Kris Bowers attributes music to helping him process emotions

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00:00I always struggled to express my emotions in life, especially as a kid.

00:06I had all these really big, messy emotions that I didn't know how to express them,

00:13where to put them, if they were okay to have.

00:15I grew up in spaces where they weren't cool to have.

00:17I couldn't express those things or wear my heart on my sleeve.

00:21And I was so thankful to find music.

00:24And it wasn't until I realized that through the creation of music

00:28that I could put all those feelings into something and share my heart

00:34and be vulnerable or have moments of even seeing myself

00:39that I felt like I was saved in so many ways.

00:43And as a composer, often I've found that I've learned to stifle myself

00:47on projects where I'm asked to be muted or tamped down

00:51or have the music fall to the background in a way.

00:55And just like when I was in middle school,

00:57I felt like it wasn't cool to be emotional anymore.

01:01But on this film with our director, Chris Sanders,

01:05I felt like I could express all those things again and be unashamed to be emotional.

01:11I could put all these things I was feeling as a new dad.

01:14My wife and I just had our daughter.

01:16She's only six months old when I joined the project.

01:19And people ask when they see this film why the music is so emotional.

01:23And so much of it is because I just thought about observing my wife

01:28and her sacrifice and her beautiful journey into motherhood

01:32and looking at my daughter and her journey over the couple of years I was working on the film.

01:36And so I could put all these emotions and everything I felt into this score.