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00:00I don't want to see people anymore. I have the impression that apart from hurting me,
00:23they are useless. I never want to go to school. But that, dad and mom, they don't understand
00:30But it hurts me so much to go there. I throw up on the way.
00:49And then we feel, in connection with a social situation, we feel a stress.
00:53But as we are weakened, this time we will feel a huge stress.
00:57So instead of having a normal stress, which we can analyze, which is acceptable,
01:01we will have a very oppressive stress, very, very physical.
01:05It's the heart that will beat faster, it's the muscles that stretch, it's the feeling of suffocation, etc.
01:10In short, it's anxiety, panic. We talk about panic attacks to describe the phobic feeling,
01:17or possibly anxiety attacks. And from that moment on, unfortunately, the stress creates stress.
01:25And the more we struggle, the more it gets stronger. Fear creates fear.
01:28And from that moment on, the phobia settles. Often it settles on...
01:47I'm home!
01:49Ok.
01:55Your tray!
01:56Sorry, I didn't have time.
02:00You could put yours, you're not at the hotel.
02:05I'm sorry, I'm late.
02:07I'm sorry, I'm late.
02:09I'm sorry, I'm late.
02:11I'm sorry, I'm late.
02:13I'm sorry, I'm late.
02:15You're not at the hotel.
02:18Vacuum cleaner.
02:20Get out of here and go buy some bread.
02:22What? No, mom, I'm going to do the vacuum.
02:24No, no, no, stop negotiating.
02:26Come on, get out of here and go buy some bread.
02:37Mom, I swear I can't.
02:39Get out of here and go buy some bread.
02:45I'm sorry.
02:51Fuck.
02:55I won!
02:57Double!
02:59Oh yeah!
03:15Are you ok?
03:17Are you ok?
03:19Wait, breathe.
03:21Look at me.
03:23Take your arm.
03:25Hey, look at me.
03:27Here, look at me.
03:29Breathe with me.
03:31Come on, breathe.
03:33Breathe with me.
03:35Breathe with me.
03:37Breathe with me.
03:39Breathe with me.
03:41Breathe with me.
03:43Breathe with me.
03:45Breathe with me.
03:47Come on, wait.
03:49Breathe with me.
03:51Come on, wait.
03:53Look at me, forget about all this.
03:55Look at me, forget about all this.
04:01Forget everything about the hotel.
04:05I suggest you go over there.
04:07It's less crowded.
04:09Come on.
04:13Are you feeling better?
04:21You're going to find me weird.
04:23You know, my cousin had the same thing,
04:25and her technique was that when she went out,
04:27she didn't count her steps, you see.
04:29It's not bad.
04:31But what happened?
04:33My mom wanted me to...
04:35Well, my mother wanted me to go out a bit.
04:37To buy some bread, for example.
04:39What kind of bread did you want?
04:41No, but they didn't force me to go.
04:43Don't worry, tell me. What did you want?
04:45I don't know.
04:47Don't worry, I saw.
04:49Here, here.
04:51Come back.
05:05Here you go.
05:10What's your name?
05:12Romeo.
05:15Okay, Juliette.
05:17I'm Elliot.
05:19Tell me, what's your number?
05:21That way, I know if you're home safe.
05:24Okay.
05:28Eurydice, instead.
05:39I love you.
06:09Okay.
06:26What?
06:40Romeo.
06:45Hello?
06:46Hey Romeo, how are you?
06:48Because of you, I didn't do what I had to do.
06:51I completely forgot to go buy my cigarettes.
06:54It can't hurt you either.
06:56It's true.
06:58By the way, you're less shy now.
07:02Anyway, I'm glad you came back.
07:06Tell me, how old are you?
07:10What do you think?
07:12I don't know.
07:1419, 20, something like that.
07:1719, but 20 tomorrow.
07:21Happy birthday then.
07:23Call me tomorrow to wish me.
07:27Okay, I have to go.
07:29Call me tomorrow?
07:35It was a question, Juliette.
07:37Oh, sorry.
07:39Great, see you.
07:41See you.
07:53I know you were hurt.
07:55And believe me, it wasn't what I wanted.
07:58And even if you have every reason to hate me and not trust me,
08:01I can swear she was the one who kissed me.
08:03I should have pushed her back before.
08:11Hello, how are you?
08:13Have you already been to Center Park?
08:15What?
08:17Have you already been to Center Park?
08:19No, why?
08:21Okay.
08:22What day is it today?
08:24It's June 26th, I think.
08:26You know what?
08:27Next year's June 26th, we'll both go.
08:30We have to reach our goals, right?
08:32And why Center Park?
08:34Because I love to swim.
08:36And I want to see you swim.
08:38No, but from the first arm, you're going to get me out of the water,
08:40so you'll be ashamed.
08:42Can't wait to see that.
08:45What did you do today?
08:49Nothing.
08:51As usual.
08:52Okay, I'm coming. Kisses.
08:55What now?
08:56Wait, wait.
08:57Hello?
09:02Shit.
09:04Shit.
09:30What are you doing here?
09:31How did you know where I lived?
09:33My eyes are SNAP.
09:35You went super fast.
09:37Are you serious or what?
09:39You're hurting me.
09:41They had to kill at least three per year, and I only killed two.
09:44Unfortunately.
09:46Can I come in or not?
09:48Yeah, come in.
09:50Thanks.
09:52It's completely stupid to let you in after what you just told me.
09:59You're lucky, my parents haven't come back yet.
10:02No, it's just that, knowing my mother, she would have asked you a lot of questions about you.
10:07She would have analyzed you from A to Z to see if you were selling drugs.
10:14Your room is cool.
10:16Thanks. Well, it's a mess now, but...
10:26Did you take a shower before I got here?
10:28What? No.
10:30You already noticed, every time you're embarrassed, you do...
10:34What?
10:36Anyway, I appreciate the effort. Shirt, shower...
10:49You seem less stressed, don't you?
11:01It's the first time it happens to me.
11:04Well, you see, it's already a progress.
11:06You know, that's what you miss every day outside.
11:10Cool people like me.
11:12Well, not cool like me, but you got it.
11:14Technically, I also miss annoying people.
11:17Yeah, that's called life.
11:20You're a psychologist now?
11:22Yeah.
11:25What's your dream, Romulo?
11:28Seriously?
11:34My dream?
11:37Well, I don't know.
11:39I don't know.
11:41I don't know.
11:43I don't know.
11:45I don't know.
11:47I don't know.
11:49I don't know.
11:51I don't know.
11:53Well, I don't know. I mean, I don't have one.
11:56We all have one.
11:58What's yours?
12:04Well, maybe being able to go out with friends.
12:08Having friends.
12:10And...
12:12Doing activities like everyone else.
12:14You see, that's already doable.
12:16You're not talking too fast either.
12:18Yes, I'm talking fast.
12:20You're totally capable.
12:24You know, if you tell yourself every day that you're not going to make it,
12:28we're far from going to Center Park.
12:35Keep hope, Romulo.
12:39Yes, Grand Master.
12:42And beyond going out,
12:44do you have any passions or something like that?
12:48Yes, I like cinema.
12:51I watch a lot of series and movies.
12:54I must say that I have the time now.
12:56But in terms of studies and all that,
13:00I don't know at all what I want to do.
13:02Well, if you like cinema, you could sign up.
13:05Wait, wait.
13:08Okay, you have to go. There's my mother.
13:10Quick, quick.
13:11Okay.
13:12No, no, not that way.
13:13This way.
13:14Come on.
13:15No, but wait, I'm going to call her.
13:17It's working, Mom, I'm coming.
13:19What? No, you're totally crazy.
13:21Come on, go this way.
13:23You go over the balustrade.
13:25Then you have a field and then you have a path.
13:27Come on, get out.
13:29You're totally crazy.
13:31Anyway, it was a pleasure.
13:50So, I finished my catch-up an hour earlier.
13:53Well, I don't know if that's a very good sign.
13:55No, not at all, I think.
13:57By the way, I think we're going out tonight with my rugby buddies.
14:01Do you want to come?
14:07Not really, not yet.
14:10I'm already not ready to go out alone
14:12with a lot of people I don't know.
14:14Okay.
14:17What if it's just the two of us?
14:21Maybe next time.
14:23Go enjoy your buddies instead.
14:25Are you sure?
14:26Can I cancel?
14:27No, no, no problem.
14:29Go ahead.
14:30It works.
14:31Kisses, kisses.
14:32Good luck, Romeo.
14:34Kisses, Elliot.
14:36Bye.
14:46That's just it.
14:47But I'm going to stop hiding very soon.
14:51You're going out with me.
14:53What are you doing here?
14:54I really want to see you.
14:56You could go through the door, you know.
14:58We never know with you.
15:00What are you doing?
15:01What do you mean?
15:02Well, I was just watching...
15:04You watch porn?
15:05Not at all, it's my show.
15:06Yeah, that's it.
15:07What? You don't believe me?
15:09It's really my show.
15:10Look, it's great.
15:11I'm just kidding.
15:12You're cute when you're embarrassed.
15:17Fuck, I love this bed.
15:18Yeah, what do you think?
15:19I spend my life in it.
15:20You have to put quality in it.
15:25So, still don't want to go out?
15:28No, still not.
15:31It doesn't make me want to go to hell, you know.
15:34Cool.
15:35Really cool.
15:37Super, it's great, honestly.
15:38Top, Romeo.
15:40No, but what do you think?
15:41Do you think I'm going to want to go out like that?
15:43Just by snapping my fingers?
15:45No, but you're right.
15:47Let's continue to live in these four walls.
15:50Live with love and fresh water.
15:53Wasting our only and only life
15:54imagining what we could do outside.
15:57Here, imagine playing bowling.
16:00Hop, strike.
16:01Shut up.
16:02I'm in the wild river.
16:06I hear the pink pelicans on one side
16:08and the trees on the other.
16:10Watch out, Romeo, there's a shark!
16:16You know, once at college,
16:19I stood in front of everyone.
16:21Like, really, I broke my face.
16:24And even if it wasn't a good time,
16:28I'm glad I lived it.
16:31You know why?
16:34Because I felt something.
16:36And...
16:38even if it wasn't a good thing,
16:41it's something real.
16:48You know, I'm not saying this to hurt you.
16:51I know you're going to make it.
16:54Hey, I'm here.
16:58What are we eating?
16:59You're inviting me?
17:01I'm imagining the restaurant.
17:03Excuse me, sir.
17:04We're going to have...
17:05Red wine.
17:07Not bad.
17:09McDonald's?
17:12Are you sure you want to eat on the floor?
17:14I have a table if you want.
17:15No, I'm fine here.
17:16Okay.
17:18I'm going to the restaurant.
17:20No, I'm fine here.
17:21Okay.
17:23By the way, don't make a mess.
17:25Otherwise, be careful.
17:27Sorry?
17:29One of you is making me laugh like an idiot.
17:32You know, it's good to laugh.
17:35The psychologist is coming back.
17:38Be careful.
17:40I have 12 consecutive years of rugby.
17:42How many?
17:4312.
17:44I thought it was two consecutive years.
17:46Really?
17:47It's 12.
17:49There you go.
17:50I told you, Elliot.
17:53And it's coke.
17:54It's everywhere.
17:55It's disgusting.
17:58You're so annoying when you're in bed.
18:00Yeah.
18:02Slightly maniac.
18:03You still haven't noticed?
18:08What?
18:11Come on, clean up.
18:13Why are you looking at me like that?
18:16I like you a lot, Roméo.
18:19Oh, wow.
18:20Is it lockdown or what?
18:45I'm sorry.
19:03I see you looking at me, Juliette.
19:05Wait, we need to settle something.
19:07Why am I Juliette in the story?
19:09My real name is Roméo.
19:11It makes sense to me, doesn't it?
19:14Because it's your romantic side.
19:16You can go through the door.
19:18You know it very well.
19:20Okay, Juliette.
19:26You know who dies in the end?
19:28No.
19:29Both of them.
19:34Okay.
19:37You know,
19:38I feel different with you.
19:40What do you mean, different?
19:45I feel like I'm myself.
19:49Because you're not yourself with the others?
19:52No, but...
19:54You get it.
19:56It's better with you.
20:00You know,
20:02for me too.
20:05You're the first person I've spoken to since...
20:08Since?
20:11Since...
20:18Eternity.
20:27We'll talk about that another day.
20:29What are you doing next week?
20:32Next week, I have a rugby tournament.
20:34Oh!
20:35Maybe you should train a bit.
20:37Your grips aren't great.
20:39Really?
20:40Yeah.
20:41Fuck!
20:43And now?
20:44Not bad.
21:06Is it good?
21:08Wait, wait.
21:09Hurry up, what are you doing?
21:11You can take it off.
21:12Is it good?
21:13Yeah.
21:14Okay.
21:18It's really nice.
21:19For what occasion?
21:20Look.
21:28Oh!
21:30A jump!
21:31You've always dreamt of that.
21:33Look, that's why you didn't answer me.
21:35Wait, look at this.
21:37Oh, it's to make our 3D hands.
21:39Our hands, and if you want us to mold something else...
21:41You disgust me.
21:42I thought it could be cool.
21:45Fuck, you're so cute, I can't believe it.
21:48Okay, I'm going to mold my hands with my mom.
21:50No, I'm kidding, I'm kidding.
21:52Really,
21:54thanks a lot, it's really nice.
21:59So, what are we molding?
22:01So, what are we molding?
22:03This one,
22:04in the water.
22:05Step one.
22:06This one.
22:07Yeah.
22:08It's going to make lumps.
22:14I think it needs to be white.
22:16Oh yeah?
22:17Yeah.
22:20Three,
22:21two,
22:22one,
22:23go.
22:31Step two.
22:32Step three.
22:33Step four.
22:34Step five.
22:35Step six.
22:36Step seven.
22:37Step eight.
22:38Step nine.
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28:09I don't know what time I'm going to get there because there's the rugby match.
28:13Ok, it works.
28:16We'll wait for you.
28:33What's wrong?
28:36I'm just worried about you.
28:40It's not worse than usual, Elliot.
28:43I feel like it's not getting better.
28:46Ok, well, sorry to hear that.
28:49I'm not saying that, I know it's not your fault.
28:54It's just that we've been waiting to go out for a while and...
28:57and we don't go out.
28:59I don't know why.
29:04Ok, so you're giving up everything?
29:07I didn't say that.
29:11And you think about it?
29:13Elliot...
29:27I feel like I'm not helping you.
29:29It's completely wrong, Elliot. You're helping me.
29:31If I don't answer you, you're not well.
29:33When I don't come, you're depressed.
29:35But because I love you!
29:40Me too. That's why I want it to get better.
29:42Ok, ok, it's fine.
29:44I'll make an effort.
29:46I swear I'll make an effort.
29:47You already told me that.
29:49You already told me that, but you're not doing it because you love us, you're here.
29:52But I... I can't stay in this room.
29:54I want to go out. To see people.
29:56I have a life.
30:09Romeo, I love you too.
30:13Fuck.
30:23Let's do something.
30:25Ok?
30:29What a shitty idea.
30:31Let's do it.
30:38Wait.
30:40Yeah.
30:42Stop laughing and do it well.
30:47Oh fuck.
30:49It's ok, it's not bad.
30:51No, it's ok Theo, look.
30:53It's ok.
30:55It's ok.
30:56It's ok, it's ok.
31:01When they'll push us back, we'll get out of there.
31:11Hi, it's Eliott. I'm not available.
31:13I'm probably at rugby or with my friends.
31:15Leave me a message.
31:16Yeah Eliott, I left you several messages.
31:18I don't know what you're doing, but I remind you that it's my mother's birthday and we're waiting for you.
31:22So, call me as soon as possible, please.
31:32Romeo?
31:34We're going to your table.
31:35Ok, I'm coming.
31:37I'm coming.
31:40Yes, he went to the reunion.
31:42What did he have to do with it?
31:44He went as a sports coach.
31:46That's great.
31:47Yes, it's great, but how long did he go?
31:49Three years.
31:50What? With all the kids?
31:51Yes, he went with... No, no, no.
31:53He went with...
31:55Three.
31:56There are three who are university students and three in primary school.
32:00And the dogs, what did they do?
32:02They took him.
32:04Don't move, don't move.
32:07Did you see the dog?
32:09Yes.
32:20Romeo?
32:21Are you ok?
32:23Don't move.
32:36Don't move.
33:06Don't move.
33:22Why?
33:26Beyond tonight, you're not coming anymore.
33:31In any case, not as much as before.
33:36I'm sorry about last night.
33:38I don't care that you're a girl next door.
33:41Just...
33:45Pay a little more attention to me.
33:48Romeo.
33:50Since our first round, I've only been doing this.
33:53I'm only paying attention to you.
33:55I'm not your boy.
33:57I can't do everything, you know.
34:00I feel like you just want me to shut up here with you.
34:07That's not life.
34:12We can't stay here, Romeo. Life is outside.
34:17Do you think I don't know what life is?
34:20Do you think I'm doing it on purpose?
34:22Do you think I don't want to go out like everyone else?
34:30You...
34:31Actually...
34:33I can't stay here forever, you know.
34:44You don't have me anymore.
34:52Get out!
34:55Romeo, I'm not doing this against you. I'm doing it for you.
34:58You're an idiot.
35:05I love you so much.
35:10I love you too.
35:14But we have to stop this.
35:16Stop saying that.
35:18Please, stop saying that.
35:20You're too dependent, Romeo.
35:22You're too dependent, Romeo.
35:28I'm sorry.
35:30You're an exceptional person, you know. Don't waste your life by coming back here.
35:41If you don't want to see me anymore...
35:44Who are you going to see then?
35:47No one.
35:50It's just that it wasn't the right time.
35:53Wait, wait.
35:54Please, don't leave.
35:56Please, don't leave.
36:01I'm going to go through this door and let you breathe.
36:04Fuck.
36:11I'm going to get you out of here.
36:13Fuck, you don't realize, idiot.
36:16You don't realize that I'm already in hell.
36:21Without the person who makes me happy, what do I do?
36:25Stop telling me that it's for my own good.
36:27You can only hurt me.
36:29You know it very well.
36:31Why do you want this?
36:33I'm sorry.
36:39Why didn't you tell me before?
36:42You're going to leave me like this.
36:46It would have been the same.
36:48Not at all.
36:50We could have tried to change a lot of things.
36:54I'm not going to change my mind, Romain.
37:16Fuck.
37:46Fuck.
38:16Fuck.
38:46Fuck.
39:16Fuck.
39:28Hello.
39:29It's me again.
39:31Today, it was really bad.
39:33And I wasn't feeling well at all in the morning.
39:36I started to tremble and then I had big heat waves.
39:41At noon, no one was eating with me again.
39:45I couldn't stop the group of kids from coming.
39:51I don't want to see people anymore.
39:53I have the impression that apart from hurting me,
39:55they are useless.
39:57I never want to go to school.
40:00But mom and dad don't understand that.
40:03But it hurts me so much to go there.
40:06I throw up on the way.
40:15Hi.
40:34Hi.
40:40It's been a long time since I last filmed with this camera.
40:46It's been a long time since I last filmed with this camera.
40:50One of them separated from me.
40:58I didn't think it could hurt so much.
41:02I really wonder what I'm doing on this planet.
41:10There are so many questions.
41:16Why am I fighting in a world that doesn't want me?
41:27I will never be able to go to school.
41:29I will never be able to go out.
41:32I lost the person who mattered the most to me.
41:35I lost the person who mattered the most to me.
41:45I can't take it anymore.
41:54I miss him so much.
42:01I won't be able to live without him.
42:03I won't be able to live without him.
42:06I won't be able to live without him.
42:10I won't be able to live without him.
42:20I wanted to tell you so many things.
42:31I'm sorry.
42:34I'm sorry.
42:59Are you in the shower?
43:01I just wanted to tell you that I love you.
43:05I can't wait for you to get better so I can take you everywhere.
43:08In my rugby matches.
43:10At parties with my friends.
43:11At the movies.
43:14I really want us to go to a lot of countries together.
43:17Brazil.
43:18Mexico.
43:20All of America.
43:23Honestly, Juliette.
43:25I don't know who made you lose all your confidence.
43:27You're done.
43:28Kisses.
43:30Kisses.
43:50I haven't heard from Eliott in a year.
43:54It hurts less than at the beginning.
43:57It faded away little by little.
44:00With time.
44:03Yet, he's still here.
44:06With me.
44:09He didn't spend a single day without me thinking about him.
44:15I'll never be able to forget all the good he's done for me.
44:18He made me discover so many things.
44:23Who I am.
44:24Who I want to be.
44:27Who I am.
44:30So, yes.
44:32I've been through a lot for a long time.
44:35But today, I know why.
44:39It's because...
44:42I loved him more than anything.
44:45He's a powerful love.
44:47So powerful that...
44:50I lost myself.
44:57I'll never be able to relive the same things as I did with him.
45:07It's funny.
45:10I've learned to be alone and...
45:14Surrounded.
45:16By a lot of people I don't know.
45:22Now, it's your turn, Eliott.
45:27I don't know when you'll see this video.
45:30I don't even know if you'll see it, by the way.
45:33But...
45:35I hope that you're happy to see that I'm outside.
45:39Well, it's not a concert hall full of people, but...
45:42I go out.
45:44Every day.
45:46I go shopping.
45:48I go to the movies.
45:50I walk around.
45:52I rediscover life.
45:53As if I was starting over.
46:00And that's thanks to you.
46:04So...
46:06From the bottom of my heart...
46:12Thank you for everything.
46:14For all the good you've done for me.
46:16For all the strength you've given me.
46:19For all the memories you've left me.
46:23Which are right here.
46:26Kept like a treasure.
46:36I hope that you're still thinking about me.
46:40That you only remember positive things.
46:45I also hope that you're traveling.
46:48That you've been to Center Park.
46:53And that you're fulfilling all your dreams.
46:55Even if I don't really doubt that.
47:02Sometimes I'd like you to come back.
47:06That you reappear.
47:08At my window.
47:11Like a real Romeo, in the end.
47:14I'm filming this last video to mark the end of a long, difficult journey.
47:22I got up.
47:26As if...
47:28Nothing was impossible.
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