to say--"
00:17:46 >> It wouldn't be art.
00:17:47 >> "--what the fuck are we doing?"
00:17:49 I've known Jennifer since 1999.
00:17:54 In the capacity that I work with Jennifer, it's wardrobe supervisor, wrangler.
00:18:00 >> Which glasses do you like, VZDs or these?
00:18:03 >> The ones I love.
00:18:05 >> She is one of my best friends, my sister, my warrior, my ride or die.
00:18:13 It takes courage to share your truths.
00:18:15 >> Jennifer is finally in a very solid place in her life where she's able to do those things.
00:18:22 >> We sent out all the offers last night to everybody, and we're waiting to hear back from a few people,
00:18:27 like Jane Fonda.
00:18:29 >> Taylor Swift is a no.
00:18:30 >> Jason Momoa is not available.
00:18:32 Jennifer Coolidge, not available.
00:18:34 Lizzo, not available.
00:18:35 >> He's doing "Succession 2" and "The Lion King" and "Star Wars" and "Android 2,"
00:18:39 so he's not necessarily--he's not available, but he loves you.
00:18:43 >> Do you want Vanessa Hudgens, by the way?
00:18:45 I was thinking about that.
00:18:46 >> She's not available.
00:18:47 >> Oh, never mind.
00:18:49 >> It would be good to get Bad Bunny to do a little cameo as the bad kid.
00:18:53 >> Oh, the wrong again?
00:18:55 That would be good.
00:18:56 >> The question becomes if Trevor's there, do we want James Corden too, or is--okay, right.
00:19:01 >> Ariana Grande's unavailable.
00:19:02 She's in London until September.
00:19:04 Snoop's not available, unfortunately.
00:19:06 >> I don't want to force anybody to do this who doesn't go, "This is going to be fun."
00:19:10 >> If anybody wants to say no to me, Benny, I get that, but when an actor doesn't like a script
00:19:15 or doesn't think it's good enough or is worried about it, that's what they'll say.
00:19:19 I know that.
00:19:20 I've done it.
00:19:21 I mean, I know Val was available, but I want you to call Derek.
00:19:24 We need him for, like, one or two days.
00:19:27 >> It's a wedding, babe.
00:19:28 He's in a wedding.
00:19:29 It's a wedding.
00:19:30 He's not going to give up his wedding.
00:19:33 >> Whose wedding?
00:19:34 >> Benny.
00:19:35 It's a wedding he's in.
00:19:37 Unfortunately, it's where it's landing.
00:19:45 >> I want you to call him.
00:19:46 >> Okay.
00:19:50 >> Who's going to be Khloe Kardashian?
00:19:53 >> She making a cameo?
00:19:55 >> No.
00:19:56 >> Oh.
00:19:57 It was supposed to be.
00:19:58 >> Got you.
00:20:01 >> People scared.
00:20:02 >> Yeah.
00:20:03 >> Scared to put themselves out there.
00:20:05 >> I get it.
00:20:06 Took me a long time.
00:20:09 I'm scared.
00:20:12 >> You don't look like it, though, for sure.
00:20:14 >> I don't act like I'm scared, but that's the secret to my whole fucking career.
00:20:22 >> One and two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, and then it's five, six.
00:20:29 >> And then there's the personal story of Ben and I that has never been told.
00:20:34 I don't think he's very comfortable with me doing all of this, but he loves me.
00:20:39 He knows I'm an artist and he's going to support me in every way he can because he knows this is -- he can't stop me from making the music I made and writing the words that I wrote.
00:20:48 He can't -- you know, that's going to happen.
00:20:50 He doesn't want to stop me.
00:20:52 He wants to do that.
00:20:54 But that doesn't mean he's, you know, kind of comfortable being the muse and being --
00:20:59 >> Jen was really inspired by this experience, which is how artists do their work and get inspired, their personal life, it moves you.
00:21:04 I know as a writer, a director, like I certainly do the same things.
00:21:08 But things that are private, I had always felt, are sacred and special because in part they're private.
00:21:15 So this was something of an adjustment for me.
00:21:17 >> We're totally different people now, and we're the same.
00:21:20 And we have the same love.
00:21:22 100% like I'd never fallen out of love with you.
00:21:25 I had just put it over here.
00:21:27 >> It seems like it's like liberating in a sense.
00:21:30 >> It is.
00:21:31 >> He loves every part of you, but it's not dependent on what this album is or what radio, anything.
00:21:37 It's like he just -- you always say he wants to see you in the bun, you know, no makeup on.
00:21:44 >> You're used to seeing me around the house kind of schleppy and kind of, you know, in sweatpants and my striped socks.
00:21:52 >> I'm not pretty.
00:21:54 >> You're gorgeous and that's what I'm used to.
00:21:57 >> And then when I get up and start dancing, you're like, oh, right, I forgot she could dance.
00:22:03 >> What he said and what he saw in me and what he made me believe about myself only comes from love.
00:22:13 Because nobody else could make me see that.
00:22:17 About myself.
00:22:24 It's very moving.
00:22:26 Because I didn't think much of myself.
00:22:30 And so the world didn't think much of me.
00:22:34 That lined up.
00:22:37 This is how it is.
00:22:39 See it.
00:22:41 Believe it.
00:22:43 And I was like, okay.
00:22:53 >> This is regarding James.
00:22:55 She called me and goes, I believe that everyone in the entire world is calling for this relationship and this love.
00:23:02 And the idea of how you present that is so sacrificing, is so important that it should be handled in a way that you aren't overlooking it.
00:23:12 So much so that it creates any form of criticism or resentment.
00:23:18 My biggest concern is that critics or people sort of come at her in any way.
00:23:22 >> I don't expect anybody to get this.
00:23:25 Okay?
00:23:27 I don't.
00:23:29 What she's afraid about is what the album is.
00:23:32 And that's not changing.
00:23:34 That's done.
00:23:39 And I'm not -- I'm an artist and that's the album I wrote.
00:23:44 And I love it.
00:23:46 And I stand by it.
00:23:49 I wasn't sure if I wanted her to reveal all of this.
00:23:52 I wasn't sure it was necessary.
00:23:54 So I was afraid on this project.
00:23:57 And as I see it forming, I'm excited.
00:24:00 And I'm still a little afraid.
00:24:02 >> Right now there's a little bit of trepidation over some of the ambition of the project.
00:24:08 >> I didn't have to do this.
00:24:10 I didn't even have to make the record.
00:24:12 It's not like anybody was clamoring for the next J.Lo record.
00:24:15 You know what I mean?
00:24:17 And I know that there's some people around me that are like, this is stupid, why is she doing this, she doesn't need to do this.
00:24:21 And they're right.
00:24:23 I don't need to do any of it.
00:24:25 I don't.
00:24:27 But I want to.
00:24:29 But I want to.
00:24:38 Have you seen this conveyor belt?
00:24:39 >> No.
00:24:41 >> Lord help us.
00:24:44 Jesus.
00:24:49 When we're on top of them, if somebody stands on it, the conveyor belt stops.
00:24:55 Who's in charge of the stages and the things?
00:24:59 I'm supposed to dance on it.
00:25:01 They're saying when I get on there, it's going to stop.
00:25:03 So it won't move.
00:25:05 But we can't even rehearse with them now because there's no power until next week.
00:25:09 So why are we here?
00:25:11 Hey.
00:25:13 Can Nathan and David come down as well.
00:25:15 >> Hi.
00:25:16 >> So what's going on?
00:25:18 >> So first, right now, when everybody walked in here, that we're hearing that, one, they can't move when she's on top of it, and also that they weren't going to work today.
00:25:28 >> I'm just reacting to this information right now.
00:25:30 I want to go and fix it.
00:25:32 So if I can have like five or ten minutes.
00:25:34 >> Yeah, yeah, yeah.
00:25:35 >> Okay.
00:25:36 Thank you.
00:25:39 >> As we walked in, they said, oh, well, they're not going to turn on.
00:25:41 >> It's really simple.
00:25:42 They didn't get it done.
00:25:43 >> But even if you don't get it done, tell us before we all walk in here.
00:25:46 >> What's up?
00:25:48 >> It's not going to work today.
00:25:49 >> Fantastic.
00:25:50 >> Yeah.
00:25:52 We're going to get it working so that you can rehearse before the day.
00:25:55 Thank you.
00:25:56 Sorry.
00:25:57 >> That's okay.
00:26:01 >> Can we show you some umbrella options for Hummingbird?
00:26:04 >> Not sure.
00:26:06 >> I need to leave?
00:26:07 >> Yep.
00:26:08 They're right here.
00:26:09 >> Is this big enough?
00:26:11 >> That's okay.
00:26:15 >> I like the clear, and I think I like the more rounded it is.
00:26:19 >> It was more solid.
00:26:20 >> This is pulling like the whole entire thing.
00:26:22 So we have to just solve that problem.
00:26:24 >> What would be ideal would be like a dance studio floor that has a little bit of give underneath it.
00:26:30 >> Do you have 12 more seconds to just feel the mud?
00:26:33 Jennifer, do you feel the mud?
00:26:35 >> I've been waiting to show you mud.
00:26:38 >> I know.
00:26:39 They're chasing me to the car with it.
00:26:41 >> Bye, guys.
00:26:42 >> Bye.
00:26:43 >> I would like to be shorter.
00:26:45 Not cute and short like a French maid.
00:26:48 Like a doctor.
00:26:50 I would go red.
00:26:52 I would look at it on the jumpsuits, not on you guys.
00:26:55 Before I really made the final decision.
00:26:58 >> I think this is a good option, but I would like to see one that's more wet.
00:27:03 >> Bye-bye, everybody.
00:27:04 >> Thank you.
00:27:05 >> Good night.
00:27:06 >> Good night.
00:27:07 >> Yeah, I feel like there's a lot to do this weekend.
00:27:10 I feel like if we don't get those scenes right tomorrow.
00:27:13 >> Yeah.
00:27:19 >> I think we should just have the capacity with that dryer mud to add water.
00:27:24 >> Bring those muds, please, one more time.
00:27:27 Just one more quick one.
00:27:28 I just want to see which one you're referencing.
00:27:30 Quick.
00:27:31 [engine starting]
00:27:34 >> Was it this one?
00:27:35 >> This one.
00:27:37 >> She said dry.
00:27:38 >> That's the wet one.
00:27:40 >> She wants this one.
00:27:41 She likes this flavor a little wetter.
00:27:44 >> The chunky one.
00:27:45 >> Not the wet one.
00:27:46 >> The chunky one.
00:27:47 >> You know what?
00:27:48 >> Keep it crumplier and add some water on top of it so you get a little splatter.
00:27:51 >> Exactly, yeah.
00:27:52 >> Not a second wasted today.
00:27:54 Good work.
00:27:55 [music]
00:28:09 >> So last night Ben says to me, why are you so stressed lately?
00:28:12 I said I'm not just financing it, I'm writing it, I'm choreographing it, dancing in it, singing in it, starring in it, producing the record.
00:28:20 I said it's all -- everybody has all these financier questions and budget questions for me.
00:28:29 >> All right.
00:28:30 I'll call you later.
00:28:31 >> I love you.
00:28:32 >> I love you.
00:28:33 >> Bye.
00:28:35 >> You know, I don't like coming into any room and seeing things not working well.
00:28:40 They've just come off of two insanely well-produced, well-organized films.
00:28:45 And she won't look at anything as being any different.
00:28:48 If anything, she'll look at it as even needing to be better than those in terms of the execution of stuff because it's every penny of her money and all of her own time, talent, and story that's going into this thing.
00:29:00 And it's got to flow because otherwise any kind of stop-start stuff, I can see it when it takes her out.
00:29:06 And she's got to be 100% in.
00:29:08 >> Yeah.
00:29:09 She's got a few tough weeks ahead of her.
00:29:12 I don't want to say I'm worried, but I think that our schedule is aggressive.
00:29:20 >> Okay.
00:29:21 So I know this is so stupid or maybe it's not, but going back to the seat backs, we didn't make them just because normally you don't on a music video, not that this is a real music video.
00:29:31 >> Please stop calling or even referencing music videos, guys.
00:29:35 This is not a music video.
00:29:37 It's not going to function like a music video.
00:29:39 It's not going to operate like a music video.
00:29:41 And it's fine that you don't have seat backs.
00:29:45 >> She's so determined to pull this off.
00:29:47 The people that really swing are always in a vulnerable place.
00:29:51 And it's terrifying.
00:29:52 >> Those points in your career where you either choose to bet on yourself or you don't, do I want to assume more of a risk or do I want to assume less of a risk?
00:30:03 And if you really truly believe in yourself and you really truly believe in what you're doing, it's almost always better to bet on yourself.
00:30:11 >> I have to tell the story the way it needs to be told.
00:30:14 It's just something inside of me that just goes, this is all I know how to do.
00:30:19 >> I just want people to believe that love exists.
00:30:22 If I can use my story to do that, then as an artist, that's what I should do.
00:30:27 >> Maybe I'm setting myself up to be fucking -- I'm criticized again.
00:30:36 I don't know.
00:30:38 But that's what my heart's telling me to do.
00:30:40 [ Music ]
00:31:01 >> No, no, like right here.
00:31:03 Yeah, a little higher.
00:31:08 >> There she is.
00:31:14 >> J.Lo was created back then with those first three albums.
00:31:17 This is me then, Jenny from the block and all that.
00:31:21 In a way, she's kind of a larger than life character.
00:31:27 It was really me becoming who I always dreamt of being.
00:31:35 >> Yep, she's coming in the middle.
00:31:38 >> This is me now is about truth and facing the truth of who you really are and embracing that.
00:31:47 And the truth is, I'm not the same as I was 20 years ago.
00:31:53 I was always very much about show business, put your best foot forward, don't let them see when you're suffering, don't let them see when you're hurt.
00:32:02 Don't worry about if somebody did this or did that or if you suffered this or suffered that.
00:32:06 It doesn't matter.
00:32:07 They don't care.
00:32:08 They want you to sing, they want you to dance, they want you to do the movie, they want you to be funny in the interview.
00:32:12 Like, that's what my life was.
00:32:16 But then I realized that I wasn't being kind of authentic to myself.
00:32:21 It was a part of me that I was hiding.
00:32:25 It was a part of me that I was ashamed of and the things that I went through in my personal life because I think that they would have thought that that was weak or damaged or dysfunctional and I didn't ever want to seem that way.
00:32:41 I wanted to seem strong and powerful and able.
00:32:49 I wasn't struggling in my professional life.
00:32:54 Like, I feel like I had control of that and that's why I put a lot into it.
00:32:58 When I went home at night and when I was dealing in my own life with my own demons and my own relationships, it was such a fucking struggle.
00:33:08 Couldn't we both win?
00:33:10 When her and Ben first broke up, it was catastrophic to her constitution and everything that she wanted from what she understood love to be.
00:33:20 For that to not work, for the pressures to break it apart, it just spun her out.
00:33:29 Ben and I, we broke up three days before our wedding.
00:33:33 We had a big wedding planned, 14 ushers and bridesmaids and three days before, we just crumbled under the pressure.
00:33:42 I think we all go along thinking, "I'm doing okay."
00:33:46 I've been through these things and you kind of shake, I don't know if you're like me, you kind of shake it off and just be like, "Put your best foot forward and just do your thing and fucking conquer the world."
00:33:54 It motivates us to do all these different things, but at the end of the day, I had a broken heart once.
00:34:01 A long time ago.
00:34:04 All my friends, they told me that I needed a break and I should spend some time alone.
00:34:16 I didn't.
00:34:21 All those years was really hard because I didn't just feel like I lost love in my life, I felt like I lost the best friend that I ever had.
00:34:34 I couldn't talk to him for so many years.
00:34:38 That was the hardest part.
00:34:41 I used to think that it was everybody else that was broken.
00:34:54 Now I think maybe it was just me.
00:34:58 I loved you so much, that messed me up. Gave what I could, but it wasn't enough.
00:35:10 You drifted away, left me so numb. Tears on my gown, look what you've done.
00:35:24 Broken like me, broken like me.
00:35:31 Covered in scars, now this is me.
00:35:44 So when I first read the script, it looked like the inciting incident that causes all this pain down the road is our breakup.
00:35:52 I thought, wow, nobody did anything wrong, it was mutual.
00:35:56 I think for us to move on from that, we have to kind of forgive it, forgive each other.
00:36:02 Will you forgive me?
00:36:06 Where's that goddamn Jennifer Lopez? She better be here, I'm gonna kill her.
00:36:13 Is she here? I would have sliced that bitch if she weren't here.
00:36:18 Calling me down here to do a cameo, bitch.
00:36:22 Hey, Jennifer.
00:36:24 I'm the star.
00:36:25 Yes, you are.
00:36:26 I'm gonna come down and do a cameo.
00:36:28 I'm Dave, the director, nice to meet you.
00:36:30 Oh, well, hell, you're in so much trouble.
00:36:32 I am.
00:36:33 I hope you're ready.
00:36:35 My agent called me.
00:36:39 Jennifer Lopez is doing a music video.
00:36:42 I said, okay, what does that have to do with me?
00:36:45 I don't do music videos.
00:36:47 I'm Jennifer Luz, got a star on the Hollywood Walk of Fame.
00:36:50 Why would I show up for a music video, even if it is J-Lo?
00:36:54 I'm J-Lo.
00:36:56 In my own search for love, I tried a lot of different things.
00:37:00 I went to card readers and looked to the signs, you know, like,
00:37:05 who's my perfect match?
00:37:07 And it led me down a lot of questionable roads.
00:37:11 When I got this call, yeah, it was a little weird.
00:37:14 You know, the Zodiac come to life.
00:37:17 And the Zodiac is, you know.
00:37:20 Here we go.
00:37:22 People really think the universe gives a shit about them, okay?
00:37:27 [laughing]
00:37:30 I'm playing Gemini, you know, that split bitch.
00:37:33 She's still searching.
00:37:35 I'm not into the Zodiac sign, so I don't know what the fuck they do.
00:37:39 The Zodiacs represent the Greek chorus of your life.
00:37:42 Your family, your friends, co-workers,
00:37:45 the people who are watching you and commenting.
00:37:48 And in my case, the media, fans, sometimes feels like the whole world.
00:37:52 Do you know what you're doing?
00:37:53 Yes.
00:37:54 I think so, for the most part.
00:37:55 For the most part, yes, ma'am.
00:37:57 You have done movies, right?
00:37:59 Yes, ma'am, I'm basically a pretty famous actor.
00:38:01 [laughing]
00:38:03 [music]
00:38:11 Down there is the universe.
00:38:14 [cheering]
00:38:15 And Poe says, "Fucking fairy tales, man, I love happy endings."
00:38:19 And because he's so--it's like the double enchantre of happy endings.
00:38:23 Right. Well, what do you mean by that, actually?
00:38:25 Okay.
00:38:26 Shit, did she call upon you?
00:38:28 No, no, no, happy endings mean happy endings.
00:38:30 Oh, happy endings!
00:38:31 Yes, okay.
00:38:32 [laughing]
00:38:34 What's wrong with you is on the inside.
00:38:36 Well, at least she got her beauty of a booty in that bank account, so bye-bye to him.
00:38:40 Okay, this is you, the lover.
00:38:43 This is Anna over here.
00:38:44 [laughing]
00:38:45 No, wait, wait, wait.
00:38:47 This is Elaine.
00:38:48 [laughing]
00:38:50 Elaine is the quiet one in my universe.
00:38:52 She doesn't talk.
00:38:53 [laughing]
00:38:55 Oh, and this.
00:38:57 I never leave the couch without my love detector.
00:39:02 It has three settings.
00:39:04 One, nightstand, holiday season.
00:39:08 No, no, it's not one.
00:39:10 One nightstand is all I want.
00:39:11 One nightstand.
00:39:12 [speaking Spanish]
00:39:14 Fucking English, I hate it.
00:39:16 [laughing]
00:39:18 Okay, one nightstand.
00:39:20 Like a one-fuck night.
00:39:22 Exactly.
00:39:23 [laughing]
00:39:25 [laughing]
00:39:31 No, that was so funny, I couldn't take my eyes off it.
00:39:34 [laughing]
00:39:38 What are you guys doing here?
00:39:39 It's an intervention.
00:39:41 [door opening]
00:39:44 My bad, sorry.
00:39:46 It's all right, I got a license, don't worry.
00:39:48 [laughing]
00:39:54 She be hurt.
00:39:55 Yes.
00:39:56 That's great.
00:39:58 Yeah.
00:39:59 Here we go.
00:40:01 Hold on, Jen's, Jen's, uh--
00:40:03 [music playing]
00:40:05 How you doing, my brother?
00:40:06 Pleasure to meet you, man.
00:40:07 My brother loves the crap out of you.
00:40:09 You're his favorite Batman ever, and you made Armageddon, dude.
00:40:13 You really did.
00:40:14 I still sing the "Oh, my bad, my bad.
00:40:16 I'm ready to go."
00:40:18 Man, pleasure to meet you guys.
00:40:20 That was really, really funny, man.
00:40:21 I loved it.
00:40:22 Thank you so much.
00:40:23 When are you guys doing another film together?
00:40:24 The last one was Jiggly, right?
00:40:26 Yes.
00:40:27 That's right, exactly.
00:40:28 Yeah.
00:40:29 It was Jiggly.
00:40:30 That's why we haven't done one since.
00:40:31 Okay, for sure.
00:40:32 We're going to do one one day.
00:40:34 [music playing]
00:40:35 Broken like me.
00:40:39 I'm still in love with you, boy.
00:40:45 I'm still in love.
00:40:48 There's an additional shoot date that's come up for the guru.
00:40:52 How much is that going to cost us?
00:40:54 That should be discussed.
00:40:56 A couple hundred.
00:40:57 I think to go $200,000 for a guru is nonsensical.
00:41:01 You guys can confer, but--
00:41:03 Oh, why don't you stay?
00:41:04 Don't worry about that.
00:41:05 Don't even bring that up.
00:41:06 This is haunting me now.
00:41:07 No, I'm--
00:41:08 But it's a $200,000 hit to her.
00:41:11 Yes.
00:41:12 Please, not today.
00:41:14 Okay.
00:41:15 Okay, it'll haunt me.
00:41:16 Yeah.
00:41:17 Don't let her ears hear this right now.
00:41:19 Well, it's only her friends' ears.
00:41:20 He's asking you to be quiet, sweetie.
00:41:22 Take the cue.
00:41:23 Maybe I shouldn't be the quiet friend.
00:41:25 Touche.
00:41:26 People have anxiety when they're working.
00:41:30 Let me get a little Q-tip.
00:41:33 Yeah, well, yeah.
00:41:34 Maybe you want to go talk to him over there and talk about it.
00:41:37 Well, I just want to resolve it.
00:41:39 Okay.
00:41:40 Dave?
00:41:41 Yes.
00:41:42 We don't--
00:41:43 $200,000 extra because we're going to need--
00:41:45 $200,000 extra.
00:41:47 We're going to need the extra money for post.
00:41:49 Yeah, okay.
00:41:50 I've been drilling down on budget,
00:41:52 reminding everyone it's for money,
00:41:54 and drilling down on the necessity of certain things,
00:41:58 sometimes too hard, but, you know,
00:42:00 I'd rather err on the side of her saving a little money
00:42:05 but not sacrificing inequality.
00:42:08 And, you know, and I'm standing on the sidelines
00:42:11 in case she needs a body double.
00:42:13 ♪ I just wanna ♪
00:42:15 ♪ I just feel like, ooh ♪
00:42:18 ♪ Every time I see ya ♪
00:42:20 ♪ I just, ooh, hey ♪
00:42:23 ♪ I feel like starting something ♪
00:42:25 ♪ You got my engine running ♪
00:42:28 ♪ You got the keys to turn me on and on ♪
00:42:32 We're in the wedding reception.
00:42:34 I think the energy in the room is as if
00:42:36 it was a real Jennifer wedding.
00:42:38 I think Jennifer's in full-on bride mode right now.
00:42:40 Having a blast.
00:42:41 ♪ When it feels right ♪
00:42:43 ♪ Nothing else matters ♪
00:42:46 ♪ Is this real life ♪
00:42:48 ♪ Too good to be true ♪
00:42:51 ♪ Take me all night ♪
00:42:53 ♪ I can feel the ♪
00:42:55 I thought I was just going through all the checklists
00:42:57 of a great wedding.
00:42:58 Just swapping out the husbands.
00:43:00 Cutting!
00:43:01 Next cut!
00:43:02 That was it, yeah, next husband.
00:43:04 That was great.
00:43:06 ♪ You know I can't get enough ♪
00:43:07 ♪ Give me all that ♪
00:43:08 The question that came to my mind was,
00:43:10 I'm gonna be what?
00:43:12 I'm a huh?
00:43:13 I'm a what husband?
00:43:14 I'm a who?
00:43:15 But when we start working on it and working through it,
00:43:17 I was like, oh, I see what's going on.
00:43:19 I see what's going on.
00:43:20 Like, you're in on it.
00:43:21 ♪ With you all night ♪
00:43:25 ♪ It's the way you love me ♪
00:43:26 ♪ The way you touch me ♪
00:43:30 ♪ It's the way you look at me ♪
00:43:34 ♪ I can't get enough ♪
00:43:37 ♪ I can't get enough ♪
00:43:39 ♪ Of you ♪
00:43:42 Don't catch it, it's cursed.
00:43:44 [cheers and applause]
00:43:46 One time I was married for 11 months,
00:43:48 another time I was married for a year,
00:43:50 another time I was married for 10 years.
00:43:52 And even looking back on it now
00:43:54 and kind of making fun of it
00:43:56 in this surrealistic musical way,
00:43:59 it's funny and it's heartbreaking.
00:44:02 ♪
00:44:05 What do I say?
00:44:07 "Till death do us part."
00:44:08 And it's like, oh, I just want to--
00:44:10 ooh, I--you know, that whole little intro.
00:44:12 You want me to do it like you just did?
00:44:14 Till death do us part.
00:44:16 Jen and I rationalize that the rain is a sign.
00:44:19 She's like, oh, wow, it's a sign,
00:44:21 it's gonna be a great marriage.
00:44:23 This shoot's been relentless
00:44:25 just on how fast we're moving,
00:44:27 how fast it came together,
00:44:29 how sensitive costs are, you know,
00:44:31 being that we don't really have studio support yet.
00:44:34 [chuckles]
00:44:35 This was absolutely the hardest project
00:44:37 that I've ever had to work on and put together in my career.
00:44:41 This is a really different thing that we're doing
00:44:43 and that's never been done.
00:44:45 How am I gonna sell this to a platform?
00:44:47 What is the platform?
00:44:48 Every single one of them passed on this movie.
00:44:51 One head of a studio says, okay, um,
00:44:54 well, you know what, nobody watches these things.
00:44:57 Another one will say, well, what are we gonna do?
00:45:00 Pay them to promote their own album,
00:45:02 the album that we're stealing from them
00:45:04 and putting on our platform.
00:45:06 [laughs]
00:45:07 ♪ ♪
00:45:09 Do you know what I see?
00:45:11 I see my money going down the drain.
00:45:13 - Remember this one. - Paying for this.
00:45:15 And this, and all, whatever the fuck that is up there,
00:45:18 paying for that too.
00:45:19 Paying for this.
00:45:21 ♪ ♪
00:45:22 ♪ Your love give me such a thrill ♪
00:45:25 ♪ But your love don't pay my bill ♪
00:45:28 That flag in the back was free, I'm sure.
00:45:31 It all comes with the truck.
00:45:33 Another truck.
00:45:35 - This is the camera truck. - Tons of boxes.
00:45:37 We have Primes, Ultra Primes.
00:45:39 Oh, this is your fantasy truck.
00:45:41 This is a Zeiss compact suit.
00:45:43 - There's a Harry suit. - Oh.
00:45:45 This is the older compact congenial suit, right?
00:45:48 ♪ ♪
00:45:50 These are really good.
00:45:51 The '70s, they were light, hand-held.
00:45:53 - I don't care. - I know.
00:45:56 - Hello. - Oh, hello.
00:46:00 How are you?
00:46:02 Welcome.
00:46:04 This is where she's now by herself,
00:46:07 middle of the night, watching TV,
00:46:09 4 o'clock in the morning,
00:46:11 watching an old romantic film for the fourth time in a row.
00:46:14 Is it what you do?
00:46:16 I used to. I used to, Sadiq.
00:46:19 A long time ago.
00:46:21 We can say when you execute love like this,
00:46:24 execute love like the sun executes light.
00:46:27 - It will find you. - It reflect and return to you.
00:46:30 You shall shine like the sun--
00:46:32 [laughs]
00:46:34 [laughter]
00:46:36 All right, guys, so quietly, please.
00:46:38 We're gonna get into this.
00:46:40 - So she looks kind of perfect. - Yeah.
00:46:44 - And she shouldn't. - Okay.
00:46:46 Just the idea of-- that she's been neglected, right?
00:46:50 She's been a little bit roughed up,
00:46:52 and she's bearing the scars,
00:46:54 and that looks like something dirty,
00:46:57 - Yeah. - Needs scraped.
00:46:59 She should feel like a little bit of a mess.
00:47:02 You were gonna be me when you were little,
00:47:04 and then I was a tomboy,
00:47:06 so I was real dirty all the time.
00:47:09 You know what a tomboy is?
00:47:11 - Some-- - Right?
00:47:13 What's wrong?
00:47:15 I just think I didn't get enough love today.
00:47:18 From Mom and Dad?
00:47:20 From you.
00:47:22 You left me all alone.
00:47:24 You didn't take care of me.
00:47:26 I'm sorry. I love you.
00:47:28 No, you love everybody else who's got you.
00:47:31 When I was growing up, I was always looking
00:47:33 for somebody to make me feel loved.
00:47:35 I was a middle child,
00:47:37 not the baby, not the firstborn.
00:47:40 You just kind of get lost a little bit
00:47:43 in between it all.
00:47:45 That just left me on this train
00:47:48 to show everybody that I had worth and value to.
00:47:52 So then I started running track and winning medals
00:47:56 and hoping that somebody would be like, "Look."
00:48:00 People would come over to our house,
00:48:02 "Oh, look at all Jennifer's trophies and medals."
00:48:04 It made me feel good.
00:48:06 Having my two sisters bookend me in that way
00:48:12 forced me into a road where
00:48:15 I learned to work really hard and be very disciplined,
00:48:18 like an athlete.
00:48:20 And so I just stuck with that.
00:48:22 I just stuck with the working hard part
00:48:25 'cause I was the best at that.
00:48:27 I felt very ignored by my dad
00:48:32 because he was always working nights
00:48:34 and then all day he would sleep,
00:48:36 and I didn't feel like I had enough of a connection with him.
00:48:39 My mom was a narcissist, center of attention,
00:48:42 you know, life of the party type person.
00:48:45 I got very used to being around people like that.
00:48:49 The combination of the two of those things
00:48:52 set me on a course to be with those type of people.
00:48:56 What I started to realize was,
00:48:59 I'm comfortable with this, but I don't like this.
00:49:03 I want something different. I want something better.
00:49:11 Jen felt emotionally neglected as a child.
00:49:16 We're kind of learning more and more,
00:49:18 it doesn't have to be like sort of the kind of trauma
00:49:21 where you're locked in a basement for a year to leave wounds on you.
00:49:24 In fact, they're deceptive when they're harder to pin down.
00:49:27 It's a hard thing to look at somebody
00:49:29 whose professional life is wildly successful
00:49:31 and who, you know, on Instagram looks like
00:49:33 they're living the happiest life in the world.
00:49:35 The thing you discover, like you do with alcohol,
00:49:38 is that there isn't enough alcohol.
00:49:40 I mean, all the liquor stores in the world to fill up that thing.
00:49:43 And in Jennifer's case, I don't think there's enough followers
00:49:46 or movies or records or any of that stuff
00:49:49 to still that part of you that still feels a longing and a pain.
00:49:55 Ultimately, that's the work that you've got to do on your own.
00:50:00 (CRYING)
00:50:02 I like taking my hair out like this.
00:50:14 It reminds me, like, when I was 16 in the Bronx,
00:50:17 running up and down the block.
00:50:19 That crazy little girl who used to fucking be wild
00:50:26 and no limits, all dreams and shit.
00:50:30 It meant a lot to me to have a young Latina
00:50:38 come from where we come from and be successful.
00:50:41 The whole first album, I was in almost every session.
00:50:47 All right, now I want you to dance.
00:50:49 We used to be there almost every night
00:50:51 just watching him record all these iconic records.
00:50:54 # Everything is feeling right
00:50:57 # Everything is feeling right, DJ
00:50:59 # Everything is feeling right
00:51:01 We grew up together.
00:51:03 We've been in the game 30 years, been through ups and downs.
00:51:06 # I'm with my handsome or not
00:51:08 # Show you the door
00:51:10 # Jenny, you the bomb
00:51:12 # Any man disrespect, good as gone
00:51:14 # Open up my eyes today
00:51:16 # Look the sun shining on my face
00:51:19 You're looking at a hopeless romance hit,
00:51:21 but if you always thought, all right, maybe this is the guy.
00:51:24 # I feel like there's no limit to what I can see
00:51:29 But people like me and Jenny, we don't break.
00:51:33 We from the Bronx.
00:51:35 We had to overcome so many obstacles.
00:51:38 We temporarily break down,
00:51:40 but they can't break people like us.
00:51:43 [laughter]
00:51:45 How you doing, baby?
00:51:47 You feeling good?
00:51:49 You look amazing.
00:51:51 You know, I look like a psychiatrist, you know.
00:51:54 It's a beautiful day to give my sister some sane advice.
00:51:59 We're from the same place,
00:52:01 that's why I need you to do this specific part,
00:52:03 'cause it's like I would be talking to you
00:52:05 and you would understand me and I would understand you,
00:52:08 you know what I mean?
00:52:10 He comes into the story at the right time
00:52:12 to speak some truth to her, you know,
00:52:14 to shake her out of her nonsense.
00:52:16 What am I doing wrong?
00:52:18 Why is love so damn hard?
00:52:21 You know, some people use these impassioned relationships
00:52:25 to avoid facing a much greater hurt.
00:52:28 You think I'm covering something up
00:52:30 or I'm using love as some kind of pain medicine.
00:52:33 Have you ever considered being alone for a minute?
00:52:38 I used to be terrified to be alone.
00:52:42 I didn't know what I was gonna do by myself.
00:52:44 Who's gonna take care of me? Who's gonna protect me?
00:52:47 This one therapist said to me, "Can you be alone?"
00:52:51 And I was like, "I can do it.
00:52:53 I can be alone. I can be alone.
00:52:56 I'll be alone till Christmas, okay?"
00:52:59 Erasing everybody from your phone
00:53:01 who could possibly be somebody who you even think likes you.
00:53:04 Block everybody, do everything, just be alone.
00:53:08 Jane?
00:53:11 -Hello? -Jane?
00:53:13 -Is this Jennifer? -It is. Hi.
00:53:16 Hi, sweetheart. Oh, thanks for calling.
00:53:19 First of all, I want you to know that, uh...
00:53:22 I-I don't entirely know why,
00:53:24 but I feel invested in you and Ben.
00:53:27 I really, really, really want this to work.
00:53:29 However, this is my concern.
00:53:31 Like, it feels too much like you're trying to prove something
00:53:35 instead of just living it.
00:53:37 You know, every other photograph is the two of you kissing,
00:53:40 the two of you hugging. Um...
00:53:42 That's us living our lives.
00:53:44 -Yeah. -Jane and I have a kind of love relationship
00:53:48 over many years since she did "Monster-in-Law."
00:53:51 You know, it was her first movie back
00:53:53 after leaving the business for many, many years.
00:53:56 And we just-- we really bonded.
00:53:59 [laughs]
00:54:01 I didn't know what to expect,
00:54:03 what it was gonna be like working with her.
00:54:05 Oh, what I do to you. Oh.
00:54:08 When my son proposes to her right next to me,
00:54:11 and I'm saying, "Oh, how wonderful,"
00:54:13 but what I really want to do is, what I do in my fantasy
00:54:16 is I want to take the back of her head
00:54:18 and shove her face into the--
00:54:20 -Please! -Over it, over it.
00:54:22 -You're gonna-- -Hold on, hold on!
00:54:24 I'm laughing, I'm laughing. I can't laugh.
00:54:26 I really looked up to her, obviously, as an amazing actress,
00:54:29 but also for what she stood for in her life.
00:54:32 There was so much about her and all her activism,
00:54:35 and also that she kind of got beat up in the press.
00:54:38 And we kind of are similar when it comes to love.
00:54:41 We became friends on Monster In Law,
00:54:44 a film where I have to hate Jennifer.
00:54:47 It was the hardest acting job I ever had.
00:54:49 It seemed the more we tortured each other on screen,
00:54:52 the closer we became as friends,
00:54:54 and I'm really grateful for her friendship,
00:54:56 her generosity, which is huge,
00:54:58 for showing the world the beauty of booty!
00:55:02 [cheers and applause]
00:55:04 And making it easier for a whole lot of girls to love theirs,
00:55:07 including me. Jennifer, thanks for having me.
00:55:10 We actually started shooting the Zodiacs,
00:55:12 which is what I wanted you to do,
00:55:14 to be kind of like the sage,
00:55:16 kind of like fairy godmother of the Zodiacs.
00:55:19 Listen, Jade, any day you can do it,
00:55:21 any day you can spare two hours,
00:55:23 one for hair and makeup and one to come and do the lines,
00:55:27 it will take that long.
00:55:30 Uh...
00:55:33 She's very protective of me,
00:55:35 and she felt like you're putting yourself out there
00:55:37 to get beat up again.
00:55:40 When Jen and I broke up,
00:55:43 the catalyst for that was this massive amount of scrutiny
00:55:47 around our private life.
00:55:49 [cheers]
00:55:51 We bought a Bentley and drove around town with it.
00:55:54 You know, it's like, yeah, take pictures of us.
00:55:57 It wasn't that.
00:55:58 We were just, like, celebrating our lives and our love.
00:56:02 I had a very firm sense of boundaries
00:56:04 initially around, like, the press.
00:56:06 While Jen, I don't think, objected to it in the way I did,
00:56:09 I very much did object to it.
00:56:11 Getting back together, I said,
00:56:12 "Listen, one of the things I don't want
00:56:15 is a relationship on social media."
00:56:17 Then I sort of realized it's not a fair thing to ask.
00:56:21 It's sort of like, you know,
00:56:23 you're gonna marry a boat captain,
00:56:26 and you go, "Why don't I like the water?"
00:56:28 We're just two people with kind of different approaches
00:56:31 trying to learn to compromise.
00:56:35 [crickets chirping]
00:56:38 So this is 6, 7, 8.
00:56:41 ♪ You don't have to lie ♪
00:56:43 ♪ When you know this is wrong ♪
00:56:45 ♪ Someone on my mind ♪
00:56:47 ♪ Someone on my phone ♪
00:56:48 Everybody always tells you
00:56:49 when a relationship is built on a rebound,
00:56:51 when somebody rebounds out of something,
00:56:53 they're not ready for another relationship.
00:56:55 And no matter how hard they try
00:56:56 or how long they try to stick together,
00:56:58 they're living in a glass house.
00:57:00 It's gonna--it's gonna shatter.
00:57:02 Push, got me on that.
00:57:03 We were back. Rebound. Rebound.
00:57:06 It's always so easy to judge other people and say,
00:57:09 "Oh, you were in that relationship,
00:57:11 and you're so fucking stupid."
00:57:13 You know, don't you see all your friends
00:57:14 always like, "Come on!"
00:57:15 And you're like, "It's not that simple."
00:57:17 You know what I mean?
00:57:19 There's something good about this person.
00:57:21 I'm trying to help this person.
00:57:22 And sometimes it's the broken parts in us
00:57:25 that keep us there.
00:57:26 ♪ We go up and down ♪
00:57:28 ♪ We get lost and found ♪
00:57:30 ♪ We go round and round ♪
00:57:31 ♪ We fall in and out ♪
00:57:33 ♪ Got me on that ♪
00:57:34 ♪ Rebound, rebound, rebound ♪
00:57:36 ♪ Catch me on that ♪
00:57:37 ♪ Rebound, rebound, rebound ♪
00:57:40 ♪ We go up and down ♪
00:57:42 ♪ We get lost and found ♪
00:57:44 ♪ We go round and round ♪
00:57:45 ♪ We fall in and out ♪
00:57:48 ♪ Now ♪
00:57:49 We want to show, is it--
00:57:51 It's like this kind of being shredded and in tatters.
00:57:54 ♪ If the love ain't real ♪
00:57:56 ♪ I can't really stick around ♪
00:57:58 ♪ Guess the game got cool ♪
00:57:59 ♪ Now you want to rebound ♪
00:58:01 ♪ Me on that ♪
00:58:02 ♪ Rebound, rebound, rebound ♪
00:58:04 ♪ Catch me on that ♪
00:58:05 ♪ Rebound, rebound, rebound ♪
00:58:08 ♪ We go up and down ♪
00:58:10 ♪ We get lost and found ♪
00:58:11 ♪ We go round and round ♪
00:58:13 Glamorous. Glamorous life.
00:58:15 ♪ We fall in and out ♪
00:58:18 You know how much I love you.
00:58:21 You're my baby.
00:58:23 I'm always gonna take care of you.
00:58:26 I'll never leave you.
00:58:28 No matter what.
00:58:30 There were people in my life who said I loved you
00:58:36 and then didn't do things that were kind of in line
00:58:40 with the word "love."
00:58:42 [spits]
00:58:43 Perfect?
00:58:44 What?
00:58:45 Perfect?
00:58:46 Stop! That's too rough!
00:58:48 Stop!
00:58:50 How dare you?
00:58:52 [thud]
00:58:54 ♪
00:59:07 I always thought, like, oh, it's this other person
00:59:10 that was doing all these things that were bad and wrong.
00:59:13 But why am I attracting them? Why am I doing that?
00:59:15 Why am I on that vibrational level?
00:59:18 The signs say we're a match.
00:59:21 It's because I haven't got myself together.
00:59:26 Not looking outward, like, what is wrong out here,
00:59:29 but what is wrong in here?
00:59:32 It's almost like digging into the tar inside of you
00:59:36 and kind of pulling it out deep down and going,
00:59:39 "This didn't feel good, and that didn't feel good,
00:59:42 and wow, I didn't realize that made me feel that way,
00:59:45 and actually, I'm not really taking care of myself
00:59:48 in a good way."
00:59:51 What do you love about yourself?
00:59:53 ♪
01:00:00 You have to hit rock bottom
01:00:03 where you're in situations that are so uncomfortable
01:00:07 and so painful that you finally go,
01:00:09 "I don't want this anymore."
01:00:13 A therapist said to me,
01:00:15 "What if this was your daughter? What would you do?"
01:00:18 And it was so clear.
01:00:22 I was like, "Until I get the fuck out of here,
01:00:24 never look back."
01:00:26 But for me, it was so clouded and complicated
01:00:29 with so much of my past
01:00:33 and my own pain and hurt and dysfunction
01:00:36 that I couldn't see clearly.
01:00:38 It was like looking through fog.
01:00:40 In most turbulent relationships,
01:00:42 one of the common things that you hear about is,
01:00:45 like, it's hard to leave.
01:00:47 Even when you know, like, "I don't want to be here,"
01:00:49 you stretch apart, you're still pulled back.
01:00:51 And so it's sort of a metaphoric explanation
01:00:53 for that tug and pull that you have
01:00:56 when a relationship's not quite working.
01:00:58 I'm glad that one's behind us.
01:01:03 The shit that happens in real life, the truth,
01:01:09 to me, that's the most interesting part,
01:01:11 and I think that's also the most difficult part to say.
01:01:13 Some of these things we don't even admit to ourselves,
01:01:15 let alone admit to the entire world.
01:01:18 Being thrown around and manhandled like that,
01:01:21 it's not fun.
01:01:22 I mean, I was never in a relationship
01:01:24 where I got beat up, thank God.
01:01:27 But I've definitely been manhandled
01:01:30 and hit a couple of other unsavory things.
01:01:36 Rough.
01:01:39 Disrespectful.
01:01:42 [sighs]
01:01:44 More than anything, it's really a vulnerable place
01:01:50 for me to be in every day.
01:01:52 That's why I go to work every day, and I'm like,
01:01:54 "What am I doing? Why am I doing this?"
01:01:56 It's a personal journey, babe,
01:01:58 a personal journey that will relate to so many women
01:02:02 who are abused, who take abuse.
01:02:04 You're talking about how we accept less than we deserve.
01:02:10 I mean, I have good intentions with this.
01:02:12 I just don't want it to suck.
01:02:14 You'll be scared.
01:02:15 That it's gonna fucking suck my fucking dick.
01:02:17 You'll be scared of sucking till it doesn't.
01:02:20 'Cause it is sucking till it doesn't.
01:02:22 Well, right now, it's not finished, you know what I mean?
01:02:24 It's still a problem.
01:02:25 Because it is fucking sucking.
01:02:26 No, you gotta discern between things that suck DNA-wise
01:02:29 and things that just don't work right.
01:02:31 Well, DNA, I don't think it sucks.
01:02:33 That's all you need.
01:02:34 But I think right now it just sucks.
01:02:36 No, it doesn't suck.
01:02:37 It sucks.
01:02:39 No, it doesn't suck. That's wrong.
01:02:40 Yes, it does.
01:02:41 That's wrong. That's just inexperience,
01:02:43 that you haven't done this process before.
01:02:45 I'm sorry that I'm not a award-winning director.
01:02:48 I'm sorry.
01:02:49 If I was doing a musical concert,
01:02:52 if I was in a rock show, I would say to you,
01:02:55 "Tell me how this goes.
01:02:56 Are you usually afraid of before-you-first-performs?"
01:02:59 [laughs]
01:03:01 [silence]
01:03:08 [singing]
01:03:28 Wanna try it again with music?
01:03:30 You got it. Here we go.
01:03:32 [singing]
01:03:34 Yep. Let's go.
01:03:36 [singing]
01:03:38 Five, six, seven, eight.
01:03:41 [singing]
01:03:43 [singing]
01:04:03 [sighs]
01:04:04 [music]
01:04:07 Stop.
01:04:09 Five, six, seven, eight.
01:04:11 Press, go.
01:04:13 [sighs]
01:04:14 [music]
01:04:20 Stop.
01:04:22 [music]
01:04:24 [indistinct chatter]
01:04:33 Here we go.
01:04:34 [music]
01:04:37 [door slams]
01:04:40 [door slams]
01:04:42 [sighs]
01:04:44 [music]
01:04:48 [indistinct chatter]
01:04:52 [singing]
01:04:57 [music]
01:05:00 [singing]
01:05:05 [music]
01:05:10 [singing]
01:05:15 [music]
01:05:18 [singing]
01:05:24 [music]
01:05:28 In the rehearsal, you joked that you only had a couple of these in you,
01:05:31 but, like, is there an amount of passes that you want to do?
01:05:35 I don't have an amount in my head.
01:05:37 Okay. Cool.
01:05:38 Roll cameras.
01:05:39 [music]
01:05:43 Yeah.
01:05:44 On your marks, please.
01:05:46 All right, green set. Playback.
01:05:48 [music]
01:05:52 I forget how much older I am than everybody now.
01:05:55 [laughs]
01:05:56 And everybody else is 22.
01:05:58 [laughs]
01:05:59 Yeah.
01:06:00 Just trying to keep up with them.
01:06:02 [music]
01:06:04 Three, two, one, action.
01:06:06 [music]
01:06:13 Dave?
01:06:14 Yo.
01:06:15 What are we doing?
01:06:16 More.
01:06:17 Yeah.
01:06:18 Yeah, yes.
01:06:19 Yeah.
01:06:20 [music]
01:06:31 Are we ready?
01:06:33 Last one.
01:06:35 [cheering]
01:06:36 [music]
01:06:40 And cut.
01:06:41 [music]
01:06:46 She's still pushing the rock uphill,
01:06:49 and I want to say, like, you did it.
01:06:52 You did it.
01:06:53 It's okay.
01:06:54 You've did it.
01:06:55 You proved it.
01:06:56 You're great.
01:06:57 You know, you can, like, let it go for a minute.
01:06:59 Like, you don't have to carry this.
01:07:03 You don't have anything to prove.
01:07:05 [music]
01:07:10 [yawns]
01:07:12 [yawns]
01:07:18 My heart rate and my wind is not the same.
01:07:24 I haven't taken a deep breath all day.
01:07:31 I'm not going to do anything this weekend.
01:07:35 Nothing.
01:07:36 You're good.
01:07:40 I'm not going to rehearse today.
01:07:42 I'm tired.
01:07:44 Those two night shoots were fucking hard.
01:07:48 My husband's away at his premiere,
01:07:55 and I'm really sad that I wasn't there with him this weekend.
01:08:04 He got great reviews.
01:08:06 He's been working on this movie and this company
01:08:13 for a year and a half, and I just feel bad.
01:08:18 And you just wonder, like, is it worth it?
01:08:20 I don't know.
01:08:27 Anyway, I think I just need a break.
01:08:30 I think I'm just tired.
01:08:33 It's a lot.
01:08:38 You feel like you're just letting everybody down all the time.
01:08:42 You're never really just doing anything right.
01:08:54 I'm sure everybody feels that way.
01:08:56 You just always feel like you're just not good enough.
01:09:00 You're not good enough in steps.
01:09:02 You're not good enough in the movie.
01:09:04 You're not good enough as a partner, as a mother,
01:09:09 as all of the things.
01:09:12 And all you want to do is be the best at all those things.
01:09:16 And it's just hard.
01:09:22 You know?
01:09:32 This is as close as I'll ever get to this exercise equipment.
01:09:35 Put your feet in the back.
01:09:38 Wait, hold on to the front.
01:09:40 Hold on to the --
01:09:41 I don't even know where the front is.
01:09:42 My foot back there?
01:09:44 Look, let me show you.
01:09:45 Let me show you.
01:09:46 That's flying.
01:09:47 You put your feet there, and then you let your arms out,
01:09:50 and then you fly like that.
01:09:52 And see?
01:09:53 Okay, let's see if I can do that.
01:09:55 Yeah.
01:09:56 I don't know if this is the smartest thing for me.
01:10:02 I was so happy eating an over-fried egg.
01:10:05 So wait.
01:10:06 I put my --
01:10:07 Now, hold it flat.
01:10:08 Yes.
01:10:09 Now put your ankle in there.
01:10:10 I got it from my foot.
01:10:11 It's too big.
01:10:12 There's nothing I can do about that.
01:10:14 Lean more forward.
01:10:16 Flying, I get flying.
01:10:18 You have to straighten out.
01:10:21 Open your arms.
01:10:22 Yes.
01:10:23 There you go.
01:10:24 You did it.
01:10:25 You did it.
01:10:26 Now let your arms out.
01:10:28 Out where?
01:10:30 Let it fly.
01:10:31 Let it fly.
01:10:32 Let it fly.
01:10:33 Let it fly.
01:10:34 Put it on your chest and go up.
01:10:36 It's going to help you to go up and down.
01:10:39 Okay, I will.
01:10:40 This was so fun.
01:10:41 Thank you.
01:10:43 When it's just me all by myself, what do I like?
01:10:47 Once the kids were in bed and once all of that was happening and, you know,
01:10:51 I was by myself, you know, I started looking forward to coming home to being alone.
01:10:56 I liked it.
01:10:58 I enjoyed my own company.
01:11:00 All of our adult pain, all of our adult trauma, all of our --
01:11:07 the things that we do that we don't like that we fucking do are because of that little girl
01:11:13 or little boy inside of us that's screaming.
01:11:16 That little Jenny is always with me.
01:11:18 And I had to learn how to go back and, you know, say, "Are you okay?"
01:11:25 You know, when we're born, I just feel like we come out so open and ready to love
01:11:33 and ready to kind of like believe in all the best things about life and our parents and people.
01:11:39 And then little by little, we lose that.
01:11:43 I think my biggest fear is that I'll fail at being a parent.
01:11:49 And I don't want to.
01:11:57 And I don't want to.
01:11:59 Here we're entering the heart chamber.
01:12:07 She's stuck in this heart trying to keep it alive.
01:12:10 She's basically left for dead.
01:12:13 The last-ditch effort is to feed the dying flame a rose petal.
01:12:18 Stand by. Picture's gonna be up. Quiet, please. Let's do it.
01:12:21 Here we go.
01:12:24 ♪ I'll stand by to hear you ♪
01:12:28 ♪ Don't let me see you ♪
01:12:32 We return and the rose petals have come back and the flame is roaring to life.
01:12:38 The factory is back working again because she found love.
01:12:41 Flames are gonna come up on this one.
01:12:43 We're gonna be hot.
01:12:46 ♪ I'll stand by to hear you ♪
01:12:50 Well, I don't understand it.
01:12:59 I know, I just-- nobody does.
01:13:01 Real love doesn't need to talk. It just speaks for itself.
01:13:07 That wasn't love. That was safe.
01:13:09 That's a good line.
01:13:13 I wish-- how many times have I done that?
01:13:16 Do you see where I'm going with this? Okay, good.
01:13:19 Now she's gone through three marriages that have fallen apart.
01:13:23 All the husbands on the mantle.
01:13:25 Yeah.
01:13:27 And that's it. Oh, no, no, no.
01:13:30 The very last one is just kind of the celebration when everything goes perfect.
01:13:34 You know, the happy ending.
01:13:36 She loves herself. The last chapter. Jane.
01:13:42 Every night I go and play-- I wrote this song today.
01:13:45 I wrote this song today for you. I wrote this song for you.
01:13:49 I get real scared, you know, when all that shit about the Grammys and he looked on it.
01:13:54 It's like, "Oh, my God, what's happening?"
01:13:56 Nothing. Nothing. He was like, "It's like I've become the symbol of the beleaguered man."
01:14:01 That's right. Yes, let's go.
01:14:04 And then as you get back interested in, "Oh, what's she doing next?"
01:14:08 Who's that guy?
01:14:10 Why can't she just live her life?
01:14:13 She is living her life. Why can't everyone just let her live her life?
01:14:17 You know she's a queen. She's amazing, and I love her.
01:14:20 Pisces, Pisces, you're awful thirsty for a fish.
01:14:24 I don't know what it means. I love it. It's so good.
01:14:28 It's great. Thirsty is-- Thirsty means that you're--
01:14:30 Thirsty is like somebody who's like, you know, when they put, like, pictures of themselves naked on Instagram
01:14:35 and they're always, like, posing, they're thirsty.
01:14:37 Like you.
01:14:42 Yeah, they're calling her a man-eater.
01:14:45 Does they call you a man-eater?
01:14:47 I've been called many things.
01:14:49 Join the club.
01:14:53 It's a small relight for me to make that one.
01:14:55 So we're going to do a separate light cue for this?
01:14:58 It's exciting and scary.
01:15:01 You're right. I'm putting myself out there. You're right.
01:15:04 But, like I said, I don't know how else to do it.
01:15:07 When people look at your life and everything and look at you, it's hard to, like, how could you possibly have anything--
01:15:14 That's why I think it's important to say, not complain about, but to-- that there's struggle there.
01:15:21 Yeah.
01:15:22 Yeah.
01:15:23 I made some stupid mistakes, too.
01:15:26 Maybe you already know that, but I'm admitting it to you.
01:15:30 Yeah.
01:15:31 You know what I mean?
01:15:33 All right, here we go.
01:15:34 Rolling, rolling.
01:15:35 Quiet, please.
01:15:36 Everybody ready?
01:15:37 Roll cameras.
01:15:38 Roll sound.
01:15:39 This better be it, man.
01:15:40 I'm rooting for you.
01:15:43 What's success for you with this?
01:15:47 Just doing it.
01:15:49 Just doing it is success.
01:15:52 I heard Prince say the thing about making music is that it is a success upon making it.
01:15:58 And I've never understood that more than I do now.
01:16:01 And I know it could end disastrously.
01:16:04 I know that.
01:16:05 Why do it?
01:16:07 I think it's beautiful.
01:16:11 I think it's worthy.
01:16:13 I think it's worth the risk.
01:16:15 If it turns out great, then I've fulfilled my mission.
01:16:21 I let people know, like, don't give up.
01:16:25 Do it.
01:16:27 Don't be afraid.
01:16:28 Fuck it.
01:16:29 Do it afraid.
01:16:31 Do it afraid.
01:16:37 They're going to Vegas.
01:16:39 They're getting married.
01:16:40 You know they're going to be divorced in a year.
01:16:43 We're drowning in orchid arrangements, dresses and pastries.
01:16:47 What if it's raining?
01:16:48 Yeah.
01:16:49 Is this what we've been dreaming of?
01:16:52 It's crowded with families and agents, room reservations.
01:16:56 Which destination?
01:16:58 Pabst Helicopters, event of the ages, caught in the Matrix.
01:17:02 Ben Affleck was not on my bingo card.
01:17:05 I don't think he was on anyone's bingo card to come back.
01:17:08 And what?
01:17:09 We can disappear tonight.
01:17:12 What about a midnight trip to Vegas?
01:17:16 Just me and you, baby.
01:17:18 That heartbreak set both of us on a course to figuring ourselves out, to being better people.
01:17:26 Do you think you've forgiven me all the way?
01:17:29 Yeah, I think I've forgiven you all the way.
01:17:33 I think I need to forgive myself some things.
01:17:38 I just want to say thank you guys.
01:17:40 This was a really, really special project.
01:17:42 I know half the time you guys are like, "What the fuck are you guys doing?"
01:17:46 But there is a method to our madness, and it's a really beautiful story to be told about love and loving yourself and what that means for the world.
01:17:53 Everyone who worked on this film and everyone who created the album, they really empowered me because they believed in what I had to say, that there's magic out there.
01:18:06 Those five weeks that we rehearsed with the dancers and created this with all the choreographers was such a cathartic experience for me.
01:18:14 I know it wasn't easy, and I know I pushed you, and I know I expected the moon when we had budget for a pack of gum.
01:18:24 But you delivered above and beyond, and I want to thank Dave because he put his whole heart and soul into this.
01:18:34 So thank you so much again.
01:18:40 I know we're over budget.
01:18:42 Congratulations.
01:18:44 So what happened? Did you sell it?
01:18:49 Hey!
01:18:50 Hey! It was all the people, the head of marketing, the head of docs, the head of--all the heads.
01:18:58 And they were sitting there, and the minute it was over, she was like, "Oh my God, Jennifer. It could not have gone better. It was crazy."
01:19:07 At the end of the day, someone bought it.
01:19:11 We put all this together.
01:19:13 We did it.
01:19:14 We have no we about it.
01:19:16 No fucking we about anything.
01:19:22 It's the first time she's done something as an artistic form of expression that was purely for the sake of what she had to express.
01:19:29 It was about bringing out things that she felt inside that she just wanted to say.
01:19:34 And I don't really love being in the making-of documentary about my personal life, which is why I'm so relieved that it's not really--seems like I might be in this, but I'm not really.
01:19:46 I was worrying for no reason.
01:19:49 The movie wasn't about me.
01:19:52 It was about the ability to love yourself.
01:19:57 And that love story is a lot fucking harder to find than Prince Charming.
01:20:10 You don't fuck around with time.
01:20:14 You live and learn.
01:20:15 Let me say this to you.
01:20:18 The prize for aging is wisdom.
01:20:25 Wisdom feels good.
01:20:30 It's precious.
01:20:33 Love something.
01:20:35 Love somebody.
01:20:36 But more than that, you better find a way to at least like yourself.
01:20:47 When you take your last breath, you won't think about who did something wrong to you.
01:20:57 You will think about who loved you.
01:21:07 Love is not something that you do.
01:21:09 It's something that you can become.
01:21:13 It's lifelong.
01:21:15 It goes on.
01:21:18 Whether you like it or you don't like it, you'll end up loving something, if not somebody.
01:21:24 Our atoms were forged in the cores of stars.
01:21:28 Those stars exploded, scattering that enrichment across the galaxy, out of which the next generations of stars and planets are born.
01:21:37 We are stardust.
01:21:39 It is literally true.
01:21:43 Not only are you alive in the universe, the universe is alive within you.
01:21:54 You know, art is beauty, but it's pain.
01:21:58 You know, sometimes it's the pain that's beautiful, it's sad.
01:22:06 I feel like I came out the other side.
01:22:09 I've made it through.
01:22:11 I've made something good of my life, and I'm proud of that.
01:22:16 But one of the parts of that was admitting to myself, "You're not perfect.
01:22:22 You're not completely whole."
01:22:26 And you know what?
01:22:28 Something that's worn and older and broken, like a nice leather jacket or an old pair of boots, is really beautiful.
01:22:36 And kind of embracing the beauty of the scars that we pick up along the way.
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