“I can’t believe where my life has gone, and where it is now.” We've been following Billie Eilish's journey through pop superstardom–and many different hair colors–for the last seven years. Though we didn’t release an interview in 2023, the “What Was I Made For?” singer did sit for one. Billie rewatches clips of that never-before-seen interview in this year’s video. For the eighth year, the pop star sits down to answer questions about her career, her fans, her romantic life, and more.
Director: Joe Sabia
Director of Photography: Eric Brouse
Editor: Estan Esparza
Talent: Billie Eilish
Producer: Funmi Sunmonu
Line Producer: Romeeka Powell
Associate Producer: Alexis Alzamora & Grace Lauson
Production Manager: Andressa Pelachi
Production Coordinator: Elizabeth Hymes
Talent Booker: Lauren Mendoza
Camera Operator: Carlos Araujo
Gaffer: David Djaco
Sound Mixer: Lily van Leeuween
Production Assistant: Karla Torres & Alex Mitchell
Post Production Supervisor: Christian Olguin
Post Production Coordinator: Ian Bryant
Supervising Editor: Doug Larsen
Assistant Editor: Billy Ward
Director: Joe Sabia
Director of Photography: Eric Brouse
Editor: Estan Esparza
Talent: Billie Eilish
Producer: Funmi Sunmonu
Line Producer: Romeeka Powell
Associate Producer: Alexis Alzamora & Grace Lauson
Production Manager: Andressa Pelachi
Production Coordinator: Elizabeth Hymes
Talent Booker: Lauren Mendoza
Camera Operator: Carlos Araujo
Gaffer: David Djaco
Sound Mixer: Lily van Leeuween
Production Assistant: Karla Torres & Alex Mitchell
Post Production Supervisor: Christian Olguin
Post Production Coordinator: Ian Bryant
Supervising Editor: Doug Larsen
Assistant Editor: Billy Ward
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LifestyleTranscript
00:00Once again, like it happens every year. I thought I had more time and then it's October 18th again
00:06My name is Billie Eilish. Billie Eilish. Billie Eilish. Billie Eilish. Billie Eilish. I'm Billie Eilish
00:13I'm looking at all the frozen
00:15years past
00:17Love you all
00:19I'm Billie Eilish. I think it's October 18th. October 18th. October 18th. I'm 15. 16. 17. 18. 19. 20. 21
00:29I'm 22. This is the first year in my life that I
00:34Keep forgetting how old I am
00:38257,000. 6.3 million. 40.7. 67.5. 94
00:450.1 million followers. 106. About 110. 120 million. Another year
00:53Seven years. This is the eighth video, right?
00:55But it was seven years ago today that we started this. We didn't put out a video
01:00Last year. It's true
01:03A big, big year. Just the whole, the whole Barbie thing. Swarm. Tour. I finally played Brazil
01:12Labyrinth. Yep, live at the O2. Yeah, Coachella. Bad guy. Went diamond. I'm back on my bullshit. I want to do more
01:21What does that mean? I want to do more. Wow, I was like yelling
01:25I've spent a lot of time in the last, like this summer
01:29Looking at videos and photos from like this month
01:34Since then so much has happened. It's nonsense. I have the most
01:38monthly listeners
01:41Right on Spotify in the entire world. So I surpassed a hundred million
01:47Monthly listeners and then
01:50Now I am the most streamed artist in the world on Spotify. I released my album
01:55Went on tour again. I made so many new friends
01:59Adopted another dog. It's been a friendship filled
02:02year. I
02:05And Phineas won an Oscar
02:08For what was I made for? I can't even really describe how amazing that was and then it was like we were the youngest
02:16People in history to win two or something crazy. Oh
02:22Did I predict it? Am I gonna win the Oscar?
02:26I don't know. We're manifesting, but we're also not gonna be
02:35Disappointed and angry if I don't and I do think objectively
02:38It is one of the best songs I've ever made
02:42I don't I think it's crazy that we would win again again
02:48Yeah, I kind of can't believe that happened again. I feel proud of it and I'm
02:53Proud to have made it proud that it is of me
02:56Want to rescue some horses?
02:58Maybe skydive like a bungee jump off a cliff or something
03:02I really want to do stuff like that things that I could die because of I want to adventure so bad
03:08I do want to skydive haven't done that yet be doing racing be doing stunt driving. I definitely want some more piercings
03:15I want some more tattoos another dog be hanging out with your family be making new friends be having new friends
03:23Be having good
03:25sex
03:32Got there, I've done nothing but make friends all year and and
03:38Gotten so close with people that I wasn't with before and
03:42became friends with people I used to be friends with again and just like
03:48It's just been a year filled with friendship
03:50Which honestly even though I was saying a lot of things that I want to do
03:53That was the real that was like the thing that I wanted to do and I really did it and it was awesome
03:59And yes, I've had a lot of good sex. So you're welcome, Billy. I
04:05I
04:07Want you to have fixed the little chip you can see it
04:112018 did it to me and when I'm smiling my tooth is so ugly whiten those suckers
04:18I'll let have you know
04:20Miss red hair that I chipped another tooth
04:24So not only did I not fix the other chip, but I also chipped another one
04:28So now I have a chip here and a chip here. I
04:32Also remember really wanting me at that time to fix this little gap as well and
04:39I'm in the process. Okay, God, hopefully you keep doing what you're doing because I hope that what you're doing is
04:48Good don't do that thing again. Where are you?
04:53Just do what?
04:56Somebody else wants to do we're not gonna let somebody
04:59Take away my sparkle as they say
05:04Solid advice and I haven't done that
05:07That really has stuck in my head and I think that I used to pretend like I was doing that
05:13But I think since then I really have been doing that and I don't I'm I'm really I really trust myself
05:20And I think like especially that
05:222022
05:24Girl, I don't think
05:26I don't think
05:28like I trusted her so I really trust myself now and
05:34I'm not gonna let any of that stuff happen again, and it hasn't happened again, and I've been very cautious about that and
05:41It's always scary when you you know
05:44Fall in love or you're you know seeing someone or you like someone or whatever it is
05:48and it's hard to know what the hell is going on because you're kind of blinded by this like
05:52Curtain of like, you know lust and love and admiration, so I
05:59Was very cautious and have been cautious. I'm currently cautious and
06:03I've been really a
06:05Good girl, so not disappointing you
06:09I promise
06:11Brockhampton
06:13Tierra whack techno Arlo Parks the dough cake the cardigans Dora
06:19You know who and then also
06:22me
06:23Deftones a lot of deftones Mazzy star this album called sunburned by Dominic Pike
06:29Honestly, I've been listening to a lot of Lady Gaga
06:32Like old Lady Gaga. It's so good
06:36Alejandro and poker face and
06:40Gui and born this way
06:44Fruitvale station
06:46Fruitvale station I origins Ferris Bueller's day off is a
06:50Solid choice. It's cario. That shit is fire
06:54Fruitvale station
06:56That movie's fucking fire though, it's a great movie but secretary I feel really good about it. I think we're like
07:0585% done
07:07maybe 90 it's
07:10Very genuinely like what I wanted to make I think
07:15It's true like it was just such a
07:19Drag it was so punishing
07:20But I feel like it is the best thing that I've Phineas and I have ever made and I'm so
07:26Endlessly proud of it like you don't even know I used to have this feeling with my music like I liked it
07:31But I was kind of embarrassed for people that I thought were cool to listen to it like anytime somebody
07:35That I thought was really cool said they listened to my song. I'd get all embarrassed and nervous and
07:41kind of
07:43Frustrated and annoyed honestly, I'd be like no don't listen to that like that's private
07:47And I think I wasn't as proud of it, and I think that now in my life and where I am in my career
07:53I really stand for my music like I I feel really proud of it
07:59There's this one song called lunch that I think
08:03People might like a lot. There's a song called birds of a feather
08:06Damn, I'm giving you two titles whoa
08:09My prediction then that I don't know why I didn't even say but it was what I was thinking then was I
08:16thought lunch would be the hit, but I also remember being like
08:19But watch birds of a feather is gonna end up being the real hit lunch was like big when this album came out
08:27and then birds
08:31Birds is number one lowest point of the year was probably
08:36In January I had a meeting
08:40With like my managers and stuff they
08:44were showing me the schedule for the whole year and
08:49I sat there and was totally silent and totally still and just tears like just
08:59Streamed down my face. That was a horrible
09:03Horrible day gosh, I mean you know I was like I just turned 17 and
09:12Life was seeming very daunting and ended up being even
09:19More intense than I ever
09:22cried about I
09:24If I had really known how it would all go. I would have been
09:29bawling my eyes out for days, but also
09:32I would have been excited at the same time the reason I was crying in
09:37that story is because I was looking at my touring schedule, and it was like
09:44You know it's horrifying to see
09:47Your life planned out like that two years in advance. It's like especially for like a little girl
09:53I wish that I hadn't had to deal with that, but also like
09:57My life's fucking awesome, and I'm really
10:01I'm really lucky at the same time touring used to be something that
10:08Was extremely
10:12Unpleasant and I would dread it and
10:15I would only dread it and the only reason I you know did it at all was because I loved
10:21Performing and I always have and even when I dreaded those tours, and you know hated the whole process
10:27I loved performing at the end of the day. I had this moment like a year ago or two a year ago
10:33I think where I
10:35was kind of like touring is
10:39Doesn't have to be miserable and
10:42I don't have to just sit through it and take it I can make it fun
10:46I mean, I'm the fucking boss for God's sake and I
10:51I
10:53Sat down with my touring team, and I was like
10:57Let's figure out all the ways to make this fun because this is my job
11:01And it's my life, and I want to keep doing it, and I don't want to
11:05You know be so
11:08Tortured by it that I end up never doing it again because I'm resentful of you know and so I've created a
11:16A
11:18You know surrounding that is
11:23Just like
11:25joyous and filled with
11:28laughter and love and
11:31For the first time in my life once again. I'm
11:36The words are coming out of my mouth that are I wish this tour would never end
11:46I do have a concert tonight. Yeah, and I had one last night and the night before that and tomorrow
11:52I'm on SNL three show nights in a row is like a
11:57Lot but it's okay. It was at the Crocodile in Seattle, and it was like 500 I think
12:06Was that me saying that was my biggest show Wow
12:12It's impossible to try to
12:16You know take in and acknowledge even I mean it's
12:21So I can't really think about it too much because it'll make me cry, and then it'll also give me an existential
12:29Crisis, but I can't believe the way my life has gone and where it is now I
12:37mean, it's just like
12:40The craziest
12:43No one
12:45You listeners don't understand how unpleasant it is to collaborate with people. It is not a fun experience
12:57I
12:59Mean it's Charlie though
13:01But it's Charlie also like
13:04Charlie and I did this collab in like the greatest way possible like my ideal way where
13:11You know she put out her amazing album
13:14Guess was on the extended version and
13:18I heard it cuz somebody posted it because it came out and I remember being like
13:24Hot
13:25Wow
13:26Such a hot song Wow that's such a good song God
13:29I wish I had a song like that, and I just went on with my life, and then like weeks later
13:35Phineas went to her show
13:36He was talking with like her and like one of her team mates or something
13:41I don't even know who he was talking to and they just talked about like you know
13:47Would Billy be down you know we should do a
13:50Billy should hop on something and like had a call with her talked about it
13:54it was gonna be another song and then we decided on guess and
13:59Then like she sent us stems
14:02Phineas and I went on a hike came back
14:05Went into the studio
14:07Sat there played the song wrote a verse
14:11Sent it back. That's my dream. That's my dream
14:14Phineas came up with like the first line being don't have to guess the color of your underwear
14:20And then I was like okay period and then we both just sat there
14:23Twiddling her thumbs writing and then wrote that verse sent it back
14:28She sent something back for her. I sent something back for her and then
14:33We literally shot a video like two days later
14:37And then the video got edited the next day, and it came out like the next day
14:42It was the craziest fastest like that is the dream that is the fucking dream
14:47It's a picture of me and charlie xex and it has
14:5269,608 likes oh
14:56My god
14:58So cute so innocent just excited about everything wow that's so funny full circle, huh?
15:06Any
15:07Person that I have ever been around
15:10I'm dating. It's so crazy
15:13Literally any man that I am near it's like that's that's Billy's boyfriend, and that's the person she's dating
15:20It's crazy, and then it's weird because I'm like
15:25actually photographed more with women and
15:28way
15:29Way more incriminating photos of me with women than men, and they're like Billy and her best friend. It's really funny
15:37It's so weird
15:39I'll see you next time and the time after that and the time after that
15:44So I'm an old lady
15:46Speaking of old ladies mom. This is my mom. She is sick as a booty. I don't mind
15:51I can stay here that long. I love it. I love it
15:56his grandma
15:59I love you, Billy
16:01Come in there. Hi. I love you so much. I love you very much mother join me again
16:10New hair
16:13Hi, she's back. We're back
16:16Hi, mom isn't she so pretty I?
16:20Love you so much. I love you so much. You're seven years to the day mom oh my gosh
16:25We were in New York remember. Oh my gosh on the first one. That was crazy. We never knew what was gonna happen with it
16:31I know I just was saying
16:34She's the one that that helps me
16:37have a brain and
16:39You know use my platform for good and no do all the things I need to do hmm. Yes
16:44I hope you have a very busy year what and what with your your album comes out
16:50And you have so much fun, and you have such a fun year making videos and playing pickleball and
16:57cooking and and
17:00Not jumping off of things. I'm gonna be I'm gonna jump off stuff
17:07I've been cooking yeah, I've been I actually been cooking
17:10I have so many good friends
17:12And you take good care of yourself, and you laugh so much and you have so much fun, and I love seeing it
17:17Love it mmm. I love you look oh
17:23Gosh often MSG we go