Being saved from self-pity | In My Mind
In My Mind brings viewers into the headspace of people facing struggles related to their mental health.
In this episode, we look at Min’s journey in facing bouts of self-pity, which spiralled into disarray, before being saved by his teacher.
Circles of Resilience by Resilience Collective is a safe space where peers, or persons with lived experience of mental health conditions, come together to help each other thrive and lead authentic lives.
Youth Mental Well Being Network is a developmental platform where youths receive guidance from government agencies and leaders to identify problem statements and initiate solutions.
If you wish to be a part of the network, you can reach them at YMWB_Network@msf.gov.sg
Watch more: https://www.asiaone.com/video
In this episode, we look at Min’s journey in facing bouts of self-pity, which spiralled into disarray, before being saved by his teacher.
Circles of Resilience by Resilience Collective is a safe space where peers, or persons with lived experience of mental health conditions, come together to help each other thrive and lead authentic lives.
Youth Mental Well Being Network is a developmental platform where youths receive guidance from government agencies and leaders to identify problem statements and initiate solutions.
If you wish to be a part of the network, you can reach them at YMWB_Network@msf.gov.sg
Watch more: https://www.asiaone.com/video
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00:00Hope is not the absence of fear
00:02But the courage in ourselves to face our fears. As a child, I did not know what it meant to feel at home.
00:11I constantly sought love and a feeling of belonging
00:14My parents got a divorce and my father was in prison
00:18I was raised by a legal guardian living in a family not of my own. I was constantly walking on thin ice
00:26My guardian was very strict on my sister and me
00:30Every time we did something wrong, they would not go easy on us
00:35but I always felt like I owed my life to my guardians and
00:40I felt compelled to accept their transgressions because of what they had done for us
00:46however
00:47The word trauma never resonated with us until a decade later into our adulthood
00:53I was enveloped in a fragile sense of safety and family
00:59As a child, I constantly felt the need to seek their affection to obtain a sense of belonging
01:08I tried to find love but ended up in all the wrong places
01:15When I was 16, my world came crashing down
01:20There was a legal dispute over our custody
01:23This was made worse when my sister ran away from home
01:28Life was a mess. I did not have a home and no one offered me a listening ear.
01:36I wallowed in self-pity and pushed people away
01:41from friends to strangers and teachers
01:44One by one, they left and the circle of people around me got smaller
01:51I was desperate for help. So I turned to counselling
01:55There, I was diagnosed with panic disorder and PTSD
02:00Which left me more confused and in further disarray
02:04One day
02:06Something snapped within me
02:08This is it, I thought
02:11I was at the edge of the roof
02:13At that moment, my teacher Miss Jocelyn held me back
02:18She hugged me tightly
02:20There's still hope, she said
02:23She looked me in the eye and said, I see you
02:27At that moment, I felt loved
02:31Miss Jocelyn reignited the fire within me
02:34I wanted to live and find meaning in life
02:37But it was so trying
02:40There were so many moments I failed and fell back to suicide attempts
02:45I wanted the pain to go away
02:48I knew that I needed help, respite and love
02:51I opened up and allowed people to enter my life
02:55I rebuilt from the ground up
02:58Each time I fell, I emerged stronger
03:03Though I have been seeking recovery my whole life
03:07My journey is far from over
03:10As a Circles of Resilience member
03:13I'm still a work in progress
03:15But I am also improving every day
03:18By helping others in this process
03:48Circles of Resilience