Married at First Sight UK Season 9 Episode 18
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00:00That's what we're here for previously. I really want to make this work as some marriages flourished
00:14Others floundered I feel something in me just switched off. I'm not convinced. We have a future
00:22If Emma is just I'm gonna have a fabulous day every day. I find it false. Yes, I can be more vulnerable
00:28Well, that's not me that means that no one's ever really gonna get close to you and Hannah's plea for forgiveness
00:33I'm so sorry fell on deaf ears. You don't believe me
00:38So we're
00:40Leading the commitment ceremony to end with two drastic decisions. The best thing for me to do would be to leave
00:47I'm full of resentment. I've put leave
00:53Tonight
00:56The couple's head off to a country retreat this is nice
01:00We're claiming this room while it marks a fresh start for Emma and Casper
01:04I actually don't know how to accept showing my vulnerable side the fact you're questioning something again
01:10I need to change something about myself that sharing vulnerability. That is progress. Could it spell the end for Rochelle and Dawson?
01:16Fine for you to say you bore me. Is it fine for you to lie?
01:20You're a fraud and I've seen through you and group gossip about new bride Hannah
01:25After the commitment ceremony when Stephen was walking towards her
01:28She said to also hold my hand making jealous puts her firmly in the firing line with husband
01:34Stephen behavior after has been terrible, so I can't even have fun to and try and make friends on a minute. I'm out
01:40I'm getting so sick of people from under the bus. Get me off the TV show
01:44It feels brilliant to be back in the countryside for the next three nights
01:48This is it. I wonder what inside looks like. Oh, I'm excited
01:52The couple's will all be staying together in a luxury rural retreat. This is massive
01:59We're claiming this room you can't claim it. You gotta win the game
02:03once
02:05Once again, I'm so excited to be back in the countryside
02:08I'm so excited to be back in the countryside
02:10I'm so excited to be back in the countryside
02:12Win the game
02:22Please be careful
02:26Look at the beans. Oh my god
02:31Flat home from home from you. Well, not quite
02:39This is nice
02:41Thank you, yeah
02:44I wonder what your one's like. I'm sure it'll be quite similar
02:49This is honeymoon sweet-sized bed this
03:00Nice in here. I know. Oh
03:02We're gonna have a good time
03:04Do you think there's gonna be any dramas?
03:07While we're here there might be we've earned Hannah and Steven
03:15Do the other Steven being a treat is somewhat tense. I obviously said leave at the commitment ceremony
03:27Who's the best cook me
03:29He's always got food on him. Yeah, don't feed. I'm more teaser. I go this top over with me
03:34Me Steven haven't spoke since the commitment ceremony. He's having banter with everyone and he literally won't look me in the eye
03:40It's clearly very frosty between us, but I'm continuing to try should we check our rooms out?
03:46You're that way with this way
03:47I am a little bit nervous to be sharing this cabin with Hannah and Steven
03:53But I know there's friction between the two of them. So I feel like it's gonna be a little bit. Oh, yeah
04:00But that has nothing to do with me. I tend to avoid drama
04:02I'm a bit like Switzerland. I'm like neutral all the time
04:15Fresh week
04:16And you know for me it is it's make or break
04:22And I wasn't ready to break it and I think you write and leave
04:28Slap in the face that I needed I've got to show you that I can be a great wife
04:35Coming into the experiment Emma was aware of the barriers she was placing on herself. I'm scared of vulnerability. I
04:43Don't let myself open up and I don't want to give someone my heart
04:47I'm holding myself back from finding love
04:50I've got to learn and grow because I think that's what I need
04:54All the emotions that I felt when I wrote leave and the sort of freedom I gave to my brain
04:59That it's hard to forget
05:01But my head at the moment is I want to be positive this week. Just see how my week goes
05:07Casper writing leave was probably something I needed to show me that I need to fight. I want to fight for this
05:14I want to fight for this relationship. I want to fight for this marriage
05:18It's not going to be easy, but I'm hearing what the experts are saying
05:21To be able to let him see Emma who is
05:26Vulnerable and can be venerable and emotion if needs be
05:30Every emotion that I'm trying to feel I'm gonna try and stay and pause in that moment like Paul told me to
05:37And that's tough. That's a tough
05:40No, I've got a chance to show what I can do this week
05:44No, I've got a chance to show what I can do this week
05:50This week is make or break if I'm a
05:53Make some progress in terms of embracing some of the other emotions apart from positivity
05:58I think that's a far more attractive version and I think if she holds on to those qualities then it could work and
06:05That's what I want. So, let's see
06:08Do you know what I think is funny though, it's the fact that it's called the cowhouse
06:17I feel I've got a good group here though. Yeah, I can imagine if she was with Stephen and Hannah
06:22Like they're not even talking. That would have been awkward. I actually
06:27Give her a German thought maybe they've come back off the honeymoon
06:29She's having a hard time. So she just got a frontal and then last night after the commitment ceremony
06:34She's gone up to Shannon and Ryan through and she was rubbing Ryan's feet in front of Shannon going
06:40Oh, and you got nice blue eyes. You see yourself in it nice and warm in there
06:45Like she's been super flirty with you
06:48Some of the comments have been a bit like
06:50You wasn't happy about it. What's your son? No, I wouldn't do that. So the other guy do you think you would pull off on it?
06:56We can't just be going around saying that stuff to people's men, you know, I mean, it's not how we work around here
07:02That to me is just very strange behavior. As soon as she seen him. She was like, oh you look nice
07:08Do you go the gym? You ain't got nothing to worry?
07:11Why I have to save the menu when you can have the full meal? I'm telling you you haven't got nothing to worry about
07:16I don't trust Hannah as far as I could throw her to be honest
07:19Maybe she's trying to see who's the real deal. I don't think she's trying to see who's the real deal
07:22I don't trust Hannah as far as I could throw her to be honest
07:25Well, maybe she's trying to see who the weakest couple are. See if she can wear my way in
07:30What's your plan B if it's not working out with your husband is trying to take someone else's but people have seen that though
07:35Because there has been things when we've been out
07:39After the commitment ceremony when Stephen was walking towards her. She said to Orson
07:43I will hold my hand because he's coming towards us make let's make him jealous
07:47Because she knew that Orson's marriage wasn't going great either
07:50You wouldn't go out of your way to make someone
07:53Jealous if you've put stay yesterday and that you want to try and work in it when you're doing when you're doing that
07:59It can't really keep going on if she's gonna keep flirting with people's men
08:04If that is how she is as a person then I don't want any part of it to be honest
08:21I
08:22Think given the commitment ceremony yesterday
08:25I'll stay in a different room. I
08:27Did say on the sofa that I was going to try my best. However waking up this morning
08:31I've learned some more things that Hannah said behind my back to other people
08:35She's trying on with other blokes in an attempt to either get with them or make me jealous
08:40So I've decided I'll be staying on my own
08:42I
08:46Okay, so why did you say you'll try
08:48Your behavior after has been terrible my behavior after he's been terrible. Yeah, like what I'm trying to get Orson to hold your hands
08:56Try make me jealous
08:58We were taking the piss. It's a shit joke after I'd spoke quite the honeymoon. They couldn't serve me
09:06You're making this whole experience so sure it's not fair. Okay, do you I've said leave you honestly feel like you're treating me
09:12All right
09:14Yeah, I don't think it's gonna go well, so I can't even have banter and try and make friends when I'm here
09:19Yeah, but not about me. It wasn't about you. It's never what so by your home hand to make Stephen jealous
09:26You're taking things so differently. I'm out told you
09:29I'm getting so sick of people fucking for him under the bus. Get me off this fucking TV show. It's like the God
10:00Oh
10:03Okay, what's happened
10:06Every single person was just frame under the bus. He's gone. He's just said to me. You're being disrespectful because you're saying and
10:14Are you and awesome are taking the piss like pretending to hold hands every single person in this group?
10:19They've all thrown me under the bus
10:20No, I feel like don't just take face value from Stephen you need to speak to like everybody sweet to everybody
10:27About it will go
10:31Yeah, honestly don't just don't try and stay calm remember calm
10:38My personality is being bashed and I'm being thrown under the bus and being blindsided with all these little stupid stories
10:43And there's clearly some shit stirring going on here, and I want to get to the bottom of it
10:57I mean if he's giving nothing back to you, and I it's difficult to
11:05You don't honestly you're not being bad you're not being a bad person
11:09I know it's what is your option now is to try and make friends with people and have some banter in the whole group
11:14She's turned against me
11:18You're obviously gonna think that people are bitching about you, but it's probably just been said in like a jokey way
11:26People never fucking laughs like why do I have to be honest and this honest and that honest
11:30I'm the fucking drama of this whole thing, and I don't need this shit. They were probably laughing about it
11:36You know under the circumstances of what we're doing and how you see no
11:40Why would you make it make more drama that it doesn't need to be drama?
11:47I'm not being portrayed to look like a liar, and I'm not being portrayed to look like I've been
11:52Disrespectful when all I'm trying to do is build some friendships have some bonds with people that is my kind of banter
11:59The whole story's been blown out of proportion
12:03I'm open to chatting to everyone and figuring it out
12:05But I don't want people to think I'm stepping on people's toes because I'm not
12:08I
12:16Feel like this is like our second honeymoon now, you know I mean yeah
12:20After last night the commitment ceremony as well went really well
12:24Definitely in a not that we were ever in a bad place, but we're in a better place
12:27Yeah, the best place we've been it because it's just a nice little incline of things. I think it'll be good
12:32I'm excited obviously last night
12:34We spoke about the fact that I wanted a little bit more PDA from you and obviously I know that you struggle with that
12:41How do you think you're gonna find that when obviously we are?
12:44with everyone this week I
12:46Will struggle with that and I've told you that it's not something that I can just do it's something that's gonna get built up so I
12:53Just think it's hard for me because I've never been a PDA person so in relationships
12:58I've never like held hands, or I've never been like kissing in nightclubs and like just anywhere like I'm not I
13:06Don't really like it. I always like it like
13:08Not behind closed doors, but discreet you know I mean I
13:13Know it's not gonna happen overnight, so that's just something I've got to own yeah
13:18And I suppose seeing as I can't give you all the PDA. I might run. Yeah, the odd bath the odd bath
13:25Yeah, I'd put some rose petals around if I could find some
13:29It would be really nice for me if Adam did give me something this week in front of the group
13:34I'm not asking for a huge grand gesture. Maybe a little kiss or an arm around the shoulder
13:39Yeah, just something would just be nice. It just makes me feel a little bit more secure
13:44I
13:55Don't know how to help. I don't know but you're trying. Yeah, really bad
14:00Making me upset. That's literally all she needs is you alone to
14:04Which one to give you some space?
14:07Yeah, I
14:10Just feel really sorry for I'd hate to be in that situation
14:14You're okay
14:20It's not nice to see my wife get upset and react like that you know tears coming down
14:27She's all right
14:30You know Hannah's just a bride like Amy was you know she's excited about this match
14:34And now it seems to be falling apart so quickly
14:39The guy that married me was like the nicest guy I've ever met I
14:43Genuinely like this boy like he made me feel so comfortable and so happy
14:47We had something in us. Maybe that we could try a bit more we could move forward, but now he
14:51It's they've all just ruined it everyone's just ruined it
14:55I'm trying so hard to keep it together. You're doing really well. You do really well and literally
15:00I can't even explain how proud I am of you I
15:05Left the commitment ceremony
15:07very much willing to try with Steven I
15:10Meant everything I said on that couch. I cried and I meant it and I said that there were still feelings there. I meant it
15:17However the fact that he won't actually have a conversation with me
15:21Is it's gonna be harder than I thought so
15:23the balls in his court
15:25I
15:35Totally live here now. I know I'm quite disappointed that me calls or hasn't gone yet like
15:44Even though it is well frustrating. Yeah, no it is frustrating. It's definitely frustrating
15:49Just let's try and keep positive
15:51especially for my brain at least
15:55It is my time of the month, but
15:58Even though I'm not feeling a hundred percent myself
16:01I'm still gonna enjoy the peace enjoy time with Kieran, and we're just hopefully gonna have the best time
16:09Christina first opened up about suffering with PMDD on the honeymoon. It's just like PMS
16:16but mine is like just
16:19Heightened you know if times do get hard. I'll do my absolute best to make sure I'm there for you
16:26Because you deserve you deserve someone to do that for you for him to react how he's reacted like I
16:33Genuinely could not ask for any more
16:40I'm very I'm very grateful. I've got you me, too
16:45And I'll have you as best as I can I know and I do really appreciate it
16:51I'm just gonna go off the back of whatever Christina wants whatever Christina wants Christina. I'll get it's actually quite comfy. Yeah
16:58Yeah, just need a little nap a little nappy nap little nap to recuperate
17:03Just gotta be as supportive as I can and help Christina as much as I can as a husband
17:09It's a shame. I couldn't bring me piano, but I have brought me you
17:12Yeah serenade you as long as I've got you, I'll be all right, we'll be fine. Hey, we'll be fine
17:19very grateful I
17:27Don't see any point we are staying together and while on this retreat
17:34After the commitment ceremony it was obvious to me that I've caused you a lot of distress
17:37There was a comment that you made Rochelle last night you essentially said he wasn't masculine enough
17:43For me masculinity is leadership. And I just don't feel that I'm getting that right now
17:50She said like awesome. You don't really stimulate me mentally. I
17:55Took it fucking personal. I feel something in me that just maybe switched off a little bit. I
18:02Didn't know that that I mean, this is the first I'm hearing that me saying that made him switch off
18:08You hadn't brought that up
18:15I did right stay and I'm quite frustrated with myself that I didn't do what I wanted to do
18:23Because I wanted to leave and he knew that
18:26Stone like get it sometimes I really don't it shouldn't be that hard to get I told you how I felt
18:33If you told me how you feel
18:35like and I'm telling you like
18:38This is how I feel. I don't understand like why you tell me how you felt before the commitment ceremony
18:46If you're telling me no, can you just answer me?
18:49Did you tell me anything that you said on the couch, you know, well, you know, not true
18:53You know, how I feel? No, how would I know? I'm not I'm not a mind reader
18:59You sat on the couch and you said that how when I said about not being mentally stimulated you said that caused you distress
19:05We had ample opportunities to talk about it. I don't know how you feel but I'm not sure how I feel
19:10I'm not sure how I feel but I'm not sure how I feel
19:13I'm not sure how I feel
19:15You said that caused you distress
19:17We had ample opportunities to talk about in private. You never mentioned that to me everything I said on the couch
19:22I had already told to you. You also said you checked out
19:28Yeah, I checked out a discussion. I checked out. Well, then why when I said I wanted to leave
19:32Did you say you wanted to stay you said you wanted to leave also? No, you say that we didn't have a conversation
19:37You said you want do you not remember the conversation we had when I said to you? I'm ready to leave
19:42I'm ready to go back to work. And if I leave now, I can be home in time for my daughter's birth
19:46Okay, and then what did we decide? No, but what did you say? I said, let's do one more week, right? Okay
19:51I said that yeah, then what did we decide? Well, obviously I said stay because I
19:56Can't tell you what no you definitely
19:59Would be I was I was being I was trying to be thoughtful because I had already left once before
20:05And I thought let's be in agreement when we leave
20:09It's fine for you to say you bore me it's fine for you to say
20:15You could have addressed you could have addressed it at the time to have arguments and then just walk out it's fine for you to say
20:22Oh
20:23I'm not sure if I like find you like I could I could say more things that you said to me
20:28Also, no, it's kind of kind of just fine for you to lie
20:33Okay, let me just watch as you have let me just say this what about your lies, I'm not gonna actually sit here
20:39Let's talk about your lies. Also, I don't want to be
20:42Question just you're a liar. You're just you're a fraud once you come after my integrity once you come after my livelihood
20:50Once you come after did I ask you if you if your business is registered on the company's house
20:54I got time. You're not even registered on come on. You said you are you're a fraud and I've seen through you
20:59I've got I ain't got time for you. Like just you're staying your space. That's exactly what I'm going to do
21:04That's exactly what I'm doing all respect for you. And what I lost respect for you. I lost respect for you on the honeymoon
21:14Pretty certain, you know, he probably hopes he did right leave now
21:17But he wanted to drag this out another week and we're dragging it out another week
21:29You
21:34All I've gotten from Michelle is criticism
21:40Some of those things are just can't see past
21:44It's gone as far as oh
21:48You're a fraud. You're a liar. You've got no company
21:53I've made sure that Michelle is looked after. I made sure that I'm a man to Rochelle. Oh
21:59Apparently, I'm not money. No
22:02I've checked out
22:04Like I am done
22:06How
22:18Many times do you think you've gotten a bike in the last decade? Yeah three times. Oh, he hasn't fallen off yet
22:24We're there. Well, there's always time
22:31Suspensions good on them. You do little wheelie. No
22:36Stop showing off
22:40It's actually so nice to just get the wind in your hair, it's so nice a
22:46Nice little date day exactly
22:52How's lovely actually
22:55Casper look what I prepared. Oh, this looks banging. Look at that
23:01proper cheese board
23:03some macaroons and fruits
23:06There we are
23:10So it's been a nice day
23:14Are you proud of me for what I've done so far? Honestly, you've been brilliant
23:18See it's believe it was was my thinking on the sofa with the experts
23:23In order to grow you've got to get outside your comfort zone. You do that's my job this week
23:29Vulnerability is definitely something that I struggle with and I actually don't know how to
23:33Except for showing my vulnerable side
23:36I actually don't know too much on how to break the mentality that I've worked on for 10 years in my work
23:43In sales, it's quite hard to be super super resilient and vulnerable at the same time
23:50If that you're questioning something again, I need to change something about myself. I don't know how to do it. I want to
23:54Yeah, that's showing vulnerability and that's that's a step in the right direction. Honestly that question in itself is progress
24:01Thank You customer I'm feeling
24:05I'm feeling thankful
24:09I've come into this new week with a fresh mind and
24:12That's what I'm trying to be trying to be more open trying to be more vulnerable. And then do you think there's hope?
24:17We carry on this trajectory
24:22Honestly, yeah
24:24I'm staying and I'm gonna be as positive and upbeat as I can
24:28Through the next week and see where we end up, but just have as much fun as possible
24:40I definitely feel like we're making progress. Is that my toxic positivity?
24:47You know, we might even get a snog this week
24:49Slowly but surely, I think you know, I am seeing different sides of Emma to a positive week then
24:56We've been really struggling and walking on eggshells and now we're not
25:02Slips down the gullet, didn't it? Oh, yeah. Oh
25:05I'm intrigued because it's a far more lovable person long may it continue
25:19Oh
25:27How nice who's popping it I'll do the honors
25:35I need anything
25:40My two favorite girls, hello. Hello. Hello my honey
25:50Can I get in now?
25:54I'm trying to be as supportive as I can for Christina
26:03Cuz I know how how hard this is when she's suffering from a PMDD symptoms
26:07And she just needs someone to really be there for her. Right, you get the shampoos in
26:12Hi, the setting is so beautiful got bubbly on the side
26:17Got the candles everywhere the lights it is the perfect perfect romantic scene
26:24Cheers to our first bath together. Cheers to us. Yes. He's the best
26:31romantic in it
26:33That wasn't romantic
26:36A
26:38Cheese, I smell my roses. How are you feeling about the retreat?
26:42Yeah, I was
26:44Yeah, I was
26:45Obviously super super nervous because I didn't think I'd be I was worried
26:50I was obviously going to be fed around which I did
26:52I was they did this morning, but now being like in here with you like I feel really I feel so much better
27:00You know, you've managed to like bring me out of a hard a hard place I didn't do that you've done that no
27:07But you help it's the little things that like mean the absolute world to me like maybe without even realizing
27:13You know just like a light a sensitive touch. You're like what I like. I know when you mean it
27:21It's so brand-new Karen and like I think you're just handling it like an absolute champ, you know
27:27I appreciate you, you know
27:30struggling through it with me a
27:33Problem shared is a problem. Yeah, that's really about them half it for you. And that makes it I've used y'all though
27:41I'm so grateful to just have somebody, you know
27:45Just understand how and why I'm sort of feeling it made me feel a hundred times better. Yeah, really grateful
27:52so
27:53You're gonna pass the tree then or what?
27:58Go on
28:00Even in Christina say and in the bath. Nobody knows I've got me big toe up your ass
28:14You do this one then
28:20They got their helmets on and they're taking a piddle on their bikes a
28:25Piddle
28:30That's really good
28:31Olsen and Rochelle are not getting on and that is why I've made them this song
28:38they just need to
28:40put the past behind closed doors and
28:46Orson should get on all fours
28:49That could be number one
28:51How a man?
28:56I
28:58Talk to me Denver what's going on?
29:00Michelle and that
29:02it's just gone to the point where like
29:05I'm like, I don't even really want to be around
29:10You two were good people don't remember shouting my sister. You're my brother like we're not even living together
29:18It's
29:20Is there not a friendship salvageable? No, no way no in a million years in two million years
29:29Yesterday you both would stay yeah
29:32What's changed since then everything
29:36In disrespectful go and why should I keep trying? I don't argue with my two and a half year old
29:41I'm not coming in to argue with a 48 year old and managing moods. I'm not here to manage. No 48 year old moves
29:47I'm doing it. I've done enough of that. I'll compromise enough. Yeah, it's time to think about I gotta think about me, bro
29:53yeah, it's time to think about awesome now and
29:57You are here trying to make her happy. Yeah, I'm forgetting about my happiness
30:02Holly did tell me something earlier. Okay?
30:06Yesterday you was with Hannah and Hannah said, oh, let me hold your hand so I can make Stephen jealous
30:12Oh
30:14Walk one day bro, I need to know
30:21God
30:25Okay, so like
30:28She was
30:29Flirting a little bit. I'm not gonna lie. She was flirting a little bit. That's a mad team. Yeah, she
30:36But I don't think he was that deep
30:38If I sit here and say like it was deep I'm gonna stop you there real quick though
30:42Okay, if you're not on good terms with your husband, you should not be flirting with other men serious or unserious
30:50That's crazy and it's moggy on Stephen because he doesn't deserve it man
30:55She shouldn't be doing that. You're never gonna do anything
30:59The boys ain't like that
31:09I
31:11Have I've got some wine
31:13Yeah, but like I've actually got a husband now
31:16tree, I'll step in
31:18Sunny Oh Posh
31:21Sasha's on her way around amazing. I feel like Hannah needs to open up to another girl other than me. She's gorgeous eye contact
31:29We entered the experiment at the same time, but she feels like everybody's against her. How are you feeling?
31:36I'm exhausted, but I do it'll be I'm glad that Sasha's coming
31:40It'll be nice to just kind of like maybe try and help me like integrate into the group a little bit
31:44You need to open up
31:53Hannah and Stephen are not in a good place
31:56They're not sharing a cottage together and I've just come in to say we'll make sure you feel welcome
32:01We just want you to enjoy the retreat
32:03What was your sign about me so my ears was banning
32:07We were just talking about like all that
32:09There's all these bloody rumors about me and awesome like flirting with each other. Have you heard this?
32:14Tell the truth, I may have heard very recently that you put your hand in his orc or summit
32:25Oh my god, this is getting so playground. Yeah, that was Ryan. I touched his shoe and said shoes
32:34Right, so that hang on there's an issue now that I told someone I like their shoe in it
32:37I wanted to see if there's an issue, but there is because that's how you've just said it. Oh
32:43I've landed myself in it and the honors upset. It's all gonna tits off
32:47I think they just it was just there was my beside you was just like
32:52Flirting or by asking someone if their shoe was fluffy and saying that this is a really big eyes
32:59And no, sorry lashes or something
33:03I
33:04Don't want to be the bearer of bad news and stuff. Oh god
33:08She's grabbed Brian's fault and she's giving him a foot massage and she looked at him and said, oh my god
33:14Your eyes are so beautiful
33:17And the other day she went and knocked on my door and asked for my hair straighteners were you there no
33:24Alex was like well Holly's not here. Alex has gone shut down. She's got Alex and he's lent round
33:30And she's gone just to let you know you're my favorite boy, oh man
33:37Hearing these new things that Holly and told me tonight
33:39I'm genuine said because I have separated from my children to come into this process. I've come here to give my everything
33:45I don't really know how we've got here, but we're here
33:49So my go-to thing is to be really nice to people
33:52Yeah
33:52and the fact that that's being twisted into being flirting is just so frustrating to
33:56I just feel so like mountain out of a molehill. She thought that the gossip about her and also like
34:03flirting came from
34:06Somebody in the group and they were like stirring shit
34:10I'm
34:11Usually pretty good at merging into a group. So there's something going wrong here and I don't really know why
34:17No one's actually just took the time to hear my side of the story
34:20It just feels like it's all gone to shit because we started off so well
34:25Like our wedding was amazing. Our honeymoon was amazing if I'm honest
34:29I've not told anyone this
34:33But like we slept together on the honeymoon I
34:38Don't sleep with people just easily. Yeah, and and that's why it's harder for me to like just let it go. Yeah
34:43Yeah, yeah, yeah sex for women is more emotional. Don't really sleep with someone
34:47Rarely women sleep with someone that I don't feel anything for at all. Yeah
34:53I think that's why I feel more hurt about the whole thing. Yeah
34:57Coming in late is hard enough coming in later with no support system is it's been really really tough like really tough. That's shit
35:03I don't want anyone to feel like that. I can definitely talk to the girls. I appreciate that
35:08She's come into this the complete wrong way and it's not sat well with anybody. I said leave
35:16I don't want this. Yeah
35:19But you're the one that said you wanted to work and work on it, but you're off working on other guys
35:24Exactly. She's she has perfect in it
35:27big time
35:29You can't sit on the sofa and say I really want to work at this marriage and that's why I'm gonna stay and we're gonna
35:34Make it right and all this but then working on everyone else's man over than yourself
35:39I'm sorry, but she's a bag
35:43She's hungry
35:45This is not a carvery baby. Can't go along picking bits of what you want
35:49You've got someone here. And if you don't appreciate a good guy, someone's fucking gonna
36:05I
36:11Don't know whether she's seen Orton and Rochelle aren't great. So she wants an opportunity to try diving somewhere else
36:19It's awful hearing all this stuff I've been married before
36:23I've got four children and it's my last-ditch effort to actually find my person because I've my heart broken last time
36:29I'm just
36:30refusing to go through it again and it's just fucking sad that you put all the effort and time in somebody and then this
36:36Just I feel like you cannot say that. This is your last chance when you've been lumped with Hannah
36:40You are not the problem. No, no, everyone see for everyone. It's not boding. Well with anybody
36:48Just know that we've got your back, thank you
37:01Come up it's all pen
37:05Hello
37:07I'm definitely not ready to give up Steven. So I do feel like I want to have a chat with Orson and just gets the
37:12bottom of it
37:13So there's rumors about me and you so
37:17God
37:19It just feels like it's all been blown massively out of proportion
37:24so after the commitment ceremony, I
37:26Feel like you were going out of your way to kind of make me laugh and we were having a bit of answer and we
37:30Like should we pretend to hold hands and like lol now that everybody's turned against me
37:36You can't say everybody cuz I haven't
37:42There was no malicious
37:44Intent but it's fine for you to say but that's how it's been made to look from the others from everybody else in this group
37:50Everybody's coming out and saying you've done this you've done that you've done this
37:52I've not been told that it was inappropriate because I told someone they had really nice eyes. I can't win
37:58Question have you realized what's happening here? I'm the villain. No, no, no just a lot of shit stir
38:06Rumors I get that and I understand that however
38:09Can you see how I now feel like I can't trust anybody in this group because everybody's throwing under the bus
38:13Left right and center and it's not fair. I feel like I'm being made to look like a shitty human and I'm not a shitty human
38:22I don't think you're shitty human. I understand fully exactly where you're coming from 100%
38:33What can I do
38:35To just eradicate a lot of this to fucking have my back man
38:40I've had your back in every conversation. I've had you could go and speak to anyone in this group
38:46anyone in this group
38:50Appreciate that
38:53Got you
38:55Austin's a good guy. I think he's a good guy. I think the fact that he's a little bit older
38:59I think he's not playing a game here. And I think Steven maybe has took the stories differently
39:04Twisted it a little bit and he's obviously stewed on it for the night and then thrown it at me
39:08I think you're overthinking things. Yeah
39:17Take me seriously. Yeah, do you know how amazing you are?
39:22All the newbies walked in and the first thing I said to Adam after I've kind of like done my people watching that goes I like
39:28her
39:32Because she's fiery she's feisty and she looks like she don't give a shit and that's that's what gravitates me to you
39:44It's nice to hear someone especially a man actually big me up a little bit
39:53So I've obviously got a walk-in saloon a party on my own no, you know, you got me we could walk in hand-in-hand
39:58We can't yes. I don't give a shit like let them talk
40:04I just wanted to feel someone's hand in mine. It's been a while. Oh
40:13I appreciate you. I do appreciate you. Yeah, man. I got you man
40:17I
40:20Mean I'm not in a great place, you know with Rochelle Steve is not in a great place with Hannah
40:27Okay, you guys could get out now
40:31Not a hundred percent sure if Hannah fancies me or not if she does like
40:43Squeaky bum time
40:47Next time
40:51As the group split I am walking into a lion's den for the girls animosity bruise
40:57This is your chance to explain yourself
40:59Well, it's not because you've all made your minds up. The last thing you want to do is get brave
41:03She's gone about things like a dickhead for the boys. She's done certain things
41:07I think to get you jealous an admission. I've had a conversation with Hannah last night inflames tension
41:13She's trying it on with all the other guys. I think that's a bit on
41:16It is fucking done, but it's revealing questions stick with your current partner or twist
41:24Twist that deals a devastating blow the fact that you've gone I'll switch to Steven his muggies for I'm getting better every week
41:32And I'm you're still not fucking happy
41:35Just shit
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