Emmerdale 11 August 2023
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00:00 [MUSIC PLAYING]
00:03 [MUSIC PLAYING]
00:06 Oh, God.
00:31 I've been reckless and foolish.
00:34 I know, I know this isn't your way.
00:38 But you delivered Laurel right to me.
00:41 I had to keep her here.
00:43 You do see that, don't you?
00:44 Laurel is how I get Marshall back, how I bring him home
00:52 to your--
00:53 your eternal protection, where we can all be together again.
00:58 Please, please forgive me, Lord.
01:02 Please understand.
01:03 No one can get in the way of that.
01:10 No one.
01:11 Is this it?
01:25 This is it.
01:28 Mm-hmm.
01:30 All right, you ready?
01:34 Yeah, um, I think I've just got one last goodbye to make.
01:38 Here, let me--
01:55 I'm trying to help.
01:57 [GROANING]
02:01 Alfred, have you-- is he OK?
02:11 How would I know?
02:12 Last night, you said.
02:14 You got me all hot under the collar, refusing to help.
02:19 I'm not proud.
02:22 That's not who I am.
02:24 Here.
02:25 No, no.
02:26 It's safe.
02:29 I would never drug a woman, not even--
02:30 See?
02:39 [GROANING]
02:50 Careful, careful.
02:52 Careful, careful.
02:53 Slowly does it, slowly does it.
02:55 Thank you.
03:01 Thank you.
03:02 Oh, Laurel.
03:13 I like this even less than you do.
03:15 Then stop, please.
03:17 Stop.
03:17 I will.
03:18 I will.
03:19 I want it over.
03:20 And it will be if you just help me.
03:24 For Marshall, for his--
03:26 for his mother.
03:27 It's just one call.
03:30 Please.
03:32 I can't do that.
03:33 I'm sorry.
03:34 To save his soul.
03:35 Jay's just landed in Manchester.
03:46 Should be in in a few hours.
03:49 He's asked if we've heard from Laurel or the police.
03:51 Obviously not.
03:52 He'd be the first we'd tell.
03:54 I'll call the station, chive him along.
03:56 Again?
03:57 Nico, they've got her details.
03:59 Their patrols are keeping an eye out.
04:01 And they've alerted the local hospitals.
04:03 And nothing.
04:04 It's been almost two days and no one's seen or heard from her.
04:07 I reckon it's time we inform Arthur.
04:12 No, he's better off out of it.
04:14 He's going to collect the adults for himself sooner or later.
04:16 I won't stress out the kids before we have to.
04:19 I'll try the police again.
04:21 They've said they'll keep you informed.
04:23 Over 12 hours ago, Laurel didn't board her plane.
04:27 And she hasn't returned anyone's calls.
04:29 She just disappeared.
04:30 And we're all sat here being useless,
04:32 just waiting to hear what happened to her.
04:35 And it won't be good.
04:37 The code, please.
04:40 Well, Sue, you can lure Marshall here.
04:43 Don't make me force you to open it.
04:47 Is this what God wants for you, for me, for Marshall?
04:52 Is it?
04:53 Is it?
04:54 Oh, no.
05:01 Oh, no.
05:06 I can't feel him.
05:10 His presence since you came, since I--
05:14 I can't feel him, Laurel.
05:23 Oh, what have I done?
05:26 She could knock on that door any moment with the craziest
05:30 of stories to tell.
05:31 No fairy tales, Jimmy.
05:33 [KNOCKING]
05:35 [DOOR OPENS]
05:36 [DOOR CLOSES]
05:40 Oh, it's Arthur.
05:41 When are you at April's?
05:46 I haven't heard from Mum yet.
05:47 I mean, she's still not replied to any of my messages.
05:50 I need to know if she's got Marshall's passport sent on,
05:52 because he's still not got it.
05:53 Marshall's passport, what?
05:54 Well, yeah, she was going to pick it up from Collins
05:56 on the way to the airport and--
05:59 what?
06:01 I'm definitely calling the police back now.
06:04 Why are you calling them?
06:05 What's happened to Mum?
06:07 God hasn't abandoned you, you know?
06:09 But he won't approve of this.
06:15 Don't you think I know that?
06:18 You can get it back if you let me go.
06:21 I'll let you go, and all will be miraculously forgiven.
06:25 Yeah?
06:26 No.
06:27 [PANTING]
06:30 No.
06:31 No.
06:31 No.
06:33 Don't try to push me from my faith.
06:35 Marshall needs God's love to join his mother
06:38 and me in the kingdom of heaven.
06:40 He will always have God's love.
06:42 He will always have God's love.
06:44 Shut up!
06:45 This is how you and your son led--
06:51 led my child to sin.
06:53 Oh, you sound just so reasonable.
06:57 You-- you are dangerous.
07:00 I didn't tie or lock anybody up.
07:03 There's no reasoning with you.
07:06 Code. - No.
07:07 Now.
07:08 No.
07:09 [PANTING]
07:11 Ow!
07:12 [GROANS]
07:16 [PANTING]
07:19 What are you doing?
07:25 Texting your husband.
07:28 What? Jay, why?
07:32 To buy us time.
07:33 To finish here.
07:34 What are you saying?
07:39 Well, that should keep him away for now, but--
07:42 What have you said?
07:43 Come on.
07:44 Well, the truth.
07:45 That you're struggling.
07:46 That you need-- you need to take a few days to--
07:48 to recover yourself.
07:49 He's going to think I've relapsed.
07:51 You have, with your faith.
07:52 Now, you are going to call my son.
07:54 No, I can't do that.
07:55 Colin. - Do it, Marl!
07:57 Do it! - No.
07:58 Just--
07:59 No.
08:00 [PANTING]
08:04 Or I will go to Arthur and get his help however I can.
08:09 No.
08:13 Then tell Marshall you need him to come
08:15 home to-- to give me a chance.
08:17 Colin.
08:18 Or I will call on Arthur in person
08:21 and make him bring my son to me.
08:23 Just leave Arthur out of this, please.
08:25 I-- I-- I will.
08:27 If-- if-- if you will just do this one thing, this--
08:30 this-- this-- this one, and do it right, do it right,
08:34 with no warnings or-- or stupid giveaways,
08:39 there is nothing I will not do to save my son.
08:43 Will you make the call?
08:44 OK!
08:45 [GASPS]
08:48 [PANTING]
08:51 The number you have dialed has not been recognized.
08:54 Please check and try again.
08:56 [SIGHS]
08:57 What?
08:58 He was-- he was ringing a couple of days ago.
09:00 What-- why is it working?
09:01 I-- I don't know.
09:03 Maybe he's changed his number.
09:04 What, to what?
09:05 I don't know.
09:06 Stop lying!
09:07 He called you to come and get his passport.
09:10 No, he called Arthur.
09:11 I haven't got his number, I promise you!
09:14 Well, then we--
09:16 well, then we--
09:18 [GRUNTS]
09:19 [PANTING]
09:22 [GROANS]
09:27 I need to think, I need to think.
09:28 Oh.
09:29 [PANTING]
09:31 [CLOCK TICKING]
09:35 How did it go last night?
09:37 Was she's wake?
09:38 Fine.
09:41 I popped by the pub, but, um, you'd already left.
09:45 All right.
09:47 I half hoped you'd come home, change your mind
09:50 about a night in after all.
09:52 No.
09:53 [SCOFFS]
09:54 No.
09:56 So where did you go?
09:59 Do you have a better offer?
10:01 No.
10:03 All right.
10:04 Just didn't like my offer with me.
10:08 Not everything's about you.
10:09 Went for a walk, OK?
10:16 A walk?
10:18 Around the village.
10:21 You must have gone around a few times
10:22 because I waited up for you.
10:24 Turned the light out about--
10:25 [SIGHS]
10:29 That's what you were waiting for, to see our light go off.
10:32 No.
10:33 You liar.
10:34 You want to go there?
10:36 I'll go wherever you want, Bob, if we go together.
10:39 But we don't feel together.
10:42 And I think that's how you like it.
10:44 [DOOR OPENS]
10:47 [SIGHS]
10:50 You here, Wiggin?
10:54 I can't avoid it with your nonstop squabbling.
10:57 We're fine.
10:58 [SCOFFS]
10:59 You're like one of those dementors,
11:01 dragging every last piece of joy out
11:03 of the woman you claim to love.
11:04 I can't talk to you about this.
11:09 Don't talk.
11:10 Listen.
11:11 If you don't show that woman some affection fast,
11:13 she's going to be done with you for good.
11:17 And if taking her back was a mistake,
11:19 well, then cut the cord immediately.
11:21 It wasn't a mistake.
11:24 Right.
11:25 Well, you better tell her that fast,
11:27 because you're about to pass the point of no return.
11:28 Maybe-- maybe this is a sign that it's not the way.
11:41 Shut up.
11:43 But you know it isn't, though.
11:46 Shut up.
11:48 Oh, no.
11:49 No, no, no.
11:50 Colin, not again.
11:51 No.
11:53 [SCREAMS]
11:55 Mr. Hampton?
11:56 [SCREAMS]
11:57 Mr. Hampton, you're the police.
11:59 Shh.
11:59 Don't make a sound.
12:00 [SCREAMS]
12:01 Shh.
12:02 [SNIFFS]
12:04 [FOOTSTEPS]
12:05 [MUSIC PLAYING]
12:09 [MUSIC PLAYING]
12:13 Oh, I'm sorry for the delay, Constable.
12:21 I'm afraid you've rather caught me at a--
12:24 at a bad time.
12:25 Mr. Hampton, is it?
12:26 Yes.
12:27 Anyone else in the house with you?
12:29 No.
12:30 No, I've lived on my own for quite a while now.
12:34 Everything all right?
12:35 Sorry to disturb, sir.
12:37 We're looking for a missing woman.
12:38 Laurel Thomas?
12:39 Do you know her?
12:41 Laurel-- uh, yeah, of course.
12:46 Her son is friends with my boy, Marshall.
12:49 She was only here a couple of days ago,
12:51 collecting his passport.
12:52 [GASPS]
12:55 [GROANS]
12:57 [GROANS]
12:59 She did seem a little on edge.
13:02 Her usual sunny self.
13:03 And I might-- I might have got this wrong.
13:07 But I feared I smelt a whiff of alcohol on her breath.
13:10 Is that right?
13:11 But I only mention it because--
13:13 because she's an alcoholic.
13:15 I mean, recovering, but--
13:17 Family didn't mention that.
13:19 Oh, I shouldn't have been so indiscreet.
13:22 No, you did right.
13:24 Now we know the sort of places to look.
13:27 OK, well, uh, good luck with it.
13:29 Mr. Hampton, mind if I come in for a little look around?
13:33 Look around for what?
13:35 Just to check she hasn't left anything.
13:36 Like a phone or--
13:38 No, she hasn't.
13:41 Look, my-- my living situation is-- is not ideal.
13:44 I've had a rough few months, and I--
13:46 and I--
13:47 [SIGHS]
13:48 I'd rather like things go to rock and ruin.
13:50 Not my place to judge.
13:51 I'm only after a quick look around, just to rule things out.
13:54 Look, I've suffered enough humiliation lately
13:56 without having-- without having someone snooping
14:03 through my unhappy situation.
14:06 I'm-- I'm sorry.
14:07 I'm sorry.
14:08 Bye.
14:09 I was starting to think you'd changed your mind.
14:20 Seen the back of you.
14:21 Never.
14:22 I thought you'd have made it.
14:24 She's just gone to say her final goodbyes to Noah
14:26 without saying her final goodbyes, you know.
14:29 She's no fool, that one.
14:30 She won't say anything, even to the fella that she loves.
14:35 Didn't expect to see you.
14:36 Anyway, if you, uh, come for a final goodbye yourself,
14:40 she'll have bunged some more of that cash
14:42 at me that you can't afford.
14:44 Who said I can't afford it?
14:46 Oh, come on.
14:47 You're all just back on your feet.
14:51 Is that why you're here?
14:52 Because you need it? - No.
14:53 Because I'd understand if you did.
14:54 Dan, stop.
14:55 I'm here because I said we were going to go through the drill.
14:59 OK, all right.
15:00 Uh, get the car from the forecourt,
15:01 and then ditch it when I get to the Emerald Isle.
15:03 You can ditch that and all.
15:04 What?
15:05 Emerald Isle.
15:06 It makes it sound exotic.
15:07 Well, you try it on the locals.
15:08 You see how far you get.
15:09 OK, all right, no whimsy.
15:11 Get the banger, then ditch it when I get to Ireland, all right?
15:14 And then, uh, ring Mystic on Cain's courtesy phone,
15:18 and then, uh, go to the new cottage and the new job
15:21 on the new farm, and then start a new life with my daughter
15:25 and my granddaughter, thanks to my old boss
15:28 and me newish mate.
15:29 What's that?
15:33 Some elves?
15:34 Those are everything he's done for me.
15:36 It's for Mystic.
15:38 Do not touch it, or he will string you up,
15:41 and no shiny new life for you.
15:43 You want me to smuggle?
15:46 I'm not being ungrateful after everything,
15:48 but I can't have Amelia being an accomplice to running.
15:52 I mean, what am I supposed to be running?
15:56 Chas's Yorkshire parking.
15:57 Mystic's mad for it.
16:00 All right, sorry.
16:00 I was just, uh, getting a bit tightly wound, you know?
16:03 Be a bit weird if you weren't.
16:04 Thanks.
16:09 Thanks for all of it.
16:11 You've said.
16:13 I'll say it again.
16:15 You've really come through for me.
16:16 All right, just-- just a handshake, then.
16:23 It's more dignified and blokey, innit?
16:25 Come here.
16:31 [PANTING]
16:34 You're going to miss snarling and growling at me, aren't you?
16:39 No regrets, yeah?
16:41 I've got a few.
16:43 But no more bad choices for me.
16:46 Probably gills through enough already.
16:48 Thought you'd be spending every last second with your dad,
17:00 ticking off that mad list before him, you know?
17:04 Goes to prison.
17:06 You can say it, you know.
17:10 I get you're trying to be dead strong,
17:11 but I know how hard this is for you.
17:14 I'll be all right.
17:16 No, you won't.
17:17 But that's OK.
17:20 Because I'll be here doing whatever needs doing for as
17:22 long as it needs doing, until you're
17:24 ready to go on without him.
17:27 Come here, you big softy.
17:28 [SIGHS]
17:29 You and Esther will never have to face anything alone.
17:35 Not if I can help it.
17:36 [BIRDS CHIRPING]
17:38 [PANTING]
17:40 All the shit that she is snooping around.
17:48 I've said to pack it for now, but they'll be back.
17:51 Oh, they'll be back.
17:53 We need to get out of here.
17:54 Now!
17:55 [GROANING]
17:57 [GROANING]
17:58 Well, yeah, of course we know that,
18:03 but she's never just fallen off the face of the earth before.
18:08 Bye.
18:10 Well--
18:12 Colleen told the police that she stopped by a couple of days
18:15 ago, wanting his son's passport.
18:18 He smelled alcohol on her breath.
18:20 What?
18:21 Nobody is lying.
18:22 [KNOCKING]
18:25 [FOOTSTEPS]
18:26 Hey.
18:27 Oh, mate.
18:29 I'm sorry, this is all my fault.
18:31 No, Arthur, it's not.
18:32 What have the police said?
18:34 Colleen lied.
18:35 She's been drinking.
18:36 And have they searched his house?
18:37 They can't without a warrant.
18:39 He's got her.
18:39 It's a stretch.
18:41 No.
18:42 Someone sent me this message from her phone.
18:45 What? She's relapsed?
18:50 She wouldn't.
18:51 No, we know she wouldn't.
18:53 But who'd want us to think that?
18:55 And who'd want the police trolling
18:57 bars instead of his house?
18:59 I'll call them back, let them know.
19:00 No, please don't.
19:01 They'll only say this is proof that she's OK
19:03 and she's on a bender.
19:04 So I'm going there myself.
19:06 I'm coming too.
19:07 No.
19:08 She's only there because of me.
19:09 You can't think like that.
19:11 If she's there, it's only because of Colleen.
19:13 But I sent her to him.
19:15 Please let me come.
19:16 I can't, mate.
19:17 Your mum would kill me if I ever put you in harm's way.
19:20 I'll go, Arthur.
19:22 You're not going alone.
19:23 She knows what you're walking into.
19:24 Come on, then.
19:25 Hurry up.
19:26 Higher.
19:31 You want to go higher, you'll end up in the sky.
19:33 And we can't be having that, can we?
19:35 Me and your mum would be lost without our little Esther.
19:39 OK, what do you reckon next?
19:42 Slide or spin?
19:43 No, we can't.
19:45 Dad's waiting for us.
19:46 It's going to take us into Hotton, a nappy boat run.
19:49 Right.
19:50 I'm free to come if you want.
19:51 No.
19:52 No, it's not that.
19:53 I don't want you to.
19:55 No, I get it.
19:57 I'm glad you're spending as much one-on-one time with your dad
19:59 as you can.
20:00 I'm lucky to get this much.
20:03 Flipping love you, Noah Dingle.
20:06 And whatever happens between us, please remember that.
20:09 Believe it, because I flipping love you.
20:12 Yeah, I believe it.
20:14 Yeah, well, we've got to go now.
20:16 Tea at mine tonight, yeah?
20:18 Aye, Noah.
20:19 Hey, Amelia.
20:21 Flipping love you, too, Ovs.
20:23 Prepare you.
20:25 Oh, no.
20:26 Ovs.
20:27 Colin?
20:41 Laurel?
20:42 [WAVES CRASHING]
20:45 Laurel?
20:54 Hello?
21:02 You look down here.
21:06 I'm going upstairs.
21:07 [FOOTSTEPS]
21:11 Laurel?
21:13 Suni!
21:27 [FOOTSTEPS]
21:30 [GROANING]
21:36 Move.
21:38 Move.
21:39 Move!
21:40 [SCREAMING]
21:42 You'll see.
21:42 [GROANING]
21:46 You'll see.
21:49 [MUSIC PLAYING]
21:53 [MUSIC PLAYING]
21:56 [MUSIC PLAYING]
22:00 Hiya.
22:01 Oh, let me help you with that.
22:05 I've got it.
22:06 What are you doing with one of Cain's old rust buckets, anyway?
22:09 Is this for a day trip?
22:10 Please tell me you've not paid for it.
22:12 No, I'm just lending it for the day.
22:13 Can I do out for you?
22:15 No, no, I just came to drop these off.
22:18 Lydia's been knitting up a storm again.
22:20 The matching cardigan might have taken over the sofa,
22:22 and Daddy's not amused.
22:23 He's sat on one too many needles one too many times.
22:27 Right, good.
22:28 Yeah, you've seen through my rubbish babble, haven't you?
22:31 Truth is, I nicked them.
22:34 I just wanted an excuse to come see you guys,
22:36 see how you're holding up.
22:38 Well, as you see, you know.
22:40 Yeah.
22:41 We're just taking each day as it comes,
22:43 enjoying it for what it is, and just appreciating
22:46 what we still have.
22:47 I mean, what else can you do?
22:49 Not much.
22:50 Just hope for the best.
22:52 Well, we're all hoping for the best.
22:54 So just yell me if there's anything I can do.
22:57 You will. Thanks.
22:58 Yeah, thanks.
22:59 It doesn't sit well, does it, eh?
23:04 Phoebe and Sue, when she's just been decent.
23:06 She'll understand, Dad.
23:07 They all will.
23:08 Even Noah?
23:10 Even Noah.
23:12 Right, come on, driver, start your engine.
23:15 If you're sure.
23:16 Dad, that's the last time you get to ask me that.
23:18 So answer it, then.
23:19 Well, I'm one billion, gazillion, trillion percent sure.
23:23 That's not even a number.
23:24 Sit. Sit.
23:36 Sorry, sorry.
23:46 [PANTING]
23:50 I need to think.
23:53 There has to be a way through this, but I can't see it yet.
24:00 Rachel always helps me see things more clearly.
24:05 This was our favorite spot in all the world.
24:14 I feel closer to her here than anywhere.
24:19 It's beautiful.
24:22 I promised that we'd meet again, all three of us.
24:27 But I've ruined everything.
24:30 I've lost any chance I had of joining her again.
24:34 What are you waiting for?
24:36 You OK, man?
24:37 Shut up.
24:38 You know I'm not.
24:38 Buy you a drink already?
24:44 What?
24:45 Nine it up enough.
24:46 Fair warning, don't think I'll put out on the first date.
24:49 What's in there?
24:51 Told you, not our business, not our problem.
24:53 We'll just get it from A to B.
24:55 I won't do drugs.
24:56 Boy Scout badge for you.
24:58 Say no to drugs, kids.
24:59 I mean it, Corey.
25:00 I won't shift them.
25:01 Say that to Harry, you can say goodbye to them easy.
25:03 [ENGINE RUMBLING]
25:05 You see?
25:05 Oh!
25:13 Sorry, sorry.
25:14 No, you go first.
25:15 No, no, after you, m'lady.
25:16 Brilliant.
25:18 Just brilliant.
25:20 Bob, I wasn't expecting you.
25:21 Oh, clearly.
25:23 Here's me, thinking we could go out to lunch.
25:24 Here's you, back at it with him all over again.
25:27 No, no, no, not at all.
25:29 You don't get to talk, not to me.
25:30 Stop it.
25:31 Me stop?
25:33 You're the one that's all cozy and after you-- oh, no,
25:35 after you, m'lady.
25:37 Oh.
25:38 I know what you two are up to in there.
25:40 It's-- you're revolting.
25:44 This is my work, and you have got it all wrong.
25:46 The only thing that I've got wrong
25:47 is thinking I could trust you again.
25:50 Aren't I the joke, eh?
25:51 Hey.
25:55 Jacob was shadowing, lame work experience.
25:58 We were just coming up with some blood results when you arrived.
26:02 It's all very innocent, I swear.
26:06 Oh, right.
26:08 I think you should leave, Bob.
26:10 OK.
26:12 But you don't get to be the victim here.
26:14 There's a reason I don't trust anything you say or do.
26:16 I didn't imagine the affair.
26:18 This isn't the place.
26:20 OK, all right, fair's fair.
26:23 We can talk about it over lunch.
26:25 I've lost my appetite.
26:27 Just go, Bob.
26:30 I am sorry, Rob.
26:31 Bug off, Liam.
26:33 I'll see myself out.
26:34 Right, OK, but listen.
26:36 It isn't what it seems.
26:37 And we really do need to reschedule that appointment.
26:42 Schedule with you?
26:43 No tar.
26:44 I don't want anything from you.
26:45 She all right?
26:51 Yeah, she's just a bit grumbly.
26:53 Think she prefers it when we're moving.
26:55 We are.
26:56 Welcome to your new life of adventure and uncertainty,
26:59 Esther.
27:01 She hopes she's young enough to adapt.
27:03 What does that make us?
27:04 Stuck in the mud?
27:06 No, it makes me old enough to know everything
27:09 and to know better.
27:12 Makes you the most fantastic child
27:15 any parent could wish to have.
27:17 It's a route in your life and your kid
27:20 to stay close to your own father.
27:22 You're doing this for us, Dad, just as much
27:24 as we're doing it for you.
27:26 Yeah, but it feels like I've got the most to gain.
27:29 I'm grateful for every second I spend with the both of you.
27:32 Us too.
27:34 Yes, all right.
27:37 Why is it taking so long?
27:38 I mean, there's no one around.
27:39 Can we not just go through?
27:41 You're breaking all the rules today.
27:43 Who even are you?
27:44 A tired mum with a grumbly kid.
27:47 I don't think we should risk getting caught, love.
27:50 Yeah, I know.
27:51 Just I'll get up a few videos.
27:53 It's usually enough to settle her down.
27:55 Claire!
28:00 Oh, are you going to go on fire?
28:03 You'll end up in the sky.
28:05 And we can't be having that, can we?
28:07 Each one of us being lost without our mother.
28:09 [INAUDIBLE]
28:10 [SQUEAL]
28:14 [GROAN]
28:16 [SIGH]
28:18 [ENGINE RUMBLING]
28:21 I reckon it's as clear as it's going to get.
28:29 Back of the van's unlocked.
28:30 Take the bag, put it inside.
28:32 Job done.
28:33 That's it?
28:34 If it's that easy, why don't you do it?
28:36 [HONK]
28:53 [SIREN]
28:56 Sorry.
29:06 I'm sorry.
29:07 No.
29:08 Not you.
29:10 Rachel.
29:11 I failed her.
29:14 Failed Marshall, everyone who matters.
29:16 Look who I've become.
29:22 What I've done.
29:23 There's still time to undo things, you know,
29:27 because you're a godly man and you love your wife and your son.
29:32 I do.
29:34 So how-- how has it come to this?
29:39 I've been weak.
29:40 I haven't been this weak since Rachel
29:45 got the news of the cancer.
29:50 Her last months, she needed me to be strong for her
29:54 and Marshall and I. I was a wreck.
29:58 Of course you were.
30:00 You can't possibly understand.
30:01 Oh.
30:02 [CHUCKLING]
30:05 You know, when Ashley was diagnosed with dementia,
30:08 he needed me to be his rock.
30:12 But I had my moments.
30:14 Moments?
30:15 Yeah, yeah, long stretches of me not being the wife or the mother
30:20 that I wanted to be.
30:21 And people used to say to me, oh, you know, oh, you're--
30:24 you're so strong.
30:27 You know, it's just total rubbish.
30:31 How could I be when I'm watching my husband diminishing,
30:35 dying in front of me?
30:37 Did you beg him not to die?
30:39 Yell and scream at him for doing this to you
30:41 as if they had any say in it?
30:44 Yeah, I yelled.
30:47 I was in denial.
30:48 You know what?
30:49 You know what I did?
30:52 I locked Ashley in his room once, alone, for hours.
31:00 And he was scared.
31:01 He was frightened.
31:03 All because I couldn't cope with what was going on,
31:07 with him, with us.
31:09 And it was like a--
31:11 it was like a madness in my grief.
31:13 I never shed a tear after she died.
31:18 What?
31:19 I still haven't.
31:21 Couldn't.
31:23 I was utterly useless when she needed me most in life.
31:27 I owed her strength after she died.
31:30 For Marshall.
31:31 I couldn't afford to indulge my--
31:37 Grief.
31:39 Selfish needs.
31:40 No, mourning.
31:42 Mourning is not selfish, Colin.
31:44 It's-- it's necessary.
31:46 Grieving wouldn't have helped Rachel.
31:48 So I got on with what needed to be done,
31:51 raising Marshall, pushing him to be--
31:53 to be the-- the-- the best version of himself.
31:56 And me, myself.
31:57 Yeah, but you tried to outrun your grief.
31:59 No, I conquered it.
32:01 Really?
32:02 Really, how's that working out?
32:05 I don't know how to fix it.
32:07 Well, you can start by undoing my binds and letting me go,
32:11 please.
32:12 Please.
32:14 I promised her we'd be reunited.
32:16 I've destroyed any chance of that.
32:20 Rachel will be all alone for eternity because of me.
32:31 I've failed you, Rachel.
32:40 I'm so sorry.
32:41 I'm sorry.
32:42 More lights?
33:01 Wait, are these not the same ones?
33:04 Must have, uh, melted off there, love.
33:05 Sweet dreams.
33:06 Why are we back here, Dad?
33:08 I mean, you must have took a wrong turn because you're
33:10 practically back in the village.
33:12 Yeah, looks like it.
33:14 Well, why are we heading in the wrong direction?
33:16 We're going to have to turn around quick
33:17 if we want to make this ferry.
33:19 We're not going to make our ferry, love.
33:22 All right.
33:23 Well, we'll get a later one then, or-- or we'll go in the morning.
33:27 But we are going.
33:28 No, sweetheart.
33:29 Yes, Dad, turn around.
33:31 We're going back home to the village.
33:33 No.
33:35 No, no, you agreed.
33:36 You promised that we'd stay together.
33:38 I had no right making that promise.
33:41 You'd be cursed.
33:41 No, it's not.
33:44 If I go on the run, you and Esther will be on the run
33:47 for the rest of your lives.
33:48 She'll be following your dreams, following your coward
33:51 of a dad from town to town, always
33:53 looking over your shoulders, never
33:55 knowing when I'll get nicked.
33:56 No, but I want her.
33:58 What sort of example would I be to you and Esther,
34:00 running away from your responsibilities?
34:03 That is not the type of bloke I want to be.
34:05 I've let this go too far.
34:07 We're going home.
34:07 No.
34:08 No, don't do this, please, Dad.
34:10 Don't do it.
34:13 I swear, if you take us back, I'll never forgive you.
34:17 I don't need you to.
34:19 We're going home.
34:20 Whip crack away.
34:22 [MUSIC PLAYING]
34:25 Stop fighting it, Colin.
34:45 You need to weep for your wife.
34:49 You need to cry for her.
34:51 What's the point?
34:53 It won't change anything.
34:55 And it's so self-indulgent.
34:59 No, it's necessary.
35:02 Colin, it's necessary.
35:06 By the time Ashley died, I'd had months to prepare for it.
35:13 I was shouting, screaming, crying.
35:16 I was all grieved out.
35:17 And then he died.
35:20 And the pain was no less.
35:21 Life afterwards was like--
35:28 you know, it was like walking through wet cement.
35:31 I used to cry myself to sleep.
35:40 It was awful.
35:42 But it was part of the process.
35:44 It's how we heal.
35:47 Colin, you lost your wife years ago.
35:50 And you haven't let yourself heal for her.
35:52 It's been festering.
35:54 Stop.
35:55 Yeah, but it's true, isn't it?
35:56 You've bottled up your grief.
35:57 And it's poisoned you.
35:59 And it's only going to get worse.
36:00 Because look what you've done.
36:01 Look what you've done in your quest to stay strong.
36:04 Well, that's not strength.
36:07 That's denial.
36:09 It's futile.
36:10 I didn't lose her all at once, you know.
36:16 [CRYING]
36:17 I lost her in pieces.
36:18 When her post stopped arriving, her orchids died.
36:30 When her clothes were gone.
36:33 When his scent faded away.
36:34 Is this how you want to go on?
36:42 Because Colin, you have made a series of terrible decisions.
36:46 And it's only going to get worse unless you weep for her.
36:50 I only wanted what was best for my wife and son.
36:54 And she wants what's best for you.
36:56 If Rachel is half as good as Marshall, then--
37:00 She was peerless.
37:02 She was too kind for this world.
37:04 Yeah, she wouldn't want you to suffer, would she?
37:07 Would she?
37:09 Oh, God.
37:11 [CRYING]
37:13 It's OK.
37:16 It's OK.
37:19 Oh, it's not.
37:22 I'm not.
37:24 No, you're not.
37:26 You need help.
37:28 For your sake and for Marshall's.
37:29 I think I'm beyond help now, don't you?
37:39 Colin, I'm a Christian.
37:41 I don't believe anyone is beyond redemption.
37:43 You cheeky sausage.
37:54 I am not your cheeky sausage.
37:57 Obviously not.
37:59 You've nicked that bottle from downstairs, haven't you?
38:01 I saw we were one down.
38:02 I thought Kathy must have come home early.
38:04 I'm no one's cheeky sausage.
38:07 Not in that state, you're not.
38:09 I'd wager you're all out of cheek.
38:11 Half a bottle of whiskey will do that to you.
38:13 Don't treat me like a joke.
38:16 I don't know I'm a punchline.
38:18 No, why would you say that?
38:21 Because I can't make the woman I love happy.
38:24 She's had to go elsewhere.
38:26 So I'm a cuckooed.
38:29 Cuckoo?
38:31 Oh, you mean cuckold.
38:33 That's him, yeah.
38:36 Useless.
38:38 No, you're not.
38:39 Paranoid, heartbroken.
38:43 I'm embarrassed.
38:44 I'm so, so embarrassed.
38:47 Lost her beliefs.
38:50 No, you haven't, Bob.
38:51 Not yet.
38:53 Look, Wendy stayed with you for a reason.
38:56 You're the kindest, sweetest, funniest man.
39:00 And you've got nothing to be embarrassed about.
39:03 You've done nothing wrong.
39:05 I did stay for a reason, Bernice.
39:07 But please don't speak for me.
39:10 Amelia, Amelia.
39:12 Wait, I have to--
39:13 I have to come back.
39:14 I have to-- look, I'm not sorry for turning around.
39:17 I don't care how much you hate me.
39:18 I have to do it.
39:19 You back there?
39:27 Saw you pulling.
39:28 We're good.
39:35 Sam's sentenced.
39:37 How long that's going to be for?
39:39 When it came to the crooks, I just couldn't do it.
39:42 I respect your decision, whatever it is.
39:44 It's no easy choice.
39:47 You don't do things lightly, Dan, especially
39:48 when it comes to your kid.
39:50 Must be deemed.
39:52 You showering me with compliments.
39:56 And again, you don't do compliments showers, do you?
39:58 So I'm having that one.
40:01 She'll thank me for it one day.
40:03 Probably not.
40:04 She'll bedside manner, I'll miss the most.
40:06 She won't thank you, but you will
40:08 be able to look her in the eye for the rest of your life,
40:10 knowing that you did the right thing by her.
40:11 Am I in for a telling off?
40:15 No.
40:20 But you are in for a reality check.
40:23 I know we have our trust issues, Bob.
40:25 And I know that that's mostly my fault.
40:28 Mostly?
40:29 Bernice, you had your moments there.
40:32 Yeah, but I didn't jump on her on those moments.
40:35 Bob, coming into my work, flinging accusations
40:40 right in front of my patients, other staff, that's not OK.
40:43 How do you think that looks for me?
40:45 It looks how it looked, because the way you and Dr.
40:48 Deviant made it look.
40:51 We can't say anything constructive,
40:52 not while you're like this.
40:53 I'm fine, I'm fine.
40:55 Go on, construct a way.
41:01 Why did you bother coming back?
41:04 Why?
41:05 Because I love you.
41:13 Not enough to stay faithful?
41:16 And did you love all the partners you cheated on?
41:18 I didn't cheat on you.
41:20 Couldn't.
41:22 I can't.
41:23 And you can't bring yourself to sleep with me, either.
41:25 How do we get things back on track if you don't
41:28 want to be intimate with me?
41:30 Am I so revolting to you now?
41:33 You're not revolting.
41:36 You're just cruel.
41:39 You were at it all over the place
41:41 with Dr. Deviantly Desperate only a few weeks ago.
41:44 Now you're blaming me for not wanting to get straight
41:47 back in the sack with you.
41:48 Cruel.
41:50 How can I forget that?
41:51 [CAR DOOR OPENS]
41:54 Now he's got some pace on him.
42:05 Get back here.
42:06 No, I'm good.
42:07 You're really not getting the hang of this whole, I tell,
42:10 you do your job, refire.
42:11 You need me to tattoo it into your skull,
42:13 because I will if that's what it takes.
42:14 No need, I'm done.
42:15 No more jobs.
42:16 Righty-o.
42:17 You won't be wanting this 300 quid, then,
42:19 for today's scenic drive.
42:20 Now I've taken, it means I have to take more jobs.
42:23 Mate, take it or don't, it's your call.
42:26 But you will be taking more jobs,
42:27 because once you sign up with me and Harry,
42:29 you do not fail us.
42:30 Be a shame if Caleb was to find out what you've
42:32 been up to behind his back.
42:32 Caleb?
42:34 He's nothing.
42:35 Harry?
42:36 Now that's a man you need to stay the right side up.
42:40 Unless you're ready to pay the default tax,
42:43 which can't be paid with money.
42:46 You stay away from me, can't you?
42:48 Harsh.
42:49 But if that's what it takes, mate, to keep you happy,
42:52 to keep us happy, I'll stay clear.
42:55 See you soon, superstar.
43:01 Yeah, they've ran his license plate on the AMPR
43:09 and they're questioning neighbours now, so.
43:12 That's his car.
43:14 He's coming.
43:16 His car's coming up the road?
43:18 I don't know, Nicola.
43:19 Look, it's only just coming.
43:20 I'll let you know, yeah?
43:22 Is that Laurel?
43:23 Is she there with him?
43:24 I don't know.
43:25 I can't see.
43:26 I can't let you go there.
43:27 My wife could be in that car.
43:29 Stay back.
43:31 (sobs)
43:33 Oh, God, Laurel!
43:51 Are you all right?
43:53 Did he hurt you?
43:54 No.
43:55 I'm safe.
43:59 You are.
44:00 You're safe now.
44:02 I promise you.
44:03 You're safe.
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