(1of2)Beck's 2024 Update: August 15, 2024

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Beck has returned to share a 2024 update and is ready to open up about the relationship with Amberlynn. Some topics that come up include the stress of the GoFundMe situation surrounding Beck’s mom, current relationship with Eric and Rickie, Amberlynn pressuring Beck into a relationship in 2017, the engagement and breakup of 2021, the hunger for money, Wifey’s introduction to the Amberverse and their apartment, the pets they shared and Amberlynn’s lack of connection to Rarity, Amberlynn’s ultra strength and mobility, and finally Beck’s fast track to marriage.
Transcript
00:00Amber gives us all the tea. Not all of it. If Becky was going to spill some tea, what would she tell us first?
00:05Ooh, okay. What would she tell you guys first?
00:10I don't know.
00:16I really don't know actually. I thought I was gonna have a good answer to that, but I don't know.
00:20The way I will spend hella money if Becky spills some good tea, you won't get any, trust me.
00:29Amber, did you make wifey sign an NDA before she came to your place? Are you afraid she's going to expose you?
00:33Um, no, because I know she's not that type of person at all.
00:36I would never.
00:37We're not talking about you.
00:38Oh, who?
00:39Oh, that one.
00:40That one.
00:41I thought they were talking about me coming back.
00:42No, I don't think either of them would. Like, if anyone was to, it would be like, Destiny.
00:48So, I wanted to start explaining some stuff to you guys from my point of view on things.
00:54And she's not even going to because like, first of all, there's nothing to expose.
00:57Amberlynn did not shower the whole time we were at my mom's. She ends up throwing the can in my car.
01:14Made me mad.
01:18Just remember the K-cup holder.
01:20I told her that I hated her because of everything that she put me through.
01:23My mom ended up getting physical with Amberlynn. That's where the K-cup holder comes back.
01:28That K-cup holder was sitting on the stairs for us to take upstairs or whatever.
01:32That's probably the best one ever.
01:33Me and Amberlynn have been wanting one and this was only $1.59 at the Goodwill, so.
01:36I can't believe how cheap that is.
01:38Like, what the?
01:39My mom came back with it and hit her over the head with it.
01:42It was, it was very traumatizing for me.
01:46And if there was, like, I don't surround myself with people who are like that.
01:48If you're that type of person, then you're literally not going to be in my life.
01:51So, that's on that.
01:53I don't even think Destiny would do something like that.
01:55I'm not surprised about things that are coming out about Amber from her ex-friends and ex-partners.
02:01I know what I experienced the three or four years we were together.
02:06I know what my family was put through.
02:08I know what they still have talked to me about.
02:11I know what happened with my mom and what it did to me and her.
02:15I know what it did with my sister.
02:17Things got a little rough.
02:19I'm going to release this.
02:23So, this woman, Annie Doran, is saying that she's Becky's mom's best friend.
02:30Basically, this lady is saying that Amberlynn won't share the fundraiser and that she gave $100 towards it.
02:36Which, if Amberlynn shared a fundraiser, she would raise so much money.
02:41This is the GoFundMe page and no one is really sure if it's real.
02:45If it is real, you could really raise a lot of money towards it.
02:48Is this Becky's mom?
02:50If this is Becky's mom, why haven't you shared this?
02:53What are you waiting for?
02:54You better share this.
02:55You better let us know.
02:56You better confirm.
02:57Because that is some craziness.
02:59If you seriously are not letting us know.
03:01Or if you're going to come out and be like,
03:03Oh, I was going to share it, but obviously from the posts we're seeing,
03:06you gave your $100 and that's it.
03:08I'm tired of not being appreciated when I try to help you the best that I can.
03:13And it's just frustrating.
03:15This whole situation is super frustrating.
03:17This is Amberlynn talking to Becky's mom right after she had her surgery.
03:22I'm going to put it out there how Amberlynn really treated Becky's mom.
03:27Don't let her fool everyone, please.
03:30I am not trying to argue with you.
03:34That is the last thing I want to do since you just got out of surgery.
03:38I don't want to cause any more stress onto you, onto Becky,
03:43onto anyone in your family, onto myself.
03:46Because that's just not going to fix anything.
03:51I am just tired of the added drama onto my YouTube.
03:58And I'm tired of not being appreciated when I try to help you the best that I can.
04:05And it's just frustrating.
04:07This whole situation is super frustrating.
04:10And I finally just kind of wanted to speak upon the situation.
04:18So she wanted to speak on a situation that became about her
04:23when Norma had just got out of surgery.
04:27I will release more.
04:29When we were Facebook friends, I have left comments on your Facebook
04:34regarding your cancer.
04:36I have asked how you're doing.
04:39I have been there in that sense.
04:43And, you know, we don't have to really go down the line of
04:48oh, you didn't message me, you didn't message me
04:52because I can say the same about you.
04:55Where not once have you thanked me personally
05:00for the money I was going to give you,
05:02for the video I made,
05:04for the backlash I'm getting,
05:06for sticking up for you.
05:08I've had past experience with GoFundMe, people attacking over it
05:10and saying it was a scam.
05:12There will be ads in this video
05:14because I want to donate all the proceeds,
05:16every single last penny that I make on this video
05:19towards Becky's mom.
05:21So we kind of want to make this whole video
05:24Becky wanted to keep this private and off of YouTube
05:26but it's now on YouTube and people know about it.
05:29So her and her family have agreed
05:31that we want to share a GoFundMe.
05:33So we're going to explain everything
05:35and kind of talk about Becky's mom's journey with cancer.
05:39So the GoFundMe is going to be down below
05:41and we're going to talk more about that.
05:43Just please, you guys, listen to this whole video
05:45and any ads as you can
05:47so we can donate as much as we can to her mom.
05:50I'm going to tell you guys about her mother's journey.
05:52Me and my mom have always been very close.
05:54When this came about,
05:56it's easily one of the hardest things
05:58that my family's ever been through.
06:00She went and had an annual mammogram
06:02and she didn't expect anything to come back
06:04and her doctor called her
06:06and was like, you know, we found something.
06:08We don't know exactly what it is yet
06:10so we need to do the standard testing
06:12or whatever it is they have to do.
06:14She didn't feel it until they told her
06:16and that's whenever panic started to sort of set in.
06:18It was probably nothing, probably just a little benign lump or something
06:20when it came back that it was cancer.
06:22That really gave all of us a reality check
06:24because we always thought, you know,
06:26this would never be us.
06:28You know, there is a strong cancer presence on both sides of my family.
06:30We just never thought it would be our mother.
06:36She had to have surgery
06:38so we went up to a town that's very far away
06:40from where we live.
06:42It was about a two and a half hour drive.
06:44I know it doesn't seem like that far
06:47but she had it removed with a few lymph nodes
06:49because they had to test them
06:51and so we thought that was that.
06:53She did have to stay an extra night
06:55because she stopped breathing during the surgery.
06:57We took her home.
06:59We thought everything was going to be fine.
07:01She had a hard time healing.
07:03Amberlynn and I both did our part
07:05the best we could along with my sisters
07:07and my mom's husband
07:09and we thought everything was going to be fine.
07:11We really did.
07:13We all helped tremendously
07:16and we were just going to finally see them
07:18when my mom seen them.
07:20His face went white.
07:22He started stammering on his words
07:24and he had to get up and leave the room.
07:26He made an excuse that he forgot a paper
07:28but my sister seeing that very paper
07:30he said he needed sitting on the table.
07:32I'm sure he had to go compose himself
07:34because this doctor is a very caring, amazing doctor.
07:36I've never seen a doctor care as much as this doctor does.
07:38He came back into the room
07:40and he said that we did not get it all.
07:42It had spread a little further
07:44and it was possible.
07:46My sister tried to be as strong as she could
07:48but I could see the tears in her eyes.
07:50My mom completely had a breakdown.
07:52I went into the bathroom.
07:54I composed myself the whole time.
07:56I had my own little breakdown.
07:58The whole way I drove home
08:00I tried to pretend like I was okay
08:02just trying to be strong for mom.
08:04I wasn't.
08:06When I got home I was a mess
08:08and Amberlynn healed me
08:10and made me feel like everything was going to be okay.
08:13I'm trying to have faith that they'll remove it all
08:15but you never know.
08:17I do believe in God and I will never waver on that.
08:19I pray every day that this will just go away
08:21because I've seen miracles and I'm hoping my mom will be one.
08:23I feel that now there has been an enormous
08:25amount of negativity about Amberlynn
08:27surrounding it because of a certain person
08:29decided to get on there and share
08:31which I know my mom is okay with now.
08:33It was my choice not to share it.
08:35Now that it is out I'm asking for help
08:37on this GoFundMe.
08:39It was set up by my sister.
08:41We don't know if my mom's insurance will pay for the kill.
08:43The gasp back and forth is going to be outrageous.
08:45Me and Amberlynn have help
08:47and we will continue to help
08:49and the proceeds from this video
08:51all of whatever we make off this video
08:53is going to go straight to my mother.
08:55I'm just asking from the bottom of my heart
08:57that you donate anything you can even if it's a dollar.
08:59I request please because we've been
09:01on the GoFundMe and people are
09:03bringing personal opinions
09:05about me or whatever it is
09:07into this. This is about Becky's mom
09:10and it's not about anything else.
09:12Her family and us, we have requested to leave that out of it
09:14because we are trying to have
09:16as little stress as possible regarding this.
09:18I don't know how you hold it together.
09:20Becky is strong.
09:22I'm just saying right now she is strong
09:24like Becky said she lives in God and I know a lot of you do too
09:26so please, prayers. Her family would appreciate those
09:28and if you don't believe in God and you don't pray
09:30just please, positive thoughts.
09:32We're not telling you to donate even if it's a dollar
09:34that would be amazing. We have helped her family a lot
09:36even in the past. That's not something we share
09:38online. We're not going to sit there and just tell people
09:40that we're helping because that's just not
09:42what makes you a good person. What makes you a good person
09:44is what you do behind closed doors and you don't have
09:46to sit there and prove yourself to people.
09:48We will continue to help in every way possible.
09:50It's just a really hard time for her. I hate
09:52seeing this happen. It's just I
09:54love her mom and it's like I've been in her life
09:56for two and a half years now and it's like I know how it feels
09:58because my mom also went through it and it's like
10:00it was different. They're thinking the
10:02kill and the rape is going to be happening for about a month
10:04and a half so four to six weeks. It's just
10:06taking a toll on everyone because Becky's family
10:08is really big so there's a lot of people hurting. And everyone
10:10does their part to help how they can.
10:12It's just I am coming forward.
10:14My sister is coming forward. Whatever extra
10:16that you could help with. I don't know if her
10:18insurance is good. If they will pay half. If they won't
10:20pay at all because she was supposed to have a genetic testing
10:22for if it could be anywhere else in her body
10:24and what kind and the insurance refused to pay
10:26for that and the doctor said she needed that. So we're
10:28just trying to rack up as much money and
10:30I've already given them money off of the
10:32GoFundMe to help. We are just trying our best
10:34and it's like sometimes you know
10:36one or two people's help just isn't enough in certain cases
10:38so sometimes you know people
10:40have to ask for help. They requested that we make
10:42this video. So that's kind of what's been going on
10:44outside of things. We needed to confirm that
10:46GoFundMe because people were unsure if it was real.
10:48What was said around the GoFundMe
10:50is not real. It's not real. Becky's family
10:52is distraught over this whole thing. My mother
10:54did make that comment. I can assure you. That said
10:56that I've been helping because how
10:58it was leaked that Becky's mom has
11:00personal information
11:02was leaked through someone that knows
11:04Becky's mom but the thing about what this person
11:06said isn't real. It's hard to
11:08explain without diving into too much personal detail.
11:10We just want to let you know that GoFundMe is real and it's going to be
11:12linked down in the description box.
11:14So it's just been a
11:16hard last few days for everyone
11:18and her mom doesn't need this stress. So we kind of
11:20just want to put an end to it all. Just ask for any
11:22support whether it be thoughts or a dollar.
11:24It honestly doesn't matter what it is. It's going to help
11:26greatly with you know things that she's having to go through.
11:28It's going to help with medicine and all kinds of
11:30stuff. So for the people who have donated we just want to
11:32say thank you very much. I mean I'm sure it's going to help
11:34even more because my stepdad
11:36is probably going to have to take a day or two
11:38extra off of work and that will take you know
11:40personally hits to them.
11:42So any little thing would help them. Any little thing.
11:44I'm sorry for repeating anything
11:46that I have said because I know that can get a little
11:48annoying. I'm just trying my
11:50I'm trying my best to help my
11:52mom and she has always been practically
11:54my everything since I was an infant
11:56and
11:58I need her around.
12:00I need her. If this is what we have to go through
12:02to keep her here then so be it.
12:04I just also very greatly appreciate prayers.
12:06I really do. Prayers can go a long way.
12:08So this is where we're going to end the video.
12:10We appreciate everything. And we will see you guys
12:12in the next one. Bye. I'm not a scammer.
12:14Everything I said in that video was exactly told to me.
12:16What you guys heard is what I knew.
12:18What I thought I knew. So it's just
12:20I'm getting really annoyed with that. Like honestly
12:22people just have no idea what they're talking about half the time.
12:24I am thankful that
12:26all of us got to get together this year.
12:28And I'm thankful that we
12:30were all still here to see
12:32another year.
12:34Just all the blessings.
12:36I don't know where to put this.
12:38Isn't she just cute?
12:40But my mom is
12:42gone. My mom passed away.
12:44I don't know how that's a scam.
12:46I don't know how having
12:48and not
12:50being able to afford getting back and forth to the
12:52treatments or the surgeries
12:54It wasn't a scam.
12:56I promise.
12:58Not once did you say sorry
13:00for any of the
13:02things that you
13:04have brought to my channel
13:06that is in a negative
13:08light.
13:20Rafe got this message from Becky's mom
13:22and put it out online.
13:24It was said that Rafe was putting out
13:26Amberlynn and Becky's address
13:28online. But we'll find out that
13:30it was actually Becky who put out
13:32her own address and pictures
13:34of the address online. And this was all
13:36before she met Amberlynn.
13:38There are a few people saying that they've seen Rafe
13:40post her address online.
13:42That's illegal. Outside chat. Outside.
13:44Cute. Where is this? Monticello.
13:46Right behind Family Dollar. It's darling.
13:48And they have treated Becky
13:50like shit. Screwed
13:52her over. And what did you
13:54do? You.
13:56You wanted them back.
13:58It's all your fault.
14:00So don't be
14:02sending me messages telling me to please
14:04stop commenting.
14:06I've done commenting.
14:08But you could have at least picked up the phone.
14:10You could have called me
14:12and we could have talked about this.
14:14You have not once
14:16called me
14:18and said, Norma, I am so
14:20sorry that you
14:22have cancer. I am so
14:24sorry that you had to
14:26go through this. Not once have you
14:28ever said that to me. Not
14:30once. For one thing, I'll do whatever
14:32I please.
14:34And the next thing,
14:36I never threw Becky out.
14:38Becky should have never
14:40got on the internet,
14:42on social media, telling everybody
14:44in the world that I threw her out.
14:46She had a choice.
14:48That was my house,
14:50mine and Buddy's. We paid the bills.
14:52She lived there.
14:54They mended things there toward
14:56the end, but like, she's
14:58blown it with everybody else since.
15:00And I'm just, I figured
15:02she would try to learn, but
15:04it doesn't seem like it. She did
15:06keep me from seeing my mom and my family
15:08a lot of times. She would try to
15:10make me feel guilty. Even though
15:12she would be invited to come with me, she
15:14would stay home and then purposely
15:16try to give me a time
15:18limit when to be back, or try
15:20to make it to where I didn't go at all
15:22by making me feel bad for leaving. And then
15:24there were times where she completely
15:26forbid me from going, especially when my mom
15:28was very sick. Even after we got
15:30the vaccines,
15:32she still was very hesitant about
15:34me going anywhere. And I was always spending
15:36time with her. Am I upset that Eric
15:38and Ricky still talk to Amber? Did Eric have
15:40a convo with me about this before
15:42reaching out to Amber? I have a flirty personality.
15:44Everyone's convinced I have a crush on Eric.
15:46So, let's get to it.
15:48And I just might. You and Eric are absolutely
15:50in love with one another. Yeah.
15:52Let me feed you, because I'm a neighbor.
15:54Okay.
15:56Here you go, Amberlynn.
15:58I didn't even get a dinner.
16:00I don't know.
16:02Who are we?
16:04We're a couple, don't you know?
16:06Oh yeah, we're married.
16:08Yeah, we're married. We're crushing hard.
16:10Like, it is what it is.
16:12Becky, what do you think of Amber admitting to a crush on Eric?
16:16She means it.
16:18Is having a crush on Eric a joke or not? I'm confused.
16:22Both.
16:24There were times when I would be
16:26hanging out with Eric and Ricky playing video games
16:28and Amber would set timers
16:30for when I had to be back
16:32to hang out with her
16:34or do things for her. Every now and then,
16:36I would go hang out with Eric and Ricky.
16:38Amber would be invited too, but she would
16:40not choose to hang out with us
16:42and then make it a point
16:44to set a timer for whenever I had to be back.
16:46When I'm at Eric and Ricky's house,
16:48like, once it's night time, I'll go
16:50well, once they're sleeping, I'll go
16:52and I'll FaceTime. I'm not going to lie.
16:54Eric and Ricky, so Becky's friends? No.
16:56I think you guys know now that me and Becky are broken up.
16:58Like, obviously.
17:00So, whoever stays in my life,
17:02whoever stays in my life
17:04who I met from being with Becky, then obviously they're my true
17:06friends and true people
17:08in my life that I love and that love me and care about me.
17:10I'm literally seeing Becky's family this weekend.
17:12You guys, I don't know, I think some of you have like a warped image
17:14of things, which is fine.
17:16To be honest, we haven't spoken
17:18in almost a year.
17:20Whenever I became really depra-
17:22isolated myself and they got
17:24upset with me for doing that
17:26and not texting them, so
17:28they stopped talking to me. I never tried
17:30to fight for that because that had
17:32happened other times before where they would
17:34just stop talking to me and I would have to beg
17:36for them to talk to me again. But I would go through bouts
17:38of depression and isolate myself from
17:40everyone. So, I mean, it wasn't like
17:42I was doing it to them. Yeah, we don't talk.
17:44We had a little falling out, so
17:46whatever they do, I
17:48really don't care what Amber does either.
17:50Is Eric and Ricky actually still
17:52hanging out with Amber even after what Amber
17:54has put Beck through? Does Beck know?
17:56I truthfully have no idea, but I would
17:58assume not because
18:00Eric messaged me on TikTok
18:02literally last night.
18:33Excuse me, I'm important.
18:35LR, how do you not see how
18:37controlling you are? I don't know.
18:39Am I controlling? I'm sorry if I'm controlling.
18:41How has Amber manipulated
18:43you? What did she say to get you into
18:45the relationship? I wanted to
18:47start off very slow,
18:49and I was, but I was moving too slow
18:51for her, so one day
18:53she was just like, there's a line of
18:55people who want to be with me,
18:57so if you're not going to be with me,
18:59then you need to leave.
19:01Amberlynn was like, you better
19:03figure it out because I got people in mind.
19:05She likes to exaggerate the story.
19:07You exaggerate the story like I have never known
19:09in my life. I know, it was an exaggeration,
19:11but you were kind of like, Becky, come on now,
19:13I don't want to waste my time.
19:15I don't want to waste my time.
19:17That made me panic.
19:19You did say that, because you did have other people in your DMs.
19:21That's why I got mad over Snapchat, and you barely started using it.
19:23Oh yeah, I ended up like, yeah.
19:25Because that's all she would get is people
19:27wanting to like, get it.
19:29So Becky made me turn it to private,
19:31which I totally get, obviously.
19:33So I couldn't get messages anymore.
19:35It was really bad on Snapchat, but it's like, kind of low-key
19:37on Instagram. I mean, I still get that, but
19:39I had somebody send me a pic one time
19:41on Facebook. I love that for you.
19:43And you blocked them immediately. Oh, did I?
19:45I started laughing, and I showed you, and you were like,
19:47you jerked that out of my hand.
19:49Well, yeah, I don't want you to do the same.
19:51Okay, in the past. It was just funny.
19:53It is funny. She said she wasn't interested
19:55in being friends, and I didn't want to
19:57lose the friendship. I was enjoying
19:59hanging out with her, and getting to know her.
20:01So I just rushed into it.
20:03I was like, okay, fine, we'll be in a relationship.
20:05Also, she had no idea what she was
20:07getting herself into either. Wait, who? You.
20:09With you? Yeah, oh my god. Oh.
20:11I was still very broken-hearted. I was a very
20:13broken person with very high walls.
20:15And I have no idea how you hung on
20:17like you did. Because this girl would try to hit me
20:19up, and I would lie and be like, I'm sleeping
20:21while sitting there watching TV.
20:23Because I was so tired from work, dude.
20:25What? Yeah, I only did that like once or twice,
20:27I promise. But like, I got home from work
20:29like 3 o'clock in the morning, and I'm like,
20:31I just want to eat and lay here and watch TV and go to sleep.
20:33And you're like, can we talk? And I'm like,
20:35I'm going to sleep. But then I literally lay there and watch
20:37Family Guy for like, at least 20 more minutes.
20:39Before going to sleep.
20:41Oh, here's my shit right now.
20:55Yeah.
20:57Call Dana and tell her she looks like
20:59Chris Griffin.
21:01Important priorities
21:03are occurring. Have you ever
21:05just not been in a talkie mood? That's when I tell the
21:07person, mm, I'm good. No, I didn't
21:09like you. That's why I'd come see you, and why things
21:11happen the way they happen. Yeah.
21:13Becky Amber literally said she settled for you. You're ignorant
21:15enough to still defend her. I'm not defending her,
21:17but to be honest, I feel like I was
21:19settling for Amberlynn too.
21:21You know, we were settling for each other. We
21:23built this really
21:25strong bond and this care
21:27and this
21:29partnership.
21:31But it wasn't
21:33like it should have been.
21:35And I don't think that's rude at all.
21:37It's just how it is sometimes.
21:39You've been killing it, babe. See you in September.
21:43Did you see that right there? That's really her.
21:45What?
21:47That's her, y'all. Okay?
21:49It is what it is. Benno was just like, after that,
21:51I felt stuck and obligated.
21:53And like, she definitely
21:55made it known to me that she did
21:57not have anybody else.
21:59That I was all she had.
22:01This whole like, hashtag free Becky thing
22:03is so crazy, because it's like, Becky's that type of
22:05person, if she does not want to be with
22:07you, she ain't gonna be with you.
22:09Becky is capable
22:11of living on her own, creating
22:13a life for herself, and she has a huge
22:15family. Trust me, if she
22:17did not want to be with Amberlynn Reid,
22:19she would not be with Amberlynn Reid.
22:21There is nothing that I give her besides
22:23my love that she wants.
22:25She loves me. She is
22:27with me because of me. And I know a lot of
22:29people think it's because of this, and because of that,
22:31and because of this. Everything that you guys think
22:33that she's with me for, she can get somewhere else.
22:35Just saying.
22:37When did I realize you needed to end things with Amber? What was the final straw
22:39in the relationship? There was one day
22:41where she had started
22:43pretending to be me in text messages.
22:45I had had a group message with
22:47Eric and Ricky that we had had for
22:49years. We had had it long before
22:51I'd even known who Amber was.
22:53She was mad that she
22:55wasn't added to that one, that she had been
22:57added to a new one that we created for
22:59all four of us. So she was pretending
23:01to be me, asking for
23:03her to be put in our
23:05old friend group one from years
23:07ago. They automatically knew that it wasn't
23:09me. They could tell that it was her.
23:11Me and her just got into a big argument
23:13about that. It was so bad that we just
23:15ended up going to sleep. We were in the
23:17living room. I was on one chair and
23:19she was on the couch. And we went to
23:21sleep for a really long time. And when we
23:23woke up, we started fighting again.
23:25I ended up going to my family's that
23:27weekend. And that's whenever I decided
23:29that I didn't want to
23:31continue being in this toxic
23:33relationship anymore. I was
23:35so worried about what would happen to
23:37her, who would take care of her, who would take
23:39care of the animals. That's why I stayed so
23:41long. I did care about this person.
23:43This was my friend. These animals,
23:45I did love these animals. I
23:47felt an obligation to take care of
23:49them. I guess it also tied into
23:51my trauma of just needing
23:53to feel needed. And I think that
23:55was also why I even stayed.
23:57Because I also just felt like
23:59this person had nobody
24:01else. And I didn't deserve better.
24:03So that's why
24:05I stayed as long as I did.
24:07I realized it was unhealthy. That
24:09it was doing neither one of us
24:11any favors. That she
24:13should move on and
24:15hopefully move on, go live with her
24:17mom or whatever she
24:19needed to do. And I wanted to
24:21move back home. I wanted to
24:23be with my family and my friends
24:25and live my life. I
24:27was ready to let go. I had been
24:29ready to let go long before
24:31we had even ended it.
24:33Obviously, I was hurt.
24:35I thought we were getting married
24:37and I was just so used to our
24:39relationship that
24:41I thought I couldn't live without it. And I
24:43realized that what I can't live without
24:45is Becky as my best friend. Not
24:47Becky as my partner in that way.
24:49Like we just... I don't know.
24:51Yeah. Like
24:53I don't know. Becky's my best
24:55friend and I love her very much. You told Becky
24:57she should feel like utter crap. I did.
24:59She proposed to me.
25:01This is all stuff we've talked about so I'm not
25:03throwing shade, okay? She proposed
25:05to me and
25:07we were in love
25:09and we had
25:11some of our future planned.
25:13So yeah, she should feel like fucking utter
25:15shit for breaking my heart.
25:17Who's to say I don't?
25:19It is what it is.
25:21But
25:23I don't want her to feel that way.
25:25I did say that. That's how I was feeling in the moment.
25:27Do I feel that way now?
25:29Absolutely not. Absolutely not.
25:31If you're in a relationship and you're
25:33not vibing and all that stuff
25:35you have every right
25:37to be like, peace out, I can't do this.
25:39We did talk about it last night where we admitted to each other
25:41that we never had that spark.
25:43Now that we're not in a relationship anymore, this is gonna sound
25:45so crazy, I feel like
25:47I can be more honest with you.
25:49Same. You know? Same.
25:51I feel like we're so relieved.
25:53Like we're just not meant to be together.
25:55Becky's not a bad girlfriend.
25:57She's a good girlfriend and same with me. I'm just gonna be honest.
25:59I'm just gonna be honest.
26:01Somebody made a comment that was like
26:03I've been with y'all four years to realize this.
26:05The thing is, those were pretty good four years.
26:07It's not like they were bad.
26:09Yeah. We just thought that
26:11we loved each other
26:13in a certain way that we didn't.
26:15It's because we loved each other so much as best friends.
26:17And I know I keep saying that, but that's literally that happens
26:19and that happened to us.
26:21But I also look at it this way.
26:23Had I not got with you
26:25and stayed with you
26:27where would have my life went?
26:29It wouldn't be like this.
26:31Like everything happens for a reason.
26:33Yeah. You experience things in life
26:35and that's the point of living
26:37is you live and you learn.
26:39So it's not oh I didn't
26:41you should have figured this out four years ago.
26:43It's these four years were supposed to happen.
26:45I completely agree.
26:47How come I'm drawing complete
26:49blanks of our whole relationship?
26:51Are you feeling the same?
26:53What the heck?
26:55I really am too.
26:57It's so hard to remember memories and I just found out that
26:59when you have a relationship and stuff you like lose your memories.
27:01And I'm like oh okay that makes sense.
27:03No no no I gotta address this with Susu.
27:05She literally sat there and said she misses nothing from your relationship.
27:07What do you miss most about being with Becky?
27:13Nothing.
27:15I don't either.
27:17Because all there was was friendship.
27:19I've always wanted to travel and Becky never did
27:21which newly she wants to which is so weird to me.
27:23So it's like I thought I was gonna be with her forever
27:25so I kind of like put all my dreams on the back burner
27:27because a lot of you saw that.
27:29Because when you love someone you kind of like do that.
27:31When did you lose sexual attraction to each other?
27:33Oh sh** I'll let you go first.
27:35I really don't know I can't pinpoint it.
27:37So was it while we were together?
27:39I don't even.
27:41I'm scared to know the answer.
27:43I don't think like it ever left.
27:45I just think my libido has just.
27:47Okay she always has to blame the libido.
27:49Oh my god we're spilling some tea.
27:51What did yours end?
27:53What do you mean?
27:55Oh yeah you don't like being put in the hot seat do you?
27:57Um.
27:59I don't really know how to answer that question.
28:01Why not?
28:03I don't know.
28:05See?
28:07It's a weird question.
28:09Definitely like I want to say
28:11like for sure like gone like completely like
28:13like a week after you broke up with me.
28:15Yeah.
28:17Like completely like I literally can't even look at you like that no more.
28:19People are gonna be like oh my god that's so rude.
28:21But it's just it is what it is.
28:23I stopped looking at you like that a long time ago you know?
28:25Becky if you stopped looking at Amberlynn like that a long time ago
28:27why did you still propose?
28:29That was after the proposal.
28:31And it's not a long time ago.
28:33I didn't really mean it as in like
28:35last year or anything.
28:37I mean like
28:39probably about April-ish.
28:41Hey guys!
28:43So welcome to a mukbang.
28:45This video is about Chick-fil-A
28:49and mine and Becky's relationship.
28:51So good.
28:53Some stuff has been going on in my life
28:55that I have not shared.
28:57Good stuff. I'll eventually talk about it sure.
28:59But there will be a time and place for that.
29:01As for why we're really here.
29:03People have noticed that
29:05I haven't been wearing my ring
29:07and people saw that there was no bed in the room.
29:09Which that's what you're seeing now.
29:11If you guys don't follow my TikTok you need to
29:13because love me a good TikTok.
29:17You guys haven't been seeing Becky
29:19in my videos. A lot of people are saying
29:21that Becky and I aren't together anymore.
29:23It's all a coincidence.
29:25Becky and I are together.
29:27I think it's so weird. It is weird that
29:29you guys would think that we weren't together
29:31because we literally just got engaged.
29:33Like
29:37I'm so happy
29:39and engaged.
29:41But then all these random little things have been happening
29:43where it literally looks like
29:45we're not together anymore.
29:47It looks like we're not being in my videos.
29:49There's been no reason for her to be in my videos.
29:51I've done a lot of sit down videos.
29:53A lot of videos focused on weight
29:55and things like that. I haven't been vlogging.
29:57Vlogs are where you guys see Becky.
29:59You guys never see her during like a weigh in
30:01or a sit down Q&A
30:03unless the video is
30:05designed for her to be in it as well.
30:07So like I get it.
30:09That part I understand. But then you guys are like
30:11wait a minute. Where's that bed at though?
30:13We simply just bought a new bed
30:15because we had two beds.
30:17We have a guest room and the room that we sleep in
30:19and in the guest room the bed
30:21was a full size or it might have been a queen.
30:23Girl who knows. But we wanted it to be
30:25a king bed. So we simply
30:27just bought a new bed. But it's definitely
30:29like really weird coincidences.
30:31I get it. And then the whole okay well where
30:33is your ring? I love the rings. I pick them out.
30:35A lot of people think I hate them. I literally pick them
30:37out myself. Nothing against Becky
30:39at all. But my whole life there has
30:41been distinct engagement rings that like
30:43are super beautiful to me and that's what I
30:45wanted. And so I got to pick out
30:47my own rings. She ordered the rings
30:49without me knowing and was like these are the
30:51ones y'all want you to propose to me with. It was
30:53a tiny pink vibrator
30:55with a engagement ring
30:57wrapped around it. She looked at me and said
30:59will you have sex with me for the rest of
31:01my life? And I said yes. We had sex
31:03one time in the last
31:05like three years. So I did.
31:07I felt pressured into doing it. I didn't
31:09really want to do it. And I
31:11don't think she really wanted to do it either.
31:13She just wanted to be engaged.
31:15Like it wasn't you know with me
31:17or anything. She just wanted to have that
31:19status. A lot of people do that. It's not
31:21some weird rare thing. And
31:23I was always so excited. Not only
31:25being engaged to the person that you're like deeply
31:27in love with and you want to spend forever with
31:29but I was super excited to like wear
31:31the ring and flaunt it. But what
31:33I have found recently. I'm scared
31:35to wear the ring. I'm scared to lose it. I'm scared
31:37to break it. I've never had real
31:39jewelry before because I'm not.
31:41You guys know I'm very into costume jewelry
31:43as you can see. And I'm terrified
31:45of breaking it or something
31:47and the thing is I chill around
31:49the house. I'm not out. I don't
31:51have a job outside of my house. My
31:53life is at home. I'm not used
31:55to like this big rock on my finger.
31:57I'm just not. So I haven't
31:59really been wearing it for the fact of like
32:01I don't have a reason to. I have actually
32:03currently a few friends and one of my
32:05very very very very very good friends
32:07I know you're watching. She doesn't wear hers either.
32:12Some people just don't wear their engagement ring.
32:14Am I going to wear it
32:16eventually? Yes. It's just
32:18I don't really. I get the significance
32:20around it but it's like
32:22if I'm just chilling at home mixed with
32:24the fear of I'm afraid that I'm gonna
32:26flush it down the sink while doing the dishes
32:28because I forget to take it off. I just
32:30figured you know what? Let's just not wear it.
32:32I have two engagement rings. I feel like one is more flashy
32:34versus the other. I keep them
32:36in a safe spot. Like I know people who are
32:38married and don't wear their wedding rings.
32:40You know? Becky and I did not
32:42break up. We are engaged. We are the
32:44closest thing to the opposite
32:46of breaking up. It's just so funny.
32:48The reason why I didn't like say anything about it
32:50is because I thought it was silly. I really just
32:52think that people don't wanna
32:54believe that Becky loves
32:56me and people also don't wanna believe
32:58that I love Becky. It's all such a weird
33:00thing. Becky and I are in
33:02a happy relationship. Yes, every relationship
33:04has their little annoyances
33:06here and there, but y'all
33:08we good. It's
33:10very much all coincidence and I just figured
33:12I would simply just talk about it. Yeah, you
33:14if me and Becky broke up, you
33:16would know. I'd be distraught. Distraught.
33:18Movies are funny. Literally just
33:20watching people chew. Amber, would you ever take
33:22Becky back if she changed? No.
33:24Changed? I don't know
33:26what that means, but no. I wouldn't take her back either.
33:28That wasn't shade. No,
33:30I'm just saying we wouldn't take each other back. It's because
33:32now I know
33:34this sounds bad, but now I know
33:36what, like
33:38that love feels like.
33:40That is actually the biggest reason why I broke
33:42up with Amberlynn is to have my own
33:44personal
33:46journey and to grow and
33:48to change, you know?
33:50Yeah.
33:52Becky, do you feel like you were truly loved
33:54ever by Amber when she was in love with Destiny
33:56the first half of the relationship and roommates the last?
33:58Um, I feel like
34:00Amberlynn did love me,
34:02but I think she was very confused with the whole
34:04Destiny thing. I mean, honestly, it is
34:06what it is because
34:08I
34:10didn't love her like she wanted
34:12to be loved either.
34:14So,
34:16I don't know. If y'all had gotten married,
34:18where were you going to, what were you going
34:20to do? What were your plans?
34:22Um, go ahead and tell them
34:24the date.
34:26The date?
34:28Why is it kind of sad, Loki?
34:30I don't know. Like, I don't want to marry her no more.
34:32I know you don't want to marry her, but it's like
34:34kind of sad, Loki. Yeah.
34:36It's okay, though.
34:38I'm glad we figured all this out before we got married.
34:40High five, friend. We're good. You know what I'm saying?
34:42Yes. Okay, listen. December 1st,
34:442022 was gonna
34:46be when I became a
34:48wife to someone who actually didn't even
34:50like me. Bullcrap.
34:52Love that. I literally love
34:54that.
34:56I loved you, Hobag.
34:58Dang!
35:00I loved you, Hobag.
35:02She just dumped someone she proposed to not long ago.
35:04Yeah?
35:06The thing with that is
35:08we had just had
35:10Christmas and it was the beginning of
35:12the year and, you know, we were in high spirits
35:14and we were feeling very much in love
35:16and very excited for the future
35:18and it was
35:20after that
35:22that things started happening
35:24and that one big fight.
35:26Yeah. Everything happens for a reason.
35:28I'm very grateful for everything.
35:30You were quick to get off that.
35:34Or is there something
35:36I don't know? What you mean?
35:38How I was like, when I proposed to you, we were like
35:40ready for it. Right. What was the biggest
35:42takeaway you learned from your relationship
35:44with Becky? The biggest
35:46takeaway is don't settle.
35:48Like, in a relationship, there's a certain
35:50way that you should feel and
35:52I wasn't feeling it with her
35:54and I knew how long I wasn't. Like, for a long time
35:56I wasn't, but
35:58I just felt trapped.
36:00You know?
36:02Anyway. I mean, I had
36:04second thoughts.
36:06Why didn't you say something, man?
36:08I should've.
36:10You should've.
36:12Because then maybe all that other stuff wouldn't happen.
36:14Everything happens for a reason. You're right. You're right. You're right.
36:16Romance goes and friendship stays. It's common. Yeah.
36:18Like, there wasn't even
36:20ever, like, romance. Like, never.
36:22This is her.
36:24I'm filming.
36:26No, you're not. Yeah.
36:28It's going. Seven seconds.
36:30It's not gonna be a video.
36:32What is with my hair? I don't know.
36:34Um.
36:36It was just really weird.
36:38I think her and I were just very lonely
36:40when we first met, so it was just, like, easy
36:42to... I don't know
36:44what I'm trying to say, but it doesn't even matter.
36:46But when we were together and she'd be gone for the weekend,
36:48sometimes when she'd be on her way home,
36:50I'd be like, damn.
36:52I mean, same.
36:54No, in the sense of, like, oh.
36:56No, same, though.
36:58Do you kind of get what I'm saying? Like, you're like, okay, cool.
37:00I'm about to go see my fiancé, but, like,
37:02I'm not as excited as I should be. Right.
37:04Like, I wish I could have stayed another night, at least.
37:06For sure. Yeah.
37:08Like, Becky could be making out with someone in front of me, and I would literally be like this.
37:10Or I'd be like,
37:12yeah, yeah, yeah, stick it in her. You know?
37:14Hopefully not.
37:16Me and...
37:18Me and my girlfriend kiss in front of Becky.
37:20Oh, that would hurt me.
37:22Seeing you make out with someone...
37:24Well, not seeing you make out with them,
37:26because you wouldn't be doing it in front of me.
37:28Yeah, okay.
37:30And how do you feel? I don't know what you're about to say.
37:32How do you feel? I feel fine. We hug.
37:34Everything. Everything a couple does, because it's not...
37:36Like, you guys make it seem... Like, I get it.
37:38I'm stumbling on my words. I get what you guys are saying,
37:40but I think that you just don't know until you're in this, like,
37:42situation.
37:44That's all I can say.
37:46Some people just can't fathom being...
37:48Or being close to their ex,
37:50or... Like we said,
37:52you know, it was just over before it was over, you know?
37:54Just because the romance is gone
37:56doesn't mean everything else is, you know?
37:58Mmm, love that. Mmm, love that.
38:00Don't ever touch me like that
38:02again, bro.
38:04Don't ever touch me like that.
38:06Okay, weirdo.
38:08Amber, why did you say that Becky was stopping you from seeing the world
38:10when you can't travel now anyway?
38:12She didn't want to travel at all.
38:14If I was to lose all the weight and...
38:16Or enough to travel. I don't have to lose all the weight to travel.
38:18Let's be real. That's insane.
38:20I just have to lose enough to travel.
38:22And, um... She didn't want that.
38:24She didn't want to travel. Which I do now.
38:26Which is so crazy to me. It's like, what the heck?
38:28Because that was like a really big deal breaker in my head.
38:30Like, because I... I can't see myself
38:32living in Kentucky forever, and that's what she wanted.
38:34I did not. And there was places I want to go to,
38:36things I want to see, family to visit, and she didn't want to do any of that.
38:38I did too! I just didn't want to move to all them places.
38:40Honey love. Sweet lips. Sugar plum.
38:42Like, no.
38:44No what? That's a lie.
38:46Whatever, bro. She is lying.
38:48Example, three hours away.
38:50Three hours away. I had really bad driving anxiety.
38:52How long have I known you? And everyone doesn't care about that.
38:54We're literally arguing on here because you're lying!
38:56Because I just told you!
38:58Oh my god, you guys are getting tea. It's fine, though.
39:00Okay, back in the day, I had bad anxiety
39:02about driving really far places because I always
39:04imagined myself breaking down and being stuck there forever
39:06and then getting murdered on the side of the road.
39:08That's how I thought.
39:10What I'm trying to explain to you guys is that
39:12something as simple as there's this place three hours from here
39:14that I wanted to go to, and I've been wanting to go for
39:16literal ever, and
39:18a big hard part for me was her
39:20not wanting to take me.
39:22But then she would drive
39:24hours away for other things or people.
39:26Like what? We'll talk about this later.
39:28It's just one of those things. You can say the bad that I've done.
39:30You can say the bad that I've done.
39:32Oh, the other places I've went for people?
39:34Because I knew where I was going. Oh, I love that.
39:36If I'm going somewhere, if I want to travel, I don't want to be the one driving
39:38the whole time.
39:40So I would also have been more willing
39:42had you had your license as well. For sure.
39:44Amber, do you think Becky truly believed
39:46you would have ever lost the weight to be able to travel? No.
39:48I don't think Becky thought I would ever lose a ton of weight.
39:50No, I don't. Amber, you're delusional if you think you can travel.
39:52Amber, you barely fit in a car.
39:54People ask if I can wear a seatbelt.
39:56No, they don't fit me. A lot of you are asking
39:58why I don't wear a seatbelt in Destiny's Car.
40:00It's because her seatbelt's broken.
40:02I will say it's a tight squeeze,
40:04but I definitely fit.
40:06So you're going to lose weight and travel with wifey? Yes.
40:08Do you guys ever look at an ex and you're just like,
40:10what was I thinking?
40:12Pretty much all my exes.
40:14That's how I feel about Destiny.
40:16Pretty much all my exes. They said that
40:18I'm overcompensating how happy
40:20I am. The f*** does that mean?
40:22I think the best way I can describe this is
40:24this girl, she brings out
40:26the happiness that I've never had before.
40:28Not all of my exes.
40:30Pretty much all of my exes. I don't feel that way about
40:32any of my exes besides Destiny.
40:34People are having
40:36an issue with us because we flirt on camera.
40:38There's no harm in that.
40:40What do you have to say to them? I love you. You love me?
40:42I think so.
40:44That's so mean, ain't it?
40:46But you thought she was just the hottest thing that ever walked the earth when you were with her.
41:02Where you from?
41:04You sexy thing.
41:06Yeah, that's weird.
41:08Why?
41:10She didn't say
41:12like she was in, I don't know if she said
41:14that she was in, what did she say about your feelings for Destiny
41:16after getting with me? You were confused about it, right?
41:18Yeah, of course I was, but that has nothing to do with her looks.
41:20Right. No, y'all,
41:22these are things I already knew. Literally, I can
41:24promise you right now,
41:26it doesn't shock me because every relationship
41:28I've ever been in, it turns out, they didn't really
41:30love me. So, this is
41:32nothing new and I'm not that upset about it because
41:34I get it.
41:36No, I think that
41:38I don't know, we loved
41:40each other. Yeah, but it wasn't in love.
41:42Do you think you're in love
41:44now? Do you think she's in love with you?
41:46That's a very nice feeling. Congratulations.
41:48I've never had that.
41:50I was in love with you
41:52in the beginning.
41:54I was. Becky was my whole world for
41:56over four years, so
41:58all of a sudden for that to be gone,
42:00it was scary, so
42:02my reaction to the breakup
42:04was out of fear. Yeah.
42:06There were other
42:08times where we tried to break up
42:10and it was me
42:12trying to break up with her and she
42:14would argue with me
42:16and beg me and exhaust
42:18me until I would just give in
42:20and stay. So, you don't think that you're
42:22a charmer? No. Yeah, definitely
42:24not. That happened a few different
42:26times and there was a few different
42:28times that people in my life tried to get me
42:30to leave her. My family had an
42:32intervention with me. They took me
42:34to a park and
42:36was like, you know, we are begging
42:38you to leave her. You are different.
42:40You aren't the same
42:42Beck that we used to know.
42:44We're worried about you. We just don't
42:46think this is a healthy relationship.
42:48I was just so depressed
42:50at that point. I didn't care
42:52about myself. I didn't care about
42:54anything. I felt stuck.
42:56I felt it's what I deserved. I felt like I
42:58had nowhere to go if I were to leave.
43:00I don't know. I just, there were many
43:02factors as to why, but
43:04my family did do
43:06an intervention with me.

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