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00:00:00Tell me what you see.
00:00:25Is this better?
00:00:27Or this?
00:00:28Number one or number two?
00:00:32Number two.
00:00:34Good.
00:00:36Read the bottom line for me.
00:00:38N-V-T-S-L-Q.
00:00:42Excellent.
00:00:44Now the right eye.
00:00:47Can you read that?
00:00:49Nope.
00:00:51Anything?
00:00:52Nope.
00:00:54How about this?
00:00:57Is that a...
00:01:01K?
00:01:03And here?
00:01:07T?
00:01:11And this one?
00:01:15F.
00:01:23You have amblyopia.
00:01:25Yeah.
00:01:26You didn't indicate it on your medical history form.
00:01:29Well, I didn't want to brag.
00:01:31When did you first notice a problem?
00:01:34When I was five, my grandmother noticed my right eye was drifting.
00:01:37I'm sorry.
00:01:38I mean the more recent problem.
00:01:40Oh.
00:01:41About a couple weeks ago.
00:01:43I was working on my laptop and everything went soft.
00:01:46Was it up close or distance to?
00:01:49Dean?
00:01:50Oh, I'm sorry.
00:01:52When everything went soft.
00:01:53Was it distance or up close or both?
00:01:56Uh, both.
00:01:58Okay.
00:01:59The good news is your right eye, the amblyopic one, hasn't changed.
00:02:01You have some vision there.
00:02:02But there has been a change in your good eye.
00:02:03Do you sit in front of a computer all day?
00:02:04Wow.
00:02:05You make it sound so exciting.
00:02:06What do you do?
00:02:07I'm a graphic designer.
00:02:08Is it serious?
00:02:09Should I be serious?
00:02:10No.
00:02:11No.
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00:02:35No.
00:02:36But I do think it's time for you to move to progressive lenses.
00:02:39You mean bifocals?
00:02:42More like trifocals.
00:02:43But don't worry.
00:02:44It's perfectly normal for people to experience a dramatic change in vision around middle age.
00:02:58Are they horrible?
00:02:59They're awesome.
00:03:00You think?
00:03:01Yeah.
00:03:02They don't make me look like I'm trying too hard?
00:03:04Please.
00:03:05You live in Silver Lake.
00:03:06I don't get it.
00:03:07The top part is distance.
00:03:08The bottom is close up.
00:03:09But the middle is this weird limbo place where nothing is in focus.
00:03:13You gotta point your nose.
00:03:14What?
00:03:15Turn around.
00:03:16Turn.
00:03:17My doctor said you have to point your nose at the thing you're trying to see.
00:03:19Point my nose?
00:03:20Yeah.
00:03:21Try it.
00:03:22Towards the thing.
00:03:23You're looking up.
00:03:24Towards the thing.
00:03:25Towards the thing.
00:03:26Towards the thing.
00:03:27No.
00:03:28I am.
00:03:29Okay.
00:03:30Now you're looking down.
00:03:31I'm looking.
00:03:32Okay.
00:03:33It's alright.
00:03:34You're gonna get used to it.
00:03:35I think I'm going blind.
00:03:36Well.
00:03:37Both know what caused that.
00:03:38I think.
00:03:39Yeah.
00:03:40Well.
00:03:41You ain't kidding.
00:03:42Anyway.
00:03:43Um.
00:03:44I don't want to throw the baby on the fire.
00:03:45Or whatever the expression is.
00:03:47I don't know.
00:03:48Anyway.
00:03:49Pearson called.
00:03:50And?
00:03:51Remember when he wanted graphic, minimalist, simple?
00:03:53Yeah.
00:03:54What we gave him.
00:03:55Uh.
00:03:56He doesn't want that anymore.
00:03:57What does he want?
00:03:59You're not gonna love it.
00:04:02Not three heads in the sky.
00:04:03It is not three heads in the sky.
00:04:05It is not.
00:04:06Oh.
00:04:07Thank God.
00:04:08Two heads in the sky?
00:04:10No.
00:04:11We did two heads in the sky.
00:04:13Like six versions ago.
00:04:15No.
00:04:16We did three heads in the sky.
00:04:17Oh.
00:04:18Jesus.
00:04:19And now they want two.
00:04:20Heads.
00:04:21In the sky.
00:04:22Floating over a generic landscape.
00:04:24That's probably not even in the movie.
00:04:26I know.
00:04:27Oh.
00:04:28Me.
00:04:29Well.
00:04:30Tried that in college.
00:04:31It was not very satisfying for either of us.
00:04:35Mel, why do they make us go through so many rounds if they just want something safe?
00:04:39I don't know, sweetheart.
00:04:41But they do.
00:04:42And they're a good client.
00:04:43And they keep our lights on.
00:04:45And what should I tell them?
00:04:50Tell him that the other design was better.
00:04:53I mean.
00:04:54Nobody goes to see a movie because of the one sheet.
00:04:56Ever.
00:04:57In fact.
00:04:58You can tell him that in the list of reasons that people go see movies.
00:05:02The one sheet is at the very bottom.
00:05:04So why not do something good.
00:05:06For once.
00:05:07Something that will outlive his shitty movie.
00:05:09What is up?
00:05:10What?
00:05:11He's just been around here for the last two weeks in this weird, funky state.
00:05:22Talk to me.
00:05:23Yeah.
00:05:24No.
00:05:25I know.
00:05:26I know.
00:05:27I know.
00:05:28I just.
00:05:33I gotta.
00:05:41I just think I need to take a couple days off.
00:05:43Oh, yeah.
00:05:44I think I'm gonna drive out to the desert tonight.
00:05:46That's a great idea.
00:05:47Let's go for the whole weekend.
00:05:49We'll swim.
00:05:50We'll make cocktails.
00:05:51It'll be great.
00:05:52Oh, no.
00:05:53Yeah.
00:05:54I meant by myself.
00:05:55No, you know, just to clear my head.
00:05:57Oh.
00:05:58Sorry.
00:05:59It's fine.
00:06:00It's fine.
00:06:01It's fine.
00:06:02I know when I'm not wanted.
00:06:03That's great.
00:06:04No problem.
00:06:05Anyway, I do need you to finish these revisions before you bolt.
00:06:07Please.
00:06:08Okay.
00:06:09I'll do it tonight.
00:06:10Excellent.
00:06:11And what happened to the third head, anyway?
00:06:14I don't know.
00:06:15The other heads have better agents.
00:06:18Point your nose.
00:06:19Please.
00:06:49I'm going to go.
00:07:19I use my food to eat.
00:07:26I also use my food to cook.
00:07:29I use the food to cook.
00:07:33I use a food to cook.
00:07:36I use this for a long time.
00:07:39I use my food to cook.
00:07:43I use my food to cook.
00:07:47It looks like I can't run away
00:07:51So if I can take a step in my lap
00:07:56We created a small healthier sleep
00:08:03But, I can also have a sober room
00:08:07You can't even use the bed
00:08:09I'm not sure where you are
00:08:12Dear Dean, I hope you're the Dean I'm looking for.
00:08:30If you are, and you remember me, you're probably wondering why I'm writing after all these years.
00:08:37Truth is, I'm wondering the same thing.
00:08:39All I know is, this morning I woke up listening to National Public Radio, like I do every
00:08:45morning, and as I was lying there in bed, I thought to myself, why do I even listen to
00:08:51NPR?
00:08:52And that's what I remembered.
00:08:55You.
00:08:56You turned me on to National Public Radio, 15 years ago, summer, New York City.
00:09:03You turned me on to a lot of things that summer.
00:09:05So, I woke up thinking about you, and wondering how you are, and where you are, and a quick
00:09:13internet search led me to your website.
00:09:16You seem to be doing very well for yourself.
00:09:19Though I was surprised to find you in Los Angeles.
00:09:22I remember how much you love New York City.
00:09:26Anyway, I hope you're well.
00:09:29I'd love to hear from you.
00:09:31Yours, Alex Afina.
00:09:33I don't know.
00:10:03What a nice surprise.
00:10:09Of course I remember you.
00:10:11I'm flattered to be associated with National Public Radio,
00:10:14though since moving to L.A. I hardly ever listen anymore.
00:10:18I miss New York sometimes, but the truth is I love L.A.
00:10:23Try not to judge me too much.
00:10:25What can I say?
00:10:26It's nice to wake up and pick lemons from a tree in my own backyard.
00:10:31Tell me about your life.
00:10:34Dean.
00:10:45No judgments here.
00:10:57I used to believe if I could find the perfect city, all my problems would disappear.
00:11:01But I've since learned you take your problems with you.
00:11:05Currently, they're all in New Orleans.
00:11:07I've been here for about six months.
00:11:10I feel like I've been chasing my bliss for the last 15 years.
00:11:14I've never found it in a job or a relationship.
00:11:17Maybe it's in Los Angeles.
00:11:19I don't know if your bliss can be found in Los Angeles,
00:11:37but I have a little house in the desert near Joshua Tree that's as close as I've ever come to finding mine.
00:11:43It's small and quiet and has great views.
00:11:49Every time I'm there, I feel like I press this big internal reset button.
00:11:54Have you ever seen the Mojave?
00:11:58It's spectacular.
00:11:59I've been to the Gobi in East Asia and the Patagonian in South America,
00:12:11but I've never laid eyes on the Mojave.
00:12:14I'd love to see it.
00:12:16Now any good tour guides?
00:12:17I've never seen the Mojave in East Asia and the Mojave in East Asia.
00:12:48Now I've never seen the Mojave in East Asia and the Mojave in East Asia,
00:12:53but this isn't some music that can be welcome.
00:12:55I've never seen the Mojave Typically Change these days before
00:12:57Geo, many persons here.
00:12:58Still invoking them with a masculinity thing,
00:13:00but, youma, a lot of women who stop fighting and enjoying the Mojave mental health in the U.S.
00:13:02that means they're having to feel confident and enjoy beingbagged.
00:13:04City's complex human rights have caused by tort and causing problems
00:13:07and has had been bakalım systemic members.
00:13:09So I've seen a lot of people saying anything for you.
00:13:10I can't really offer you orden, but I always feel like the Mojave in which I feel requests
00:13:12the Mojave in the depths.
00:13:15I have read something up for the logical plan,
00:13:16Wow.
00:13:46I was suspicious about you.
00:14:16I had your love, the greatest love I ever knew.
00:14:25But you never took me in like I needed.
00:14:34I'd catch you crying for no reason but the truth.
00:14:41And now the one that got away came back today.
00:14:52And now the one that got away came back today.
00:15:22And now the one that got away came back today.
00:15:52And now the one that got away came back today.
00:16:22You can't believe this.
00:16:52You can't believe this.
00:17:22Oh my god, you made it.
00:17:38Yeah.
00:17:39I was worried.
00:17:42I left you a message.
00:17:43Yeah, there's no reception out here.
00:17:52Hi.
00:17:59You look great.
00:18:02You too.
00:18:07Wow.
00:18:14Yeah.
00:18:15Yeah.
00:18:16Yeah.
00:18:17Yeah.
00:18:18Yeah.
00:18:19Yeah.
00:18:21Yeah.
00:18:22Yeah.
00:18:23Yeah.
00:18:24Yeah.
00:18:25Let's go.
00:18:55How long have you been here?
00:19:25Oh, three hours.
00:19:27Jesus.
00:19:30It's easy to lose track out here.
00:19:32Yeah, no kidding.
00:19:36I didn't plan for this to happen.
00:19:39For what?
00:19:42This.
00:19:43That never crossed your mind?
00:19:45It crossed my mind.
00:19:47You?
00:19:48I almost had to rub one out on the plane.
00:19:54Have you ever done that?
00:19:56On a plane?
00:19:57Sure.
00:19:59I can't imagine.
00:20:00I just think that the plane's going to crash and they're going to find my body in the wreckage with my dick in my hand and my pants around my ankles.
00:20:10And what would my family say?
00:20:13He died as he lived.
00:20:15So that's what you think of me?
00:20:17Totally.
00:20:19I'm just a horndog?
00:20:20You are the most sexual person I ever dated.
00:20:25Whoa.
00:20:26By far.
00:20:28What does it even mean, most sexual?
00:20:30As I recall, a disproportionate amount of our time was spent naked in your bed.
00:20:36No, that's because I didn't have an EAC in that apartment.
00:20:38Oh, gosh.
00:20:40Man, I'm sorry.
00:20:41No, it had nothing to do with your raging libido.
00:20:45Okay, fine.
00:20:47I am a total horndog.
00:20:49Yeah.
00:20:50I've been thinking about having sex with you since I got your email.
00:20:55Let's see.
00:20:56I got hard reading your email.
00:20:59I got hard anticipating your next email.
00:21:02Well, I rest my case.
00:21:04I had to beat off last night, hoping to prevent this from happening.
00:21:08Okay.
00:21:12Any regrets?
00:21:15No.
00:21:19You?
00:21:22Not yet.
00:21:25Wait.
00:21:27Why would you try to prevent this from happening?
00:21:30This is fun.
00:21:32Have you really done that on a plane?
00:21:34Don't judge me.
00:21:36I mean, come on.
00:21:37Whatever happened to delayed gratification, guy?
00:21:39Well, you apparently have never flown to Australia before.
00:21:44Actually, I have.
00:21:46Really?
00:21:47Hey, why'd you go to Australia?
00:21:51Vacation.
00:21:53I'm thirsty.
00:21:59You want some water?
00:22:02Yes, please.
00:22:10Did you fly to Melbourne?
00:22:13I love Melbourne.
00:22:14Did you see the Twelve Apostles?
00:22:17Um, yeah.
00:22:19You know, I was thinking maybe tomorrow we can go into town, maybe take a hike or something.
00:22:26I want to show you some of the sights.
00:22:28That sounds fun.
00:22:29That sounds fun.
00:22:34Oh, fancy.
00:22:35What, the lemons?
00:22:36The lemons.
00:22:38The sheets.
00:22:40This house.
00:22:41Palm Springs is fancy.
00:22:42Joshua trees for the regular people.
00:22:44Yeah, I don't think regular people have second homes, especially ones with pools.
00:22:49It's an investment property.
00:22:51Who are you?
00:22:53What?
00:22:54What'd you do with my little Marxist punk I picked up 15 years ago at a dive bar?
00:22:58Okay, there are two things wrong with that statement.
00:23:00First of all, I was never a Marxist.
00:23:02Oh, whatever.
00:23:03I was a democratic socialist.
00:23:05Okay, and more importantly, I picked you up.
00:23:08Oh, no.
00:23:10Absolutely.
00:23:11Okay, you are crazy, and I can prove it.
00:23:14You're gonna need to.
00:23:15Where's my bag?
00:23:17Oh, my God.
00:23:23Oh, God.
00:23:25It's freezing.
00:23:28Okay, it's a little bar, 7th Street and 2nd Avenue.
00:23:32Tile Bar.
00:23:33Yeah, that's not what it was called, but sure.
00:23:35We all called it Tile Bar.
00:23:36Well, it was my graduation night.
00:23:38I was sitting on one end of the bar, you were on the other.
00:23:47What's this?
00:23:49Proof.
00:23:56You kept it.
00:23:57The bartender brought it over to me.
00:24:01Then I went and sat down next to you, so I did the picking up.
00:24:08Well, I think the person who did the drawing is the one who did the picking up.
00:24:12And that was me.
00:24:13No, that was the one who did the drawing.
00:24:15The one who actually had the balls to get up off his ass, cross the bar, sit down next to you and speak, did the picking up.
00:24:22Well, I'm stunned.
00:24:27I can't believe you kept it.
00:24:31Well, it was a nice summer.
00:24:35Can I keep it?
00:24:37No way.
00:24:38Come on.
00:24:39You've had it all these years.
00:24:40It's my turn.
00:24:41Fine.
00:24:42Consider it on loan.
00:24:43You hungry?
00:24:44Starved.
00:24:45I'm going to make a salad.
00:24:46Well, I'm going to take a shower.
00:24:47How do you feel about onions?
00:24:48I'm not scared.
00:24:49Oh.
00:24:50Don't worry about you smoking.
00:24:51I don't smoke.
00:24:52Well, not tobacco anyway.
00:24:53Who's with these?
00:24:54Oh.
00:24:55Someone must have left those here.
00:24:56Oh.
00:24:57Oh.
00:24:58Oh.
00:24:59Oh.
00:25:00Oh.
00:25:01Oh.
00:25:02Oh.
00:25:03Oh.
00:25:04Oh.
00:25:05Oh.
00:25:06Oh.
00:25:07Oh.
00:25:08Oh.
00:25:09Oh.
00:25:10Oh.
00:25:11Oh.
00:25:12Oh.
00:25:13Oh.
00:25:14Oh.
00:25:15Someone must have left those here.
00:25:16Oh.
00:25:17I love smoking.
00:25:19Well, help yourself.
00:25:20Just do it outside.
00:25:22I quit.
00:25:24I don't remember you smoking either.
00:25:27It was after us.
00:25:39You know, most of my clients want something safe.
00:25:41They want something traditional.
00:25:42Two heads in the sky.
00:25:43Something like that.
00:25:44Wait.
00:25:45What's two heads in the sky?
00:25:46Oh.
00:25:47You know, you've seen it before.
00:25:49Big faces of the movie stars over a landscape.
00:25:53It's just so boring.
00:25:54Okay.
00:25:55But aren't those movies usually boring?
00:25:57Yes.
00:25:58But the poster doesn't have to be.
00:26:00Oh.
00:26:01I tell my clients, if we can distill the movie down to its essence and tell the story
00:26:06in a single image, then people actually have to engage with the poster.
00:26:10They have to interact with it.
00:26:11And hey, maybe it'll make them want to go see the movie more, you know?
00:26:15And what does the client say?
00:26:17They say, great.
00:26:18Now let's put two heads in the sky.
00:26:20Which I do because I'm a tool.
00:26:22I know I shouldn't care about this.
00:26:24It's just a stupid poster.
00:26:25But, you know, still, it's...
00:26:27No.
00:26:28That's great.
00:26:29That is the guy that I remember.
00:26:31What, crazy?
00:26:32No.
00:26:33Passionate.
00:26:34Do you remember our first actual date?
00:26:38You took me to see this awful movie downtown.
00:26:42Awful?
00:26:43Yeah.
00:26:44I was at some artsy theater on Houston about this young boy who falls in love with an old lady.
00:26:50I...
00:26:51You don't mean Harold and Maude.
00:26:52Yes.
00:26:53Oh my God.
00:26:54That film.
00:26:55I just remember thinking to myself, why is this guy taking me to see this?
00:26:59Okay.
00:27:00Stop talking, please.
00:27:01No, I mean, it was just, it was so sad and weird and pretentious.
00:27:05I am holding a knife here.
00:27:07And then the Cat Stevens music?
00:27:09Seriously?
00:27:10Stop.
00:27:11Harold and Maude is my favorite movie of all time.
00:27:16Are you kidding?
00:27:18You better be kidding.
00:27:20Are you kidding?
00:27:21Yeah, no, I'm kidding.
00:27:24I mean, you don't really feel that way about that movie, do you?
00:27:27No.
00:27:28But I did not understand that movie for the life of me.
00:27:31Well, that night you told me you loved it.
00:27:33I lied.
00:27:34Why?
00:27:35Because I wanted to impress you.
00:27:37Which is why I went back the next week and I saw it again.
00:27:41You did not.
00:27:42Yeah, I did.
00:27:43I wanted to figure out why you liked it so much.
00:27:46Thought it was gonna help me understand you better.
00:27:53Okay, you can stay.
00:27:59You know that interesting thing about Harold and Maude?
00:28:02It's always different.
00:28:04You know, when I was in my 20s, I really identified with Harold.
00:28:08All this angst and depression and self-involvement.
00:28:13And now as I've gotten older,
00:28:16I kind of feel a little bit more like Maude.
00:28:20Isn't that crazy how a movie changes?
00:28:25Actually, the movie stays the same.
00:28:29True.
00:28:31I guess we're the ones who change.
00:28:33We don't actually change that much, do we?
00:28:37Well, I mean, you have.
00:28:40You definitely have.
00:28:45So how have I changed?
00:28:51I guess I always imagined you...
00:28:54Your paint-spattered boots with your palette and your brushes standing behind an easel.
00:29:00I just never imagined you, uh...
00:29:05What?
00:29:07I always thought that you were gonna be an artist.
00:29:12Uh, I am an artist.
00:29:14You're a graphic designer.
00:29:16A graphic designer is an artist, just one who can pay the bills.
00:29:20Okay, no, no, that's not what I mean.
00:29:22I like my work.
00:29:23That's good.
00:29:24Or I did until about a minute ago.
00:29:26Okay, you were the one who was just complaining about the two heads in the sky.
00:29:29That's all I'm saying.
00:29:30Yeah, well, it beats living in a studio apartment with a bathtub in the kitchen.
00:29:34But I like that apartment.
00:29:36Yeah, well, you didn't have to live in it.
00:29:37Okay, I didn't mean to...
00:29:42The most important thing is that you're happy.
00:29:53So?
00:29:56Why New Orleans?
00:29:58Did you go there for work, or...?
00:29:59Oh, no, I'm not really working right now.
00:30:03Wow, must be nice.
00:30:05It's actually amazing.
00:30:08How'd you manage that?
00:30:10I have money.
00:30:14Must be a lot.
00:30:16It's enough.
00:30:17I always imagined you in a suit and tie, working in some high-rise somewhere.
00:30:31Oh, yeah, no, I did that.
00:30:33Until all I could think about was jumping.
00:30:36Okay, well, what I want to know is why you were so hard to find...
00:30:43What does that mean?
00:30:45On the Internet.
00:30:46See, I don't know which is more strange.
00:30:48The fact that I'm not on the Internet, or the fact that everybody is so freaked out that I'm not.
00:30:53Oh, no, I'm not freaked out.
00:30:55I'm just...
00:30:57Curious how it's possible.
00:30:59Well...
00:31:01I blame you.
00:31:02Me?
00:31:03Yeah, you were always going off on these little Marxist rants.
00:31:06Democratic Socialist.
00:31:07Whatever the you were.
00:31:09Yeah, it was this freakish paranoia, marching in the streets about the government spying on people.
00:31:14That is not why we were marching.
00:31:16This vast right-wing conspiracy?
00:31:18That is true.
00:31:19It exists.
00:31:20Well, you are the reason for my faint cyber footprint.
00:31:24It's not faint.
00:31:27It's invisible.
00:31:28I mean, you are nowhere.
00:31:29No photos.
00:31:31No job history.
00:31:32I mean, you're not even on LinkedIn, which no one wants to be on anyway, but somehow everyone ends up there.
00:31:38Aren't you impressed?
00:31:39So you looked for me, too?
00:31:40I probably Googled your name and Campbell, Ohio about a thousand times.
00:31:44What, Campbell?
00:31:45That's where you're from, right?
00:31:46Yeah.
00:31:47I just can't believe that you remember that.
00:31:48I looked in New York and every other major city.
00:31:49I thought maybe if I contacted your family, they'd tell me where you were.
00:31:50Yeah.
00:31:51I don't know.
00:31:52I just can't believe that you remember that.
00:31:53I looked in New York and every other major city.
00:31:55I thought maybe if I contacted your family, they'd tell me where you were.
00:31:56Well, that's sweet, and also useless, seeing as how my family would never have given any personal
00:31:59information unless you asked in Greek.
00:32:17Well, that's sweet. Also useless, seeing as how my family would never have given any personal information unless you asked in Greek.
00:32:26Well, it's not sweet. You disappeared.
00:32:32I did not disappear.
00:32:35From my perspective, you did. No call, no note, nothing.
00:32:44Yeah.
00:32:45Do you have any idea how long I searched for you, Alex?
00:32:50I called the police. I called hospitals.
00:32:54Whoa, whoa, whoa. What?
00:32:56I called the morgue, Alex.
00:33:02Well, I had no idea.
00:33:06Fifteen years.
00:33:10That's a long time.
00:33:13Why does it feel like it just happened yesterday?
00:33:20I gotta piss.
00:33:28Fuck.
00:33:31Fuck.
00:33:35I was hungry, Alex.
00:33:36I'm hungry, Alex, and I come.
00:33:37I'm hungry.
00:33:40I want to get some...
00:33:41Well, I can't go.
00:33:42I'm hungry.
00:33:43I can't go.
00:33:44Wait what?
00:33:45I can't go.
00:33:46I can't go.
00:33:47I can't go.
00:33:48When I lay my brother apart from living in the house, I'm hungry.
00:33:50Oh, my God.
00:34:20It's good.
00:34:41I got a card when I moved to L.A.
00:34:46I told the doctor I had panic attacks.
00:34:50The minute I said 9-11, he was writing a prescription.
00:34:56Nice.
00:34:57It wasn't an excuse.
00:35:01A couple of weeks after the attacks, I was at work having lunch in the break room and reading
00:35:07this magazine about all the people that were in the planes that went into the towers.
00:35:11And there were these two guys who were coming back from Russia or something with a baby
00:35:17that they had just adopted.
00:35:19And I walked into my office and I shut the door and I stood against the wall and I just
00:35:25started sobbing.
00:35:28I couldn't move.
00:35:30I knew that I had to call somebody to ask for help, but I literally couldn't walk across
00:35:38the room to pick up the phone on my desk.
00:35:41I was paralyzed.
00:35:42What did you do?
00:35:50I eventually figured out how to walk.
00:35:54I picked up the phone on my desk and I called my best friend.
00:35:58And I remember thinking, Alex could have been in those towers.
00:36:06I read all the lists and I didn't see your name, so I just assumed that you were okay.
00:36:13Really sorry.
00:36:14Hey, I got prescription weed out of it.
00:36:18No, I mean about disappearing.
00:36:20Yeah, why did you?
00:36:23Well, I hated New York.
00:36:26I didn't know that.
00:36:27That's funny because I talked about it all the time.
00:36:33I don't remember that.
00:36:35That's because you loved it.
00:36:38I did.
00:36:42What is that?
00:36:51Coyotes.
00:36:55They're signaling that the pack is all together again and everyone's safe.
00:37:01So mournful.
00:37:03Do you know that coyotes only mate once a year?
00:37:07I don't know why do they sound so sad.
00:37:10You ever see one up close?
00:37:12Coyotes, yeah.
00:37:14They're all over L.A.
00:37:17The drought forced them out of the hills.
00:37:18Now they just walk around like they own the town.
00:37:21Looking for water.
00:37:24Water's important.
00:37:26Mm-hmm.
00:37:31You like water?
00:37:35Oh shit, I had no idea.
00:37:47I swear, I am so sorry.
00:37:50Just take care of it.
00:37:52Get me out of here.
00:37:53It's cold.
00:37:54Oh, asshole.
00:38:00Now we are even.
00:38:02Oh my god.
00:38:03It is so cold in here.
00:38:05Oh, I hate you so much.
00:38:07Mm-hmm.
00:38:21Mm-hmm.
00:38:23Salty.
00:38:27It's a salt water pool.
00:38:31Wait, why salt water?
00:38:33You don't need chlorine if you use salt water.
00:38:35God, you're such a hippie.
00:38:40Next time, please spring for a heated pool.
00:38:44We can't afford a heated pool.
00:38:47All right.
00:38:48I what?
00:38:50You know how much it costs to heat a pool?
00:38:52No, no, no, no, wait, wait.
00:38:54Wait, who's we?
00:38:57What?
00:38:59You just, you just said, we can't afford it.
00:39:04Who's we?
00:39:05No, I didn't.
00:39:06Yeah, you did.
00:39:07Who's we?
00:39:16Dean.
00:39:21Who the is we?
00:39:23We is me.
00:39:27And Brian.
00:39:32All right.
00:39:36Who's Brian?
00:39:38My husband.
00:39:40So you're married?
00:39:42Yes.
00:39:43Does he know that you're here?
00:39:45Yes.
00:39:46Does he know that you're here?
00:39:48Yes.
00:39:49Does he know that I'm here?
00:39:51No.
00:39:53OK.
00:39:54So you guys have some sort of understanding?
00:39:57Not exactly.
00:39:59So you're cheating?
00:40:01No.
00:40:02No, I mean, Brian and I, we're not together.
00:40:06You guys are separated?
00:40:08Yeah.
00:40:09I mean, he's in Australia.
00:40:11I'm here.
00:40:12Yeah.
00:40:13No, I don't mean geographically.
00:40:16It's complicated.
00:40:18OK.
00:40:19I'm about to make things a lot less complicated.
00:40:22Alex.
00:40:23Alex, I can explain.
00:40:25Give me your best shot.
00:40:26I was going to tell you.
00:40:28When?
00:40:29As soon as we started emailing.
00:40:31But I can explain.
00:40:33Give me your best shot.
00:40:34I was going to tell you.
00:40:36When?
00:40:37As soon as we started emailing.
00:40:38But...
00:40:39But what?
00:40:40I wanted to, but you didn't ask.
00:40:41That's your excuse?
00:40:42I didn't ask if you were married?
00:40:43Well, you didn't.
00:40:44You know, and I didn't ask you either.
00:40:45I mean, for all I know, you could be married too.
00:40:48Well, I'm not.
00:40:49OK.
00:40:50Well, now I know.
00:40:51Look, can we just stop and talk about this?
00:40:52Talk about what?
00:40:53This.
00:40:54Us.
00:40:55Yeah, there is no us.
00:40:56There's me, and there's you.
00:40:57And then there's you and, um...
00:40:58What's his name?
00:40:59Brian.
00:41:00Brian.
00:41:01I don't have to ask you.
00:41:02So I don't have to ask for a question.
00:41:03Are you going to ask?
00:41:04I don't have to ask for a question.
00:41:05I don't have to ask.
00:41:06I don't have to ask.
00:41:07Well, I don't ask.
00:41:08I don't ask.
00:41:09You didn't ask.
00:41:10I didn't ask if you were married.
00:41:11Well, you didn't.
00:41:12And I didn't ask you either.
00:41:14I mean, for all I know, you could be married too.
00:41:17Well, I'm not.
00:41:19Okay.
00:41:20Well, now I know.
00:41:21Brian.
00:41:22Alex.
00:41:23Come on.
00:41:24Alex!
00:41:25Hey!
00:41:26Alex!
00:41:27Come on!
00:41:28Seriously?
00:41:29Alex!
00:41:30Don't do this!
00:41:51I'm your host, Jeff.
00:41:55To be continued...
00:41:59We'll see you next time.
00:42:01Bye!
00:42:02Hi, hi, hi, hi!
00:42:04I'm looking down!
00:42:06Broadways wayward it's up!
00:42:07It's great!
00:42:08It's amazing!
00:42:09I'm going down with a tape.
00:42:11Who's going to clean these up?!
00:42:13Would you like a fish?
00:42:43Is that supposed to be me?
00:43:03Everyone's a critic, huh?
00:43:05No, I think you made some improvements, actually.
00:43:10I don't think that's possible.
00:43:11Hey, I really like your gown.
00:43:17Oh, this whole thing?
00:43:19I only wear it when I don't care how I look.
00:43:22It's a wonderful life.
00:43:24You know it.
00:43:26Yeah, everyone knows it.
00:43:30You guys in a choir or something?
00:43:32No, I graduated this afternoon.
00:43:35What's your major?
00:43:37I got my MBA.
00:43:39Business?
00:43:40What kind?
00:43:43Risky?
00:43:44Monkey.
00:43:50Alex.
00:43:52Dean.
00:43:53Do you want to get out of here?
00:44:08Yeah.
00:44:09Where do you live?
00:44:10Around the corner.
00:44:11Here.
00:44:18Move a bolt.
00:44:21The fuck's right after you?
00:44:23Down my way.
00:44:24He's coming.
00:44:24I'm coming.
00:44:25He's coming.
00:44:25Are you expecting me?
00:44:26Get it.
00:44:26Get it.
00:44:27Get it.
00:44:28Get it.
00:44:29Get it.
00:44:29Get it.
00:44:30Get it.
00:44:30Get it.
00:44:31Get it.
00:44:31Find out of your heart.
00:44:32Get it.
00:44:33Get it.
00:44:34Get it.
00:44:35Get it.
00:44:35Get it.
00:44:36Get it.
00:44:36Get it.
00:44:37Get it.
00:44:38Get it.
00:44:38Get it.
00:44:39Get it.
00:44:40Let's go.
00:45:40You came back.
00:45:58It's my favorite shirt.
00:46:03Why didn't you come in?
00:46:06I was enjoying the stars.
00:46:07I'm glad you came back.
00:46:15I lied.
00:46:16What?
00:46:18About why I left New York.
00:46:21I met someone.
00:46:23I don't understand.
00:46:24At the end of the summer, I lied I met someone else.
00:46:28While we were together?
00:46:31We're an exclusive.
00:46:32I was.
00:46:34You even met him once.
00:46:35What?
00:46:36When?
00:46:37In Central Park.
00:46:39I was playing in a softball game.
00:46:41You showed up.
00:46:43You wanted to surprise me.
00:46:46You were there.
00:46:48He was there.
00:46:50You even shook hands with him.
00:46:54You thought he was one of my friends.
00:46:56He thought the same thing.
00:47:03So, I left New York and I moved to Miami.
00:47:07To be with him?
00:47:09Yeah.
00:47:13Why are you telling me this?
00:47:15I'm just trying to be honest.
00:47:20You asked why I disappeared.
00:47:23That's why.
00:47:26You still want me to stay?
00:47:31Yes.
00:47:35Good.
00:47:37You owe me your phone.
00:47:38Hey.
00:47:44They love the revisions.
00:47:46Of course they did.
00:47:47They're idiots.
00:47:48And also, they're changing the title of the film.
00:47:51Why?
00:47:52I don't know.
00:47:53I guess now they think nobody will see a movie called Portmanteau.
00:47:57Well, yeah.
00:47:57That's what we said six months ago.
00:47:59See how smart we are?
00:48:01Wait.
00:48:01How am I even talking to you?
00:48:02You never have service there.
00:48:03I'm in town.
00:48:04What's the new title?
00:48:05Uh, a bag by the lake.
00:48:11Great.
00:48:13That's a joke.
00:48:14I'm joking.
00:48:14What's wrong?
00:48:16Uh, nothing.
00:48:16I gotta go.
00:48:18No, you sound weird.
00:48:19I'm fine.
00:48:20Do you want me to come out there?
00:48:22No.
00:48:22I can be there in two hours.
00:48:24No, definitely not.
00:48:25Okay.
00:48:26I got a date with a guy that does stand-up.
00:48:30Yeah?
00:48:30Did he do anything else?
00:48:32He better, right?
00:48:33Or someone's gonna get hurt.
00:48:35Okay.
00:48:35Well, bye.
00:48:38Find something?
00:48:39Yeah.
00:48:40Four bars.
00:48:42Yeah, well, we're in town.
00:48:50What should I call?
00:48:57Pick up.
00:48:59I'm driving.
00:49:00Well, then be careful.
00:49:02Ugh.
00:49:03Hello.
00:49:05Hello.
00:49:06Hey.
00:49:06Hey.
00:49:07Look, I'm driving.
00:49:08Can I call you back later?
00:49:09Oh, yeah.
00:49:09No, this is just gonna take a minute.
00:49:11I know you're super busy being married and everything.
00:49:13Just wanted to give you a little piece of friendly advice, just in case the opportunity ever arises again.
00:49:18Um, next time you decide to cheat on your husband, just make sure you take your ring off pretty early on, because if the guy's any good in bed, he's gonna notice the imprint on your finger.
00:49:25You knew.
00:49:27I didn't know.
00:49:27I suspect it.
00:49:30Mr.
00:49:39You knew?
00:49:43I suspected.
00:49:47Then what was that scene about last night?
00:49:51I hoped it wasn't true. Why didn't you say something?
00:49:55I guess I didn't really want to know.
00:49:59You do that a lot? Take your ring off?
00:50:03No, never. It was the first time, actually.
00:50:07Well, forgive me if I find that hard to believe.
00:50:11I'm sorry I didn't tell you about Brian.
00:50:15I should have. Yep.
00:50:19I was just afraid that if you knew I was married,
00:50:23you wouldn't come. You would have been right.
00:50:27Look, when I got your email,
00:50:31I thought, how dare he contact me after all these years.
00:50:35But I had to see you.
00:50:37I don't know why, but...
00:50:41I needed to see you, too.
00:50:51Come on.
00:50:53It's like something out of Dr. Seuss.
00:51:01Yeah.
00:51:03Why do they call them Joshua trees?
00:51:05The Mormons.
00:51:07When they headed west, they saw these,
00:51:09and it reminded them of the prophet Joshua
00:51:11raising his hands up to God.
00:51:13Yeah, exactly.
00:51:17That's a cool story.
00:51:19You know the Mormons, they're full of them.
00:51:23So those cigarettes were Brian's?
00:51:27Yep.
00:51:29You should tell him to stop smoking.
00:51:33Well, he's not addicted, so I let it go.
00:51:35You don't mind?
00:51:37No, I hate it, but it's his body.
00:51:39Yeah, but he's your husband.
00:51:45Was it hard quitting?
00:51:47No.
00:51:49I mean, I watched my dad dying of lung cancer, so...
00:51:53I'm sorry.
00:51:55It's okay.
00:51:57I guess it's also easier to run six miles
00:51:59and smoke a pack a day in your 20s than it is now.
00:52:01Yeah, everything's easier in your 20s.
00:52:03Well, not for me.
00:52:07You know, I woke up every morning in my 20s,
00:52:09doubled over in abdominal pain.
00:52:11The doctor said it was stress.
00:52:15What the hell were you so stressed about?
00:52:17Everything.
00:52:19I didn't know that.
00:52:21Nobody did.
00:52:23And the most important thing that I learned in business school?
00:52:27Never show weakness.
00:52:29Jesus Christ.
00:52:31Yeah.
00:52:33The one thing that I...
00:52:37needed to do...
00:52:39only thing that probably would have helped...
00:52:43is talking to someone.
00:52:48You know, if you want your husband to quit smoking,
00:52:51you need to tell him.
00:52:59He's there for work.
00:53:01What does Brian do?
00:53:03He's a director.
00:53:05Of movies?
00:53:07Commercials mostly, but...
00:53:09yeah, films too.
00:53:11Oh, so you moved to L.A. for him?
00:53:13No, most of my clients are in L.A.
00:53:15We moved there for my work.
00:53:17Hmm.
00:53:19I don't know if I could do that.
00:53:21If I ever married someone...
00:53:23I'd have to be with him.
00:53:25Well, it's not that simple.
00:53:27You know, when you work in film, you gotta go where the work is,
00:53:29and sometimes that means weeks or even months apart.
00:53:31You okay with that?
00:53:33Well, I knew what I was getting into when I signed up.
00:53:40Well, it's not the military.
00:53:42You know, I think it's good to be alone sometimes.
00:53:43I think more people should try it.
00:53:45And sometimes that means weeks or even months apart.
00:53:49You okay with that?
00:53:51Well, I knew what I was getting into when I signed up.
00:53:55Well, it's not the military.
00:53:59You know, I think it's good to be alone sometimes.
00:54:01I think more people should try it.
00:54:04I like missing someone.
00:54:05And, you know, it feels good to be on your own and, you know, spend some time with yourself
00:54:16and be productive and then come back together again, you know?
00:54:20Wait, who are you trying to convince?
00:54:24No, I'm just saying it's not all bad.
00:54:29Should put that on a greeting card.
00:54:31Do you see the house from here?
00:54:57I can't see anything these days.
00:55:01Oh, this is amazing!
00:55:13This looks like a movie set.
00:55:15It was a movie set.
00:55:18Which movies?
00:55:20Cisco Kids, the only one I know of.
00:55:24Bowling Alley used to be open.
00:55:28You and Brian never think about having kids.
00:55:30No.
00:55:32You?
00:55:34Definitely.
00:55:34Yeah?
00:55:36I think, like, the real sign of adulthood is having to care about something other than yourself.
00:55:42You know, putting somebody else's needs above your own.
00:55:46Well, by that definition, people who never have kids don't grow up at all.
00:55:50Well, that's maybe why we have such a primal desire to procreate.
00:55:58You know, we're just afraid of taking on that kind of responsibility.
00:56:02Well, you have a kid.
00:56:05There's no choice.
00:56:06You have to step up.
00:56:08It's hard to have a kid if you're not settled.
00:56:11Well, you seem pretty settled.
00:56:13It's talking about you.
00:56:15Tell me about the wedding.
00:56:33It was small.
00:56:36Just a few friends at City Hall and a justice of the peace.
00:56:39Ten minutes and $75 later, it was done.
00:56:42Oh.
00:56:43How romantic.
00:56:44I never understood the appeal of a big wedding.
00:56:47I do.
00:56:48I'm a huge wedding.
00:56:50Big flower arrangements on my family and friends.
00:56:53Big band playing.
00:56:54If I ever love somebody that much, I want to shout it to the world.
00:57:00You ever come close?
00:57:01No.
00:57:04Well, maybe once.
00:57:10You don't mean me.
00:57:12You want the truth?
00:57:14I've been with a lot of guys in my life.
00:57:18I've even lived with a few of them.
00:57:21But none of them compare to you.
00:57:24It's gotten so bad that no matter where I go in the world, I find myself looking for you.
00:57:30The problem is, you're looking for the guy I used to be.
00:57:34The guy you remember.
00:57:36You're not that different.
00:57:37Yesterday, you told me I changed.
00:57:39Yeah, you have changed.
00:57:41I mean, we both have, but not that much.
00:57:44Oh, come on.
00:57:45When we first met, you just got in your MBA and I was an artist.
00:57:49So you admit it.
00:57:53Okay.
00:57:54Um, yes.
00:57:58I admit it.
00:57:59I'm not an artist anymore.
00:58:00Okay?
00:58:01Yeah.
00:58:02What ever happened to that guy?
00:58:06He, um...
00:58:08He got scared.
00:58:11Of what?
00:58:12Not being good enough.
00:58:19So he left New York.
00:58:21Mm-hmm.
00:58:23And got comfortable.
00:58:25And stopped listening to NPR.
00:58:29Maybe that's why I'm here.
00:58:31What?
00:58:31To get me to start listening to NPR again?
00:58:33No, make you uncomfortable.
00:58:34Hi.
00:58:35Another out?
00:58:36What?
00:58:37Um, you know, just a check, I think.
00:58:41Okay, cool.
00:58:41I'll be right back.
00:58:44Can I just say, I think you two are adorable.
00:58:47Me and Keith, the bartender, have been taking bets on how long we think you two have been together.
00:58:51Oh.
00:58:52Um, hmm.
00:58:56Fifteen years.
00:58:57Wow, it shows.
00:58:58I think you two have talked more today than me and my boyfriend have all year.
00:59:02I'll be right back with that check.
00:59:07Fifteen!
00:59:08What is this place?
00:59:24Yeah, it's great, isn't it?
00:59:26Yeah, totally.
00:59:27Look at this roof line.
00:59:29Yeah, it was abandoned years ago.
00:59:33Some famous movie star or musician used to live here.
00:59:36I always think about what I would do with it if it were mine.
00:59:42Tell me.
00:59:43First it would be the plumbing.
00:59:47I think you'd make a great artist studio, don't you?
00:59:51Yeah.
00:59:52Do it.
00:59:54I wish.
00:59:56How much would it cost?
00:59:59Are you going to buy it?
01:00:01Well, maybe.
01:00:02What does Brian think?
01:00:07Oh, he wouldn't like it.
01:00:09Where I see a blank canvas, he sees a money pit.
01:00:12Oh, has he seen it?
01:00:14I'm not sure.
01:00:16You haven't showed him?
01:00:20No.
01:00:23Well, you have a lot of secrets.
01:00:25All of my heroes are so astray.
01:00:48They stare at the ground, they irradiate.
01:01:01Me, I'm my own blend in the kitchen for the sun to pay off.
01:01:06Lonely as a rain on a cold coffee cup.
01:01:18I'm some sick house.
01:01:23Digging for bones.
01:01:26If it weren't for second chances, we'd all be alone.
01:01:30My hands, it was strangers lost in the night.
01:01:45Those are my ears.
01:01:48I want some of them on.
01:01:52Wait.
01:01:54Which one's the lazy one?
01:01:56This one.
01:01:56Am I right, man?
01:01:58Looks normal.
01:01:59It only drifts if I'm tired or if I've been staring at something for a long time.
01:02:06Wait, what do you see now?
01:02:08A big blur.
01:02:10How about now?
01:02:12A bigger blur.
01:02:19Wait.
01:02:21If you didn't know it was me, could you tell?
01:02:25Probably?
01:02:26Is it really not bad?
01:02:30My right eye is a little better when I wear glasses, but yeah, I'm basically blind in that
01:02:34eye.
01:02:34God, that sucks.
01:02:37No, what really sucks is I could have probably corrected it if I had just done the exercises
01:02:41when I was a kid.
01:02:42I had to sit in a dark room with my good eye covered, and with my lazy eye, I had to look
01:02:54through a straw at a blinking yellow light.
01:02:58That sounds super fun.
01:03:00I had to wear an eye patch.
01:03:01Wait, eye patches are kind of cool.
01:03:03Not when you're six.
01:03:06Wait, so it didn't work?
01:03:08No, I didn't work.
01:03:11I didn't want to do it.
01:03:15I was so miserable sitting in the dark room wearing the eye patch.
01:03:21Your parents didn't make you?
01:03:22No, they wanted a happy boy.
01:03:30It's funny though.
01:03:32Sometimes I think if I had just done what I was supposed to, I'd see the whole world differently.
01:03:40I have an idea.
01:03:43We should get you an eye patch.
01:03:44If I could change my name to Rocco.
01:03:52Rocco.
01:03:53Rocco.
01:03:54What do you think?
01:03:56I'll consider it.
01:04:08I can feel it.
01:04:10What?
01:04:11My wedding band.
01:04:13Well, that's telling.
01:04:14I'm not being metaphorical.
01:04:16I mean, I can feel it on my finger like it's there.
01:04:23I used to wear this visor when I played tennis.
01:04:27And one time I took it off and I could still feel it there on my forehead.
01:04:37And it started to just drive me crazy.
01:04:41So I had to go get my hair cut.
01:04:43And I told the guy, I said, just cut this goddamn visor off my head, please.
01:04:48So he cuts my hair a little bit.
01:04:50And he says, well, is it still there?
01:04:52I said, yeah, it's still there.
01:04:56So he cuts a little bit more.
01:04:58A little bit more.
01:04:58And he eventually just shaves my head.
01:05:04Did that work?
01:05:05No.
01:05:08I finally learned to just live with it.
01:05:12Until one day I realized it was gone.
01:05:14Well, I can't cut off my finger.
01:05:21Do you want me to do it for you?
01:05:26You know, I'd be lying if I said I hadn't thought about it.
01:05:35Okay.
01:05:35So what's stopping you?
01:05:40It would hurt.
01:05:42Yep.
01:05:45And then it would feel better.
01:05:50Maybe.
01:05:53I just want to feel like this all the time.
01:05:56You know, we can.
01:06:02I mean, if we want to.
01:06:05Wanting isn't the issue.
01:06:09Come on, this isn't sustainable.
01:06:11Yeah, of course it is.
01:06:16What's the longest relationship you've ever had?
01:06:21Um, well, that's not the point.
01:06:24Well, it is the point if we're talking about commitment.
01:06:26Well, no.
01:06:27I'm not talking about commitment.
01:06:29I'm talking about feeling young and sexy and alive.
01:06:37I'm talking about passion.
01:06:39I mean, do you feel that with Brian?
01:06:43Well, yeah.
01:06:45Yes, I do.
01:06:47I do, I did.
01:06:49I mean, I, yeah.
01:06:50Sometimes.
01:06:51Jesus Christ, Ian.
01:06:52No, come on.
01:06:53Of course I do.
01:06:56Well, do you love him?
01:07:02Brian is the kindest person I've ever met.
01:07:07He's so smart.
01:07:08He's so funny.
01:07:11He's, he's incredibly generous and patient.
01:07:16Yeah, do you love him?
01:07:17Yes, I do.
01:07:24You said the mark of adulthood is someone who cares about something more than themselves.
01:07:30Well, that's Brian.
01:07:32You know, I could probably tell him about you and this whole weekend, and he would be the
01:07:37one trying to make me feel better, trying to make me feel less guilty.
01:07:43I mean, sure, he'd be, he'd be mad.
01:07:46But then when he calmed down, he'd just want to try to understand why I felt the need to
01:07:53do this in the first place.
01:08:00So why am I here?
01:08:03What?
01:08:05I mean, why am I here, Dean?
01:08:07I thought you quit.
01:08:32Brian won't mind Willie, and there's a dead mouse floating in your pool.
01:08:39Oh, shit.
01:08:41They keep falling in.
01:08:44Well, maybe they're jumping.
01:08:46Might still commit suicide.
01:08:48Uh, why did you just do that?
01:08:59What was I supposed to do?
01:09:01I don't know, bury it?
01:09:04It's a mouse.
01:09:16What just happened?
01:09:17What do you want, Dean?
01:09:20What do I want?
01:09:21Yeah, it's a simple question.
01:09:23What do you want?
01:09:23That is not a simple question.
01:09:25Bullshit.
01:09:27Okay, if it's so simple, then why don't you answer it?
01:09:29What do you want?
01:09:31You.
01:09:36Me.
01:09:43What, after only two days?
01:09:44It hasn't been two days, it's been 15 years.
01:09:47We've been searching for each other for 15 years.
01:09:51And I know you.
01:09:54But you don't know me.
01:09:58You don't know what I need.
01:09:59Okay, then tell me.
01:10:05What do you want me to say, then?
01:10:07I'm going to leave my marriage?
01:10:08Then what?
01:10:11You and I run away together?
01:10:14Yeah.
01:10:16Or something.
01:10:18We give this a shot.
01:10:19That's what I want.
01:10:20So tell me, what do you want?
01:10:36So many things.
01:10:38I want my work to mean something.
01:10:56I want to run a marathon someday.
01:11:03I want to set aside more time for painting.
01:11:05I want you.
01:11:20I want my marriage to work.
01:11:27Sometimes I just want to be by myself.
01:11:30More than anything.
01:11:38Right now, I just want to be back in bed.
01:11:45Can we do that?
01:11:52Please.
01:11:52Please.
01:12:00I'm just so tired.
01:12:05Yeah.
01:12:09Let's go to sleep.
01:12:12No, no.
01:12:13I mean, I'm just, I'm so tired of running.
01:12:20Then stop.
01:12:21I feel like if I stop, I'm going to die.
01:12:42Yeah, let's go to sleep.
01:12:44Yeah, okay.
01:12:51Yeah, okay.
01:13:00Okay.
01:13:02Okay.
01:13:07I'll get the lights.
01:13:08Okay.
01:13:08I'll get the lights.
01:13:14Okay.
01:13:35I'll get the lights.
01:13:37Okay.
01:13:38I'll get the lights.
01:13:39I'll get the lights.
01:13:40Oh, this one.
01:13:40I'll get the lights.
01:14:11Oh, stop it.
01:14:36You didn't earn that.
01:14:41Aw, why do you feel so smart?
01:14:47We use the same toothpaste.
01:14:51Oh yeah, well help yourself.
01:14:53Yeah, I did.
01:14:55Let me see.
01:15:05OK, I have to tell you something.
01:15:08OK.
01:15:11I'm not scared.
01:15:13Yeah, I can tell.
01:15:15What is it?
01:15:17Um, I don't remember your name.
01:15:22What?
01:15:23I'm so sorry.
01:15:26You just had my dick in your mouth.
01:15:27I know, I think I'm still drunk or something.
01:15:31I can't believe this.
01:15:34Oh, come on, asshole.
01:15:36All right, so wait, what is my name then?
01:15:39Alexander Kofina.
01:15:41Ew, Alexander?
01:15:43Yeah.
01:15:44Yeah.
01:15:46OK, first of all, I haven't introduced myself as Alexander to anyone, no matter how cute
01:15:52they are, and you're pretty cute.
01:15:57Secondly, I never told you my last name.
01:16:01Right.
01:16:03OK, I peeked at your driver's license when you were in the bathroom.
01:16:09My credit card still better be there, you jerk.
01:16:12That is not a flattering picture of me.
01:16:14You're awful.
01:16:15It's so mean.
01:16:16It's not.
01:16:17OK, but what is it?
01:16:18What is what?
01:16:19Your name.
01:16:20I'll give you a hint.
01:16:21I'll give you a hint.
01:16:22I'll give you a hint.
01:16:23It's not.
01:16:24It's so mean.
01:16:25It's not.
01:16:26OK, but what is it?
01:16:27What is what?
01:16:28Your name.
01:16:29I'll give you a hint.
01:16:31I'll give you a hint.
01:16:32It rhymes with mean.
01:16:35Queen.
01:16:36Exactly.
01:16:37Wait, wait, wait.
01:16:39No, let me think.
01:16:40Um?
01:16:41There's only one.
01:16:42Peen.
01:16:43Ha ha.
01:16:45Ha ha.
01:16:49Peen.
01:16:50Uh-huh.
01:16:52Dean!
01:16:53Oh, like James Dean.
01:16:54Mm-hmm.
01:16:55Oh.
01:16:56He was gay.
01:16:57Oh, come on.
01:16:58He was.
01:16:59Yeah, why do gay guys always do that about other guys?
01:17:01He was bi.
01:17:03Whatever.
01:17:04He admitted it.
01:17:05Who cares?
01:17:06He's dead.
01:17:07I'm bi.
01:17:08No, you're not.
01:17:09I am.
01:17:10Mm-hmm.
01:17:11Okay, how many women have you slept with?
01:17:12Why does that matter?
01:17:13I would like a number, please.
01:17:16Five.
01:17:18And that makes you bi?
01:17:20If I say it does.
01:17:23I think I always knew I was into guys.
01:17:26How would you know if you never slept with a woman?
01:17:29I just knew.
01:17:31Absolutely.
01:17:32Mm-hmm.
01:17:33I was certain, but I didn't need a woman to help me figure that out.
01:17:37Certainty is the death of creativity.
01:17:39What?
01:17:40If you're certain, that means you're closed off to all the other possibilities out there.
01:17:44Or maybe it is the realization that not all things are possible.
01:17:53Okay.
01:17:54What's the difference between a gay guy and a straight guy?
01:17:57I don't know.
01:18:00Six beers.
01:18:02Ugh.
01:18:04That's funny.
01:18:06Wait, are you a comedian?
01:18:08No.
01:18:09I'm an artist.
01:18:09Oh, yeah.
01:18:12Wait, what do you really do?
01:18:17When I was a kid, I used to tell my family that I wanted to be an actor, an author, or an artist.
01:18:24And my dad would say, that's great.
01:18:26But how are you going to make a living?
01:18:30I have such a good idea.
01:18:32Okay, how about we get married, and I support you with my high-paying Wall Street job?
01:18:42Can you imagine?
01:18:45Yeah, I can, actually.
01:18:47Okay.
01:18:47Okay.
01:18:54I like you.
01:18:58It's okay if I say that.
01:19:01Mm-hmm.
01:19:03I like you, too.
01:19:06Shit.
01:19:07What time is it?
01:19:09Who cares?
01:19:11Oh, it's eight o'clock.
01:19:14It's time for Morning Edition.
01:19:16What is that?
01:19:18NPR!
01:19:20What's NPR?
01:19:21National Public Radio.
01:19:22What is that?
01:19:24Oh, it's great.
01:19:26You're going to love it.
01:19:29Just listen.
01:19:30Listen.
01:19:54Alex?
01:20:00You're going to love it.
01:20:06Oh, it's great.
01:20:10I've got a good boy.
01:20:15Oh, it's very nice.
01:20:16I've got a good boy.
01:20:17No, it's not.
01:20:18I've got a good boy.
01:20:18I've got a good boy.
01:20:19No, it's weird.
01:20:19Oh, it's easy.
01:20:20I've got a good boy.
01:20:21I've got a good boy.
01:20:22Alex?
01:20:22I've got a good boy.
01:20:53Dean. Sorry to take off without saying goodbye. I guess some habits are hard to break.
01:21:15I hope you get that house someday. You deserve it. Alex.
01:21:23I love you.
01:21:53I love you.
01:22:23Brian. Hey, honey.
01:22:39No, I'm still in the desert. I can't believe I'm getting a signal right now.
01:22:48How are things going out there?
01:22:52Oh, typical. You should fire him.
01:22:55Okay, yeah, no, don't fire him. Brian? Brian, honey?
01:23:08Look, I need to say something. I think we should be together more. I just, I really want us to see each other more. Okay?
01:23:24Yeah, no, we can talk about it when you get home.
01:23:34I love you too.
01:23:35And we have to do something about these mice.
01:23:41What's up for this?