Married at First Sight UK S9 Episode 28
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00:00I
00:02Previously what you think a troubled partner swap we sorry
00:08Set Polly and Adam on a rocky road all time. You've put yourself first never once has it been about me
00:16Leading to a difficult dinner party. I never want to make you feel like anything you do isn't good enough
00:22It's just made me realize how selfish I've been while memories of home
00:27It's clear to see that you are an amazing father. I stirred up strong emotions in Ross
00:38Tonight
00:40The first round of homestays
00:44Involve a much warmer welcome than Nathan expected didn't realize I was gonna have three wives instead of one
00:50Mom stop flirting with my man
00:53If I knew he was 20 years older, I'd snap him off while an emotional homecoming
01:01So seeds of doubt for Ross
01:07It's not happening and
01:09Sasha Manchester's not a certainty for me anymore
01:12I just hope it doesn't get in the way of our relationship and Polly's attempts to win over Adam
01:18I hope you're not gonna make too much mess
01:20Don't go as planned. How are you finding my life hard?
01:25You've just made it some will give oh, you actually take the piss
01:28You're okay. I carried on this marriage after you did that simple as that
01:31What is actually wrong with you feel like I've really reached my limit
01:34I
01:45Can't believe I hear
01:48Everything's not waiting for change because I'm here
01:52Bringing the sunshine
01:55We have reached a pivotal moment in the experiment
01:58Homestays, I am looking forward to the next few days. They obviously being here seeing where you live seeing what's around
02:04Interesting
02:05The newlyweds who have been residing together in their apartments now have the chance to experience each other's home environments
02:13cultivate
02:14Been there without seeing that this will provide them with invaluable insights into their partner's lifestyles
02:21Allowing them to envision what their future together could look like beyond the experiment
02:25I think homestays has come a bit of a shit time for me and Polly. It was only a couple of days ago
02:31I read a massive setback and now Polly needs to make changes. It wants this relationship to work
02:46Can't wait to see mama bear and Heidi
02:50I'm a little bit apprehensive to meet Lisa's family. The last time I seen Lisa's mom. I are upset
02:57That's awful
02:59Hahaha
03:01Expanders coming out now. You don't do that. No. Oh, yeah. Oh good. I look pop bottom bin. Bye. Got it
03:09You've upset me now nice Sean. Ah, I don't think I'm on to that too bad fair dog house
03:19So nice welcome to Chisholm
03:23Remember yeah banter, but no insulting banter. No banter. No, no insulting banter, babe
03:29I'm so looking forward to homestay. I can't wait to see my mom and sister and
03:33For them to get to know Nathan a little bit more because the in-law week was a little bit frosty
03:52Oh
03:58Thanks, it's weird on your suitcase
04:12I've missed Lacey so so much. I'm absolutely over the moon. We've got a couple of days with them to just connect
04:18So excited to have him back honestly, it's just all amazing
04:23So last time we saw you Nathan you had a little dig about my food. Oh, okay. Here we go
04:31Johnny is it we was probably a bit shy and you thought probably thought you'd throw a bit of banter
04:35And I'm like, what am I like with bad morning? Are you nervous? Yeah a little bit. It's just I don't know
04:40I'll say like a little more like comfortable now. Yeah. Yeah, you're really good. It's really good. It's pretty good. I'm a mom
04:46I'll be quite serious when that you know, I mean and I'm just like we were shooing that chicken for ages
04:51Yeah, on off on off and I'm like, oh my god, you know, I know I think we're bad
04:58But I don't hold a grudge. I still think you're a good guy. Yeah, we think sightsee, but
05:03It's definitely a relief of my shoulders. At least his mom brushed the bottom being coming under the carpet
05:09So I definitely won't be mentioning anything about food any time soon 100%
05:14You any good at plumbing he's gonna do anything is that you could it he's very good with his hands
05:19Oh, really? Yeah too much information
05:24He's a handyman
05:30Yeah break now we'll get him down here mommy like you mommy like
05:36Anyway, it's so lovely to have you here. So excited and we can have another cheese. We love our cheese
05:43I
06:03Am annoyed with Polly at the moment
06:05We just keep having these arguments the facts that she's been very selfish. It's actually really got to me
06:10So it does feel a bit soon to be having Polly coming around to my house
06:14It's all very tidy. So if we can keep it like that, I'd appreciate it
06:18I do definitely feel a bit on edge. Adam is definitely still annoyed at me right now
06:23We've only just got over a rough couple of days. So we haven't kind of gone back to normal
06:29And this is my living room this is lovely
06:32Hopefully Adam can really see that. I'm really trying because I do really want to make it back. That's like the king corner
06:38This is it's confident. Oh
06:41Yeah
06:43So where's my position on the sofa? If this is the Kings corner?
06:47It'll be all the way on the opposite side in the rascal corner. I
06:51Miss this
06:54Well, I'm gonna be staying here, you know
06:56Adams definitely being a bit awkward trying to put his foot down and be like this is my house
07:01I wouldn't make him feel like this at my house. Let's just say that and all my clothes are color-coordinated
07:08I mean doctor lie
07:10This house is perfect for me. I
07:13Feel like if you was living here with me, there's no space for your clothes. I feel so welcome
07:18What do you want me to do?
07:19Empty all my clothes out and put them in the loft so you can hang up free bloody dresses
07:23I was excited to be here, but I feel like with how Adam is it's kind of brought it down a little bit
07:29It's been made clear that there's no space for me anywhere in any room in any
07:36wardrobe
07:38So yeah, it's not been
07:40Not being a nice warm. Welcome. I
07:43Read good night's sleep from here, especially when I'm alone. Not anymore
07:50Probably haven't gave Polly the best welcome in I think it's down to how I'm feeling
07:56There's a lot for her to work on. I am a little bit worried
07:59They're me and Polly are gonna get under each other's feet a little bit
08:08I
08:12Saw it
08:21It's a very big moment for a fashion meeting break because she's very nervous
08:25But I told her not to because blue is the maiden girl style. She's got nothing to be nervous about
08:31sing
08:32That we might be getting a big surprise. We've got the enemy
08:36The moment's finally come I'm getting ready to go meet blue. Yeah, this is a big deal. I'm really really really nervous
09:06Oh
09:36Do you think she looks like yeah
09:49Seeing Ross interact with his daughter and seeing the love between him is just like so cute
09:58Because of how my connection is with my dad I can completely relate to Ross's relationship with his daughter
10:04He adores blue and I can see how happy he is
10:15They're the maiden to see blood because I'm not in it for a long time
10:18It made me realize it might not work being far from it. Do you like Sasha?
10:24Yeah
10:26I
10:29Got a lot more to think about now because I need to think about myself and my support network in Warsaw and what I need
10:36But I also need to consider Ross and the little life in his life
10:42Can't touch this day
10:56I
10:58Am still trying to get back in the good books from the argument that we had not that long ago
11:02So I'm cooking for Adam and his friend. I've been selfish over the last couple of weeks
11:08so I am really trying to make an effort to make sure that we are back on the right track and
11:14Set the tone for the evening. I hope you're not gonna make too much mess if you're not cooking just sit and be quiet
11:26That's a smoke alarm
11:38You're good
11:45Tonight's the third time I met Polly and every single time she's made a really good impression
11:50So I'm excited to see him and see where they're going now
11:54This is yours
11:56Why are you snickering?
11:58Why's yours so small? Because I'm not hungry. I don't really want to eat. It's looking good. You've got the bigger portion
12:04So yeah, I appreciate you cooking for us because it's Adam's kitchen and it's done for us
12:12This is like a kid's meal
12:14Just eat your dinner and just shut up. I'm really just trying to hold my tongue
12:19I've wished at this moment in time that if Adam didn't have anything nice to say about me or the dinner that
12:25He just shouldn't say anything at all
12:29How are you finding married life hard I
12:34Could imagine yeah, tell me more. I feel like our first big argument was at the retreat and basically
12:42Someone came in he was very open honest about their feelings. So obviously I'd had
12:48Such a short amount of time with this person
12:51But I was like, oh my god a man can be so open and honest about their feelings
12:54So I turned around in one of the questions, which was would you stick or twist and I said twist?
13:01But he knows why I said it and ever since I've said it he has made a massive
13:08difference
13:10With being honest and open about his feelings about things
13:15You've just made it sound muggy as fuck
13:18fuck
13:19the fact you're saying a guy came in is emotionally available and
13:24I said I would twist to him because he's got emotion available
13:27I want and then now I'm trying to be like him because that's what that's what you basically said
13:34You take that how you will that's not what I meant this way wording. It makes you sound really bad, okay
13:39I've worded it wrong, but that's not what I meant behind it. I've been honest and said what's been the problem?
13:44You have to say why we argued because it's a bit argued
13:47Yeah, I'd be honest to be honest and say that you
13:52If you don't want me to talk to someone about this is what keeps happening
13:56I'm be honest yet, but don't say the wrong you can be honest, but just don't speak. It's pretty much what you're saying
14:00Okay, you don't make any sense
14:02Don't say to me be honest and then get shitty with me when I've told him what's happened for us to be in the position
14:07that we're in
14:09Mate a hundred percent is an outsider. I've not seen her just mug you off at all
14:15Word it right then don't try and make me look like a dick
14:20When he's just said all I'm saying is I haven't tried
14:25What I'm saying is when that situation happened you look he even gave you the time of day after that that was muggy as fuck
14:30How is it mucky what is wrong with you you brought it
14:35I didn't speak you for two days. I didn't put in there that you didn't speak for me
14:39It's two days, and I have to give you space you look I carried on this marriage after you did that simple as that
14:46What you want me to say, thank you, I said that I fucked up and I'm sorry
14:49So then what else you want me to do say to Rick don't make it sound like you
14:53Snatched your fingers and wanted something then you got it from me cuz that's bullshit. I
14:58Really don't understand
15:00How he's sitting there with the audacity to say that I don't own things when all I've done
15:05Throughout this whole thing has put my hands up to things and say I fucked up no matter what I say
15:10It's always gonna be wrong
15:12Hey, I feel like you've gone a little bit off the hook there
15:15It does make me feel embarrassed. I'm really shocked Polly's going into detail about the retreat
15:22This was not how I expected the first night home stage to go
15:27It's been a bit of a shit show
15:30There's only so much that I feel like I can take and I feel like I've really reached my fucking limit
15:52You're right darling. Yeah, it was a really good night last night on it good to catch up with family
15:56It's day two of homestays you fit right in
16:13Mom jumped on the bed
16:16Sister got involved
16:21Dog involved
16:26Yeah
16:36Yeah, it was a it's a lot
16:38Oh
16:52I've woke up feeling stressed after last night's argument
16:56I am annoyed that this is how the homestays is gone
16:59And the last thing I want to do is argue with my wife and just end up stressed
17:03I just think Polly needed to own what she said and it probably wouldn't have escalated like it did
17:09I
17:10Can't say so far have been a complete state
17:13I don't feel like we've come into this in the best position that we could have I haven't spoke to Adam since last night
17:18And I don't feel like I can say anything right to Adam at the moment. I feel like whatever I say is wrong
17:26But I just want to get it squashed
17:30Feel like you just jumped down my neck for word in something the wrong way I
17:34I can't keep saying the same thing. It's a condensed version and you know what actually happened
17:40Yeah, I never it was, you know what happened as well. We are just gonna keep going around in circles with this
17:45This is just ridiculous
17:49Because you're like a brick wall like you so hard to talk to are you joking? Oh my god
17:54I don't think you know what's going for you. All right, you
17:57Know you're quite right. I don't because of you too stubborn
18:04You are every time every time we've had a big argument you need to apologize
18:07Yeah, it takes you two days to apologize because I need to process what's happened. It wasn't much to process
18:12She said something wrong. I annoyed me. There is a lot to process you are not in my brain
18:16You cannot tell me what there is to process and what there's not so let's not go down that route
18:20You know, how old you are. Yeah, you're not a child. I don't need to tell you to apologize to someone
18:24I
18:29Hate saying sorry, I am sorry. I hate upsetting you
18:34I am genuinely sorry. I'm not saying it just because you feel like I have to you know that yeah
18:43I've said and done things that were in the wrong way. However, I still want to get it resolved and just to be able to
18:50move on with him
18:55You know, I'm sorry
18:57The only way is up and hopefully that can continue into my homestays. I am glad Polly's apologized
19:05Hopefully it clears the air the last thing I want is for me and Polly to be in bad terms
19:15Yeah, thank you, yeah, thanks for the wake-up call as well
19:24I was thinking about something
19:26Lacey said that you was good with your hands. Yes
19:29I've got some little jobs for you to do
19:32Maxine says she's got a little bit of DIY for me lined up. No problem would be nice to give him a little bit back
19:37There's a few scoffs here. Yeah
19:40Yeah, yeah, no problem
19:42I've got a few DIY things for him to do keep him busy. Why is he earning his keep?
19:48So hopefully he's up to the job
19:54Oh, yeah
19:57Yeah, it looks really nice. You've missed a little bit here though. Oh, yeah. Yeah that bit there. You're very good though, aren't you?
20:04Yes
20:05Well done
20:10So talented
20:22I'm sorry darling
20:25I
20:27See is extremely lucky. Honestly, if she don't want him, I'll have him
20:33If only he was 20 years older
20:48Obviously this is like a female dominant house
20:54You're very lucky. Hey, look at him. Hey, it's nice on the eyes as well
20:59So when I got married, I didn't realize I was gonna have three wives instead of one. We're leaving to get on with it
21:07Yeah, I'm good
21:16So I've been in this carpet
21:19ages three hours
21:21It's a long way
21:23After the giant bust up at Adams his pride has definitely been hurt
21:27Because I've relayed one of our arguments and the negatives of that argument
21:32However, I've come into this wanting to start afresh. I just want to keep it nice and icy
21:36let's not push it any more than what I already have and
21:39Definitely be on my best behavior
21:42Be excited to see everyone again
21:46You've got mum and Phoebe flowers so that's good start
21:50Yeah, you're gonna think I'm a gentleman which I am
21:54Even though I haven't bought you any flowers yet. No, you haven't so it says a lot
21:58You've bought my mum and my sister some before your wife
22:01This homestay with Polly. I feel like it's gonna be make or break for me and Paul
22:05I think after my homestays there's a bit of a shit show
22:08It depends on how she is with all her family and friends to whether I think I could deal with it or not
22:20Oh
22:30Come through
22:33Dear
22:35Thank you very much for these. Oh, no, I have a vase Betty
22:39Like, you know
22:42Have you been yes been good. I've really been looking forward to coming home. Yeah good. What to see me
22:49It has been really good. We've had a few little blips
22:53Well, nothing's perfect. Well, no, so but we've got through it. We still get along really well. Yeah
23:02You know what that is the main thing
23:04It's hard being married and I've always said to you you draw a line in the sand under an argument
23:08And then you hold hands in bed and you wake up in the morning to a new day
23:13I'm definitely holding back with what I'm telling my mum
23:16About what's happened over the last week or so with me and Adam because I don't really want to rock the boat again
23:21Why don't you show Adam around anyway, it's gonna give you a tour
23:25tour the mansion
23:30So this is my room
23:34You'll be glad to know there is actually a lot of wardrobe space for you and your clothes
23:39That I will make space for a little bit. I can't see any spare hangers. Oh, well
23:46We've got a lot of space
23:48The fact that I've actually let Adam know that I'm willing to share my wardrobe space and there is enough room for him
23:53I hope made him feel a little bit bad considering the welcome that I got when I got to his house
23:58So you can put your clothes away and not feel like you have to live out of a suitcase
24:06This is cute something definitely change I'm feeling a bit apprehensive today
24:13How emotional I got seen blue
24:16Seeing Ross with his daughter
24:19Probably just reminded me of my relationship with my dad. I
24:23Don't want to leave home
24:25My head is just fried. So I definitely need to weigh things up and think about it a little bit more
24:35It might be hard being away from a family I'm gonna miss them so much
24:40Usually I'll always have the support and guidance. So
24:43Like Manchester's not a certainty for me anymore. Maybe I need to just be a little bit closer to my family
24:52I'm just unsure
24:56I mean, I can't get away from my family either. I mean we're pretty close with them as well
25:01Aren't we you're close to us. I'm close to mine
25:06My worrying is
25:09Going to all stop because I've got a beautiful daughter and that family
25:15We're gonna rush into it. It's gonna take time and think about it
25:22Start to hear that statue conserving not moving to Manchester
25:26So the biggest decision which we've not spoken proper about is the moving situation
25:32It's definitely a sensitive subject
25:35Speaking about where me and Ross are gonna move
25:41There's still a lot to think about and a lot to decide on
25:45We're so close to the end of the experiment now, and I just hope it doesn't get in the way of our relationship
25:52Oh
26:00What looks delicious Polly and Adam are preparing for a visit from her best friend Alfie
26:15I'm really hoping that Polly and Adam are in a better place from when I last saw them. Hello
26:21How you doing, okay, I think from the last conversation they mentioned that intimacy was a little bit of an issue
26:26So I'm really hoping that they've worked through that
26:33Have you been anyway more importantly, how have you been?
26:36Have you both?
26:39Yeah, I don't know. I've got a giggly. I'm nervous now. Yeah good
26:44Is that what you're gonna give me
26:47We've had a few little tiffs
26:50Lovers tiffs, but on the mend after the last week
26:56How has the intimacy been?
26:59since
27:01Because it was a little bit awkward. You were having some, you know rough time. She was becoming a nun again. What's going on?
27:06It's there
27:07That's all I'm willing to say
27:10Because it's not it's not even about like a sex thing for me
27:13It's more just about like how have you like have you been able to sort of like cuddle and kiss and I hold hands like
27:18You know, I mean like it's about
27:20Yeah, we don't hold hands. I hate holding. No, I think I'm a bum gives me a cuddle
27:27I'm telling Alfie that the touchy-feely side of things is there because we've only just patched things up
27:34With the last few days and I don't want to make Adam feel any more uncomfortable than he already is. Yeah, it's there
27:44But yeah, no, it's been good it has been good I feel like the arguments that we've had have been about
27:50stuff from the past
27:52That's been brought up again. Mm-hmm, and it's learning how to deal with the
27:57Conflict how we both deal with it and how we then both deal with each other in the moment and after
28:02That's what was the struggle
28:05You know what? I'm liking around I go and go and go until it's resolved. Yeah. Yeah him. He needs space
28:12She can't wait. She'll get so anxious and I do it to me
28:15It makes it worse because she doesn't we struggle with like I don't want to talk and then in half an hour's time
28:21I'm like, oh, I'm sitting there
28:23Festering and stewing chewing on it and I'm like just talk to me like I just want you to talk to me
28:28Just give me a kiss and a cuddle and it's gonna be fine
28:31Like I don't like waiting. So when he said to me the best thing that he needs is space triggered
28:37Are you sitting down and saying?
28:39Why do you react in this way or why does this certain conversation trigger you have you had those conversations you know
28:47Exactly. You need to have that chat
28:50We've all got things that irritate us, but if he isn't aware of it and vice versa, she's not aware of it
28:55You're just gonna keep butting heads
28:58Polly has a habit of sticking up for her partners
29:01But I think she needs to start having the conversation with Adam on how she's really feeling about the situation
29:08Sure you two have got some gossiping to do I'm gonna go on Pat my master
29:21If I'm being brutally honest, I still have a lot of reservations I
29:29Do why
29:31I'm not saying he's a bad guy. I'm not saying that he has made a huge shift
29:38With how he was in the first week to where he is now
29:44What you've just said to me is that I had a man who gave me absolutely nothing but now he's giving me something
29:54How long do you accept the bare minimum for
29:58That's my reservation and that's my one
30:07What Alfie saying is stuff that I already know and have already thought about
30:11However, I'm definitely trying to focus on the good at the moment considering me and Adam have just got over another argument
30:15I will give credit and have to give credit where credit is due because I am so proud of him
30:21for
30:22Being so much more emotionally
30:25Vulnerable with me to speak to me about the stuff that we talk about at home in bed behind closed doors
30:31He is now giving me
30:33More and more and more because he's seen me drop. He's seen my expectations of him lower
30:39Which is what I feel like he needs
30:42To then meet in the middle and then go up. Obviously, there is a want for it to work
30:47Otherwise, he wouldn't keep staying. Yeah, and you wouldn't
30:51That doesn't necessarily mean that
30:53He's right for you or even that you're right for him
30:58Polly has a habit of giving more in a relationship and that's her best friend. I've seen her accept the bare minimum multiple times before
31:08There is a big part of me that worries that is he giving her exactly what she needs
31:23You
31:32Excited for a bit of soft play. Oh, yeah
31:34I've been for about 30 years
31:36Polly and Adam are arriving at an activity center to spend some time with her sister Phoebe and her niece and nephews
31:44Hello
31:50Coming home and having the perspective from Alfie has definitely left me with a lot of question marks
31:56But I'm gonna brush the negatives under the carpet just for now
32:01There's nothing at the moment that needs to be argued about nor brought up again, they're desperate to meet you out there
32:06I don't play football
32:13I
32:20Don't mean I hope you're right
32:31Whoa, well, I'm really close with my nieces
32:42So it's really nice to see how Polly is with her niece and nephews
32:58It is hugely attractive to me that Adam is how he is with kids and to be how he is with my niece and nephews
33:05As well is really important
33:06So tell me how's it going? Yeah, I'm interesting
33:12Hunter yeah, interesting. It's good. It's been good. I
33:16Have said multiple times haven't I like a commitment sandwiches and stuff like he is everything that I asked for our more light
33:22He is so I think for me they done really well. Do you see yourself? Are we growing up? Can you see this lasting?
33:28I hope so
33:30Every relationship has bumps in the road
33:31It's never gonna be perfect yours is more intense because of the the experiment that you're in
33:35But no long lasting relationship will ever be perfect
33:39It can't be we have said that we are gonna try and make it work as much as we can. Good good
33:45I've seen more of a chilled side to Polly while she's been at home
33:49Seeing Polly's family and how she lives. I know she's very family orientated
33:54It has been really nice and it has been a nice insight into how life could potentially be
33:59In
34:09Manchester Sasha and Ross are visiting his sister nephew nan mum and daughter
34:23I'm so excited to see her. I've not seen him for what feels like a lifetime
34:26We've missed him so much so having him back is exactly how it should be
34:57Because I'm so family orientated it means so much seeing Ross
35:02Interact with his family the way he does like they're really close
35:05They're really loving just does worry me a little bit because I'm close to my family too
35:09And they're gonna be trying to pull me this way and his family are gonna be trying to pull us this way
35:14over the next few days
35:15I've got a lot to think about I love living with Ross like we don't like being apart from each other
35:22we've actually been told off for not spending enough time with the group because
35:26Yeah, yeah, he's got that connection
35:38I just want to get in for a chat. I want to see how they're getting on
35:41I want to know all about it. Just one-to-one sister to brother as we always do. I just want to know if you're all right
35:48Checking. Are you all right with Sasha really?
35:50I mean Sasha good, but that was saying that you don't feel comfortable moving to Winchester now
35:58How do you feel about me to Warsaw?
36:03That's not happening
36:05No way
36:10I'm not gonna promise anything because obviously I got blown as well. I know I'm not watching into it
36:17If you want to do that you do that it doesn't make sense with blue though
36:27Hearing that Sasha might not want to come to Manchester obviously makes me worry that Ross might move to Birmingham. I
36:34Wouldn't want that. None of his family members would want that
36:37Obviously blues here Manchester is where his daughter is. So it is a bit concerning
36:42The moving stitch work is on my mind
36:48Obviously, I got daughter I'm a family stop
36:50It's a lot of bad things to me as well because I'm very close to them
36:54Obviously, but it's my number one. I thought she's my wife. So going forward
36:59But the stitching obviously it's got a lot of thinking today
37:12I
37:26Think I'm really well with me Nathan I can see him fitting in with my family
37:30It's a bit scaring me, but in a good way. Yeah, I just I'm really happy. I'm really good
37:35Does he have any things that annoy you?
37:38Tell truth. There's gotta be something I know when
37:42You know a bottle of drinks finished and you put it back in the fridge when it's empty
37:47It does drive me crazy. And when you leave the toilet seat up, I'll do the same now, but that's what I see
37:56No, but those little habits and I tangible
37:59I'm learning more and more about him because sometimes it is hard to read him
38:05He's might have a worried look on his face, but be fine. Hey, she does exactly the same thing
38:10And that's obviously to do with ADHD and there what they go through I go off and I don't realize and
38:17You know, but the reason why he's doing that is because he's got loads of things going on in his head
38:22He doesn't switch off
38:24Although his face is saying one thing his mind's not saying the same thing, but it's nothing to do with you
38:30Sometimes you think I do I do know this is where you've got to sort of step back and think well
38:35Hold on a minute. I know you've been supportive of Paige
38:37But you know, so it's a different relationship
38:40Do you know me you don't fall into Claude page?
38:45Like the way I think it's obviously everything and everything from like could be the top of the space to the bottom of the ocean
38:51all at the same time like it's really really a lot but like
38:54That's when I just sort of like drift off or if I had a really long day and I've been doing loads of things
38:59But I drift off more because I'm always go go go if I stop if I don't keep myself busy
39:05I
39:06Allow myself to think of my own for too long a period of time then I could to get a bit down
39:11That's what I say to Paige because she does spend quite a lot of thinking time don't you when you're around you can get you
39:17Down and you know, especially when like can you think of one small negative fork and snowball? Yeah, obviously. I know that open up
39:24Doesn't come easy for you. So I'm so proud
39:28But from the honeymoon
39:30So now you've come so far and you know
39:34It's been nice to see
39:37This is you can nip it by us enough
39:42That's because you care you're getting upset
39:48It's chill
39:52What you can I just feel like shit like I'm shit partner
39:55I
39:57Just want to understand in the best I care
39:59it's very interesting talking to Lacey's family about how my brain works and how I process things and
40:05It's interesting that Lacey sister's page can relate to a lot of them
40:09Lacey can't get in her head sometimes she doesn't need to she's an amazing person and I feel like tonight could have helped
40:16I understand me a bit better
40:18So you can do you're trying and it is really difficult HD and understanding like yourself
40:24sometimes I'm like
40:25I question myself in my head because there's so many things I'll be thinking of like a hundred times a day and it's difficult to
40:32Process when you're like, I can't have to get out my head as well because I'm like, I'm actually in my head again
40:36Well, you've got to understand lace, right?
40:39You're overthinking everything about him. Enjoy your time together. I can tell this guy really likes you
40:48By his body language the way he touches you the way he looks at you the way that when you just cried then he was
40:55straight away attentive
40:57So you need to put that out of your head?
41:00I've got every faith in you two and I've so wanted to work and I think you're great for each other
41:05I think you'll be able to learn from each other and you've got your sister a little page
41:10I believe in you both so much that it can work. It will work. Yes. I
41:15Don't need you care about Nathan so much more than he probably realizes and I definitely feel like tonight has bought me Nathan closer
41:23I feel like it's really helped me to understand him
41:26It's just nice seeing Nathan with my family just brings me joy because my family means the world
41:31Tonight's and I say
41:43How did you find today it's been good it was nice wanted to see you with your niece and nephews
41:50Made you a bit broody though, didn't it?
41:55Coming to yours I
41:57Was expecting you to be loud
42:00Make me feel uncomfortable. Maybe but you've actually shocked me. It's actually been really nice. All your family's lovely made me feel comfortable
42:07Good. I'm glad that you
42:09See that side of me what I'm like when I'm at home because that is a calm
42:14Space for me that it's comfortable. I can just be me
42:17So I'm glad that you've seen it like that and not like oh my god
42:20She is a lot worse than what I thought she already was you can actually be chilled loving
42:26And a really nice
42:28Lady
42:31It feels really good to end homestays on a high
42:34Definitely think I've learned a lot about Polly the last few days. There's been no effort and blind in
42:39It's just been a completely different Polly to be honest, and I've actually enjoyed myself
42:43Feel like I need to bring that back to the apartments. Yeah, that's obviously something for me to work on but
42:53The fact that Adam said that he's seen a difference in me since being on my homestays has
42:58Been the biggest compliment that he's given me today
43:01So yeah, it's really really good. I feel like a really good place again
43:15Next time I've missed you
43:18As the homestays continue is this one. I'll see the real Luke
43:23Christina and Kieran take time apart. That's Christina. I've expected to say it's been really hard to contemplate their marriage
43:30You could see yourself spending the rest of your life with him. Yeah, I do really like him and a visit from protective parents
43:37I want my daughter here. I'll definitely want to stay here puts a question mark over Sasha and Ross's future
43:44I really can't be away from them
43:47Kills me, but it's an awkward meeting with friends. I don't entertainment. Is that something you see yourself doing even now?
43:53You've got a why this is definitely an attempt to assassinate my character that pushes Amy and Luke's marriage to the edge of collapse
44:00Well as of now, I'm a single man
44:04Lie, you are a liar
44:07Maybe it's not meant to be off to
44:16You
44:39You