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Baylen Out Loud S01 E02

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00:00My name is Baelen, I'm 21 years old, and I have Tourette's syndrome.
00:04In a little baby weenie.
00:08Hey motherfuckers!
00:09Tourette's syndrome causes me to have involuntary motor and vocal tics.
00:14This isn't good for you because then you're...
00:16Oh, I felt like I just broke my fucking finger.
00:19Hey motherfuckers!
00:21That's the one thing that I'm so embarrassed about is my cussing tics.
00:25To have tics where you have the urges to say obscene things.
00:30Raining vaginas!
00:32That's only seen in 10% of the cases.
00:34More work on the coprolalia today.
00:36My number one goal is to move out of my parents' house.
00:40How are you gonna do this when you're out on your own, Baelen?
00:44Baelen wants her independence and we definitely want to help her get there.
00:48Yeah, stupid fuck!
00:49But it's an emotional dance.
00:51There's not enough modulant toxin for all my wrinkles.
00:56We've been married 23 years.
00:59Six kids later, it's like...
01:00Search warrant!
01:02What are you...
01:03Uh, chaotic.
01:06Colin is the boyfriend.
01:08He's my medicine.
01:10Love that man.
01:11I'd like to have kids before I'm 25.
01:14You'd like to have kids in the next four years?
01:17I am in the United States Air Force and I have a relocation coming up here in a couple months.
01:23I could end up anywhere.
01:24I found out some news about my job.
01:27Is it good news or bad news?
01:29I'll tell you right now.
01:30I don't want to talk about it.
01:54Woo!
01:56You're done.
01:58You're done.
02:00Goddamn!
02:02Next up...
02:04John Cena!
02:06I hear rumble!
02:08Are you wearing mom's ripped jeans?
02:10And that's how it starts.
02:12Holy fuck!
02:16Baelen, what do you love about being a dad?
02:20Oh gosh, here goes the sad part.
02:22Oh gosh, here go the sappy tears.
02:24No, I love all of that.
02:28I love everything about being a mom.
02:30I love when I hate being a mom.
02:36Who's making me dinner?
02:40It's like the loony barn up in here.
02:46The loony barn.
02:52The loony barn.
02:56Aileen is my best friend.
02:58She's an amazing soul.
03:00She's coming to pick me up to get my meals done.
03:02Which will be a great distraction
03:04because Colin left things
03:06kind of up in the air.
03:08Like what could Colin possibly
03:10have to tell me in person
03:12that he can't over the phone?
03:14So I'm trying not to freak out.
03:16Don't you worry, I was nice
03:18and I dusted my shoes off
03:20Okay, hi.
03:22Oh, sorry.
03:24God bless you.
03:26Me and Aileen have been
03:28best friends since I was in 10th grade.
03:30Okay here, let me put the
03:32child safety locks on.
03:34It was pretty hard to
03:36make friends in high school
03:38and experience tics.
03:40Let's figure out how to get out of this driveway.
03:42Could be worse, I could be driving.
03:46You're like, let's not fucking think about that.
03:48People would just get annoyed
03:50with me clearing my throat.
03:52And I'm like, I get it, but
03:54I can't help it.
03:58Oh my god!
04:00Oh my god, that guy is completely off the road.
04:02Are you not seeing that?
04:04Oh, he's back on.
04:06Oh wait, I gotta just do it three more times
04:08after this so just don't reach over.
04:10Okay.
04:12Okay.
04:14It's been really hard since she's
04:16moved hours away
04:18for college. We don't see
04:20each other as much, but I'm so grateful
04:22that she's going to school and having
04:24the time of her life. I'm so happy for her.
04:26You're a cunt.
04:30Sorry.
04:32I knew Bailyn even before her Tourette's
04:34really started forming, so I've
04:36always seen Bailyn for just who she is.
04:38So it's never really been Tourette's and
04:40Bailyn, it's just been Bailyn.
04:42There's a hair in there, we need to get
04:44that out.
04:46I know I talk to you all the time, but we
04:48don't really talk about
04:50you and Colin. He literally called
04:52me last night being
04:54weird and cryptic
04:56and saying how he needs to talk to
04:58me.
05:00That sounds really serious.
05:02Do you know what about?
05:04I have no clue, but
05:06I definitely see Colin in my
05:08life for a very, very long time.
05:10And I definitely
05:12see a little
05:14Bailyn.
05:16I would like to have kids in a family
05:18before 25, but Colin thinks
05:20that that's rushing into it. I'm sorry,
05:22this is where my math comes back in, that
05:24this is where I go, um,
05:26we've already been dating for a year now,
05:28I'm 21, so it'll be 5 years?
05:30If me and Colin have been dating for 5 years and
05:32you guys don't see a big, huge,
05:34massive rock on my hand,
05:36that's all I'm going to say.
05:38We're going to leave it at that.
05:40Leesburg dick.
05:42Harper's Ferry dick. Martinsburg
05:44dick. Yeah, fentanyl
05:46dick. Anywho...
05:56Hi.
06:00How are you?
06:02I'm good, how are you? I'm good.
06:04Oh, thank you.
06:06Fuck off, fuck off, fuck off.
06:08Okay, so you have deep now?
06:10Yes, I do, like, some of them are chipped.
06:14Oh!
06:16Too slow.
06:18Fuck off.
06:28It's not the easiest thing
06:30to put myself in an environment that stresses me out
06:32and it's going to make my condition worse,
06:34but at the same time, I want a normal life,
06:36want to do what everyone else is doing
06:38and every other girl my age gets their nails done,
06:40pretty much.
06:44Have you ever met anyone with Tourette's syndrome?
06:48And you don't think it's hard to do my nails?
06:50No.
06:56I appreciate that.
06:58Eileen, since living in Ohio,
07:00and I know I don't see you that much,
07:02and obviously I know I want you to make friends
07:04in other places,
07:06how do you feel about, like, if I move out
07:08and I find other friends,
07:10do you think we'll still, like, hang out as much?
07:12Like, what do you think?
07:14Girl, I could literally not see you for eight months
07:16and then see you and it feels like nothing has changed.
07:18So I'm not worried at all.
07:20And I want you to make new friends, but...
07:22First they have to go through a five-step approval process,
07:24handwrite me a letter,
07:26expressing their intention...
07:28To have the resume.
07:30...to be your friend.
07:32So you got in school,
07:34and you're my only friend,
07:36and especially in...
07:38As much as I love that.
07:40...in this area, because I haven't went anywhere
07:42and you've left.
07:44I tried going to college,
07:46and I tried connecting,
07:48I tried finding a purpose,
07:50I tried getting involved,
07:52and it just didn't work.
07:54I didn't really make friends,
07:56so I really miss being able to just call a friend
07:58and Eileen be at the door and,
08:00I don't have that now.
08:04Colin wants you to move to D.C., right?
08:06I mean, yeah, but at the same time,
08:08like, his job can be relocated anywhere,
08:10so it's just kind of where I feel
08:12at peace and happiest,
08:14not in my parents' basement.
08:16I feel that, girl.
08:20I was hoping to move to D.C.,
08:22but depending on the news he has to tell me,
08:24which is probably about his relocation orders,
08:26everything could go up in smoke.
08:31So I'm a little frustrated
08:33because I don't know what to expect.
08:37Tipity-tap-tap-tap-tap-tap-tap-tap-tap-tap-tap.
08:50Hoo-hoo!
08:52My dad dropped me off at the gym
08:54to meet up with Colin,
08:56which is a good thing
08:58because my mind has been racing
09:00for the last two days
09:02trying to figure out what Colin has to tell me.
09:04Ah! Fuck!
09:08Okay, let's sit down and talk.
09:10I'm expected to receive
09:12my work relocation
09:14from the military any day,
09:16and I know Bailyn is pretty much dreading it.
09:19Hoo-hoo! Hoo-hoo-hoo!
09:21Fuck off.
09:23I just found out this news,
09:25and I know that I wasn't being clear,
09:27but it's going to make this relocation
09:29and us being apart really challenging.
09:31That's why I wanted to talk to Bailyn in person.
09:36Have you talked to your parents about moving out at all
09:39any time soon?
09:41I personally have, and I'd like it to be tomorrow.
09:43Do I think it's going to be tomorrow? No.
09:45I know where I'd like to go.
09:47I'd like to end up in the D.C. area,
09:49to be closer to you.
09:51Willy Wonka has a little baby weenie,
09:53a little baby weenie.
09:55Hoo-hoo! Hoo-hoo-hoo!
09:57Wind it up.
09:59With the relocation coming here soon,
10:03I have no idea where I'm going.
10:05Mm-hmm.
10:07And when I am in training,
10:09I can't take leave,
10:13so I can't get on a plane
10:15and come and see you.
10:17Are you fucking for real?
10:25Sure, yes, sure, drop and fuck off.
10:27I cannot leave
10:29and fly across the country
10:31in the middle of training.
10:33The only way we're seeing each other
10:35is if you come to me.
10:37We're cutting the chicken
10:39with plastic knives.
10:41They're kid-proof.
10:43I got invited to an event
10:45hosted by the Tourette's Association of America.
10:47Are you going to pick other people's tics up?
10:49Are you going to pick other people's tics up?
10:59When I am in training,
11:01I can't take leave,
11:03so I can't get on a plane
11:05and come and see you.
11:07Are you fucking for real?
11:11I just found out.
11:19Like, I'm not trying to be away from you.
11:21That's not what I want.
11:23And I know that you don't want that either.
11:25No, it just sounds like that
11:27because all I hear is, I can't.
11:29I'm not asking you to come see me every weekend.
11:31Okay, let's be for real.
11:33Sure, yes, sure, drop and fuck off.
11:35I knew that
11:37Colin had a relocation
11:39coming up for his job,
11:41but he doesn't even know what job he can get,
11:43and he doesn't even know how long he could be in training for,
11:45and now he's telling me he can't see me
11:47once they're in training.
11:49Talk about breaking news.
11:51I'm not going to go eight months without seeing my boyfriend.
11:53I don't want to do that.
11:55I know how it works.
11:57It's not up to me.
11:59I don't get to choose where I go.
12:01I put my hand up,
12:03and I chose to serve this country,
12:05so I go where they need me to go.
12:07The only way we're seeing each other
12:09is if you come to me.
12:11I'm sure people are probably thinking,
12:13it's not that big of a deal, just go.
12:15Woo-hoo!
12:17Woo-hoo!
12:19But plane rides are already hard enough,
12:21and I've never flown alone.
12:23Woo-hoo! Woo-hoo-hoo!
12:25Wind it up.
12:27Let's paint a picture.
12:29I'm like the 8-year-old, and it never stops,
12:31and you just want to turn around like,
12:33like that.
12:35Flutter butterfly.
12:37Peter Peck has a little pain-o-weenie.
12:39I will have a tic-a-tac right there in the airport,
12:41and everyone will watch.
12:43I don't know.
12:49Colin is my soulmate,
12:51but I,
12:53I've been thrown this,
12:55I was thrown for a big loop.
12:57It's stuff that we have to talk about
12:59and discuss.
13:01Woo-hoo!
13:03Woo-hoo-woo-hoo!
13:05music plays
13:17What are we doing?
13:19We're just playing a little catch.
13:21laughs
13:23Just shift a little bit.
13:25I don't want the lights broke.
13:27I got these knives offline.
13:29What is this about?
13:31Oh, with why I just came upstairs
13:33Knives.
13:35Plastic knives.
13:37No, they actually just came in the mail.
13:39Cut a piece of chicken.
13:41I want to see it.
13:43This is for you to be doing all your own.
13:45That girl's relentless.
13:47She wants independence at all costs.
13:49So they work.
13:51Oh, they do?
13:53You know, she has taken knives,
13:55and she does the stabbing.
13:59Not at like the refrigerator,
14:01but at the shelf,
14:03or whoever else is in the kitchen cooking.
14:05See? Perfect.
14:07So we're trying to condition her
14:09to do things as safe as she can.
14:11We're cutting the chicken with plastic knives.
14:13They're actually used for kids to learn
14:15how to cook, like in their own kitchen.
14:17Like their parents buy them these plastic knives.
14:19I don't want to let Tourette's
14:21define or restrict me,
14:23but it's important that I'm able
14:25to show my parents that the kitchen
14:27isn't a dangerous place for me.
14:29And because of the conversation
14:31I've had with Colin,
14:33I don't really want to tell my parents just yet
14:35until I have more information.
14:37But my previous timeline
14:39to move out on my own
14:41has now moved up...
14:43drastically.
14:45And yep, and we can just
14:47slap it in the air for her like that, it's fine.
14:50I know how determined Bailyn is
14:52to move out on her own and be independent.
14:55They're white.
14:57Let's not do that.
14:59But I just want to wrap her up in bubble wrap
15:01and have her stay here
15:03with all of us as a big support system
15:05because what happens when she moves out
15:07and her support system is gone?
15:09My sister sucks penises.
15:11Oh my God.
15:13My mom has crabs.
15:15I'm sorry.
15:17Wow.
15:19She doesn't.
15:21While I cut this, I have to tell you guys something.
15:23I got invited to an event
15:25hosted by the Tourette's Association of America
15:27and they asked me to speak
15:29on their panel discussion
15:31because TICCon
15:33is specifically for
15:35the people with Tourette's.
15:39TICCon is basically
15:41a TIC conference.
15:43The only event that is held
15:45for the parents,
15:47the kids,
15:49the people who have Tourette's.
15:51And doctors and specialists
15:53come from all over the country
15:55to be a part of this.
15:57It's an opportunity for me to get
15:59information on new
16:01and existing treatments.
16:03So this is in the preliminary
16:05phase of you
16:07considering
16:09going.
16:11Because Baylin has made a presence
16:13for herself on social media
16:15to advocate for herself.
16:17Yeah.
16:19Ride the horse.
16:21Shimmy, shimmy, shimmy.
16:23It's amazing that they think she's done something
16:25for the community.
16:27That they think that Baylin Dupree
16:29has some words of wisdom to share.
16:31Where is this? DC?
16:33No, no.
16:35It's in Dallas.
16:37I mean, obviously
16:39we know how flight goes,
16:41how flying is. It's not really the best.
16:43Are you going to pick
16:45other people's tics up?
16:47I'm more worried about the airport
16:49That's real life.
16:51And I'm echoing all the way
16:53through the airport.
16:55I don't know.
16:57The most dramatic flying experience
16:59was three to four years ago.
17:01She was essentially incapacitated.
17:03I mean, laying on the
17:05dirty airport floor, curled up
17:07in the fetal position.
17:09The tics were so bad that it was like
17:11dragging around a wet noodle.
17:13You look at a situation like that
17:15and you're like, she's basically
17:17a flying partner for life.
17:19I feel like we really need to
17:21think about the pros and cons.
17:23And kind of go from there.
17:25Like, a con
17:27is what? And a pro is what to you?
17:29And how do they weigh out?
17:31Vagina.
17:33I have never spoken in front
17:35of a group of people like this.
17:37And I hate flying
17:39because the airport is a tic
17:41disaster. And
17:43even though it's something that I need to do,
17:45especially if I want to go see my boyfriend
17:47that's a gazillion miles away,
17:49the whole thing makes me nervous.
17:51So, I don't know.
17:55I think
17:57you should do it.
17:59You only get so many opportunities
18:01to do things in your life where
18:03you can make an impact on yourself
18:05or impact on others. And either way, that's a win-win.
18:07So you're either helping somebody
18:09or you're helping yourself.
18:11It is literally essential that Bailyn gets out of her
18:13comfort zone because
18:15standing still isn't going to do anything for her.
18:17She needs to do things and meet people
18:19and learn about doctors, learn about
18:21treatment to enhance her quality of life.
18:23If you have to go through
18:25a little bit of darkness through this
18:27airport or whatever it is, then just do it.
18:33We're looking to do the self puppy walk.
18:35If you'd like, there's aprons right there.
18:37Alright.
18:39Yep, there we go.
18:41Do it.
18:43I feel like I just got out of the shower.
18:45I'm not saying you need to live within a
18:4710-mile radius of mom and dad, but I'm saying
18:49you can't even cut a fucking cucumber
18:51by yourself, let alone be left alone for
18:5314 hours in the day and try
18:55not to bang your head off the wall 16 times.
18:57Yeah.
18:59I would say that.
19:01Glad we agreed.
19:11I already like that shirt over there with the pearls on it.
19:13Right there.
19:15The see-through one that you were talking about.
19:17Oh my gosh.
19:19If you need any help, please let us know.
19:21Okay, thank you so much.
19:23Sammy, shut up. This is so cute.
19:25I feel like, personally,
19:27shopping is
19:29the only sport I'm good at.
19:31Yeah.
19:33See,
19:35I'm seeing stuff that you're not seeing.
19:37Okay, move.
19:39I feel like if there was an Olympic trial,
19:41I would make it.
19:43Bougie penis.
19:45It's just a lot of...
19:47Looking, a lot on your feet.
19:49Oh my gosh, I like these, too.
19:51A good vagina.
19:53A lot of heavy work, you know,
19:55holding it.
19:57My wallet feels lighter, actually, as I go shopping,
19:59so we're fine.
20:01America!
20:03USA!
20:05Are you literally kidding me?
20:07Are you literally kidding me?
20:09Are you literally kidding me?
20:11Yeah, I'm obsessed. How's Colin?
20:13He's good, but
20:15he told me the other day that
20:17when he gets his relocation
20:19orders,
20:21he cannot leave
20:23when he's in training.
20:25No matter where it is? Yeah.
20:27So he can't come see me, so I'd have to go see him,
20:29and that's a bit...
20:31But the biggest thing is you can't go by yourself.
20:33How are you going to get through an airport by yourself?
20:35I'm not saying you can't go within a 10-mile radius
20:37of Mom and Dad, but I'm saying
20:39you can't even cut a fucking cucumber by yourself,
20:41let alone be left alone for 14 hours
20:43in the day and try not to
20:45bang your head off the wall 16 times
20:47while he's at work.
20:49Well, yeah.
20:51I would say that.
20:53I'm glad we agree.
20:55I come from a place of tough love,
20:57because I love her so stinkin' much,
20:59but between wanting to live on her own
21:01and suffering, excruciating anxiety
21:03when she can't go anywhere,
21:05she's got work.
21:07I have to learn how to travel,
21:09and not even for him,
21:11just for, like, what if I want to go somewhere?
21:13This is, I think, the difference, honestly,
21:15is I think my anxiety is irrational.
21:17Like, if this plane falls out of the fucking sky,
21:19what am I going to do?
21:21Do you...
21:23Beckner.
21:25Bitch, what?
21:27Are you... Beckner.
21:29Yeah, that's, like, are you not worried about Beckner?
21:31He has done throat-clearing tics.
21:33Yeah, like stuff like that.
21:35Uh, uh, uh, uh, uh, uh, uh, uh, that.
21:37Yeah.
21:39It's everyone in our family.
21:41Burke, Vickis, me, you, Sven, Beckner.
21:43And we all have different conditions.
21:45Everybody has their little antics that they do.
21:47Yes, everybody has their own antics
21:49and their own things and their own traits
21:51and their own personality,
21:53but when it becomes, like, a medical condition
21:55and a medical issue,
21:57that is when it's not an antic.
21:59You're interfering with your life.
22:01Bailyn?
22:03Those are so cute.
22:05Those are so cute.
22:07So, tic con.
22:09Are you going? Are you not going?
22:11What is your thoughts?
22:13I would really love to go.
22:15Is it the travel side that scares you?
22:17Everything.
22:19Or is it, like, picking up tics while you're there?
22:21Your mom is $9.99 for sale, on sale,
22:23at your local garage sale.
22:25Oh, that's better.
22:27We're going to go back over there.
22:29We're going to try this one on.
22:31We're going to go over here.
22:33Yeah!
22:35There you go for tic con.
22:37It's so cute, and it's sparkly.
22:39I'm wearing it.
22:41Having Tourette's can feel lonely and isolating
22:43and like you're a hostage to yourself,
22:45but I think tic con
22:47can be so beneficial for Bailyn
22:49because she is around
22:51people that are just like her,
22:53and hearing their life stories
22:55and what they've been through
22:57and shared experiences
22:59will be very helpful to her growth.
23:01You're done, you're done.
23:03Finania!
23:05What did you say, Finania?
23:07What movie is that from?
23:09They would be like Narnia,
23:11like they were on the horses.
23:13Yeah, and they'd yell,
23:15Finania!
23:17We watched it in the back of the car
23:19growing up so many times.
23:21It would do so much good on her heart
23:23if she could watch it alone.
23:25Two baldies, you're bald!
23:27We're leaving!
23:29Train's leaving the station.
23:31Chugga-chugga-chugga-chugga-chugga-chugga-chugga-chugga-choo-choo!
23:33I make no apologies, oh-uh-oh
23:37Hey, ho, hey, ho
23:41I make no apologies, oh-uh-oh
23:49Who's going to get a pee-ah?
23:51Who the heck is pee-ah?
23:53What's up? How are you?
23:55I'm good, I'm fine.
23:57Here, let me get this in the back.
23:59Uh, yeah.
24:01I'm extremely lucky to have Colin in my life,
24:03and I would say he's pretty lucky
24:05to have me too.
24:07Penis, and I would do anything for him.
24:09But after the conversation at the gym,
24:11I would still like
24:13a little bit more clarity.
24:15Suck a penis.
24:17Oh.
24:19I'm a woman and stuff.
24:21You know what, you're going to be a great baby dad.
24:23You know?
24:25Like, I'm sorry.
24:27Holy...
24:29I'm Einstein.
24:31My IQ is 190, okay?
24:33You didn't have to carry it.
24:35No, I don't need no man.
24:37Okay.
24:43How do you think Tootsie will do?
24:45I feel like Tootsie will do better
24:47than Fluffy.
24:49Do you think she'll poop?
24:51That's on you, you're due Fluffy.
24:53What?
24:55Tootsie's a daddy's girl.
24:57Tootsie is gonorrhea from Colin.
24:59Okay, okay.
25:01Holy...
25:03I did not give Tootsie gonorrhea.
25:07I honestly have no idea where that came from.
25:09No idea.
25:11Can we talk about
25:13what happened at the gym the other day?
25:15Are you talking about my relocation?
25:17Yeah, that'd be it.
25:19That'd be it.
25:21And how I can't come and see you?
25:23Yeah, is that like military protocol?
25:25You're stuck there?
25:27Yeah, because you're in training.
25:29After our first date,
25:31did I literally see you the next day?
25:33Mm-hmm.
25:35So to go a lengthy amount of time
25:37without seeing each other is kind of like
25:39built upside down,
25:41and it's going to be new territory
25:43that we're going to have to kind of figure out.
25:45I mean, I know it sucks,
25:47and I know that if we have to long distance
25:49for however long that I'm in training for,
25:51would you
25:53be willing to try to fly alone?
25:55I'd like to fly too,
25:57but I just don't know
25:59if it's as realistic
26:01as I want it to be.
26:03Anything can happen at any moment.
26:05Life isn't guaranteed.
26:07The only thing we can do
26:09is live in the moment,
26:11and I don't want to stress myself out,
26:13and I don't want to have you stressed out
26:15because it's a lot on you now.
26:17I would say since the gym,
26:19my emotions have kind of filtered a little bit
26:21because there's just so much unknown
26:23and so many what-ifs.
26:25It's just like crazy.
26:27Just let me know what you're doing
26:29when you find out what the job is.
26:31Like, I'm leaving it up to Jesus
26:33at this point.
26:35And we're going to have a good day today, ladies.
26:37Yes.
26:41Here we go.
26:51We're looking to do the
26:53self puppy wash.
26:55Get you guys set up over here.
26:57If you'd like, there's aprons right there
26:59if you want to grab an apron so you don't get soaked.
27:01It's definitely a thing.
27:03It's definitely an apron wash.
27:05All right, here we go.
27:07Oh, yeah.
27:11Is it warm?
27:13Yeah.
27:15All right.
27:17Yeah, there we go.
27:19I knew I was going to do it.
27:21I feel like I just got out of the shower.
27:23I'm sorry.
27:25She looks like a goblin.
27:27Ruff! Ruff!
27:29Ruff!
27:31Can you get Fluffy's face?
27:33Yeah.
27:35I haven't told you about Tick Con yet, right?
27:37No. What is that?
27:39It's through the Tourette's Association,
27:41and they hold this event called Tick Con,
27:43which is like a conference,
27:45and Tick is like a...
27:47Tourette's and I'm stupid.
27:49I don't know what a tick is.
27:51But I was...
27:53asked to go,
27:55and I was asked to speak on a panel.
27:57At Tick Con?
27:59Mm-hmm.
28:01That's pretty exciting.
28:03I know.
28:05Where exactly is Tick Con?
28:07It's in Dallas.
28:09Dallas, Texas.
28:11Yeah, like a convention center.
28:13But you gotta...
28:15I don't want to go on the plane.
28:17Like...
28:19Do you know who would go with you
28:21to help you to be able to navigate the airport
28:23so you don't have to do it by yourself?
28:25Probably my mom,
28:27because I don't know how people go into it
28:29other than flying.
28:31Like, how I could pick up
28:33some of their ticks.
28:35Yeah, you pick up ticks on a daily basis
28:37from anything and everything,
28:39and so I feel like
28:41it would be selling yourself short
28:43by not taking this opportunity.
28:45I mean, maybe somebody feels alone,
28:47and then you tell your story,
28:49and they feel like they aren't alone anymore.
28:51I can understand Bailyn's concerns
28:53about wanting to go to Tick Con,
28:55and I wish that I could be there
28:57to help her through it,
28:59but I have to work.
29:01But given the fact that Bailyn and I
29:03have talked about having a future together,
29:05I think trying to push through
29:07this anxiety that she has
29:09is a bigger step for her
29:11and her independence,
29:13because she's doing something
29:15that she's not necessarily comfortable with.
29:17Going into an environment like that
29:19allows you to experience
29:21other people's struggles
29:23and to just relate to everyone else,
29:25and that's your biggest thing,
29:27is that you feel like you haven't been able
29:29to really relate to anybody.
29:31This opportunity helps you
29:33to do that.
29:35So I'm going?
29:37Yeah.
29:39It makes me feel
29:41much more confident
29:43knowing that I have my parents
29:45and Colin trust me
29:47and think that I'm able to do things
29:49that I wouldn't think I'd be able to do.
29:51And you guys are going to the drying station.
29:53So I'm going to push through
29:55and I'm going to do this.
29:57Suck a penis.
30:07We know what happens
30:09when I don't sleep,
30:11my tics get really freaking bad.
30:13And you get like this manic energy, do you, Bailyn?
30:15There's such a mixture of emotions
30:17going to a tic con.
30:19Knowing what we have to come
30:21isn't going to be the easiest.
30:23I'm a little bit anxious for you.
30:39Oh, my bad.
30:41Just checking to make sure you're alive in there.
30:43Yep.
30:45Nice.
30:47What is your dynamic like
30:49as brothers?
30:51I have no idea what that means.
30:57Damn. Nice shot.
30:59Who's the best hitter?
31:01Me.
31:03I hit one over the house.
31:05Whoever in this three is going to make it to the MLB.
31:07It's definitely not going to be you.
31:09It's going to be me.
31:11Good stop, kid. Good stop.
31:13Are you going to pass up Spence?
31:15Uh, if he quits.
31:19And that won't happen,
31:21by the way.
31:23I fucking hate people.
31:25Because you're going nowhere like so.
31:27Nice.
31:29Good, Teezy.
31:33You guys are embarrassing.
31:35I know.
31:37Stretch out your back.
31:39Nope, that's done.
31:41Athleticism.
31:43Can I hit
31:45after Burke's done?
31:47Probably not, but you can if you want.
31:49Shut up.
31:51My sister sucks
31:53penises.
31:55Beckner, what do you like most
31:57about your sister, Baylin?
31:59Funny.
32:01Bay's up. I'll get Bay.
32:03I'm pitching, I'm pitching, I'm pitching, I'm pitching.
32:05She's always like
32:07the first one if somebody
32:09got hurt, she's always
32:11she's always like
32:13there to help them.
32:15Let's go. Here we go.
32:17Oh my god.
32:19That was so close to
32:21hitting me right in that ding dong.
32:25Oh my god.
32:27That was a really good hit.
32:29I'm so sorry.
32:31But thank you.
32:33You got hit with a flying ball sack.
32:35My mom has
32:37hemorrhoids.
32:59We're out of balls. We can't play anymore.
33:01I'm done playing with boys.
33:03Perfect.
33:05Are you going to throw that?
33:07I'm going to sit right here.
33:09Don't hit me.
33:13How's baseball?
33:15How's your team?
33:17We're 3-0, so we're pretty good.
33:19Do you have any games this weekend?
33:21I have one game Tuesday.
33:23If we win that, we go to States.
33:25That would be so cool if you guys won.
33:27It would.
33:29The reason why I asked is because
33:31me and mom are going to TitCon in Dallas
33:33and it takes you to your games,
33:35so I just didn't know how that would work.
33:37How long is it?
33:39It's two days.
33:41I wasn't really sure if I wanted to go,
33:43but with there people being there
33:45with tics
33:47in the same condition
33:49that I have...
33:51It would make you feel more comfortable, kind of?
33:53Yeah, it definitely would,
33:55but do you know how common
33:57it is for
33:59people to have tics?
34:01No.
34:03It's in one in every five people
34:05without even noticing that you're doing it,
34:07you're doing it.
34:09Like Burke.
34:11That's a tic.
34:13You do not have to have Tourette's
34:15to have tics.
34:17There's other tic disorders.
34:19Everyone in my family has had tics,
34:21and Beckner has already experienced
34:23a wide range of tics.
34:25It's common.
34:27Even though Tourette's can be hereditary,
34:29it's not a concern right now,
34:31but Beckner's tics
34:33are kind of like the same way
34:35as mine in a way
34:37because he's at the age
34:39where mine started.
34:41I remember you used to have
34:43like a throat-clearing tic,
34:45or if you even knew
34:47that that was a tic.
34:49No, I did not know that was a tic.
34:51Did you feel like you had to keep doing it?
34:53Kind of, yeah.
34:55It's common,
34:57but having tics
34:59doesn't mean that you have Tourette's,
35:01you know?
35:03I'm not going to put something in his head
35:05because going too much into the future
35:07and expecting what his life's going to be
35:09at 15, 16 years old is unreasonable,
35:11but it's like you need to like
35:13not bury it.
35:15You're so easygoing,
35:17and you make friends so easy,
35:19and like you're also someone
35:21I've met who's also like...
35:23Oh, you've met me?
35:25Creative.
35:27Is the word versatile?
35:29I mean, you are...
35:31I'm a piece of work.
35:33Well, yeah.
35:35I get that.
35:37electronic music plays
35:45It's like, that's your fly.
35:47Did you see?
35:49Do it again.
35:51What are we working with?
35:53What are we doing?
35:55It's a flopper?
35:57Can we do a tic-con with that?
35:59Flopper!
36:01Okay, not just this packing.
36:03Be comfortable for the plane
36:05because we're leaving
36:07like stupid early in the morning.
36:09I'm not even sleeping.
36:11Okay, I was going to say,
36:13bring yourself upstairs tight.
36:15Just make sure that you have your meds
36:17with you.
36:19It's not in case,
36:21it's so you can fall asleep on the plane.
36:23Just in case you just want
36:25to have a fun time on this flight,
36:27take your pills.
36:29It's going to be exhausted
36:31at 4 in the morning,
36:33but your anxiety will take you to...
36:35I'll be ready to go.
36:37Without my sleep pills,
36:39I'll be ready to go.
36:41You need to definitely
36:43have it for the plane.
36:45Everything that we have to come
36:47isn't going to be the easiest.
36:49Each experience at the airport
36:51is very unique,
36:53but it also has a lot of similarities
36:55in terms of expect the unexpected
36:57and just be ready for anything.
36:59We know what happens when...
37:01I don't sleep.
37:03My tics get really fricking bad,
37:05but I can't really do anything.
37:07Yeah, and then compile that
37:09with the overstimulation there
37:11and you get this manic energy
37:13to help you at least get
37:15that little bit of rest.
37:17I'm a little bit anxious for you,
37:19to be honest with you.
37:23Because I'm so anxious about flight,
37:25everything is triggering.
37:29I have a gun.
37:31Oh, good God.
37:33I have a gun.
37:43Oh, morning.
37:45It's fresh out of 5 a.m.,
37:47fresh out of bed.
37:49You're extra.
37:51It's over today.
37:53Oh, my gosh.
37:55We're going to Dallas
37:57to ticcon.
37:59Yes.
38:01Oh.
38:03You're done.
38:05Oh, gosh.
38:07You're done.
38:09That's a cop.
38:11I don't need a child, ma.
38:13Fanania!
38:15Are you nervous?
38:17Yep.
38:19Yeah, it's all right.
38:21Yeah.
38:27Penis.
38:29I need more hair.
38:33Oh, that seems to be
38:35a little busier than usual.
38:41I'm
38:43very anxious.
38:47I don't know.
38:53Mom, look at all the people here.
39:01Because I'm so anxious
39:03about flight,
39:05everything is triggering.
39:07Yep.
39:09All right, cut through.
39:19I am very, very nervous,
39:21but this has a purpose.
39:23I want to go to ticcon.
39:25I want to be involved.
39:27This is a point and part in my life
39:29where I have to start in order to get to a place.
39:37Where I'll be able to do it on my own,
39:39but I have to
39:41struggle a little bit
39:43first.
39:47This is, like, unheard of for Ronald Reagan.
39:49Oh!
39:55Nope.
39:59Not today.
40:01I just read his shirt.
40:03Oh, I was going to say, is that new?
40:05Spell lightbulb thalamus.
40:07You're bald.
40:09You're bald.
40:11You're bald.
40:13I don't like the name Mike.
40:15You're done.
40:17You're done.
40:19Your mom wears Skechers.
40:21You're bald.
40:25You're bald.
40:27You're bald.
40:29You're done.
40:31You're done.
40:33You're done.
40:35When Bailyn starts ticking like this,
40:37the best thing to do is
40:39essentially active ignorance.
40:41Hey!
40:43Get out of here, you donut!
40:45Oof!
40:47Just let her do her thing.
40:49Your dad has a vagina.
40:51Oof!
40:53Oof!
40:55Penis.
40:57Princess penis.
40:59Oof!
41:01Oof!
41:03Oof!
41:05I have a gun.
41:07Oof!
41:09I have a gun.
41:11Oof!
41:13I have a gun.
41:15Oof!
41:17My god, it's right there.
41:19Oof!
41:21Maybe try to whisper it.
41:23I have a gun.
41:25Oof!
41:27I have a gun.
41:29Oof!
41:31We're all gonna die.
41:33This is bad.
41:35Oof!
41:37Vaginas!
41:39It's raining vaginas!
41:41All right, baby, we're running out of time.
41:43I know, I'm sorry.
41:45You need to get your butt in there.
41:47I've never spoken in front of people
41:49who also have Tourette's.
41:51Hi, my name's Bailyn.
41:53I have a penis.
41:55I have a nine-inch penis.
41:57Oof!
41:59I'm concerned that she's gonna overdo herself.
42:01I need a second. Oof!
42:03You can also do more invasive processes
42:05like deep brain stimulation.
42:07So it's a brain surgery, so it is quite invasive.
42:09I have an open mind on any sort of treatment.
42:11Like, they literally drill
42:13into your head with a drill.
42:15Oh, my gosh!
42:17Yep, okay.
42:19Okay, it's okay, it's okay, you're okay.
42:21Bailyn is on the atrium floor
42:23having the worst tic attack.
42:25Hi.
42:27Nope, you're not gonna sit.
42:29She's gonna get really badly hurt
42:31if I can't hold myself together.