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00:00You also mentioned earlier that you chose to believe, right?
00:06That you wanted to believe more than anything else.
00:10You wanted to believe more than anything else.
00:14But now, you've reached a point where you're thinking,
00:18Do I really believe in myself? Did that really happen to me?
00:22But I don't want to villainize him.
00:25I want to villainize him.
00:28I'm always a villain. No, we will not villainize him. We will try to understand.
00:32It's not his fault if he doesn't love me.
00:35But that's it.
00:38At least now, he's answered my question.
00:43It's not his fault if he doesn't love you because love doesn't force you.
00:46But it's your fault if you believe the person you love,
00:50even if the truth is that it's not true.
00:52But the whole truth,
00:55did he tell you why?
00:57Did he tell you if he really loved you back then?
01:02Did you really want to kiss me back then?
01:05Did you really...
01:07Did you really love me when you first kissed me?
01:09What's the real reason? Did he tell you?
01:12Even when we're friends,
01:14I don't have the courage to ask him because I'm afraid to answer.
01:20What's the real score?
01:24Honestly,
01:25right now, I'm the only one who understands what happened before because...
01:34Of course, I'm the one who broke up.
01:36And I want to...
01:38I'm the good guy. I'm still a good guy. I'm not bad.
01:41And now I realize that
01:44I took a lot from him.
01:48I wish I could give him something more authentic.
01:53Or he gave you what he gave you.
01:56What can you say that's more authentic?
01:58Because now I realize, I understand that
02:03I'm doing everything because
02:05I need to look like a man.
02:08Why do you keep on saying that? You need to look like a man.
02:12What is your gender identity?
02:16Because...
02:20I'm gay.
02:23And then, I told him that.
02:27I know. He told me that in the second part of our relationship,
02:33the three-fourths of it,
02:35after the three-fourths,
02:39there was one time when we were on our way home,
02:43and I was just staring at him.
02:45Then I asked him,
02:49do you want to confess something to me?
02:51But at that time, my intention was just to hear sweet words
02:55because I'm a words of affirmation girl.
02:58But then he suddenly confessed that
03:02at that moment, he had internal struggles with his sexuality.
03:08At that time, I didn't know how to handle that
03:15big of a problem or that big of a confession.
03:20So what I did at that time, since I'm a psych major,
03:24I was more...
03:26There are signs that you understand.
03:29Yes. And at the same time, I prioritized his welfare.
03:33Because he told me at that time that I shouldn't leave him
03:37because he has a dark base.
03:39What does that mean? What is a dark base?
03:42Since I was a child, I was forced to have a dark base.
03:48My sexuality. Because my family is religious.
03:51Of course, if you're gay, you're going straight to hell.
03:54That's what they're telling you.
03:56That's what they believe.
03:58If you're gay, you're going straight to hell.
04:00Yes. Until...
04:03I didn't...
04:05In my childhood, I didn't know myself.
04:10Because I was hiding.
04:13I had to hide.
04:14Because if I didn't, what would my relatives or parents do to me?
04:21I didn't know what they would do to me.
04:23My classmates bullied me every day.
04:28I didn't know if I could handle that
04:32if I acknowledged to myself that I was gay.
04:36So...
04:38It was really hard.
04:40That's why...
04:45And then, during that time, I confessed to him.
04:49There were other family problems.
04:52Because our family is dysfunctional.
04:56So...
05:01I needed to be able to handle him.
05:05And then, that time, I also remember that
05:08I told him that I wasn't gay.
05:11But I told her I was bisexual.
05:13Because that's more acceptable.
05:16But the truth is, you're gay.
05:17Yes.
05:19Now, we understand better why...
05:23Why it's not clear to you if you're in love.
05:26Why it's not clear to you what you felt when you kissed.
05:32Right?
05:33What's the reason why you're chasing him again?
05:36Now, it's clear that...
05:41Those are your ways to protect yourself.
05:46Because you felt like, all your life, you felt like you were in trouble.
05:52And that's what a lot of gays feel.
05:56Or a lot of members of the LGBTQIA plus community in society.
06:00That's what a lot of people go through every day.
06:04You felt so unsafe, right?
06:07Every day, I needed to fight.
06:11I needed to be strong because...
06:14No one...
06:16No one wanted to accept me.
06:22It really hurts.
06:29I think what you're saying is that you need to fight every day.
06:32Not everyone goes through that.
06:35Some people need to hide every day.
06:39Not to fight, but to hide.
06:44He's the only one who understands me.
06:50In the beginning, you used him to hide.
06:53So that you'll look like a man.
06:57Because you have a girlfriend.
06:59So that they won't fool you.
07:01So that your family won't think that you're not going to hell anymore.
07:06Because he already has a girlfriend, right?
07:08Yes.
07:09Right?
07:12Because of the hate that you feel towards that person.
07:18Where will he go?
07:21Where will he go?
07:23What decisions will he make?
07:26I'm not saying that what he did to you is right.
07:28I'm not saying that it's right.
07:31Because we used him for our protection.
07:35But we hurt him.
07:37That will never be right.
07:39But I understand where you're coming from.
07:41Why you went to that decision.
07:45It's hard, right?
07:50I don't want to stop.
07:52It's okay, Ivan.
07:54It's okay.
07:56When did you find the courage to say,
08:01I'm gay.
08:03You thought it was easy, but it was hard.
08:09Because before this, you already admitted it.
08:12That's why he was open to saying, I'm gay on TV.
08:17Today, right?
08:18But before this, when did you have that courage to say,
08:23I'm gay.
08:25Because you already know that.
08:27But you can't say it with your tongue.
08:30You're hiding it because you're afraid.
08:33He already knows that.
08:35He already knows that.
08:37But he can't say it.
08:39He's hiding his fear.
08:41When did you lose that fear?
08:43I felt, or I acknowledged myself,
08:48the moment I broke up with him.
08:53That was a new year.
08:55December 31.
08:58That's not a new year yet because January has no new year.
09:01It's almost there.
09:03New year's eve.
09:05You just took a photo.
09:07Desperation.
09:08New year's eve.
09:11I can't stop you.
09:13Just kidding.
09:15I was just trying to make it light.
09:17I'm sorry.
09:19It's hard to accept that
09:21when you're like that,
09:26you'll go to hell.
09:28Right?
09:29When people say they're religious.
09:32How can we say that God forgives?
09:37Where will that go?
09:39It's not their fault
09:44that this is my heart.
09:47This is what I want.
09:50I just became real.
09:52All religions are coming from love,
09:57and empathy,
09:59and sympathy,
10:00and compassion,
10:01and kindness,
10:02and respect.
10:04So if your religion is teaching you otherwise,
10:07it's about time you re-evaluate yourself
10:10and your faith.
10:13Right?
10:14There's no religion that teaches people
10:18to have guts.
10:20You should be mad at him.
10:21You should have guts.
10:22Don't accept him.
10:24You should be cruel to him.
10:26What kind of religion is that?
10:29All religions are coming from love.
10:33That's the basic teaching of every religion.
10:36Love.
10:37That's where all true religions come from.
10:40Right?
10:43So,
10:45I am very proud of you
10:47that you, again,
10:48found the courage to speak your truth
10:51because your truth will allow people to understand you.
10:54Because before you say that,
10:56people will look at you like,
10:57he's crazy.
10:58He's fooling a woman.
11:00Right?
11:01Why is he like that to a woman?
11:02He has no respect for a woman
11:03because they won't understand where you're coming from.
11:06That's why,
11:07I've been saying this for a long time,
11:09I want him to speak his truth
11:11so that you can understand him.
11:12Not to say that he did the right thing,
11:15but to understand
11:16why he went there.
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