Summer Solstice (2024) Full Movie

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00:00:00The surgery. What can I say about it? Other than that, it changed everything. All it took
00:00:13was my whole life. All that pain. All that struggle. And 8 hours under anesthesia. I
00:00:30went from a caterpillar to a butterfly. And now, I'm me. Can't you see? I'm finally me.
00:00:48Can't you see me for who I truly am? What more do I have to do? Okay, thanks. That's
00:00:56enough. Uh, sorry. No, that was great. Thanks for that. Thank you. As you know, the casting
00:01:04call is for a transgender male or transgender female. Just for our records, which one are
00:01:10you? Oh, uh, um, trans man. Trans male. Trans man. Great, thanks. We'll be in contact.
00:01:21Hey, I just got out of the audition, which was a little... Yeah, on that front, bad news. Wait,
00:01:43they already passed? I was just up there 30 seconds ago. Yeah, sorry, Leo. They said they're
00:01:52going in a different direction. Different direction. Well, at least they're efficient.
00:01:57Onwards and upwards. Look, the real reason I'm calling is because you're confirmed. The call
00:02:04back? Yep, the call back. It's Monday, 2 p.m. at the production offices. They want you to read
00:02:09the same scene, so I'll send you the size. I already have it memorized. Wonderful. You're
00:02:14gonna kill it. Zip. Zap. Zap. Zap. Zip. Zap. Zap. Zip. Zap. Zap. Zip. Got it. Are you okay?
00:02:43Yeah, I'm just... Remember, Leo, you are a worm. You're not pretending to be a worm, okay? Loosen up.
00:03:13So I'm auditioning for this teen movie, Vampire. Really? That's awesome. You're gonna be like a
00:03:25vampire? I mean, I'm gonna be a human. Oh, okay. But I might turn into a vampire later on.
00:03:43Hi. Sorry I'm late.
00:04:13I feel like I came this close to booking. My agent said they pinned me. That's fantastic.
00:04:37It'd be fantastic to book. Yeah, how was your audition? They passed, but I do have this call
00:04:47back for... The serious regular thing? Yeah. Leo, that's great. Yeah, I feel really... Do you see my
00:04:53shirt? Oh, um... Oh, there you go. Would you want to go to this reading my friend's doing this weekend?
00:05:06Sure. But not, like, as a date, right? Totally. Because I don't want to ruin our dynamic.
00:05:17I think we work really well together as scene partners. I definitely wouldn't want to mess up our
00:05:24classroom chemistry. Good. I'm glad we're on the same page.
00:05:37What are you doing tonight? I've got a date. Cool. What are you up to?
00:05:43Uh, going to a friend's party, I think. Oh. Yeah.
00:05:49Yeah.
00:06:04Hello? Surprise! Surprise.
00:06:08Squirrel! Squirrel. You gorgeous creature.
00:06:20Ah, you look so different! A year in vitamin tea will do that. Vitamin tea?
00:06:26Oh my god, right. Of course, of course. Come on in. Okay.
00:06:31Yeah. You really don't have to roll out the red carpet. I'm only staying a night. That's fine.
00:06:42Well, thank you. So, what are you doing in New York? Just passing through, you know,
00:06:50living my usual nomad life during the summer. And when I realized that I'd be driving through
00:06:54the city to go upstate, I couldn't resist. And I think you should come with me. I couldn't.
00:07:05I'm not taking no for an answer. No, really. No, really. I really can't.
00:07:15I really can't.
00:07:24What? Eleanor. I am not going. I'm taking it right away. What?
00:07:45Oh, hey. Uh, you want me to clear up? Nah. We used to change in front of each other all the time, right?
00:08:04Great.
00:08:13Coffee? Oh, yes, please. So I hear nothing for three weeks, and then out of nowhere,
00:08:21out of the blue, I get a call from a new number, and he said, oh, sorry, I dropped my flip phone.
00:08:26Flip phone? In a bucket of paint at an art gathering. Okay. What the fuck is an art gathering?
00:08:33And then I was like, but you were posting on Instagram, and he was like, yeah, I did it for my iPad.
00:08:39So? So I kept fucking him until he disappeared again.
00:08:45You really know how to pick them. I'm nothing if not consistent. Are you? At least I'm consistent
00:08:52in my inconsistency. But you and Will are good? Oh, yeah. I'm glad we got back together. He's
00:09:00um, less awful than the other guys I've been with. A glowing compliment. You know what I mean.
00:09:07What's he up to? He was on part of the road trip. We actually did a project together,
00:09:12combining his drawings, my photographs. It was very romantic. What's the project? People and
00:09:20signage, speed limits, stop signs, public spaces, private life, all these little commandments
00:09:28everywhere. Still not fully formed yet. But yeah, how's life as a Broadway hoofer? Oh, you know.
00:09:36No, I don't. Give me all the juicy details. I do have this callback for a serious thing.
00:09:43Leo! That's huge! I hope so. I mean, it would feel really good to book something. And then I could
00:09:50say my oldest friend is the Leo Mark. Eleanor, stop. Don't forget about me when you're famous,
00:09:56okay? Right. I mean it. I won't. Good.
00:10:56Wow, it's lovely. Friends of friends in high places.
00:11:16And they're just letting us stay here? Yeah, I met her at an arts residency and
00:11:22Lila said I could stay here whenever she's not here.
00:11:35Dibs.
00:12:22Sit with me.
00:12:32You should put on a bathing suit. The sun feels so good on my skin. I'm good as I am. Suit yourself.
00:12:52Hey, this is Will. You know what to do.
00:12:59I think we should go shopping. I've got the urge to splurge. Sure.
00:13:29Oh, dear.
00:13:41Do you want to try anything on? I mean, it's a woman's store.
00:13:45Ah, right, right. Sorry. Sorry.
00:13:48Oh, she's cute. Yeah. Remember when we used to go to Savers? We'd get, what,
00:14:11ten pounds of clothes for ten dollars? I still have some of that stuff. Some really good shit.
00:14:17Okay. What do you think? It's nice. Nice? I'm not an expert on women's fashion. It is cute.
00:14:31Flattering? Sure, sure. Well, I like it. Will you check the tag and see how much it is?
00:14:46Sixty-five. Woof. We're not in Savers anymore, are we, Toto? No, we're not.
00:14:56Should we steal it? What? We can put it in my bag.
00:15:01Eleanor. I'm kidding. Right. Right. I'm gonna wear it out, though.
00:15:21Eleanor?
00:15:25Were you actually joking? Of course. We're not in college anymore. I can afford it.
00:15:31Right.
00:15:48I mean it. You have family in me. Just because you refuse to see it doesn't mean it's not true.
00:15:54You don't have to be blood to be family. Our bond is deeper than biology. Whether you like it or
00:16:01not, we're both pretty connected. Yikes. Sorry. Was that for your callback? Yep. Dialogue's a
00:16:11little much, huh? I guess. I don't know. I think it's kind of nice. Totally.
00:16:17It's just nice to have a character that's not just, you know, talking about transitioning the whole time.
00:16:30Right. Well, um, whenever you want to practice, I am ready. I'm gonna draw upon my long and storied
00:16:35career as a chorus member from my sixth grade production of Oklahoma. Awkward. I forgot.
00:16:42An acting legend stands before me. Don't be shocked when I act in circles around you.
00:16:53Wine.
00:16:58I think I should move. Again? Again, again, again. But I thought you liked Durham. I do, but
00:17:08I also don't like getting stuck places, you know?
00:17:12What about Will? Well, Will is transportable. Oh, sorry.
00:17:28So, moving? It's always a thought. You know me.
00:17:33You know me. Do the thing. What thing? You know. Squirrel! Squirrel! Oh, you learner.
00:17:48I never told you this in college, but you'd be holding court at some party and I would be
00:17:55hanging on the edge, wondering when you were gonna figure out how much cooler than me you were.
00:18:01I would fantasize about doing something, I don't know, cool enough to keep your attention.
00:18:09Like what? Something impulsive. Like? I don't know. Steal a car, go for a joyride, you know,
00:18:17throw caution to the wind. We never quite did that. No, I didn't. I do remember seeing you,
00:18:25though, at parties, at your most painfully socially awkward looking at me.
00:18:31I always wondered what you were thinking. Well, now you know.
00:18:36Yeah, but it makes sense. You're an actor, you're shy in real life, but on stage you're...
00:18:44Whereas with me, well, everywhere you go it's theater.
00:18:47Yeah. I think we should go out. Oh, really? Yeah, it's happy hour. We should hit the town,
00:19:02have a few drinks, have a few laughs. I haven't heard that one since college. Well, it's still
00:19:07true. The afternoon is young. Or old, but the night is still barely nascent. Yes, but I am
00:19:16very old now. Let's go, please. Please, please, please, please. Sure. Yes.
00:19:46Come on, loosen up. I am loose. I'm loose.
00:20:17We've been hooking up for a year. A year? Yeah, but we're just friends.
00:20:27Oh, really? Yes, really. I mean, if she wanted more, I...
00:20:37But I respect her boundary. She wants to keep it professional.
00:20:42Except when you're having sex. I just want someone to love me like Rita Wilson loves Tom Hanks.
00:20:50What? They famously love each other. A lot. I read a listicle about it.
00:20:57Well, you deserve an epic look like that. I'd just be happy with something a little more stable.
00:21:12But, um, yeah, I'm totally fine with the no strings thing. Totally.
00:21:27My own arts practice is really informed by being on the road.
00:21:31Not to get too Kerouac, but the freedom of the open road really frees me.
00:21:36I love Kerouac. Me too. Go to the bathroom. Oh, cool.
00:21:47So what's the longest you've ever driven in one go? 15 hours.
00:21:54Wow.
00:22:06All right.
00:22:36So, how do they compare to your boyfriends? I'm not gonna, you know, size-wise put you in competition.
00:22:53You both have beautiful, artistic hands. Oh, sorry. I think I'm gonna head out.
00:23:01Um, sorry. He's my ride. I've gotta go. Good to meet you. Bye.
00:23:26You know, you could have stayed if you wanted to. I know.
00:23:28I just hate Kerouac. And I'd never cheat on Will. It's just nice to flirt a little.
00:23:58You want dinner?
00:24:10No, I'm good. I think I'm gonna just hang out here for a minute. Okay. Night, sweetie.
00:24:58So
00:25:23whenever you're ready.
00:25:25If I hadn't come, what would you have done? Something desperate. No, seriously, what would
00:25:29you have done? Paid my respects and left quietly. These assholes are the only ones who want to turn
00:25:34it into a whole thing. You can't expect to just show up here and know nothing. I mean,
00:25:40you look like Holly Golightly for Christ's sake. Are you slut-shaming me? Maria.
00:25:47I couldn't turn up to my estranged father's funeral looking like shit, could I?
00:25:50I know that was a lot. What they did wasn't cool. Oh, threatening to have me arrested for
00:25:56trespassing wasn't cool? You know what I mean. You haven't saved me, AJ. That's not-
00:26:01Showing up here didn't fix anything for me. I just wanted to make sure you were okay.
00:26:08Why do you care so much? Because, because you're my family, Raya. Right.
00:26:17Family. I don't have any family.
00:26:28I mean it. You have family in me. Just because you refuse to see it doesn't mean it's not
00:26:40true. You don't have to be blood to be family. Our bond is deeper than biology.
00:26:48Whether you like it or not, we're irrevocably connected. Ever since that day at the crash pad,
00:26:54we've been linked. I messed up a line. No, you read them fine.
00:27:03I just thought maybe you're being a little gentle. Like, like where's the energy? The
00:27:10passion? Why don't you try the monologue again, but this time maybe like angry.
00:27:21Why would I be angry? Well, Raya's kind of a bitch, right?
00:27:26Kind of. Right. She like doesn't listen. So you have to really get through to her.
00:27:31Like really shake her. I guess I just kind of was thinking about AJ as if he, you know,
00:27:37was a gentle person. Like when he's making a point, he wouldn't be like in her face. Yeah,
00:27:42but I feel like at this point it'd be a really big breaking point for him.
00:27:47I think you want to wow the director, so you should just try something different, right?
00:27:54Yeah, maybe I could try it angrier. Yeah, just the monologue. Just like,
00:28:00come on, like really give it to her. Come on. Yeah. Okay. The line leading in.
00:28:08I don't have any family.
00:28:17I mean it. You have family in me. Just because you refuse to see it doesn't mean it's not true.
00:28:24Whether you like it or not, we're irrevocably connected.
00:28:28Ever since that day at the crash pad, we've been linked. You're not perfect.
00:28:35Neither am I. But we're perfect in our imperfection. Two warped puzzle pieces that
00:28:42managed to fit just right. You fit me, and I fit you. So yeah, Rhea, you have family.
00:28:54It may not be those people in the church, but you got family standing right in front of you.
00:29:00How was that?
00:29:05I think it's getting there.
00:29:07It's so weird. We can keep working on it.
00:29:13Fuck, I really don't want to fuck this up. You won't. We'll get there.
00:29:20And then I say, we fit, I guess, in our own misshapen way. And now you're supposed to put
00:29:26in our own misshapen way. And now you're supposed to put your palm against my palm,
00:29:31and we interlace fingers. Right.
00:29:51Might not be those people in that church, but you have family standing right in front of you.
00:29:57So?
00:29:59Um.
00:30:01Um.
00:30:02Honestly?
00:30:03Yes, honestly.
00:30:05Why are you yelling?
00:30:06I have literally no idea. My friend gave me all these directions, and now I'm totally lost.
00:30:12You were fine before.
00:30:14Look, just get out of your head, and don't run lines with her again.
00:30:22I kind of wish it was just you and me up here.
00:30:24Oh, yeah?
00:30:25Yeah.
00:30:28That's sweet.
00:30:31Is everything okay?
00:30:33I'm happy to run lines and stuff, but the guy that I've been dating, he wants to be exclusive.
00:30:41Oh, yeah. That's, I mean, I'm cool with that. Neither of us wanted anything, right?
00:30:49Yeah.
00:30:50But I guess now I want something with this guy. So, I hope that's okay?
00:30:59Of course.
00:31:00Thanks for being so chill. And seriously, run lines by yourself this weekend. Bye.
00:31:20Nia?
00:31:24Coming.
00:31:36You okay? You look like someone died.
00:31:39No, I'm good.
00:31:42Farm store?
00:31:49Okay.
00:32:04Ooh, these are gorge.
00:32:09It's a potted plant, so.
00:32:17Hi.
00:32:20How are vegetables so expensive?
00:32:22Inflation.
00:32:26Fuck.
00:32:27What?
00:32:28Just this person from Magnum Bosses here.
00:32:31Don't look, Eleanor.
00:32:33Why can't you say hi?
00:32:34Because he's on a really big show right now.
00:32:36So?
00:32:37And he's really good on it.
00:32:39Leo? Leo! Oliver!
00:32:44Hi. It's so good to see you.
00:32:46It's been a minute.
00:32:48So, what are you doing here?
00:32:51I'm just up here for the weekend.
00:32:53Oh, Joe's parents have a house up here, so we're here, like, all the time.
00:32:56Oh, this is my friend Joe.
00:32:59Nice to meet you.
00:33:00Hi.
00:33:00You too.
00:33:05And I'm Eleanor. Sorry. Sorry, this is my friend Eleanor.
00:33:09Well, hi.
00:33:12Hi, Eleanor. So, how are you?
00:33:16I'm good. I just, I should say, congratulations on Sanford House.
00:33:20I've been watching the show, and you're so wonderful in it.
00:33:24Thank you. You don't have to say that, though.
00:33:26Leo was just saying how good you are in it.
00:33:29It's just a great show.
00:33:30Wait, wait. I'm having, like, a brain blast moment.
00:33:34Oh, yeah?
00:33:34Okay, no pressure at all, but you two should totally come over to my place for, like, snacks.
00:33:39I mean, we came here for cheese and crackers. It'd be so lovely to share.
00:33:42I think we have afternoon plans.
00:33:44They're easily changeable.
00:33:45Okay, so change them.
00:33:47Look, we'll stay in the store a little bit longer, buy a few things, and then we'll meet you outside?
00:33:53Hell yeah.
00:33:53All right, cool.
00:33:55Amazing. Okay, see you.
00:33:59What is your problem?
00:34:01I guess I, he just was, like, the only other trans guy in our acting class,
00:34:06and we weren't that close, and it kind of felt, I don't know, like there was some competition.
00:34:11Well, you're not in class now. No need to be competitive.
00:34:15Yeah.
00:34:16Are you annoyed with me because I seized the moment?
00:34:19If you don't want to go, we could back out.
00:34:20No, no, no.
00:34:22Actually, thank you.
00:34:24Let's do the socializing thing.
00:34:27See? Serendipity. Adventure.
00:34:41Hello.
00:34:43Yeah, it's over by the pond.
00:34:45Oh.
00:34:47No.
00:34:49What?
00:34:51Oh my god.
00:34:53Thank you, Josh.
00:34:55Bye.
00:34:57Bye.
00:34:59Bye.
00:35:01Bye.
00:35:03Bye.
00:35:05Bye.
00:35:07Bye.
00:35:09Oh my god.
00:35:11Thank you, Tal.
00:35:13That looks beautiful.
00:35:17I mean, I think a lot about, you know, art's ability to create meaningful change, right?
00:35:25I'm an actor because I believe movies are powerful engines for empathy,
00:35:29but sometimes I wonder what actually meaningfully changes.
00:35:33Like, I don't know, can you think of a movie that has changed the course of history, really?
00:35:37Uh, Cru-Jane.
00:35:39You know?
00:35:41Responsible for a huge homophobic backlash against queer men.
00:35:45Oh no, Joe.
00:35:47But I love that movie.
00:35:49I mean, Al Pacino doing poppers in those tank tops?
00:35:53Ugh.
00:35:55I don't know that one.
00:35:57But I'm sure it's better than what you've been auditioning for, am I right?
00:36:03I guess.
00:36:05You haven't saved me.
00:36:07AJ, come on, Leo.
00:36:09That's not what I...
00:36:11Showing up here didn't change anything for me.
00:36:13I just wanted to make sure you're okay.
00:36:17You know the lines?
00:36:19Yeah, uh, I auditioned.
00:36:21Wow.
00:36:23That is, yeah, it's just so crazy.
00:36:25We went in for the same part.
00:36:27Oh, they already passed on me.
00:36:31Yeah.
00:36:33I'm so sorry.
00:36:35It's fine. I'm actually really glad that you're up for it.
00:36:39When Leo first read it, he was so quiet,
00:36:41but I'm trying to work with him and, you know,
00:36:43try to get him to be a little angry, you know?
00:36:45I kind of thought of AJ as a sort of gentle guy.
00:36:50Huh.
00:36:54Joe, remind me of the name of this cheese?
00:36:57Uh, Camembert.
00:36:59Do you eat this?
00:37:01You can.
00:37:05Why didn't we talk about this kind of stuff
00:37:07when we were in class together?
00:37:09I don't know. I mean, we should have just
00:37:11been doing this the whole time.
00:37:13Yeah, right?
00:37:15Leo said you guys were a little competitive with each other.
00:37:17Eleanor.
00:37:19No, it's true. We were.
00:37:21I mean, we were competing for, like,
00:37:23the scraps of roles they were throwing our way,
00:37:25but it all feels really stupid now.
00:37:29It does.
00:37:31Well, we're talking now.
00:37:33Cheers.
00:37:35Cheers.
00:37:37Oh, my God, this pool is everything.
00:37:39It was actually a little traumatizing.
00:37:41Maybe I'm not ready to keep this conversation going.
00:37:43Eleanor, we've totally been ignoring you.
00:37:45What about you? What do you do?
00:37:47I'm a photographer.
00:37:49I teach during the year,
00:37:51and I travel every summer.
00:37:53Okay, that's enviable.
00:37:55It's nice to be free in that way.
00:37:57So, what college do you teach at?
00:38:01Oh, Eleanor teaches, like, at this really amazing high school.
00:38:03Oh, that's so cool.
00:38:05I mean, it must be really interesting
00:38:07to work with people that age.
00:38:09Yep. Eleanor has been living in Durham for, like,
00:38:11two years now, has this really cool
00:38:13boyfriend who's also an artist,
00:38:15and they went on this road trip together.
00:38:17Okay, how was that?
00:38:19Really romantic.
00:38:21He painted, and I photographed.
00:38:23By that, he was drawing.
00:38:25Oh, drawing.
00:38:27Yeah, he usually is a painter,
00:38:29but because we were on the road,
00:38:31he was drawing because of the supplies and stuff.
00:38:33I was just texting him yesterday,
00:38:35and he said he was really happy
00:38:37to be back home with his materials.
00:38:39Yeah, drawing.
00:38:41Yes.
00:38:43Uh, would anyone like some wine?
00:38:45Oliver, do you want to come with me?
00:38:47I can help.
00:38:49No, no, no, you're good.
00:38:51Mm.
00:38:53You're being weird.
00:38:55How?
00:38:57I just feel like you're not being yourself.
00:38:59And what is me being myself, Eleanor?
00:39:01It just seems like you're performing.
00:39:03Maybe I'm just
00:39:05having a good time
00:39:07and feeling loose with them.
00:39:09Then why don't you
00:39:11like that with me?
00:39:13I...
00:39:15I have to pee.
00:39:17I am.
00:39:19Ah.
00:39:35Hey, this is Will.
00:39:37What the fucker?
00:39:45You're right, I was being weird.
00:39:49Good thing you know my love language.
00:39:51Let's just have fun.
00:40:03Come on, Leo.
00:40:09Are you serious right now?
00:40:11What?
00:40:13Okay, what's with the t-shirts?
00:40:15What do you mean?
00:40:17I feel like you're gonna drown
00:40:19with all those clothes on.
00:40:23Eleanor.
00:40:25What?
00:40:27I'm wearing a shirt because I'm binding.
00:40:31Oh, my God, I'm so sorry.
00:40:33Um...
00:40:35It's fine.
00:40:37Why didn't you tell me?
00:40:39More wine?
00:40:41Uh-huh.
00:40:43Sure.
00:40:45More wine?
00:40:47Uh-huh.
00:40:49Sure.
00:40:51What?
00:41:13Stop!
00:41:15Stop!
00:41:17No.
00:41:19You have to stop laughing.
00:41:21My stomach is hurting.
00:41:23No more dirty knock-knock jokes for us.
00:41:25Is there more wine?
00:41:27Do you sure you want more?
00:41:29Yes.
00:41:33I guess I'm driving.
00:41:35That would be great.
00:41:37Does anyone else want more?
00:41:39What is that?
00:41:41Okay.
00:41:45Sort of like in...
00:41:47Basically the middle of the desert.
00:41:49And, like, maybe...
00:41:51Maybe...
00:42:01Uh, I
00:42:03told the entire auditorium
00:42:05I was bisexual
00:42:07during my campaign
00:42:09for student body president.
00:42:11And, uh, of course I lost.
00:42:13Oh, my God. Why?
00:42:15Yeah, thank you. I don't know why I thought
00:42:17the revelation would help my chances
00:42:19of being student body president
00:42:21in 2008 in Chatham, New York.
00:42:23Oh, yeah.
00:42:25Wow.
00:42:27I thought you were gay.
00:42:29No.
00:42:31Uh, bisexual.
00:42:33Queer. Both.
00:42:35Oliver, what are you?
00:42:37Oh, uh, I'm queer.
00:42:39Everyone's queer.
00:42:41Except for Leo.
00:42:45Um, I'm not straight.
00:42:47You're not?
00:42:49I'm queer.
00:42:51Didn't know that.
00:42:53Well, I'm
00:42:55just grateful to be able to live
00:42:57a genuine
00:42:59queer life.
00:43:01That part.
00:43:03Sometimes I wish I was queer.
00:43:05Oh, really?
00:43:07But do you think, like, maybe I'm queering heterosexuality?
00:43:09Maybe?
00:43:15Well, maybe I am queer.
00:43:17Maybe you are.
00:43:19You would be the one
00:43:21to know.
00:43:23Well, remember when we hooked up, Squirrel?
00:43:25Eleanor.
00:43:27Well, do you?
00:43:31Making out for less than a minute
00:43:33before you passed out drunk?
00:43:35So what? It doesn't count?
00:43:37I guess
00:43:39it counts.
00:43:41I guess you're queer.
00:43:43See? I'm queer. I'm queer too.
00:43:45Like, why the fuck not?
00:43:47I just want to be, like, in the club.
00:43:49I want to get naked.
00:43:53Is she
00:43:55going to be okay?
00:43:57Yeah, she's going to be fine.
00:43:59Just a little too much day drinking.
00:44:01Need a little help in there.
00:44:03Well,
00:44:05we should head out. Thanks again.
00:44:07Bye.
00:44:19Did you have fun?
00:44:21I did, actually.
00:44:27Oliver's...
00:44:29Oliver's kind of
00:44:31blowhard.
00:44:33It was nice. I thought him and
00:44:35Joe were smart.
00:44:37Yeah, they talk about
00:44:39ideas.
00:44:41I have an idea.
00:44:45What is it?
00:44:49I forgot.
00:44:53Okay.
00:45:03Oliver?
00:45:11You may enter.
00:45:17Are you
00:45:19alright?
00:45:21Never better.
00:45:23Anything I can do to help?
00:45:25Sit.
00:45:33Do you still like me?
00:45:35Of course I do.
00:45:37Because I was a terrible brute tonight,
00:45:39wasn't I?
00:45:41I still like you.
00:45:43Okay.
00:45:45That's good.
00:45:57I think
00:45:59I left my phone at their house.
00:46:03I'll pick it up
00:46:05in the morning.
00:46:33Okay.
00:47:03Morning.
00:47:15Morning.
00:47:17I have her phone.
00:47:19Thank God.
00:47:21Do you want some coffee?
00:47:23Oh.
00:47:25Sure.
00:47:27Okay.
00:47:33I'm not much of a hiking guy.
00:47:35No, you should definitely.
00:47:37I mean, the path is pretty clear
00:47:39on the property. You just have to
00:47:41look out for the trail markers
00:47:43and you should be good.
00:47:45Are you sure?
00:47:47Yeah, I mean, we're leaving today,
00:47:49but I know Joe would be happy if you swung by
00:47:51for just a little hike.
00:47:53Maybe we will.
00:47:55I have to think of something to do with her.
00:47:57I'm sorry about yesterday.
00:47:59She's a lot.
00:48:01It's all good, really.
00:48:03I mean, she's
00:48:05maybe a little territorial.
00:48:07Territorial?
00:48:09Over you.
00:48:11Protective,
00:48:13too.
00:48:15I think in kind of a
00:48:17sweet way.
00:48:19If a little.
00:48:21A little, yeah.
00:48:23I just, yeah, I still
00:48:25am sorry for all the unhinged stuff she said.
00:48:27You know, I don't really mind
00:48:29her chaos.
00:48:31Oh, really? Well, then maybe you
00:48:33and I should switch places for the weekend
00:48:35because
00:48:37she's exhausting.
00:48:39Maybe that's why she's your friend.
00:48:41What?
00:48:43Maybe you like a little bit of
00:48:45dysfunction.
00:48:47Okay.
00:48:49Former classmate,
00:48:51now my psychoanalyst.
00:48:53For the record, I like
00:48:55simple.
00:48:57I like boring.
00:48:59That's
00:49:01good.
00:49:03Is it?
00:49:05Yeah, because
00:49:07I'm boring.
00:49:09You
00:49:11absolutely are not.
00:49:13I don't
00:49:15want to...
00:49:17I'm usually
00:49:19a lot smoother
00:49:21than this, but
00:49:23can I
00:49:25can I kiss you?
00:49:27Me?
00:49:29Yeah, you.
00:49:31Are you and Joe...
00:49:33Oh, no.
00:49:35We're just friends.
00:49:43I've been
00:49:45wanting to do that since
00:49:47that terrible,
00:49:49terrible class. Really?
00:49:51Yeah.
00:49:53And I'm glad to know
00:49:55that you like boring
00:49:57because I'd
00:49:59very much like to do something
00:50:01boring with you sometime.
00:50:13Can I call you
00:50:15this week?
00:50:17I would really like that.
00:50:19Cool.
00:50:21Me too.
00:50:23So you should stick around,
00:50:25enjoy the pool,
00:50:27hang out. I'm gonna
00:50:29head back up. We
00:50:31gotta head out soon.
00:50:33Yeah. Yeah? Yeah.
00:50:35Have fun.
00:50:39Thanks for the coffee.
00:50:41Thanks for the kiss.
00:50:49You were
00:50:59gone for a while.
00:51:01I was
00:51:03getting your phone, remember?
00:51:05Ah, thank you, my
00:51:07hero.
00:51:11I got you a nice coffee from that place
00:51:13down the road. It's a little melted, though.
00:51:15I just had a coffee.
00:51:17But it's my peace offering.
00:51:29I'm sorry about last night.
00:51:31Apology accepted.
00:51:35But maybe, don't you think those guys
00:51:37are just like a tiny bit pretentious?
00:51:39Eleanor,
00:51:41seriously, you know
00:51:43you sound like Colton Colfield. Fine, fine.
00:51:45I am sorry for getting so drunk
00:51:47last night. I honestly don't remember much,
00:51:49but I'm sorry for whatever happened.
00:51:51Okay. Thanks.
00:51:53Cheers.
00:52:05You have family in me.
00:52:07You have
00:52:09family in me. Family
00:52:11in me.
00:52:13Ready?
00:52:15Yep.
00:52:17What time is it?
00:52:19Time for our big hike.
00:52:23Okay.
00:52:29Are you okay?
00:52:31You seem weird.
00:52:33Just tired.
00:52:35Do you want
00:52:37to run lines when we get back?
00:52:39Oh, no. I mean...
00:52:41I didn't think you
00:52:43just
00:52:45appreciated them.
00:53:11I thought of a movie that changed history.
00:53:13Oh, yeah?
00:53:15The Thin Blue Line.
00:53:17Errol Morris literally
00:53:19solved a crime that exonerated
00:53:21an innocent man.
00:53:23Huh. Okay.
00:53:25What happened afterwards?
00:53:27He made a lot of money doing computer
00:53:29and beer commercials.
00:53:31The death row guy?
00:53:33Errol Morris.
00:53:35Oh, yeah.
00:53:37He's a great guy.
00:53:39The death row guy?
00:53:41Errol Morris.
00:53:43Right.
00:53:45Which way?
00:53:47This way.
00:53:49I don't
00:53:51see any trail markers.
00:53:53Trust me.
00:53:55Can we just
00:53:57stick to the trail?
00:54:01This is the trail, silly.
00:54:09Okay.
00:54:25Can we take a little break?
00:54:27Yeah.
00:54:31We're having fun, right?
00:54:33I never go on hikes.
00:54:35That's your whole problem.
00:54:37What? You have such a rigid view of yourself.
00:54:39You say you never go on hikes,
00:54:41but here you are going on a hike.
00:54:43You just don't try anything new
00:54:45unless someone pushes you to do it.
00:55:07You know,
00:55:09maybe what you think of
00:55:11as me being a coward...
00:55:13I never said you were a coward.
00:55:15...is actually
00:55:17me just having a little structure
00:55:19in my life because my whole life
00:55:21is a risk and I don't need to,
00:55:23you know, act out like some theater kid
00:55:25just to prove a point.
00:55:29So everywhere I go is theater, right?
00:55:31Yep. Just without stage.
00:55:33I'm a photographer.
00:55:35Oh, right.
00:55:37And, uh, where's the camera?
00:55:39Why are you being such an asshole?
00:55:41If you don't want to keep hiking,
00:55:43then go back to the house.
00:55:45Why am I being an asshole?
00:55:47Go back to the house.
00:55:49Where the hell are we?
00:55:51I think we're lost.
00:55:53Yeah, no shit.
00:55:55No, we're, like, lost.
00:55:57Metaphorically lost.
00:55:59And actually lost.
00:56:01Mm.
00:56:03What are you doing?
00:56:05I'm gonna navigate us out of here.
00:56:07Not just metaphorically.
00:56:11I don't have service, Steve.
00:56:13Don't worry about it.
00:56:15Can you check if you have service?
00:56:19Eleanor!
00:56:21What?
00:56:33I don't have service.
00:56:43I only have 3% battery.
00:56:45I think we're close.
00:56:47Oh, yeah, Eleanor, where are we?
00:56:49See? We're on the trail.
00:56:51Yeah, but do we even know if we're going in the right direction?
00:56:53It's a loop.
00:56:55Okay, my phone just died.
00:56:57Okay.
00:57:01Are you texting right now?
00:57:03No.
00:57:05If you are texting Will with our source of life...
00:57:07I'm not texting Will. I haven't texted Will all weekend
00:57:09because I'm trying to be present with you.
00:57:11You haven't texted Will all weekend?
00:57:13Let's just try to get out of here, huh?
00:57:15So...
00:57:17you haven't texted him at all?
00:57:19No.
00:57:21No.
00:57:23Is that, like, normal for you guys?
00:57:25Weren't you just saying that you were texting him yesterday?
00:57:27Okay, busybody.
00:57:29We broke up, okay?
00:57:31What the fuck, Eleanor?
00:57:33So you've just been lying to me all weekend?
00:57:35Well, you hide shit from me.
00:57:37You didn't want to take your shirt off and get in the water.
00:57:39Why? Because you didn't want me to know that you had enough top surgery.
00:57:41Am I right?
00:57:43That is completely different, Eleanor.
00:57:45Oh, is it?
00:57:47You're so fucking clueless.
00:57:49I'm not clueless. You just don't clue me in.
00:57:51This isn't about me.
00:57:53This is about you lying to me all weekend.
00:57:55What do you want me to say?
00:57:57Just tell me why you're not telling me shit.
00:57:59Okay.
00:58:05We were on the road trip for two days,
00:58:07and I picked some stupid fight about directions,
00:58:09and he just fucking left, okay?
00:58:11He hitchhiked back home.
00:58:13I mean, why should I admit to you
00:58:15that I'm 29 fucking years old
00:58:17and I can't seem to keep a relationship
00:58:19for longer than three months?
00:58:21And you have your head so far up your own ass
00:58:23with your shitty little callback
00:58:25for your shitty little TV show,
00:58:27and all you care about is impressing pretentious assholes
00:58:29that you don't even like.
00:58:31Wow. Eleanor, just because you don't like something
00:58:33doesn't mean it's shitty.
00:58:35What?
00:58:37It's not like we're in college anymore.
00:58:39I don't need to follow you around
00:58:41and just mirror back all your thoughts and opinion.
00:58:43Okay, that's not...
00:58:45I know I'm probably not supposed to say this
00:58:47because it's problematic or whatever
00:58:49because I'm not allowed to have any feelings
00:58:51about your transition,
00:58:53but I miss how things were
00:58:55when you...
00:58:57who you were before.
00:59:03You really aren't allowed
00:59:05to have feelings about that,
00:59:07like...
00:59:09at all.
00:59:13So fucked, Eleanor!
00:59:19I miss you.
00:59:23I just feel so distant from you now.
00:59:25It's not because I'm trans.
00:59:27It's really not.
00:59:33I don't know. I don't know what...
00:59:35I shouldn't be here.
00:59:37I shouldn't be in the fucking
00:59:39tick-infested Blair Witch Woods
00:59:41fighting with you.
00:59:45The house.
00:59:47Are you sure?
00:59:49Yes, I'm sure. Just tell me you didn't
00:59:51lose the car keys.
00:59:53I didn't.
00:59:59Leo.
01:00:01Leo!
01:00:03I love you.
01:00:05No, you don't,
01:00:07Eleanor.
01:00:09Kind of ironic,
01:00:11I guess.
01:00:13Seeing as it was me
01:00:15who kept secrets all those years
01:00:17being in love with you,
01:00:19and you pretending you didn't know,
01:00:21although, I mean,
01:00:23you knew. You must have known.
01:00:25I didn't...
01:00:27know.
01:00:31I mean, I didn't know...
01:00:33know.
01:00:35You liked having me around
01:00:37as your little lapdog,
01:00:39and...
01:00:41I'm done.
01:00:43I am done.
01:00:45That's so
01:00:47unfair.
01:00:49Is it?
01:00:55Can you...
01:01:13Can you...
01:01:29I mean it.
01:01:31You have family in me.
01:01:35Fuck.
01:01:43Are you okay?
01:01:45Yeah, just...
01:01:47clumsy.
01:01:53Let me help.
01:02:05Is it our last night?
01:02:08It's our last night.
01:02:12It is.
01:02:17You shouldn't be drinking alone.
01:02:29I heard you.
01:02:32Hmm?
01:02:34Like, I heard you.
01:02:36I was fucked up.
01:02:39But can I say something?
01:02:42Maybe less fucked up?
01:02:46Sure.
01:02:48I miss us.
01:02:51You miss us?
01:02:53You're the best friend I've ever had.
01:02:56Like, my best, best friend.
01:03:00And I feel like...
01:03:03you haven't been acting that way.
01:03:06Or something.
01:03:09Or like you were my best friend,
01:03:11and now you're just...
01:03:14someone else?
01:03:17I don't know.
01:03:21I'm still me, Eleanor.
01:03:24Definitely...
01:03:26still me.
01:03:28That's good.
01:03:31Maybe it's just...
01:03:35I wish I weren't still me.
01:03:39Maybe if you just...
01:03:41accepted you a little more, it would help.
01:03:44I mean...
01:03:46I always liked you as you are.
01:03:51It's like...
01:03:53when you're not happy being you,
01:03:55that you become a little bit...
01:03:57too much of you or something.
01:03:59Yeah.
01:04:01I liked following you around in college.
01:04:06You led me out of the hole I was in.
01:04:09And you still do.
01:04:28Eleanor.
01:04:30I think you're confused.
01:04:36I am confused.
01:04:40By you.
01:04:44Okay.
01:04:46You are...
01:04:48confused.
01:05:18Ugh.
01:05:48Ugh.
01:06:18Okay.
01:06:49Are you...
01:06:51No, yeah.
01:06:53Okay.
01:07:02Could you maybe, um...
01:07:04a little...
01:07:06to the left?
01:07:08Sure.
01:07:10Yeah.
01:07:19My hand's cramping.
01:07:21Oh, um, that should be...
01:07:23Maybe if, um...
01:07:25Yeah.
01:07:27If, um...
01:07:29Yeah.
01:07:58Did you just fake it?
01:08:02No.
01:08:07Yes.
01:08:10Okay.
01:08:18I'm sorry.
01:08:20I'm sorry.
01:08:22I'm sorry.
01:08:24I'm sorry.
01:08:27I guess I should...
01:08:29probably...
01:08:31go.
01:08:33Yeah.
01:08:43Eleanor.
01:08:52Oh, my God, Leo.
01:08:54Oh, my God, Leo.
01:08:56I'm so sorry.
01:08:58It was so horrifying.
01:09:02Have you ever had worse sex?
01:09:04No, even the first time
01:09:06wasn't this bad.
01:09:12At least it was brief.
01:09:17And now we know.
01:09:19We really know.
01:09:20And it will never happen again.
01:09:22Unless we're stuck in a cave,
01:09:23or on a deserted island.
01:09:25Or on a long cruise ship trip.
01:09:27Or if they make another Avengers movie
01:09:29that's three hours long
01:09:30and we're stuck in the last row.
01:09:32We run out of popcorn.
01:09:41So...
01:09:43I didn't...
01:09:45ruin everything?
01:09:48No.
01:09:52I just...
01:09:55I did the thing
01:09:57where...
01:09:59I sabotaged a good thing.
01:10:03And I've just been
01:10:05driving around for the past couple weeks
01:10:07aiming my camera aimlessly at shit
01:10:09and not pressing the shutter.
01:10:11And you have a whole life
01:10:13that I know nothing about.
01:10:16And I know it's not your fault.
01:10:20I am a little clueless.
01:10:24But I'm learning, right?
01:10:26We're all learning.
01:10:37You want to know something weird?
01:10:40Another secret?
01:10:43Kind of.
01:10:46You know how much of a loser I feel like I am?
01:10:49You're not a loser.
01:10:51No, don't try to make me feel better.
01:10:53But here's the thing.
01:10:58I'm a fucking good teacher.
01:11:03Like, I'm bizarrely good at it.
01:11:06And my whole life plan was like,
01:11:08no, I'm an artist.
01:11:10And I was somehow embarrassed
01:11:12that I became a high school teacher.
01:11:16But I admit it.
01:11:21I fucking love my job.
01:11:31That's awesome.
01:11:33Pays shit.
01:11:35Yeah.
01:11:36It's exhausting.
01:11:38The principal's a scumbag.
01:11:40That sucks.
01:11:42Did I mention the pay's shit?
01:11:44I did.
01:11:49I'm so sorry for blowing everything up.
01:11:52I'm sorry too.
01:11:59Why do you care so much?
01:12:05Because...
01:12:08Because you're my family, Raya.
01:12:11Right?
01:12:12Family?
01:12:17I don't have any family.
01:12:20I mean it.
01:12:24You have family in me.
01:12:27Just because you refuse to see it
01:12:30doesn't mean it's not true.
01:12:33You don't have to be blood to be family.
01:12:38Our bond is deeper than biology.
01:12:43Whether you like it or not,
01:12:46we're irrevocably connected.
01:12:49Ever since that day at the crash pad,
01:12:51we've been linked.
01:12:55You're not perfect.
01:12:58Neither am I.
01:13:00But...
01:13:03we're perfect in our imperfection.
01:13:06Two warped puzzle pieces
01:13:10that managed to fit just right.
01:13:15You fit me.
01:13:19And I fit you.
01:13:21So...
01:13:24Yeah, Raya.
01:13:26You have family.
01:13:29Might not be those people in that church, but...
01:13:34you have family standing right in front of you.
01:13:40I was wrong.
01:13:42That's how you should do it.
01:13:45Gentle.
01:13:50You're really good, Leo.
01:14:09Hi.
01:14:39Hi.
01:15:09You're welcome.
01:15:39You're welcome.
01:16:09I wouldn't want it any other way
01:16:14I wouldn't want it any other way
01:16:19I wouldn't want it any other way
01:16:24I wouldn't want it any other way
01:16:29I wouldn't want it any other way
01:16:34I wouldn't want it any other way
01:16:39There's not much I could say
01:16:43A lot of things have changed
01:16:47It isn't quite the same
01:16:53I thought about you every night and day
01:16:59Now talking's pretty strange
01:17:03We're on a different page
01:17:07It's healthier this way
01:17:12But when I look at you I see an old friend
01:17:16I see an old friend passing through
01:17:21And when I think of you I wanna be friends
01:17:25I wanna be friends with you
01:17:31With you
01:17:36With you
01:17:46With you
01:17:57Years pass and I pick up the phone
01:18:03To see where this could go