My Mother, My Story: Bea Alonzo, a STRONG woman because of her mother! - Full Ep 4 (August 11, 2024)
Aired (August 11, 2024): Sa likod ng pagiging isa sa mga kilalang artista, ano pa ba ang mga untold stories ni Bea Alonzo tungkol sa kanyang career, lovelife, at buhay, sa mata ng kanyang ina. Muli niya itong sasagutin sa interview na ito: Sino nga ba siya ng dahil sa kanyang ina?
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00:00Beya, thank you for being here.
00:11Oh, thank you for having me.
00:12Welcome to My Mother, My Story.
00:13Thank you so much.
00:14We talked about this and both of us were excited.
00:16I know, I know.
00:18Why are you excited to talk about your life using the lens of Mama?
00:24I feel like I get all the credit.
00:26But honestly, we're partners in life.
00:30She's like my best friend.
00:32She's my business partner.
00:34Not only is she a good mother, but also she really is a good mentor to me.
00:43I am Beya Alonso.
00:44My mother is Marian Garcia.
00:47And this is my story.
00:49Rolling 5, 4, 3, 2...
00:55My Mother, My Story
01:14Let's start here.
01:15Describe to me the mother that you want to be.
01:21Just like my mother, I would say.
01:26To be honest, she was very strict when we were growing up.
01:30And of course, back then, I didn't understand why.
01:35She had you when she was 19?
01:36Yes.
01:37She got pregnant when she was 19.
01:39She had you when she was 20?
01:4020.
01:41So, we're also good friends.
01:44Growing up, there wasn't much of a generation gap.
01:49And that's what I'm afraid of because I'm 36.
01:52And I wasn't even born yet.
01:54So, I was thinking, I wish my mom would be cool with me growing up.
01:58If I have kids, I wish my mom would be cool with me just like my mom.
02:02Okay, let's talk about the strict side.
02:04Did she beat you up?
02:05Yes, she beat us up back then.
02:07With a hanger or a belt.
02:10Okay.
02:11Bad?
02:12Or...
02:13No, but every time she did that, she would cry.
02:16Yes.
02:18But she didn't say sorry.
02:20But she would do other things to apologize.
02:24Like, she would cook for you.
02:27You know, she would make up for it.
02:29At that age, you know, she would make up for it.
02:31Yes.
02:32Would you do that to your children?
02:34Would you be a strict mother?
02:36I think so.
02:37Because it really helped me a lot growing up.
02:39Especially with our dynamic.
02:43Because I was the breadwinner.
02:46So I've seen people, I've seen actors and actresses that
02:51because they became breadwinners, they would call the shots in their family.
02:55But you're very young, so you don't know any better.
02:58In our family, the dynamic never changed.
03:00She was still the mother.
03:02Even though I was providing.
03:04That's interesting.
03:06I feel like, if she wasn't like that to me,
03:09maybe my personality would have changed.
03:12She was very adamant.
03:15She was very...
03:18Headstrong.
03:19Headstrong in saying that I am the mother.
03:24What is my dream in life?
03:26Now, I can see you two siblings who are fine,
03:29who are family.
03:30That's where I'm okay.
03:32That's my dream.
03:33Especially for you.
03:34Doc, you're making me cry.
03:36What is the most important thing that Madam M taught you
03:42when it comes to life?
03:45The first lesson that comes to mind.
03:47The first thing she always tells us,
03:51Buntot mo, hila mo.
03:53What does that mean?
03:55It means that when you make a decision,
03:59you have to make it happen.
04:01You have to be able to stand up for yourself
04:05and you have to make sure that you stand by the decision that you make.
04:09Where does that come from?
04:10Does the mother have experience?
04:12Does the family have experience?
04:15That's why she always says,
04:18Buntot mo, hila mo.
04:21Mama is the eldest.
04:23And my grandmother was an OFW.
04:26So basically, she was the mother of her siblings.
04:31And she also started working very young.
04:34She really grew up as a very strong woman.
04:39And so, she's almost unapologetic.
04:46She's very strong.
04:47Honestly, when you look at our personalities,
04:50they're very opposite.
04:52I'm not saying I'm weak.
04:54Obviously, we have our own strengths, right?
04:57And we show it differently.
04:59How much do you know of the life of Mama
05:02in the context of how she was disciplined,
05:07how she was raised by her grandparents?
05:12Mama was a hustler when she was young.
05:15Because they were poor.
05:17So when she was young,
05:19her grandmother would sell rice to her.
05:27Or her grandmother,
05:29my great-grandmother,
05:30she had a pig.
05:31So she would get scraps to feed the pigs.
05:37And I remember her stories.
05:39She would say that she was embarrassed
05:41because her crush would pass by.
05:43Her crush's house.
05:45So she would take a detour
05:48so that she wouldn't see someone
05:50bringing rice to her.
05:51So she really had a tough childhood.
05:56So that was also the reason
06:00why when I was making money,
06:04she made sure that we would be able to save
06:08and that we would be able to build something.
06:10Because she didn't want to go through what she went through.
06:12But what about the boyfriend ban?
06:14Was Mama also banned?
06:16I don't think so.
06:17She got a boyfriend early.
06:19Okay.
06:20Mama got a boyfriend early.
06:22Early?
06:23She got a boyfriend early.
06:24That's why she always says,
06:26you're just going to go,
06:27I'll be back.
06:28I know what you mean.
06:29Don't fool me.
06:31She knows when I have a crush.
06:34Had a near-death experience?
06:36No, the one you showed me.
06:39Yes.
06:41Because you're so tall.
06:42I was in labor for a long time.
06:43You were in labor for a long time.
06:45And you're so tall.
06:46You're 11.2 pounds.
06:48She was really afraid of men.
06:50I was so young.
06:51I was 19 years old.
06:53How can I leave her in the hospital
06:54when I don't have a place to go?
06:57But she always self-deprecates
07:01and facetiously would say,
07:04It's so obvious, Bea.
07:06You're beautiful, but I'm not.
07:08When you hear that from your mom,
07:11truly, Bea, in your heart,
07:13what's your reaction?
07:15How badly was she affected
07:18with your most recent break-up?
07:22From what I've read and heard,
07:24she's also very funny.
07:25But she always self-deprecates
07:29and facetiously would say,
07:32It's so obvious, Bea.
07:34You're beautiful, but I'm not.
07:36When you hear that from your mom,
07:39truly, Bea, in your heart,
07:40what's your reaction?
07:42It's not true.
07:44I always think it's not true.
07:47Because I think she's
07:50the most beautiful woman
07:51I've ever met in my life.
07:53Obviously, she's my mother.
07:55And when I say beautiful,
07:57not just physical,
07:59her heart is so big, Uncle Boy.
08:02When she loves,
08:03she will love you for the rest of your life.
08:05She will give you heaven and earth.
08:07Sometimes, it's even too much.
08:10So, I think she is very beautiful
08:13and she doesn't even realize it.
08:15She's very selfless.
08:17I think beauty,
08:18when it's not realized,
08:20it becomes more beautiful.
08:21It becomes more beautiful.
08:22But she's also very proud of her body.
08:24She was super sexy before.
08:26What was your vital status before?
08:2846, 24, 34.
08:32That's what she said.
08:33She said,
08:34Oh, Bea, you didn't reach it.
08:36You didn't really reach it.
08:37You didn't reach your face,
08:38but you reached your body.
08:40Do you know that?
08:41It's funny.
08:42She always says,
08:43Oh, Bea Alonso,
08:44you didn't reach my body.
08:48But it's funny
08:49because she really dreamed
08:50of having a good son, Uncle Boy.
08:53That's really her dream in her life.
08:56So, she always says,
08:58I'm the one she fulfilled her dream.
09:02Because she has a cousin
09:05who's half American.
09:07So, every time she goes to Santa Cruz,
09:10it's always Reina Elena.
09:14She also wants to go abroad,
09:16but her mom doesn't want to.
09:17My grandmother doesn't want to.
09:18She's only Tagalog.
09:19Because she said,
09:20Oh, my!
09:21Her mother told her,
09:23We're still small.
09:24You can go next.
09:27She said,
09:28Don't go.
09:29I'll give you a hard time.
09:31My grandmother doesn't mean that.
09:33Right.
09:34Maybe it's because
09:35they don't have expenses at that time.
09:37So, she's a Tagalog sister.
09:40So, while she's a Tagalog sister,
09:41in her cousin's mind,
09:43If I had a son,
09:44it would be better here in Apen.
09:46And it happened.
09:47Yes, it's really her dream
09:48to have a good son.
09:50And when the time comes,
09:51you're Reina Elena.
09:52Yes.
09:53And I'm still paid.
09:54Just kidding.
09:59Right?
10:00Leveled up.
10:04Okay.
10:05But yes,
10:06that's really her dream.
10:08Her dream is to be white,
10:10to be a mestiza.
10:11That's the standard of beauty.
10:13For a long, long time.
10:14Until now.
10:15I feel like
10:16she's comparing it
10:18to her cousins who are white.
10:20So, maybe
10:21it's in her mind
10:22that if you're white,
10:23you're beautiful.
10:24But she never really wanted me
10:25to become an actress.
10:26She doesn't want to.
10:27But she wanted you
10:28to be a stewardess.
10:29Yes, because that's her dream.
10:31That's why my dream is different.
10:33Which was?
10:34To become an actress.
10:35From scratch?
10:36From scratch.
10:37Did you express that to your mom?
10:38She knows.
10:39She knows.
10:40Because when I watch TV,
10:41I imitate what I'm watching.
10:42For example?
10:43You know, when I see
10:44Ate Juday on TV,
10:45I know that when
10:47Ate Claudine,
10:48when the music changes,
10:49I know that they're going to cry.
10:50So, I'm in front of the mirror,
10:52the TV is here,
10:53I'm the first one
10:54to cry in front of them.
10:55Yes.
10:56That's the...
10:57I didn't know
10:58that it was a workshop.
10:59Correct.
11:01I tried.
11:05I tried to forget Ato.
11:09I tried to love Ruan.
11:14But I'm not happy.
11:16When my mom realized that
11:18this is what my daughter really wants,
11:20she supported everything.
11:21Yes, I received a lot of curses
11:23from her inside the CR.
11:26Because when...
11:27Because...
11:28You know, of course,
11:29it's not really...
11:30There were times that
11:32you might get bullied
11:34because we're not rich.
11:37It's really hard to be an artist.
11:39It's hard to become an artist
11:41when you're just poor.
11:43So,
11:44there were pictorials,
11:46but there were no stylists back then.
11:48They didn't like my clothes.
11:50So, sometimes,
11:51they would borrow from another artist
11:53who was okay in front of other people,
11:56but to be honest,
11:57we were bullied behind the scenes.
12:00So, my mom
12:01would take me to the bathroom
12:02to do my hair.
12:03She would pinch me to death.
12:04She was like,
12:05you really want this.
12:06Look at this.
12:07I'm going to hit you
12:08if I don't think about you.
12:11But of course,
12:12I tried to stop her.
12:14Because my mom
12:15is the type of woman
12:17who doesn't give up.
12:19That's why
12:20she was thinking about me
12:21and my career.
12:22She was trying to stop herself
12:23from fighting.
12:27Crying
12:32When it comes to work,
12:34when it comes to career,
12:36how do you two
12:37stand out from each other?
12:40I think,
12:42I'm more aggressive
12:45than my mom.
12:47Well, my mom,
12:49in our businesses,
12:50she really makes sure
12:54that everything is taken care of.
12:56She makes sure
12:57that everything is well-maintained.
13:01That I will give to her.
13:03But when it comes to working hours
13:05and going beyond
13:08what is expected of you,
13:11I think that's me.
13:12That's how I do it.
13:14When you're buying properties,
13:16who's the signatory?
13:17Your mom or you?
13:18Me.
13:19But always advised by your mom?
13:21I was able to provide
13:23businesses for my mom.
13:25So she has her rentals.
13:27In fact,
13:28I was able to,
13:29I'm proud to say this,
13:31I was able to set her up
13:337-10 years ago.
13:35So,
13:36I'm not the breadwinner here.
13:38It's her businesses
13:41that I was able to set up for her
13:43early on.
13:44Your mom is also good at business.
13:46Because I also want that for her
13:48because I want her to have the confidence
13:51that she sustains herself.
13:54They are husband and wife.
13:56That's right.
13:57And what's good about her,
13:58she really takes care of everything
14:00that I give her.
14:02And a little way of saying thank you.
14:04Yes, Bea.
14:05I mean,
14:06I'm in the belief that
14:08I will give everything to my mom.
14:10Same.
14:11Tito boy, same.
14:12Yes.
14:13Everything.
14:14And you will also see the respect
14:16because she takes care of the hardships.
14:19Yes, that's true.
14:20Of course, it's easier for her
14:22to just make it delicious.
14:24But no,
14:25she really makes sure
14:27that even if she's not a signatory
14:29in my other businesses,
14:31she still manages it.
14:32When it comes to love life,
14:34to the best of your knowledge,
14:39how are you opposites?
14:43When it comes to love life,
14:45to the best of your knowledge,
14:50how are you opposites?
14:51We're very different, Tito boy.
14:53He always says that I'm stupid in love.
14:57It's true.
15:01Mama is not.
15:04For some reason,
15:06all of her exes,
15:08they were all really in love with her.
15:10And she's the princess.
15:12Okay.
15:13In a relationship.
15:15You're not the princess in a relationship.
15:18Not all the time.
15:21Not all the time.
15:22I correctly understand that
15:25Mama is the princess in her relationships.
15:28And she made sure she was a princess.
15:31Because that's the impression I get from her.
15:33Tough.
15:34Tough.
15:35Right?
15:36She's not afraid.
15:38She's not afraid to lose
15:40what we have now.
15:42She's not afraid to be left behind.
15:44She's not afraid.
15:46What about you?
15:47Are you afraid to be left behind?
15:48I'm like that.
15:49Maybe I have abandonment issues.
15:51Because I didn't grow up with a father.
15:54So, I'm like that, Tito boy.
15:58You're not the same.
16:00We're not the same.
16:01Mama is really brave in life.
16:04Strip her of everything,
16:06she would be fine.
16:07She will survive.
16:08Yes.
16:09And she really says that
16:11once she feels disrespected,
16:13even to me,
16:15she will leave everything to me.
16:17I can go back to poverty.
16:19Like that.
16:20So...
16:21When you think about it,
16:23you can't.
16:24I can't.
16:25I really can't.
16:26So, when you are in a relationship,
16:28you still have abandonment issues.
16:31I feel.
16:32And that's one thing I really,
16:34I learned from my past relationships
16:38that
16:40even if they're not around,
16:41you should be whole.
16:43So, that's what I'm trying to
16:46do right now.
16:50Just really
16:52trying to figure out
16:54how I can get there.
16:56How I can, you know,
16:58survive and love myself
17:00even though
17:02I'm not being loved by someone else.
17:04Look at mama.
17:05That's why.
17:07That's why.
17:08My mom always tells me
17:10in a relationship,
17:11it's just fear.
17:12You should be the one to hold me.
17:14She said that.
17:15She said that.
17:23If we're together,
17:27maybe we'll be happy.
17:31You make me laugh.
17:33You always make me smile.
17:37And thank you for that.
17:38With your exes,
17:39are you both open?
17:41Does she like it or not?
17:43Yes, she tells me.
17:46But,
17:47because I'm stubborn,
17:48I still continue.
17:49Do you tell her?
17:50When I'm dating someone?
17:52When it's her.
17:53Ah, yes.
17:54Before,
17:56my stepdad, Don Don,
17:59I didn't like,
18:00well, I was very young.
18:02I was 18, 19.
18:05So, my psyche at that time,
18:09the reason,
18:10one of the reasons why I wanted to work
18:12was to be able to provide for her
18:14because she was in a very bad relationship
18:16with her ex.
18:17But now,
18:18we're all okay.
18:19But at that time,
18:20it was very toxic.
18:22So, the reason why I wanted to work
18:25was to provide for her
18:27so that she won't need a man.
18:30Because, of course,
18:31she was dependent on her ex
18:35for us to live.
18:36My sister, especially,
18:38had a stroke when she was young.
18:41So, she always went to the hospital.
18:46At that time,
18:47since I was earning,
18:48I was thinking,
18:49we're okay.
18:50You can leave her.
18:51It's just the three of us.
18:53But at that time,
18:54because I wasn't in love yet,
18:56I didn't know that
18:57my mother needed someone
18:59besides the two of us,
19:01my sister and I.
19:02So, when she started dating Don Don,
19:04my stepdad,
19:05I was really angry.
19:07Because I felt like,
19:08what's missing?
19:10Why?
19:11I thought she had bad taste in men.
19:16I felt like,
19:17why would you subject yourself
19:19to that situation again?
19:20Another man?
19:21Something like that.
19:23And so,
19:24I left.
19:26Then, I moved out.
19:28So,
19:30I got my own condo.
19:32And then,
19:33we didn't talk for months.
19:36And then, eventually,
19:38of course,
19:39when there were family gatherings,
19:41I didn't notice my stepdad.
19:43Now, I feel ashamed about it.
19:46Because,
19:47Don Don, my stepdad,
19:48was the best thing
19:49that ever happened to our family.
19:51He became the glue
19:52of our family.
19:54I'm happy because
19:55you gave it to me,
19:56to my husband.
19:58He doesn't have a husband anymore.
20:01To my son,
20:02who is still there for us,
20:05who doesn't get tired of
20:07being our family.
20:10Thank you, my son.
20:11Even though,
20:13you should be familiar.
20:15We are still your ancestors.
20:18I love you.
20:20What made you eventually
20:21like Don Don?
20:23He proved himself to us,
20:25my brother and I.
20:27He really showed us
20:29that he's a good person.
20:34And that he really loves my mom.
20:36And here,
20:37when they got married,
20:38remember I moved out?
20:41My mom wasn't really...
20:44At that time,
20:45I wasn't supporting my mom.
20:47So, they lived in the same place.
20:50Just the two of them,
20:51at that time.
20:52So,
20:53I think that took them
20:55a year or two years.
20:56So, he really proved himself.
20:58Of course,
20:59initially, I was thinking
21:00that maybe I'm an artist or whatever.
21:02Of course,
21:03my brain was still dirty.
21:05I was young,
21:06and I was immature.
21:08But,
21:10he was really able to prove it to us
21:12how much he loves my mom.
21:15And I really like
21:16what your mom said.
21:18She was by my side.
21:19She didn't leave me.
21:20She took care of me.
21:22She really saw Don Don
21:23as a partner in life.
21:27You may or you may not
21:28answer this.
21:30Because there were two
21:31immediately.
21:33Gerald and Dominique.
21:36Did she
21:39approve of that?
21:41Actually,
21:42even with the last one,
21:43with Don Mom,
21:44she never really disapproved,
21:47to be honest.
21:48I mean,
21:49I reached the point
21:50where I was going to get married.
21:51Of course, she approved.
21:53She gave me her blessing.
21:54So, clearly,
21:56of course,
21:57she approved.
21:59I wouldn't have reached
22:00the engagement
22:01if she didn't approve.
22:02Okay.
22:03I'm going to ask Don
22:04as a question.
22:05With your exes,
22:07do you feel
22:08that your mom
22:09would actually like them
22:10because she wanted you
22:12to be happy?
22:13Definitely.
22:14Yes.
22:15She always says that
22:16she doesn't want her son to be happy.
22:17She always says that
22:18she doesn't want her son to be happy.
22:20Yes.
22:21As long as my son is happy,
22:22I'm happy.
22:24Yeah.
22:25Mom?
22:26Yes.
22:27But, of course,
22:28when she's crying,
22:29that's another story.
22:30That's my next question.
22:31When the time comes
22:33when you're separated
22:34and she's crying,
22:36what does she do?
22:37How badly
22:40was she affected
22:41with your most recent breakup?
22:47Have you seen Mama in pain?
22:49Emotionally?
22:50Emotionally, yes.
22:52You have?
22:53Oh, yes.
22:54How do you handle pain?
22:55How do you handle pain?
22:56How do you handle pain?
22:58For me,
23:00I cave in.
23:01I lock myself in the room.
23:05I don't want to show it to people.
23:06In fact,
23:07I don't want to answer texts
23:09or calls
23:11because I like dealing with it
23:13on my own.
23:15My mom is kind of like that,
23:17but she immediately,
23:19she can switch it off
23:21right away.
23:22Maybe for two days,
23:24she'll knock on her bed.
23:26But after that,
23:27it'll come out.
23:28And then,
23:29she would find ways
23:30to make herself happy
23:31because she's a survivor.
23:33She doesn't need
23:35someone
23:36to save her.
23:38I will save myself.
23:39That's how she is.
23:41I'm the one who's in shock
23:43for a while.
23:44And then,
23:45when it's over,
23:46oh, yes, weeks.
23:47After that,
23:48it's okay.
23:49But,
23:51most of the time,
23:53I distract myself
23:54with work.
23:56Your mom
23:57doesn't need that.
23:58She will have a good time.
23:59Yeah.
24:01But let's not make
24:02separation an option.
24:04But what if you're right?
24:08What if I don't care about you?
24:12What if I don't think
24:13what you feel,
24:15what you need,
24:16what you need
24:19for me to be myself?
24:23What if I don't want that?
24:26What if you don't deserve that?
24:30What if that's what we need,
24:31the two of us?
24:38Stella.
24:41When it comes to
24:42the times
24:43when you're separated
24:44and you're crying,
24:46what does she do?
24:48She was just there for me.
24:50In fact,
24:51I'll tell you a story.
24:53After the whole
24:55of 2019,
24:57she didn't talk to me
24:58before because
24:59there was an intervention.
25:00I didn't let my siblings
25:01listen to them.
25:03They got mad at me
25:04because they didn't talk to me.
25:05And then,
25:06I went through
25:07such a big,
25:09chaotic
25:10moment in my life
25:12in 2019.
25:14And then,
25:15she still didn't talk to me.
25:17The last thing
25:18she said to me
25:19was in a text message.
25:20She said,
25:21I didn't raise
25:24a coward child.
25:26So, that meant
25:27that I had to fight
25:28for myself.
25:29That,
25:30this is you.
25:31Fight for this.
25:32Fight for yourself.
25:33And so I did.
25:34And then,
25:35after that,
25:36I went to our farm.
25:37There was no signal
25:38in our farm.
25:39After, like,
25:40weeks of not talking to her,
25:42I did this in my film,
25:43in One More Chance,
25:44in Second.
25:45I've never experienced
25:46this in real life.
25:47This is how I felt.
25:48And then,
25:49my mom saw us.
25:50And then,
25:51I just sat here.
25:52She sat there.
25:53She prepared
25:54food for us.
25:55Farm itself.
25:56As in,
25:57good,
25:5830 minutes to 1 hour,
25:59non-stop.
26:00I didn't say anything.
26:01She didn't say anything.
26:02We were both crying.
26:04Because she,
26:05but I just needed
26:06to hug her.
26:08You know,
26:09that I was home.
26:10I was okay.
26:11How badly
26:13was she affected
26:14with your most
26:15recent breakup?
26:17Oh, she was very
26:18much affected.
26:19Especially,
26:20dahil maraming yung
26:21nasasabi tungkol sakin
26:22na hindi totoo.
26:23I think yun yung pinaka
26:25malaki yung weight
26:26sa kanya.
26:27Kasi,
26:28syempre alam niya
26:29how hard I worked
26:31to get to where I am
26:32para magkaroon ng
26:33magandang reputasyon.
26:35And sa trabaho natin,
26:36reputation is everything.
26:39And she felt na
26:40it was unfair
26:41to me
26:42na maraming
26:43nasasabi tungkol sakin
26:44na hindi totoo.
26:46Especially,
26:48kung maganda naman
26:49yung pag-ilag.
26:50It was very much
26:51amicable.
26:53Yeah.
26:54But,
26:55she was relatively
26:56quiet.
26:57Oh, yes.
26:58Hindi talaga sya
26:59ang nagsanita
27:00kahit kanino.
27:02Sa lahat ng
27:03breakups ko, actually.
27:04Never.
27:05Oh.
27:06And that's not easy.
27:07Oo.
27:08For a mother like yours.
27:09And my brother, oo.
27:10James, yes.
27:11Oo.
27:12Pero nakaya nila.
27:13Ang masakit lang sa akin,
27:14syempre nadadamay sila.
27:15Oo.
27:16Yun yung medyo
27:18may sting.
27:19Kasi ako sanay ako, eh.
27:20Hello,
27:21matagal ko nang ginagawa to.
27:23Pero kapag yung
27:24pamilya na yun nadadamay,
27:25tapos gumagawa sila
27:26ng mga theories,
27:28tapos yung
27:29ginagawang villain
27:30yung nanay ko,
27:31masakit.
27:32Masakit yun.
27:34Ano yung, ano,
27:35leksyon na
27:37in the context, again,
27:38of mama
27:40pag pinag-uusapan ang
27:41pag-ibig,
27:43what do you wanna tell yourself now?
27:47I don't know.
27:48Right now, it's just that
27:51I don't wanna have to worry
27:53about the future anymore.
27:54Okay.
27:55I just,
27:56andun ako sa
27:58space na
27:59I just wanna really
28:01live my life
28:02and
28:04live my truth.
28:05Ride the tide.
28:06Ride the tide.
28:07Exactly.
28:08I realized
28:09kung para sa'yo,
28:10para sa'yo,
28:11everything that's meant for you
28:12will never pass you by.
28:15And if that means
28:16not having a husband,
28:18then that's fine.
28:20Are you looking forward
28:21to falling in love again?
28:24Pagdating sa men,
28:26in the context of men,
28:28are you opposites?
28:31Are you dependent
28:32sometimes on men
28:33for your happiness
28:34as opposed to mama?
28:36Or mama ganun din?
28:37I wouldn't say
28:38I depend on men
28:39for happiness.
28:40It's just that
28:42I guess,
28:44sa toto lang,
28:45in the beginning,
28:47mas mahirap
28:48iwin yung trust ko eh.
28:50But,
28:51eventually,
28:52kasi when I love,
28:53I love hard.
28:54I
28:55And you fall hard?
28:56Hindi ako
28:57Do you fall hard?
28:58I do.
28:59Hindi ako nagtitira
29:00para sa sarili ko.
29:01Because this is who I am
29:02and I've realized
29:03I shouldn't
29:04ever apologize for it.
29:05Because
29:06loving
29:07That's who you are.
29:08That's how I love.
29:09That's who I am.
29:10So,
29:11pagdating sa happiness,
29:13kami ni mama,
29:14si mama kasi,
29:15I guess I submit.
29:18My mom,
29:20she's submissive
29:21in other ways,
29:22but,
29:23yun nga,
29:24she's a princess.
29:25Ako naman,
29:26ako yung,
29:27I wouldn't say servant,
29:28but like,
29:29I like to submit.
29:31Are you looking forward
29:33to falling in love again?
29:35Looking forward
29:37I've never
29:38lost hope in love.
29:40That's what I'm gonna say.
29:42I've always been a hopeless romantic
29:44and I still believe
29:45that there's
29:46someone out there for me.
29:49And that's fair.
29:51Nasabi mo rin ngayon
29:53na,
29:54in the equation of your life,
29:55pag may dumating na,
29:56man,
29:57I'm okay.
29:58Pag wala,
29:59okay lang din.
30:00Okay lang din.
30:01Sa dami nang iyong pinagdaanan,
30:03B,
30:04sa dami nang nangyari sa iyong buhay,
30:06my line,
30:07not yours.
30:09May dadating na
30:10lalaki sa buhay mo.
30:12There'll be a man
30:14who will be in your life
30:15again.
30:18Idescribe mo nga.
30:23Definitely not from showbiz.
30:26The power of manifestation.
30:27You said that kanina.
30:28Yeah, yeah, yeah.
30:29Sige nga,
30:30I mean,
30:31describe the next man
30:32of your life.
30:33Yung ipinagdadasal ko
30:34na sana dumating.
30:36Sana hindi taga showbiz.
30:37Okay.
30:38Number one.
30:40Definitely,
30:41tito boy,
30:42ayoko talaga ng public na relationship
30:43ever again.
30:44Okay.
30:45Pasung-pasuna siguro.
30:46Siguro quota na ako
30:47sa part na iyan.
30:49I really learned my lesson
30:50the hard way.
30:55Someone who is
30:57man enough to handle me.
31:01Meaning,
31:02lahat ng kalakip
31:04ko.
31:06The bad and the good.
31:07The bad and the good.
31:10Matangkad?
31:11Sana.
31:12Guwapo?
31:13Sana,
31:14bonus.
31:16Moreno?
31:17Mestizo?
31:18It doesn't matter.
31:19I've had
31:20relationships.
31:21I've had
31:22exes na
31:23na
31:24mapute,
31:25maitim.
31:28Sana physically cute.
31:30Oo.
31:32Kumigilin ka na rin lang.
31:34Totoodo ko na,
31:35siya ba?
31:38Siguro,
31:41isang tao who will love me
31:42unconditionally.
31:44Yan lang,
31:45tito boy.
31:48At someone who will
31:49never give up on.
31:51Is it important
31:52that this man
31:54is powerful,
31:55is wealthy,
31:56is not in show business,
31:58but, you know,
32:00somebody who is
32:01who is successful?
32:04Tito boy, you know,
32:05I never really cared about
32:06any of those.
32:07Ever.
32:08Ever, ever.
32:10I guess,
32:11I just,
32:12siguro,
32:13I just pray that
32:14the next man
32:15will be
32:18very secure
32:19about himself.
32:20Doesn't matter
32:21kung anong background,
32:22kung anong trabaho,
32:23kung ano.
32:24For me,
32:25kailangan lang na
32:26outweigh ng love niya
32:27para sa akin
32:28lahat ng odds.
32:29Okay,
32:30I get that.
32:31Oo,
32:32kinumpleto ko lang yung
32:33lahat ng requirements.
32:35Correct.
32:36Para mabuo.
32:37Kasi pagkabiling ka,
32:38kasali yun, di ba?
32:39That's what I'm trying to say.
32:40Dapat siguro,
32:41ilagay ko rin.
32:42Taga-manifest na rin
32:43lang tayo.
32:49But what is your prayer
32:50like today?
32:51And if you were to say
32:52thank you to Mama,
32:54and sorry to Mama,
32:55today,
32:56as we talk,
32:57how would you do it?
33:00Pagdating sa happiness,
33:03B,
33:05nakikita mong Mama mo,
33:06saan kayo magkapareho,
33:08saan kayo magkaiba?
33:09Are you opposites
33:10in terms of
33:11your concept of being happy?
33:13I guess we're very much alike
33:15pagdating sa
33:17pagiging masaya
33:18dahil sa pamilya.
33:20We're both
33:22family-oriented,
33:23and family comes first,
33:24above anything.
33:26Nasaan ang Diyos
33:28sa inyong buhay?
33:29In the center, definitely.
33:31Magpareho kayo ng Mama?
33:32Pareho.
33:33Pareho.
33:36Lahat ng,
33:37I guess,
33:39big decisions in my life,
33:41even
33:42pagdating sa pamilya ko,
33:44ay
33:45lagi kong ipinagdadasal
33:46tito ko.
33:47And I'm very happy.
33:48Of course,
33:49we're all getting older,
33:50and my greatest fear
33:53ay
33:54wagkasakit si Mama,
33:55and I always pray about it.
33:58At pangarap niya na sana,
34:00magkaroon siya
34:01ng apat na apo
34:03sa bawat
34:04isa ng kanyang apo.
34:05Oo nga,
34:06hindi na ko makakabal
34:07sa apat dito, boy.
34:08Medyo late na tayo.
34:10Oo.
34:11But who knows?
34:12Di ba?
34:13I mean,
34:14sabi nga natin,
34:15hindi natin alam
34:16kung ano ang nandoon.
34:18Oo nga eh.
34:19We don't know what's gonna happen next.
34:21That's true.
34:22But what is your prayer like today?
34:25I guess,
34:26tito boy,
34:27I'm just really grateful
34:28that I survived.
34:30And I keep surviving.
34:32I think,
34:33I take it one day at a time,
34:34and I thank God for always
34:37providing me with things to do,
34:39people to be there for me,
34:41and
34:43nourishing my heart
34:45and my mind
34:46with positive things every day.
34:48And if you were to say
34:49thank you to Mama,
34:51and sorry to Mama,
34:53today,
34:54as we talk.
34:55How would you do it?
34:56Salamat
34:58kay Mama,
34:59dahil pinalaki niya ako ng tama.
35:02Pinalaki niya ako
35:03na may takot sa Diyos.
35:06At higit sa lahat,
35:07pinalaki niya ako ng matapang
35:09para harapin yung buhay.
35:12Salamat dahil laging
35:15partner ko siya sa buhay ko.
35:18Kahit na walang lalaki,
35:19okay lang,
35:20basta niya doon sila Mama.
35:22Alam mo yun,
35:23kahit na wala akong partner
35:24sa buhay,
35:25in a romantic sense,
35:27I still feel okay
35:28because my family is there for me.
35:30My mom will always be there for me.
35:33And,
35:36yeah, salamat sa pag-iintindi
35:38kahit sa mga panahon
35:40na mahirap ako intindihin
35:42na I make the wrong decisions.
35:46Salamat kasi niyayaka pa rin nila ako
35:48sa kabila ng lahat.
35:51Sa lahat ng imperfections ko.
35:54Patawad?
35:56Patawad kasi kadalasan hindi ako
35:58nakikinig sa'yo.
36:01Patawad kasi,
36:04kasi matigas ang ulo ko.
36:06At patawad kung minsan
36:09nasasaktan ko kayo
36:10sa mga disusyon na ginagawa ko
36:12para sa sarili ko.
36:14This question needs to be asked.
36:16Sino ka, Bea,
36:18nang dahil sa iyong ina?
36:20I turned out to be a strong woman
36:22because of my mom.
36:26She taught me
36:28to stand for myself
36:31and stand for the truth, always.
36:34Bea, maraming salamat.
36:36Thank you!
36:37Thank you very much.
36:39Thank you so much.
36:40May pa-flowers.
36:41Oo, may pa-flowers.
36:42Maraming maraming salamat.
36:48That was fun.
36:49Parang nagpuntuhan lang talaga.