Love After Lockup S9 Episode 4 - How Mentally Stable Are You
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00:00:00♪♪
00:00:30Are you gonna cry?
00:00:35I might.
00:00:36Girl, I love you.
00:00:37What are you doing, K-son?
00:00:41I hope that Joey's ready to be a full-time parent.
00:00:43Welcome home, Tramp!
00:00:45Me and True's been engaged for a year and nine months,
00:00:47but this is the first time we met in person.
00:00:49It's been 13 years. I already had some sex.
00:00:52Yeah.
00:00:53Wake up this morning, he just gone.
00:00:56You haven't even been called your parole officer.
00:00:58I hate rules.
00:01:00What is it?
00:01:01She wasn't even up in here.
00:01:02I don't know why he playing with his freedom right now.
00:01:04And this is not supposed to be felt like a job.
00:01:07Can you take this mic off me for a second?
00:01:09I'm ready for you. There's people all over you.
00:01:11Ashori, Troy and I have been married for three years.
00:01:14Getting married while he was still incarcerated
00:01:16and never having lived with him.
00:01:18We have some concerns.
00:01:19You gotta get it together.
00:01:21Troy adopted my son, Isaiah, while he's been incarcerated.
00:01:24Just no more walking around booty cheeks out.
00:01:27You can walk around and wear whatever you want.
00:01:29Hopefully it's a real sister.
00:01:31She's gone by the time I get there.
00:01:35I love you.
00:01:37I'm about to find out if Troy does have a small d*** or not.
00:01:50Last night was like so, so good.
00:01:55Real food?
00:01:56Yeah.
00:02:04I felt like all this time while he was in prison
00:02:08you were d*** fishing me saying,
00:02:10oh, it's small, it's small.
00:02:13Yeah, definitely wasn't.
00:02:16I mean, I just had to make it something to be worried about.
00:02:18Well, I'm definitely not worried.
00:02:21And I'm overjoyed.
00:02:24I'm very shocked.
00:02:26He actually was not small
00:02:29and I felt like I was very concerned about that.
00:02:33All of my fears went away last night
00:02:35and he definitely satisfied me.
00:02:38He has a d***.
00:02:40One thing I definitely noticed
00:02:42was that you kept going towards the edge of the bed
00:02:46and I had to keep pulling you over.
00:02:47Like, we got this big old bed
00:02:49and you all the way over there.
00:02:51Well, if you were sleeping on a twin size mat for seven years, baby,
00:02:55I'm sure you would be like, you know,
00:02:57confined to one little area of your bed just as well.
00:02:59I know.
00:03:00Institutionalized.
00:03:02No more twin size and hard mats and keys.
00:03:08I ain't hear no keys this morning.
00:03:10I ain't had to get up on no stupid ass count.
00:03:12Glad to be out of there, baby, for real.
00:03:15Home with the comfort and your wife.
00:03:20Last night, I mean, basically,
00:03:22that was just like selling the deal to our marriage.
00:03:25Like, we hit it off naturally.
00:03:27I was definitely surprised about our chemistry
00:03:29for our first time together.
00:03:31I just sat back and I admired the beautiful woman
00:03:34that had been there for me all this time.
00:03:36It was like I loved every piece of her, literally.
00:03:39I talked to your mom.
00:03:41Don't be mad.
00:03:43She wants to come see you.
00:03:45She's coming to Syracuse this afternoon.
00:03:49And I want you to pick her up.
00:03:51Wait, so you decided to tell me last minute
00:03:56that I need to go pick my mother up?
00:03:58I thought that wasn't part of what we were supposed to be doing.
00:04:01I do know how you feel about your mom.
00:04:03I know you all haven't had the best of a relationship.
00:04:06But I just feel like this will be one step
00:04:09in the right direction of you all's healing process.
00:04:12And if you don't have a good relationship with your mom,
00:04:14how can you have good relationships
00:04:16with other women in your life, you know?
00:04:18Yeah, but what if that's something
00:04:20that I wasn't ready to do just yet?
00:04:22Like, how do you just take that upon yourself
00:04:24to do something like that?
00:04:26I don't understand that.
00:04:28I wasn't trying to upset you.
00:04:30But I felt bad, like, I didn't have anybody else
00:04:33from your family, your friends at the release.
00:04:36And I felt like I had to bring somebody a part of this moment.
00:04:41When I was about maybe 2, 3 years old,
00:04:45my mom dropped me off at her friend's house
00:04:47and never came back to get me.
00:04:50At the time, you know, I didn't understand
00:04:53what I was going through at such a young age.
00:04:56Nobody's gonna love you like your mother,
00:04:58quote, unquote, is supposed to love you.
00:05:00So I don't know what that feels like.
00:05:03All right.
00:05:05I'll give it a try.
00:05:07After staying in foster care for a while,
00:05:11for the most part, my aunt raised me
00:05:14off and on with me living with my dad.
00:05:17One last thing, bae.
00:05:19Your mom's gonna be staying with us tonight.
00:05:22Staying with us?
00:05:24Yes.
00:05:25See, that's where we draw the line.
00:05:26What do you mean?
00:05:27I agreed to see her and pick her up.
00:05:28I ain't got no problem with that.
00:05:29But staying at the house, that's just too much.
00:05:31Bae.
00:05:32I just came home.
00:05:33I don't want to deal with all that.
00:05:34This is your mother.
00:05:35Why are you acting like that?
00:05:36I don't want to be in close confinement,
00:05:37like, not with my mother.
00:05:39I just came home.
00:05:40In my entire time being incarcerated,
00:05:42over seven years,
00:05:44my mom didn't visit me in prison.
00:05:46She should have been one of the last people
00:05:48that I got to see, not one of the first.
00:05:51♪♪♪♪♪
00:06:00This is not supposed to be filmed like a job.
00:06:03Let's just get through the stuff that we have to do.
00:06:05Like, you make the day procrastinate longer and longer.
00:06:07What am I doing?
00:06:08You just combative on everything.
00:06:09Name something.
00:06:10True, everything.
00:06:11Let me fix this.
00:06:13Can you take this mic off me for a second?
00:06:17♪♪♪♪♪♪
00:06:25Shanti is taking the parole thing too seriously.
00:06:27She just have an attitude.
00:06:29You know how people bicker and argue a lot?
00:06:32It's like, ah, just get married already.
00:06:34Shut it up, you know what I mean?
00:06:36Like, that's us.
00:06:37Nah, I can't get married to nobody
00:06:39that I argue with all the time.
00:06:42What you just go up there and do?
00:06:45Took my mic off.
00:06:46Why you taking the mic off?
00:06:47I feel like I'm dealing with an idiot.
00:06:49I told you how this was.
00:06:51And you knew just in the moment to where you're like,
00:06:54I don't want nobody telling me what to do.
00:06:56Let's get through it.
00:06:58Okay, that's a...up.
00:06:59I'm not perfect.
00:07:01Let's go.
00:07:03♪♪♪♪♪♪
00:07:08Seeing True outside of here,
00:07:09I feel like I'm dealing with the 18-year-old
00:07:12that went to jail.
00:07:13True just think he know it all.
00:07:15When it comes to the system,
00:07:16that's one thing you should have learned
00:07:18not to take a gamble with by now.
00:07:23And then, like, I don't think he really grasps
00:07:25how much money is coming out for Airbnb,
00:07:27how much money is coming out for rental,
00:07:29how much money is being spent to make sure he's good.
00:07:32Oh, my gosh.
00:07:34Right now, I'm just taking it second by second.
00:07:37Millisecond by second at this point.
00:07:39Why you in bed for?
00:07:43Can I jump or I'm gonna break it?
00:07:46You probably gonna break it.
00:07:48What if I said I'm gonna jump and I broke it?
00:07:51Man, I'm exhausted. I'm tired.
00:07:55I think there's stuff we gotta work on.
00:07:58Our communications still suck.
00:08:01So what you think the problem is?
00:08:03You.
00:08:05What you think I need to work on?
00:08:07Listening.
00:08:08You don't compromise at all.
00:08:10It's not that I don't listen.
00:08:12I want to listen, but I just be,
00:08:14it's just be a lot going on in my head
00:08:16of me trying to figure it out.
00:08:18What you thinking?
00:08:20Life, you feel what I'm saying?
00:08:22I'm adapting being an alien on Earth.
00:08:25What I know, identification.
00:08:27I can't do nothing. I can't even drive.
00:08:30So you frustrated?
00:08:31I want to say s*** and drive.
00:08:33You know what I mean?
00:08:34But it's like I don't want to take the chance
00:08:36of getting pulled over just on some petty bulls***.
00:08:39I don't see how you don't understand.
00:08:41I'm trying to tell you.
00:08:43At the same time, it don't stop you from
00:08:45caring about other people's feelings
00:08:47and listening to people and communicating.
00:08:49You feel like I'm not caring about you?
00:08:51Yeah.
00:08:52In what way?
00:08:53A lot of ways. You don't.
00:08:55If you not even listen to what I'm saying half the time,
00:08:58how the hell you care about somebody?
00:09:01You good, man. It's not you. You good.
00:09:04I know I'm good. We're not good, though.
00:09:06We're not supposed to be dating. We're not friends.
00:09:08We're supposed to be engaged.
00:09:10The goal is to continue to build with each other.
00:09:12How the hell are we building if we arguing
00:09:14your second day out?
00:09:16I don't know, Chante. I don't know, man.
00:09:23So you think it's a matter of staying engaged, dating,
00:09:26being friends, or what do you want to do?
00:09:29I think...
00:09:41The sex was great, Kimberly.
00:09:44I think we might have made a baby last night.
00:09:46I don't ever use protection.
00:09:48I think we are ready for that yet.
00:09:50Ooh, born ready.
00:09:51At this time, I see no information indicating
00:09:53that your husband is getting released.
00:09:55This could have all been a lie.
00:09:57My heart's broken at this point.
00:09:59I'm a little worried. Does he have, like, a job?
00:10:01I've spent $5,000, $6,000, $7,000.
00:10:04I don't think I've fully thought this through.
00:10:19It's crazy that I still have on prison boxers.
00:10:26Just do it?
00:10:28Yeah.
00:10:30Joey just got out of prison,
00:10:32and I've never been more excited in my life right now.
00:10:35Oh.
00:10:36And he's so hot.
00:10:38I want this plain Jane chicken sandwich.
00:10:44I'm gonna get a barbecue wing
00:10:46and then get a classic burger.
00:10:48I'll be right back, y'all. Thank you.
00:10:50Don't it feel better not to have to sneak around
00:10:52like we did in 2018?
00:10:54You know.
00:10:55You hide from your neighbors?
00:10:57This is our first real date.
00:10:59I know.
00:11:00We get to spend our first whole night together.
00:11:02Yeah.
00:11:03We used to spend the mornings together,
00:11:05and then you dip off.
00:11:07You were actually with somebody then.
00:11:09I wasn't.
00:11:11In 2018, my ex cheated on me.
00:11:14We weren't married yet,
00:11:16but we were still living in the same house,
00:11:18and Joey, I think, started out as a revenge...
00:11:21But, I mean, I'd always had a thing for him,
00:11:23so it was like, yep, definitely doing that.
00:11:26But then I found out I was pregnant with my ex's baby,
00:11:30and I left Joey, and I went back to him.
00:11:33We got married for my kids,
00:11:35but the affairs continued,
00:11:37and I absolutely could not take it anymore.
00:11:39When is your divorce gonna be finalized anyway?
00:11:41I don't know.
00:11:42He said he's not gonna sign the papers.
00:11:44He thinks that if I'm not with you,
00:11:45like, I'll come back to him.
00:11:46Well, you're gonna be with me,
00:11:47so that doesn't make no difference, right?
00:11:49Yeah.
00:11:50Okay, so...
00:11:51That had to have been him sending those messages.
00:11:53It's gotta be him.
00:11:55I have no idea who Ashley is.
00:11:58It's gotta be somebody that don't want me and Kimberly together.
00:12:02Somebody that texted me saying Kimberly was out one night,
00:12:06hugged up with a guy in a picture.
00:12:08I mean, I might be wrong,
00:12:10but her ex, just a few months ago this summer,
00:12:13he was trying to get all the attention,
00:12:15trying to get her back.
00:12:17He tried everything in the book,
00:12:20and she's just done.
00:12:21She's moved on.
00:12:22He needs to find him a good girl
00:12:25and just leave her alone.
00:12:26Are we gonna get through the past?
00:12:28The past behind us?
00:12:31I've done the whole ecstasy thing.
00:12:33I've shot heroin.
00:12:34I've shot cocaine.
00:12:35I've done it all, pretty much.
00:12:38All right, we ready to go?
00:12:39Yeah.
00:12:40But I don't want to be that person anymore.
00:12:43Like, I have changed,
00:12:44and I just want to make Kimberly happy
00:12:47and teach the boys and be their daddy
00:12:49and, you know, live a good life.
00:12:54God.
00:12:55It's right there.
00:12:56These are hood cabins.
00:12:58Hey.
00:12:59It's okay.
00:13:01Isn't it cute?
00:13:02It's small, but it's cute.
00:13:04Yeah.
00:13:05And it's got a real fireplace too, right?
00:13:07Yeah.
00:13:08We're gonna make a fire, really?
00:13:10You can do that.
00:13:11I'm gonna take these shoes off and change.
00:13:13Be back in a minute.
00:13:16I'm definitely nervous about having sex with Joey.
00:13:18It's not hard to do at all.
00:13:20What?
00:13:21Bada-bing.
00:13:22We've had sex before, and it was so good.
00:13:25But that was in 2018.
00:13:28Like, I have had two children since then.
00:13:32The mom bod is real.
00:13:33I am so self-conscious.
00:13:38Wanna play a game?
00:13:39Babe, y'all wanna play a game?
00:13:41You look gorgeous, baby.
00:13:46Kimberly looks gorgeous.
00:13:48She looks beautiful.
00:13:49She always does to me.
00:13:54Last time I saw a girl naked was right before I got locked up.
00:14:00Six years now.
00:14:01But I'm not nervous at all to have sex with her.
00:14:05It's gonna be like riding a bike, I think.
00:14:11She just gets off anyway when she's with me.
00:14:15Oh, God.
00:14:23I told Daniel to call me at 12.
00:14:25He did not call me.
00:14:26It's 1 p.m., so it's been an hour since I told him to call me.
00:14:29Yeah.
00:14:30I'm sure he'll get back to you.
00:14:31Remember that one day where he was, like, sleeping for, like, four hours?
00:14:34Okay, but it's like, I should be priority over you sleeping.
00:14:45I fly out tomorrow at 7.15.
00:14:47I don't mind.
00:14:48I literally haven't packed anything.
00:14:49You have to help me.
00:14:50Sounds good.
00:14:52I'm so in love with Daniel.
00:14:54I mean, I love everything about him.
00:14:56He's just hot.
00:14:57He's really attractive, and he's just, like, my dream guy, honestly,
00:15:01besides the fact that he's in prison.
00:15:05Are you excited?
00:15:06I'm nervous.
00:15:07But you've been to Arizona once.
00:15:08Like, you like it?
00:15:09I don't think I fully thought this through.
00:15:12Daniel is currently incarcerated for aggravated DUI
00:15:16and third-degree burglary.
00:15:18He's been in prison for about four and a half years,
00:15:21and we have been going strong for eight months.
00:15:42I had to tell her, Bianca, would you marry me?
00:15:44And she said yes.
00:15:46I get butterflies when I think about it.
00:15:48Like, I just don't know what to expect.
00:15:51I mean, sometimes we do impulsive things, like...
00:15:54I mean, I don't think it's impulsive.
00:15:55I mean, I love him.
00:15:57I'm born and raised in Florida,
00:15:59but Daniel can't leave the state of Arizona for 90 days after he's released,
00:16:04so I got a four-month lease, and I paid it all up front,
00:16:08not really knowing what the plans are yet,
00:16:10but I want to be near him when he gets out,
00:16:12because if my man cannot leave that state,
00:16:15I'm moving to that state.
00:16:18Do you know what he's going to do?
00:16:20Does he have, like, a job?
00:16:22I mean, nothing.
00:16:23Nothing lined up?
00:16:24I mean, who cares?
00:16:26They're not going to let you.
00:16:27I just don't want you to, like, you know,
00:16:29not flip the bill for everything, but just, like, you know,
00:16:32I want to make sure that things are even.
00:16:35I honestly haven't been tracking what I've been spending.
00:16:38$3,000, maybe.
00:16:40Might be $5,000.
00:16:42$6,000.
00:16:44$7,000.
00:16:45I don't know.
00:16:46I don't really keep track of it.
00:16:49You think I flipped the bill?
00:16:51No, I'm not saying you do.
00:16:52I'm just wanting to make sure.
00:16:53I mean, maybe for a little bit.
00:16:54I mean, the man's been in prison.
00:16:56He's in pretty bad debt.
00:16:58Yeah.
00:17:00I'd say that Bianca's being a little delusional.
00:17:03I hope that everything works out.
00:17:04I do.
00:17:05I want the best for her,
00:17:06but I just don't think that this is the best for her.
00:17:08I am very scared that she's making a rash decision.
00:17:12Well, I appreciate you caring about me,
00:17:13but I think I'm going to be okay.
00:17:15So we'll just see.
00:17:17Daniel doesn't really have anything to offer her.
00:17:19I mean, he can offer her love,
00:17:21but love can only get you so far.
00:17:24I just, I honestly want a drink right now.
00:17:25I'm so on edge.
00:17:28So he has everything to gain,
00:17:30and she has everything to lose.
00:17:32You have a lot going on.
00:17:33Yeah.
00:17:34It's just overwhelming.
00:17:35It's honestly too much.
00:17:37How does my scar look?
00:17:39It looks a lot better
00:17:40compared to, like, when you couldn't speak.
00:17:43But I'm still insecure about it.
00:17:44I mean, it's still obvious.
00:17:46About nine months ago,
00:17:48I went out one night with a friend
00:17:50that I hadn't seen in years.
00:17:52I had a few drinks.
00:17:54She offered to take me home.
00:17:56I didn't realize she was drunk,
00:17:59and she went up the airport ramp
00:18:02and ended up literally smashing
00:18:06into a concrete wall.
00:18:08I had broken my neck
00:18:10and fractured my back.
00:18:13I lost my voice completely.
00:18:15I didn't get my voice back
00:18:17for about three months after the surgery.
00:18:19It was so terrifying.
00:18:22I would love to just go there one last time
00:18:24and just see it.
00:18:25Yeah.
00:18:26You know, for closure.
00:18:27I know.
00:18:28As long as you're feeling, like, okay,
00:18:30I'm a little worried about you
00:18:31driving to the airport by yourself.
00:18:36Honestly, the reason that I went on, like,
00:18:38prisoner website in the first place
00:18:40was because I was going through
00:18:42such a hard time healing from the accident.
00:18:44Text me if you need anything.
00:18:46I was specifically looking to write someone
00:18:49that had a DUI offense.
00:18:51I just wanted to maybe see
00:18:53if someone could relate to me.
00:18:56I just feel like there's nothing for me
00:18:58here in Florida anymore.
00:19:00Only just trauma.
00:19:04I do think that, you know,
00:19:06being in Arizona and being with Daniel
00:19:08is the fresh start that I need in life.
00:19:10I think that's going to help my mental health
00:19:12tremendously.
00:19:15Daniel has really helped me kind of
00:19:17heal from things.
00:19:27So this is where I almost died.
00:19:30I haven't been here since that night.
00:19:33And it's really crazy.
00:19:36I do believe that I can help Daniel.
00:19:39Like, he's helped me.
00:19:41I do want to kind of save him.
00:19:47I don't know. It's just emotional.
00:19:50No, like, I think I'm going to have a panic attack.
00:19:53Just, like, everything is just kind of
00:19:55too much.
00:19:58I see us settling down
00:20:00and buying a house together.
00:20:07Just having a happy life.
00:20:10I'm okay.
00:20:12I want nothing to do with this airport.
00:20:14I hate it.
00:20:16I'm not allowed to talk about
00:20:18the specifics of the accident
00:20:20and whatever money I may or may not
00:20:22have got out of it.
00:20:24I have a lot of money.
00:20:26Saved.
00:20:27I'm comfortable not working.
00:20:30I'm flying out from Miami instead.
00:20:32So it's like 45 minutes.
00:20:34When I could just be going five minutes down the road,
00:20:36but that's how much I just don't
00:20:38want to even be here.
00:20:41Daniel knows how much money I have.
00:20:43But he also understands that
00:20:45it's for our future together.
00:20:47I trust him.
00:20:49And maybe I'm blinded by love, but
00:20:51it feels so right in my heart that
00:20:53I should just go there and be with him.
00:21:02We're home.
00:21:04Isaiah loves Troy.
00:21:06I never let him go.
00:21:07I don't get a hug.
00:21:08Oh, sorry.
00:21:13Really confused right now.
00:21:15I definitely think it's just me helping him do his dirt.
00:21:17Hello, friend.
00:21:19I feel like I was played.
00:21:24Are you excited to see Isaiah?
00:21:26Absolutely.
00:21:28Finally get to meet him on the outside world.
00:21:30You ain't got to come to no jail visits.
00:21:38He's known you since what age?
00:21:40Five.
00:21:42And now he's 11, and he's so excited
00:21:44to have a father in his life.
00:21:46And I'm excited that he has
00:21:48a father in his life.
00:21:51And I'm excited that he has someone that
00:21:53not only is a part of his life,
00:21:55but that's been consistently showing up
00:21:57for him as a father.
00:21:59I don't get any help
00:22:01from my child's father.
00:22:03I've never gotten child support.
00:22:05All right, welcome home, bae.
00:22:07Oh, thank you.
00:22:09But Troy and Isaiah's relationship
00:22:11is definitely
00:22:13that father-son duo.
00:22:15So quiet.
00:22:17It's exactly what I asked for.
00:22:20Isaiah loves, loves, loves Troy.
00:22:22We're home.
00:22:24Hey, baby.
00:22:26Dad!
00:22:33What's up, little man?
00:22:35How you feel?
00:22:37Good. I'm never letting go. That's how you know.
00:22:39You're not letting go?
00:22:41You ain't supposed to.
00:22:43Adam, give a hug.
00:22:45Oh, sorry.
00:22:47It's okay.
00:22:49This is a moment I've been waiting for
00:22:51for a very, very long time.
00:22:53Zaria was talking about Isaiah's father
00:22:55and how he's not on his birth certificate.
00:22:57So I wanted to show that I'm not
00:22:59going anywhere. So I asked her,
00:23:01was there a way that I could put
00:23:03my name on his birth certificate?
00:23:05And she sent me
00:23:07the paperwork, and now
00:23:09legally I'm his father.
00:23:11Just to see the look on your face,
00:23:13see you happy.
00:23:15Can't stop dancing.
00:23:25I gotta show you something real quick.
00:23:27What you gotta show me?
00:23:29You always gotta show me something.
00:23:31Something.
00:23:33This is the gift that you got for Isaiah.
00:23:35He's gonna love this.
00:23:37What's up, little man?
00:23:39Hi.
00:23:41Your dad got something for you.
00:23:45I don't even care what it is.
00:23:47I love it already.
00:23:49Trust me,
00:23:51I'm ecstatic right now.
00:23:53Wow.
00:23:55Oh.
00:23:57Whoa.
00:23:59Well, what do you say?
00:24:03Give me a hug.
00:24:05Isaiah
00:24:07finally gets to have his father in real life,
00:24:09and he's been waiting for this moment.
00:24:11This is cool. Maybe we can sit down
00:24:13and build it right here.
00:24:15Yes. Deal.
00:24:17So,
00:24:19give me the tea.
00:24:23It was an amazing
00:24:25night.
00:24:27I finally got to have sex with my husband,
00:24:29and that was just
00:24:31crazy.
00:24:33Like, three and a half hours crazy.
00:24:35Oh, my gosh.
00:24:39What?
00:24:41You guys are quiet, I guess.
00:24:43Excuse me?
00:24:45You can take an outing.
00:24:47Fine.
00:24:49This is, like,
00:24:51extremely awkward, and
00:24:53I don't feel awkward a lot,
00:24:55and I don't even know if I really
00:24:57want to be here.
00:24:59Troy, you gotta go pick up your mom
00:25:01from the train station. It's time to go.
00:25:03Isaiah, it's time for you to go as well.
00:25:05You gotta go stay with your grandmother tonight.
00:25:07I wanted to stay here.
00:25:09I wanted to stay here, babe, but
00:25:11your grandmother, Karen, is gonna be staying
00:25:13the night tonight, so I'm gonna have you
00:25:15stay the night with Lovey and Papa, okay?
00:25:19What's the matter?
00:25:21This is a lot.
00:25:23Seeing my mother for the
00:25:25first time in seven years,
00:25:27I have resentment
00:25:29throughout my life and through my incarceration.
00:25:31I've never spoken to her.
00:25:33She's never been there for me, so
00:25:35I feel like if my child
00:25:37was ever in the situation that I was in,
00:25:39I'm gonna ride with my
00:25:41child first, wrong, right, or indifferent.
00:25:45What you feeling?
00:25:47I'm feeling like I'm not ready for my mother just yet.
00:25:51My relationship with Karen
00:25:53is very rocky. We're constantly
00:25:55going back and forth.
00:25:57You definitely have to take her in spurts.
00:26:01She just knows how to push you over the edge.
00:26:03I know.
00:26:05But it's important
00:26:07that Troy and his mom can rebuild
00:26:09and they have that conversation
00:26:11because at the end of the day, no matter what,
00:26:13that's still his mother.
00:26:15She's gonna be okay.
00:26:17I love you.
00:26:19Bye, baby.
00:26:29Hurry up, kids!
00:26:31Marsha's gonna be here to take you guys to school!
00:26:33Hello!
00:26:35Mariah?
00:26:37Kira?
00:26:41What's up, Kira?
00:26:43Where's your shoes at?
00:26:45Mariah's not ready either.
00:26:47She looked like she was still sleeping.
00:26:49Almost time to go, ladies. Chop-chop!
00:26:51You going to the office or are you staying here all day?
00:26:53I'm probably clear of my schedule.
00:26:55I just can't. There's a lot going on.
00:26:57What else going on besides work?
00:26:59Uh, this was on the door today.
00:27:01What is this?
00:27:03Something from the sheriff's department.
00:27:05Oh, s***.
00:27:07Yeah, so I don't know if it has something to do with
00:27:09Keith coming home.
00:27:11There you go.
00:27:13The fact that Keith can get out any day, like, I'm super nervous.
00:27:15There's a law that had passed.
00:27:17It's a retroactive law
00:27:19and it affects my husband's charges.
00:27:21Keith has the opportunity
00:27:23to get an immediate release.
00:27:25Let's start making them calls just in case it is about him.
00:27:27This is months sooner than expected.
00:27:29So all these emotions
00:27:31and all this preparation,
00:27:33I am so stressed out.
00:27:35Me and Keith have never been together
00:27:37on the streets.
00:27:39And then, public defender filed
00:27:41a motion to withdraw from Keith's case.
00:27:43What?
00:27:45What did Lamarke say?
00:27:47I don't know. He pissed.
00:27:49He's just confused, you know,
00:27:51having his paralegal Ben tell him,
00:27:53hey, you know, you're going to get out.
00:27:55We're following these motions for you.
00:27:57It's, like, every week.
00:27:59Every week is the anxiety building up.
00:28:01Is there going to be something in here
00:28:03saying that Keith's going to get released?
00:28:05Like, I'm checking his website two or three times a day.
00:28:07That's crazy, yeah.
00:28:09They need to go ahead and let him go.
00:28:11He's ready to kick that popsicle stand, in his words.
00:28:13But I'm going to go ahead
00:28:15and take a picture of this pink slip, too,
00:28:17and I might try to get him a call and see what's going on.
00:28:19Especially if it's got something to do with him.
00:28:21We definitely want to know that for sure.
00:28:23All right.
00:28:25Kira, Nariah, y'all ready?
00:28:27Yeah.
00:28:29Let's go. Bye, babies! Love you!
00:28:31Be careful not to hit your mama's truck
00:28:33when you get in.
00:28:35♪♪♪♪
00:28:37♪♪♪♪
00:28:39♪♪♪♪
00:28:41-♪♪♪♪
00:28:43-♪♪♪♪
00:28:45Hi, um, I was told to call this number
00:28:47for, um, information
00:28:49on my husband's case.
00:28:51His name is Keith.
00:28:53Okay, let me see here.
00:28:55So it looks like there were several
00:28:57motions filed for immediate
00:28:59release. Are you currently
00:29:01working with a registered attorney?
00:29:03We were
00:29:05referred to, and, I mean,
00:29:07we've given him money.
00:29:09Okay. Ben is my husband's
00:29:11paralegal. It is so nice to finally
00:29:13meet you. We paid Ben
00:29:15$1,000 to get Keith out early
00:29:17and trusted his word
00:29:19on the process.
00:29:21It's probably best for you to reach back out to your private
00:29:23attorney or public defender for further
00:29:25clarification.
00:29:27It currently just reads not applicable
00:29:29here, N.A.
00:29:31Okay, and why wouldn't he be getting an
00:29:33immediate release? I'm so lost here.
00:29:35Ma'am, I can only read you
00:29:37information off the docket. I cannot
00:29:39offer you legal advice.
00:29:41Your lawyer would have a better understanding
00:29:43of why this particular law is not
00:29:45applicable in your husband's specific
00:29:47case. Did your husband file
00:29:49this petition from prison?
00:29:51No, not from prison.
00:29:53At this time, I see no information
00:29:55indicating that your husband is getting released
00:29:57before his original D.O.C. date.
00:29:59♪♪♪
00:30:01♪♪♪
00:30:03♪♪♪
00:30:05This is what y'all do
00:30:07before they get out. I definitely
00:30:09feel like I was played. Oh, my God.
00:30:11Bianca's my best friend, and I'm
00:30:13trying to look out for her. Okay.
00:30:15Yeah.
00:30:17Bianca could definitely do better than
00:30:19Daniel. Don't baby me.
00:30:21♪♪♪
00:30:23♪♪♪
00:30:25♪♪♪
00:30:27♪♪♪
00:30:29Yeah, yeah.
00:30:31That's a lot different to wake up
00:30:33this morning beside a pretty girl,
00:30:35my fiancée,
00:30:37in a nice comfy bed,
00:30:39than wake up to a whole bunch of men
00:30:41in a nasty bed, nasty place.
00:30:43I hope to have many, many,
00:30:45many more nights like that right there.
00:30:47♪♪♪♪
00:30:49♪♪♪♪
00:30:51♪♪♪♪
00:30:53We had to put cookies
00:30:55and milk out for Santa tonight.
00:30:57Being in Joey's arms
00:30:59this morning is amazing.
00:31:01Last night, sex
00:31:03was everything I remember.
00:31:05There is just something this man does
00:31:07to me that nobody's ever been able to do
00:31:09to me before, and he definitely
00:31:11did it to me last night.
00:31:13All right. We've got to hurry up and get home.
00:31:15I know these kids are thinking,
00:31:17what are they doing?
00:31:19I think they're good for my mama.
00:31:21I know they are, but they've never been without me this long.
00:31:23You know what I think, babe?
00:31:25What? I think we might have made a baby last night.
00:31:27What do you think?
00:31:29I don't think we are ready for that yet, but...
00:31:31Hey, we're always ready.
00:31:33We were born ready.
00:31:35The sex was great with Kimberly.
00:31:37We did not use protection.
00:31:39I don't ever use protection.
00:31:41Start putting this stuff in the car.
00:31:43We want little girls, babe.
00:31:45So maybe we'll have one.
00:31:47I don't know if we're quite ready yet,
00:31:49but I still want my own blood.
00:31:53We can't forget to stop and get presents for the boys.
00:31:55Those aren't even Christmas gifts.
00:31:57Those are just like Joey gifts.
00:31:59Let's see if I can find
00:32:01a toy store near here.
00:32:03Right or left?
00:32:05Right.
00:32:07I would think that.
00:32:09I would be able to pick something out.
00:32:11You've talked to them enough. You should know.
00:32:13But this is your first impression,
00:32:15so you better make it good.
00:32:17I'm gonna make it good, babe.
00:32:19Are you nervous?
00:32:21No, I'm not nervous.
00:32:23Not at all?
00:32:25You've never even seen them in person?
00:32:27Kids are like dogs.
00:32:29You know, like, if you just play with them,
00:32:31bring them toys and stuff, they're good.
00:32:33I'm just playing.
00:32:35I'm just playing.
00:32:39I just think it's cool getting released
00:32:41at Christmastime,
00:32:43and it's gonna be so exciting.
00:32:45Meeting the boys, everything is new to me.
00:32:47The daddy thing,
00:32:49the husband thing,
00:32:51everything, all of it,
00:32:53being with somebody, living with somebody,
00:32:55living with two kids.
00:32:57Yeah, it'll be okay.
00:33:01I'm gonna go in by myself
00:33:03and I don't have any influence
00:33:05what I get them,
00:33:07and it'll be just for me, right?
00:33:09That work?
00:33:11All right, give me your card, sugar mama.
00:33:15I love you.
00:33:17I love you.
00:33:19I'm okay with being his sugar mama for now.
00:33:21I do know that with time,
00:33:23I want him to contribute
00:33:25and take care of me and the kids.
00:33:27I want him to be the breadwinner of the house.
00:33:29He's definitely gonna have to have a job
00:33:31Oh, there goes a helmet with a dinosaur on it.
00:33:3570 bucks?
00:33:39He don't care about that.
00:33:41I'm noticing that things are a lot more expensive now
00:33:43than when I went in,
00:33:45like, everything's expensive.
00:33:47Yeah, that would be cool.
00:33:49They wouldn't lose that thing, would they?
00:33:51And then,
00:33:53I think that's a dragon.
00:33:55Can you wrap this up for me? And this too?
00:33:59All right, so it's gonna be
00:34:01$316.50.
00:34:03That's a lot.
00:34:05I don't want to fall.
00:34:07Babe, you're gonna have to help me.
00:34:09Seriously?
00:34:11Open the thing.
00:34:13These are good gifts.
00:34:15You didn't have to go big.
00:34:17Well, I mean, you know, it is what it is, babe.
00:34:19It only happens once, right?
00:34:21Yes, you're only coming home once.
00:34:23Oh, my God.
00:34:25I mean, you got enough. They gotta like something.
00:34:27I need my debit card
00:34:29back in my pocketbook.
00:34:37So, how much money
00:34:39did you spend on Toy Story?
00:34:41$318, I think.
00:34:43Seriously?
00:34:45Yeah, seriously. Babe, we had to get that.
00:34:47That's not nothing to see the kids' faces
00:34:49light up, right?
00:34:51That's a whole lot. I mean, I'm a single mom,
00:34:53and a teacher's assistant that makes
00:34:55$15 an hour.
00:34:57So, I don't really have that kind of money to be spending.
00:34:59I need him to understand
00:35:01we don't sell dope.
00:35:03Ugh.
00:35:07I'm here to see my son, Troy.
00:35:09We wasn't the best of friends
00:35:11before he went to jail.
00:35:13Why didn't you never feel the need to come
00:35:15and see me while I was in prison?
00:35:17Just believe and trust me.
00:35:19I don't trust that man's family as far as I can tell.
00:35:21And I can't tell.
00:35:23I'm about to head to the gym. I got my brother out.
00:35:25He gonna come. Hello, friend.
00:35:27Dang.
00:35:37I'm going to the park.
00:35:39Hey. Hey, what's up?
00:35:45I'm so excited
00:35:47to be hanging out with you.
00:35:49I'm gonna miss you.
00:35:51See you tomorrow.
00:35:53Are you excited?
00:35:55I'm really excited, but I'm also kind of nervous.
00:35:57Yeah, I would be too, dude.
00:35:59Andres is my best friend that I've known since high school.
00:36:01I honestly love him so much.
00:36:03He's such an amazing person.
00:36:05We had that one class together.
00:36:07What was that teacher's name?
00:36:09I don't know. Darlene?
00:36:11We were literally inseparable.
00:36:13For like six months, and then I went to rehab.
00:36:15Yeah, dude.
00:36:17It was like jail for children.
00:36:19My parents got divorced at like
00:36:21eight years old at such a young age.
00:36:23Like, that's so traumatizing.
00:36:25And he's gone through a lot of struggle himself.
00:36:27And I think that's something that we kind of bond on.
00:36:29So when does he get out?
00:36:3130 days.
00:36:33So I'm gonna spend like a month by myself.
00:36:35How long is he gonna be in the halfway house for?
00:36:37He's basically like,
00:36:39listen, I'm not staying in halfway.
00:36:41I don't care what I have to do.
00:36:43He's getting out of prison, and he's saying he doesn't want to go to the halfway house.
00:36:45Yeah, well, he was like, I'll report there,
00:36:47and I don't want to stay there.
00:36:49He's like, I want to stay with you.
00:36:51And then I'm like, okay, well, you might have to stay in the halfway.
00:36:53No, no, not might.
00:36:55He has to stay in the halfway.
00:36:57Yeah, he has to stay in the halfway.
00:36:59Or he's gonna go back to prison.
00:37:01I mean, I don't know if that's the case, but...
00:37:03No, no, no, that's the case.
00:37:05He just is like, I'm gonna talk to the PO.
00:37:07I'm gonna see if I can just stay with you.
00:37:09And he just believes that he's gonna get his way.
00:37:11So stubborn.
00:37:13Bianca is very impulsive.
00:37:15She tends to do things without thinking about the consequences.
00:37:17I would never message a prisoner.
00:37:19Hello, you have a prepaid call from...
00:37:21Daniel.
00:37:23You may begin speaking now.
00:37:25Hello.
00:37:27Why didn't you call me?
00:37:29I've been calling you.
00:37:31No, you haven't.
00:37:33I told you to call me at 12.
00:37:35You didn't call me.
00:37:37Baby, I was in class.
00:37:39You told me you got out of class at 12.
00:37:41So I called you.
00:37:43You told me you got out of class at 12.
00:37:45So, like, what have you been doing?
00:37:47It's been, like, three hours since then.
00:37:49Oh, yeah, we didn't
00:37:51directly communicate his time zone.
00:37:53Daniel has been acting
00:37:55weird, you know, the past few weeks.
00:37:57Just not really
00:37:59communicating as much
00:38:01as he can. Like, he can call me really
00:38:03when I tell him to call me.
00:38:05Hey, I was just really upset
00:38:07because I went to the airport
00:38:09and it was honestly really traumatizing
00:38:11driving around there, and I really just wanted
00:38:13to talk to you, and that's the time that I needed
00:38:15you, and you didn't call me.
00:38:17Baby.
00:38:19Okay, what do you mean, don't baby me.
00:38:21Well,
00:38:23that's a huge deal, revisiting
00:38:25where that trauma happened, and I wasn't there.
00:38:27Yeah, you weren't there.
00:38:29I do apologize, baby.
00:38:31Okay.
00:38:33Can I talk to him? Um, Andres
00:38:35wants to talk to you.
00:38:37Alright, yeah, call him when I'm over.
00:38:39Hi, Daniel.
00:38:43Are you gonna treat
00:38:45Bianca nice
00:38:47when you get out?
00:38:49Alright, and you're gonna stay
00:38:51in your halfway house?
00:38:53Dude, you gotta stay
00:38:55in your halfway house.
00:38:59I have, but you gotta stay in the halfway
00:39:01house. If not, then you're not gonna
00:39:03last very long
00:39:05outside of, in
00:39:07the world, you know?
00:39:09You don't think so?
00:39:11Yeah, no, I don't think so.
00:39:13Okay.
00:39:15I appreciate your concern
00:39:17and my sobriety.
00:39:19Is that all?
00:39:21I was trying to be real, but you're
00:39:23making it a joke.
00:39:25So, you know, everybody sees
00:39:27the world differently, right?
00:39:29I don't see it the same way that you do.
00:39:31I think Daniel is
00:39:33at a jackass.
00:39:35The way that he responds, it's kind of
00:39:37insensitive, and, like,
00:39:39he doesn't really give a s***. I don't know, I just
00:39:41find him irresponsible and a little
00:39:43bit disrespectful. I think
00:39:45Bianca could definitely do better than
00:39:47Daniel. Bianca's my best friend,
00:39:49and I'm trying to look out for her.
00:39:51Okay.
00:39:53Trust that what I do
00:39:55works for you.
00:40:05Do you think it's a matter of staying engaged,
00:40:07dating, being friends,
00:40:09or what are you going to do?
00:40:11I think...
00:40:23I think we
00:40:25should go with the
00:40:27flow, man. Go with the flow.
00:40:29What do you mean?
00:40:31Like, what are we going back as?
00:40:33We're going back as engaged, we're going back
00:40:35as dating but building,
00:40:37or we're going back as friends?
00:40:43We can go back to dating
00:40:45and building.
00:40:47Let's go with the flow.
00:40:49Stop saying go with the flow.
00:40:57Dating exclusively,
00:40:59or dating?
00:41:03Look,
00:41:05you know dudes in the penitentiary
00:41:07got a reputation of, they do the
00:41:09penitentiary talk, all this s***
00:41:11and they get out and they lead a person
00:41:13who's been doing this
00:41:15and doing that and riding with them and all
00:41:17that s***. I don't want to be like
00:41:19all the other dudes that get out the joint.
00:41:21I ain't going to s*** on you,
00:41:23I ain't going to do none of that, you know what I mean?
00:41:25I just feel like
00:41:27I'm not in the
00:41:29clear
00:41:31mind frame
00:41:33to be
00:41:35exclusive.
00:41:39Yeah.
00:41:43I'm not even focusing on dating.
00:41:45I ain't focusing on dating no other female
00:41:47than that s***.
00:41:49I love you
00:41:53and
00:41:57we still, we together though,
00:41:59we together, it ain't no we taking a break,
00:42:01none of that s***, we together.
00:42:03We together. I still want to see JJ,
00:42:05the kids, all that.
00:42:07So you still want to
00:42:09come back to Independence?
00:42:11Yeah, of course I'll still be paroling with you,
00:42:13spending nights, sleeping with you,
00:42:15all that s***, you know what I mean?
00:42:17Okay.
00:42:23How you feeling? Tell me, what's the warmth of your hands?
00:42:25I'm cool. Nah, don't say you cool
00:42:27and all this s***.
00:42:29I'm really cool.
00:42:31You fine with this?
00:42:33Mm-hmm.
00:42:35I called off the engagement
00:42:37and just wanted to go with the flow, but still be
00:42:39dating because, like,
00:42:41I keep on hearing her say,
00:42:43True, you ain't paying attention to me.
00:42:45You don't even listen to me.
00:42:47And I can't argue with her
00:42:49about that, because obviously
00:42:51I had to do it for her to feel like that.
00:42:53So I ain't trying to point no
00:42:55faults or none of that, but
00:42:57we could have been working on all this
00:42:59if she would have came and visited me.
00:43:01You know what I mean? We get four-hour visits.
00:43:03You still with me?
00:43:05You're childish.
00:43:07You don't feel like I'm using you
00:43:09and all that s***? Because I'm not using you.
00:43:11I promise you ain't. Okay.
00:43:13Can I say something? I want to say something.
00:43:15For all the females
00:43:17who talk to dudes in prison,
00:43:19visit your dude
00:43:21before they get out.
00:43:23Visit him and get to know that person.
00:43:25Can I get a kiss?
00:43:27Yeah.
00:43:29Because it can affect you
00:43:31and your a** when that person get out.
00:43:33True, just one kiss.
00:43:35Damn, I can't even
00:43:37get a kiss from you, man.
00:43:39True, right now, it's just all about himself.
00:43:41No way in hell should I be
00:43:43arguing with somebody that I've been around
00:43:45for two days, but my feelings
00:43:47is hurt because I haven't messaged in almost three years
00:43:49until somebody.
00:43:51You gonna wait downstairs?
00:43:53Yeah, I'll be back.
00:43:55Before True
00:43:57got out here, couldn't nobody tell me that I wasn't
00:43:59being able to be with him.
00:44:01Like now, I don't know.
00:44:03I wasted three years of my life with somebody.
00:44:05I feel like I just wasted my life.
00:44:09They can sit here and just tell me, like,
00:44:11let's just go with the flow.
00:44:15For me, I feel like it's a
00:44:17little relief
00:44:19as long as she
00:44:21ain't hurting or nothing, though.
00:44:23I definitely feel like I was played.
00:44:31I'm gonna go back to
00:44:33independence
00:44:35and just figure stuff out.
00:44:37I honestly don't know if I want to go
00:44:39back or not.
00:44:41I feel like some part of me, I feel like if I
00:44:43take him out of his own element, I'll see
00:44:45some difference, but then part of me is just like, just walk
00:44:47away.
00:45:01Oh, my God.
00:45:17Oh, my God.
00:45:31Your call has been forwarded to voicemail.
00:45:33I'm gonna pull up on this mother.
00:45:35He gonna talk to me.
00:45:37How do you feel your relationship is
00:45:39gonna now be with my wife?
00:45:43Tell you the truth.
00:45:45Yeah.
00:45:53I'm getting anxious.
00:45:55Are you? Yeah.
00:45:57Why? This is important.
00:45:59It's okay, boo.
00:46:01She's like little puppies jumping around
00:46:03everywhere.
00:46:05You're not funny.
00:46:11I've never seen
00:46:13me in a happy, loving relationship.
00:46:15They've never seen me sitting on the couch,
00:46:17snuggled up. They've never seen that.
00:46:19So I don't know what they're gonna think.
00:46:21Yeah. My kids have never met
00:46:23Joey, but they've seen him on
00:46:25video visits. They've been anticipating
00:46:27this for months now.
00:46:29Our first night as a
00:46:31family in our home is Christmas
00:46:33Eve, so I'm not really sure
00:46:35which reaction we're gonna get from them.
00:46:39We're an even
00:46:41period.
00:46:43Your mom's not here yet. You got the keys?
00:46:45Yeah.
00:46:47Welcome home.
00:46:49Oh, that's cute, babe.
00:46:51Right? Yes. You got your
00:46:53pictures on the fridge, don't you, baby? Straight to the kitchen.
00:46:55I just
00:46:57texted your mom. I mean, she's gotta be close.
00:46:59She's got stuff she's gotta do tonight. They're close, probably.
00:47:01We saved the tree to decorate
00:47:03with the boys with you. Did you?
00:47:05Yeah.
00:47:07Look at him.
00:47:09Look.
00:47:11What are y'all doing?
00:47:13What are y'all doing? Hey, buddy.
00:47:15What are you doing?
00:47:17Hey.
00:47:19Oh, my goodness.
00:47:21You okay? It's been a long time.
00:47:23I know.
00:47:25It's really good to see my mom. I haven't saw her
00:47:27in a while. It's been close to
00:47:29a year. I love you. I love
00:47:31you, too. My mom's sweet,
00:47:33caring, loving.
00:47:35She takes care of everybody.
00:47:37She's a good person. You okay?
00:47:39Look who that is.
00:47:41Yeah, that's Joey.
00:47:43Are you excited?
00:47:45Look how good you look.
00:47:47Oh, my goodness.
00:47:49I'm just so thankful
00:47:51and grateful that he
00:47:53is here. I don't think they were more
00:47:55excited to see Joey than Mama.
00:47:57He's so sweet.
00:47:59My Christmas is made.
00:48:01Are you ready for Santa to come? Was you good?
00:48:03Yeah. All year you was good?
00:48:05I hate to have to leave so soon
00:48:07after getting to finally see you.
00:48:09But I'm going to Mama's.
00:48:11We're going to see you later. We love you.
00:48:13Be careful. Bye, y'all.
00:48:15Love you, darling.
00:48:17I think they needed their time tonight
00:48:19with each other.
00:48:21They're having their own little party tonight.
00:48:23Hey, guys.
00:48:25Hurry, hurry, hurry.
00:48:27This is the best
00:48:29Christmas ever.
00:48:31Come on.
00:48:33Yeah, you did.
00:48:35Hang it right there.
00:48:37Good job.
00:48:39Years ago, this is not where I thought I would be in my life.
00:48:41But I'm finding out with time
00:48:43that God's plan is always better than mine.
00:48:47How many cookies do you think Santa wants?
00:48:49Four? Five?
00:48:51All right.
00:48:53So let's put this out.
00:48:55Are we ready to say our prayers?
00:48:57I love this man with every fiber
00:48:59of my being.
00:49:01They're going to see their mom loved,
00:49:03loving, and happy.
00:49:05So good.
00:49:07But it's like I'm
00:49:09always waiting on that other shoe to drop.
00:49:11You ready to go to bed?
00:49:13Ho, ho, ho.
00:49:15Mommy.
00:49:23Did your husband file this petition from prison?
00:49:25No, not from prison.
00:49:27At this time, I see
00:49:29no information indicating that your husband
00:49:31is getting released before his original
00:49:33DOC date.
00:49:39We had no idea.
00:49:41So I'm really confused right now.
00:49:43I'm sorry, ma'am. I wish there was more
00:49:45I could tell you. At this time,
00:49:47there is no other information available.
00:49:49Is there anything else I can help you with?
00:49:53So, um,
00:49:55this could have all been a lie.
00:49:57Nothing here says that he will
00:49:59be getting released earlier at this time.
00:50:01Okay.
00:50:03It might be best for you to reach back out
00:50:05to your private attorney for further clarification.
00:50:07Well,
00:50:09I will relay the message to my husband.
00:50:15I'm going to go call Ben.
00:50:17Um, I'm just so
00:50:19devastated.
00:50:21Now I'm starting to get
00:50:23really nervous about
00:50:25Ben, okay?
00:50:27Like, I'm just,
00:50:29everything is just,
00:50:31like,
00:50:33too much at this point.
00:50:35And I'm an emotional wreck.
00:50:37I don't know why this mother***er
00:50:39can't answer my phone calls.
00:50:41Your call has been forwarded to voicemail.
00:50:43My heart's broken at this point.
00:50:45Like, literally broken.
00:50:47You know what?
00:50:53You know what?
00:50:55I'm going to pull up on this mother***er.
00:50:57He's going to talk to me.
00:50:59He got me ****** up.
00:51:05See you later.
00:51:07I'm pissed off at this point.
00:51:09I feel like he's going to go see another woman.
00:51:11Wait, she started asking about me.
00:51:13Hello, friend.
00:51:15Hi, bud.
00:51:29Bianca's my best friend,
00:51:31and I'm trying to look out for her.
00:51:33All right, I'll put her back on the phone.
00:51:35Hello?
00:51:37I just want you to be out.
00:51:41I love you.
00:51:45Do you want to go sit over there?
00:51:47Yeah.
00:51:49Well, I'm glad that I spoke to him.
00:51:51I was asking about his sobriety.
00:51:53Are you going to be drinking,
00:51:55like, when he gets out?
00:51:57Are you going to support him?
00:51:59I mean, I know he can't drink.
00:52:01I don't want him to drink.
00:52:03I'm worried about him relapsing
00:52:05because obviously that's what he went to prison for.
00:52:07You know what I mean?
00:52:09But I'm also not going to let him control my life.
00:52:11If I want to have a drink, I'm going to have a drink.
00:52:13I mean, if you love him,
00:52:15then you should try to do as much as you can
00:52:17to make it work.
00:52:19Daniel definitely does need
00:52:21to be around sober people,
00:52:23but I don't have a problem with alcohol,
00:52:25so why does it matter if I drink?
00:52:27Like, I'm not going to stop drinking
00:52:29just because he tells me to.
00:52:33It's just hitting me right now
00:52:35that I'm leaving tomorrow.
00:52:37I'm leaving everything that I've known my entire life.
00:52:39I grew up here.
00:52:41I'm moving to a state that I know nothing about
00:52:43to go meet a man and live with a man, hopefully,
00:52:45that I've only met once in person
00:52:47through glass.
00:52:49That's going to be a hard change.
00:52:51It's going to be a very hard change.
00:52:53Like, I'm only 23.
00:52:55But he's not that much older than you.
00:52:57He's like, what?
00:52:59Eight years older.
00:53:01He's been married once before.
00:53:03He has a 13-year-old son.
00:53:05So you're going to be like a stepmom.
00:53:07I mean, if he gets custody, probably.
00:53:09That's so weird.
00:53:11I really don't know too much.
00:53:13Neither does he until he gets out.
00:53:15It just feels like there's so much unknown
00:53:17that you're just picking up your whole life
00:53:19to move to Arizona
00:53:21and that you're leaving your family behind.
00:53:23You're leaving your friends behind.
00:53:25But I feel like
00:53:27that doesn't matter to me
00:53:29because of how much I love him.
00:53:31But what you are doing
00:53:33is crazy.
00:53:35Oh, Daniel's mom is calling me.
00:53:37Let's go inside since it's raining.
00:53:39The relationship I have
00:53:41with Daniel's mom is pretty good.
00:53:43I really love her.
00:53:45She's amazing.
00:53:47She's treated me with nothing but respect and kindness.
00:53:49And I'm grateful that I, you know,
00:53:51have that support from her.
00:53:53Hey, how are you?
00:53:57Oh, thank you.
00:53:59I'm with my friend Andres.
00:54:01Hi, how are you?
00:54:03Nice to meet you.
00:54:05Have you recognized us?
00:54:07Yeah, we're going to finish it tonight.
00:54:09Oh, okay.
00:54:11Yeah, I'm just a little nervous about him getting out.
00:54:13And I don't know if there's something you don't know,
00:54:15like how he's going to act.
00:54:17Are you worried?
00:54:19The only thing, if you drink around him or something,
00:54:21if he drinks, then he'll be back on drugs.
00:54:23I know his weakness.
00:54:25I'm not saying he's just going to go drink
00:54:27because that's not what he plans to do.
00:54:29But it would just make it harder
00:54:31for him to stay sober
00:54:33from being around the alcohol.
00:54:35But I'm sure that you love him,
00:54:37and you're not going to do that.
00:54:39You know what I mean?
00:54:41Say hi to Daniel's dad.
00:54:43Hi, how are you?
00:54:45It's nice to meet you.
00:54:47I'm doing good.
00:54:49How mentally stable are you?
00:54:53How mentally stable am I?
00:54:55Did you just ask me that?
00:54:57He's just a nutcase.
00:54:59You get to know him.
00:55:01I have a certain expectation
00:55:03for what Daniel's going to be like.
00:55:05And I think it's just kind of crazy
00:55:07that that's his father.
00:55:09And that's his role model, in a sense.
00:55:11All right, love you, girl.
00:55:13Bye.
00:55:15It's just kind of alarming to me.
00:55:17It's a little bit of a red flag in my head.
00:55:19I didn't like what the dad said.
00:55:21Is your son mentally stable?
00:55:23It was a little disrespectful.
00:55:25I've done so much for your son,
00:55:27and that's what you're going to say to me?
00:55:29I think that she does have a point.
00:55:31I wouldn't be drinking around him.
00:55:33Maybe she doesn't really know
00:55:35the kind of person that he's grown into.
00:55:37He thinks he's going to be able to hold his own.
00:55:41Bianca is younger than me.
00:55:43Yes, she does drink.
00:55:45So there's going to be a lot of challenges
00:55:47that I'm going to be faced with.
00:55:49I've not been sober since I've been inside.
00:55:51I've relapsed a few times.
00:55:53See you later.
00:55:55All right.
00:55:57I'm pissed off at this point.
00:55:59I definitely think it's just me helping him do his dirty.
00:56:01Hello, friend.
00:56:13I'm about to see my mom for the first time in 7 years.
00:56:17I feel a sense of anxiety.
00:56:19I can't spend, you know,
00:56:2115 minutes around my mother
00:56:23without eventually getting irritated,
00:56:25you know?
00:56:27Because it's like
00:56:29she doesn't act like a mother.
00:56:31And I lost my father.
00:56:33That was a big piece of me.
00:56:35And I just feel like
00:56:37I'm not going to be able to
00:56:39be there for her.
00:56:41I'm not going to be there for her.
00:56:43I'm not going to be there for her.
00:56:45I'm not going to be there for her.
00:56:47I just feel like
00:56:49I want to feel motherly love.
00:56:51And it's like, you know,
00:56:53I'm hoping that she can bring that.
00:56:55I'm hoping that
00:56:57me and my mother can sit down
00:56:59and talk about some of the past trauma
00:57:01that went on in our lives
00:57:05and build a better relationship
00:57:07in our future.
00:57:09I'm here to see my son Troy.
00:57:11I'm a little nervous, you know.
00:57:13We wasn't the best of friends
00:57:15before he went to jail.
00:57:17But I'm excited to see him.
00:57:19You know, I want to see how
00:57:21much older he went and a boy
00:57:23he's coming out as a man.
00:57:25Where the hell is he at?
00:57:39Oh my God!
00:57:49Hi, Ma.
00:57:51Hi, baby.
00:57:55Hi, Ma.
00:57:57I'm glad you're here.
00:58:03So good.
00:58:05Come on, Ma.
00:58:07Sit down.
00:58:11Well, now that I'm home,
00:58:13why didn't you never
00:58:15feel the need to come and see me
00:58:17while I was in prison?
00:58:19I'm apologize
00:58:21to you, and I'm gonna tell you
00:58:23the truth.
00:58:25Alcohol made me take a fall.
00:58:27You know?
00:58:29I know you've seen me
00:58:31in some real bad, drunken stages.
00:58:33And you know it was terrible.
00:58:35Fighting with everybody
00:58:37and all that. That's ugly.
00:58:41Sometimes it's not always
00:58:43about the fall, Ma. It's about how you get up.
00:58:45I'm up.
00:58:47I just want to know moving forward
00:58:49that, you know, I want us to
00:58:51strive to come together
00:58:53all as a family because
00:58:55we all we got left, Ma.
00:58:57I know.
00:58:59Yeah, it is.
00:59:01How do you feel like your relationship
00:59:03will now be with my wife?
00:59:05Um...
00:59:07If it don't fit,
00:59:09don't force it. That's all I can say.
00:59:11You know, get to know your wife
00:59:13because y'all don't know each other
00:59:15outside of the jail.
00:59:17So it's a lot of things you have to do,
00:59:19but you have to do it one step at a time.
00:59:21You rush stuff,
00:59:23you crash.
00:59:25Seeing my mother,
00:59:27I'm seeing a little bit of change,
00:59:29but I don't want to get my hopes up
00:59:31and, you know, be let down.
00:59:33I'm still going to be cautious.
00:59:35Come on.
00:59:37I'm just hoping my mother don't come over
00:59:39to my wife's house and start no bullsh...
00:59:41Definitely excited to show you
00:59:43the new home and, you know,
00:59:45what's being created, what's built.
00:59:47I hope they last,
00:59:49but, hey,
00:59:51we'll see.
00:59:53That's why I'm here.
00:59:55Mama's beer, roaring.
00:59:57Let me see what kind of taste her little butt got.
00:59:59Ha, ha, ha.
01:00:07I should've known
01:00:11love never lasts forever
01:00:15Chanté.
01:00:17Yeah?
01:00:19Let me holla at you.
01:00:23Tell me
01:00:25everything's alright
01:00:27Alright
01:00:33What's up, doll?
01:00:35What's up?
01:00:37So how you sleep?
01:00:39I was talking to him, kind of, it's a rough night.
01:00:41There's a lot going on
01:00:43in my head.
01:00:45Last night was just a rough night
01:00:47of just different emotions.
01:00:49At this point, I'm kind of irritated
01:00:51because every day I put you before me,
01:00:53every single day, and you sitting in here telling me
01:00:55you don't want to be engaged with me
01:00:57because I'm too much of a homebody and I'm boring.
01:01:01But I loved you to death,
01:01:03which is why I haven't left, honestly.
01:01:07I still want to go to Independence with you.
01:01:11Like, why do you want to go to Independence with me?
01:01:13I look at it like, we got a bond still,
01:01:15you know what I mean, so it's like,
01:01:17I ain't gonna just throw it all away.
01:01:19Just believe and trust me when I tell you
01:01:21**** will be better.
01:01:23I think we should just get to know each other
01:01:25in person.
01:01:27Enjoy being in each other's company.
01:01:29Enjoy our time with each other.
01:01:33What you dressed up for, then?
01:01:35I'm getting ready to go to the gym.
01:01:37My sister finna come and get me
01:01:39and work out and ****.
01:01:43Yep, yep, yep.
01:01:45Yo, yo, yo.
01:01:47What's up, though?
01:01:49What's up, bro?
01:01:51I'll be out there.
01:01:53Alright, bro.
01:01:57See you later.
01:01:59Alright.
01:02:01I'm pissed off at this point.
01:02:03I've probably seen every room in this house
01:02:05more than I've seen the truth.
01:02:07G-ball, stank, stank.
01:02:09In my mind, I feel like he's gonna go see another woman.
01:02:11I definitely think his sister helped him do his dirt.
01:02:13I don't trust that man's family
01:02:15as far as I can throw him.
01:02:17I mean, though.
01:02:21What's up?
01:02:23I just woke up from this extreme nap.
01:02:25I'm about to head to the gym.
01:02:27I got my brother out.
01:02:29You gonna come?
01:02:31Yes, I know that's exciting.
01:02:33So, yeah, I'll pull up and work out with you.
01:02:35Alright.
01:02:37So, that's your workout partner?
01:02:39I mean, we hang out together
01:02:41sometimes and work out.
01:02:43When did she start asking about me?
01:02:45She asked about you and Abby.
01:02:47How your brother doing?
01:02:49When you getting out?
01:02:51You look hoarseness like that.
01:02:53So, she want to f*** on me.
01:02:55She want to play with the feelings and s***.
01:02:57You know, I used to talk to Tisha
01:02:59back in, like, 2018
01:03:01before Chante.
01:03:03We was friends,
01:03:05but I'd never seen her in person.
01:03:07And was working on,
01:03:09you know, being with each other,
01:03:11you know.
01:03:13Alright, going with the flow.
01:03:15So, this is what she do.
01:03:17And then she think she finished her
01:03:19f***ing mouth.
01:03:21I wasn't going
01:03:23like, true, when you get out,
01:03:25all the females that you was talking to,
01:03:27when you get out, they gonna be on your mind.
01:03:29I don't know.
01:03:31I'm excited.
01:03:33I see the plot.
01:03:35I see what she trying to do.
01:03:37Oh.
01:03:39Let's get to the dumb bills.
01:03:43Dang.
01:03:45I'm on the street tonight,
01:03:47in the gym.
01:03:49I used to see the gym on TV all the time.
01:03:51I ain't been on freeways
01:03:53in hell, us.
01:03:55See the mirrors all on the wall and stuff,
01:03:57you know what I mean? I work out and look in the mirror
01:03:59at the same time. It's dope.
01:04:01Because in prison,
01:04:03we don't get mirrors in the gym.
01:04:05What's up with
01:04:07your partner, your workout partner?
01:04:09She should be on her way here.
01:04:11Hello, friend.