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00:03:58 - Someone in this very group.
00:04:00 We have all been there.
00:04:03 We are all still there.
00:04:06 And we are all facing the same four tasks.
00:04:10 One, to accept the reality of the loss.
00:04:14 Anyone want to continue with the next one?
00:04:18 - To experience the pain of grief.
00:04:20 - And the third?
00:04:23 Ronnie?
00:04:26 - To address to an environment where the deceased is missing.
00:04:29 - And the fourth?
00:04:31 - To emotionally relocate the deceased and move on.
00:04:35 - Right.
00:04:36 We all share these tasks.
00:04:40 And we all understand at least an element
00:04:43 of what you are going through.
00:04:45 This is what binds us together.
00:04:48 All right, that's about all the time we have for tonight.
00:04:53 Does anyone want to add anything before we go?
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00:04:59 Will?
00:05:00 How about you?
00:05:04 You've been quiet, you want to share something?
00:05:06 - Oh.
00:05:08 No.
00:05:10 I don't have anything at the moment.
00:05:14 - Of course.
00:05:17 In your own time.
00:05:18 All right, well, that does it.
00:05:21 Oh, and just a reminder for those of you with court orders,
00:05:24 see me afterwards and I will get them signed for you.
00:05:27 - We'll see you tomorrow.
00:05:32 Ronnie. - Thanks.
00:05:35 - Always a pleasure. - Thanks.
00:05:36 - Take care.
00:05:37 - Yeah.
00:05:40 I think that you can work a little harder to participate.
00:05:43 - I'm doing the best I can, so.
00:05:44 - You have more, you have great things to share.
00:05:46 - All right, that's fine.
00:05:47 You signed it?
00:05:48 - Thank you.
00:05:49 - Just push.
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00:05:51 - You know, I like to keep groups like this small.
00:06:04 More intimate.
00:06:05 I find it makes people feel more comfortable
00:06:08 expressing themselves.
00:06:09 Speaking their truth.
00:06:11 Do you like small groups, Will?
00:06:15 - Yeah.
00:06:17 Works for me, I guess.
00:06:19 - Well, I certainly hope so.
00:06:19 - Hey, Will.
00:06:37 Hold up.
00:06:38 Need a ride someplace?
00:06:40 - No, I'm good.
00:06:42 - I'm Brian, by the way.
00:06:43 - Yeah, I'm Brian.
00:06:45 - I'm Brian.
00:06:47 Yeah, I remember.
00:06:47 From the meeting.
00:06:49 I'm gonna head out.
00:06:51 - It's a group.
00:06:52 We're a group.
00:06:54 It's a group.
00:06:55 - Yeah, okay.
00:06:57 - Well, you called it a meeting.
00:06:59 And a meeting can be different factions
00:07:01 coming together for a brief period.
00:07:03 But a group functions as a whole.
00:07:05 We help each other.
00:07:06 We're a group.
00:07:07 - Right.
00:07:09 So Bella wants us to call it a group.
00:07:12 And that's what you're saying?
00:07:14 - See you next time.
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00:13:07 - Denial, anger, bargaining, depression.
00:13:12 Acceptance.
00:13:13 As difficult as it may seem,
00:13:15 it is important to remind ourselves
00:13:17 that these five stages of grief--
00:13:18 - Bargaining.
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00:13:21 That's the one that keeps sending me down the rabbit hole.
00:13:24 It's like every second of every waking hour,
00:13:28 it's just, I just keep going through the--
00:13:31 - The what ifs.
00:13:32 - Yeah, right, the fucking what ifs.
00:13:34 Like what if, what if we had left five minutes later
00:13:38 instead of always insisting that we leave five minutes later.
00:13:41 - Five minutes early.
00:13:42 - Should be a sixth stage.
00:13:44 - A sixth stage to grief?
00:13:48 - Reversal.
00:13:51 - I'm not sure we understand, Lydia.
00:13:57 - What if you could reverse it?
00:14:01 - Okay, see, this is what bargaining is about.
00:14:05 You're bartering with yourself in your own head
00:14:07 in an attempt to change something that cannot be changed.
00:14:10 - What if there was a way?
00:14:12 - Lydia, there are those what ifs again,
00:14:16 and that is a dangerous game to play.
00:14:19 - Yeah, whatever you say.
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00:14:29 - Okay, that was a 30.
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00:14:54 Will?
00:15:00 Something on your mind?
00:15:11 - It just seems to me that if there's five stages
00:15:16 to this thing, it just seems to close our minds.
00:15:21 - To other options.
00:15:23 - Other options?
00:15:25 - Options, stages, levels, I don't know.
00:15:28 It just seems to limit us.
00:15:30 - Well, while I appreciate the many levels of your opinion,
00:15:35 I can assure you that what Lydia is dealing with is--
00:15:38 - I'm not talking about her.
00:15:40 - Uh-oh.
00:15:42 Unsatisfied customer?
00:15:45 - No, not at all.
00:15:47 Will was just expressing concern for Lydia.
00:15:50 - Oh, thank you, Will.
00:15:52 I'll take that all into consideration.
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00:16:24 - I feel like they don't want us to get better.
00:16:26 How about you?
00:16:30 You feeling any better yet?
00:16:32 - Not really.
00:16:34 No, not at all.
00:16:36 - You're not like the others.
00:16:41 I can tell.
00:16:43 - So why you stuck here?
00:16:45 - My heart got ripped open.
00:16:48 I was sad,
00:16:53 angry,
00:16:54 and sad again.
00:16:56 And angry all the time.
00:16:59 Shit happened.
00:17:04 And they thought I needed some group time
00:17:09 to get my head right.
00:17:11 - Is it working?
00:17:13 - No.
00:17:14 I'm horrible.
00:17:16 (laughs)
00:17:18 Constantly horrible.
00:17:22 But I'm gonna get better on my own.
00:17:24 I'm gonna feel better.
00:17:26 Real soon.
00:17:29 100%.
00:17:31 I'm gonna see my baby again.
00:17:35 - Hey, let me give you a ride.
00:17:37 Come on.
00:17:39 I could use the company.
00:17:41 - No, I'm good.
00:17:42 I could use the exercise.
00:17:44 - All right, well, suit yourself.
00:17:46 I can take a hint.
00:17:48 - I'll see you.
00:17:51 In group.
00:17:52 - There you go, you got it.
00:17:54 - See you in group,
00:17:56 friend.
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00:19:20 - What happened to you?
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00:19:57 - Where is she?
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00:20:02 - You wake up.
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00:20:24 - You see it all the time, every day.
00:20:38 After a while, death or the finality of it,
00:20:42 you know, just doesn't quite pack the punch it used to.
00:20:46 And that day was like any other day.
00:20:48 I'd already seen misery.
00:20:51 I'd already seen death.
00:20:54 All in a day's work, right?
00:20:57 So I'm on my way home, and I get one last call.
00:21:03 I'm three blocks from the house.
00:21:08 It was a single car collision, one person.
00:21:14 I was third on the scene.
00:21:17 I get there, and I make my way down the embankment.
00:21:22 It didn't look that bad, you know?
00:21:25 It was just upside down there,
00:21:28 and the creek bed, Dunbar Creek,
00:21:31 you know, ankle deep, usually.
00:21:34 But shit, we had all that rain the night before.
00:21:40 It was like God turned on the faucet
00:21:45 and forgot to turn it off, you know?
00:21:50 She never had a chance.
00:21:53 She had her head.
00:21:56 She was just hanging there upside down
00:22:01 and her head in the water.
00:22:04 All that life I had of her.
00:22:12 I was the one.
00:22:19 I was the one that got stuck right here.
00:22:22 I was the one.
00:22:29 Thank you, Brian.
00:22:34 That was very brave, and you were wonderful for sharing.
00:22:38 Insanity is doing the same thing over and over
00:22:46 and expecting a different result.
00:22:48 Now, that's often misattributed to Mr. Albert Einstein,
00:22:51 but the point is clear.
00:22:53 I know that dealing with overwhelming grief
00:22:56 day after day can make you feel like you are insane.
00:23:00 And we all know what the result is going to be
00:23:03 when we express our grief to each other.
00:23:06 A little bit of relief, no matter how brief,
00:23:09 from the guilt, anger, sadness,
00:23:13 whatever it is that we are feeling inside.
00:23:16 Now, let me be clear.
00:23:18 There is nothing wrong with temporary relief,
00:23:21 no matter what stage you are at.
00:23:24 But if you begin to live life only for that relief,
00:23:31 for the next blackout from reality,
00:23:35 you are not learning, you are not growing,
00:23:39 and you are not healing.
00:23:41 So to make Einstein or whoever said that quote happy,
00:23:45 we're going to do something a little different.
00:23:48 Instead of expressing our grief to each other,
00:23:51 we are going to write a note or a letter
00:23:54 to our departed.
00:23:56 Something you want to add, Lydia?
00:24:04 No.
00:24:07 I'm all set.
00:24:09 Not interested in breaking the cycle, Lydia?
00:24:12 I'm almost done with my cycle forever.
00:24:15 Thanks.
00:24:17 What's that supposed to mean?
00:24:19 Sounds like lady problems to me.
00:24:22 Stupid motherfuckers.
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00:25:04 So you almost there?
00:25:06 Feeling better?
00:25:08 Damn right.
00:25:10 This shit ends tomorrow.
00:25:12 Take care, Sam.
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00:25:32 Something I can help you with, man?
00:25:35 'Cause if this is about a ride, I'm good.
00:25:37 Brother, you're stuck in a shit cycle right now
00:25:39 going round and round and round.
00:25:41 And nowhere in that circle is the starting point
00:25:43 to the healing process.
00:25:45 You don't know anything about me.
00:25:47 I know what those cough drops are for.
00:25:49 And that is not the answer.
00:25:51 That much I know.
00:25:53 Brother, waking life, it can be tolerable.
00:25:55 But it starts by getting out of the circle of despair.
00:25:59 It sure sounds like you had that memorized.
00:26:03 So let me guess.
00:26:06 It's vodka on the way in
00:26:08 because it has the weakest scent, right?
00:26:10 And pop a few menthols
00:26:12 and you're on cruise control
00:26:14 through a whole new group.
00:26:16 Right?
00:26:17 And on the way home, pick up a bottle
00:26:19 of your favorite stuff.
00:26:21 Just to get you through the night.
00:26:23 Am I getting warmer?
00:26:25 I'm just trying to check off the boxes, okay?
00:26:28 I'm taking it one day at a time.
00:26:31 One day at a time.
00:26:34 That's the secret sauce.
00:26:38 Time.
00:26:44 It can be your best friend or your worst enemy, Will.
00:26:49 You decide.
00:26:51 [suspenseful music]
00:26:54 Yeah.
00:27:02 Time could be your best friend.
00:27:04 If you lay down and let her fuck you.
00:27:07 But not me.
00:27:09 You want to stop living in their dream world of despair?
00:27:13 What do you mean? Like drugs?
00:27:16 I'm talking about not living with the reality
00:27:18 they keep preaching to us.
00:27:20 You interested?
00:27:23 Yes.
00:27:25 There's this place hidden away.
00:27:33 Follow these directions.
00:27:39 Go to that place.
00:27:42 Tell him I sent you.
00:27:45 Go to that place, Will.
00:27:51 Then you'll see.
00:27:52 He'll open your eyes.
00:27:55 No more sadness.
00:27:58 Only joy.
00:28:01 [suspenseful music]
00:28:04 Home, sweet home.
00:28:28 It's not much, but they say home is really in here,
00:28:33 in here, right?
00:28:35 Yeah.
00:28:37 Keeps demons away.
00:28:42 You're not a demon, are you?
00:28:44 No, I can't say that I am.
00:28:46 That's good for your sake.
00:28:49 So, what are you, just living out here or passing through?
00:28:53 I'm sorry. You're, um...
00:28:56 I'm Vaughn. My name's Vaughn.
00:28:59 I'm Will.
00:29:02 I'm here on Tuesdays and Thursdays, Will.
00:29:08 [chuckles]
00:29:11 So, what brings you out this way tonight?
00:29:30 Um... Lydia?
00:29:33 Lydia, she said that I should come here,
00:29:35 that I should come see you.
00:29:39 Lydia.
00:29:42 But your path and her path are very different, I can tell.
00:29:46 Though no two paths are ever the same.
00:29:49 [scribbling]
00:29:52 What did Lydia tell you?
00:29:55 She said I should come see you,
00:29:58 and there'd be no more sadness.
00:30:03 You've experienced loss.
00:30:06 Take this.
00:30:19 Draw, sketch, paint.
00:30:22 Do whatever you want.
00:30:24 Put it on that canvas.
00:30:27 And bring it back to me.
00:30:31 You want me to just draw you a picture?
00:30:35 You can do whatever you want.
00:30:39 But whatever you do, do it for you.
00:30:43 And then bring it back.
00:30:46 [scribbling]
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00:31:23 [sighs]
00:31:26 Bullshit.
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00:31:49 [sighs]
00:31:52 [thud]
00:31:55 [scribbling]
00:31:58 [sighs]
00:32:01 [scribbling]
00:32:05 [sighs]
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00:33:52 [yelps]
00:33:54 - Will, where are you?
00:33:57 - Hey, wake up.
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00:38:26 - Hey, Brian.
00:38:28 - Will. Good meeting tonight, right?
00:38:31 Hey, I see you doing the work.
00:38:34 And I am proud of you, brother.
00:38:37 - Okay. - I knew I'd get through to you.
00:38:39 We're gonna have your head thinking straight before you know it.
00:38:41 - So I'm curious. Why isn't Lydia coming back?
00:38:44 - She claims she doesn't need the group anymore.
00:38:48 - So just like that, she's cured?
00:38:52 - She believes her daughter has come back to her.
00:38:58 - Come back? - Yeah.
00:39:00 Her departed has come back.
00:39:04 - It's tragic, really.
00:39:06 I mean, you've heard her babbling on, Will.
00:39:08 Obviously, it's impossible.
00:39:10 What are we talking about here? Turning back time?
00:39:13 - I mean, we can only try to help,
00:39:16 but sometimes we-- - Fail.
00:39:20 - Did not fail.
00:39:25 She chose not to accept help.
00:39:29 - Yeah. Sounds tragic.
00:39:32 [footsteps]
00:39:35 [footsteps]
00:39:38 [footsteps]
00:39:41 - Will! What the fuck was that?
00:39:43 - Not tonight, Brian. - Hey!
00:39:46 I know this is about checking a list for you, man,
00:39:48 but pulling shit like that is only gonna prolong this.
00:39:51 The more you resist what is here to help you,
00:39:54 the longer it's gonna take for you to see the light.
00:39:57 - Don't try and be a cop with me, man.
00:39:59 - How dare you say that to me? I'm here to help you.
00:40:01 - What's going on in there is not helping anyone.
00:40:04 It's just rehashing the same horrible shit
00:40:06 over and over again.
00:40:09 [footsteps]
00:40:12 That's the cycle.
00:40:15 [footsteps]
00:40:18 You need to wake up, brother.
00:40:21 [crickets chirping]
00:40:24 I was wondering if you were gonna make your way
00:40:34 up here tonight.
00:40:37 You know, it's funny. Everybody can express themselves.
00:40:43 So everyone is an artist.
00:40:46 What comes out of here, it ends up there.
00:40:50 The artist's history, a life lived,
00:40:56 lessons learned, growth, improvements,
00:41:01 discovery of truth.
00:41:06 [footsteps]
00:41:09 [footsteps]
00:41:12 [crickets chirping]
00:41:15 You know, Lydia's making some pretty bold claims.
00:41:20 And people are making some pretty bold claims about Lydia.
00:41:26 - Lydia's on her own path and you are on yours, Will.
00:41:32 Is your daughter in this?
00:41:40 - It's okay if you don't know.
00:41:43 This kind of work, it exists in two spaces.
00:41:51 A physical space and a psychological space.
00:41:56 You are truly a bright soul.
00:42:06 - I don't know about that.
00:42:10 - I want you to look at all those souls up there.
00:42:14 Look.
00:42:18 Did you know when a star dies,
00:42:23 it continues to shine its light across the universe
00:42:27 for many millenniums to come?
00:42:31 You just gotta be looking for that light.
00:42:36 [soft music]
00:42:39 So what are you willing to do?
00:42:47 - To do for what?
00:42:49 - You know for what, Will.
00:42:52 Lydia was willing to approach her obstacle
00:42:57 with an open mind
00:43:00 and with truly open eyes.
00:43:03 - Now all her sadness is gone.
00:43:07 - There's nothing I wouldn't do.
00:43:12 - For your sadness to be gone.
00:43:15 - To end the cycle.
00:43:17 Me and my daughter, Shelly.
00:43:21 [soft music]
00:43:24 [soft music]
00:43:26 - Oh, no, no, I couldn't take your vinyl.
00:43:37 - These are meant for someone who needs them.
00:43:41 And your path has led you to need these.
00:43:44 - No, no, what do you got in there?
00:43:49 - I got a little of this and a little of that.
00:43:53 Listen to them.
00:43:55 See which one speaks to you.
00:43:58 - Okay, yeah, I can do that.
00:44:02 I can do that.
00:44:04 - But there are rules, Will.
00:44:09 You must listen with a clear and open mind.
00:44:14 Free of outside influences.
00:44:22 [soft music]
00:44:25 - Got it.
00:44:28 - Sometimes what we think is lost
00:44:34 is not lost at all.
00:44:37 Just needs to be rediscovered.
00:44:43 A clear and open mind, Will.
00:44:52 That's your path forward.
00:44:55 [soft music]
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00:45:19 [water dripping]
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00:46:40 [fire crackling]
00:46:54 [fire crackling]
00:46:57 - Your mind is open.
00:47:14 Your heart is clear.
00:47:16 Now open them both to what is dear.
00:47:19 Your mind is open.
00:47:22 Your heart is clear.
00:47:24 Now open them both to what is dear.
00:47:27 Your mind is open.
00:47:29 Your heart is clear.
00:47:31 Now open them both to what is dear.
00:47:34 Your mind is open.
00:47:36 Your heart is clear.
00:47:38 Now open them both to what is dear.
00:47:41 Your mind is open.
00:47:43 Your heart is clear.
00:47:45 Now open them both to what is dear.
00:47:48 Your mind is open.
00:47:50 Your heart is clear.
00:47:52 [soft music]
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00:48:02 To what is dear.
00:48:15 Your mind is open.
00:48:17 Your heart is clear.
00:48:19 Now open them both to what is dear.
00:48:22 Your mind is open.
00:48:23 Your heart is clear.
00:48:25 Now open them both to what is dear.
00:48:28 Your mind is open.
00:48:30 Your heart is clear.
00:48:32 Now open them both to what is dear.
00:48:35 Your mind is open.
00:48:38 Your heart is clear.
00:48:40 Now open them both to what is dear.
00:48:43 Your mind is open.
00:48:45 Your heart is clear.
00:48:47 Now open them both.
00:48:50 Your mind is open.
00:48:51 Your heart is clear.
00:48:53 Now open them both to what is dear.
00:48:56 Your mind is open.
00:48:58 Your heart is clear.
00:49:00 Now open them both to what is dear.
00:49:03 Your mind is open.
00:49:05 Your heart is clear.
00:49:07 Now open them both to what is dear.
00:49:10 Your mind is open.
00:49:12 Your heart is clear.
00:49:14 Now open them both to what is dear.
00:49:18 Do you want me to catch Daddy, mister?
00:49:19 Yeah, go ahead.
00:49:22 Now open them both to what is dear.
00:49:25 Your mind is open.
00:49:28 Your heart is clear.
00:49:30 Now open them both to what is dear.
00:49:33 Your mind is open.
00:49:36 Your heart is clear.
00:49:38 Now open them both to what is dear.
00:49:41 Your mind is open.
00:49:44 Your heart is clear.
00:49:46 Now open them both to what is dear.
00:49:50 Your mind is open.
00:49:52 Your heart is clear.
00:49:54 Now open them both to what is dear.
00:49:57 Your mind is open.
00:50:02 Your heart is clear.
00:50:04 Now open them both to what is dear.
00:50:07 Your mind is open.
00:50:10 Your heart is clear.
00:50:12 Now open them both to what is dear.
00:50:15 Your mind is open.
00:50:17 Your heart is clear.
00:50:19 Now open them both to what is dear.
00:50:22 Your mind is open.
00:50:26 Your heart is clear.
00:50:28 Now open them both to what is dear.
00:50:31 Your mind is open.
00:50:34 Your heart is clear.
00:50:36 Now open them both to what is dear.
00:50:39 Your mind is...
00:50:42 [eerie music]
00:50:44 [eerie music]
00:50:46 [eerie music]
00:50:55 [eerie music]
00:51:07 [eerie music]
00:51:10 - Is that you, baby girl?
00:51:19 [eerie music]
00:51:36 [eerie music]
00:51:39 - Do you want me to catch Daddy Monster?
00:51:51 - Yeah, I got one.
00:51:53 [eerie music]
00:51:56 [eerie music]
00:52:01 [eerie music]
00:52:04 - Come on.
00:52:19 - Come on!
00:52:20 Come on!
00:52:23 - Hey, Will.
00:52:25 - Where did you get those records from?
00:52:27 - You played one of mine.
00:52:30 - Yes, I played yours.
00:52:32 - With a clear mind.
00:52:35 - That was your voice.
00:52:37 Are you doing this?
00:52:40 There's this red ball that my daughter used to play with.
00:52:49 And that ball came rolling right up to me.
00:52:53 It was as if Shelly, she just rolled it to me herself.
00:52:56 But then I played the record again.
00:52:58 Nothing happened.
00:53:00 - Yeah, that can happen.
00:53:02 - Come on, you gotta walk with me, man.
00:53:06 Hey, you gotta give me something here
00:53:08 'cause I need to know that I'm not going crazy.
00:53:11 - You're on the path now, Will.
00:53:14 You're on the path.
00:53:21 [eerie music]
00:53:30 - There was a time when I was experimenting with recording.
00:53:33 At first it was just music, noise.
00:53:37 And then I started to introduce the spoken word
00:53:42 and as time passed by,
00:53:44 strange things started to happen.
00:53:49 My recordings actually started to become
00:53:57 a way of life for me.
00:53:59 I started doing things, good things,
00:54:03 well, good things, to people that had open minds.
00:54:07 But then you gotta be careful what you wish for
00:54:14 because, well,
00:54:17 folks don't always like what they discover about themselves.
00:54:25 [eerie music]
00:54:28 That's the next one, Will.
00:54:31 - So there are some after this.
00:54:38 - That is the next one.
00:54:52 - Bond.
00:54:54 Bond.
00:54:58 - Your mind is open, your heart is clear.
00:55:20 Now open them both, to what is dear.
00:55:24 The burden you carry is heavy and fierce.
00:55:27 Vanquish it now, or your heart, it will pierce.
00:55:32 Your mind is open, your heart is clear.
00:55:36 Now open them both, to what is dear.
00:55:40 The burden you carry is heavy and fierce.
00:55:43 Vanquish it now, or your heart, it will pierce.
00:55:49 Your mind is open, your heart is clear.
00:55:52 Now open them both, to what is dear.
00:55:56 The burden you carry is heavy and fierce.
00:55:59 Vanquish it now, or your heart, it will pierce.
00:56:04 - I'm right here, Goblet.
00:56:18 - Now you're in the room to remain.
00:56:21 - Remember, Goblet, it's not your house.
00:56:24 [eerie music]
00:56:27 [sniffing]
00:56:42 [sighing]
00:56:45 - Fuck!
00:56:51 - Vonn!
00:56:53 Hey, Vonn, hello?
00:56:56 - You're on the path now, Will.
00:56:59 - Hey, where did you come from?
00:57:01 Where's Vonn?
00:57:02 - Don't leave your past.
00:57:05 Keep your goal in sight, and don't let them stop you.
00:57:09 I did.
00:57:11 - I'm so happy now.
00:57:14 - But yet, so--so confused.
00:57:17 I don't know what to do here.
00:57:19 - You know what to do.
00:57:22 - [grunts]
00:57:30 [eerie music]
00:57:33 [sizzling]
00:57:40 [eerie music]
00:57:43 - Your mind is open.
00:58:08 Your heart is clear.
00:58:10 Now open them both to what is dear.
00:58:13 The burden you carry is heavy and fierce.
00:58:16 Vanquish it now, or your heart, it will pierce.
00:58:21 Embrace the pain that dwells within,
00:58:24 for healing can start once you let it in.
00:58:28 Your mind is open.
00:58:30 Your heart is clear.
00:58:32 Now open them both to what is dear.
00:58:36 The burden you carry is heavy and fierce.
00:58:39 Vanquish it now, or your heart, it will pierce.
00:58:43 Embrace the pain that dwells within,
00:58:46 for healing can start once you let it in.
00:58:50 Your mind is open.
00:58:52 Your heart is clear.
00:58:54 Now open them both to what is dear.
00:58:58 The burden you carry is heavy and fierce.
00:59:01 Vanquish it now, or your heart, it will--
00:59:05 [footsteps]
00:59:08 [eerie music]
00:59:18 [lighter clicking]
00:59:22 [eerie music]
00:59:25 [footsteps]
00:59:28 - There's one mystery solved.
00:59:45 You're alive.
00:59:48 You okay?
00:59:50 What's the matter, Will?
00:59:52 Look like you've seen a goblin.
00:59:56 - How'd you find me?
01:00:01 - We know things.
01:00:04 Mind if I come in?
01:00:07 [door creaking]
01:00:11 [door creaking]
01:00:19 [door creaking]
01:00:22 Nice place, Will.
01:00:30 This room could use a little light.
01:00:32 But nice.
01:00:35 - Mind telling me what you're doing here?
01:00:38 - I was on my way out the door, heading home.
01:00:42 Dispatch gets a call.
01:00:45 Welfare check.
01:00:48 Normally I'd say, "Fuck it.
01:00:51 "I got pot roast waiting for me at home."
01:00:55 Then dispatch, they get the address,
01:00:58 name of the owner.
01:01:01 You.
01:01:04 So I say, "Fuck it.
01:01:06 "That pot roast can wait."
01:01:09 [footsteps]
01:01:11 - Was it worth it, brother?
01:01:33 - I haven't had a drink since last night.
01:01:37 I swear on my daughter--
01:01:38 - Don't.
01:01:39 Do not.
01:01:41 Never swear on that.
01:01:44 [glasses clink]
01:01:46 All you had to do was reach out to me, man.
01:01:49 I was ready, willing, and able.
01:01:53 But then you had to have yourself a three-day bender.
01:01:56 - I told you I haven't had a drink in 24 hours.
01:01:58 - Oh, Will, just stop.
01:02:00 Stop it, okay?
01:02:03 Look, I get what you're going through, man.
01:02:06 I get it.
01:02:07 But there's what you're going through,
01:02:09 and there's what you're required to go through.
01:02:12 - Bender? Three days?
01:02:14 What are you talking about?
01:02:15 - Okay, okay.
01:02:18 You skip three nights of group,
01:02:20 refuse to answer your calls,
01:02:22 then you get a welfare check called in.
01:02:25 You know how this thing works, Will.
01:02:27 Too many strikes.
01:02:28 - Fuck you, man.
01:02:29 - Oh, fuck me?
01:02:30 - Yeah, fuck you.
01:02:31 - Okay.
01:02:32 - You know I was there earlier.
01:02:33 You're just trying to mess with me now.
01:02:35 Like some kind of healing strategy.
01:02:37 - Oh, yeah, I saw you three nights ago,
01:02:39 and you were pretty charged up.
01:02:42 Man, I should have come up here a long time ago.
01:02:54 You know, Bella's really torn up about this.
01:02:58 Losing you from group so soon after Lydia.
01:03:02 She's really beating herself up.
01:03:06 (water running)
01:03:09 Yes, I know.
01:03:18 No, but he will soon.
01:03:20 We have to stay united on this, okay?
01:03:22 It's the only way.
01:03:24 What do we always say?
01:03:26 This too shall pass.
01:03:28 In the end, I promise you,
01:03:30 you will see this was the best for everyone.
01:03:32 The best for you,
01:03:33 the best for your family,
01:03:35 and the best for...
01:03:37 Hey, listen, I gotta go, okay?
01:03:41 Yeah.
01:03:43 How you feeling?
01:03:48 - What was that?
01:03:50 - That was a work thing.
01:03:52 So, to recap.
01:04:01 You left the meeting.
01:04:04 - About an hour ago.
01:04:06 - You say an hour, I say three days.
01:04:09 You left the meeting.
01:04:12 Then you went to visit this homeless man
01:04:15 who lives in the woods.
01:04:16 A man you've been visiting and speaking with.
01:04:21 So this fellow, he...
01:04:25 he gives you records,
01:04:27 and these records, they--
01:04:28 - Only some of them.
01:04:29 - Some of these records
01:04:33 have brought back items
01:04:36 that were in photographs with your little girl, right?
01:04:39 Okay.
01:04:43 Let me tell you what I see.
01:04:46 I see a man who has refused help over and over.
01:04:49 I see a man who insists on drinking himself into a coma
01:04:52 every single night,
01:04:54 refusing to face his new reality.
01:04:56 You hit the sauce extra hard.
01:04:58 Black out, lose track of time,
01:05:01 start going through your daughter's old stuff,
01:05:04 start drinking again,
01:05:05 repeat the process,
01:05:06 and brother, three days.
01:05:10 After we lost our child,
01:05:15 her mother took all her stuff,
01:05:21 including these.
01:05:24 So it will be impossible
01:05:31 for me to pull out these things.
01:05:33 - Look, I'm not saying this is the case,
01:05:37 but is there any reason your ex would be
01:05:40 maybe coming in here,
01:05:42 poking around,
01:05:44 moving things,
01:05:45 trying to bait you into some sort of...
01:05:51 Will?
01:05:52 - Yeah.
01:05:54 This is you?
01:05:59 - Me?
01:06:00 Will, I don't know what you're talking about.
01:06:02 - Who put you up to this?
01:06:04 - Me?
01:06:06 - Who put you up to this?
01:06:09 - I can assure you I have no idea
01:06:12 who or what you're talking about here.
01:06:14 - How did she get to you?
01:06:17 - Hey, hey, hey, brother.
01:06:19 Let's take a breath here, you and me, okay?
01:06:21 Take a seat.
01:06:23 And let's count to ten, okay?
01:06:25 Tell me what you're thinking here.
01:06:28 Will?
01:06:31 Will!
01:06:34 Shit.
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01:07:32 - Daddy Monster?
01:07:34 Hi, Daddy.
01:07:36 - Hi, Goblin.
01:07:38 (water trickling)
01:07:41 - Daddy Monster, I've been practicing holding my breath.
01:07:45 (water trickling)
01:07:48 Can you get me the bubble blower under the sink?
01:07:51 - Yeah.
01:07:53 Sure.
01:07:55 (water trickling)
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01:08:47 - Easy, Will.
01:08:49 (eerie music)
01:08:52 Is that thing loaded?
01:08:54 (eerie music)
01:08:56 - She...
01:08:58 She...
01:09:00 She was... - Who was, Will?
01:09:03 - Shelly.
01:09:05 She was here.
01:09:07 She was getting ready for her bath.
01:09:09 These are her things. It worked.
01:09:12 (eerie music)
01:09:14 - Let you and I take a walk.
01:09:17 - Come on.
01:09:19 Come on.
01:09:21 Wait. Who's... Lydia!
01:09:24 (footsteps)
01:09:26 Okay. Right.
01:09:29 (footsteps)
01:09:31 Lydia was right here.
01:09:33 She told me that I needed to stay on my path
01:09:36 and that she was happy now.
01:09:39 - Will, that's impossible.
01:09:41 - What is?
01:09:44 - Will, Lydia's dead.
01:09:47 She killed herself two nights ago.
01:09:51 - No.
01:09:53 No.
01:09:55 (footsteps)
01:09:58 (footsteps)
01:10:01 - Is he here? No, he's here.
01:10:04 Come on, he's here. He's here.
01:10:07 God.
01:10:09 - The victim, Shelly Foster, age nine,
01:10:11 was taken from the home to Hope Memorial Hospital
01:10:13 where she was later pronounced dead.
01:10:15 Cause of death was ruled...
01:10:17 - Accidental drowning.
01:10:19 Where did you get that?
01:10:21 - Inside, in a box.
01:10:23 The distraught mother claims that she had arrived
01:10:26 at the house with a friend to discuss custody issues.
01:10:29 With her estranged husband, Will Foster.
01:10:33 (footsteps)
01:10:36 Who is this man, Will?
01:10:39 Why would he have these clippings about you?
01:10:42 About your daughter?
01:10:45 - Lydia.
01:10:47 Lydia, she gave me a map.
01:10:51 Your mind is open.
01:10:54 Your heart is clear.
01:10:57 Now open them both to what is dear.
01:11:01 - And that's what he'd say? On the records?
01:11:04 - Yeah.
01:11:06 And then after a while he would say,
01:11:09 "Embrace the pain that dwells within.
01:11:12 "The healing starts once you let it in."
01:11:16 And there was another two.
01:11:18 Those were different.
01:11:20 "The burden that you carry,
01:11:22 "it's heavy and fierce.
01:11:25 "Vanquish it now, or your heart it will pierce."
01:11:29 And then this last one,
01:11:31 "The ending must occur, to begin anew.
01:11:35 "But only in the pure can this be true."
01:11:40 - And you memorized that?
01:11:44 - Over repetition.
01:11:46 - And now there's nothing on here?
01:11:48 - And when you play it back again, nothing.
01:11:52 - And what's the point of that?
01:11:56 - Bible verses.
01:11:57 - Huh?
01:11:59 - These are Bible verses.
01:12:01 Not written in the correct catalog format,
01:12:04 but they're scripture.
01:12:07 Which one was first?
01:12:09 - Matthew.
01:12:11 - Matthew 7, 7.
01:12:15 "Ask and it shall be given unto you.
01:12:18 "Seek and you shall find."
01:12:20 John 9, 25 next, right?
01:12:24 "Whereas once I was blind, now I can see."
01:12:28 - And the latest one?
01:12:31 - It's a...
01:12:34 It's a story about Lazarus.
01:12:37 A man who was raised from the dead.
01:12:41 - And you memorized all this, huh?
01:12:43 - Repetition.
01:12:45 - [scoffs]
01:12:47 - Sunday school.
01:12:49 Lots of it.
01:12:51 - So it works.
01:12:53 It's working.
01:12:55 Shelly, she's not gone.
01:12:58 She's just stuck.
01:13:00 She's gonna come back, 'cause I'm gonna bring her back.
01:13:03 It's just like Lydia said.
01:13:05 - Well, Lydia let her grief consume her.
01:13:09 Okay, she went chasing a ghost, and it took her life too.
01:13:13 - She was getting better.
01:13:15 Happier.
01:13:17 - A delusion can seem like that, Will.
01:13:20 I mean, what we're talking about here, it...
01:13:23 It's supposed to be impossible.
01:13:26 - Yeah, but I saw her.
01:13:29 And I know you saw it.
01:13:31 You saw that it works.
01:13:35 - I can see what's going on here, okay?
01:13:40 And I can help you. I will help you.
01:13:43 But, Will, you cannot let this take over you
01:13:47 like it took over Lydia.
01:13:49 You have to be strong, Will.
01:13:51 - I have to get my girl back.
01:13:56 I have to get the next one.
01:14:00 That could be the one that brings her back.
01:14:03 - Okay, here's what we're gonna do.
01:14:09 You're gonna go back to group tomorrow night.
01:14:12 Listen, we're gonna talk to Bella.
01:14:14 We are going to do everything we can
01:14:16 to help you with the judge, okay?
01:14:19 - But... - Hey, you're gonna do this for me.
01:14:23 But more importantly, for yourself.
01:14:26 And no more boos, okay?
01:14:28 Get yourself to group tomorrow night.
01:14:31 And then we will go from there to fix all of this.
01:14:35 And I'll find this man for you, Bob.
01:14:39 - How?
01:14:41 How? How are you gonna find him?
01:14:44 - I got resources.
01:14:47 I got resources.
01:14:50 We'll get this resolved.
01:14:53 I promise.
01:14:56 - Thank you.
01:14:59 - So tomorrow?
01:15:07 - No alcohol. - And?
01:15:10 - I'll be there. I'll be at the meeting.
01:15:12 - Okay.
01:15:15 - Ah. You know, I think I left my cell phone in there.
01:15:18 - I'll grab it. I'll grab it.
01:15:21 [phone vibrates]
01:15:44 - All right.
01:15:46 - See you tomorrow.
01:15:50 [phone vibrates]
01:15:53 [phone vibrates]
01:15:55 [door creaks]
01:15:59 [door creaks]
01:16:03 [typing]
01:16:07 [typing]
01:16:09 [door opens]
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01:17:40 - Which one of you did it?
01:17:42 - Brian, he has a gun. - Hmm?
01:17:44 Which one of you? Which one of you called in the bullshit welfare check?
01:17:47 Hmm?
01:17:49 Which one of you is watching me?
01:17:52 You motherfucker, you stand.
01:17:55 - Okay, Will, listen to me. You and I just need to talk.
01:17:58 - What have you been up to?
01:18:01 Hmm? You little fucking snake.
01:18:03 What have you been up to? Where is he?
01:18:05 - Okay, Will, let's just calm down.
01:18:07 I'm sure we can work something out.
01:18:09 - No, you shut the fuck up!
01:18:11 You shut the fuck up, 'cause for all I know,
01:18:13 you killed Lydia!
01:18:16 You want to keep her quiet?
01:18:20 You don't want to hear the truth.
01:18:23 - Okay, everybody, relax.
01:18:26 I know, Will, and Will is a very reasonable man.
01:18:30 - [laughs]
01:18:32 Brian, you don't know shit.
01:18:34 And I've had about enough of that fucking "I'm here to help you" bullshit!
01:18:37 - Bonnie's in custody.
01:18:40 Okay? I had to do it, Will.
01:18:42 I had to call it in. It's my job.
01:18:44 The man was squatting on public property.
01:18:47 - See, you're trying to keep Shelly away from me.
01:18:50 She's not gone, Brian. She's stuck.
01:18:54 She's stuck, and Vaughn is the only one that can bring her home.
01:18:59 But you don't want me to get my Shelly back, do you?
01:19:03 It's been you.
01:19:05 It's been fucking you all along, Brian!
01:19:07 - I can get what you want!
01:19:10 I was there when they brought him in, okay?
01:19:12 They brought in all his possessions.
01:19:14 I processed it.
01:19:16 Guess what?
01:19:18 There's another record.
01:19:21 It's the one you want.
01:19:23 It's the one you want.
01:19:26 It's the one you want.
01:19:31 - You're lying.
01:19:37 - It's the last record.
01:19:39 I might be the one to do it.
01:19:41 To bring your daughter back.
01:19:43 Shelly.
01:19:46 - Where is it?
01:19:48 - It's at the station.
01:19:50 So that you and I will go get it.
01:19:52 Leave everyone else out of this.
01:19:55 What do you say?
01:19:58 - I say, yeah.
01:20:00 Let's go to the station.
01:20:02 But you're bringing this fucking bitch to me.
01:20:05 - Okay, no, Brian, it's okay.
01:20:07 - Let's go.
01:20:09 - It's okay.
01:20:11 - Jesus.
01:20:18 - Ah.
01:20:21 - Ah.
01:20:50 - What is he talking about now?
01:20:51 What is he talking about?
01:20:53 - Man, if we just--
01:20:54 - No, shut up!
01:20:56 - Come on.
01:20:58 Shelly.
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01:21:27 - You need to wake up, brother.
01:21:30 - Well, where is Shelly?
01:21:33 - What did you say?
01:21:35 - Now, Brian.
01:21:37 - [grunts]
01:21:39 [grunts]
01:21:41 [clattering]
01:21:43 [grunts]
01:21:45 - When you disopen, your heart is clear.
01:21:48 Now open them both to what is dear.
01:21:51 - This should go out on this.
01:22:01 - Jesus.
01:22:12 - You're not gonna be needing that, Will.
01:22:14 - I want this.
01:22:15 - Easy, brother.
01:22:16 - Will, just give me Shelly, and we'll be out of here.
01:22:19 - No.
01:22:23 No, I think she's staying with me tonight.
01:22:25 - You know that's not the arrangement.
01:22:27 - The arrangement?
01:22:29 The arrangement like the one we have not to fuck other people?
01:22:32 Like that one?
01:22:33 - Hey, come on, come on.
01:22:34 This is not you, man.
01:22:35 - You don't know me, man.
01:22:36 You don't know any fucking thing about me!
01:22:38 - Will, this is insane.
01:22:40 You're pointing a gun at me, at Bella.
01:22:43 - Hey, what would Shelly think if she saw what you're doing right now?
01:22:46 - Don't.
01:22:47 Don't you say her name.
01:22:49 - Whatever you think about Bella and I,
01:22:51 this is not how you want this to go down.
01:22:53 - Will, where is Shelly?
01:22:55 - Shelly, no!
01:23:00 [grunts]
01:23:01 [glass shatters]
01:23:02 [grunts]
01:23:03 [gurgling]
01:23:04 - The new carry is heavy and fierce.
01:23:07 Vanquish it now, or your heart, it will pierce.
01:23:12 Will!
01:23:13 - Brother, you're stuck in a shit cycle right now,
01:23:17 going round and round and round.
01:23:19 - You need someone to help pull you back
01:23:21 on the healthier path.
01:23:23 And that someone can be a new friend.
01:23:26 Maybe someone in this very group.
01:23:29 - Embrace the pain that dwells within,
01:23:34 for healing can start once you let it in.
01:23:37 [glass shatters]
01:23:40 - John 15-13.
01:23:43 Greater love has no limits.
01:23:45 For later, one will block but one's friends.
01:23:47 - Bible verses.
01:23:49 These are Bible verses.
01:23:51 - John 15-12.
01:23:53 My commandment.
01:23:54 Can I have a cigarette?
01:23:56 - Lady, you know you can't have a cigarette.
01:23:59 - Can I have a cigarette?
01:24:01 - No.
01:24:02 - Please, can I talk to Dr. Vaughn?
01:24:04 Can I talk to Dr. Vaughn?
01:24:06 Please.
01:24:07 - I'll help you get back.
01:24:09 - Dr. Vaughn helps us feel better.
01:24:11 - They don't want us to get better.
01:24:14 Almost like they don't want us to get better.
01:24:18 - Come on, dear.
01:24:22 That's right, my dear.
01:24:24 That's right.
01:24:25 Come on.
01:24:26 - I don't have time.
01:24:28 - It's too late.
01:24:30 Lydia's on her own path, and you are on yours, Will.
01:24:34 - That's it.
01:24:37 - See, this kind of work, it exists in two spaces.
01:24:42 A physical space
01:24:45 and a psychological space.
01:24:49 - Beautiful, Will.
01:24:51 That's beautiful.
01:24:53 You know what I see?
01:24:55 I see a dad leading his daughter by the hand.
01:25:00 - Embrace the pain that dwells within,
01:25:05 for healing can start once you let it in.
01:25:10 - It's a beautiful night, huh, Will?
01:25:13 You know, when a star dies,
01:25:18 it continues to shine its light across the universe
01:25:22 for many millenniums to come.
01:25:25 You just gotta be looking for that light.
01:25:30 (dramatic music)
01:25:33 - You're on the path now, Will.
01:25:38 - Well done.
01:25:43 An open mind and a clear heart
01:25:47 is a wonderful path for you.
01:25:50 You're a bright soul.
01:25:53 - See you later, Will.
01:25:57 You're looking good, kid.
01:25:59 - Stay on that path.
01:26:01 - The ending must occur to begin anew,
01:26:10 but only in the pure can this be true.
01:26:13 - He's still not coherent enough, Mrs. Foster.
01:26:15 The new neurasonic treatment with Dr. Vaughn seems to be working.
01:26:18 His last MRI shows much higher brain activity.
01:26:21 We just need to keep being patient.
01:26:24 I'm sorry.
01:26:27 - Thank you.
01:26:30 (footsteps)
01:26:32 - I'm gonna keep coming back.
01:26:43 And I'm gonna keep bringing this.
01:26:48 I wonder if you're gonna feel better.
01:26:51 Better enough to sign this.
01:26:58 And then I will be free.
01:27:00 And you will too.
01:27:13 (silence)
01:27:16 - The ending must occur to begin anew,
01:27:37 but only in the pure can this be true.
01:27:41 (footsteps)
01:27:44 - You need to wake up, Will.
01:27:49 (footsteps)
01:27:53 - The ending must occur to begin anew,
01:27:57 but only in the pure can this be true.
01:28:01 (keys jingling)
01:28:04 (soft music)
01:28:11 (footsteps)
01:28:14 - The ending must occur to begin anew,
01:28:35 but only in the pure can this be true.
01:28:39 (soft music)
01:28:42 - Will?
01:28:44 (soft music)
01:28:47 - The ending must occur to begin anew,
01:28:50 but only in the pure can this be true.
01:28:54 (soft music)
01:28:56 - Daddy?
01:28:58 (soft music)
01:29:01 Daddy!
01:29:03 (soft music)
01:29:06 - The ending must occur to begin anew,
01:29:09 but only in the pure can this be true.
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