With his marriage to Audrey almost at an end, Ben begins a torrid affair with Mercedes, a young French student in his writing class. The affair soon spins out of control, their emotions and Ben and Audrey's family hanging in the balance.
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00:01:44Hold on
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00:03:06It's three degrees above freezing point and yet it is snowing said you're off to his daughter's
00:03:15The thaw is only on the surface of the earth
00:03:19There is quite a different temperature at a greater height in the atmosphere
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00:03:27Off had two lives
00:03:30One open seen and known by all who cared to know
00:03:38Full of relative truth and relative falsehood
00:03:47And another life running its course in secret
00:03:53You
00:03:55Everything that was essential of interest and of value to him
00:04:00everything in which he was sincere and
00:04:04Everything in which he did not deceive himself
00:04:08Was hidden from other people
00:04:13And all that was false in him was exposed
00:04:23His hair was already beginning to turn gray
00:04:29He had grown so much older so much plainer during the last few years
00:04:34He rested his hands
00:04:37shoulders
00:04:40Quivering
00:04:43I
00:04:48Think I'm going to stop seeing philip
00:04:52What my son I'm going to stop seeing him
00:04:57What I think he helped me
00:05:03I told a dream that I had
00:05:06Where I piss
00:05:12Once I've done a rendezvous on the sofa in the hospital
00:05:16You have a partner but part of it once parlay
00:05:23If you're approaching the plus-en-plus of you and we love it much as I see
00:05:29Just as the nose you know so I can call you come closer and some
00:05:34Come on
00:05:37Oh
00:05:40Come on
00:05:44But you know this you take it
00:05:47Maybe one of the puffers you don't want him and he's a to do it
00:05:56It's possible game
00:05:58just about
00:05:59Now more have to declare kill it. Tell me I didn't want to come back. I'm gonna give me a tease
00:06:06Oh
00:06:13Fuck
00:06:19She embarked it suit such a voucher. I'm a day on check on board
00:06:25Just a little fab on the
00:06:28PGD
00:06:31And make more maintenance
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00:06:37Stay calm
00:06:39Impassive
00:06:55You know I'm a toss it really far she
00:06:57Oh
00:07:00Come see you love it right
00:07:03He did tell me this in one
00:07:07But
00:07:19It's pomegranate
00:07:23But Johnson madam
00:07:28She's about to become a set of zero
00:07:41He felt compassion for this life still so warm and lovely
00:07:47But probably already not far from beginning to fade and with her like his own
00:07:53Why did she love him so much?
00:07:56He always seemed to women different from what he was and
00:08:01They loved in him not himself
00:08:04But the man created by their imagination
00:08:09When they had eagerly been seeking all their lives
00:08:15And afterwards when they noticed their mistake
00:08:19They loved him all the same
00:08:22But not one of them had been happy with him
00:08:26I'm past
00:08:30He got on with them parted, but he had never once loved
00:08:38It was anything you like but not love
00:08:44Only now when his head was gray had he fallen properly really in love for the first time in his life
00:08:51It seemed as though in a little while a new and splendid life would begin
00:08:58But the most complicated and difficult part of it was only just beginning
00:09:21I
00:09:51I
00:10:21I
00:10:23I
00:10:25I
00:10:27I
00:10:29I
00:10:50Yeah, but I'm gonna be people who fell in love
00:10:53Yes, I'm gonna be in my sword and stuff
00:11:01I'm not going to class
00:11:04Please come on. Stop. I know you can play the melody. Let's play them to us
00:11:08It's a chance that people
00:11:11Come on
00:11:14It's because I'm approaching
00:11:22I
00:11:52I
00:11:58Most of the time it seems like and I didn't even like her off. She's always crying
00:12:02She's crying because she doesn't want to love him because she doesn't love him
00:12:07But he despises women. Where does it say that?
00:12:10Well, he cheats on his wife
00:12:12Congratulations, you read the synopsis
00:12:15Well, he says they're a lesser race, but he also says giraffes at ease around women
00:12:19But how can you be at ease around someone you hate it's easy, how's that
00:12:25He's comfortable around them because he despises them like he's insecure
00:12:34Okay, does anyone want to contest that
00:12:45Can you support your argument
00:12:49I
00:13:00Was surprised to see you at the reading the other night I was surprised there weren't more of us
00:13:06Faculty I saw you come in and I got really stressed out of me
00:13:11Why is that?
00:13:13Well, I thought you might catch on that. I didn't really understand what I was reading
00:13:18You seem confident enough I
00:13:21Was hoping you could clarify it for me sure which part hold on can can I just read it to you? Yeah
00:13:36Any time
00:13:44Hmm
00:13:48The attitude of Anna Sargievna the lady with the dog
00:13:52To what had happened was very grave as though it were her fall
00:13:57Her face dropped and faded and on both sides of it
00:14:01Her hair hung down mournfully like the woman who was a sinner in an old-fashioned picture
00:14:06It's wrong. She said you will be the first to despise me now
00:14:11There was a watermelon on the table
00:14:14Giraffe cut himself a slice and began eating it without haste
00:14:18There followed at least half an hour of silence
00:14:25I'm missing something
00:14:29She's suffering but he
00:14:33He doesn't feel any remorse Oh
00:14:38Do you think he's callous
00:14:40callous cruel
00:14:42No, I
00:14:44just thought
00:14:46The image the juicy pink pulp of the fruit
00:14:51He ate it slowly
00:14:56There's just what you're reading and what it feels like you're reading
00:15:02You're reading whatever it is you think you're reading
00:15:05You
00:15:10You know, it's none of my business but if you want to work on your accent I can help what's wrong with my accent
00:15:15nothing, it's just
00:15:18There and you have an accent too
00:15:24Can I use your password sorry
00:15:27Yes in can I use your password for the copy machine three three four four. Thank you. Sorry
00:15:36Well, thank you sir
00:15:48Mercedes
00:15:53You didn't by any chance leave something outside my door this morning, huh
00:16:01This morning did you leave something on
00:16:05Outside my door here. No, no, you know what? I'm sorry. Never mind. What was it? No, it's okay. What was it?
00:16:15Nothing
00:16:35I
00:17:06Just read me the Zorda congelator
00:17:18It's a ton of more of it
00:17:23Come on no, no, it's a use man
00:17:31It's all about Castillo
00:17:35I
00:17:38Did you and I moved with you
00:17:42New
00:17:45That's what I have it's perfect for the person
00:17:49They need to knock me don't coach
00:17:52The quad I don't pathology. No, man, it's a way
00:17:57The process is a member of France a pathology. Oh, yes, I see. Okay, perfect. I see
00:18:06I
00:18:08Will come back to help you with that
00:18:12I have to go back to the job
00:18:21Okay
00:18:35I
00:18:37I
00:19:04Applied for the editor opening
00:19:07That's good
00:19:09They won't even interview me because I never finished my degree
00:19:14Translating is not so bad
00:19:18You could always try a McGill part-time
00:19:22Or I can go back to the southern and we could all live in Paris for a while be near my family
00:19:29If I go to Paris, I can't be English chair
00:19:37You
00:19:43Still writing for the girls
00:19:50You know, we do have all the classics we have Milne Rackham Potter Harry, right
00:20:00Okay, fine
00:20:02I'm not saying to stop. So what are you saying? I don't know
00:20:07Nothing, I guess you want to write something for them, too
00:20:16Or I can just read them checkup
00:20:37I
00:20:41Say these are you okay? I just wanted to drop off my essay
00:20:49Follow me
00:20:58So, what can I get you minty, please sure and for yourself
00:21:08You
00:21:15Can relax
00:21:17Pardon, I show up at your office looking a little roughed up
00:21:21You're thinking
00:21:23My dad my boyfriend. I didn't assume I just well, I couldn't ignore it. I
00:21:30Didn't mean to embarrass you. I'm not embarrassed
00:21:34Are you
00:21:37So what happened I
00:21:40Walked into a bookshelf
00:21:42Believe me. I wish it was a euphemism
00:21:46Don't say that
00:21:48It will make for a better story anyway
00:21:51Sorry to disappoint
00:21:54So you are you're all right then how on all right would I have to be
00:22:01For what
00:22:08If
00:22:10You didn't understand the Chekhov text, why did you decide to to read it the other night?
00:22:16Because my own stuff hasn't quite made it into the cannon I
00:22:21Don't know I guess it seemed important
00:22:27It's the perfect short story I've been going back to it most of my adult life
00:22:37So you you write I try
00:22:45You I mean, I know you used to but still yes, yep
00:22:51I'd love to read your newest stuff. Oh, yeah, so you can give me some feedback
00:23:00I'm sorry. I just
00:23:02Um
00:23:06Do you write in French
00:23:11English oh, yeah, what is that?
00:23:15I don't know
00:23:17It takes a lot longer a
00:23:20Lot longer
00:23:23But it helps me get out of
00:23:30I don't know
00:23:32Myself I guess
00:23:53I want to have dinner with you
00:23:56I
00:24:00Get the other side if it helped don't do that. Yeah, I'm not very appetizing
00:24:09It's always been against my principles to fratelize with the students
00:24:13I
00:24:23Came
00:24:43Oh
00:25:09Nothing just
00:25:14What time are you coming home tonight
00:25:17It's hard to say he just got his divorce papers. So
00:25:20He's in rough shape
00:25:21Could you try to be home for 10? Well, John will probably only be shaving at 10
00:25:26We're feeding eight people tomorrow. I could really use a little help
00:25:31Okay, I'll try
00:25:34And I have some good news too, so okay, no 10 o'clock sounds good
00:25:39If
00:25:41You tell me what you're looking for maybe I can help you it's just an old album that John lent me in a past life
00:25:47Which album?
00:25:50Fingerprints beat more so now they have said of red just a month. Oh
00:25:57Merci
00:26:09I
00:26:39You
00:26:49Want the old one
00:26:54Audrey thinks she's writing a novel
00:26:58She wants to be a novelist to
00:27:00Not to I published conference papers and run a department so she can pretend she is the next Dan Brown
00:27:06Still
00:27:09You wrote a great novel I wrote a mid list collection of short stories my friend that's all
00:27:18Are you two fighting a lot? No
00:27:22No, never
00:27:24We never fight
00:27:26we
00:27:30Pass each other in the stairs
00:27:32Man and wife can't help quarreling if they love each other
00:27:39Check off
00:27:43It's different for you
00:27:45Having kids sort of prevents you from moving life's furniture around so easily
00:28:02Oh
00:28:32Oh
00:28:34What don't know
00:28:59Always wanted a scrappy hipster what am I let?
00:29:04No, yeah, no, she's my student and she's too young
00:29:10What's the age of consent these days
00:29:16You got tips
00:29:20Okay, I gotta go I promised Audrey I'd help her out with dinner tomorrow and go
00:29:26another IPA and a glass of house red
00:29:30Get this one drunk
00:29:34I
00:30:04I
00:30:06I
00:30:31What's what I'm not going for
00:30:36I can get back out if you want
00:30:39Where are you going?
00:31:06What
00:31:12Do you
00:31:29I'm taken with you
00:31:32As I think you know
00:31:36But I'm taken
00:32:06I
00:32:37I
00:32:40Have arrows to run today, so I brought the girls to Claire's can you pick them up at four?
00:32:47Yeah, I'm Mila
00:32:50Okay. Yeah, I
00:32:52Don't have to go to the office so I can I can get them later
00:32:55Robitaille de Rochelle
00:33:06I
00:33:36I
00:34:06I
00:34:36I
00:35:06I
00:35:15Were you waiting for me behind the door come in
00:35:25It's a very nice place you have thank you you want some tea, please
00:35:36I
00:35:57Vanilla mint ginger
00:36:02Tension tamer
00:36:05Mint please
00:36:11Looks like you're healing nicely
00:36:28How do you pay for this place my parents pay for it
00:36:34Somehow I forgot that you would have parents
00:36:59How did I get here I brought you here
00:37:04I
00:37:08Leave it
00:37:19Is that okay
00:37:34Oh
00:37:58No, not that old guy she thought
00:38:01It's just what happens now you take off my clothes and then
00:38:12I'm sorry
00:38:17Mercedes I
00:38:20Can't remember the last time I felt as alive as I do right here with you on this sofa
00:38:25It's okay. I won't undress you Allah
00:38:30I'll amputate myself and we can be just friends
00:39:00I
00:39:30I
00:40:01I
00:40:07Could go off I've eaten a watermelon
00:40:30I
00:40:53Sorry, I have you been waiting long
00:40:58How did your corrections go
00:41:00I
00:41:01Haven't made a dent. Oh
00:41:04I thought you were at school. Yeah, I was
00:41:08I'm hungover
00:41:11It was slow
00:41:17Should we bring anything tonight?
00:41:20Shit I'm supposed to get wine Richard will grab something good from the cellar
00:41:30I
00:41:38Can't hear
00:41:54Okay, I
00:41:57I
00:41:59Had a meeting with that colleague I introduced you to
00:42:05Last night
00:42:10Where did this meeting take place
00:42:15My colleagues always
00:42:20Well, that should work out for all of you I guess
00:42:26Don't beat me get laid get fired move to Paris
00:42:33All right, why don't we get Audrey in here and picture that angle
00:42:43I think I might be serious
00:42:48I've known you for 20 years. You're not that guy
00:42:57You
00:43:01You're eating Karina, are you gonna eat that? Okay. That's it over there
00:43:10See Erica
00:43:12I
00:43:15I
00:43:40Can meet a prop come see see
00:43:44I
00:43:47Can't marry much
00:43:49Never unconscionable
00:43:52Yeah
00:44:03It's a bit
00:44:07Should be to fuck it shows
00:44:11The princess
00:44:15I
00:44:19Know
00:44:21To the possible
00:44:25So for a part of the system system, I don't know what's up over
00:44:35Excuse me
00:44:40It's good
00:44:44I
00:45:15They sell a month
00:45:23That's all the people get that I should say so sure. Yeah. Yeah, but what's what's what?
00:45:31That I can see you think about them, okay, okay, but I'm gonna push it
00:45:36It's gonna come back
00:45:40We
00:45:44I
00:45:53Will make that part of the divorce on cause a part of this beautiful. Yeah, that's just a man
00:45:58Michelle and Deanna are divorcing over money. They're divorcing for the same reason that Michelle is fucking
00:46:04I
00:46:10Miss a fuck-up, you know, but they do something about you simply. Oh
00:46:15Apparently and this is just what I heard. So take it or leave it but
00:46:19while Stefan and Elise are
00:46:22bragging about the renovations
00:46:34Okay, guys, um, I have good news I
00:46:39Finished my novel
00:46:44Thank you, it's nicely done sweetheart, it's great. Hey, um, he's a trooper. I need to talk even people
00:46:59Seriously
00:47:02Who is it
00:47:04Say no, I'm not in Paris. Hey, come on a few months ago
00:47:09They asked to read the manuscript, but I figure it was a long shot
00:47:12So I didn't say anything and I didn't want to seem like a loser. No, of course
00:47:21Yeah, yeah
00:47:25Well, yes you I have some editing to do but they want to launch it in the summer. Oh
00:47:32I can't wait to read it. Even if it goes right over my head. Don't worry it won't a
00:47:39Toast to making dreams come true
00:47:47Congratulations Audrey is fantastic
00:47:49Okay
00:47:59Okay, stop
00:48:04What's going on with you I hope that's not Claire's influence what
00:48:09She did us a favor. They're getting spoiled. They don't know the value of a dollar
00:48:14A box is only 89 cents. Yeah, you're all more than happy to spend my money
00:48:21Okay, get out of me get
00:48:32You more than happy to keep me from making my own
00:48:34Why
00:48:42Why aren't you interested in my dreams sometimes I feel like I'm talking to a child
00:48:49No, I
00:48:51Sacrificed my dreams a long time ago
00:48:53You were living in Paris and you were with that asshole and you were miserable and I brought you over here and I gave you
00:48:59a new life and
00:49:01two beautiful girls
00:49:04Hello see to the end
00:49:10You know if I finished my PhD I could earn more and we could both have more time to write
00:49:20I'm gonna take the girls out of that private school put them in public. I
00:49:27Don't want them to turn into egocentric snobs
00:49:30You keep everyone in this house from having the education you have
00:49:39It's a kill ego centric
00:49:56Oh Ben
00:49:59I was wondering if you got the exam schedule yet. Yes. Yes, I do actually I
00:50:04Want to post my extra office hours, and they'd have no excuse
00:50:08There you go. Thanks. No problem
00:50:11Ben
00:50:14This is uh, this is a student's class schedule. Oh
00:50:22Weird
00:50:24Don't know how that got in there. Hold on a second. I'm gonna
00:50:27It's okay, I'll get it from you later
00:50:36Sava
00:50:45To put on put on put on Mercedes
00:50:56You
00:51:26You
00:51:56I
00:52:26Are you going
00:52:32And how would you like to pay is cash, okay. Yes, but I'll still need your credit card to complete your check-in
00:52:39For incidentals
00:52:46Do you have a credit card fine, what is it? It's for incidentals. They won't actually use it. It's just
00:52:56I
00:53:26You
00:53:56You
00:54:09Questions about this
00:54:12What nine dollars from a minibar on a Wednesday afternoon
00:54:27What's this
00:54:31That's some of my new stuff
00:54:34You
00:54:56You
00:55:26You
00:55:56You
00:56:26I
00:56:56So
00:57:06What what do you think oh
00:57:12It looks efficient
00:57:26I
00:57:56Can't understand I thought it's a pretty straightforward. Sorry. I was trying to come up with something interesting to say. Oh
00:58:10Hey, if you explain the assignment to me, I'll buy you
00:58:26I
00:58:56I
00:59:27Oh fuck me
00:59:39Whoa professor, hey, hey, I gave Mercedes is here to not join us
00:59:48Okay
00:59:56And
01:00:08Women like his wife
01:00:10capricious
01:00:12unreflecting
01:00:14demeanoring an
01:00:16Intelligent woman no longer in their first youth and when Gaurav grew cold to them
01:00:23Their beauty excited his hatred and the lace on their linen seemed to him like scales
01:00:38You're right beautiful story
01:00:40So
01:00:49That's your people I know it's on the large air France on the mix what my editor wants to meet with me and I'm going
01:01:02There's lasagna in the fridge
01:01:10I
01:01:40I
01:02:02Come in she's just a possible. I'm up
01:02:04Come on I haven't seen you in a while
01:02:15It's a sick look
01:02:35I
01:02:48Was your date with Dave I tried to help him with the paper, but I might have just confused him
01:02:57I
01:03:04Could you concentrate on ruining my life and let other guys fuck up on their own
01:03:10So the poppy I'm Angela I
01:03:14Know I'm sorry
01:03:16The people
01:03:18I
01:03:27Feel it's easy not to feel jealous of other men when I'm inside you
01:03:40After not seeing each other for a while
01:03:43All these inoffensive young boys swirling around you make me feel uneasy
01:03:48and
01:03:53Nothing I just wanted to see you
01:04:18I
01:04:48I
01:05:18I
01:05:48I
01:06:18I
01:06:20I
01:06:47Think she's slipping away from me
01:06:51I
01:06:53Know unconsciously either. I mean strategically good. So make a clean getaway
01:07:02I'm in love with her
01:07:04Jesus
01:07:06Some young girl sucks your dick and you unbuckle all emotional restraints. I can't consider. I just can't
01:07:12You're dropping everything in your life. That's valuable and ordinary exactly. It's ordinary. What's wrong with being ordinary nothing
01:07:20I
01:07:25Let her go episodes of CSI start like this
01:07:33Themes of boredom and futility were probably inspired by the
01:07:37surf
01:07:39emancipation reform in Russia in 1861
01:07:44that boredom
01:07:47created a space of
01:07:50Transcendence for Gurav and Anna when they are together
01:07:55but
01:07:57when
01:08:00They are apart
01:08:14Gurav kept walking up and down the street by the fence waiting for his chance
01:08:20He loathed the gray fence more and more and by now, he thought irritably that Anna Sergei Yevna had forgotten him
01:08:31But she was perhaps already amusing herself with someone else and
01:08:36That was very natural in a young woman
01:08:40Who had nothing to look at from morning till night, but that confounded fence
01:08:51Oh
01:08:53David so are we gonna spend all semester on a 25 page story?
01:09:21Oh
01:09:24Alice I can but it's America
01:09:29No, but it was simple
01:09:36I stopped the fridge. Don't forget to eat
01:09:50I
01:09:52Oh
01:10:17So, what are you guys gonna do
01:10:22I
01:10:53I
01:11:14Can't find my book. Have you seen it? What would we know?
01:11:20Where did you get that?
01:11:23Oh
01:11:39What what is it what's the matter? Oh
01:11:48Whoa, whoa, okay. Okay
01:11:52Oh
01:12:04Sweetie go back to bed. Your sister's not feeling well. Oh
01:12:15Hi, hi did I wake you
01:12:18The the girls are sick and they won't stop throwing up and I don't know what to do
01:12:22I don't even know where the thermometer is
01:12:47I
01:13:17I
01:13:45Everything okay
01:13:47I
01:14:17I
01:14:27Come I get to have everything I want
01:14:33And I know it's only for a minute and soon everything around us is gonna go to hell
01:14:48What is it
01:14:57My favorite thing to eat is leftover Kraft dinner
01:15:04We eat it with ketchup
01:15:11Okay, I have this bad habit of biting my fingernails
01:15:18And spitting them out on the floor
01:15:21Because it is a little
01:15:25Just for you that will come over you go
01:15:28Just a champagne second piazza, but you butcher
01:15:34So she won't be able to tell us about Johnny come
01:15:43She need to leave the shop early
01:15:48She goes on drink
01:15:51Is it good?
01:15:53Manipulative. Hey, hey, hey
01:15:57It's okay
01:16:01It's okay
01:16:10I'm trying to figure out whether you think they're telling me these things will make you less attractive to me
01:16:18Because you consider them defects of character
01:16:23Or more attractive
01:16:26Because telling them built intimacy
01:16:44I think I already knew most of these things about you anyway
01:16:48but
01:16:50I also know that
01:16:53That you are a miracle a felicitous combination
01:17:01And that you'll probably go through life both untroubled by your
01:17:06Extraordinary qualities and surprised at the clamor that they excited other people
01:17:13And
01:17:16This among other things is what I love you
01:17:36That annoyed you
01:17:42I don't have any questions. No, it's not an exchange of hostages
01:18:12You
01:18:42I
01:19:12There's also the possibility that the list was just a stylish way of you saying goodbye to me
01:19:36If you've become so unhappy to know me that you have to say goodbye
01:19:42Don't do it like that
01:19:51My Anna
01:20:01Hmm it tastes like licorice
01:20:03Licorice
01:20:12What is it?
01:20:16Hey, what is it I
01:20:25Just feel really fucked up
01:20:30Mercedes
01:20:33You're young and and and that comes with a harshness both to yourself and to me
01:20:41It's a severe edge that that life has a way of sanding down
01:20:46We are going to be amazing
01:20:56As possible cash
01:21:04And
01:21:06What are you doing with me
01:21:10What are you doing to me
01:21:14What
01:21:33I
01:21:38Told her
01:21:46I told her
01:21:49It's my
01:21:56I feel like I killed her
01:22:03I
01:22:17How are your parents Oh dad is looking a little thin but mom is compensating
01:22:34And
01:22:36Your flight I'm still cold. We're at 30,000 feet
01:22:47And
01:22:50Your novel good everything is signed and ready should be released in the fall
01:23:04Oh
01:23:21Professor Roberts, you should come to this reading
01:23:33You
01:24:03You
01:24:20That looks stunning on you special occasion
01:24:29Yes
01:24:33I
01:25:03I
01:25:33I
01:26:03I
01:26:33Slow down, please
01:26:37Are you in a rush? No
01:26:43Christine is a guest pass for you got tonight. I want to check it out tonight's not good
01:26:48I told John I was gonna help him find a new place, but I guess pass is only good for tonight
01:26:52Oh, you didn't get a babysitter. I just I've been with the girls all week. I could use a break
01:26:57Parents don't get breaks
01:27:00Says the woman who goes to Paris and spends her days novel writing fine, whatever
01:27:10Did you ever find that album you were looking for for John yeah
01:27:20I'm gonna go in. It's gonna get some milk
01:27:30I
01:27:32Henry woke up at almost zero hour
01:27:35in the cold morning house
01:27:37The sound of his oldest daughter Leslie who had popped up out of sleep to shout to her father
01:27:43That she had an insect in her ear
01:27:59You
01:28:19You're Anna Sergeyevna
01:28:26It's too young
01:28:29You
01:28:36Beautiful
01:28:41Intelligent
01:28:56You slept with her
01:29:00You
01:29:03Henry woke up at almost zero hour in the cold morning house
01:29:09To the sound of his oldest daughter Leslie who had popped up out of sleep to shout to her father that she had an insect
01:29:17In her ear a professor to never sit a business is it you don't?
01:29:24Original
01:29:30I'm going out stay with the girls
01:29:41Henry attended to her and read to her and
01:29:44Then looked after his baby girl Sophie who will not accept the pacifier and insisted on the bottle
01:29:59You
01:30:24And as she was drinking and Henry was changing her diaper
01:30:28He thought about Helen
01:30:31that they could never be together and
01:30:34Then Leslie in her sleep said very distinctly
01:30:38That's not true
01:30:40And glancing sideways at that galaxy of guilt and disgrace
01:30:46Henry could suddenly contemplate even calculate the smash-up the carnage
01:30:52Perhaps even the surviving
01:30:58You
01:31:10But I'm trying that they sit
01:31:23Decree very much again
01:31:28I
01:31:43Was great. Oh, thank you. I got a table over here. But sorry
01:31:58I
01:32:00I
01:32:26Tell me what to say
01:32:30Fuck you. Thank you
01:32:34Tell me what to say
01:32:37Tell me what I'm supposed to feel because I don't know
01:32:44Jesus
01:32:51It's me, right
01:33:01Are you still writing about me?
01:33:06Yes
01:33:17Read it to me
01:33:20Which part whichever
01:33:23No
01:33:25No
01:33:26this part
01:33:28here
01:33:31You
01:33:38To Henry
01:33:41It felt like hypocrisy
01:33:44Wanting to hold on to the safe minimum dose of him no matter how his vital signs might flutter
01:33:53She wanted
01:33:55Somehow
01:33:57To put the genie back in the bottle
01:34:01She
01:34:02wanted
01:34:04somehow
01:34:06To be able to love him and not love him at the same time
01:34:12She wanted somehow
01:34:15To throw herself at the danger and the pain of loving him
01:34:20But realized that what she needed was comfort and safety
01:34:30You
01:35:00You
01:35:30You
01:36:00You
01:36:30You
01:36:47Continue this at 132. I'm all the way up to 198
01:36:53We're going to see each other. It's like the water is rising from the exercise
01:36:56There will be no difference between the sky and the sea
01:37:00So I'm a boo see how I'm all the way
01:37:31I
01:37:32Had a dream last night. I
01:37:35Was riding the park 80 bus
01:37:38the driver a woman
01:37:40Was new and learning
01:37:44Her instructor another woman sat to her right and behind her
01:37:51While another employees had behind her to her left
01:38:00All women all talkative and high-spirited
01:38:05The bus stopped
01:38:08Children got on a
01:38:12Little basket with morsels of cake was passed around
01:38:17Some talk of buying wine a
01:38:22Festive atmosphere
01:38:25Then we were mounting the slope towards more wire and
01:38:30from over the crest of the snowy park, we saw people running towards us and
01:38:38Behind them a helicopter
01:38:42The helicopter was shooting it was shooting at the running people
01:38:48And
01:38:54Then we saw it fire rockets at the tall building at pocket deep a and
01:39:00The snow of the park erupted in huge blue flashes of bombs going off
01:39:07And then the bus began to sway and baby scream
01:39:13Would it kill you to say what you mean
01:39:16Ben it's over Ben. I've been phasing you out of my feelings Ben. I don't love you anymore
01:39:23To me
01:39:30Wish I could give you some sense of the things I see in you
01:39:34You love me next to this
01:39:38You're running away
01:39:45I
01:39:49Did listen to play Mercedes
01:39:55Do
01:40:00Do
01:40:02God
01:40:14We drove through black clouds of smoke
01:40:20To our left the pavement was piled up in a high ridge of broken slabs
01:40:33The door of the bus opened and panicking riders hurled themselves out onto the rushing road
01:40:44We were moving very fast
01:40:48The driver was now a man
01:40:55It's war a voice said and another it's civil war
01:41:02I woke up
01:41:32I
01:42:02Do
01:42:32I
01:43:02You