"I'm actually a very normal amount of horny." Singer and actress Sabrina Carpenter finds her own gaze as she paints a portrait of herself. From her evolution in music to her journey to self-discovery, watch Sabrina convey her self-perception by breaking down the things that make her who she is today.
Director: Kristen White
Director of Photography: Shirley Chang
Editor: Louis Lalire
Talent: Sabrina Carpenter
Producer: Madison Coffey
Line Producer: Romeeka Powell
Associate Producer: Lyla Neely
Production Manager: Andressa Pelachi
Production Coordinator: Elizabeth Hymes
Camera Operator: Jeremy White
Gaffer: Niklas Moller
Audio Engineer: Michael Guggino
Production Assistant: Alex Mitchell, Malaia Simms
Post Production Supervisor: Christian Olguin
Post Production Coordinator: Scout Alter
Supervising Editor: Doug Larsen
Assistant Editor: Billy Ward
Graphics Supervisor: Ryan Powell
Designer: Lea Kichler
Animation: Samuel Fuller
Director: Kristen White
Director of Photography: Shirley Chang
Editor: Louis Lalire
Talent: Sabrina Carpenter
Producer: Madison Coffey
Line Producer: Romeeka Powell
Associate Producer: Lyla Neely
Production Manager: Andressa Pelachi
Production Coordinator: Elizabeth Hymes
Camera Operator: Jeremy White
Gaffer: Niklas Moller
Audio Engineer: Michael Guggino
Production Assistant: Alex Mitchell, Malaia Simms
Post Production Supervisor: Christian Olguin
Post Production Coordinator: Scout Alter
Supervising Editor: Doug Larsen
Assistant Editor: Billy Ward
Graphics Supervisor: Ryan Powell
Designer: Lea Kichler
Animation: Samuel Fuller
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00:00I think over the last year, I've heard from a lot of people like,
00:03wow, she's just like the horniest girl alive.
00:06You know, because sometimes in my songs, I say some crazy things on stage.
00:11But I'm actually a very normal amount of horny.
00:22Hello, I'm Sabrina Carpenter and today I'm going to be painting my self-portrait.
00:30Drawing for me is the most free-handed pastime activity that I have in my whole life.
00:38Like, I don't really ever think about it.
00:40I don't think about the outcome.
00:41I don't think about what I'm doing before I do it.
00:43I just sort of do it for fun, which I guess, in a sense,
00:46is like the most pure thing that's ever come out of my mouth.
00:48But I really do see it as more just like something I do that makes me happy,
00:52as opposed to something I do with the intention of hoping it turns out great.
00:56I think even this is like probably like a weird version of me that's like
01:00not actually what I look like in the mirror.
01:02I've just always had like light hair, dark eyebrows, blue eyes.
01:07And I didn't realize that that would be the thing that kind of
01:11haunts me for the rest of my life because like my bangs and my dark eyebrows,
01:14like I can't really, even wearing a mask doesn't really do much
01:18if I'm trying to be, you know, incognito.
01:21I think for me right now, you aren't ever really going to fully control
01:25the way that people see you.
01:26That is something I have to reaccept kind of every day.
01:29I'm at a point now where I'm trying to just sort of not take it so seriously.
01:34And the things that people say, just know that these are people that have
01:39very little context on me as an actual person.
01:42So that makes me feel a little bit better.
01:44But if I'm going to be super rude, I'm going to be super rude.
01:47But if I'm going to be super real, like do I like that someone can just take
01:52a photo from the craziest angle on human earth?
01:55No, but because I'm a girl and I'm, you know,
01:58that's what maybe is my least favorite thing about being on tour.
02:01So I'll be like, that's what I look like, but it's a video.
02:05So I'll just be like, no, that was some other girl.
02:08That was my alter ego.
02:09That wasn't me out there.
02:11It hasn't really shifted other than the fact that I think it's really
02:15exciting and heartwarming now that when, you know, people come up to me,
02:18it's because of the songs that I write.
02:20I mean, they're so close to me and they're so personal.
02:22It's like an extension of me.
02:23Whereas, you know, shows and different films I've worked on have,
02:26they're a collaboration of so many different people coming together to create a product
02:30as opposed to just, you know, all the pressure sort of being on me and the words I'm saying.
02:35I've always felt the safest to create when I'm in the recording studio.
02:40Specifically, like I have some favorite studios of mine and they usually have
02:44a very like outdoor essence to them.
02:47I love being close to the outdoors when I'm writing.
02:50It's where I've always just felt kind of the safest to experiment.
02:53At least when you're in the studio, like nothing has to be final.
02:56Nothing has to come out.
02:58So I feel really free to just kind of try things.
03:01The one album that inspired me to really follow my gut in experimenting with genre
03:08and not limiting myself was Lemonade.
03:12Like it really transcended every genre.
03:13She had kind of a little bit of everything in that album.
03:15And that really made me feel like I didn't have to just stay in a box from there on out.
03:20So thanks, Beyoncé.
03:21I love you.
03:25It's a bit of a shit show right now as I'm 24.
03:28A process of making mistakes and not trying to like stay up every night thinking about
03:33those mistakes, but rather just being like this was bound to happen as you are 24 and
03:38give yourself some grace to move on and learn from it and maybe write songs about it.
03:42So I think it's a mixture of that and then a mixture of just trying not to take it all
03:46so seriously and have fun.
03:49And I guess essentially what they say are the times you're going to like look back on
03:52and feel like you were really forming a lot of
03:55So I try to give myself the opportunity to do that.
03:58I try to like make decisions now that, you know, maybe I'd be too afraid to make because
04:03I'm young and I can get away with more.
04:05I'm on the bangs.
04:06This is looking great.
04:08I literally cut my bangs because someone broke my heart and I was just like, I have to do
04:12something.
04:13And I'm not usually one of those people that has to make like rash decisions when their
04:17feelings are hurt.
04:18But that was my like first reaction to it.
04:21But I never wanted to dye my hair because I always really felt comfortable as, you know,
04:25blonde the way I was born.
04:27I really think that the beauty of being this age is some days you can feel like truly borderline
04:36so conceited and obnoxiously confident.
04:39And then all it takes is like, you know, a little bit of self-love and a little bit of
04:45like, you know, a little bit of like, you know, a little bit of like, you know, a little
04:50It takes all it takes is like someone saying one thing that just strikes a chord in you
04:53to be like, I'm actually the ugliest person ever exist.
04:56And then it kind of is a big, you know, flip flop.
04:58But I think for me, I feel like I have better things to worry about than the way that I
05:03look.
05:11Yes, I do feel, yeah, like I'm not gonna lie, like I definitely feel like a little bit more
05:17pressure on like, you know, the words that I choose to say and just in general kind of
05:23like decisions.
05:24But I then also have to think about it on the scale of like, if, you know, the people
05:29that are judging my answers so harshly and critically were put in the same position,
05:34like would they nail it and crush it every time?
05:36Probably not.
05:38So then I feel a little bit better.
05:39I think over the last year, I've heard from a lot of people like, wow, like she's just
05:44like the horniest girl alive, because sometimes in my songs, I say some crazy things on stage.
05:49But I'm actually a very normal amount of horny.
05:52And also just, you know, a lot of it is because I'm able to kind of have fun and play.
05:57And, you know, when I'm doing these live shows, it's just a matter of not taking things too
06:02seriously.
06:03And I love play on words.
06:05And I love funny innuendos.
06:08It's just always been something that makes me laugh.
06:10So yeah, I'm not, I'm not the horniest girl alive, for sure.
06:18A lot of people have careers that I admire for different reasons.
06:21Stevie Nicks is one of my favorite artists.
06:23He's just such a legend.
06:25Margot Robbie is someone I love.
06:27I like the choices that she makes and how she kind of is able to really take her own
06:32choices that she makes and how she kind of is able to really showcase herself and all
06:37her talents in very different ways and produces a lot of the stuff that she makes.
06:40I think that's really impressive and amazing.
06:42Zendaya, I'm obsessed with Zendaya.
06:45And I think that she's always, again, kind of really just remained so true to herself.
06:52I would say in the last few years, especially, like people that have come into my life have
06:55really affected the music that I've made and what I've written about and what has felt
06:59important enough to write about.
07:03I'm actually quitting to become a professional painter in France.
07:11And yeah, I'm only specifically making paintings for the Louvre right now, exclusively.
07:19But I might write another song at some point.
07:23I almost love, like, playing on the idea of like what a pop star is or isn't,
07:28because I think it's so many different things.
07:30But no, I like being a pop star.
07:32I'm not going to lie.
07:33I have so many tricks up my sleeve.
07:36My favorite thing about this time of my life is I feel really, really inspired to just
07:40continue to write and write about the things that confuse me and make me happy and make
07:45me sad and make me excited.
07:46And, you know, I think I felt a lot more comfortable in my own voice after my last album came out.
07:53And just that tour brought me a lot closer to my fans.
07:56And I can just kind of have fun with it now, which is nice.
07:59Honestly, the pandemic sort of did a lot for me, because I just really realized in
08:03that period of time that all of this is very uncertain.
08:07And it makes me happy to write music, regardless of if someone hears it or no one hears it.
08:14Like, I just love writing music because I love it.
08:16And that made me kind of want to just feel a little bit more loose in what I was writing
08:23and not having to worry so much about the aftermath of it all.
08:27More just like, this is what feels honest.
08:29And it felt like a really big weight off my shoulders.
08:32I think my whole thing is I just want to keep surprising myself
08:35and learning that I can do things I didn't know I could.
08:37Like this painting.
08:38I really am not like a painter.
08:40I'm more of a drawer.
08:41So the painting was like a little scary to me.
08:42But this is really therapeutic.
08:45I'm not gonna lie.
08:45I've gotten paint everywhere.
08:47But other than that, like, this is super chill.
08:50I'm done.
08:52Should I sign it?
08:52Voila, question mark.
09:01Do I have to, like, look like that?
09:02Because then they're gonna be like, that looks nothing like her.
09:05So in my head, this is what I look like.
09:09I think that's something that we all need to remember more, though, is like,
09:11these answers are fleeting as I am changing and evolving, like, every two seconds.
09:16Same with everybody, you know?