Feriha Yilmaz is an attractive, beautiful, talented and ambitious daughter of a poor family. Her father, Riza Yilmaz, is a janitor in Etiler, an upper-class neighbourhood in Istanbul. Her mother Zehra Yilmaz is a maid. Feriha studies at a private university with full scholarship. While studying at the university, Feriha poses as a rich girl. She meets a handsome and rich young man, Emir Sarrafoglu. Feriha lies about her life and her family background and Emir falls in love with her without knowing who she really is. She falls in love with him too and becomes trapped in her own lies.
Cast: Hazal Kaya, Çağatay Ulusoy, Vahide Perçin, Metin Çekmez,
Melih Selçuk, Ceyda Ateş, Yusuf Akgün, Deniz Uğur, Barış Kılıç.
Production: Fatih Aksoy
Director: Merve Girgin Neslihan Yeşilyurt
Screenplay: Melis Civelek, Sırma Yanık
Cast: Hazal Kaya, Çağatay Ulusoy, Vahide Perçin, Metin Çekmez,
Melih Selçuk, Ceyda Ateş, Yusuf Akgün, Deniz Uğur, Barış Kılıç.
Production: Fatih Aksoy
Director: Merve Girgin Neslihan Yeşilyurt
Screenplay: Melis Civelek, Sırma Yanık
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00:00Both of us are not normal right now.
00:03We can't talk like this.
00:05Okay, we need to talk, I accept that, but it can't be like this.
00:09I need to calm down.
00:12I need to tell you something, I need to be ready to listen to you.
00:16Emir, I want to get out of here.
00:18I don't want to be ugly anymore.
00:21Now you're going to open the door, I'm going to go to the dorm.
00:25We're going to forget this madness.
00:27We're not going to get close to each other for a while.
00:30Then we'll meet somewhere outside and talk about everything, okay?
00:33It's not okay.
00:35What do you mean it's not okay?
00:37Fera, I know you.
00:39You're going to get out of this door and do your best not to run into me again.
00:43You're going to think alone and decide alone.
00:46I know myself.
00:48Wherever you go, I'll find you and bring you back here.
00:50So you don't have to waste time.
00:52You're going to open that door whether you want to or not, Emir.
00:56This nonsense is not going to continue like this.
00:59Do you hear me?
01:01I'm going to get rid of this nonsense.
01:03Either you're going to leave me like a human being and I'm going to go.
01:07I'm going to try to forget how crazy you've been for a few days.
01:10Or I'm going to open that door for you and I'm never going to forget what you've become.
01:19You're not even going to answer.
01:22I'm stupid because I tried to talk to you like a human being.
01:25Stupid.
01:28Okay.
01:29Let's be disgraceful, okay?
01:31Let's be disgraceful to everyone in the apartment.
01:37Let's see who's going to complain about the noise first.
01:43Who's downstairs?
01:45Ms. Sanem.
01:47Who are we going to be disgraceful to first?
01:49If we're lucky, we'll be disgraceful to my parents first.
01:52Shut up. They're used to their daughters being kidnapped.
02:00Emir.
02:07Bravo.
02:09Romanticism.
02:11You're great.
02:13Romanticism.
02:15Definitely calmer.
02:23Because it's more deceiving.
02:25You can't see the mess around you.
02:29You can hide the truth.
02:32You can delay it.
02:34But you can't destroy it.
02:38When the sun comes in in the morning, this place will be the same again.
02:47Yes.
02:49Maybe it will be the same.
02:53But we won't be the same.
02:55We'll listen to each other.
02:59Did you light candles like that that night?
03:03Tell me, did you prepare such a great atmosphere for your revenge?
03:07No.
03:11Oh, how rude.
03:13It's not like you at all.
03:16I'm not like you.
03:18Oh, how rude.
03:21It's not like you at all.
03:24But sorry, it was the most meaningless night of your life, wasn't it?
03:27It's not worth spending your candles.
03:29No, it was meaningful, Feriha.
03:31But it was meaningful because you created that woman.
03:35You were the only meaning of that night.
03:38It was hurting you.
03:40I wanted to prove to myself that I could destroy you.
03:43I wanted to choose a random woman's body
03:46I wanted to be able to go back before you.
03:49Nonsense.
03:51Until you said, or I should do it.
03:53Don't talk about it.
03:56When I learned that I was neither at home, nor likely to be a father.
04:02What I did that night.
04:04I didn't face you until you said those words.
04:07You faced me very well.
04:10I asked you only one question to understand me.
04:13You got the most definite answer I've ever had in my life.
04:16It wasn't an answer.
04:18You knew you were different.
04:20You knew you were different.
04:23I wasn't just in love with you.
04:25You trusted me.
04:27After the lies.
04:30You trusted me despite all the punishments you gave me.
04:34You were peace.
04:36Whatever happens.
04:38Feriha.
04:39I'm going to forget a lot of things that night.
04:43Your hypocrisy.
04:44Your weakness.
04:45Your cowardice.
04:46Your injustice.
04:48I'm going to forget how you burned my heart.
04:50But one thing.
04:53I'm never going to forget how you disappointed me.
04:56I'm not going to forget either.
04:59How I lost myself.
05:01And your eyes.
05:05I'm not going to forget how you looked at me when you left the door that night.
05:08Were you looking at me differently when you kicked me out of the house?
05:10Were you looking at me differently when you kicked me out of the house?
05:12Were you looking at me differently when you kicked me out of the house?
05:15You haven't changed at all.
05:17You're still two-faced.
05:19You're still a coward.
05:21Yes.
05:22I'm still a coward.
05:24I was afraid of what you said that night.
05:27This time I was afraid of your silence.
05:30I'm actually always afraid of the same thing.
05:33This is the only thing that's been the same since the day you came into my life.
05:37The fear of losing you.
05:40The fear of losing you.
05:56Where was your fear of losing me when you had to leave this house?
06:03It wasn't there because we were married, right?
06:06I didn't even feel like we were guaranteed to be married once.
06:11You don't care about Mehmet, my father, Gülsüm.
06:14Whatever marriage is for them, it's for you.
06:17You don't really believe what they're saying.
06:19You know I don't deserve this.
06:21If you don't deserve it, prove it.
06:23Answer the question I asked that night.
06:26Come on.
06:28Can you give it to me?
06:30If I made you live what you made me live,
06:31how much of the understanding you expected from me could you show me?
06:35It's such a stupid question, isn't it?
06:37It's a question I already know the answer to.
06:40It's a question I don't know the answer to, Feriha.
06:42It's a lie.
06:44No, I really don't know the answer.
06:46If you were with that man,
06:48just to take revenge on me,
06:50would I have killed that guy?
06:52Would I have pulled him away?
06:54Wouldn't I want to see his face again? I don't know.
06:56But I know one thing.
06:58Even if I don't forgive you,
06:59even if I don't want to see your face again,
07:01it wouldn't end.
07:04It wouldn't end in my heart.
07:06Did you hear me?
07:08Look, I answered you.
07:10Come on, answer me now.
07:13Is it over?
07:15You won't be able to do this.
07:18Even if you keep me here for days,
07:20I won't tell you what I want to hear.
07:22Then tell me what you don't want to hear.
07:24Tell me what you're afraid of hearing.
07:26You already know everything I'm afraid of hearing.
07:29Everything is at the tip of your tongue.
07:31Since the first day I fell in love with you,
07:33when you washed me to the ground,
07:35when you lifted me from the ground,
07:37everything is at the tip of your tongue.
07:39If only you hadn't hit me,
07:41not being able to tolerate what comes out of my mouth,
07:44yes, maybe I could have believed what you said.
07:47When I hit you...
07:49Don't. Please don't tell me the same story.
07:51I don't believe it.
07:53You brought me here from the dormitory like this.
07:55I don't believe anything you're going to say.
07:57I don't believe you're regretting it either.
07:59It's not the same thing.
08:01It's the same thing.
08:03It's the same thing you do to me when you don't have the strength
08:05to talk or shut up.
08:07Look, if you gave me a chance to break your stubbornness by talking...
08:09Stubbornness.
08:11That's how you understand it, right?
08:13Stubbornness.
08:15That's how I am to you, right?
08:17I don't go out,
08:19I don't start working,
08:21I'm not ready to talk to you.
08:23It's all because I'm stubborn, isn't it?
08:26I'm stubborn to make you regret it.
08:29It's that simple.
08:31It's not simple.
08:33Okay.
08:35I've said it many times.
08:37But what I did wasn't simple either.
08:39Is it really that hard, Feriha?
08:42Is it that impossible?
08:44While forgiving everyone who has done you wrong in your life,
08:46you were talking to me about forgiving Cansu.
08:50Is it that hard for me to forgive myself for myself?
08:54Tell me.
08:56How many times have you forgiven your father?
08:57How many times have you forgiven Mehmet?
08:59I don't care how many times I've forgiven them.
09:01You weren't one of them, Emir.
09:03I'm not going to be afraid of you like I'm afraid of them.
09:06Did you hear me?
09:08I'm not going to be afraid of you.
09:10The only way not to be afraid of me is to turn your back on me?
09:16You told me you had the power.
09:21You told me you were weak when you hit me.
09:23Why were you defeated by your own weakness
09:26when I was trying to hold your hand despite everything?
09:29Or was that the problem?
09:31Was it because I was trying to stay by your side despite everything?
09:34Wasn't your power enough for that?
09:37Everything was too much.
09:40I always did the same thing.
09:42I always did the biggest mistakes of my life
09:44when I felt weak in front of you.
09:47All my other mistakes were to crush you
09:49when your absence was crushing me.
09:51Maybe I expected you to give up.
09:53Maybe that's what you wanted.
09:55If I had turned my back on you,
09:57it would have been easier for you.
09:59You couldn't stand the fact that I could stay by your side.
10:02That made you feel more guilty.
10:05When I didn't run away,
10:07you wanted to run away from me and yourself.
10:10You felt more powerless.
10:12Because you ruined everything for the first time, didn't you?
10:18I never felt as worthless as I did
10:20when I ran away from here that night.
10:27I fooled you for a year,
10:31but I never felt so fooled.
10:35Because nothing would happen to me when you were with me.
10:38No one could hurt me when you were with me.
10:41I was safe when you were with me.
10:44I haven't trusted you since that night.
10:47You will trust me again.
10:49You will trust me the same way I trusted you.
10:52Whatever I say, you won't believe me now.
10:55I can only show you that this will never happen again
10:57if you stay with me, Feriha.
11:00Stay with me.
11:03Feriha, please stay with me.
11:05I won't.
11:08I won't.
11:11I will never forget that you forced me to come here.
11:14I won't trust you.
11:16You won't make me forget anything.
11:18I won't.
11:22Look at my face.
11:25The mark on my lip is gone, right?
11:27As if nothing happened.
11:29But it's still here like the other mistakes we couldn't erase.
11:34Now you want to talk to me.
11:37You didn't hesitate to talk to me that night.
11:40You hit me.
11:42You didn't talk, you hit me.
11:45Come on, do the same thing.
11:46Emir, what are you doing?
11:48Hit me.
11:49Hit me.
11:51Emir, what are you doing?
11:52Let me go.
11:54That's enough. Look at us.
11:57Is that all you can do?
11:59Is that how much we lost ourselves?
12:02I don't want to lose each other.
12:04I don't care how much I lost myself.
12:07I don't want to lose you.
12:09Is this how we're going to win each other?
12:12Is this how we're going to win each other?
12:14By arguing?
12:16By forcing to talk, forcing to listen?
12:19I'm just trying.
12:21Now understand me, I don't know what to do.
12:23Maybe I'm being completely ridiculous.
12:25Maybe I'm not in my right mind, but I won't leave you without trying.
12:28I won't leave you without doing everything I can to win you, Feriha.
12:32I'm sitting in the living room and I'm not opening my mouth, Emir.
12:35Either go sit alone in the room or don't say a word.
12:45I'm not going to leave you alone.
12:55You don't know that I have to.
12:59I keep my name in my mind like a moth.
13:02Your eyes grow bigger and bigger.
13:04You don't know that I have to.
13:07I'm warming my heart with you.
13:12Sometimes loving is terribly scary.
13:14A man gets tired all of a sudden one night.
13:18If we hold him, he whines about living in his mouth.
13:21Sometimes his passion breaks his hands.
13:26He makes a few lives out of his life.
13:30Whichever door he knocks, sometimes...
13:34...the scent of loneliness follows.
13:39Whenever I think of living, on this table of wolves,
13:42maybe it's hard, it's shameful.
13:46But without getting our hands dirty.
13:50Whenever I think of living,
13:52I say shut up and start walking.
13:54My heart is shaking, the hidden seas.
13:57No, it won't be otherwise.
14:02I have to, you don't know.
14:08That's how Atilla Ilyan believed in love.
14:13Didn't we believe it?
14:26It's time to shut up, isn't it?
14:34I won't reward you for locking me up here.
14:39You'll see it's no use.
14:41Do you know what I see?
14:44I see that you're mad to talk,
14:46but you're stubborn to bring you here.
14:51Okay, if that's what you want.
14:55Let's shut up.
14:57No matter how much we shut up, it'll take so long.
15:12You'll burn your hand.
15:14Let it burn.
15:15I was waiting for you to tie me to the car.
15:18Do you know?
15:20I'm as peaceful as I haven't been in a long time.
15:23Are you trying to drive me crazy?
15:26We both seem crazy enough.
15:30I'm not crazy.
15:32I'm not crazy.
15:34I'm not crazy.
15:36I'm not crazy.
15:38I'm not crazy.
15:40I'm not crazy.
15:56What are you doing?
15:58Get out of the way.
16:10Get out of the way.
16:35Turn on the lights. I can't see.
16:40Turn on the lights.
16:52Look at you.
16:57You're not getting out of this house...
16:59...until you burn it or destroy it.
17:03You're here as if you drove me crazy.
17:06I don't know.
17:10What made you so mad?
17:14Me or the fear of being a father?
17:17Or the lack of money?
17:20Was the money I threw in the apartment last night the money?
17:25No. I'm looking for a job.
17:27You are so insincere.
17:30You are angry because I didn't tell you.
17:32Of course I'm angry.
17:33Look at me.
17:35What did you do to us?
17:40Don't I know that your father punished you with money just because of me?
17:45Don't you understand Feriha?
17:47It's not about money.
17:48It's helplessness.
17:50Didn't your parents tell you that they've been looking for money for months?
17:54Didn't you hit me with money many times since you learned my lies?
17:58Didn't you really believe that money was after you?
18:02I won't even answer what they say.
18:04I don't believe you don't trust me that much.
18:06You are the one who doesn't trust me.
18:09I'm sorry, but I was a liar, wasn't I?
18:12I have reasons to not trust me.
18:15You know what?
18:17I tried to forget those lies like a donkey.
18:19I tried to erase them.
18:24I tried to leave them behind us.
18:26But you...
18:28Just because you still feel guilty about your lies,
18:30you hug them at every opportunity.
18:33Everything was so bad.
18:36The only thing I could change was this house.
18:39But I couldn't do that either.
18:44I couldn't do anything.
18:45It was like sitting down and watching what I did to you from afar.
18:48I couldn't watch.
18:51You don't understand what that means.
18:53I can't understand you because I'm a woman.
18:55I can't understand you because I didn't have any money anyway.
18:58If you had told me, I would have understood.
19:01At least I would have tried to understand, but you didn't even give me a chance.
19:04I felt insufficient.
19:07That's all.
19:08What kind of insufficiency?
19:10Can't you get on a helicopter when you want to?
19:15Do you have to work like normal people?
19:18Not being able to get you out of this apartment is insufficiency.
19:20Not being able to help your father is insufficiency.
19:23It's insufficiency that I can't do anything while that guy is acting like a hero for you.
19:28What kind of arrogance is this?
19:30Put this in your head, Emir.
19:33Even if I had as much money as I used to,
19:36I mean, you wouldn't be able to help my father because we didn't want it.
19:41I was looking into your eyes.
19:43I wanted us to get over it together.
19:47What would happen if you told me I ran out of money?
19:52Not that woman, but insufficiency was going to destroy me?
19:55My only concern was not adding new problems to the problems.
19:59What could I do when you said you'd buy me people because of Seher, because of Rüya?
20:04What should I have said to you?
20:05Should I have said, I don't have the money to buy people anymore?
20:08You went crazy when you paid money for Mr. Levent for my father.
20:11You didn't even mention insufficiency then.
20:15I can't stand you being insincere even when you're angry.
20:18I wasn't insincere.
20:21But I couldn't stand him helping you.
20:25Okay, insincerity is insincerity.
20:28I know.
20:30But I can't stand anything about him.
20:34Why do you value Mr. Levent so much, Emir?
20:37Don't joke.
20:39You're the one who values that man.
20:42Because you can talk to him, because he can reach you.
20:46Do you understand?
20:47I've always been talking to Mr. Levent about you.
20:52I could talk about you, what you made me feel, what you made me live.
20:58If you had listened to me from the beginning,
21:00if we could talk, it wouldn't have been Mr. Levent.
21:03Feriha, don't.
21:05That man made you lie.
21:08Okay, blame me for everything.
21:10But don't blame me for pushing you to his friend.
21:13You put them at a distance.
21:15But you never turned your back on him.
21:18I can't turn my back on Mr. Levent as you want me to.
21:23I owe him my life.
21:26What does that mean?
21:28It means he saved my life.
21:33You came to listen to me from Cansu.
21:37I saw you go to Cansu while cleaning the stairs.
21:40I had nothing to lose.
21:43I went to the boat.
21:48I was drawing water from the sea for cleaning.
21:51I heard your voice.
21:53I heard that poem you whispered on the island.
22:00It was like your voice was coming from the bottom of the sea.
22:06I was so scared.
22:08Feriha, what did you do?
22:10I just let myself hear your voice.
22:14From the bottom of the sea.
22:19I was so peaceful.
22:21All the pain, losses, fears,
22:24they were all away from me.
22:28Then Mr. Levent took me up.
22:32To the bottom.
22:34To the bottom.
22:45Feriha.
22:47Okay, don't hug me, don't touch me.
22:50I don't need to be hugged.
22:53Not to be hugged.
22:59Not to be hugged.
23:00Not to be hugged.
23:02To feel.
23:06Please don't pull yourself.
23:10I could have lost you.
23:13Losing you.
23:15Feriha, how did you do this?
23:19What if something had happened to you?
23:22What if it wasn't you now?
23:23Feriha.
23:29We won't hug each other because of something that happened to me months ago.
23:34It's not that easy.
23:37I don't care how we are now.
23:44I want to hug you.
23:46I didn't want anything different five minutes ago.
23:49I won't want anything different five minutes, five days, five years from now.
23:51I'm telling you, don't do this.
23:54Don't do this.
23:57We've been through this.
24:00Don't you understand?
24:02We can't go on as if nothing happened.
24:05Feriha, I'm not trying to do this.
24:07I swear, this is not my purpose.
24:09Look at us.
24:12This is what happens when we get close to each other.
24:16We break up, we fall apart, then we get back together.
24:18Then we go back to where we were.
24:20Don't you see?
24:49Feriha, what are you doing?
24:51I'm getting out of here.
24:53I swear, I'm getting out of here.
24:55Feriha, drop the knife.
24:57Give me the key, I'll drop it.
24:59You're being ridiculous. You can't open the door with a knife.
25:02Okay, I'll cut my hands while I'm trying to open it.
25:04Drop it, it's not a toy.
25:06Emir, give me the key then.
25:08Feriha.
25:10Feriha.
25:12Feriha.
25:14Feriha.
25:16Feriha.
25:18Look, it's not a toy.
25:19Feriha, drop it.
25:30Emir is bleeding.
25:34Are you okay?
25:39Did something happen to you?
25:40Nothing happened to me.
25:49Emir, he's bleeding badly.
26:09Come on, let's go to the hospital.
26:11We're not going anywhere.
26:13Emir, it won't stop.
26:15Do you want to die?
26:17Even if I die, I won't open that door, Feriha.
26:19Are you crazy?
26:21Come on, let's go.
26:24Emir, look at this blood.
26:26You're going to die.
26:28Look at what you're talking about.
26:30Where's the key?
26:32Don't call me for nothing, it's not on me.
26:34I hid it, you can't find it.
26:36Emir, I'm telling you, you're going to die.
26:38I'll die if I die.
26:40I won't open that door, Feriha.
26:42Then die.
26:44Die of blood loss in front of me.
26:47Emir, I beg you, give me the key.
26:49Where did you hide it?
26:52There's a toothpick in the bathroom.
26:57Toothpick?
26:59Find the needle.
27:01I think it was in the bedroom.
27:02Emir, don't be ridiculous.
27:03What am I going to do with them?
27:05Haven't you ever stitched in your life?
27:07Are you crazy?
27:08I can't stitch my arm.
27:10Then you'll watch me die.
27:12Because we're not getting out of here.
27:13God damn it, you're a thief.
27:37Emir, I'm dying again, are you okay?
27:44What?
28:08Don't move, okay?
28:13Don't move.
28:20I really made you crazy.
28:22You just realized.
28:24You made me crazy and stabbed me.
28:26I didn't stab you.
28:33Don't move now, stop.
28:44Does it hurt a lot?
28:47Do you think?
29:10I hate you.
29:14I really hate you.
29:16You love me so much.
29:19You love me as much as I love you.
29:24You're stupid.
29:26I'll never forget this.
29:43I love you.