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Baylen Out Loud S01 E04

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00:00I know what you did in Siberia.
00:03Stays...
00:04What happens in Siberia stays in Siberia.
00:09Where did that come from?
00:10Listen, I don't fucking know.
00:12I don't fucking know.
00:13We were watching some movie
00:14and it looked like it was in the Middle East.
00:17Middle East and Siberia?
00:19I don't even know where Siberia is.
00:24I have to tell you guys something.
00:26I got invited to an event
00:28hosted by the Tourette's Association of America
00:31and they asked me to speak on their panel.
00:36I've never spoken in front of people
00:39who also have Tourette's.
00:41Oh, I have a penis.
00:42I have a nine-inch penis.
00:44Hey, babe.
00:46Hey, what's up?
00:47I just got done speaking for the panel discussion.
00:50My tics are so bad.
00:52My neck hurts.
00:53I can tell that Baylen is low on sleep,
00:56overstimulated.
00:57I worry that when Baylen pushes herself,
00:59things can go really south real quick.
01:03Oh, my gosh.
01:04Ah!
01:05Yep.
01:06Okay.
01:07Okay.
01:08It's okay.
01:09You're okay.
01:10Baylen is on the atrium floor
01:11having the worst tic attack.
01:13I know.
01:14Nope, you're not gonna touch her
01:15and I love you.
01:16She's gonna get really badly hurt
01:17if I can't hold myself together.
01:28Yep.
01:29Ah!
01:30Yep.
01:31Ah!
01:32Yep.
01:33Okay.
01:34Okay.
01:35It's okay.
01:36It's okay.
01:37You're okay.
01:38She's going to get in.
01:42You're okay.
01:43You're okay.
01:44It's gonna be okay.
01:45I know.
01:46Nope, you're not gonna touch her
01:47and I love you.
01:51Hold tight.
01:52Hold tight.
01:53No.
01:54Okay, come on.
01:55It's okay.
02:09This is by far the worst tic attack
02:11that Baylen has had to my memory
02:13as far as I can remember,
02:15and I don't know what to do
02:17because I'm numb
02:18and I'm walking through the motions with her.
02:20Yep, breathe.
02:21More ice.
02:22We got it.
02:23More ice.
02:24My heart is breaking for her,
02:26and if we can't get her to kind of snap out of it
02:28and be okay rather quickly,
02:30I don't know what we're gonna do for her.
02:34Nope, you're okay.
02:35It's a lot.
02:36But it's the perfect place to have it, though.
02:38Literally.
02:39It's the perfect place to have it, though,
02:40because we got you, girl.
02:42You're okay.
02:44It's so intense,
02:45and it's so painful.
02:49You feel powerless,
02:50like you are in no control.
02:52Like you can want to control it,
02:54but it's not gonna end out the way you like it.
02:57String cheese?
02:59So you like string cheese now, huh?
03:06Okay, I don't know about that guy.
03:23I'm sorry.
03:43Are you okay?
03:44I don't know, I'm fine.
03:45Are you okay?
03:51I...
03:56I don't want to cry.
03:59Jesus.
04:00It's coming out.
04:03This is a lot.
04:09Well, it's still on.
04:16A month later...
04:34Me and my mom are back from TikToKon.
04:37Having a tick attack at TikToKon
04:40was not how I wanted the trip to end.
04:43I could definitely use some low-key relaxation at our favorite Creek. The
04:49Creek is right down from my family's house. In the summer it's the best place
04:54to go swimming, fishing, and just hang out as a family. And Colin's coming too with
05:00my doggies.
05:13I really missed Colin and the dogs when I was at Tick Con, so it feels so amazing
05:40to finally be back together.
05:43I went on the swim team. Not in a floaty though.
06:05Where is Becky? I don't know. I think they're up there sitting in the chairs.
06:10Okay, I'm going over here. I'm going in the water. I feel like it should be
06:16warmer than this considering how shallow it is. Should it not be warmer than this?
06:24That was a little close. All things considered, Bailyn seems
06:30pretty good today. It was rock bottom. It was rock bottom. How did other
06:37people look at it? Were they helpful? I think everybody noticed
06:42really quick. We were in the best place for it, right? I mean it happened
06:48because of the overstimulation and the stress and her just not knowing when to
06:52shut it down, take a break, take a drink of water. But in the same breath, you're
06:57with people that knew exactly how to help. I'm more concerned that if
07:03she has one of those tick attacks to that extent and neither of us are
07:09there. You know, being a parent to... You see that though when you say to what
07:13level do I do I push her forward and to what extent do I hold her back
07:18and coddle her and give her more life adulting skills. Like there's this
07:24balance to it. It's a huge struggle to let Bailyn go. We encourage her to seek
07:31her independence, but at the same time we really just want to coddle her and
07:37shield her from the world.
07:49Bailyn called me after the tick attack at Tick Con and it was an emotional
07:56conversation for the both of us. But I want to hear more about it and what it
08:00means for her future moving forward.
08:04So as far as...
08:06Vaginas go, my sister sucks penises for a living.
08:11So you having such a bad tick attack, what happens if you're living on your own and you have that
08:17severe of a tick attack and no one's here to help you?
08:21Well not every tick attack is me banging my head off the floor.
08:25Like there's concerns there obviously. Like what if you can't get to your bed?
08:28What if you're just laying on the hardwood floor?
08:31You know? Like that's any concerns that as me as a boyfriend who loves you is
08:36concerned about like...
08:39You know?
08:42She wants to have her own life and independence. That's all Bailyn wants.
08:49But what I feel when Bailyn's having a severe tick attack is I want to be able
08:54to help her in whatever way that I can.
08:56I know that you're worried about my tick attacks and them happening when no one's there.
09:01But really in reality anything can happen at any time.
09:06With the tick attack I know that I was over stimulated. I know I was too tired.
09:10I know I didn't eat enough. I know I didn't exercise.
09:13Like there's certain things that I know I didn't do.
09:17To hear how severe Bailyn's tick attack was at that conference makes me pretty upset.
09:22It's kind of hard to support Bailyn living on her own.
09:32Place the fingers behind the back.
09:36What?
09:38I'm not one bit surprised that Colin's struggling.
09:42Are you serious? You're that low?
09:45That's a mint vagina. That is mint flavored vagina.
09:48We are headed to go see Colin's parents. They are
09:56very conservative.
09:58Jesus take the wheel.
10:00It's shocking the first time she has one of the explosions.
10:04I'm pregnant.
10:18So we're going to start in a wide legged child's pose today.
10:22Shoulders over wrists. Hips over knees.
10:25I feel like I'm twerking.
10:27And then exhale.
10:30Living with Tourette's is living in constant pain.
10:35I feel like I never get a break.
10:37I will try pretty much anything to help me feel better.
10:41So me and Colin are in D.C. to try a yoga class together.
10:46Let's just see if he can keep up.
10:48Place the fingers behind the back.
10:51What?
10:54I'm not one bit surprised that Colin's struggling.
11:00Alright, bending through the left knee, skendocin the back of the mat.
11:04You can come up high. You might be low.
11:07What's the level behind the back?
11:09You might be low.
11:11What's the level below beginner yoga?
11:14Nice.
11:20Inhale. Left knee comes forward. We're stepping through warrior one.
11:25Warrior one.
11:28What is warrior one?
11:30If I know, all I know is my quads are getting destroyed on it.
11:33Take a moment to notice how the body feels.
11:38I'm gonna be so sore tomorrow.
11:41And for like four more days after that.
11:44Legit.
11:46I'm not kidding. Like when I like bend my legs, they just shake uncontrollably.
12:03Did yoga make your neck feel better?
12:06For now. You know, like in the moment, then I'll...
12:09Vagina!
12:11Have a tick and then it will...
12:13Yeah?
12:14Kind of be back to...
12:16It's original state.
12:19How are you? How you doing after yoga, babe?
12:22I don't think your legs are supposed to be shaking after yoga.
12:26It's like your self-esteem goes super down.
12:30The more you talk, the more you just get cuter.
12:33I just like looking at you.
12:35Okay. Thank you.
12:39Oh my God! There's a dolphin!
12:42Jesus said, let there be light.
12:45Poof!
12:47They're very complex today.
12:49They're super...
12:51They are.
12:52They're multi-complex sentences.
12:54Mm-hmm.
12:55Simple focal tics can be like grunting,
13:02animal noises, clearing of the throat.
13:06Complex tics, it's sentences.
13:10You didn't tic a whole lot in yoga.
13:12I mean, no, but I'm just glad I didn't hold any tics in in yoga.
13:15Which, I mean, that's the whole point of like going to yoga, you know?
13:18Like it helps my tics. It like wasn't like this and there.
13:22Like it's different for every environment.
13:24Yeah.
13:25Suck a penis!
13:26They're all coming out now though.
13:28Poof!
13:32It's been a day.
13:35What do you think of this city though?
13:37I love D.C.
13:40I love D.C.
13:42I love Washington, D.C.
13:44And it's the closest city to my parents now,
13:47but also gives me enough independence to be by myself.
13:51It is like the perfect place to be, at least for me,
13:56because Joe Biden lives in the White House.
13:59There's vaginas hanging from the White House.
14:02Joe Biden's buried in my backyard after snorting cocaine
14:05during the Revolutionary War of 1812.
14:08God damn!
14:10That's a fucking mouthful, literally.
14:13I have no idea where this tic came from, but I can promise you
14:16I have no idea what the president's activities are.
14:20Or where he's buried.
14:22And he's still alive.
14:24So that's good.
14:26Let's just pray that it doesn't get me in trouble
14:30when I live here.
14:32I don't know what I was saying.
14:33I was in the middle of saying...
14:34You love this city.
14:35I do love this city.
14:37I can't wait to live here and be closer to you.
14:44I mean, about that, I think...
14:46I think we should have a talk.
14:51So my roommate is moving out.
14:53He got his relocation orders.
14:56I've asked around.
14:57I've been asking people if they need a roommate,
15:00but I don't really have any luck coming with that.
15:05So I was just thinking,
15:09what if we live together?
15:11What if we live together?
15:15Seriously?
15:16Yeah.
15:18Okay.
15:22Well, yes.
15:23Obviously, I want to.
15:25This is so exciting.
15:26Like, what the heck?
15:27Yeah.
15:29I want to move in with Bailyn because
15:31after that tic attack that she had,
15:34it's really made me start thinking about
15:37how I can be there to support her
15:39once she does move out
15:41and how I want to be there to help her as much as I can.
15:45How do you think
15:48your parents are going to react about us?
15:52My parents are very conservative and religious.
15:56They have very strong beliefs.
15:58Like, you shouldn't live together before marriage.
16:02I mean, I think we both know what they're going to say.
16:05Me and Colin sleep in separate beds.
16:07At his parents' house.
16:09Due to their beliefs,
16:12they are
16:18very conservative.
16:20I know that they won't support it.
16:22I know that it's not something that they support.
16:26But I also think it's something that
16:28we should bring up to our parents.
16:31And you ask your parents,
16:34and
16:35we can ask my parents.
16:37Oh, yeah. Oh, oh, oh.
16:39I think it would be a lot better and mean more
16:41to them personally
16:43if the both of us went down there
16:45one weekend and just told them.
16:47God knows how that's going to go, but...
16:49God literally knows.
16:51Yeah.
16:52The first time that I brought Bailyn to meet my parents,
16:56I wasn't really nervous about it.
16:58Wanted up.
17:00I was.
17:01I knew Bailyn was nervous,
17:04and I knew that my mom was
17:06pretty nervous.
17:07I don't know if you told your dad,
17:09but you were like,
17:10she has a tick that's bald.
17:12That says you're bald.
17:14I told my dad.
17:15Yeah?
17:16Chuck's bald.
17:19This is so exciting.
17:22Love you.
17:26So there's something I have to tell you guys.
17:29You got this.
17:34Vagina!
17:38Holy shit.
17:40Me and Colin are on our way to Roanoke
17:42to tell his parents
17:43that we're moving in together.
17:45Wanted up.
17:47The closer me and Colin get to Roanoke,
17:50the more my tics become intense.
17:54Look at those dogs.
18:04Seems I should learn from my own mistakes.
18:10Spend time with you at my age.
18:17Okay, pick up the kickstand on that one.
18:21It's been years since I've been on a bike
18:24because of my tics.
18:26It's a little bit scary because,
18:28again, I'm in control,
18:30and so are my tics.
18:33Helmet's stupid.
18:35I hope that with a little bit of practice...
18:39Yee-haw, motherfucker!
18:42I have more ways to get around
18:44when I move out.
18:45This is the one where it goes...
18:47You go this way,
18:48then you push like that?
18:49Yeah.
18:50Push back and let me see that.
18:51Bye!
18:52Just kidding.
18:53Jesus.
18:54Okay, you're going next to her.
18:56It's that moment when you're trying to let
18:58your, like, three-and-a-half-year-old son
19:00ride his bike for the first time.
19:02You know, there's discomfort,
19:04but there's excitement.
19:05Vagina!
19:06Wear a helmet, stupid!
19:08Except for if she's not three-and-a-half, so...
19:11Nope.
19:12Okay, ready?
19:13Bye.
19:16Do you know where you're going?
19:17I'll just jog.
19:20Pedonia!
19:21Okay, put both the hands on the pail-o-bars.
19:24Vroom, vroom!
19:25Yeah?
19:26Vroom, vroom!
19:27All right, slow down.
19:28Slow down going down the driveway.
19:30Oh, Lord.
19:32Oh, my God.
19:33I'm learning.
19:34There you go.
19:35Good, good.
19:36Good.
19:37I think you're great.
19:38Pedonia!
19:39Okay, put that hand here.
19:40Wear a helmet, stupid!
19:42You gotta watch taking your hand off that.
19:45Let me get this out
19:46before we go back down the driveway.
19:48Hep, hep!
19:49Shut up!
19:50Oof!
19:51I am freaking out.
19:53The whole trick riding,
19:56Narnia, one-handed high-five driving
20:00does not work at all for me.
20:04Like...
20:05I'm glad I was here.
20:08Yeah.
20:09This is not the most ideal way to ride a bike.
20:12No.
20:13I feel like for my first time getting back on the bike,
20:16I feel like I did better than what I thought I was going to do.
20:19I say that I need to ride it a little bit more probably.
20:21Yeah, with both hands,
20:22like the one-handed tricks.
20:23Narnia!
20:24We're not gonna do one-handed tricks.
20:26I would say after today's lesson,
20:28I'm not ready to take on D.C.
20:30I'm ready to take on another bike lesson.
20:32Maybe I need about 10 bike lessons before, you know,
20:35I find myself on a trail in D.C.
20:37where people are trying to go,
20:39and there's just me going for Narnia
20:42all the way down the trail.
20:44For Narnia!
20:45They ain't stopping.
20:47So...
20:48Vagina!
20:51So there's something I have to tell you guys.
20:54Me and Colin are gonna move in with each other.
21:00Like the...
21:01In one place.
21:02Yep.
21:03Okay.
21:04I feel like it will help, like...
21:06Thanks for picking this moment.
21:08We're doing bikes.
21:09We're going right into...
21:10Are you guys not happy?
21:11Or like okay with it?
21:12Oh, I don't think that's...
21:14You just literally just hit us with a ton of tricks.
21:17You got this.
21:19It'll be easier.
21:21It'll be easier on your guys' end and my end
21:25to also have someone there to help and to...
21:29I mean, he literally makes my tics better.
21:33And I feel like...
21:39We're at a point,
21:40like we've almost been dating for two years.
21:43I literally love him to death.
21:45And...
21:46Having Bailyn say that she wanted to move in with Colin
21:52has me feeling like I'm the one that got knocked off the bike.
21:57I feel like ambushed by the news.
21:59I know that this is the trajectory
22:01of their relationship, but I'm not ready for it.
22:05I think obviously there's a shock factor with us
22:08because we're like okay, all of a sudden
22:10you're just gonna move in.
22:11I think there's a lot to think about though.
22:14You don't even have an apartment yet.
22:16Well, I know I don't have an apartment yet,
22:18but I mean, I'm gonna get one.
22:22We gotta start looking.
22:23I gotta start looking.
22:25She is not easy to live with.
22:27There's a lot, all day, every day.
22:29But you want her to live a normal life
22:31just like everybody else.
22:33And I don't think Colin's ready to help her.
22:37It's very complicated.
22:39You're pissed?
22:41No.
22:42You don't like Colin?
22:43You don't like Colin?
22:44He's so protective.
22:45You don't like Colin?
22:46No, I'm concerned.
22:47Oh, for who?
22:49For everybody.
22:50Oh.
22:51For everybody.
22:52We're gonna have some questions
22:53other than standing out in this hot sun
22:55and talking about it, right?
22:57Yeah.
22:58With like finances.
22:59Your dad's face, your dad's back to the face.
23:01Yeah.
23:02Has he told his parents?
23:04No.
23:05Oh.
23:06When we go to Roanoke, he's gonna tell his parents.
23:09Okay.
23:10I'm sure it's gonna go great.
23:12Oh, okay.
23:13I thought, here we are on a bike ride,
23:16losing my kid.
23:18I just want a boyfriend and an apartment.
23:20She's really just come out of her shell
23:23with really asserting independence.
23:26Not too long ago,
23:27we had to physically administer Balin's medicine.
23:30Here's your medicine.
23:31Take it.
23:32Let's see it.
23:33Like a little kid.
23:34I need Colin to understand that this is a challenge.
23:37Do you look at your dad and you're like,
23:39the gears are turning?
23:40Yeah, I'm like, what is wrong?
23:41The gears are turning.
23:42Tell us how you really feel.
23:45I'm pregnant.
23:46I'm not.
23:47I'm just ticking.
23:48Oh, my Lord.
23:49I'm pregnant.
23:50That may have been.
23:51Well, that would be a different conversation.
23:53It would be a big difference.
23:56I've got electric dreams tonight
23:59But you're on the other side
24:02You're a ghost tonight
24:04I'm alive
24:05I've got electric dreams tonight
24:08But you're on the other side
24:10Holy crap.
24:11You're packing like you're going there for a week.
24:14Kind of.
24:15Now that I told my parents
24:17me and Colin are going to live together,
24:19we are headed to go see Colin's parents in Roanoke
24:22to tell them the news, too.
24:27You packed a lot of stuff.
24:29I don't know what to, like, pack,
24:31so I had to bring, like, a couple pairs of jeans,
24:33I brought a dress,
24:34a couple pairs of shirts, you know.
24:35A dress?
24:36Okay.
24:38What?
24:39Going to tell Colin's parents
24:42is a little nerve-wracking.
24:44Yeah.
24:45Vagina!
24:49Holy shit.
24:51Fuck you.
24:52Okay, babe.
24:55Can we, uh, let up on it?
25:00Don't get stressed out.
25:02It could be worse.
25:04I'm concerned about you flipping people off.
25:08Yeah.
25:14Vagina.
25:16That's a mint vagina.
25:18That is a mint-flavored vagina.
25:20God damn!
25:23You're excited to go see my parents?
25:27Oh, man.
25:29My parents' beliefs are very traditional,
25:33old-school,
25:34and certain situations, like this one,
25:38you honestly have no idea
25:40if they're gonna support it,
25:41if they're not gonna support it.
25:43We're not even gonna get a blessing from your parents.
25:47I'm scared.
25:48Like, I don't know
25:49what your parents are gonna say.
25:51I mean, I can tell you that just we don't approve.
25:55You don't have sex.
25:57You don't move in together with somebody
26:00until you're married.
26:02You're talking.
26:04Okay.
26:05That's all you.
26:07Yeah.
26:08I'm pregnant, Marlene.
26:10Sorry.
26:11I'm sorry.
26:12I'm sorry.
26:13Please, let's not.
26:15I'm pregnant, Marlene.
26:17I'm pregnant, Marlene.
26:19You've got a tick.
26:21I'm pregnant, Marlene.
26:23The closer me and Colin get to Roanoke,
26:26the more my ticks become more active and intense.
26:30Yep.
26:31Look at those dogs.
26:34Oh, my God.
26:36How are you feeling?
26:37Nervous?
26:38It's just me in my head.
26:41Like, I haven't come to peace
26:43with ticking freely at your parents.
26:46Like, you've told me since we've been dating
26:49that no one swears in the house.
26:51It's not allowed.
26:52And, like, I feel awkward
26:54being in their living room in dead silent
26:56and I scream, hairy vagina.
26:58I don't like you holding in your ticks
27:00because guess what happens right after?
27:03You have a really, really bad tick attack.
27:05I feel like I...
27:07I have to hide it
27:09because it feels awkward
27:11to say, fuck, in your living room.
27:14Me and Colin sleep in separate beds at his parents' house.
27:18They believe that we should not be sleeping with each other
27:22or living with each other before marriage.
27:25So, of course, I'm a little bit freaked out
27:28that we're going there to talk to his parents
27:31about living together.
27:37Got it?
27:44Do you both approve of them moving in together?
27:48I don't want to move in in together
27:50so it's convenient.
27:52This isn't like moving in with a girlfriend
27:54who has no issues.
27:55We're here.
27:57Hey, y'all made it.
27:59Yeah.
28:00When we first met Baylin,
28:02it was a culture shock.
28:03Penis.
28:05Fuck.
28:23Get out of my face.
28:24Go somewhere else.
28:26Whose is that?
28:27I don't know.
28:29Just put him in a pile.
28:30No.
28:31Throw him in a corner.
28:32I am organizing.
28:33Hey, Judy Judy.
28:35Mammers.
28:37What you doing?
28:38Here, Al, this is Vinny's.
28:41Huh?
28:42Right here.
28:44That's Sonny's.
28:46Um, this is Becky's.
28:49You comfy?
28:51What's up, girl?
28:52How you doing?
28:53Um, I'm gonna do my typical.
28:56It's what your dad pays me to do.
28:57I do socks.
28:58All right, tell us a couple over here.
29:00Where's Bebe?
29:01Today?
29:02This weekend?
29:03What's she doing?
29:04Her and Colin took off to Roanoke.
29:07To do what?
29:08To share the news with Colin's parents
29:10that she just dropped on us.
29:12She came into the driveway and was like,
29:15um, Colin and I are gonna move in together.
29:18So she's not gonna get her own place.
29:20They're gonna...
29:21Move in together.
29:22They wanna move in together.
29:23I'm 100% in shock that Baylin wants to move in
29:26with her boyfriend.
29:27Is it just a little bit too soon?
29:30I'm hoping Colin understands and knows exactly
29:34what you are about to embark on.
29:37This isn't like moving in with a girlfriend.
29:39This isn't like moving in with a girlfriend
29:41who has no issues.
29:42And you know how Baylin says it.
29:44After being on a bicycle with a helmet this big,
29:46she's telling me this as, in my eyes,
29:48I'm seeing her as like a 9-year-old girl saying,
29:51Dad, I'm gonna move in with this guy.
29:54Now she's on a road down there.
29:56I'm sure that's gonna go over well with his parents.
30:00I was so excited for her to move in on her own,
30:03gain her own independence.
30:05Now the news of her moving in with Colin,
30:08it's shocking.
30:09I mean, she's head over heels for the guy.
30:12I just hope that he's up for this responsibility.
30:16Do you both approve of them moving in together?
30:20I don't wanna move in together so it's convenient.
30:24You know, I don't want...
30:26We're gonna move in together
30:27because I'm gonna save money and you'll save money
30:29and we'll just get together and get an apartment
30:31because that's when all your problems start.
30:33Al just wants to keep his baby girl forever.
30:36I don't want things for Bailyn to be,
30:40oh my gosh, she moved out on my own.
30:42Oh my gosh, she moved in with my boyfriend.
30:44Oh my gosh, I'm trying to do this.
30:46Oh my gosh, I got...
30:47And have it all come to a big, mounding,
30:50big backpack to start to carry and she can't carry it.
30:55I'm super happy for her.
30:56I think it's great.
30:57I think it's awesome that she'll live
30:58with somebody that she loves,
30:59but I almost have like that sense of like big sister in me,
31:03little sister, where it's like,
31:05you remember that time she fell in the shower?
31:07Mm-hmm.
31:08And Collin didn't call.
31:09Collin didn't even take her to the hospital.
31:11Collin didn't, like stuff like that.
31:13I kind of look at it as like,
31:14is she trying to do something
31:16that you're not fully comfortable with yet?
31:19In a way, I just wish maybe it would have rolled out better,
31:22but I can't pick the time and place
31:24and I can't pick who my kids are in love with.
31:26I need somebody who's gonna be there with my kid
31:29to help them become better.
31:31We're here.
31:33Are you excited?
31:35Yeah.
31:36You couldn't tell the entire way here when I was just,
31:39you know.
31:40Taken away?
31:41Penis.
31:52Hey.
31:53Hey.
31:54Y'all made it.
31:55Hey.
31:56Hey.
31:57Hey.
31:58Hey.
31:59Hey.
32:00Hey.
32:01Y'all made it.
32:02Yeah.
32:03Hey, Baylen.
32:04Hey, Baylen.
32:05My most important values
32:07are having a relationship with God,
32:09then my relationship with my wife,
32:11and then my relationship with my kids.
32:14Hey, sweetie.
32:15How are you?
32:16Hey, Dad.
32:17How old are you, bud?
32:18I know.
32:19I've got two dogs.
32:20We raised our children to be godly.
32:22You know, they know our values and what we stand for,
32:26and we hope we've instilled that in them, so.
32:29Long drive.
32:30Yeah.
32:31Did you run into rain on the way down?
32:33Yeah.
32:34Did you?
32:35It wasn't bad, though.
32:36Baylen, what have you been up to?
32:38I've been home.
32:39Nothing's, like, been...
32:41Nothing major.
32:43Yeah, nothing major.
32:44Yeah.
32:45When we first met, Baylen, it was a culture shock.
32:48You had me at first, and then I saw your pencil.
32:51Pencil.
32:52And I was like, okay.
32:55I was nervous big time.
32:58Because he had made it out to be really, really bad.
33:01And when she left, we both looked at each other and went...
33:04It wasn't that bad.
33:05That wasn't that bad.
33:06We really like her, so, yeah.
33:09How long are y'all gonna stay, Colin?
33:11Are you gonna be here through Sunday?
33:13I was hoping you could come to church with us.
33:16I think we might leave Saturday.
33:18I think I do have to work on Sunday.
33:21Have you ever thought about going to church, Baylen?
33:24I've been to...
33:27a lot of churches,
33:30but during prayer,
33:32whenever it is as quiet as possible,
33:35that's when my tics get worse.
33:37It's just difficult for me to feel comfortable
33:42in a space that everyone's staring at me.
33:46I was raised Catholic.
33:48I grew up Catholic.
33:50But just the looking, just the staring,
33:52just the things like that,
33:54that just makes me uncomfortable.
33:56There's been a lot of things said about...
33:59A lot of, a lot of...
34:01That I'm gonna go to hell because I swear.
34:05I've just had people, like, say things
34:08about me being a Christian and saying that
34:10and then being like,
34:11but look at what comes out of your mouth.
34:13That's what hurts more than anything,
34:15because it's like, I don't want to say it.
34:18I've thought about Bible study groups
34:21Bible study might be a good place to start,
34:23because the one that I go to,
34:25it's not just everybody from my church.
34:28Jesus, take the wheel.
34:34I'm pregnant.
34:36I'm not, I'm not, I'm not.
34:41It's shocking the first time
34:43she has one of the explosions,
34:45because you don't expect a little girl to say that.
34:48I'm like, what?
34:50I asked Colin, what do I do?
34:53And he said, just carry on the conversation
34:55as if she didn't and just hop right over it.
34:58Suck a penis.
35:00What do you want to do?
35:01Suck a penis.
35:03Um, since we were talking about church,
35:06do you want to, me to read a scripture?
35:09Mm-hmm.
35:10Sure.
35:11You don't mind?
35:12That works.
35:13Okay.
35:14Um...
35:15What sounds good to y'all?
35:17Let there be light.
35:18Jesus said, let there be light.
35:19Yes, he did.
35:20With Bailyn,
35:21I think my parents are still in that learning curve stage
35:25where they're still trying to learn
35:27when they should laugh,
35:28is it okay to laugh,
35:30because we don't come around so often.
35:32Um, in Matthew 6, 33,
35:34one of my favorite ones says,
35:36but seek ye first the kingdom of God
35:38and his righteousness,
35:39and all these things shall be added to you.
35:41So my advice, keep God first in your life.
35:44I'm very nervous,
35:45because we're sitting here reading the Bible,
35:47and then little do we know we're holding the secret
35:49about how me and Colin are gonna be living together
35:52and trying to hold tics in,
35:54because, again, religion,
35:56it's like a, like a tsunami of thoughts
35:59going through my head as I'm sitting on the couch,
36:02and I'm trying to run away from them,
36:05trying to run away from the 10,000 thoughts
36:08that are coming at me.
36:10You're done.
36:11I am.
36:12You're done.
36:13All right, and we're getting tired.
36:15All right, and we're getting tired,
36:17and I know y'all have had a long day, so...
36:19Peace out, girls go.
36:20We're gonna head to bed.
36:21Okay, that works.
36:22Is that okay?
36:23Bailey, you know where your room's at, right?
36:25Yeah, it's right there.
36:26Okay.
36:29So, I know we talked in the car
36:32about you suppressing your tics.
36:34Do you feel like you did that?
36:38Periodically, penis, yes.
36:41And by, like, whisper,
36:43and, like, you know, camouflage it, but, like...
36:46Did you hold any in?
36:47Yeah.
36:48And why?
36:49That one?
36:50Mm-hmm.
36:51Colin hates when I hold my tics in.
36:53Like, he...
36:55He understands why I do it,
36:57but he doesn't get it.
36:59I really wish that you could feel more comfortable
37:03around my parents
37:04to where you didn't have to suppress or hold...
37:07I didn't mean to whore.
37:08Hold any tics in.
37:10It's just hard for me to get out of my own head
37:14and be like, just tic, just tic.
37:17Like, you're fine, they don't care, just tic.
37:22Are you ready to do this tomorrow?
37:26Yes, kind of.
37:29Yeah, you're nervous?
37:31Yeah.
37:33I would say.
37:35Banana.
37:36I want to wait until the end of the day
37:38to tell my parents the news,
37:40because if they really don't approve of it,
37:43I don't want that to ruin the entire trip.
37:46We're in the process of trying to move into the...
37:51Oh, so who's, who's we?
37:53With what?
37:54Oh, no.
37:56I have heart disease.
37:57Oh, no.
37:58I have heart disease.
37:59Oh, no.
38:00I have heart disease.
38:01Oh, no.
38:02I have heart disease.
38:03Oh, no.
38:04I have already fucked up.
38:05I can't believe I just said we.
38:29You got the door?
38:30And we're here.
38:32Y'all got everything?
38:33We got it.
38:34Well, your mother's got it.
38:35I got it.
38:36Don't worry about it.
38:38God.
38:39Is your sister on the way?
38:40Colleen's coming?
38:41Yeah, they should be coming soon.
38:44Today we are spending some time with my parents
38:47and my sister and her kids.
38:49There they are.
38:51Before we get on the road and head back home.
38:53Hey, how you doing?
38:54How you doing, buddy?
38:55Good.
38:56Hey, Bo.
38:57What's up, buddy?
38:58Is that Uncle Colleen?
39:00You see a little one?
39:01You see this little stinker?
39:03We need to tell my parents this big news
39:05about wanting to move in together.
39:07Are you ready to do it?
39:10I don't know if I'll ever be ready.
39:13You're going to do it.
39:14I'm just going to stand right there.
39:16Stand right there.
39:17Hey.
39:19Oh, my goodness.
39:21Yeah, you're sweet.
39:24Hello.
39:26Hi.
39:27You want to hold her?
39:28Am I able to?
39:29Yeah.
39:30Oh, my goodness.
39:32Look him here.
39:33Oh.
39:34Oh, my goodness.
39:35All right.
39:36Can we come again?
39:37I was a little bit anxious to hold baby Lily
39:40just because it's like unknown.
39:42Like, I don't really know how my tics are going to be.
39:45You are so pretty.
39:48A little chunky.
39:50Tell him about it.
39:51You're a good girl.
39:53With baby Lily, I'm just calm.
39:55Like, the same way I am with Fluffy and Tootsie
39:57is the same way that baby Lily made me feel.
40:00At peace.
40:04I'm going to go over here with Bo.
40:05Okay.
40:06I want to wait until the end of the day
40:08to tell my parents the news
40:10because if they really don't approve of it
40:12and they are like a hard no,
40:15I don't want that to ruin the entire trip.
40:19It's a whole rock wall.
40:21No wonder he was screaming.
40:22It's like a ladder.
40:24No ladder.
40:25Come on down.
40:26So growing up,
40:27I was just as religious as my parents.
40:30I'm still religious.
40:32However, my beliefs have evolved
40:34from what I learned as a child
40:37and I feel confident in making adult choices.
40:42Banana.
40:44There you go.
40:45When I sat her down,
40:46do I put her on her stomach or her back?
40:48Either one.
40:49Okay.
40:50Yep.
40:51Whatever is comfortable for you.
40:53Oh my goodness.
40:54She'll probably just roll right over to her belly.
40:58Look at you.
41:02Where'd you get this blanket?
41:04It's actually like a...
41:05Ouch.
41:07What you put under a high chair.
41:09So what's going on with you?
41:11Anything new?
41:14We're in the process of trying to move into...
41:19Oh, so who's we?
41:21With what?
41:22Oh no.
41:24I have already fucked up.
41:25I've already fucked up.
41:27Oh my God.
41:28I can't believe I just said we.
41:29Oh, I just met like me and like...
41:33Like...
41:42We came down here
41:43to kind of talk to you about something important.
41:46Mm-hmm.
41:53Herbaland?
41:54Yes, ma'am.
41:55How are you doing?
41:57Joe Biden has a vagina.
41:59I was a little confused what's going on.
42:02She said Joe Biden does have...
42:05I was like,
42:06what's going on with her?
42:08Is she real?
42:11I know she spoke with you
42:12about us moving in together.
42:14Nothing better happen to my kid.
42:16I will fucking find you.
42:19Okay.
42:22I'm really trying to move forward.
42:27But as your dad,
42:28I have to make sure you're okay.