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00:00Got a melody deep in my soul, let it rise, let it roll
00:14Every note that I sing, got a story untold
00:17From the highs to the lows, through the fire and rain
00:20Turned my struggles to diamonds, now I shine through the pain
00:23Ain't no chains on my voice, ain't no fear in my sound
00:25Took the echoes of doubt, now they don't come around
00:28When the beat starts to drop, feel it deep in your chest
00:31Let the rhythm remind you you're more than your pack
00:34Ooh, I rise, I fly, let the music take me high
00:41Ain't no shadow in my sky, just the stars in my eyes
00:47I don't run, I don't hide, I just sing it out loud
00:53Turned my pain to gold, make my mama so proud
00:59If you feel what I feel, put your hands in the air
01:02Let the sound lift you up like you're floating on air
01:05Ain't no stopping this fire, let it burn, let it glow
01:08This my time, this my light, and I'm ready to go
01:10Yo, look at you, same broke kid with the dead ass stare
01:13Still stuck in the gutter like life left you there
01:16Still running in circles, still losing the fight
01:19Still drowning in bottles, still sleepless at night
01:22You're a joke, you're pathetic, just a shadow of me
01:25A washed up version that I don't wanna see
01:28I left you in the past when the failures reside
01:30But somehow you keep crawling back into my mind
01:33You're the weight on my chest, you the chains on my feet
01:36You're the voice in my head when I'm trying to find peace
01:39I built this empire, I worked for this throne
01:42You just trauma in a suit that won't leave me alone
01:45What the hell do you want? Why you still at my door?
01:48Why you looking at me like I still need you for more?
01:51You ain't shit without me, just a ghost in the dust
01:53So why the hell do I feel like I'm still one of us?
01:56I rise, I fly, let the music take me high
02:01Be no shadow in my sky, just the stars in my eyes
02:07I don't run, I don't hide, I just sing it out loud
02:13Turn my pain to gold, make my mama so proud
02:19If you feel what I feel, put your hands in the air
02:22Let the sound lift you up like you're floating on air
02:25Ain't no stopping this fire, let it burn, let it glow
02:28This my time, this my light and I'm ready to go
02:30I see you in the mirror, same smirk, same pain
02:33Same scars on your knuckles from the wars in your brain
02:36But I ain't that kid no more, I don't break, I don't bend
02:39I ain't drowning in anger, I don't fold, I don't bend
02:42I buried you deep, left you six feet below
02:45But I guess even hell didn't want you to go
02:48Now you back in my head, back scratching the walls
02:51Back laughing at me like I'm scared you'll take control
02:53But I ain't you, I ain't weak, I ain't stuck in the past
02:56I don't need a damn crush just to get through the crash
02:59I don't hate who I am, I don't sit here and cry
03:02I don't beg for the pain just to feel alive
03:05I work too damn hard just to let you creep in
03:08You a chapter I burned, you ain't breathing again
03:10So why the hell are you here, why you knocking my door
03:13Why you act like I owe you like I need you for more
03:16I rise, I fly, let the music take me high
03:21Be no shadow in my sky, just the stars in my eyes
03:27I don't run, I don't hide, I just sing it out loud
03:33Turn my pain to gold, make my mama so proud
03:39If you feel what I feel, put your hands in the air
03:42Let the sound lift you up like you're floating on air
03:45Ain't no stopping this fire, let it burn, let it glow
03:48This my time, this my light and I'm ready to go
03:50I don't miss the late nights, I don't miss feeling numb
03:53I don't miss being broke, stressing out till I'm done
03:56I don't miss the regret, I don't miss feeling lost
03:59I don't miss giving up every time that I fought
04:02I don't miss the excuses, I don't miss the rage
04:05I don't miss trying to fight through them hungover days
04:08I don't miss who you were, I don't miss who I was
04:10So why you act like I need to remember that dust
04:13I ain't falling back in, I ain't slipping that far
04:16I ain't letting you win, I ain't opening scars
04:19I ain't wearing your name, I ain't claiming your past
04:22I ain't letting you win, I ain't coming in last
04:25So go back where you came, stay the hell out my way
04:28You ain't nothing but history, they won't fade away
04:30I ain't scared of you now, I ain't holding that crotch
04:33I ain't letting you win, now burn back in the dust
04:36So I rise, I fly, let the music take me high
04:41Ain't no shadow in my sky, just the stars in my eyes
04:47I don't run, I don't hide, I just sing it out loud
04:53Turn my pain to gold, make my mama so proud
04:59If you feel what I feel, put your hands in the air
05:02Let the sound lift you up like you're floating on air
05:05Ain't no stopping this fire, let it burn, let it glow
05:08This my time, this my light, and I'm ready to go
05:11I woke up to the quiet, but it don't feel like peace
05:27Just the sound of my heartbreak and peace back then
05:32No doors slamming, no more voices raised
05:38Just a house full of memories that won't fade away
05:43You left like love was something you could just erase
05:48Like the years we built were easy to replay
05:53Now the walls still hold you, whispers in the dark
05:58And I'm left with nothing but the echoes of who we were
06:04You walked away like love was weightless
06:08Left me heavy with the pain
06:10Took the warmth right from my bones
06:13Left me calling up your name
06:16Still hear you in the wind when the night gets cold
06:21Still see a shadow in the space you called home
06:26You moved on like I was nothing but a song you outgrew
06:32But I'm still here, still singing, still breaking over you
06:37I woke up to the silence, ain't no war left to fight
06:40Ain't no echoes of your voice cutting deep in the night
06:43Ain't no door slamming, no more threats in the air
06:46Just a bed full of ghosts and a room full of despair
06:48You walked out like it was easy, like I meant nothing at all
06:51Like the years meant shit, like I ain't watched you fall
06:54Like I ain't held you together when you shattered apart
06:56Like I ain't bled for this love, now it's torn from my heart
06:59Yeah you left, but you ain't leaving alone
07:02Took the warmth, took the sun, left the cold in my bones
07:04Now I sit in this house with a glass full of rage
07:07Running back every fight, like a scene on replay
07:10You ain't called, you ain't right, you ain't said you were gone
07:13You just banished just to waste me like my name was wrong
07:15Like I was a mistake, you regret from your past
07:18Like my love was just gasoline burning too fast
07:21But I was the flame that kept you alive
07:23Now you left me in the dark with the smoke in my eyes
07:26You walked away like love was weightless, left me heavy with the paint
07:36Took the warmth right from my bones, left me calling option day
07:42Still hear you in the wind when the night gets cold
07:47Still see a shadow in the space you called home
07:52You moved on like I was nothing but a song you outgrew
07:58But I'm still here, still singing, still breaking over you
08:03Now I'm stuck with your echoes, got you sitting in my sheets
08:07Every time I close my eyes it's just you that I see
08:09Yeah I hate you, but I love you, that's the curse that I bear
08:12Swear to God, I could kill you, but I still wouldn't care
08:15I still check my phone, hoping you might call
08:17Steely space beside me when I sleep at all
08:20Still got your old sweater, hanging up on the chair
08:23Still see your lipstick stains in the mirror
08:25You ain't there, ain't fair
08:26How you just move on, like I don't exist
08:29Like I ain't hold you down, when your mind was a fist
08:31Like I ain't wipe your tears, like I ain't take that pain
08:34Like I ain't stand in the fire, while you scream my name
08:37Now I sit in the ashes, of the life we made
08:40Nothing left but the memories that won't decay
08:42You moved on, yeah you got what you need
08:44Left me here with my demons, now they talking to me
08:47You walked away like love was weightless
08:49Left me heavy with the pain
08:52Took the warmth right from my bones
08:55Left me calling option day
08:57Still hear you in the wind
09:00When the night gets cold
09:03Still see a shadow in the space
09:06You called home
09:08You moved on like I was nothing but a song
09:12You outgrew
09:14But I'm still here, still singin', still breakin' over you
09:19Tell me was it worth it, do you sleep at night?
09:22Do you feel any guilt, or does it all feel right?
09:25Did you find someone better, did he fix what I broke?
09:27Or did you lie to yourself, when you walked out that door?
09:30I still hear your voice, when the wind moves slow
09:33Still feel your hands, when the nights turn cold
09:36Still got your name, like a curse in my brain
09:38Still flip, when I hear someone say it the same
09:40I could hate you, yeah I should but I don't
09:43I should let go, should move on but I won't
09:45Cause you ain't just a memory, you a scar that won't fade
09:48You a ghost in my chest that I can't erase
09:50So I drink, yeah I smoke, yeah I run from the pain
09:53But no matter what I do, girl it all stays the same
09:56You left, yeah you did, and I guess that's fine
09:59But if love is a prison then I'm doin' my time
10:01Then I'm doin' my time
10:02Then I'm doin' my time
10:03Left me heavy with the pain
10:04Took the warmth right from my bones
10:07Left me callin' option A
10:10Still hear you in the wind
10:12When the night gets cold
10:15Still see a shadow in the space
10:18You called home
10:20You moved on like I was nothin' but a song
10:24You outgrew
10:26But I'm still here
10:27Still singin'
10:28Still breakin' over you
10:31You
10:34I've been runnin', I've been hidin'
10:53Tryin' to escape my mind
10:56Every step I take feels heavy
10:59But I still walk the line
11:02Shadows whisper in the silence
11:05Calling out my name
11:08Tryin' to find some kind of freedom
11:11But the rules don't change
11:13Heart so cold
11:15But the fire still burns inside
11:19Every scar tells a story
11:22Every tear's been cried
11:25Tell me
11:27Tell me
11:28Is there mercy for a soul like mine?
11:32Or am I just another diamond
11:35Lost in time?
11:37Ain't no sleep for the wicked
11:38No rest for the strong
11:40I've been fightin' all these demons
11:41Been at war too long
11:43Tell me where do I go
11:44When the light fades out
11:46When the love turns cold
11:47And the world's full of doubt
11:49Every high got a low
11:51Every wind got a price
11:52Tryna climb, tryna rise
11:53But it cuts like an iPhone
11:55I keep movin' but I'm chained to the night
11:58Ain't no sleep for the wicked
12:00Just a long hard
12:01I ain't slept in three days
12:02Mind racing like a train
12:04Tryna outrun all these demons
12:05But they laugh at my pain
12:07Got these voices in my head
12:08Soundin' louder at night
12:10They be whisperin' my failures
12:11While I stare at the lights
12:13Bills stack and time passin'
12:14But I'm stuck in the same
12:16Like the world keep movin'
12:18While I drown in the rain
12:19I ain't livin', I'm survivin'
12:21I just go through the motions
12:22Every smile that I fake
12:24Feelin' hollow and broken
12:25They say time heals wounds
12:27Yeah, tell me that lie
12:29Tell that to the man
12:30Who got nothin' left inside
12:32Tell that to the kid
12:33With his dreams in the dirt
12:35With a mind full of doubt
12:36And a heart full of hurt
12:38I've been up all night
12:39Thoughts eatin' my brain
12:41Tryna find a reason
12:42Why I carry this weight
12:44I keep runnin' from my past
12:45But the roads don't change
12:47Just another dead end
12:48With a different name
12:50Ain't no peace in this life
12:51Ain't no sleep for the lost
12:53Ain't no rest for the wicked
12:54Gotta carry the cross
12:56Ain't no sleep for the wicked
12:58No rest for the strong
13:00I've been fightin' all these demons
13:01Been at war too long
13:03Tell me where do I go
13:04When the light fades out
13:06When the love turns cold
13:07And the world's full of doubt
13:09Every high got a low
13:10Every wind got a price
13:12Tryna climb, tryna rise
13:13But it cuts like a knife
13:15Oh, I keep movin'
13:17But I'm chained to the night
13:18Ain't no sleep for the wicked
13:20Just a long hard fight
13:21Street lights flash while I sit in my car
13:24Music up loud just to cover these scars
13:27I've been fightin' with myself
13:28Yeah, my mind ain't right
13:30A million thoughts in my head
13:31Keep me up all night
13:33I tried prayin', but the Lord don't talk
13:36Guess he busy with the ones who ain't already lost
13:39I tried drownin' out the noise
13:40But the silence is worse
13:42Cause when the world goes quiet
13:44Man, my thoughts all burst
13:46I hear regrets
13:47I hear doubt
13:48I hear shame
13:49I hear fear
13:50I hear every single moment that led me right here
13:52People see the outside
13:54They don't know what's within
13:55They don't see the war that I've been battlin' in
13:58They don't see the nights
13:59When I just stare at the ceiling
14:01Running back every choice
14:03Like a film with no meaning
14:04Try to fix what's been broken
14:06But the pieces don't fit
14:07Tryna rewrite my life
14:09But the pen ran out of ink
14:10I ain't slept in three days
14:12I've been lost in the dark
14:13Chasin' dreams with no map
14:15Just a pain in my heart
14:16Ain't no sleep for the wicked
14:18No rest for the strong
14:20I've been fightin' all these demons
14:21Been in war too long
14:23Tell me where do I go
14:24When the light fades out
14:26When the love turns cold
14:28And the world's full of doubt
14:29Every high got a low
14:31Every wind got a price
14:32Tryna climb, tryna rise
14:34But it cuts like a knife
14:35Oh, I keep movin'
14:37But I'm chained to the night
14:38Ain't no sleep for the wicked
14:40Just a long hard fight
14:41Maybe I was never meant to make it this far
14:44Maybe fate wrote me out
14:45Before I even got scarred
14:47Maybe life is just a game
14:48And I ain't playin' it right
14:50Maybe that's why I be stuck wide awake every night
14:53I see faces in the mirror that I don't recognize
14:56A stranger in my own skin
14:58Tryna cover the lies
14:59I see chances I missed
15:01I see paths that I burned
15:02I see people that I lost that ain't never returned
15:05Maybe that's why I sit alone when the sun goes down
15:08Maybe that's why I only smile when nobody's around
15:11I've been driftin' through the days like a ghost in a shell
15:14Ain't no heaven in my view but I've been walkin' through hell
15:17They say life is what you make it
15:19Yeah, tell me that twice
15:21Tell that to the man who ain't slept in his life
15:24Tell that to the man with his mind full of fights
15:27Ain't no rest for the wicked, only long cold nights
15:30Ain't no sleep for the wicked, no rest for the strong
15:34I've been fightin' all these demons, been in war too long
15:37Tell me where do I go when the light fades out
15:40When the love turns cold and the world's full of doubt
15:43Every high got a low, every wind got a price
15:46Tryna climb, tryna rise, but it cuts like a knife
15:49Oh, I keep movin' but I'm chained to the night
15:52Ain't no sleep for the wicked, just a long hard fight
16:07Late nights, dark fights, drownin' in the pain
16:10Told me it was love, but it don't feel the same
16:13Chains wrapped tight, yeah, I let you pull
16:15Sippin' on the poison, thinkin' it was full
16:18Lies in your lips, venom in your touch
16:21But somehow, somehow, I still need it that much
16:24I should run, I should go, but the fire too sweet
16:26So I dance in the ashes, let it burn my feet
16:29Oh, you love me like a blade to the chest
16:32Cut me deep, say it's all for the best
16:35Say you need me, but you need control
16:37Turn my heart into chains, never let me go
16:40Oh, you love me like a war in my head
16:43Kiss my scars, then you break me again
16:46And I should run, but the fire feels right
16:48So I stay in the dark just to hold you up
16:50You ain't love, you a loaded gun pressed to my head
16:53Say you'd die without me, but you're killing me instead
16:56You don't want a partner, you just need a new slave
16:59A puppet on a stream that you can bend till it breaks
17:02I should've left the first night when I saw through your smile
17:04But you wrapped me in your web and I was stuck for a while
17:07You're a surgeon with your words scalpel deep in my chest
17:10You don't heal, you dissect, then you watch as I bled
17:13Say I'm all that you got, but I know that's a lie
17:15You just love the control, you just love when I cry
17:18You ain't scared to lose me, you scared I might heal
17:21Cause if I walk away, then your power ain't real
17:24So you bury me deeper, place your roots in my soul
17:27Wrap your hands round my throat, whisper, I won't let go
17:30And I'll let you, yeah, I'll let you like a fool in a trance
17:32Like a prisoner who's learned how to love his own chains
17:35I should run, but you poisoned my veins too strong
17:38Now the venom's in my heart, and it's where it belongs
17:42Oh, you love me like a blade to the chest
17:45Cut me deep, say it's all for the best
17:47Say you need me, but you need control
17:50Turn my heart into chains, never let me go
17:53Oh, you love me like a war in my head
17:56Kiss my scars, then you break me again
17:59And I should run, but the fire feels right
18:01So I stay in the dark just to hold your eyes
18:03I wake up to your voice and it's burning my ears
18:06Like a siren in the dark dragging me to my fears
18:09You say, baby, you're mine like it's something to own
18:12Like my body ain't my own, just a piece of your throne
18:15You call it passion, I call it a cage
18:18You set the fire then blame me for the flames
18:20You cry when I leave, but you smile when I break
18:23Like my pain is the art that you love to create
18:26You ain't love, you a sickness, and I ain't found the cure
18:28Tried to run, but the high made me come back for more
18:31Every bruise, every scar, every cut that you gave
18:34They ain't trophies, they just proof that I still ain't escaped
18:37But maybe I don't want to, maybe I'm just weak
18:40Maybe love is just abuse when you're scared to be free
18:42Maybe I'm just like you, twisted, lost in the dark
18:45Maybe we ain't two people, just one broken heart
18:48So I stay, yeah, I stay, even knowing it's wrong
18:51I ain't healed yet, so I guess I'll play along
18:55Oh, you love me like a blade to the chest
18:58Cut me deep, say it's all for the best
19:01Say you need me, but you need control
19:03Turn my heart into chains, never let me go
19:06Oh, you love me like a war in my head
19:09Kiss my scars, then you break me again
19:11And I should run, but the fire feels right
19:14So I stay in the dark just to hold you alive
19:16You ain't a lover, you a war, and I'm losing the fight
19:18Like a boxer in the ring with his hands tied tight
19:21You swing words like weapons, cut me deep when you speak
19:24Then you stitch me back up just to watch me go weak
19:27You don't need me, you just need someone to control
19:30A punching bag for the rage you don't show
19:32So you whisper sweet lies, then you bite when I sleep
19:35Carve your name in my chest just to mark me as keep
19:38And I let you, yeah I let you, and I got no say
19:41Like my soul ain't worth nothing but the games that we play
19:44You ain't water, you gasoline poured on my skin
19:47And I light the match every time I let you in
19:49You ain't safe, you ain't home, you ain't shelter at peace
19:52You a storm that keeps flooding the grave under me
19:55And maybe that's why I love you, cause I hate myself
19:57And the pain that you give is the only thing that helps
20:00If you'll pour another drink baby tell me I'm yours
20:03Then break me again just to even the score
20:07Oh you love me like a blade to the chest
20:10Cut me deep say it's all for the best
20:13Say you need me but you need control
20:15Turn my heart into chains never let me go
20:18Oh you love me like a war in my head
20:21Oh you love me like a war in my head
20:22Kiss my scars then you break me again
20:24And I should run but the fire feels right
20:26So I stay in the dark just to hold you alive
20:29Oh you love me like a blade to the chest
20:32Cut me deep say it's all for the best
20:35Say you need me but you need control
20:37Turn my heart into chains never let me go
20:40Oh you love me like a blade to the chest
20:42Let me go
20:43Oh you love me like a war in my head
20:44Kiss my scars then you break me again
20:46And I should run but the fire feels right
20:48So I stay in the dark just to hold you alive
20:53I can't see you when you're a child
20:57I can't see you when you're a girl
21:00I can't see you when you're a girl
21:05I can't see you when you're a girl
21:09I can't see you when you're a girl
21:12I can't see you when you're a girl
21:13I can't see you when you're a girl
21:15Oh I've been calling
21:19I've been crying
21:22Trying to find my way
21:26Through this island
21:28Tell me God
21:31Do you hear me now?
21:34Cause I've been lost
21:37Trying to figure it out
21:41The rain keeps falling
21:43I've been walking alone
21:47Too many questions weighing heavy on my soul
21:53Tell me do you hear me when I call your name?
21:59Do my tears make waves
22:01Or do they fall in vain?
22:05I've been fighting for my light
22:06But the dark too strong
22:08Trying to hold on
22:09But the road too long
22:11Is it fate?
22:12Is it testing?
22:13I need to know
22:17Yo God you up there
22:18Stop and screaming your name
22:19I've been caught up in the whirlwind
22:21Stuck in a storm
22:22I admit it
22:23But tell me why the world is twisted
22:25Why the wicked get the riches?
22:27Why the ones who got no conscience out here living with no limits?
22:30I see kids starving
22:31Mamas crying
22:32Dreams getting buried
22:33But the snakes and the liars get the mansions they cherish
22:36Yo you gave me this voice
22:37I've been trying to use it with merit
22:39But half these people fake fate
22:40Only pray when they perish
22:42Then I question everything
22:43Still got faith in your plan
22:45But if I'm made in your image
22:46Why I feel like half a man?
22:48I done lost too many friends
22:49I done fought too many fights
22:51I've been battling these demons
22:52Tell me when I see the light
22:54I don't mean no disrespect
22:55But I got questions I suppress
22:57Like if you love us all the same
22:59Why some live and some get left?
23:00Is it punishment or lesson?
23:02A reflection of ourselves
23:03Or are we blind
23:04To all the answers that you hid behind the veil?
23:06Do you hear me when I call your name?
23:11Do my tears make waves
23:13Or do they fall in vain?
23:17I've been fighting for my light
23:18But the dark too strong
23:20Trying to hold on
23:21But the road too long
23:23Is it fate?
23:24Is it testing?
23:25I need to know
23:29Alright, let's flip the script
23:30Maybe I've been looking wrong
23:32Maybe you ain't the one to blame
23:33Maybe we just play along
23:35Maybe man corrupted man
23:36Maybe greed became a god
23:38Maybe we've been chasing paper
23:39Left our morals in the fog
23:41Maybe pain is just a pavement
23:42For a world that's out of sync
23:44Maybe you ain't got us drowning
23:45Maybe we the ones who's sick
23:47Maybe love is still the key
23:48But we forgot how to unlock it
23:50Maybe truth is in our face
23:51But we too scared to acknowledge
23:53But if you gave me this gift
23:55And my talents defined
23:56Why's the path so dark?
23:57Why's the road so unkind?
23:59Why's the devil in my ear?
24:00Why's temptation in my spine?
24:02Why do I feel like I'm climbing
24:03Just to fall every time?
24:05Yo, I ain't trying to curse you
24:06Ain't trying to place blame
24:08I'm just trying to understand
24:09Trying to give this pain a name
24:11I've been tested, been wrecked
24:12But I'm still standing strong
24:14So tell me
24:15Is the fight worth it?
24:16Am I right?
24:17Or am I wrong?
24:18Tell me, do you hear me
24:19When I call your name?
24:23Do my tears make waves
24:25Or do they fall in vain?
24:29I've been fighting for my life
24:30But the dark too strong
24:32Trying to hold on
24:33But the road too long
24:35Is it fate?
24:36Is it testing?
24:37I need to know
24:41Maybe faith ain't in the answers
24:42Maybe faith is in the fight
24:44Maybe faith ain't in the visions
24:45Maybe faith is in the blind
24:47Maybe I ain't meant to get it
24:48Maybe wisdom takes its time
24:50Maybe all these scars I carry
24:51Got a story in their lines
24:53Maybe every single tear
24:54Is just a lesson in disguise
24:56Maybe suffering is proof
24:57That we still feel something inside
24:59Maybe love is in the hurt
25:00Maybe love is in the cries
25:02Maybe you've been here forever
25:03I just never opened my eyes
25:05Alright, God I hear you now
25:07I ain't perfect but I try
25:08I ain't never walked no water
25:10But you know I still survived
25:12I ain't never been a prophet
25:13I just put my pain in rhyme
25:14I just hope my words can heal
25:16Before I reach the end of title
25:17I ain't asking for no riches
25:19I ain't begging for no crown
25:20I just pray my people rise
25:22I just pray we don't drown
25:23And if you walking right beside me
25:25If you hear me in this song
25:26Then just promise me one thing
25:28Tell me, do you hear me when I call your name?
25:35Do my tears make waves or do they fall in vain?
25:41I've been fighting for my light but the dark too strong
25:44Trying to hold on but the road too long
25:47Is it fate?
25:48Is it testing?
25:49I need to know
25:51I can't see you everywhere
25:53When I call your name
25:54I can't see you everywhere
25:55I know
25:56I can't see you everywhere
25:57I know
25:58I can't see you everywhere
25:59I know
26:00I can't see you everywhere
26:01When I call your name
26:02I can't see you everywhere
26:04When I call your name
26:05I can't see you everywhere
26:06When I call your name
26:07I can't see you everywhere
26:08I can't see you everywhere
26:09I can't see you everywhere
26:11There's a weight in my chest that I never could name
26:34A silence between us that still speaks the same
26:37I trace every shadow but I don't find the light
26:40Just echoes of questions that haunt me at night
26:43I've been running in circles, retracing the pain
26:46Hoping one day I might break from the chain
26:50But love shouldn't hurt, no, love shouldn't break
26:53Yet here I'm still carrying all your mistakes
26:56Did you ever lose sleep? Did you ever feel shame?
26:59Did you ever taste regret when you whispered my name?
27:02Did you ever wanna hold me but didn't know how?
27:05Did your pride keep you quiet when your heart cried out?
27:08Did you ever think back to the nights that you screamed?
27:11Did you ever see me in the wreck of your dream?
27:14I don't need your story, I just need to know
27:17Were you ever a mother or just someone I don't know?
27:22Sit down, don't walk away, now you gon' hear me out
27:26Ain't no running from the past, ain't no shutting me down
27:29I spent my whole damn life trying to figure you out
27:32Trying to understand the women that just screamed and would shout
27:35Why was love always war? Why was pain all we knew?
27:39Why'd you break everything that you claimed you would do?
27:42Why'd you push me away, then beg me to stay?
27:45Why'd you curse my name, then cry when I strayed?
27:48I was just a kid, ma, I ain't know any better
27:51Had to raise myself up, hold my own through the weather
27:54You was fighting your own fights, I could see that clear
27:58But why'd your pain turn into the shit I had to fear?
28:01Was it me? Was it life? Was it something you hate?
28:04Did you see my face and feel like I was your mistake?
28:08I ain't trying to blame, ma, I'm just trying to know
28:10Cause I still hear your voice everywhere that I go
28:14Did you ever lose sleep? Did you ever feel shame?
28:17Did you ever taste regret when you whispered my name?
28:20Did you ever wanna hold me but didn't know how?
28:23Did your pride keep you quiet when your heart cried out?
28:26Did you ever think back to the nights that you screamed?
28:29Did you ever see me in the wreck of your dream?
28:33I don't need your story, I just need to know
28:35Were you ever a mother?
28:37I know you had it rough, I know times were tough
28:41I know dad left wounds that were deeper than love
28:44I know you did what you could, I know life ain't fair
28:47But why'd you let your demons make the home in my chair?
28:51Why'd I have to tiptoe? Why'd I have to flinch?
28:54Why'd I have to wonder if the day you'd switch?
28:57Why'd your pain become mine? Why'd your past bleed through?
29:00Why'd you pour your own trauma in a child so new?
29:03I ain't saying you evil, I ain't painting you wrong
29:06I just wanna understand why you made me this strong
29:09Why love felt like war, why hugs came with doubt
29:12Why I love you sounded like a threat from your mouth
29:15I don't hate you, now I swear that I don't
29:18I just wish I had a mother and not just a ghost
29:21I just wish you could tell me what you never could say
29:24But I guess some things just get buried away
29:28Did you ever lose sleep? Did you ever feel shame?
29:32Did you ever taste regret when you whispered my name?
29:35Did you ever wanna hold me but didn't know how?
29:38Did your pride keep you quiet when your heart cried out?
29:41Did you ever think back to the nights that you screamed?
29:44Did you ever see me in the wreck of your dream?
29:47I don't need your story, I just need to know
29:50Were you ever a mother?
29:53I ain't that no more, I ain't here to just fight
29:56I just need to know if you ever lost sleep at night
29:59Did you ever regret? Did you ever just break?
30:02Did you ever sit alone and just drown in the weight?
30:05Did you ever wanna fix it but the past ran deep?
30:08Did you ever feel guilty when you heard me weak?
30:11Did you ever wanna hold me but your pride said no?
30:15Did you ever want peace but the pain wouldn't go?
30:18I ain't asking for payback, ain't asking for change
30:21Ain't asking for an answer that can heal all the pain
30:24I just wanna know if you ever felt the same
30:27If you ever looked in the mirror and whispered my name
30:30If you ever thought quite of the nights that you yelled
30:33If you ever wished different for the stories you tell
30:36I ain't perfect, nah, I got my own sins
30:39But damn I, I just wish we wasn't stuck where we been
30:43Did you ever lose sleep? Did you ever feel shame?
30:46Did you ever taste regret when you whispered my name?
30:50Did you ever wanna hold me but didn't know how?
30:53Did your pride keep you quiet when your heart cried out?
30:56Did you ever think back to the nights that you screamed?
30:59Did you ever see me in the wreck of your dream?
31:02I don't need your story, I just need to know
31:05Were you ever a mother or just someone I know?