Chatting with an Ex Adult Film Star
Chatting with an Ex Adult Film Star.
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00:09Hey Amanda Hales, welcome to another edition of chatting with I'm here with
00:14Paige Paige Jennings Jennings. Thank you so much for being here. Yeah, thank you for having me. Honestly. Yeah
00:21You used to be a porn star. Yes. How old are you now 27? Don't remind me
00:28When what age
00:31God that's a whole other complicated story kind of I was 23 and I had just graduated with a finance degree and
00:38from Fordham University in New York City. I was working an internship on Wall Street and
00:43I
00:44Randomly decided I wanted to try to work in the business of porn and through that
00:49Ended up posting some scandalous pictures on the Internet
00:54Not because I necessarily wanted to be a porn star
00:57But that was how I thought I had to try to communicate and get the attention to learn about the industry
01:02I was interested in the business model and of like the strategy and stuff
01:05Yeah, and anyway overnight it just went viral and there was like half a second that I was like super relevant
01:13CNN and Fox and all this stuff Oh Wall Street intern told the Wall Street intern turned porn star, you know, and
01:20So I did porn for them for a while and during which I was like kind of trying to start a company and
01:25didn't work out then but it started working out once I started a YouTube channel and
01:30Talked told people about my idea. And so now I'm a porn ex porn star youtuber and
01:35Startup CEO and I was a stripper. So right so the stripping you started doing for money and then that kind of led into the
01:41pool, well, actually what all ended up happening is I got into Carnegie Mellon as a
01:47senior in high school and
01:49That's a really good school and I desperately wanted to go it's like my dream school
01:52So I couldn't pay for it and it was like 2009 and I couldn't get any loans because of the financial crisis and stuff
01:58So I started kind of researching and stumbled across this like sugar daddy shit
02:02And that's when I started exploring that and then and then that led me into stripping interestingly enough
02:08And then stripping gave me this kind of independence where I didn't need to rely on someone else
02:12I could just be rely on myself. And so those things were how I was paying for school, though
02:17I didn't end up going to Carnegie Mellon, but I was still going to University of Florida and paying for all those expenses
02:22What are you majoring in?
02:24When I when I first started it was like political science and anthropology and then the second year
02:29I thought I wanted to be a lawyer, but then I interned with a law firm. I was boring
02:33So I didn't wanna be a lawyer. How did you get your first gig as a doing porn?
02:37Okay, so there was a chick Hayden cross who was a big porn star and she had had this blog that she talked about like
02:44Porn and everything and I had read it and that's sort of what had informed me about being interested in the that's one of the
02:48Things of research I did and she tweets at me
02:52Saying hey, I want to talk to you about doing stuff and I was like, okay
02:56so I tweet it respond and I'm like fangirling and then I'm like, here's my number and
03:01So then she calls me and she's working with the Ashley Madison people because she had been working with them on her own
03:06And brought me up to them and they're like, yeah, we want to like sponsor that girl and do something with her
03:11Okay, and so me and Ashley Madison the company the thing we work out a deal with this the
03:17subcompany
03:18To sponsor me and pay me X amount for the movie 30 grand for the movie to and then also do the media for it
03:26Okay, you got 30 grand for the first movie, which was a lot for girls
03:30Don't get paid that much and then you did it for a year and a half after that. Yeah
03:35How often I mean how many gigs and it's like sometimes I worked every day for a week and then
03:40Other months, I worked twice that month. It's very erratic and then on top of that interesting thing to note
03:45Porn is like do you watch porn? Sure? Yeah. Okay
03:48So when you look up something besides if you look up a girl's name or something
03:52It's like I want to see a teen or I see a milf
03:54Like, you know, you know to look up teen or milf, but how do you look up?
03:5825 year old woman
03:59so it really sucks for girls who are in that category where they're just
04:03Attractive and they're just in their mid 20s and they're not they don't look that young and they don't look that old
04:08It's it's kind of a rough spot to be in. Yeah as a female performer
04:13so I was in that spot, so I got I did a lot of milf stuff because of these and
04:19They I could kind of pull it off, but I still didn't look quite old enough
04:23So people who really wanted a real milf wouldn't hire me
04:26and
04:27And then other things like I had these sort of I had this reputation right because of all this media stuff
04:33Yeah, so that affected probably how much I worked as well
04:36But I worked I worked consistently just not a lot
04:39Consistently and then on top of that in porn if you're not doing anal and you're not doing IR, which I'm not racist
04:45I just I never got around to it
04:49Interracial yeah, so if you're not doing those those are really in demand types of content
04:53Mm-hmm, and if you're not doing it
04:54It kind of cuts down a lot on what people will hire you for actually got hired for a lot of lesbian stuff
04:59Cuz okay was the lesbian stuff kind of easier
05:03Yes, and no, it was harder to be believable because
05:07Most the time the girls aren't actually lesbians and even if you're bi or whatever
05:11It's just like it's there's more faking and lesbian porn but like with a guy, you know who didn't porn
05:16They know what they're doing. Like you have fun
05:19Did you ever have a real orgasm? Yeah
05:29How does
05:32How does the how what do they do about STDs, how does that work?
05:35Oh, it's test every two weeks. Okay, get a prick right there and they just the whole overnight. Yeah, it's crazy
05:41And they don't just test like your doctor like it's like a typical person goes to the doctor. They use reasonably
05:47Like some sort of accurate like these accurate tests, but they might not use the most up-to-date like HIV tests
05:53They probably do now but but in porn they use extremely sensitive HIV tests and and other stuff
05:59So it's like it's super clean. Yeah, mostly what was the craziest gig you did you remember?
06:06I mean, I know a lot of these are videos on your YouTube channel. Yeah
06:08I've told a lot of stories about this on YouTube. Yeah, I don't know
06:11I don't know if your audience wants to stomach the further thing. That's the craziest thing I did
06:15well, I mean no, I mean we can I
06:18Can edit it out if it gets too graphic. All right
06:23Yeah, what happened? Yeah. No, the craziest thing I did in porn was up. I wouldn't have done it
06:28I just I have this thing where I don't like to say no to new experiences
06:31I'm always intrigued so I've tried a lot of things once out of curiosity and I got this sort of someone wanted to hire me
06:39for this food porn
06:42Basically me and two other girls having a massive food fight
06:45But I'm like a giant tarp with like pies and chocolate and whipped cream and cucumbers for some reason
06:52Strawberries and chocolate syrup and honey and shit
06:55Tasted delicious. Can I say?
06:58Wait, it wasn't anything sexual. Yeah, we were Oh
07:01With the cucumbers, okay
07:04And the end strawberries all of it
07:07That's all online right now
07:14Yes, but so they call me and they're like if we want you to a lesbian scene for double the rate
07:19Okay, then you usually would get yeah, which you know at the time, you know
07:23I was living in LA or whatever and I mean, I guess Vegas
07:26But yeah, I want money and it was like with girls and I'd never done food sex. So hey, fuck it
07:31How much how much?
07:331,400. Okay for that. Yeah, it was like an hour or something the scene probably like the whole no porn shoots
07:40Take a lot longer than that. But yeah, you don't usually film the sex part for longer than an hour. Okay?
07:46Yes, I was like food and like whipped cream and somehow there was a speculum in my nevermind
07:52What were you gonna say
07:58Somehow there ended up being a speculum in my okay in my butt. Oh, right. Okay
08:04Well, cuz I was trying to keep the food out of my girl area because like you can get yeast infections
08:09Yeah sugar in there. So I was like, well, I guess put it in my butt instead
08:14Okay
08:17What a so you did it for about a year and a half that is the craziest thing
08:21Everything else I didn't form was like very vanilla like okay pretty straight for straightforward porn
08:26Like I didn't do too much except squirting
08:30Yeah
08:31Right, that is that um, that's a thing. I've heard that's a myth. That's like not
08:36It's just it's real. It's just a lot of water. You can make it you can really Wow, you can nerf gun that shit
08:43Okay
08:50So you did it for about a year and a half, um, yeah, then you stopped why'd you stop oh
08:55God, well now we're gonna get real
09:00Yeah
09:02Okay. Well, here's the thing. I didn't ever see myself being this like career porn star
09:08Because that because the whole intention in the first place was to start a company I wanted to like do like build something
09:14I don't know why that's what I felt drawn to do and the whole time while I'm squirting and putting things in my butt
09:20With involving food and all of this stuff. I was actually started running a company
09:26You know, I was trying to build basically like iTunes slash Netflix for porn
09:31Because I feel like doing that. Oh, no, that's why I'm here right now in LA
09:35It's it's all funded and it's a big deal. But in porn it was just sort of this idea
09:39I was chasing and trying to put together and get the right people for and get funding for so
09:45Yeah, that's fine
09:47Yeah, so in porn that's what I was doing and then the thing is this stuff started happening in porn
09:53It was like always kind of pushing my personal boundaries and in porn
09:57They don't really encourage you to speak up
09:59Because if you do sometimes it can ruin people's shoot days and they can lose money if you speak up and don't want to do
10:04something
10:05Oh, okay. Yeah. Yeah, I was gonna ask like, can you refuse like I don't want him but that makes that gives you like a
10:12Reputation. Yeah, now you're a diva, right, right
10:15and so you have to try you have to really pick your battles as a porn star because
10:19You know
10:20you want to balance like not doing something that's gonna make you feel like really bad about yourself or
10:26Affect your mental health or something with also not hurting your career
10:30It's like it's a constant struggle for a lot of girls. So some girls don't ever have the issue
10:33They're just super about it and they're super they'll do anything and nothing makes them uncomfortable
10:37And those are probably the best ones to be actual long-time porn stars, but I wasn't that person
10:42I have issues with health and I have issues with I get touchy and I don't want to be I don't want to be forced
10:47To wear something that looks bad on me and things like that
10:50I was like a little more particular because I cared about branding and I cared about like myself
10:57And so there was like a lot of many experiences that led up to me
11:02Ultimately getting fed up on this one set where this guy had a result on his test. That was syphilis positive
11:09But I know I know everyone was like raises their eyebrows like whenever I say that but he didn't have syphilis
11:13Syphilis is like chicken pox if you get it, it doesn't go away
11:17So it goes away being you're not contagious anymore. I can't give you chicken pox, but we both have we both carry chicken pox
11:24That's how syphilis is the problem is and what I why I refuse to work with him that day is
11:29Syphilis like 83% of cases of syphilis occur in men who have sex with men and I love gay guys
11:35I'm like, I love them, but I don't want to sleep with them because there's a lot riskier, right?
11:40And so in my perception, I didn't think he was gay. I didn't know if he was gay
11:45People told me this was just this crazy thing that happened in Europe or whatever
11:48But I don't know that and I didn't know him and I didn't feel comfortable
11:53Because there's a lot of escorting in porn even male porn stars
11:56Sometimes will escort whether it's with gay guys or women or something and you don't know and to me that was like well
12:02Obviously, you're much more likely to engage in these very risky behaviors off-camera
12:06Hmm, so even if you're tested and you're clean, that's just it's a two-week old test, right?
12:11You have this window like I don't know what you did last night or the night before right?
12:15So I'm sitting there on set and I see this result and I'm like, I can't work with this guy. I'm not comfortable
12:20I'm not gonna spend the next two weeks like anxiety ridden until I get tests tested again, right?
12:24Yeah, and I I immediately like at this point. I knew a lot of porn guys. So I texted one
12:30I was like, hey, can you be at this place for this company in like 30 minutes?
12:33I know you shoot with them a lot. He's like, yeah, sure. Absolutely. It's like cool
12:36And so I tell them I'm like, hey, I have this issue
12:38But I've already solved your problem for you because I'm not an asshole and I don't want to ruin your day
12:44Can I this guy can be here in 30 45 minutes?
12:46So I just can't work with this guy and they flip out they start yelling at me
12:50Condescending to me they get my agent on the phone. Everyone's literally saying you're stupid
12:55You don't understand how antibodies work like this is just you being difficult again and you know
13:00Going against the grain and everybody else likes working with him and the biggest stars work with him
13:05Like you're in the minority just yelling at me and I'm like, I don't want this guy's dick in my body
13:10I don't know what to tell you like
13:12That's you know, you're not dealing
13:13It's not like this is a Hollywood shoot where I'm like, I don't like this guy
13:16You know trying not to work with him to be difficult. No, I'm like, I don't get me but whatever
13:22So that was like I I just like walked off that set crying and I was crying because I knew it fucked with my career
13:26Again, and I had been this isn't the first time I had like a major issue with something that happened
13:32And I wasn't even like a douche about it. I'm not a douche
13:35Like I wasn't an asshole to people when I was uncomfortable with things
13:38But it's just that you're uncomfortable at all as an issue. So I got tired of it
13:41I was like, I don't need to put up with this like did you ever get attached to any of your partners during filming?
13:46Yeah, it was another issue. I had another reason. I was like me. I'm all that good for this like you're like, whoa
13:50I really like this. Okay. So, all right
13:52It's super weird with me because I could have sex with someone and like not
13:56Expect anything out of it and like intuitively I wasn't like a girl who was like, you know
14:00I know guys just want sex usually or they like you and they want to hang out
14:04But they don't want much more than that. Like that's common, especially in this age group that we're in
14:08so I
14:10Could like I could do that. But for whatever reason a lot of porn experiences could be very intense
14:16Wow
14:18Because those a lot of those dudes just like have some tricks man. What's the name of that video?
14:27Most of them to be honest really yeah, you got attached to most your partner
14:32No, not like I'm calling them and I'm clingy but enough where I was like I showed up to set that day thinking, okay
14:37I'm just gonna work with this guy
14:38It's gonna be a fun time
14:39And then I spend the next like three days thinking trying to understand if I am like super into him like, you know
14:44And then a lot of times the guys actually want to like hang out with you another time cuz a lot of porn guys actually
14:49Get like rubbed the wrong way
14:51but I thought the wrong way a lot of guy a lot of porn guys get like
14:54Porn girls who just fuck them and then they're like super indifferent and they don't give a shit
14:58And for me, I didn't do porn because I saw it as this big career
15:01I did it cuz I was like this looks fun
15:03Yeah, so for me I was like if I'm gonna have sex with you like we're gonna have fun, right?
15:07And then so I'm flirty like I'd go to set and I'd like as soon as a guy got there
15:11I made him feel like strong and happy because a lot of guys have to take like
15:15Viagra or Cialis to like get through the scene because the girls are like weird a lot or they're like just there for a check
15:20Or they have like kind of like a hooker ish mentality. Not all of them for sure
15:23There's plenty of girls who love the sex and are amazing performers
15:26But I I was definitely in the group that like I wanted to have some chemistry if I'm gonna especially gonna have sex with someone
15:31And there's money. I feel like you want chemistry there
15:35I feel like you I'd want to detach myself because you do it
15:39Keep a professional. Yeah, a lot of people do that. Yeah, I just couldn't because it wasn't fun that way
15:45For me, I wanted to have fun. So, you know, I would have porn dudes be like I don't have to use Viagra today
15:51Cuz Wow cuz we I was just well a lot of times
15:54I don't you know guys get turned on when you treat them
15:57Well, and when you treat them like you're into them and like you're turned on by them
16:00They get like excited by that. So sorry that you're such animals, but that's easy. You're so predictable. Can I say?
16:08And I would try to do that with guys on set so that's why they would be excited
16:13I'm excited. Everyone's happy. It has chemistry and then we have a super awesome experience and they want intensity on porn sets
16:20So then we're performing we're doing stuff. We probably wouldn't do if we were alone
16:23So then that's the creates this sort of connection a little yeah, so then I'm feeling like the next few days
16:28I'm like shit. Do I like this guy? I think I like this guy. Is it just oxytocin probably just oxytocin
16:34You know, and I never got like attached where I'm like crying or emotional about it or anything
16:38Did you ever date any of them?
16:41Not seriously, I banged them a lot because like afterward off-camera. Yeah. Yeah
16:47Because they were clean. I don't like condoms and I don't I like I'm crazy about sexual health
16:53So were you on birth control? No, damn
16:57Wait and guys were cream pie
17:03Geez I have a fiance
17:06No, no, no, I didn't do that off-camera or anything
17:09But I mean I rarely actually I didn't do it that much on camera because I wasn't on birth control
17:13Okay, there was like certain times of the month that you could do that
17:16I already know this video is gonna be to monetize like it was doing from the start
17:20I have some stuff like this. That's not demonetized to be honest
17:22I mean it takes so long for them to approve it that I lose like 50,000 views
17:27Anyway, you know, you could try to do it untitled listed as unlisted views. Sorry. No, I've done that
17:33Yeah, and it still doesn't
17:35Work so I can't tell you though. I have millions of views on some unlike what video that's demonetized. You can try though
17:41It might not it's you know what? I'll try to X adult film star. Don't say X porn star. It's more clickbait
17:48Yeah, but I haven't is like too strong. No porn's insta demonetized say adult film star and it doesn't get demonetized. Yeah
17:55That's what I do when I want when I want something not to get demonetized
17:59Star they still can analyze and then in the tags too though and the description don't even don't say porn
18:05Don't put porn and tags anywhere. You won't need to you have a big enough channel that people will still click on that
18:10Yeah, and maybe like bleep out cream pie
18:14But like, you know
18:16You could say cream and then no pie or something. Yeah. Yeah blank pie. Yeah, it hasn't been that bad, you know, yeah
18:25No, so none of you regrets it you're all you're still
18:29For sure. Oh what but
18:32Well, no, it's well now you're doing this startup. It's all about porn
18:35I sound like it's hard for me to regret it because everything's worked out pretty well
18:39But there was when I was in it, I would cry sometimes cuz I was like
18:44Maybe I should have stayed on Wall Street
18:45You know
18:46Like did I ruin my like I can I can't ever work at a bank or be a teacher or a professor this I mean
18:52Nothing's I want to do it. I don't want to do him anyway, but I can there's so many things I can't know
18:56You can't what what do you mean?
18:57Because like let's say even if you could get hired at somewhere really great or like, you know respectable
19:03Now your boss sees you as a sex object and now he makes Luke comments because he thinks he can because you did that
19:09So it's right. I'm saying okay
19:12There's just so many or so or employ co-worker keeps trying to get in your pants because he thinks you're easy
19:17So it's so there's just it's not a good situation. That's annoying. Yeah. Well, there's not things I've done
19:22Because I just know that will happen
19:24so I'm not even gonna bother nor do I want to because I want to run my own company but
19:27Yeah, this only has been this year that this has been happening and been working out for me and like I'm now I'm happy about
19:33It so now I'm like, yeah, it's good that I did porn
19:35Otherwise, I couldn't have been doing this and it's good that I did porn because a lot of those experiences
19:40Drove like made for great content on my youtube channel. So I have like 130 K now and you know two years
19:45I mean, it doesn't grow anymore really for some reason but like it did grow really fast
19:50I've been at like 2.1 for three years or something. Yeah, it's just weird
19:55So I'm you know trying to work on that, but uh, yes, I'm happy about it now
19:59It's just for a long time
20:00I think one for example one time I was on the phone with this guy knew that I went to school with and he was
20:06Partying or out somewhere with a guy. I had worked out with a
20:10With a guy I had worked with at Lazard and then suddenly the guys like oh, who are you talking to?
20:16Oh, I'm talking to the you know page the Wall Street more. So she's a friend
20:18Oh, man, she that girl was like one of the smartest girls I ever met
20:21He just like said that out of nowhere and like the guy says that to me and I hear it and then I'm like, okay
20:27I gotta go and I just start crying my eyes out Wow because I'm like and now I'm a porn star
20:31Yeah, like people thought that of me there and thought this, you know of this and here I am just getting naked
20:38So, you know stuff like that. I'd have this sort of conflict. Absolutely. Okay. Did you do drugs before the shoot?
20:46No weed or anything or I guess sometimes it took like a HB
20:50We didn't do we makes me feel weird and usually people like sativa and I like indica which makes you sleepy
20:56So I didn't really do weed much
20:57But sativa gives me anxiety and I think there were a handful of times where I definitely drank some wine
21:03But that's not common. Like they don't just have alcohol on set. So there's just sometimes I had that opportunity
21:08I was like, okay. Hell yeah, it's gonna be a great scene now because I had a little wine. I'm a little buzz
21:11I'm happy. I'm ready, you know, what was your rate?
21:16For me most for most the time it varies sometimes for different reasons
21:20Like when I first came into porn I did like 1,500 a scene boy girl stuff
21:24Thousand girl girl it came down because the media attention died down and I probably shouldn't have have gone that high in the first place
21:31But I thought I was supposed to like for various reasons
21:35So mostly it ended up being 1,200 for boy girl
21:39Occasionally, I did thousand dollars for boy girl
21:42Occasionally very rarely only if I like really like the studio and the guy and I was like doing them a favor or something
21:47That's the going rate though is a thousand dollars for boy girl. I always got kind of slightly higher rates
21:51I don't know why I thought you were supposed to I guess
21:54So it's like 1,200 boy girl and like 800 girl girl. Okay, that's about the going $1,000 boy girl
22:016 to 800 girl girl is about the going rates anal might be like 1,200 to 1,500 typically. Have you heard of nofap?
22:10Yeah, I've been wanting to make a video about that yeah cuz I don't get it I do as a guy
22:18Well, if I ever so I you know since I was
22:2316 and probably jerked off at least once a day
22:27on average, that's normal. Yeah, and
22:31when I
22:32Jerk off to porn. It's it's definitely a higher
22:36You're better just sensitized
22:38Yeah
22:38So then when I go off
22:40But when I stop when I stop all that and I go like three days without drinking off or porn or anything
22:45I definitely have more energy and I'm more motivated and well, they make boxers
22:48I think they tell boxers and big athletes don't have sex like the night or two before right big fight or something because you need
22:54Like that testosterone because like for men testosterone and stuff like feels like your brain cell
22:59It literally does like you guys everything. Yeah, you need your testosterone to like think so
23:03There's some truth to dudes think with their dick because they kind of do
23:08Well, yeah, Mike Tyson. He like never had sex or anything
23:12Never Muhammad Ali, you mean around their fights? No like the his whole career
23:18Like it's crazy. Yeah, Muhammad Ali
23:21there's all these guys in history that were celibate and like
23:25They preach the benefits of like semen retention. Yeah
23:29I don't believe that shit
23:32I'm telling you. Well, so yeah, I'm definitely like a no-fat believer. No, I
23:38Can't the longest I've gone is like 20 days and that was from like June to July or something
23:44I've never even gone that long and I'm a girl. Yeah in my life. Well since I was
23:5012 before okay, I guess I get I get the concept of like, oh I have a big week this week
23:54I probably should lay off right hand
23:59Just to kind of so I perform my best I get that I don't get the whole no fat thing like no fat like
24:04free from jizz
24:06365 days now, you know like day 513 of no jizzing like
24:13Certain point it's probably not healthy for you. Well, no, it's very healthy
24:18I don't think it can be healthy that whole I think jizz has like all your nutrients and when you keep it in your body
24:24No, you make more
24:26Um
24:28Yeah, there might there might be like a I think like once every seven days is
24:33Probably fine. Yeah, I feel like at a certain point you got a really
24:37You know, like if I were feeling a little anxious or nervous or something or like just it's not relaxed. I can just
24:43Rub the one, you know, like I feel better
24:47You still watch you watch porn barely barely. I watch hentai kinda
24:51Hmm cuz I don't watch porn. I don't I don't say I've never watched porn, but I know everybody like every
24:58Everyone not met but I'd know and I know them or I know of them or I've been around them or I know the guy
25:04Or something right or even like I know the house that they're in that they're shooting it in or I have the same panties
25:10She's wearing like all these kinds of stuff and it all just fucks my head. So I can't watch it
25:15Yeah, I don't like most porn
25:17Anyway, it's not hardcore enough
25:22What's
25:23But silly hentai like cartoony shit is like it sounds weird. I've never watched that stuff. Yeah, it's just cool because it's I don't know
25:31Anybody and they can do more like high fantasy kind of stuff because it's you know crazy shit
25:36La sex party. What's that about briefly? That was a
25:40Story, right? Yeah that got demonetized. Okay sex in the title. So it's up cuz it could have done better. Yeah
25:46Yeah, there's a new guy, I'm sorry, yeah, there's this uh, you can summarize it like really sure you ever seen eyes wide shut
25:53Mm-hmm, like Tom Cruise. Yeah. Hey, basically parties like that. It's like a cult. It's kind of like a cult. Yeah
25:58You know, but they charge you a lot of money to go to it. I want to go
26:07Well, so you went yeah, you had a mask I
26:11Didn't care. So no, I didn't wear one a lot of people had masks
26:14A lot of people had masks. Oh creepy
26:17It was a mansion because there was like a lot of like Hollywood producers and stuff like that there. Yeah, I would definitely wear a mask
26:23Yeah, I
26:26Didn't actually have sex with anybody though the one time I came close the guy pissed me off
26:30So I just like fuck you. Yeah, everyone's drinking though. And there's it's not like eyes wide shut
26:35It is really they're all in black. There's no there's no music. There's music. Okay, there's performances
26:41They literally like this one time I went and the girl was like so people are actually like fucking over in that corner and
26:46Fuck. Well in this these parties they kind of have designated like play areas like the bedrooms or like there's like a suite
26:51It's like really nice mansions and stuff. So they try not to have people fucking like right out in the open
26:57But you can like no one's gonna care. I want to go
27:00And you have that guy's info. That would be a good interview. Oh, I could help you with that
27:06Part I don't know he would respond to me chatting with the sex cult. Yeah, he's got he's had a lot of media
27:13He's had like, oh, he'll show his face
27:20So there was one time I went they like had a girl they actually paid they hired porn stars sometimes to put on performances
27:26So they have this like people fucking in front of everybody with no condoms kind of stuff
27:30But that's because it's just like a shoot for us for the people
27:33It was like I know they know so-and-so and whatever
27:35So this one time that is girl like tied up and then like just dudes like running a train on her
27:41She was she loved it
27:43I mean, yeah, I think they paid them to put that show on but they would like come up with these crazy artistic creative
27:49Experiences with like people wearing masks and like bunny ears and like rhinestones and shit. It was pretty cool
27:56Guys have run trains on you. No
27:59I
28:02Thought this was like I could ask anything. Yeah, but no
28:07All right. I mean, so the nastiest shit was the food shit. Yeah
28:12Cuz yeah, you were just yeah, I honestly was like a kind of a boring porn star
28:18A boring porn star. No, I'm just two girls one cub. Yeah
28:24Yeah, that's crazy. I was that was fake. I
28:27Hope it's fake. Yeah, I have to tell myself. It's really I haven't seen in like years
28:32It's really gross. Never mind. I'm not gonna say it. No, I've seen it, but no, but I have a theory about stuff
28:36Oh, tell me what it's gross. I don't know if I want to tell you tell me
28:41I guess you can cut it out. Of course. It's not like so like in porn
28:43You know you like you eat a lot of ass like you just do okay. Just I don't think I've actually ever ate an ass
28:49Yeah, I might have when I was really drunk like a girl just lick it from my neck my crack
28:56Yeah, but okay, so
28:59You gotta get sure what we're gonna say
29:02Porn you eat like a lot of booty. Okay, and
29:06I noticed sometimes that like they're very clean important like everyone cleans these baby wipes to get up in there dude
29:12And I was all this kind of stuff, but sometimes
29:14There would it wouldn't taste like nothing or like a baby wipe. It would taste like
29:19Kind of sweet sometimes like the sugar. Yeah, damn and I thought to myself I think perhaps
29:27Like stuff that comes out of your butt might taste a little sweet
29:31Bad, I feel like it's just a theory because of my experience with booties
29:38Like shit actually might taste good. Yeah, okay
29:42This is disgusting though, because I don't know I've never done it but just based on having this strange little taste sometimes
29:49From when I was in porn thinking to myself that like maybe it smells bad, but is it actually?
29:55bad because there's people with like fetishes for like eating it like like I've got emails and friends of mine important gotten emails of guys
30:01Like wanting to meet up with them like kind of like hire them as an escort because that is a thing they do sometimes
30:06I didn't escort but
30:08Thought about it. I just didn't yeah, you've never had sex for money. Yeah, I have but it was just hold on
30:15We'll get to that. Okay, um, but
30:17Girls will get like requests from guys offering to pay them like thousands of dollars to let them eat their poop Wow. Yeah
30:24Wow, I never even said that on my own YouTube channel. I I hope I never get to that level
30:30But that's another part of my theory right? It's like maybe they like the taste. Yeah. Yeah
30:37As far as escorting I tried it once in New York for a week and I have a whole video about that
30:42And it was interesting how it kind of came about so as far as like straight-up hook it not like I have this rich guy
30:48that I'm in sort of a
30:50Relationship with and it's all kind of like a big gray area like straight up sex straight up escort
30:54I only did it three times list escort came over Craigslist escorted God
31:00No, I did it through this like madam who was like who knew all these hedge fund guys and stuff, okay
31:05Well, it was a girl pimp man. I guess she was a well. She was one too. How much did you get in New York?
31:11It was like 1,500 for an hour Wow
31:16Your mom was a single mom, yeah, you know everyone's like, oh that's good. She has daddy issues
31:20She that's why she she did porn and sex stuff and whatever like if you would not say that if you met my mom
31:26You just like would not my mom was like a dad
31:30Very strong and very like if I was like whiny and anxiety and like bitchy about some stupid page
31:37Just figure it out. I have a can-do personality like you got this like she buried
31:41She made me be like this way that I am what she pissed finding out about you doing porn
31:45not at first because at first it seemed very glamorous and it seemed like I was gonna be able to do a lot with it and
31:51You know make a lot of money and build this like, you know, be like Jenna Jameson
31:54Yeah, she thought at first because of all this attention I got yeah, then it like was gone like that. So
32:01Then once I was in porn and all of that attention was kind of gone or very mild
32:06And I obviously wasn't Jenna Jameson or anything. That's when she started telling me page
32:11You need to quit porn do something with your life and like get a job and you know
32:15Go back to business somehow and this isn't good for you and all that kind of stuff
32:19cool, but she likes she has like, um, the she has a lot of pictures of me from porn not the naked ones, but
32:26She thought I looked like really beautiful. And so she's like proud that her she had a beautiful daughter in her mind
32:31So she has like some pictures from porn and stuff and she has like my magazine
32:35I was on the cover of hustler. So she has that magazine a lot of friends from high school in college. We're like, whoa
32:41Can I tell you how many people from like high school or college like tribe tried to get in contact with me?
32:46I've had people like write me emails or tweets or whatever like me and me being like I'm so sorry for how we treated you
32:53In high school and like whatever and I'm like, dude, if you didn't like me, then you're not gonna like me now
32:57Oh, you're like bullied. Yeah. No, I have this like really strong personality and I'm I can be something I'm bullied
33:03I'm polarizing so eat people oftentimes either love me or hate me and I'm a lot better now at being able to just be
33:10generally likable and like under being more pathetic and like understanding people better and how not to be so like
33:16Intense, but that's how I was. I was very like this times a hundred in high school
33:22So yeah, some people and also I like somehow always had a bad reputation even though I wasn't like fucking everybody or anything
33:30But yeah, I wasn't like the most well liked in high school at all
33:33Do you recommend girls go into porn? No, I say nine times out of ten
33:38If you're thinking about doing porn as a girl, don't do it
33:40It's probably you're probably not right for it
33:42Just you have to be a very specific type of individual and I've met these girls and I know what they're like
33:47I know what it takes to be that kind of girl and most girls just aren't
33:52That's okay. That's not a bad thing. You know, it's fine, you know
33:57and I just think I wish more people would understand that because there's just so much turnover in the industry because so many girls get
34:02Into it and they think it's gonna be this this and this and they're gonna like it and then you know ten scenes later
34:07They're like I hate this
34:08Yeah
34:08you know and then they leave and then it has this turnover and then it's just like hurting a lot of young girls lives because
34:14Of it and I wish more of them
34:15That's why I make a lot of like really informative videos about it on my channel in my style, right?
34:20So it's like infotainment, but I try to educate a little bit about that
34:24I'm not because I had a terrible time but because I see I saw so many girls like struggling
34:29you have to be a girl that's like
34:32You have to be a slut like yeah
34:34Wow, you have to be proud of it happy about it
34:37Love it want to fuck everything get along with a lot of different types of people. You're a proud slut. No
34:44Not anymore. I'm open and I'm open about my sexuality and stuff, but I am NOT like about being
34:51The sluttiest ever and fucking everybody, you know, I just like I get scared of new dick
34:56I
34:59Like comfort dick, you know, I like it was like familiar and comfortable and safe
35:05Do you think porn has a negative effect on men?
35:11Hmm it's a rough question
35:14Yes, and no, I hate it when young guys see it
35:17Yeah, I think that fucks with young men a lot especially young minds, but there's some porn
35:22That's great that I wish more young men would see what yeah
35:25like what because so what the the stuff that gets showcased the stuff that's easiest to find on Pornhub is like
35:30Anal anal anal hard hard. Come come facial facial. It's like
35:34Yeah, you know and they don't see a lot of the porn that's like soft and they're focusing on the girl more
35:40I'm there a little bit of romance and they're going down and they're
35:48And you know
35:52More aware of women and think of them because when you're a young guy, you're very impressionable
35:57So Oh women want to just be degraded and fucked really hard
36:00It's like well, sometimes they do like I could say sometimes I do
36:03yeah, but they women's sexuality is so complex compared to guys I think and
36:08Sometimes and I think guys need to learn sometimes that like, okay
36:11There's a time and place for this porny thing this porny a lot of guys, you know, they start fucking like yeah
36:16you like that you fucking slut, you know and it's like
36:19It's so forced because they think that's what you have to do like that's what they do in porn and
36:24Sometimes guys I think kind of just emulate what they've seen because they don't really know and they haven't had that conversation with the girl
36:31They don't know what she looks so they just do what they think and then the girl doesn't want to speak up and be awkward
36:34And make him feel bad and he goes limp and it's a mess
36:37So I do think I do think young guys kind of I wish I wish there was a way and this is what I want
36:43to do my platform as well is like have
36:45Scenes the stuff that showcases sex and not porn, you know a little bit better. Oh many last words
37:02Oh, yeah, why is it called why is it redhead redemption? Ah, yeah, so my channel name redhead redemption is um,
37:08It's it's actually so a lot of people assume it's oh because you did porn and now you redeeming yourself
37:14Yeah, but I it's not cuz I'm not ashamed
37:16Or other people think it's because it's a play on Red Dead Redemption the video game because I had gaming videos
37:23It's actually because I felt so pigeonholed as
37:27Up the porn the type of porn star I was and the Wall Street thing and Veronica Vane now, you know my name
37:32Good luck, cuz you're all just gonna say need name for research purposes
37:36but
37:38But yeah, so I felt like I had to be this brand that I wasn't and I felt very inauthentic and I hated being inauthentic
37:44and
37:45and I got just pushed into this role because of all the stuff that happened around me and
37:50It's not who I wanted to be and all of that wasn't ended up
37:53It did all of that and all the stuff with porn and everything ended up not being who I wanted to be
37:57So my channel is about me being who I want to be. I know so deep. It can't just be a name
38:04Why why Veronica Vane it just sounded good I didn't think about the ramifications thought of it
38:09Yeah, I thought of the name and I was like that sounds like a hot name
38:12Please check out Veronica. I'm just kidding
38:17Please check out pages channel redhead redemption. Thank you so much for being
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