Story Of A Junkie (1985)

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00:00:00You
00:00:30You
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00:01:11Everybody has some kind of Jones here in New York City. Everybody has something that they need to do in order to get through the day
00:01:22And if you like me you don't want to really hurt
00:01:25Sure, we'd like somebody to come by you could hustle out of a few bucks
00:01:29Then you're sitting here you're sick, you don't know where the fuck to get some bread
00:01:35It's like a chill you can't shave I can ache you don't know where it comes from
00:01:42It's like a good love affair it's nice when it starts
00:01:47Then it becomes fun, it's like everything else
00:01:58I
00:02:28I
00:02:50You know you could stop
00:02:54It's just the best part I mean
00:02:58Last another minute
00:03:02Okay
00:03:28Executive prayer
00:03:58Oh
00:04:11Works works works works works. Well, you need some words words words words words words words
00:04:29That stuff must be good
00:04:36Yeah, don't you throw me with a bag
00:04:39Yo, man, I'm sick like a motherfucker. Fuck you do it. I will do it. I just call me man. Yo, man
00:04:46Yo, man bag man bag you're gonna do nothing to you man
00:04:59Oh, hey, what do you want to get me?
00:05:05What do you want today?
00:05:28I
00:05:58I
00:06:28Oh
00:06:58Oh
00:07:28I
00:07:51Wait in one of these fudge bars
00:07:58I
00:08:28See you walking. All right. Okay. I'm gonna hurt you. All right
00:08:34Get the hell out of here
00:09:00It was about this guy that
00:09:03Yeah, it was a pitbull hey, let's go
00:09:15Just got taken off
00:09:20Gee he got ripped off
00:09:23Why is it with you guys when you people get ripped off you don't go back and kick ass I mean what the fuck
00:09:27What are you guys?
00:09:32I got a seven-inch knife wound on my stomach. I lost this. I've had two sides of my jaw broken from
00:09:4015 dudes and you know, I bit one motherfuckers ear off and spit it in his face
00:09:45Cuz four of them were jumping on me if I'm right there and I'm fighting I don't mind fighting but going back for fucking
00:09:53$20
00:09:57You guys you white he's never fight back
00:10:01Shit, I mean, you know, you gotta show your man's playing with your man. We take you shit away
00:10:04You're gonna stay there and go and you're not come back. He sees you the next day
00:10:07He's gonna do it again. You guys fucking dear Abby
00:10:10Come on, you're cheap. Oh, what should I do?
00:10:13I
00:10:20Usually do you know that Jimbo fight back
00:10:34And for people he thought I meant as white people I don't mean
00:10:39They get high
00:10:43Oh
00:11:13Oh
00:11:26Go cigarette you can spare could you spare a cigarette?
00:11:34Thanks
00:11:43I
00:11:53Know it's I can always get $10 to get it hand-handled a few bucks hit up a friend
00:12:01collect on a debt
00:12:03There's always some way getting 10 bucks together. You got the punk rock special joints here. I
00:12:09was
00:12:10loneliest so
00:12:14No, but I met you
00:12:19But you
00:12:21keep
00:12:23Maybe sometimes you sell your clothes out on the street or
00:12:27Everything, you know anything you can get your hands on you sell it or you help a friend sell something
00:12:32He's got and he gives you some of the money from it. I
00:12:36Mean, you know, you don't have to hurt nobody
00:12:38To keep a drug habit in this city
00:12:41Yeah, right here, what do you want I got knuckles I
00:12:46Mean shit, we all do something. We wouldn't do to keep our habit together
00:12:53Yeah, I got Joyce come here I got joints give me a paper
00:13:00Yeah, but can I have a paper for this guy
00:13:03Come on
00:13:04Jose come on Jose. Give me two papers one for you and me
00:13:09Hey
00:13:17Now what they'll do they'll find somebody that's clean, you know, they ain't got high yet that day and I'll have them test the dope
00:13:25Mmm, sometimes that's real nice
00:13:27You know because they don't know it's really strong
00:13:31And you get real fucked up
00:13:38I
00:13:56Should more than one dope tester is wound up on the rooftop with the rats eating at his bones because
00:14:04So-and-so didn't cut it, right
00:14:08You better like it
00:14:16As hard as hell though don't look like it's coming too fast
00:14:19No, not really because I was getting cold now, you know
00:14:24Summertime is all right
00:14:27Yeah
00:14:29Getting kind of cold won't be kind of hard. Mm-hmm
00:14:38Oh
00:14:52Just bad just bad
00:15:00No, yeah
00:15:08I
00:15:13Get one more food and come on out of this giant to see what you call a midnight snack
00:15:25In this one apartment, there's a hundred thousand dollars worth of drugs going down
00:15:31And they got these chicks bagging that dope and running it up to the corners. There's really like
00:15:37You know a quality control
00:15:49So far so good don't taste pretty nice. Yeah. Yeah nice paper hit you
00:15:57You said it's all right enjoy
00:16:07You know, this is good stuff so it can hold, you know, like a decent cut
00:16:15Put a woman you want to put more on the side right here. No, I'm sorry
00:16:23Yeah
00:16:25Oh
00:16:35You know like it took me an hour first I had to wait an hour in line to cop
00:16:40It was like a million people one hour. Well, it's like, you know, it's a long time
00:16:45I finally cop and all of a sudden the Honda red light, you know, so they make us to make us sit there
00:16:52You know, they said everybody crouch down. Don't say a word. So we're sitting there
00:16:58That's why I never want you to go baby, you know that
00:17:03But anyway, so
00:17:05So then so we're all crouched down waiting in spot
00:17:08well, I mean seriously like at least 15 minutes waiting while they said the police are right out front don't nobody move and
00:17:15So we're sitting there and then I said finally fuck it, you know
00:17:20I'm gonna try to get out of here. It's like I already had a dope on me stashed in my pants. So
00:17:26So there's this guy up on the second floor and like there's no steps going up
00:17:31So like he had to pull me up, you know
00:17:33And like there was like hole going down to the basement all these broken glass and tin cans and rats, right?
00:17:39So he's pulling me up. I'm scared of heights. You know, anyway, so like he pulls me up
00:17:43I run through the run through the building go out a window
00:17:48Have to hop over an air shaft
00:17:50Right through another abandoned building down a fire escape over three fucking barbed wire fences
00:17:57And on the third fence these dogs were chasing me and biting at my legs man. I fucking hop over right?
00:18:04Go around to come out the other end like I don't know totally fucking destroyed my body
00:18:10You know, I all banged and scratched up. I come out and the police are gone
00:18:16The police are gone and people are going back in the place again already, right?
00:18:21Right in like two minutes like if I have waited two more minutes, I wouldn't had to go through all this fucking bullshit
00:18:26I
00:18:56I
00:19:27Go ahead
00:19:33It was a
00:19:56Two-and-a-half
00:20:26Money straight out if you want a cop, CND, token dope.
00:20:34Okay.
00:20:35Go ahead.
00:20:36Yo.
00:20:37Yo.
00:20:38Yo.
00:20:39Yo.
00:20:40Yo.
00:20:41Yo.
00:20:42Yo.
00:20:43Yo.
00:20:44Yo.
00:20:45Yo.
00:20:46Yo.
00:20:47Yo.
00:20:48Yo.
00:20:49Yo.
00:20:50Yo.
00:20:51Yo.
00:20:52Yo.
00:20:53Yo.
00:20:54Yo.
00:20:56I don't think there would be a lower east.
00:20:59I don't think we would survive because everybody would be on welfare.
00:21:07The city would go down the drain.
00:21:10The dope money has a lot to do with the economy of the city.
00:21:17Because it does bring in a lot of money from different states.
00:21:21A lot of people come up from Connecticut.
00:21:25Pennsylvania, Jersey, you know, what have you.
00:21:29And they leave a lot of money down here.
00:21:32Okay?
00:21:33It's a hot night out here.
00:21:34I ain't feeling that good.
00:21:36Come on, next.
00:21:38You make that snappy?
00:21:40Yo, man, get people to wait.
00:21:41Move.
00:21:46Yo, have your money straight out.
00:21:49A lot of kids will go out and they try to get a job.
00:21:53There's too many kids and too little jobs.
00:21:56So a guy will come along, offer them a job in a dope spot,
00:22:01making two, $300 a week at a young age.
00:22:05You know, as they get older, their salary goes up.
00:22:08They start wearing nice clothes, you know, jewelry.
00:22:13They see that they can get just about anything
00:22:16they want in the neighborhood.
00:22:17Maybe they'll shoot a guy,
00:22:21get a little respect, and for them, that's it.
00:22:24Some kids, they're smart.
00:22:26They'll work their way from watching to bodyguard,
00:22:32where they bodyguard the person selling, and to managing.
00:22:38Once they become a manager, they could branch off
00:22:41and the boss will open up another spot.
00:22:45And the receiver percent, like maybe 50%, 75%.
00:22:52Someone who lives out in the suburbs
00:22:54will never see the money that we see.
00:22:57You could sell 20 bundles, 100 bags in a bundle.
00:23:02That's like $20,000 a day.
00:23:04Yeah, what you want?
00:23:05Two Coke.
00:23:06Next.
00:23:08Let me get two in one.
00:23:09Yo.
00:23:10Perico.
00:23:11You have people come in here with four or $500.
00:23:14Every day, the same people.
00:23:16That means that they're spending like $3,000 a week.
00:23:21Some kids start off with at least 20,
00:23:24thinking about retiring by the time they're 29, 30.
00:23:28I know a few guys that have gone to Puerto Rico
00:23:33with half a million, a million dollars.
00:23:37A lot of them don't make it.
00:23:39Mom get hooked, spend most of the money they save.
00:23:43And if they don't have anyone there to back them up
00:23:46or care for them, they'll just wind up in the gutter.
00:23:51Some of them have been millionaires twice, three times
00:23:56and lost it all.
00:23:58Till they got to the point where they don't care anymore.
00:24:01Not like they've lost it all.
00:24:04So they'll just resort to shooting drugs
00:24:06and shooting drugs and shooting drugs.
00:24:09Hey.
00:24:28You know, the brand names are funny.
00:24:30Usually from hit movies at the time,
00:24:32like Black Sunday and E.T. and Mr. T.
00:24:37I dope brand and say Paco, Flaco or whatever,
00:24:45you know, the dope guy for such and such a label.
00:24:49You know, he buys it at the same place as the other guys.
00:24:51And they all may go to the same factory and say,
00:24:54put my stamp on this and put a one and a half step on it.
00:24:58And that means that for like every gram of heroin,
00:25:01there's a gram and a half cut.
00:25:03And that's how you get the different grade of dope
00:25:06on the street.
00:25:08And then all of a sudden, boom,
00:25:09they'll say put a three on it.
00:25:10And then they'll put it out on the street.
00:25:12It's hard.
00:25:13They ain't beat, but it takes you three bags
00:25:15to get straight instead of, you know,
00:25:16one and a half or two.
00:25:18D&D.
00:25:23You want some homeboy, I got some blue tips, blue tips.
00:25:26D&D.
00:25:28Blue tips, blue tips.
00:25:33What are you saying?
00:25:35I said you're the one who stuck up
00:25:36the first national fight, man.
00:25:37No?
00:25:38No, yeah.
00:25:39D&D.
00:25:40I turned you in for the reward money, boy.
00:25:42What's up?
00:25:43D&D.
00:25:43All right, all right.
00:25:45What's up, man?
00:25:46What's happening, brother?
00:25:47D&D, D&D.
00:25:50D&D, D&D.
00:25:51What's up, cool?
00:25:53D&D.
00:25:54You good, right?
00:25:55Take care, homeboy.
00:25:56What's happening, man?
00:25:56What's happening?
00:25:57What's happening?
00:25:58What's happening, man?
00:25:59What's up, Jesus Christ?
00:26:01Yellow tape, yellow tape.
00:26:03Yellow tape, yellow tape.
00:26:05Yellow tape, yellow tape.
00:26:08Yellow tape, yellow tape.
00:26:12Hey, what's happening?
00:26:16What's happening?
00:26:17Listen, man, we've been hearing some shit
00:26:20about you selling some dummies out here.
00:26:22Yo, man.
00:26:23Beating customers.
00:26:24I don't play that shit, man.
00:26:26I don't play that.
00:26:26Yo, calm down.
00:26:27I ain't do that, man.
00:26:28What about putting your shit
00:26:30out on the street instead of ours?
00:26:32Man, you're talking out of your fucking face, man.
00:26:34I don't fuck with nobody's product, man.
00:26:35Hey, fuck you, Freddy.
00:26:36Hey, fuck you too, man.
00:26:37What the fuck does he got to do with us, man?
00:26:39Listen, man.
00:26:40He's getting greedy is what it is, man.
00:26:42You're the one who's getting greedy.
00:26:44I ain't getting greedy, man.
00:26:45He don't got nothing to do with us, man.
00:26:46He's just coming out of his face.
00:26:48We don't want you here.
00:26:50We don't want you in the spot.
00:26:51We don't want you at all.
00:26:52Hey!
00:26:53Hey!
00:26:54Hey!
00:26:55Fuck you, man!
00:26:56Fuck you!
00:26:57Fuck you!
00:26:57Fuck you!
00:26:58Fuck you!
00:26:59Fuck you!
00:27:02Fuck you!
00:27:23You got a cigarette?
00:27:24Sure.
00:27:32Hey, Suzanne! Suzanne!
00:27:35Suzanne!
00:27:36Hey, Suzanne, it's me, it's Baby.
00:27:38Shit.
00:27:39Open the door.
00:27:40It's four o'clock in the morning.
00:27:43Okay, I'll be quiet. I got time to, okay?
00:27:47Just come in for a minute.
00:27:49Shut up, you're waking everybody up.
00:27:50I need to hold on to a few bucks.
00:27:52I already lent you money, you never paid me back.
00:27:54Come on, I've done you plenty.
00:27:56Damn it. Go take a walk.
00:28:03What's that?
00:28:05Check this out, I want to talk to you.
00:28:07I'm mad like a mother.
00:28:09Check this out.
00:28:10The other day I came here and I bought some dope
00:28:13and the shit was coming to me tenderizing, man.
00:28:15What do you mean?
00:28:16Hey, I bought it right here, man.
00:28:17I don't want no money back or nothing.
00:28:19Motherfucker, right now.
00:28:21Yeah, boy!
00:28:24Holy shit.
00:28:32Motherfucker!
00:29:039-1-5, this is Bob.
00:29:05I need to talk to you.
00:29:079-1-5, this is Bob.
00:29:09I got it.
00:29:12We got one George, six Adam, Larry five, seven eight four,
00:29:17David Eddie, eight four, zero nine, eight six.
00:29:32I need to talk to you.
00:29:34Okay, he is my brother-in-law.
00:30:03He is my brother-in-law.
00:30:06And if it's in Bob and George, we will find out about it.
00:30:10But we would like to know who the fuck did it.
00:30:13Don't excuse my language, man, but that's the way it is.
00:30:17When you live in the Lord inside, man, that's the way it is.
00:30:20Eventually you find out.
00:30:22Everybody out here fucks up with everything.
00:30:25The best thing to do is, you know, you got to be cool.
00:30:28But when it comes to brothers, man,
00:30:30and they know that these guys are my brother-in-law,
00:30:32they know, you know, who we are.
00:30:34You know, we don't fuck with nobody.
00:30:36They shouldn't be messing with us.
00:30:38Now, whatever he did, you know, between him,
00:30:41we would like to find out who did it.
00:30:44And if it's for drugs, then we would like to know.
00:30:47Now, the best thing I did was get in touch with the family.
00:30:50You know?
00:30:52And once the family say, yo, we got to do this, we got to do it.
00:30:55You know?
00:30:56I wish I knew who did it.
00:30:58Like they say, drugs lead you to your death.
00:31:01You know what I'm saying?
00:31:03Sometimes you got it, sometimes you don't.
00:31:05You don't have it, you find a way to get in.
00:31:15Heroin is a cruel mistress, a brutal overseer, man.
00:31:19It wakes you up early in the morning and takes you out.
00:31:22Makes you do things you would never do.
00:31:25And, well, you just don't have time to worry about other things.
00:31:29Things that maybe you should be worrying about.
00:31:31Facing reality sometimes is a hard thing to do.
00:31:39What's really sad is, like, a lot of the kids that come down,
00:31:43they cop, you know, they got nothing.
00:31:46Shaking their lives up, you know.
00:31:48Ain't the cops, you know?
00:31:50You know that now, but the cops...
00:31:52It's amazing, you know, these young white chicks.
00:31:55You know, they go into this building with 100 bucks,
00:31:58and they're straight, you know.
00:32:00They don't want to go out on the street and cop.
00:32:02You know, you can get your throat slit out there.
00:32:04They'll come down, buy the guys some dope for themselves
00:32:09and some dope for them, and send them out.
00:32:11And they'll sit there, and they'll get high,
00:32:13and, you know, the guys will have the works and everything.
00:32:16Oh, yeah.
00:32:32So the kids wind up using these shitty works, you know.
00:32:36Who knows who's used these things, man?
00:32:39That's how these diseases get transmitted, you know.
00:32:47You know, this is really...
00:32:55Oh, it's coming up slow.
00:33:00Damn it.
00:33:04Yeah.
00:33:08Oh, man, what am I doing, baby?
00:33:11I'm having a hard time hitting myself, baby.
00:33:15Mm-hmm.
00:33:18Yeah, my veins, my veins hurt.
00:33:20Huh?
00:33:22I'm, like, just tired, y'all.
00:33:27Man, this is really...
00:33:30And now I just get up, like, once or twice a week.
00:33:33And I'm having a lot of hard times.
00:33:35You can see I've been making a lot of...
00:33:37I have to take a ride down there,
00:33:39because his boss doesn't usually put phone calls through.
00:33:42I just had a...
00:33:44I seen, you know, like, one day, a girlfriend,
00:33:47and a girlfriend of mine's, you know,
00:33:49oh, man, they were arguing over drugs.
00:33:52It's crazy.
00:33:53But it's stupid.
00:33:54Yeah, who's doing more?
00:33:56Right, and who's holding this, and who's holding that?
00:33:59You know what I mean?
00:34:00Sweater.
00:34:01It's another way to let go.
00:34:02Sweater, I love it.
00:34:03And I, you know, really getting sick of it, you know.
00:34:06Even when my old man tells me, you know, he gets...
00:34:09He hates, you know.
00:34:11You know, sometimes you be arguing over stupid shit, you know.
00:34:16You know, really, really shitty, man.
00:34:19I know.
00:34:20I'm not good, man.
00:34:21I just want to just clean up this shit.
00:34:23Start working.
00:34:24Like I said, you're even the boss.
00:34:26It's like, you know, we used to fight over who was going to get off first.
00:34:29You're always saying, I'm right, I'm right, I'm right,
00:34:32and you're going to stop, and you're going to stop.
00:34:34It's the first thing you think of when you get up in the morning.
00:34:36It's where you're going to get your first shot.
00:34:38No, not really, but I feel this way about it.
00:34:41I get sick every morning.
00:34:42Every morning.
00:34:43You get through about 15, 20 minutes, half an hour, and then you just...
00:34:47You got to cut that shit out, you know.
00:34:49You get jobs, you know.
00:34:50Hey, some do what you do.
00:34:52A start, you know.
00:34:54A start.
00:34:55No, no.
00:34:56Everybody's got to start somewhere.
00:34:58That's bullshit.
00:34:59No, the first step, man, if you don't know how to kick it together,
00:35:03you got to say, where am I going to eat today, right?
00:35:05Where am I going to get the money today?
00:35:07You know how many days we've gone hungry, right?
00:35:10All we've worried about is getting off, getting our fix, right?
00:35:14How many times do I say to her, fuck the dope, buy a pack of cigarettes, you know?
00:35:19Miss Perfect.
00:35:20Oh, far from it.
00:35:21Miss Perfect.
00:35:22Far from it, that's for sure.
00:35:24But at least I buy cigarettes and shit.
00:35:27At least I buy cigarettes, too, and I'll eat, too.
00:35:31When I have you, when I have you, you might don't be here.
00:35:35How much money you have on you now?
00:35:36You understand how much money I got on me?
00:35:38Were you ever at the point she's at now?
00:35:40He has money.
00:35:41Well, he has.
00:35:42I got money.
00:35:43No.
00:35:44No?
00:35:45Definitely not?
00:35:46No.
00:35:47You never got to the point where you'd give yourself short cigarettes to go get some dope?
00:35:50No.
00:35:51Well, I'm happy for you.
00:35:53No.
00:35:56Well, give me, let me get two of those.
00:35:59You got tracks?
00:36:00Yeah, yeah, I got tracks.
00:36:01You want to see my tracks?
00:36:02Yeah, let me see your tracks.
00:36:03You want to see them?
00:36:04Yeah.
00:36:10All right, give me one.
00:36:14It's good, huh?
00:36:15Tell me it's good.
00:36:16Yeah, it's the toilet.
00:36:17That's the best.
00:36:18I feel both of them nice, huh?
00:36:20Oh, yeah, you'll like that.
00:36:22All right, thanks a lot.
00:36:23Okay, don't OD now.
00:36:25Okay, man.
00:36:29All right.
00:36:39You got that D, you got that D.
00:36:41Oh, yeah.
00:36:42Boom, that's something.
00:36:43What you want?
00:36:44What you want?
00:36:45What you want?
00:36:46Some of both.
00:36:47Some of both?
00:36:48We got D.
00:36:49Boy, you got some D left.
00:36:50We got D?
00:36:51Let me see some tracks.
00:36:52You got some tracks, man?
00:36:53Tracks all over the fucking place.
00:36:54What the fuck is with you?
00:36:55Man, you seen me around town, didn't you?
00:36:57Huh?
00:36:59Yeah, I seen you around.
00:37:04How many you want to get?
00:37:05Give me two Ds.
00:37:06Two Ds, you got it.
00:37:09Okey-dokey.
00:37:11All right.
00:37:12Don't OD now, all right?
00:37:15Yeah, I don't OD on this cheap fucking dope you got
00:37:18for all the fucking rest of time.
00:37:22Watch that guy, Eddie.
00:37:24He don't look right.
00:37:29Mm-hmm.
00:37:35Heroin is like, well, first of all, it's a treasure hunt.
00:37:39You know, you got to find the money.
00:37:41You know, and then it's the adventure,
00:37:43going through the jungle or the war zone.
00:37:46And, you know, then it's finding the drugs
00:37:49and finding good drugs.
00:37:52You know, it's dodging the cops
00:37:55and the thrill of the chase
00:37:58and the thrill of the hunt for the dope.
00:38:01It's the satisfaction and the relief
00:38:03once you get something good, you know.
00:38:05That's always the end result match.
00:38:07Then it's the satisfaction and the relief of getting high.
00:38:21Everybody needs drugs.
00:38:24Everybody live on drugs.
00:38:27Main, main, main base of the thing,
00:38:30everybody, everybody can't stop messing with drugs.
00:38:35I like drugs.
00:38:37I like to deal with drugs.
00:38:39That's how it works, to get my drugs.
00:38:42And mainly, I love, I love drugs.
00:38:45Mainly cocaine.
00:38:47Cocaine's a beautiful thing when you're getting high off it.
00:38:51And mainly when you're getting high off it,
00:38:53and it's beautiful.
00:38:55I love it, and I like it, and I will never stop using it.
00:38:59It's always beautiful to deal with drugs.
00:39:03Cocaine is my main hobby.
00:39:06I would never deal with nothing else but cocaine.
00:39:09And believe me, it's beautiful.
00:39:11I can never stop using it,
00:39:13and I will always keep using it as long as I can.
00:39:17And it's like a lovely, beautiful thing to me.
00:39:22I'm not sorry that I've started messing with drugs,
00:39:24and I would always, I would always, will mess with drugs
00:39:27as long as I like to.
00:39:29Very much so.
00:39:32Cocaine is a beautiful drug.
00:39:34I like it, and I love it, and I would always stick by it.
00:39:37I would always deal with it.
00:39:39Mainly, I have sold works for,
00:39:42for so many period of months
00:39:46to get my drugs,
00:39:48to build my habit up,
00:39:50and my needs,
00:39:52my needs for that bag of coke
00:39:54that everybody love and like.
00:39:57Mainly, I love it.
00:39:59I can never stop using it.
00:40:01I would always use it.
00:40:03I would always need it.
00:40:08You know, for most of the people down here,
00:40:11it's a pretty shitty place.
00:40:13They're living on fruit loops and pizza.
00:40:16When you're high on dope, it's like,
00:40:19I don't know, I guess,
00:40:22I hope someday I get out of this fucking hellhole.
00:40:28I'll tell you, you know,
00:40:30I never thought about death so much,
00:40:34but it's really become a part of my life,
00:40:39and it doesn't matter.
00:40:43The only thing that matters is feeling good.
00:40:46The only time I feel good is when I'm really stoned.
00:40:49And most of the time,
00:40:51these motherfuckers won't let you feel good.
00:40:53They'll just give you enough to get you straight.
00:41:00You get beat.
00:41:03It's just part of the game, you know.
00:41:05You gotta take it with a grain of salt.
00:41:07Fuck, if I got in an uproar every time I got beat,
00:41:10it would've been a long time ago, you know.
00:41:14Maybe someday I'll get out of this merry-go-round
00:41:17and I'll find something else to do.
00:41:28Hi, man.
00:41:30I'm at Space.
00:41:32Listen, I want to stop by for a minute, okay?
00:41:35Thanks, I'll be right by.
00:41:40A couple of more of these.
00:41:44Ow.
00:41:48Anyway, this chick at the pit, she's a weird number.
00:41:51She's got this necklace around her neck.
00:41:54It's like a heart with a skull on it,
00:41:57and inside it is cyanide.
00:41:59That's weird.
00:42:02My God.
00:42:04Yeah, I was reading up on these tarantulas,
00:42:08and they got eight eyes,
00:42:11and if they lose legs, they can regenerate them.
00:42:13They shed their skins every year.
00:42:15They just come right out of it,
00:42:17and they leave skins that are exactly like the tarantulas.
00:42:20You wake up in the morning,
00:42:22and the next thing you know,
00:42:25it looks like you got two of them in there.
00:42:28Mice are really aware of what you're doing for them,
00:42:31like the tarantulas.
00:42:35Because the fuckers are really boring.
00:42:38They have no, like, emotions or response.
00:42:41They don't like, you know,
00:42:44they don't even know you're feeding them.
00:42:46They have no idea what's going on at all.
00:42:49Yeah, the best thing about having spiders
00:42:52is that you feed them crickets,
00:42:54and for a couple of days, you get to listen to the crickets
00:42:57sound like you're in the country.
00:42:59It's the only really good thing.
00:43:02What's that?
00:43:07Come here.
00:43:09You know what you are?
00:43:11Come on, don't go in there.
00:43:13All right, do go in there.
00:43:15Come out this way.
00:43:17This little mouse thinks he's a rat still.
00:43:20I have got to get some new works.
00:43:22Yeah.
00:43:24This thing's like a nail.
00:43:26Yeah, well, typical.
00:43:30The rats like beans and peas and stuff,
00:43:34and the mice, they really like them, you know.
00:43:37You don't have to just buy this food
00:43:39if you give them, like, dried vegetables.
00:43:42You know, they eat that just as much.
00:43:44It's pretty interesting.
00:43:46Wow, good stuff, rat pellets.
00:43:48They'll still be here when we're all gone.
00:43:51No, rats don't live long.
00:43:53Yeah, but like during the Cuban crisis,
00:43:55when I was 10 years old,
00:43:57I had nightmares of atomic war.
00:43:59Sure, those were the days of hide under your desk,
00:44:02you know, like that's going to do some good,
00:44:04you know, when they drop an atomic bomb.
00:44:07And there's nothing that's really stimulating the kids today
00:44:10except for the fear of, you know, out-and-out war.
00:44:14Oh, rats.
00:44:16See, these guys are much more intelligent.
00:44:19They know what's happening.
00:44:21Come on, rat's hole.
00:44:24This one's all fat, see.
00:44:27One skinny one and one fat one.
00:44:30It's like I went to the nuclear demonstration on June 12th,
00:44:34and there's all kinds of people there,
00:44:36and there's even punks, you know.
00:44:38And it's, like, really good to see that the young people
00:44:41that are interested will occasionally come out and do actions,
00:44:44you know, because it seems to be an incredible waste of time,
00:44:47you know, that, like, guys go around with shirts that say
00:44:50New York rules and D.C. rules and L.A. rules, you know,
00:44:54but where it's at is that no one rules.
00:44:57You know, people are conditioned to look for the differences,
00:45:00you know, in between people
00:45:02and not to realize that they should be, like, working together.
00:45:05Well, the only thing that's going to wake them up
00:45:08is if the youth of America is threatened,
00:45:11and if they're threatened like the youth was threatened
00:45:14during the Vietnam War,
00:45:16then there will be, you know, an overall consciousness again.
00:45:19If you go to school and you realize that you're going to come out
00:45:22and you're going to make $3 an hour
00:45:24and it's not going to pay you rent and it's not going to buy you food,
00:45:27you know, that's a distinct threat on your consciousness.
00:45:30The poor kids go in the service.
00:45:32It's not contained to poor blacks anymore.
00:45:35It's, you know, it's all the poor people.
00:45:37They go into the service just like in an underdeveloped country.
00:45:40There's not that many kids going into the army, you know.
00:45:43There's plenty of them. Poor kids are all going into the army.
00:45:46It's the best thing they could do.
00:45:48It gives them experience, it gives them training, it gives them money.
00:45:51It gives them everything when they come out.
00:45:53They can get any kind of fucking loan they want to.
00:45:55They're covered medically.
00:45:57You know, everything is covered for them
00:45:59after they get out of the fucking service.
00:46:01You know, me, I'm stuck.
00:46:03I never went into the army.
00:46:05I never even talked to the motherfuckers about nothing, man.
00:46:08I'm an anarchist.
00:46:10I never fucking filed income tax.
00:46:12I ain't did shit with these motherfuckers.
00:46:14You know, I don't want to talk to them about it.
00:46:16When they said I had amnesty, all I had to do was go down...
00:46:18How are you going to get married?
00:46:20...and salute the flag, you know.
00:46:22I didn't do it. I don't want nothing to do with them, you know.
00:46:24How are you going to get married without identification?
00:46:26I have identification now.
00:46:28Oh, that's good.
00:46:30I just signed for my birth certificate,
00:46:32but it's the first time I've had ID in 12 years.
00:46:46I want a buffalo jumper to my number
00:46:48Hold my baby all the summer
00:46:50Every time I hear that wild saxophone
00:46:52I want a bitty, bitty bop it
00:46:54Pretty rock it
00:46:56Ooh, baby, crack it
00:46:58Every time I hear that wild saxophone
00:47:00I want to rock, rock, rock
00:47:02I want to rock, rock, rock
00:47:04I want to rock, rock, rock
00:47:06I want to rock, rock, rock
00:47:08I want to rock, rock, rock
00:47:10I want to rock, rock, rock
00:47:12I want to rock, rock, rock
00:47:14I want to rock, rock, rock
00:47:16Roll, roll, roll
00:47:18Bop, bop, bop
00:47:22I want to rip it, rock it
00:47:24Rip my baby
00:47:26Ooh, baby, crack it
00:47:28Every time I hear that wild saxophone
00:47:30Oh!
00:47:44I want to rock, rock, rock
00:47:46I want to rock, rock, rock
00:47:48I want to rock, rock, rock
00:47:50Roll, roll, roll
00:47:52Bop, bop, bop
00:47:54When I was 15,
00:47:56I picked up this 31-year-old hooker.
00:47:58You know, she told me,
00:48:00if a woman makes too much noise
00:48:02while you're making love with her,
00:48:04she's faking you.
00:48:06And they're either trying to get you to come fast
00:48:08or trying to get you to tip them,
00:48:10or I think it's a little bit of both
00:48:12if it's a whore.
00:48:14Personally,
00:48:16I haven't had...
00:48:18I haven't had a woman like her
00:48:20in a long time.
00:48:22She was really good and bad.
00:48:24At first, you know, I really dug it
00:48:26because, like, what,
00:48:28a 14-, 15-year-old boy gets enough sex?
00:48:30You know?
00:48:32But, uh...
00:48:34I stayed with her, like,
00:48:36two, three years,
00:48:38and then I grew tired of her
00:48:40and I wanted to grow a little bit younger.
00:48:44And, uh...
00:48:46This was about a year before, you know,
00:48:48Hendrix and Joplin and all them people died.
00:48:50I met J.C. and John
00:48:52the same time together.
00:48:54I was walking down Haight Street.
00:48:56I was about 17.
00:48:58And me and J.C. just, like,
00:49:00right away, we took to each other, you know?
00:49:02We both had, uh, you know...
00:49:04We kind of looked alike, you know?
00:49:06And, uh...
00:49:08You know, we both had long brown hair
00:49:10and wore the same kind of hippie shit,
00:49:12you know, patches everywhere,
00:49:14patches on our patches.
00:49:16It was all during the Vietnam War era,
00:49:18you know?
00:49:20And, uh...
00:49:22You know, we're all radicals or hippies
00:49:24or riot fanatics or something,
00:49:26you know?
00:49:28I mean, I wasn't going
00:49:30to no fucking Vietnam War.
00:49:32So we all had, like, an affinity.
00:49:34We were all against the government, you know?
00:49:36Us, the Indians.
00:49:40Cesar Chavez.
00:49:42You know, everybody was kind of, like,
00:49:44together,
00:49:46even though, like, we had different causes.
00:49:48It was the same cause all in all,
00:49:50you know, smash the state.
00:49:52Anyway,
00:49:54S.T.P. John was, uh,
00:49:56the leader of the gang.
00:49:58He got shot while taking a piss
00:50:00behind, uh, this guy,
00:50:02this speed freak's house.
00:50:04It was the anniversary of his death.
00:50:06Me and J.C. went out there,
00:50:08and we took a couple of chicks
00:50:10and a bunch of booze
00:50:12and got real drunk
00:50:14and fucked the chicks on his grave
00:50:16and threw up.
00:50:18Did everything, you know?
00:50:20Pissed on the gravestone.
00:50:22He's dead now, too.
00:50:24He got blown away in a $5,000 heroin deal
00:50:26about five, six years ago.
00:50:30They found him floating in a lake
00:50:32and, um, I was drunk
00:50:34and wanted to see my old girlfriend.
00:50:36I got there, and she was there with her new boyfriend.
00:50:38He had all his friends there.
00:50:40And so, like, we were there for about five minutes,
00:50:42and the guy said,
00:50:44well, I think it's time you leave now.
00:50:46And I said, well, yeah, well, fuck you.
00:50:48I'll stay as long as I want.
00:50:50This is my ex-girlfriend, and now I came to visit.
00:50:52And all of a sudden, one dude flew at me.
00:50:54I think it was her boyfriend.
00:50:56And, uh,
00:50:58then his friends jumped in, too,
00:51:00and they were, like, jacking me up in the fireplace, you know?
00:51:02And, uh,
00:51:04this one guy was hitting me,
00:51:06and it felt real hard,
00:51:08so I grabbed his fist.
00:51:10I said, oh, my God, fucking brass knuckles.
00:51:12You know?
00:51:14So I grabbed him by the hair
00:51:16and pulled his head down,
00:51:18and all of a sudden his ear popped into my mouth,
00:51:20so I, like, bit as hard as I could
00:51:22and pulled his head back
00:51:24and spit his ear in his face.
00:51:26All this blood came out and everything.
00:51:28The detectives came and everything
00:51:30with the ambulance
00:51:32and started asking, who did this to you?
00:51:34Who did this to you?
00:51:36And I said, get the fuck out of here.
00:51:38I spit on one of their faces.
00:51:40They took me to the hospital
00:51:42and put me into emergency operation.
00:51:44And the cocksuckers said, well,
00:51:46he's too high, so they didn't give me any, uh,
00:51:48no anesthetic, nothing, you know?
00:51:50They did two layers of stitches,
00:51:52like, fished all around in my stomach
00:51:54and everything
00:51:56to see if anything was broken.
00:51:58Man, you could hear me screaming
00:52:00for three city blocks.
00:52:02No fucking shit.
00:52:04That was, like, some of the most pain
00:52:06I ever felt in my life.
00:52:08I mean, it had to be as bad as having a baby,
00:52:10at least.
00:52:12It was actually two slices.
00:52:14The guy had sliced me twice,
00:52:16so there was, like, a little piece of meat
00:52:18in between both slices.
00:52:20So they had to cut that slice of meat off
00:52:22before sewing me up.
00:52:24And, um,
00:52:26so they cut that piece of meat off
00:52:28and they sewed me up fine.
00:52:30Two layers of stitches, man,
00:52:32with no anesthetic.
00:52:34And after the whole thing,
00:52:36I said, well, can I have the piece of meat
00:52:38that was laying there on the, uh,
00:52:40little, uh, you know, tray
00:52:42that they put at the side of the bed?
00:52:44It looks like you go in there to eat, you know,
00:52:46drive-in diner.
00:52:48And they said no, and I said, how come?
00:52:50They said, well, it's not hygienic.
00:52:52What are you talking about? That's me.
00:52:54That's, you know, you're gonna tell me
00:52:56I can't take me with me?
00:52:58So the doctors all stepped out of the room for a minute.
00:53:00And when they did, I hopped up off the operating table,
00:53:02grabbed the hunk of meat,
00:53:04and stuck it in my pocket.
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00:53:58Thanks a lot, man.
00:54:00Okay.
00:54:02All right, man, take it easy.
00:54:04Hi.
00:54:06What's up?
00:54:08Hopefully, it's the same as your...
00:54:10¶¶
00:54:12¶¶
00:54:14¶¶
00:54:16It's good every day.
00:54:18Every day.
00:54:20Yeah, I had it hanging around, man.
00:54:22Check it out, see if I can sell it.
00:54:24Yeah, you want to sell it?
00:54:25Yeah, you bet.
00:54:26All right.
00:54:27Yeah.
00:54:28We got to hurry out of the house and get some money for it.
00:54:31Don't be too long, man.
00:54:33What's happening, man?
00:54:34How you doing?
00:54:35Hey, how's it going, man?
00:54:37What's up?
00:54:38Hey, you're good at that, man.
00:54:41How much you want for it?
00:54:43Twenty bucks, man.
00:54:45Yeah?
00:54:46Listen, I'll tell you what.
00:54:47All right, man.
00:54:48Man's getting uptight.
00:54:49Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
00:54:52If you can wait, like, 15 minutes for me to get it,
00:54:54because I just copped it.
00:54:55You know that I can take your money back.
00:54:58I want it definitely.
00:55:08Hi, is Mom there?
00:55:10Hi, Mom.
00:55:11Hi, Mom.
00:55:13How are you?
00:55:15Good.
00:55:17Everything's been going good with me.
00:55:19Listen, Mom, you know, it's been a while since I asked you,
00:55:23and I'm really put out.
00:55:26I've got to come up with my rent.
00:55:28You know, I got some money coming to me next week,
00:55:30but, you know, I need to have some cash now.
00:55:39Even a hundred will make it, you know?
00:55:42I love you.
00:55:44You're so sweet.
00:55:46You always come through when I need you.
00:55:55Three or four guys, one of them was a drag queen,
00:55:59and I spit on the street.
00:56:02And one of them said, you know, got all indignant and said,
00:56:06oh, you tried to spit on me.
00:56:08I said, I did not, you fucking drag queen.
00:56:12And, you know, words were exchanged,
00:56:15and, you know, a couple of shoves happened,
00:56:18and all of a sudden they whipped out chains
00:56:21and started kicking the shit out of me, you know?
00:56:24They beat me over my head, just kept beating me and beating me.
00:56:29And the cops came and, you know, they stopped everything,
00:56:37and what it is, it's just a scar over the lens, you know?
00:56:43If you can see, it's like a white cloud, you know?
00:56:47Can you see it?
00:56:49Do you see it?
00:56:51It's like a $5,000 operation.
00:56:55And what they do, they use like a laser with a small little vacuum,
00:56:59and they go in with the laser and they cut away the scar tissue,
00:57:03and then they got this little vacuum that sucks it up, you know?
00:57:23Come on, man.
00:57:25Fuck you then, man. I'm getting out of this.
00:57:27Right, right, you're leaving now.
00:57:29All right, all right.
00:57:33I love you.
00:58:03I love you.
00:58:16I don't know what the fuck you'd be knocking on my door early in the morning
00:58:19for asking for a spike and all that dumb shit.
00:58:22I'm sorry.
00:58:24Shut down.
00:58:26See you again soon, man.
00:58:28See you soon.
00:58:33See you again soon.
00:59:04Broken glass everywhere.
00:59:06People pissing on the stage, you know, they just don't care.
00:59:09I can't take the smell, I can't take the noise.
00:59:11Got no money to move out, I guess I got no choice.
00:59:14Rats in the front room, roaches in the back.
00:59:16Junkies in the alley with a baseball bat.
00:59:18I tried to get away, but I couldn't get far
00:59:20because a man with a tow truck repossessed my car.
00:59:23Don't push me because I'm close to the edge.
00:59:28Don't push me because I'm close to the edge.
00:59:32I'm trying not to lose my head.
00:59:36It's like a jungle sometimes.
00:59:38It makes me wonder how I keep from going under.
00:59:41My brother's doing fast on my mother's TV.
00:59:43Says she watches too much, it's just not healthy.
00:59:46All my children in the daytime, Dallas at night.
00:59:48Can't even see the game or the Sugar Ray fight.
00:59:51The bill collectors, they ring my phone
00:59:53and scare my wife when I'm not home.
00:59:55Got a bum education, double-digit inflation.
00:59:57Can't take the train to the job.
00:59:58There's a strike at the station.
01:00:00I'm King Kong standing on my back.
01:00:02Can't stop to turn around.
01:00:03Broke my sacroiliac.
01:00:04A mid-range migraine cancer.
01:00:06Men's bracelet doesn't fit.
01:00:08I might hijack a plane.
01:00:09Don't push me because I'm close to the edge.
01:00:14I'm trying not to lose my head.
01:00:19It's like a jungle sometimes.
01:00:20It makes me wonder how I keep from going under.
01:00:26Yo!
01:00:30Yo!
01:00:31Yo!
01:00:32Yo!
01:00:33Yo!
01:00:34Yo!
01:00:35Yo!
01:00:36Yo!
01:00:37Yo!
01:00:38Yo!
01:00:39Yo!
01:00:40Yo!
01:00:43Hey, Larry.
01:00:44I wasn't able to get, I didn't have the money
01:00:47to get all of them at once, but I brought you
01:00:50two of these, the ones you saw that you like.
01:00:52And this is the style I was telling you about that had the little red stone in the back.
01:00:58And it's the same thing, five each.
01:01:01So take these three for now and I'll bring you the other nine.
01:01:04Money.
01:01:22Money.
01:01:23Money.
01:01:24Money.
01:01:25Money.
01:01:26Money.
01:01:27Money.
01:01:28Money.
01:01:29Money.
01:01:30Money.
01:01:31Money.
01:01:32Money.
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01:03:47And I was really in love with her and, you know, she was like very cute when she was really young.
01:03:57And we decided to get married, which was, at the time, a good idea because I was drunk.
01:04:02And one morning, it was about 5, 36 in the morning, she woke up and complained of stomach pains.
01:04:10I was a little worried, you know, because she was pregnant.
01:04:14All of a sudden, she just aborted.
01:04:18My only son in the air came popping out of, you know, covered in blood.
01:04:23It was gross. It was the grossest thing I ever saw.
01:04:26You know, I didn't know what to do, you know.
01:04:30So I just took, it looked like a little rat fetus or something.
01:04:34It was just about this big, you know.
01:04:36She was only about three months pregnant, I guess.
01:04:39And it's really disgusting. I know it's illegal because you're supposed to abort those sort of things.
01:04:44But I just took the fetus and I threw it in a plastic trash bag, put it out in the garbage.
01:04:52I mean, I didn't know what to do with it, you know.
01:04:54What are you going to do with this little thing?
01:04:56Nothing more than a huge period.
01:05:00It was weird.
01:05:03Then after that happened, then I sent her back to her mom in Washington State.
01:05:07A couple weeks later, her mom called me up and said that Cindy had been run over by a logger truck
01:05:14while riding on the back of a motorcycle with this other guy.
01:05:20Then I started shooting heroin, you know, because I had all these nightmares.
01:05:24About the baby, about her.
01:05:29About how things could have been different, I guess.
01:05:32But, I don't know, maybe it was just never supposed to be.
01:05:36I guess it was, it wasn't.
01:05:39But, I don't know, I always kind of blame myself.
01:05:42I had horrible nightmares for at least a couple years.
01:05:46Pretty much over the nightmares.
01:06:06Oh.
01:06:36Oh.
01:07:01This is brown dope.
01:07:03In other words, made with Nestle Quick.
01:07:08Bastards.
01:07:21God damn, it's so obviously Nestle Quick.
01:07:27You can smell the chocolate.
01:07:29Ain't that funny?
01:08:00Sometimes a lot of fun.
01:08:04I mean, if you can imagine a movie in your mind,
01:08:09that's what it's like when you're really high.
01:08:13And you could be with somebody that you love that's dead and long gone,
01:08:19but you're so high right now that they're right there next to you.
01:08:23And they're kissing you like they used to, laughing like they used to.
01:08:26And you can see it. It's right there.
01:08:31Because for some reason, opium lets you create whatever you want in your mind.
01:08:54Ah.
01:08:59I'm trying.
01:09:01I'm a bit nervous.
01:09:23Ah.
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01:11:45Well.
01:11:54Ah.
01:12:02You want me to tell you what it's like to be sick?
01:12:04Like the worst flu you ever had.
01:12:08You're tired.
01:12:10You got no energy.
01:12:13You sweat a lot.
01:12:15When you're under the covers.
01:12:16When you're not under the covers, then you freeze and you're chilling.
01:12:23Ah.
01:12:24It's worse.
01:12:25Ah.
01:12:27That's why it's better to quit gradually than just stop all of this.
01:12:31I'll call a turkey.
01:12:34Cut back down to two bags a day, then one bag a day.
01:12:39Then do methadone for a few days and then do VIMS.
01:12:43That's it. I'll be off.
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01:14:21I don't have plans and schemes
01:14:27And I don't have hopes and dreams
01:14:34I don't have anything
01:14:41Since I don't have you
01:14:49I don't have fond desires
01:14:55I don't have happy hours
01:15:02I don't have anything
01:15:09Since I don't have you
01:15:17I don't have happiness
01:15:21And I guess I never will again
01:15:31When you walked out on me
01:15:35It came old misery
01:15:38And he's been here since then
01:15:45Now I don't have
01:15:50One to share
01:15:52And I don't have
01:15:57One who cares
01:15:59I don't have anything
01:16:06Since I don't have you
01:16:36You know Johnny's girl ain't too sweet
01:16:51I saw her last night workin' the street
01:16:53He's a part-time pimp, sometimes mover
01:16:55It's an all-time crime when they do it to each other
01:16:57Ain't got no money for a place to fly
01:16:59Sleepin' on a cardboard house on rooftop
01:17:02What's the deal? She died today
01:17:04Johnny shoved his head and walked away
01:17:06He's livin' on time, someone's lending
01:17:08All his hate is never ending
01:17:19Pepe Maddo, Pepe Maddo
01:17:21It's so warm inside this cocoon
01:17:23Taste of heaven's serenity
01:17:25Paradise mixing with my blood
01:17:27My blood, I watch it shoot inside of me
01:17:38C.M.C.
01:17:40It has got to be
01:17:42The way of life for me
01:17:44Never ending
01:17:46C.M.C.
01:17:48It has got to be
01:17:50The way of life for me
01:17:52Never ending
01:17:58C.M.C.
01:18:00It has got to be
01:18:02The way of life for me
01:18:04Never ending
01:18:12Pepe Maddo, Pepe Maddo
01:18:14It's so warm inside this cocoon
01:18:16Taste of heaven's serenity
01:18:18Paradise mixing with my blood
01:18:20My blood, I watch it shoot inside of me
01:18:23C.M.C.
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